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A printer on a wobbly table

It's annoying enough as is but now it's gotta be my doom?!?!

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(Part 1? lol)This got more ridiculous than I intended but here we are, a little rujinu aquarium date shenanigan inspired by @galaxyspeaking ‘s great aquarium date concept! I have a part 2 sketched out that’s more romantic and sappy but we’ll see if and when I get to it 🐠

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I was pregnant XD

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Update:

She came out super healthy and I hardly had to do any work XD

Little lady has a full head of hair and a great set of pipes because that is not a baby cry, that is a straight up war cry she's got going on lol. We all had a good laugh because during my entire pregnancy I was told she was going to be a big baby only for her two be two ounces smaller than her brother was when he was born XD

She's a precious little baby and I'm so happy that my cousin is the one adopting her. My daughter is going to have a super big family and she's going to get a lot of love from a lot of people.

Tomorrow's the big day y'all!

But I still feel like 6AM is way too early to ask someone to go to a hospital to get poked and prodded with needles and wait to give birth. Maybe 8AM, seems more reasonable for a Thursday

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Lol the universe heard me and my hospital called and said that they're currently too full to take me and will call when something is available

Tomorrow's the big day y'all!

But I still feel like 6AM is way too early to ask someone to go to a hospital to get poked and prodded with needles and wait to give birth. Maybe 8AM, seems more reasonable for a Thursday

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Tomorrow's the big day y'all!

But I still feel like 6AM is way too early to ask someone to go to a hospital to get poked and prodded with needles and wait to give birth. Maybe 8AM, seems more reasonable for a Thursday

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Hi hope you're doing okay I really love your writing and I was wondering if you'll ever continue writing midnight oceans ?

Probably not till next year?

I'm about to pop out a baby soon and some other fun stuff...

Trust me I'd like to return to writing soon but it's just not in the stars right now

I plan to go back and start working from older projects to newer ones just so I can close out of those story lines for good. A lot of the characters I created at the start of this blog were born from different life circumstances and I think it's time to give them their endings.

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Hiatus update & personal rant

Getting close to having this little bundle of joy in the next couple of weeks which means I am overloading myself once again.

I've been feeling kind of guilty lately for hardly even thinking about my unfinished stories and leaving them just in limbo but I cannot say with confidence when I will return to them.

Right now I'm giving myself some grace that I just got a heavy curve ball thrown at me and I can only do so much in one day but I still fell guilty :/

I know that with how things are at the moment I can't even begin to factor in certain hobbies and enjoyments in my life until next hear since I have to configure healing , work, and being there for my family above all else.

I'm currently spiraling without anyone else really being fully aware of it either so if I take on one more thing I might actually lose my marbles and break down. I'm trying to to take steps to manage it but I feel myself crumbling under the tremendous load of having to take care of everything and being expected to do so with a smile and without complaining. I'm looking into therapy because I realized there are people in my life or who have been in my life who messed with me so bad mentally that I forgot that the word No is an option. I was raised to be a people pleaser until I became so miserable that I started hating myself. I grew independent for some time and felt great but now I have people in my life abusing the fact that I'm a good person who just wants to do the right thing and help so of course my boundaries are being stepped all over.

Because of this, I'm going to start being a little more unavailable to these people. They like to talk and have a bit of an ego issue on a good day so I think I just need to involve myself in my own bubble again and stop caring. I'm also going to be a bit more brutal with them since the word No isn't in their vocabulary I have to use longer more complicated styles of communication for them to understand that I'm human, the internet speed is shit, and that they can't have what they want when they want it all the fucking time.

I realize that in the in I allowed this to happen because I have this need to prove myself and that I'm worth it. In the end I know that there are going to be people in my life who will only care so much about me or not at all. I can't keep holding onto hope that if I prove my worth that they'll like me more or care for me just a tiny bit more so.

At the end of the day I'm hurting myself because of expectations that I have created for these people. It's not fair to me or to them because at the end of the day I know that they'll never care about me in the way I need them to.

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Do you know how your parents met?

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Little one waited to give me all the bad parts of pregnancy till the very end and she is fucking stacking them up. Making up for lost time with the heaviest dose of morning sickness I have ever fucking had on top of me trying to spend some quality time with my son.

Like I have had perfect energy all pregnancy long and now I can hardly keep my eyes open at work. Food aversion have been low and now there's like a list of things she won't let me eat. Morning sickness was occasional and gone after a quick trip to the bathroom but now it lingers for hours on end. Braxton Hicks contractions are now a fucking thing too and those false alarms are scary when you get your first one grocery shopping.

Also moving around too much (bouncing my fucking leg) also makes me nauseous.

I AM SO DONE BEING PREGNANT

JULY CANNOT COME SOON ENOUGH

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If you get live ones be careful, it might become an obsession...

get 🥺 men 🥺 flowers 🥺

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I know toddlers are supposed to be curious and push boundaries but at what point is too much?

Is it dipping the broccoli from wonton soup into milk?

Or

Dipping pizza into juice?

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My kid has renamed one of his Richard Scarry books to "Spiky Nori" it's literally a mash up of the four characters introduced in the beginning. He will not go grab this book if you request it by its correct name.

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Trying so hard not to laugh when my little one drops a cuss word at the top of his lungs, easy.

Trying not to get embarrassed when he yells at the wall of soap at the grocery "Dope" because he can't pronounce the letter S, that... that's a lot harder

Oh and everyone is uncle and everything is No.

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Soooo yeah my legs are in pain from 2 days of waking up with butt to toe cramps and the cooling gel I applied is helping like 47% of the pain but it's so weird. My right leg is suffering the most from a herniated disc but my left leg decided to join the party yesterday at 3AM but instead of it being like the muscles under and around the knee it decided to choose violence and also cause pain to my shin. BTW I HAVE CHRONIC SHIN SPLINTS ALREADY SO THIS SUCKS EVEN MORE

I'm probably going to start looking into options for surgery for this because I doubt physical therapy can fix this shit at this point