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skellebonez · 14 days ago

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Now that I'm mostly settled in and not constantly tired and falling asleep (barring a nap or two) from pain and pain killers, I'm gonna be catching up on what I missed on Tumblr.

Slowly.

On Thursday I find out if I need surgery! 8D

#the 8D is ironic #i am terrified of surgery #like panic attack at the idea terrified of surgery #i don't even like hospitals #so when i begged to be taken to thw hospital when i knew my ankle was broken everyone around me knew it was BAD

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impish-baby · 20 days ago

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We are agere posting today because I am getting my wisdom teeth out.. I think answering silly/simple asks would be fun if you'd like to send something in (could be about ocs or anything really!)

#we are queued up until 2pm today..#my appointment is at 4pm #i will likely answer when I'm home from surgery..#i am only slightly terrified #i am a bit (*cough* majorly *couph*) of a crybaby when it comes to pain #gonna ask if i can keep them after but i dunno if they'll let me #devil's babbles...🖍

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thedreadvampy · 8 months ago

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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

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thewallshaveeyes · 8 months ago

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How the HELL did I not share this earlier?? Anyways

#cult of the lamb #shitpost #i am so normal #cotl kallamar #cult of the lamb kallamar #cult of the lamb fanart #meme redraw #yes I gave hym trident-shaped top surgery scars that was on purpose #also I'm thinking abt adding an entirely meaningless and self-indulgent plotline to my fic just cos #but I'm terrified of it taking away from the rest of the story

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letitrainathousandflames · 1 year ago

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#me? making light of how fucking terrified i am? its more likely than u think #my polls #needle m/#surgery m/

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calista-222 · 2 years ago

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I am having A Time (And about to live one of my worst nightmares)

#my art #I am Terrified™#“I think this teeth is broke-” “FUCK YOU. GET SURGERY FOR 4 OTHER TEETH"#HHHHH #teeth stuff #not sure how to tag this bhffg #the way the dentist was so casual about it while I was straight up panicking was not fun #my mom keeps telling me not to stress so much about it but literally HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO NOT THINK ABOUT IT #crying crying crying screaming crying again etc #russian roulette of life said “repeatedly shoot this one person in particular ”#I'm very tired 🤙

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cahootings · 5 days ago

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who wants to tell me all of the times you had perfectly normal and safe experiences with twilight anesthesia so i can stop panic spiraling right now

#extended family history with a bad anesthesia reaction has me absolutely terrified of ever needing it #and i am hkdlgs;ahsd;l trying to not just cancel my entire surgery right now. i won't. i won't it'll be fine i know #but i am. scared!

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mishkakagehishka · 1 year ago

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"We're old moms, we can't wait to stop breastfeeding so we can get [very excited, shrill even] botooooox!!!"

We are never making it out of the patriarchy.

#every time i open instagram i see videos promoting botox for the moment you turn 20 and face lifts and plastic surgery #and skincare regimens that are not care at all but just fifty products to torture your skin (and spend money!!)#the ties between the patriarchy and capitalism that support one another are terrifying.#but not even that . i feel like i'm going insane #how did we in this day and age normalise so much of this shit #what happened to feminism... why am i seeing a man who works as a plastic surgeon #talking about ''when a client walks in and i know EXACTLY what she needs to change so i am able to get her to #sign up for four more procedures asides from the one she came here for ^_^'' i'm going to kill you.#beat you with rocks. do you guys know botox is a bacteria? do you guys know about botulism?#you throw away a can of food because it's slightly dented so you don't die from botulism #but you inject it straight into your forehead because someone told you signs you #lived a long life full of expressing your emotions guilt-free was what made you ugly #the way i see influencers who will call themselves feminists talk about those wrinkle-free straws... don't sleep on your side #don't breathe wrong don't crease your eyebrows don't smile don't cry don't drink from straws #you're all fucking insane. and wrinkles are caused by your skin losing elasticity. you will STILL have wrinkles #if you live long enough that is (<- can you see why it's a blessing?)

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jettoooooo · 8 months ago

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i'm so fucking stressed out

#dude my dog had acl repair surgery in march #she's healed fine with that but developed stomach issues #so she's been back and forth to the vet with that #and now when i was at work she just randomly started walking weird as fuck. she kicks her leg that was operated on backwards as she walks #and sometimes looses balance in both legs #and then when i pick her up she acts like it hurts her spine or something #i'm gonna wake up in 4 hours to call the vet and see if they can see us today and pray that this isn't something that she'll need surgery #for again #i also am supposed to work tomorrow and then friday we have a rehearsal dinner and then saturday the wedding which is two hours away.#vets closed on sunday so if she can't get seen tomorrow it'll be a whole new fiasco trying to get her helped somewhere else #this dog is my lifeline like it #ruins me #seeing her like this #genuinely if i didn't have her i wouldnt be here #it's so hard to watch her not even be able to walk #but it's so fuckinf weird bc my mom said she was just laying in her bedroom and she came back out doing it? there's nothing she could've #gotten into it just makes no fuckinf sense #like it's possible either her kneecap or her acl implant thing popped out of place but #she stiffens her entire body when i pick her up #and she acts like she's losing balance #it's so fucking weird #i'm also terrified that i'm about to get told she has some kind of onset of neurological problems and she'll have to get put down #or something along those lines #it's just too much rn #pls keep my doggy in ur thoughts #we just spent 3k on her surgery in march if she has to get operated on again first of all the recovery process all over again sounds like #a nightmare #but just the cost alone #i'm gonna FUCKING KILL MYSELF

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grave-gift · 23 days ago

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I'm having top surgery on friday. i'm so incredibly anxious it's unreal. i know logically it is what i want (have wanted it unconditionally for a decade) but my concerns about recovery and aesthetics and 1000 other things is really overshadowing that right now

doesn't help that my fiance had to go back to school already (different country) so my parents are taking care of me and i don't want that for about 100 reasons (that are all minor, my parents are good folks). i'm just sad he (fiance) can't be here to comfort me and do the very intimate care tasks that will be required.

anyways. any encouragement or reassurance would be appreciated.

#tate.txt #giving up nipple sensation is like. it's a lot for me. it'll be fine but i would rather keep the nipple sensation #my surgeon isn't really good at fishmouth or t anchor i don't like the results when he does them so #DI it is I think but I am sad #not to mention I'm like. god idk it's been years but I'm probably at least a D cup #so. DI is probably all that's feasible anyways #but yeah idk #ugh #he's a good surgeon but i'm still terrified of being butchered #AND WAKING UP DURING SURGERY #and having a sore throat after #also I'll be on my period #and being grumpy and uncomfortable with my dad as my caregiver whos not a very patient man #he loves me he just won't know what to do with me bitching and moaning dfvjbfkdf #ugh ugh ugh #it'll be worth it #but dear god #top surgery #transmasc

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bunnyboy-juice · 1 month ago

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also re: prev rb & tags- i am not a Feedism blog[tm] clearly nor is my blog pivoting to be About Feedism. and frankly its a very intimate kink for me so chances are the only ppl I'd ever play with that about are people who i intend on having more intimate dynamics with (like my wife, who is my full time Dom < 3). but i really do have a new appreciation for it and i wanted to talk about it a little also c:

#im also mushy about food & intimacy & kink rn as im in recovery and my wife is helping me by cooking for me #ND encouraging me to eat and rest and be the “lazy slob” (something i am terrified of and often overwork myself about bc I've been fat my #almost entire life and even at my worst with my ED i was still. average sized/larger than my peers) i Need 2 be to recover from this surgery #and im having a wonderful time being her little fat happy pet right now c:#(also i do not actually think *i* am a Lazy Slob for resting. but MOST straight size / thin folks think i am to the point that IN MY POST #SURGERY PAPERWORK WHERE THEY ARE TELLING ME I NEED TO LIMIT MY ACTIVITY FOR 6 WEEKS THEY PUT A REFERRAL FOR WLS 🙃)

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angelstrawbabie420 · 11 months ago

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ive been so sick i hatte this

#it’s just bc im on my period but ive felt so fucking shitty all ive done is slept #also my ankle fucking hurts but i can’t afford to see a dr and im also fucking terrified of needing surgery (likely)#oh hoho i am doing just fine!!!!!!

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dashofmonsters · 11 months ago

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Surgery update

Well it went well sort of... No complications and I'm on a fast mend. My only complaint is that one of my meds is giving me terrible insomnia and I hate it.

I have three more doses of this stuff and I honestly cannot wait to not need it! First I was dizzy then I was super tired and now I can't sleep!

Also my jaw is super sensitive and my baby is currently in the "slap your face for funsies" stage so yeah... that's been fun. Also they had pried my mouth open so wide that the corners are a fucking mess right now and I feel gross every time I eat because they crack.

Any who, all in all aside from the post op blues, I think everything went well and I'm hoping the bone graphing takes well and fast so I can get my implants.

#dental surgery sucks #thank god I was knocked the fuck out #lucky to have such a great dentist tbh #even though I am fucking terrified of the dentists #like something about having needles in my mouth freaks me out #personal dash stuff

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heavenlyeros · 2 years ago

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lion sprout !

(i made this ages ago and didn’t get to post it before the end of spring . . . i have a lovely neighbour who keeps the most beautiful little garden. she is in her 90s and very inspiring. i like to watch her tend to her rose bushes from my window. i’ve been trying to hang out with her more frequently. it sparks joy and i love hearing her talk about her plants. i hope she finds the company enjoyable too... i am teaching her about succulents, which is the only kind of plant i can claim any sort of expertise on. i have a few baby ones to gift her once they get a little stronger. i originally made lion sprout for her, she has one she can hang in the garden)

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soaringonblackwings · 2 months ago

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I have been feeling ill all year and it is because of my gallbladder. Which I have to get removed.

#I am absolutely terrified of surgery #it’s not happening anytime soon because I have no money #yeah that’s the update

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goblingirlpicnic · 1 year ago

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Olive’s girl rant 👉👈😵‍💫

So like idk abt y’all but bottom surgery has been on my mind a lot recently. I find that when I get into a bad mental space my dysphoria like gets much more in my face if that makes sense.

Like I’m not even sure where I stand on wanting it, like it’s terrifying and like I don’t think I could handle it but also like it’s the end goal of transitioning for me. I think it is at least, I’m still trying to figure out my next step in my transition and like what I need to get there.

Idk like I think I’m just overwhelmed with life and my brain is kinda putting more stuff on top of it.

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