#i am still currently messing up

[myg0thb1tchcamewitagl0ck]

im think im falling in love with my coworker, who is in downbad for my friend, but she has a bf...

the whole situation is messed upppp but let me explain

important context: im f, 17, said coworker is m, 21, my friend is f 17, a few months younger than i. i turn 18 this month. i usually only date women, so this (being downbad for some GUY?) is lowkey crazy. im also a lover girl thru nd thru, nd I have never had a casual fling, only life ruining relationships that usually end poorly for me because im attracted to rly shitty ppl.

so. theres this guy at work ive recently gotten so super close with, let's call him danny. we have very similar tastes in music, shows, humor, hes very compassionate, and funny and super cute (multiple girls at work think this unfortunately). we both like horror and conspiracy theories and books and yapping and video games and other cultures (he likes the women, I like the languages and history LOL). we worked together for a while before we started talking, but we started a few weeks ago nd havent stopped since. unfortunately what I found out is that he really likes this girl at work, lets call her jen. jen is my ethnicity, and she's a lot prettier than me. she's gorgeous and super funny, and gullible asf, she's everything I am but a thousand times more. her personality is addictive, and I can see why he likes her. she's quickly becoming one of my closest friends, as were both currently seniors at our local highschool.

this brings up the first complication: the age gap. danny would never do anything until either of us are 18 that much is clear- he is not Diddy.

complication 2: unfortunately for danny, even after jen turns 18, she currently has a boyfriend who she loves. however, said bf is super duper awful, an embarrassment to boyfriends everywhere, and I know danny thinks he could treat jen better. ive been friends with girls like jen before, I think that relationship probably still will last another year and a half, even tho ive tried to tell her to wake up nd break up like everyone else in her life.

complication 3: mine and dannys friendship started pretty innocently. I was trying to get with another coworker, a girl, and I was trying to help Danny and jen get together. so now I'm struggling tryna figure out how to move myself out of the friend zone to the "hey shes a possible romantic interest" zone without ruining our friendship

complication 4: I don't know that he is even attracted to me. I'm his type on paper, hispanic and a little bit emo, but I weigh significantly more than jen, and that definitely makes her more attractive to him. he's never dated a heavier person as far as I can tell, and I fear that's one of the biggest things in the way right now (literally and figuratively). I don't know, does weight matter that much to guys? for me personally size doesn't matter but I figure that's not the case for everyone..?? also even if that's not a factor, attraction isn't as simple as being someone's "type". if he's just not into me, that's hard to get past right?

[escargoonie-goo]

They homies it's cool

[absoloutenonsense]

Coming soon…

'cause I want you (for the worse and for the better) by nonsensedarling

When Louis gets invited along to Anne's wedding, Harry is prepared to let people think whatever they want about their relationship. That's what Louis said -- let people think whatever they want. That all changes when Louis sees his ex, who turns out to be Anne's future husband's son. Now, Louis wants to prove that he's an omega that an alpha could want, and Harry wants to get through this weekend without letting his best friend figure out he's in love with him.

Written for the @1daboficfest -- posted here! Moodboard by @dearlou

Read a snippet below the cut!

They walk into the restaurant at 7:02pm, and are promptly guided down a set of stairs into the lower-level party room. 

From the doorway, Harry can see his mom and future stepdad, talking to a couple of younger guys – a dark-haired alpha and a blonde omega from the looks of it. They all laugh and his mom goes in to give one of them a hug while John clasps the other on the shoulder. That must be John’s son and the boyfriend Harry’s heard them talk about. 

Harry takes a deep breath, smoothes out his shirt, and reaches for Louis’ hand, ready to walk in and muscle his way through this weekend.

But Louis doesn’t take his hand. Instead, he grabs onto Harry’s wrist and yanks him in the opposite direction. 

“What?” Harry asks, stumbling a bit as he’s pulled. 

Louis doesn’t say anything, just gets to the restroom area and shoves Harry inside one of the single-room bathroom. 

“Ouch,” Harry says, shaking out his wrist. He watches Louis lock the door and whip around with wild eyes and frown lines etched into his face. “Louis, what the fuck? We’re already lat–”

“Will is here,” he says. 

Harry furrows his brows, unsure what that is supposed to mean. “Will…?”

“Will,” Louis says frustratedly. He looks to the door as he adds, “Will. My ex-boyfriend, Will. Will, who broke up with me after three months because he thought I was too loud and too clingy and too much.” He turns back around to Harry to emphasize, “Will!” 

Harry gasps. Ex-boyfriend Will, who refused to meet Harry because he didn’t like that Louis had an alpha best friend. “Dickhead Will?” 

“Dickhead Will,” Louis agrees. “Fuck. Fuck.” He reaches up and grabs fistfuls of his hair. 

What are the odds that Louis’ ex-boyfriend from Oakland is here in Sacramento now, working at the one restaurant where his mom’s rehearsal dinner is?

“Hey, it’s okay.” Harry steps close, and tries to pull Louis’ hands down from his hair, but they don’t budge. “We can ignore him, yeah? It’s just toni–”

“He was hugging your mom,” Louis interrupts. 

Harry is confused. He shakes his head immediately, ready to say that no, that was his future stepdad’s son – when it clicks.

“William,” Harry says.

“Yes,” Louis says, annoyed, finally pulling his hands down from his hair. “Will is often short for William. Very good, Harold.”

“No. John’s son is named William,” he explains. “He’s John’s best man. They’ve been talking about William and Dimitri – his boyfriend.”

Louis pales. “Jesus Christ.”

“Okay, it’s okay,” Harry says, looking around the room like the sink or toilet will tell him how to handle this. “We’ll just… avoid them.”

The look Louis gives him is unimpressed to say the least. “Avoid them?” he asks, voice filled with mirth. “You –also in the wedding and the co-person of honor with your sister– want to try and avoid another person in the wedding party?”

Harry inhales, his shoulders slowly rising up to his ears as he closes his eyes. “I don’t know, Louis, I’m trying to think of what will make this easier on you. I’m not sure how affectionate they are, but I don’t want you having to see it the whole weekend.”

Harry opens his eyes when he feels hand digging into his shoulders. Louis gives him a little shake, eyes still wild but frown lines mostly unetched. 

“That’s it!” he exclaims.

“What’s it?”

“Affection!”

Humming uncertainly, Harry says, “Affection?”

Louis shakes him again. “Yes.” He looks over Harry’s shoulder as he continues. “That bastard called me clingy, and basically told me an alpha wouldn’t be able to put up with it.” He locks eyes with Harry again. “I can show him I did find an alpha who not only puts up with it, but loves it.”

[nerdie-faerie]

Just when I think the day's going well, I crash a golf cart

[hannie-dul-set]

hello good fucking morning.

[125storejuice]

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[fereldanwench]

im so glad this is my last day of work for the week and i have monday off

this week has been ROUGH

[ray935sworld]

Saw someone call half moon croissant of the sky and I can't keep that for myself

[orcelito]

Despite all odds, I have arrived home safely👍

Turns out that the earlier goop was the better goop. The adderall goop. The adderall has worn off now though. So I am. Very incredibly out of it.

But I am home. And I will take my quick shower. And then I will climb into bed.

I do need to eat. But... later...

[grymmdark]

having to write my deadname for the first time in years feels so weird. like I'm so far removed from that name that it just feels like im lying when i say it's my name. not in a bad or distressing way i just have no personal connection to that name whatsoever so it feels like im committing fraud

[strangledlullaby]

a strangled red hc i have is that steven and mikes parents are not present because they travel a lot to other regions for their jobs and as a result mike chose to not become a pokemon trainer when he was younger because he didnt want to leave steven alone (then when steven becomes a pokemon trainer he suggests that mike could come with him since he does feel a bit bad about mike missing out on it initially)

[stellacadente]

i realized how much it scares me that my mind will convince itself of even the ugliest things if i start thinking them often enough and it's... yeah. like i had a good session with my psychiatric rehabilitation therapist i think it was very useful but then at the end i got hit by this feeling of fear... like i'm so scared of myself and how low i can get

[darkkitty1208]

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[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

When I was making my first trying-to-be-serious ocs it was in the start of the 2010s (and I mean the START, 2010-2012) and there was a big “anti Mary-sue” movement on deviantart (the website I spent half my internet time on and was posting my art on) and I liked to make my character designs pretty extra (although compared to modern stuff they look pretty normal) so I started to get self-conscious. At the time though I was watching soul eater (and there was another thing I’m forgetting and it’s really frustrating me) and I saw that it was popular with a cool art style and the characters were extra AF, so I was like “okay. Maybe, as long as I can draw my character often and consistently it doesn’t matter if they are wild!” and you know what? Early teen me was RIGHT. Not about many things, but about this in particular she was!

[fennopunk]

It's exhausting trying to explain to people I need help on doing certain tasks, not because I don't KNOW how to do them, but because my brain is wired weirdly, and I need someone present so I can do them myself

It's especially annoying when it's stuff like "how to do X in computer/internet" and not only am I from the generation that was actually taught how to use computers in school, I have goddamn certificate on it AND AN ENTIRE FUCKING DEGREE THAT REQUIRES COMPETENCE WITH COMPUTERS.

[lokilysolbitch]

my roommate (has covid) offering to take me to the store when they're still contagious is craziness

(old draft)