#personal dash stuff

[dashofmonsters]

After all these years...

So since I was young I've had a hard time exercising or going from cold to hot or hot to cold and so on.

I had doctors, coaches, and family dismiss me saying whatever was going on was normal or that I'm a hypochondriac.

I knew something wasn't right and I knew something wasn't normal but I got too used to being dismissed and told that my issue was all in my head and decided to stop chasing after an answer.

Well recently I started going to a pretty good doctor and decided to give this issue one last go.

HE KNEW EXACTLY WHAT WAS WRONG!

He listed off every symptom and how I triggered the reaction and you know what guys?

I'm allergic to getting overheated.

Triggers: exercising, spicy food, stress, hot showers & baths, and going from a cold environment to a warm one.

What happens if I get overheated: pain and hives, it sucks

I am so glad that I got this figured out and that it's treatable ;u;

[dashofmonsterspublishing]

Trying so hard to get back into writing the first draft again. I got hit hard by STUFF so I'm trying to bounce back and set ~Healthy Boundaries~

It's also been crazy since things are snapping in and out of place and it's like "if it's not one thing it's another" right now.

Like I got my teeth fixed but now my foot has been hurt for three weeks straight and I didn't do anything to it so *shrugs*

Honestly trying to push past survival mode and into living mode is much more challenging than people care to admit. And trust me, I am tired of just surviving. Just barely being able to make it.

I started journaling as part of a healthy therapeutic way of going through my emotions and setting some simple goals and boundaries for myself and others. I've been spreading myself thin for way too long and I'm just done.

I have this unhealthy view of perfection that my grandmother fostered in me when I was growing up and through journaling I've realized how bad it is.

Online, here on Tumblr I feel like I can be real and not judged as harshly like I am in real time with people I know which kind of is nice, kind of sucks. Like wow, how bad did I screw myself over that I am too scared to make mistakes and let people know it?

That's kind of what I'm going through right now and it's something else. Like I'm taking steps back and telling myself to stop living in a land of delulu and get it the fuck together whenever I feel myself overreacting or getting overwhelmed by tiny little things.

It's not easy and if I'm being honest it's annoying XD like I'm just done. Done being sad, done walking in eggshells, and done with feeling disrespected either by myself or others.

Dug my hole now I gotta climb out lol

[mamawasatesttube]

BTW... PSA.... even if we arent mutuals if youre in my notes regularly theres a Very high chance i am still fond of you. yes im vaguing someones tags on the compliment the person u rbed this from post. but like. positive vaguing? THE POINT IS im weird abt following ppl but IM STILL SENDING U FOND VIBES...

[dashreads]

Gonna go to the bookstore for the first time in years and I'm bringing my darling baby boy. Gotta get this kid more books, I nearly have chicka chicka boom boom memorized. He's got a nice little library already but I want to fill up his shelves! I'm so happy my little guy already likes being read to more than TV. To be fair though he ignores the TV and just likes hearing us talk to him.

So I gotta buy him some books, like really good ones and fun ones.

[serendippertyy]

If you're still taking the requests, could I ask for flutterdash with E2?

tiny dash ftw 💙💛

[lovelyscourge]

Look at you, a pretty head all empty. Come here, sit between my legs, dumb little things like you need to be safe. And get dumber, drooly and fuzzy. You don't have to use that silly brain right now, little dove. Mommy will do the thinking for you.

[swoleas]

since im in a complaining mood

i wish anders fans didn't claim his actions at the end of the game were righteous and justified rather than the selfish acts they actually are

it's one thing to enjoy a character in spite of their flaws. and it's another altogether to actively make other fans uncomfortable by claiming the bombing of a religious building is actually justice

White liberals whose only view on religious institutions is people protesting against gay rights your experiences are NOT universal. the vast majority of violence against religious buildings is rooted in white nationalism and colonialism. it is violence against black churches, against mosques, against synagogues that actually happens in the real world

and even if someone bombed a white church it still wouldn't be justified.

your favorite character is allowed to do things you don't necessarily agree with and still be your fave. that's what's great about fiction. it's not real.

anders was hurting and he was spurred on by the spirit of justice entwined with his sense of identity. during the game you see him nearly lose himself and attack innocent mages because justice has become more reactionary and more violent.

just because anders says that the spirit inhabiting him is justice doesn't make his actions just. everything he did he did it for himself and was not thinking about The Cause(tm) nor was he thinking of other mages when he did it. when you unironically go around saying that all anders actions were justified you're throwing real people under the bus.

[averlym]

fairest of the fair

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

Not me genuinely in a dilemma of whether or not I should block someone just for one absolutely ASS take even though it literally won't make a difference from their POV

[kyouka-supremacy]

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[dashofmonsters]

My son, my precious baby boy... He just ate a piece of lemon, and I mean the whole piece. Skin and all...

He took a big bite out of it like a fucking apple...

Little dude is too powerful

[lilybug-02]

Lily how do I pack to move out??? I can’t take all my plushies with me gajdishwkqowjdb

It's gonna be okay. You just have to ration them out like I did with my Godzilla things. I now have two Godzilla shrines in separate houses. <3 im a happier person because of it.

Moving is so hard man.

[dashreads]

Starting my kiddo's library

Is it too soon to start building my kiddo's library? Maybe, possibly, and yes, most likely.

I don't even know when kids start really understanding written text, I think like 6 or 7 but I've seen some early developers as an ex tutor.

Still going to read my kiddo the classics like Stone Soup and Dragons Love Tacos. The art is some of my favorite things about kid books and no joke, I'd hold onto these like family heirlooms like my grandmother's friend did. I'd gift these books as treasures to relatives with kids (at least to the relatives who can teach their kids the difference between a reading book and a coloring book, well that is unless they're annotating XD)

So little by little I'll start buying up books, more than I have already been so that he can have options. So he can run up to me with two maybe three books asking if I can read to him and maybe to teach him a few more words.

I'll take him to libraries and bookstores so he can pick out what he wants me to read or for me to teach him to read. I'll take him to story times and let him ponder over which books he really really wants.

I want to share my rainy reading days with him just as much as I want to share the wild sunshiny days where he'll no doubt run around getting dirty.

[nerdetiquette]

As much as I love the ending for Juno and as much as I cried over it, I think I would’ve preferred it if there was no implication of Nureyev coming back. Like I like the ship, but this was about Juno, and I feel adding him back in even if he doesn’t speak, takes away from that. I get why they did it, not having something would’ve led to riots, but I’m sad that what I’m seeing in my dash is just jupeter and no love for the rest of the episode. We got so many other characters to wrap this up, and it’s just about Nureyev

[gatheredfates]

Kinda tempted to chuck out a looking for followers post because I know there's a tonne of new people in the community and I... want to find them...

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

arisugu . if u even care