#i am sooo gone for them i cant

[riickgrimes]

THE WALKING DEAD: THE ONES WHO LIVE 1.03 — "Bye"

[suntails]

I’m going to paint you a picture of modern communication, and how it is fundamentally broken.

Let’s look at one friend. You chat pretty much everyday, and mostly talk to this person on twitter and discord, with occasional tumblr DMs. That’s three places you talk. But that’s actually not true, because you also have each other’s priv twitters and talk there as well. That’s four. Now account for, let’s say, one post reply per account per person, in addition to your DMs. That’s eight. But that’s ALSO not true, because not only do you talk in discord DMs with each other, but you’re in a friend group server as well! And you talk in those channels together! That’s nine.

This is one friend.

Now look around you. How many friends, how many mutuals are you in contact with. A few, a handful, a dozen, more? How many accounts per person do you have, how many places can you send each other posts, devolve into separate topics and conversations? How many people text you as well. Friends, family, coworkers? What do you do day to day around catching up, what IRL commitments will rip you away long enough to let the pile build again?

I can’t do it. I cannot live an actual life in the real world and balance this much interaction, it’s crushing. I reply to a friend’s post because I’m interested in the subject, I want to have a discussion! I WANT to talk about it with them, but I immediately kick myself for adding another conversation to the pile. Day by day, I ignore messages for hours on end and watch mountains pile around me, to reply en masse at the end of the night to let the cycle repeat. I wake up to six discord DMs and as I clear the third, the first replies back again.

We weren’t meant to have thirty simultaneous conversations. We weren’t. And you know in your bones that the number isn’t an exaggeration.

[boobliker42069]

cannot describe the specific type of horrific world ending empty loneliness of all of your friends visiting each other in other states and having fun silly times while you are stuck in your parents house and you have to go to work every day and your one friend also works every day and it SUCKS

[xviruserrorx]

I don't understand why people get frustrated at things they knew were gonna happen because someone else is chronically I'll and it's happened multiple times before so it's not like it's new, like oh yeah sorry for existing like this

[jealousmartini]

List of things I am excited to experience in my K-pop idol dr(s) !

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💭 — CONCERTS AND CROWD WORK

I FORGOT TO ADD SOMETHING HERE☠️☠️

Doing crowd work with my fans while performing is SUCH A DREAM FOR ME OMG. That's like one my main reasons I'm excited to have a concert because I want to interact with my audience; exchanging glances, throwing stuff for one of them to have and of course performing at my best.

🍊 — COLLABS AND HANGOUTS

Okay okay, I know I have yapped in the past about being excited to meet BTS, but first, let me name a list of groups/idols I am so hyped to be in a 2-foot radius of because sometimes a girl cant help but shriek at the thought of them🙈:

NEWJEANS ||

I FUCKING LOVE THESE GIRLS SO MUCH NO ONE GETS IT. Just a little fun fact, MKB(my own gg) is considered to be like an older sister gg to NEWJEANS because they are both famous 5 member girl groups. Some people even say that NEWJEANS' aesthetic is like a younger sister to MKB's; even though MKB isn't all that "mature" it does give off an older sister feel in contrast to NEWJEANS' AND ITS SOOO CUTEEE😭😭

WONYOUNG — IVE ||

In my dr, Me and Wony are really good friends, and we have each others contacts. I've gone to battle for her in my tiktoks and tweets against antis (I am very much popular for this too since it's considered controversial to speak out in defence for another idol and she isn't the only idol I've fought for😭😭) cus she's literally the sweetest idol ever?? I actually love her to death.

CHAEYOUNG, NAYEON, SANA, MOMO, JIHYOU — TWICE ||

In my opinion all of TWICE is so cute and I freaking love them all, but I am closest to these five. They're some of my closest girl friends because they were the first friends i made (other than my members lmao) and I love them all so much please I can't wait to meet them (especially since MKB and TWICE both exist under JYP so we're basically always hanging out)

BTS ||

No, because you guys. the dating, fighting and relationship rumours that are gonna be floating around me are gonna be CRAZYY cus of how many frequent interactions I have with the group/ the members individually and how much i talk about them because I am SO down bad for them PLEASE (but we can't let them and army know you guys shhh🤫) and I also just be having the LOUDEST MOUTH EVER🏃🏾‍♀️🏃🏾‍♀️

But aside from how badly I want each and every one of them, Me and MKB are super cool friends with BTS; usually, 1 or 2 of us will visit them for whatever reason needed and whatever occasion like watching them behind the scenes, sometimes, we will appear on their lives in person or on phone (cus we have each others contacts😝🤞🏾), we always wish them happy birthday (as they do back to us), and few times some of us will make special appearances on their game challenges on RUN BTS too.

Also, I'd say I'm closest to being with Jungkook, Jimin, Namjoon, and Taehyung- BUT I get along very well with Yoongi, Jin, and Hoeseok too. I just hangout with those 4 the most out of all of them. [EDIT// Actually I do hang out with Jin too what am I talking about]

STRAYKIDS AND ATEEZ ||

More hot men. Idk what to say more about this LMAO😭😭

💭 — LIVESTREAMS AND BIRTHDAYS

MKB is most infamous (other than our music of course) for our ridiculous lives. But my favourite kind of live is the birthday one. The moment of appreciation and love sent from fans and the celebration from my family members and staff is so precious and important to me. The thought into the gifts and the messages mean so much more to me than what anyone could imagine and it gives so much meaning to birthdays because they are so important to me.

🍊 — PRODUCING, FILMMAKING AND BTS

I have always been a big music nerd and my urge to produce music for a loving and interested fanbase makes me feel so warm. it's just what my silly little heart was made to do.

I have also been super interested in being involved with the work behind the scenes , not just being in the scenes of our music videos. I really want to have a say in what the concept of the video to match the music will look like, the outfit ideas, the hidden lore in the videos. It's just such a dream come true for me, and I'm even excited for whatever travelling needs to be done, too.

💭 — STUPID SPECULATIONS/RUMOURS ?

Being nosey and attention seeking is a deadly combo. Always gotta know something, always gotta be talked about somehow (and I usually prefer the fake dating allegations cus they're just so funny and sometimes cute depending on who I'm being shipped with lol)

🍊 — FOOD

I am THE BIGGEST foodie there is I swear. I have always craved and cried to eat real Korean (and East asian) food without thinking about my money or my skin as well as usual meals too and as much as I want (because I scripted my manager let's me eat anything I want since I don't gain weight (I scripted this for all idols tbh cus I just want to see wony eat SOMETHING😭🙏🏾))

💭 — V.I.P STUFF

When I say VIP stuff, I mainly mean 1st class vacations and trips. I freaking LOVE exploring and travelling.. ON LAND. When I shift though, this will be my first time flying on a plane and I'm kinda excited, kinda frightened. I have a slight fear of heights so I'm gonna have to brave through it and try not to throw up or something.

🍊 — FANMADE GIFTS (fanimations, fanfictions, fan art, real life gifts, fan edits, etc.)

I am so freaking hyped for this stuff you guys stop. One of my main love languages is gift giving and receiving, and I already get so hyped when I get a gift on a random day from a family memeber😭😭.

The fan edits and fanfiction are gonna be crazy tho omg the ships..😭😭😭 (I WILL be looking out for the ship fanfics best believe.)

💭 — GOOGLEBOX BUT ITS KPOP IDOLS

"STOP TALKING ABOUT GOOGLEBO-" STFU AND LISTEN HOE🤬

Okay, so before I explode for excitement, I had this idea to make take the Googlebox celebrities and make a K-pop idols edition, and it couldn't be more perfect. Of course, you might be worried about how little privacy and time to myself off camera I may have now that I've added this into my dr, but never worry!

I scripted MKB to get 2 weeks to a month long breaks depending on stuff like exhaustion, injuries, meeting families, or just having a well-deserved vacation. I also scripted that our fanbase is very respectful of our space and don't bombard us if we're spotted in public.

Edit: O.m.g applies to all the things I said about MKB too guys I just cba editing everything add o.m.g in rn

@4ellieluv @cocozydiaries @samara444 @theshifterbear @livingmydreamlife5555

[bitchytwinkcore]

something i cant get over (and could talk about for yonks) is how immensely relatable the pines twinsx2 are to me,, like ALL of them

dipper - awkward, trying to impress people (especially a cool girl), wanting people to not treat him like a baby, insecure of himself

mabel - literally acts how i did when i was 8-12 (people found me repulsive), acts silly and people take that seriously even tho shes literally just trying to make people laugh, her boy craze was just like me as a pre-teen

stan - living in the shadow of an overachieving sibling (feeling like the "stupid sibling" is sooo real), "nothing i do will be good enough for [insert person here]" (this is projection), struggled in school, not wanting to let people in despite desperately wanting connection

ford - born with genetic abnormality which results in ostracisation from peers, severe inability to socialise with other people, attraction to "strange things", pressure to preform well because of previous success (this is projection), struggles with trusting people due to being hurt in the past, seeks approval and praise, "i'm supposed to be smart why am i being so stupid" (this is projection)

i love them they're all just like me fr i want to talk abt them forever (i do a lot more projection on stan and ford solely bc they're adults and have gone thru more struggle than dipper and mabel)

[genericpuff]

How long do you plan making rekindled? I loved Lo at some point, But now I cant get enough of your version!! And I wanted to know how did you come up with the darker back stories for Rekindled?

I have a semi-detailed skeleton of the plot with basically every story beat planned out, but I can't definitively say how long it will be as I haven't actually scripted every single episode out yet.

Not to mention a lot of the time my scripts will change from their original versions, by the time I get to an episode I've planned ahead for I've either thought of new ways to do it or don't like how it's paced so I change it. Case in point, there was a specific scene I had planned for the next episode and then wound up not liking the pacing because it was too fast so I moved it to several episodes away and restructured everything on the fly, took a whole new text document and scrapping sketches to figure shit out LOL I actually do have up until Episode 70ish scripted out in my documents with like, actual notes and dialogue for each episode, but I already have sooo many of those crossed out now because of how much I've had to tweak and change as time has gone on. This is why I plan ahead well in advance though, so that if I do need to make those changes, I can make them long before the episodes are even due to be drawn (and believe me, they get changed during the sketching phases too LOL).

What I can confirm for certain is that the current 'arc' we're in right now is definitely the bulk of the story. And that's not to say there isn't any content afterwards, more like the pacing just gets completely turned on its head in the last 30-40% of it where shit gets N U T S and just can't go back to the same energy that it was in the beginning. Without spoiling, there's a certain 'turning point' in the plot and everything after it isn't quite as long as the stint of story we're in now. This is mostly because the arc we're currently in is still establishing a bunch of stuff like the Underworld Corp, Persephone's schooling, etc. and once that turning point hits, it's basically all character development and focusing on the consequences of everything setup in the first arc.

I guess if I had to illustrate it, the story progression in the end will look something like this?

It's basically just this slow and chill climb that, once it hits that sharp peak, doesn't ever return to normal levels LMAO So I guess enjoy this part of the story while you can because it's the chillest it'll ever be w(°ｏ°)w And boy, I am EXCITED for that peak, but we have a long way to go before we get there. As for how long, well, I'm hoping I'll be able to have Rekindled's story wrapped up in the next 2 years, tops. Just depends on how the update schedule goes, and assuming the plans I have put down for the plotting don't change in any major way. I don't have as much of the latter half of the story actually scripted out yet so for all I know it could wind up being way longer than anticipated, but right now I have a pretty good sense of how the story beats will play out in relation to each other.

So it's kind of a wait and see thing, at least until I have every episode scripted out, and even then I won't be 100% sure because things are always being tweaked and fixed and changed on the fly! I'm guessing it won't go much longer than 170 episodes, give or take, but that's a very very VERY rough estimate.

Regardless, Rekindled still has a lot more story to tell, and I'm hoping y'all enjoy the ride with me <3

As for the darker backstories, y'all don't even know yet. Like... I've got stuff planned. Stuff that even Banshriek (my BG assistant) doesn't know about. Stuff that I keep buried very deep in Rekindled's episode documents that won't see the light of day until they have to be ripped out of the deep dark trenches of the characters' own buried secrets, and by that point, the toothpaste will be out of the tube, there will be no going back. So, again... enjoy it while it lasts. Because I don't pull my punches. And maybe even you won't be able to look at me the same way again once the final blow has been dealt.

Sleep well.

:)

[angstics]

i understand why the black parade (the concept) is seen as a force of good (the name has cool imagery and “to joinnn the black parade” is a #epic moment). force of good as in synonym to emo communities, mcr fans, the general downtrodden. gerard is still called the leader of the black parade as in “king of the emos” when the actual leadringer persona constantly berated “my chemical romance” lol.

i like the black parade as a false promise. to start, the black parade is special to the patient since gerard describes the concept as people being welcomed to death by their happiest memory, which is reflected in the beginning of wttbp. the whole song is a conflict btwn “though your dead and gone believe me your memory will carry on” and “im just a man, im not a hero”. it’s an uneasy song. like all these people are telling the main character not to worry about dying because they’ll be remembered but they cant accept that because they dont think theyre worth remembering. “i dont care”—“we’ll carry on”.

mama and welcome parallel in a lot of ways, from the parental figures to the HUGE sound to the multi-part structure to the adoption of specialty music (cabaret v marching band). even “we’ll carry on” is echoed, with the addendum “when our brothers in arms are gone / so raise your glass high for tomorrow we die / and return from the ashes you call”. this is what the patient (“im just a man”) would say after hearing the black parade, echoing the sentiment with venomous anger instead of welcome’s almost sterile tone.

the idea of a false promise comes from the parade being presented as what the patient supposedly always wanted: to be unashamed, be the saviour, be REMEMBERED. as represented by their father and questioned by the patient. so for them to go to war to be remembered (“you made us oh so famous”) only to be unfulfilled by that (“we all go to hell”) shows the failures of the black parade (also represented on disenchanted: “lifelong wait for a hospital stay”). it’s a welcome that no longer fit the patient, whose childhood whims were disproven by what they learned from life.

this is why famous last words is sooo satisfying. they create their own acceptance of death. “i see you lying next to me” with the people they love, “with words i thought id never speak” with self-acceptance, “awake and unafraid, asleep or dead” and with their own fucking words. “i am not afraid to walk this world alone” they dont need to be remembered. there is no parade, there is no yearning for the past.

and while the black parade buried them as they were still screaming, famous last words leaves room for them to stay alive. agency and dignity, in life and death.

[pinkcannibal]

Do you think Misty and Mari would be besties? I feel like they'd both absolutely adore a puppy!reader.

okay answer to ur first question!!

because going based off of canon characterisation (thats very important here) i think absolutely not ksdkfk

laurel gates!marilyn would find misty intolerable and annoying and find her constant need for love and acceptance really pathetic.

she would look at mistys history and be like oh u cannibalised ur team mates and were stranded for 18months? and u didnt even take advantage of the money you could have made? sad. anyways.

i think laurel would also see how much misty desires friendship and constantly roll her eyes and sneer like: "my god woman, get UP."

misty herself would admire laurelgates!marilyn's drive and attitude in doing anything she could to get what she wants, and find it ironic that they both have really similar styles of um. getting what they want (needles filled w poison)

but misty would loathe and grow very tried of laurel's constant belittling and yapping abt crackstone, and also wonder why she doesnt just like, get another hobby, my god.

but! if you wanna talk abt marilyn just as the marilyn we love and know ie in my fic eat your young, or ur own headcanons (without the genocidal outlook she has in wednesday)

then yes! i think misty and marilyn would get along reeaaally well :'))

marilyn would sympathise sooo much with misty's trauma and they'd bond over both yearning for connection and understanding, since they both are always used to being on the outskirts of other peoples lives and just out of love's reach

misty would constantly do things for marilyn that weren't necessarily asked for or wanted, with marilyn awkwardly accepting mistys weird love language but being like "aww she um. got me a plant with a camera hidden in it. thats sweet 🥰"

misty would find marilyn being a teacher really interesting, but scrunch her nose up in confusion at how much marilyn loves her students, very offput by the idea of having to be around teenagers all day.

marilyn would constantly ask misty abt the plane crash, bc surviving something that horrific is intriguing to her. but its something misty at first was hesitant to divulge in bc "oh my god are u another reporter??" but once shes comfy they definitely have tea and biscuits and talk for hours abt it, and marilyn's very happy to listen to misty infodump and yap.

marilyn does not even bat an eye at the cannibalism btw and mistys like "did u hear me. i said i ate jackie. our soccer captain." and marilyn's like [furrows brows, fixes glasses] "i heard you. am i meant to be shocked?"

now ive already gone on for too long but the idea of them having a puppy!reader is soooo my god.🥺😵‍💫

marilyn's definitely the good cop in this situation. always the soft dom mommy who bends to her puppy's needs and cant say no to reader. mistys a little more standoffish and awkward, but practically melts if you say i love you, or bat your pretty eyes

they'd be enamoured by you, and even though misty haaates the idea of sharing (very jealous, seething just at when you sometimes roll in bed and snuggle marilyn instead) she can't say no to the dynamic you all share when she sees how dumbed down and needy you get in their presence <33

[stargirlie25]

Me through reading all the ACOTAR books.

ACOTAR: Ew Nesta and Elain are so annoying. This is going to be the best series, Feyre is such a baddie! Awww feylin so cute! DAMN LUCIENNN. I know she ends up with Rhysand but im not vibing with him......how can ACOMAF excuse this?

ACOMAF: Ohk feysands kinda cute but i dont think we can justify all that....Oooooo Cassian and azrielllllll! Awww i hope Mor and Azriel gets a book! *Goes to tiktok and finds out mor is gay* damn Azriel.OMG I LOVE NESTA NOWW PERIOD POP OFF SIS MY QUEENNN. Elain is there too. Ooooo Nessian. Elain and Azriel? I mean as long as its not mor! NAHHH GIRL DONT U DARE BLAME LULU BLAME TAMLIN! OMG ELAIN AND LUCIEN???

ACOWAR: Feyre isnt really feyre-ing any more :(.OH HELL NO SCREW IANTHE NO WAY YOU DID THAT TO MY MANSSS!!! MY POOR LULUUU Why feyre lowkey being such a bitach?

Awww Elucien is so tender! LUCIEN AS A MATE AWWEEEE. Damn Nessian making me sqeual. Lucien went away to find the queen from elains vision! OMG. CASSIAN IS SOOO FINEEEE, elriel is lowkey getting boring....Why is she disrespecting tarquin? He has ALL rights to be upset. Ok tamlin in the HL meeting is being pretty annoying and doing nothing but feyre did nothing as well but NESTA ARCHERON THE WOMAN YOU ARE!!!!! WTHHH HELION AND LUCIEN??????? OMG the war!!! NO THE SURIELLL. THE BONE CARVER NOOOO THE WITCH LADY I FORGOT HER NAME BUT NOOOOOO. THE ELAIN. THE FEYRE. THE NESTA. Omg i have no regrets in my life but this.Damn Nessian ur hurting me. NOOO papa arhceron diedddddddddddd. Damn Ok Elain and Nesta king slayers! Oh rhysand died........i know damn well he gonna come back......´´Be happy feyre´´ bawling. Omggg Lucien was besties with papa archeron???? THE ONLY FATHER FIGURE HE HADDDD DAMN WHY ISNT FEYRE TELLING LUCIEN?? Awww lucien and feyre hug! Cass and feyre are cute but i miss the og´s! Ok girl you flying.

ACOFAS: Snoring. YALL ARE CUTE BUT IM BOREDDD AS HELL. Ok literally no one asked for this Mor pov. Wait why did Elain invite lulu if she is uncomfortable around him? Her power? Elriel kinda gave me brother and sister but i guess elain likes him now.....HI EMERIE IVE HEARD ABT YOUUUUU!!! I just want my girl Nesta, feyre u are not feyreing.

ACOSF: I love nesta so much!!!!!!! Cassian is acting like Rhysands frikcing dog. I hate amren soo much. WHY is Elain acting like shes the victim like nesta told you to leave and now you crying?? Girl you are 23 years old! Ok respect azriel has never disrespected my Nesta. Aw nesta gwyn and emeries friendship is the best one yet!!!!!! Azriel is starting to show an actual personality.....With Gwyn? Okay Gwynriel is so cuteee *sees elucien and gwynriel theories* 100% on board with this!!!!! DAMN the Valkyries! I am so excited for all the other girls to tag along! Just imagine a MOB of nesta gwyn and emerie!!! Eris? HELLL YAHHHHHHH VANSERRAS FOR LIFEEEEEE!!!! YOU ARE TELLING ME CASSIAN DID NOT SAY I LOVE YOU ONCE? Of course nesta lost her powers and she obviously lost them for the sake of the main characters that im bored of :(

ACOA (A court of Azriel): You got her a rose flower......because she likes flowers??? Why is this man so insecure about his hands around her? That cant be right......MISTAKE? THANKYOU RHYSAND FOR STOPPING THIS MADNESS! Wow he just wanted to F**k her and thats it? WTH is Gwyn doing here? Ok creepy Azriel is gone and this new azriel is here? Aweee he is actually kinda cutie now and he is laughing? HE SINGS???? OMG SHE SINGS THO! His shadows singing and dancing with her??? Cuteeeeeee, Ok so he gave the necklace to clotho to give to gwyn, thats cute she does in fact deserve something beautiful like that but why Elains? Ig its the though that counts. SPARKED IN HIS CHEST???? THATS ROWAELIN/NESSIAN LANGUAGE!!!! HOW does her picture it proper?? Glowing and secret? Where the hell did he tuck the image bruhhh?

A thing of secret lovely beauty. AHHHHHHHH clotho and the shadows are team Gwynriel for sure! Gwynriel are sooo mates tho and i hate Elriel with every fiber in my being. How did azriel go from mr. creep to mr. melts my heart?

After finishing: Wow everybody on tiktok are elriels. They are so confident elriel is endgame? Hmmmm but none of their points make sense but i cant explain in a comment section! Maybe Gwynriel and Elucien isnt endgame :(

*Downloads tumblr*

Gwynriel and Eluciens on tumblr have their freaking masters degree DAMN

[poeticlilies]

Hi!

I have a request for Fukuzawa (again, becouse last time I requested you did such an amaizing job and I ended up fangirling for a good 20 minutes). Sooo, I think Fukuzawa has some nightmares (probably before ADA, but maybe even after it) becouse of his past, and all the things he has done or happened to him. So maybe something with him having a nightmare and for the first time he isn't alone becouse his S/O is there to comfort him. So basically just some comfort for Fukuzawa, he deserves it♡

As always if you don't feel like writing this one that is compleatly understandable.

Have a nice day!

♡ Hush, darling..

Fukuzawa Yukichi x Reader

Desc: Comforting Yukichi after a nightmare. (gender neutral reader)

TW/CW: nightmares, violence, blood, injury, death of reader (in nightmare), panic attack, anxiety, hurt/comfort, mentions of hell/god/heaven ("thank god", "if this is hell", etc)

The first thought that ran through his head was "Why am I here?"

Why here, of all places; this godforsaken place where he was holding onto you, soon to be your body.

Tears ran down his cheeks as his heart rapidly sped up; hands cupping your cheeks as he cradled you in his lap, begging you not to go, and to spend just one more year, one more month, one more week, one more day, one more hour, one more minute with him and just please don't go.

Your eyes were closed, already; skin so cold you couldn't have been alive anymore, and he sobs harder, finding it hard to breathe as he wails and yells in anger, grief, despair, and shock. Screaming to the world about how unfair it was, and that he had given so much, so so much and why couldn't you just let me keep the one thing, the one thing that gave me solace in this horrid place.

The blood of yours bleeds into the grass; staining the verdant green a dark crimson as Fukuzawa cries, unable to cope with his grief as his hands are coated in a thick red liquid, the life essence of yours.

He stares at them, still sobbing; everything is a sea of red, everything is red as he stares, and all he can think about is your cold figure lying in his lap as the world bleeds into a mess of nothing but red, red, and red.

Somewhere, in the haze of his mind getting melted and fried, he remembers something; that he didn't even get to say goodbye to you before you had gone, and that makes him sob harder; hands clutching at his head and staining his silver locks as your complexion pales beyond the palette a normal, alive human being should have.

And he knows this is his fault; that his past has finally come back to take revenge, "an eye for an eye", and take you from him as atonement for his sins.

And then it's over-- the world abruptly turning black like a television screen turned off.

He can't see anything; cant feel, can't hear, can't smell as he writhes around, wondering if this is hell.

He feels hands on his body, on his cheeks, and he stops; because they are warm hands.

Slowly, he settles; world finally coming back as his eyes adjust to the darkness, and he sees the figure of you, hands on his cheeks as you whisper something that sounds incoherent to him as the pounding of his heart drowns out your voice.

"i-is--" he finally whispers, voice cracking. "i-is that you?"

You nod; and he breaks down again, thanking the heavens, the gods, anyone up there who has fulfilled his wish and turned his nightmare into a lovely, blissful dream; one where you were alive and well, and where he was on your shared bed, safe and surrounded by the comforters you bought because you had deemed them out of hundreds "good enough" for him.

And he cries; possibly harder than he has ever before, because nothing shakes him to his core and tears his heart apart harder than the possibility, the very notion that you might leave him here in this cold, dark place.

You surround his senses, blocking out everything else as you hold him close to your heart and whisper loving, gentle phrases he doesn't think are meant for him in his ears until he recognizes the fact that it's just the two of you.

And it hurts so bad but feels so good; he's never been comforted, been held, like this ever; maybe he has, in his earliest days on this planet; but he doesn't remember them, only the harsh, harsh pain and hurt that courses through his veins. The unfamiliarity makes his heart twist itself into knots, tearing vessels and tissue as it curls up, trying to reject the affection because it knows once it accepts it will never, ever be the same without it.

You comb a hand through his hair; his silvery white locks, messy but otherwise clean, as you continue to whisper gentle, gentle phrases that empty your heart out for him, that present yourself bare to him as you offer what relief you can to his suffering, and he cries, harder; half in disbelief and the other half in a foreign emotion that you would show the most vulnerable sides of yourself in an attempt to alleviate his pain.

Eventually, he settles down; curled up in your arms as he drifts back off into sleep, tears dried up as your warm hands and warm body capture him into your embrace. No more dreams plague him tonight; your love preventing his mind from making up more scenarios of "what-ifs" as you lie next to him, shielding him from the cold with your warm body.

--

yIPPEE !! woo

[transingthoseformers]

Something wholesome to wake up too :D. I remember stumbling upon your post about both Megatronus and Orion being clerks/librarians/archivist thanks to the TF One movie making them both miners sooo have like my spin on it/headcanons based on the idea? -Megatronus and Orion met when Megs was still D-16 aka a miner. When Terminus managed to get a break from the mines, which was so rare, he would sneak Megs with him so the young miner could experience more. He took him to the Iacon Hall of Records since D-16 mentioned being curious about the history of Cybertron, there he met a young Orion.

-Orion and him would bond over data pads Orion managed to smuggle to the mine site, lots of them being old poetry and history that excited D-16. It is also how D-16 gets his name of Megatronus

-At some point, Alpha Trion catches on, and instead of being anger, decides "Eh fuck it, Orion needs someone around his age to talk to" //proceeds to yoink the young miner and giving him a better life

-Now a proper clerk for the Hall of Records with Orion, it is kind of chaos. It's basically "An introvert and ambivert become friends and they have to play rock, paper, scissors on who deals with people". Megs always loses, he hates it.

-Orion has def snuck Meg's poetry and writings into the records because he is so proud of Meg's work. Megs gets flustered.

-I lowkey just picture this AU being more chill. Yeah, Megs still wants the caste system gone, but is less violent about it, trying to use his words and peaceful protests first before being forced to go to more extremes. Orion maybe backing it up too because maybe the council just straight up ignored Megs because they see him as low-caste still and he's just "Ayo wtf".

-When maybe Orion becomes Optimus, Megs backs him up, helping archive everything while helping him connect with the low-castes who are wary of OP. Also def acts as OP's scary dog without realizing it lol

-Honestly i cant see clerk!Megs becoming the con tyrant warlord we know him as, I feel like he would be more calm and chill, preferring to spread his message while also like keeping OP in check so he doesn't become a tyrannt

-Would still call OP "Orion", and no one can stop him. Not even OP. As revenge OP scatters Megs poetry. In summary: Megs helps break the "serious and cold" prime act alot and helps a lot of the team connect with Optimus on a personal level

Sorry that this is long, but these ideas plagued me i hope that is okay!

YES

Ooo on Terminus and Megatron sneaking to the surface, and that being how Orion met him

Yes on the smuggling of datapads to D-16, and makes sense he'd get his new name from them

Alpha Trion just... Taking Megatronus has to have consequences, significant consequences

Sfsgd yes, "you do it" "no you do it" "you lost, you do it" "🤬🤬🤬"

Yes on Orion and Megs sneaking the poetry into the records, preserve it yes

100% this is a more chill au idea, always was meant to be a more chill au idea

Interesting way it changes Megatronus

We really "the power of friendship"-ed this up, it's v cool. Megatronus has grown into himself in a different direction, and I bet their friendship being earlier and arguably closer effects Orion in an interesting way

I am a SUCKER for characters calling Optimus "Orion" as a sign of closeness, oh it's gotta have fun moments

OO on the team part? Does the war still happen and Op and Megs are on the same side, or does the team unite in a different different way?

[nealsbian]

as a fan who watched older gmm a lot i have to say if i just saw a picture of link i wouldnt think he was attractive. but watching the videos endeared him to me SO MUCH that i started to see the attractive side?? i mean when you get over/used to the weird look you start noticing the pretty face in movement lol. but more than that he got me hooked immedietly first couple of videos i was barely paying attention to rhett unless he was doing something outrageously funny/weird etc. (this is kinda the only reason why i can remember my reaction to one of my first gmm videos i watched ''Taking a Dust Bath - Experiment'' and how i became a more dedicated fan. i kept thinking why am i so fond of this dork on the right?? tbh at some point he removes the big fugly(imo) glasses and his hair gets messy but his attitude is still what makes the ''it'' factor lol) also the bangs looked good sometimes when he let them get a little shagy/messy/fluffy (what it is supposed to look like tbh) especially even earlier times like "the mythical show" and on the great american road trip etc. he also had the smalled office style glasses which complemented that corporate/IT emo-adjacent look of 2000s better imo. its just as he got older he started to put too much gel or whatever which made the hairstyle unusually stiff/shiny (i used to call it the lego affect) and that paired with the big square dorky glasses it was an off-putting combo to say the least. buut i was still so endeared by all of him it didnt bother me much at the time? like i would watch it and still be into his vibe. he just has some kind of attitude that is magnetic and "cute" at the same which somehow doesnt get fake/over the top? idk im still fond of shagy hair but it definitely ran its course way before it was gone. what i personally truly hated was the shaved sides with the intense and stiff high quif even worse when he was dying it poorly to coal black which absorbed all the life and moevement out of it..that was my true nemesis. the close shaved sides/fade is such a basic fuck boy cut i cant believe people used to want link to go back to that

halfway through reading this I did understand the appeal of his old cut haha so congrats on painting such a good picture. I did hate the shaved sides too, think we can both agree that no matter how he styles it his hair is the best when there's more of it. but in the end no matter what he looks like his personality is what shines through. I don't think I'd be so drawn to him if he wasn't in this era though, just because his current look is sooo appealing to me rn, but at this point I'm already hooked so... he's just extremely charismatic, and i kinda love how he's such a - you either love him or hate him - kinda person. what you see is what you get.

also everybody is welcome to talk about Link in my askbox just so you know

[cosmik-homo]

something about the timelords- I think more on the metanarrative level than not, but maybe both- is. So fascinating and difficult- or, Challenging- in the way that, like. the spot where Metaphor and Allegory chafe against each other.

Like. Time is a tyrant, sure. Time is an uncaring tyrant who will not turn back for anyone, who coldly seperates mothers from children and allows terrible history to pass by, to be solidified into the unchangable past, that keeping moving runs over us all, sure.

But to expand that metaphor to tell stories of time's keepers as a - as a Nation State with a president and a CIA? with the associated war crimes and imperialistic implications of Meticulously Keeping Borders? Possesing and protecting the web of time like a territory?and thats before we even go into the tangling of aristocratic imagery into this and.

It's brilliant. First of all, It's an awesome way to write your central alien culture your loveable anarchist character comes from, one that gives the damage he leaves in his wake a much better context- (clenches teeth and Doesnt go into nuwho spiral here.) . - so it would be worth it for the stories it can create by itself, as an Analogy, without touching, as I termed it, the metaphor. and then when they do touch as i described its an interesting imagery and story!! but it also. there are points and seams of discrepancy and the more you delve into them the more they seem awkward and bloated, at least in my opinion, though I am just ankle deep in Gallifrey Related EU yet and can't wait to see how this is handled.

By this I am referring, to, like. the way this conflates this, Condition Of Nation State as a Condition Of Reality As We Know It. yeahhh the time lords suckkk but like, what do you want, evil monsters? non linear existence? you cant take down the government cuz then there will be Time Anarchy and this is why the guys who dont like them / the guys amongst them who r too intervensiony* are the baaaaaaad guys ok.

Though I guess, again, we do literally see the universe Goes On without the time lords and gallifrey. that's , kind of a major thing that has been shaping the franchises lore for the past, almost 20 years, gallifrey Can be gone, so. can't wait to see what they do w the time war in this regard and whether I will like that. I'm just saying sometimes when u narratively tie your Fascism Analogy to Base Concepts In Physics things can get a bit fishy. emotionally, politically. though again what if there was a government we couldn't in fact do without is an interesting thought experiment, but. yknow. Im basically circling the topic now you get all the range of my opinion on this right.

....and, I'm neurodivergent, god knows I have a vendetta

* without the State's Monopoly On Violence On It- i LOVE the celestial intervention agency as an analogy so so so much I remember the way I howled the first time i found about it. despite this all it was sooo worth it for this. candy for leftists.

[icetobes]

911 s7 e7 thoughts

- eeek the promo is THE beginning

- oh my fucking god

- she’s so good at her job yall MADDIE BUCKLEY I LOVE YOU

- CHIM ??? GOT BLASTED

- BRUHH

- yall they got thrown back im scared

- no driver 😦

- this is so stressful lorddddd

- BUCK AND THE BABY

- ITS GONE 😦 OH NOOOO

- he took the baby didn’t he oh good LORD no no no

- HENREN HOUSE 🫶🏻🫶🏻

- mara :((

- i feel like she’s spoken to denny…

- OH SHE HAS ???

- she’s got a baby brother :((( she doesn’t know where she isss 😭

- EW EDISOL

- NOOO BONES

- CHRIS 💀💀💀

- “we could leave her now” good idea

- OH THIS WOMAN LOOKS LIKE SHANNON

- THE FLASHBACKKSSS

- HES SO :(((((

- “look like you’ve seen a ghost” girl you don’t even know

- (i missed a few minutes idk ???)

- hen and mara :((

- “sometimes nighttime is the hardest” real and true

- “denny’s nice” DENNY NATIONAL TREASURE

- she’s telling hen ohhh my heart

- ATHENA AND MADDIEEEEE (im gay for them)

- so the guy wasn’t her husband ??? oh my god

- maddie :(((

- “i assumed she was me” baby awwww

- wtf is hen wearing she ????

- “you are the system” the system sucks girlie

- awww she’s telling them where to find her brother aaaa

- MADDIE 🫶🏻

- the sceeenee the sneak peak scene !!!

- this scene is so sweet 🥹

- “idk why i just told you that” venting queen just like me

- HES SWEET OMG 🥹

- “we’re” she means businesss !!!

- EDDIES BACK AT THE SHOP PLEASEE WHY IS HE STALKING HER

- girlie what the fuck is wrong with him he’s so stupid

- this is crazy HES LOSING HIS MIND

- not a fucking candle

- “do you trust me” I AM SO CONFUSED SHES FLIRTING LMAO

- MORE FLASHBACKS

- not them flirting lmaooo

- “just me and my son, single dad” LMAO YESSS EXACTLY WHAT I WANT TO HEAR

- STOP I CANT HES SO AWKWARD

- good lord that’s a loud room of children

- their name stickers awww

- “we’re here to talk to you” that’s INSANE behaviour not going to lie

- tyson is so cute 🥹🥹

- maddie and that call :(( babyyy

- “it’s me you’re husband” THEYRE MARRIED YALL 🤭🤭🤭

- he’s so supportive 😭

- SHES AFRAID SHES GOING TO DIE i’m gonna end it all now maddie buckley you deserve nothing buck happiness

- ohhh she’s so smart omg

- she had a stalker OH MY GOD

- WHAT ????

- HES GOTTA STOP DOING THAT

- EDDIESHANNON FLASHBACK ??

- “about santa” LMAO

- OHH ITS THE AAAA 😭😭

- YALL HE LOVED HER SO MUCH

- NOT HIM IMAGINING THAT WHILE WITH HER IM CRYINGGG

- “i’m here” no you’re in fucking bed with shannon 💀💀💀

- they’re teaming uppp aaa

- “they’re hiding from him” OH MY GOD HE FOUND THEM

- IS THAT HIM AT RHE PARK

- creep what the fuck

- ew i fucking hate him

- “time to find a new mommy” i’m gonna kill him ???

- he’s so fucking creepy i hate it here

- maddie is so smart i caantttt

- oh he’s gone 🧍

- OH HE GETS HIT OMG

- THE 118 BAYBEEEE

- OMG BOBBY N BUCK HI HAVENT SEEN YOU SINCE THE BEGINNING HEYYY

- CHIM CAUGHT THE BABY

- BUCK TACKLED HIM LETS GOOO

- awww josh is so proud of herrr

- the girl :(((

- OH HE RECOGNISES BOBBY :((

- oh he doesn’t but he does ??

- “they’re bonding” karen is so me lmao

- she’s here with tyson 🥹🥹

- oh my gosshhh aaa

- OH THEYRE SO CUTE IM GONNA CRYYYY

- MARA AND TYSON 🥹🥹🥹

- babies :((((

- HI BUCK

- EDDIE AND CHRISSSS EEK

- “dad already ordered a pizza” where is his faith in buck

- buck throwing food at eddie lmaoo

- MADNEYYYYY 🫶🏻🫶🏻

- they’re so perfect aaaa

- JEEEE LITTLE PRINCESS 🥹

- the dreams hand they’re so cute oh im going to SOB

- JAW DROP

- WHAT THE HELL EDDIE

- EDDIES CHEATING ???

( i didn’t write down my reactions to e6 i filmed myself cause i was drunk sooo maybe ill put that in my notes at some point )

[definitelynotshouting]

WAHOO im back part 3 :))) i reread the chapter

-☀️

"“Not like that, that’s for sure,” Grian says, and it bites, singing through the air with cruel finality. He can’t stop the way each syllable sharpens as he speaks. “So when I tell you I’m dying, maybe you should believe me.”"

- he's happy that when they are hurt by what he does/says at least he has control over this time. He's still keeping secrets. It's not until later that grian loses the upper hand he has keeping the way Watchers work a secret. Right now the others don't know what options they have, meaning that Grian can let himself die and there's nothing they can do about it. It's self destructive but he's smug about that, in a 'hahah im going to do this thing and theres nothing you can do about it' kind of way except the 'thing' is dying. He needs sooo much therapy

-☀️

"Despite everything, the day Grian was kicked from Hermitcraft, Scar had still watched him like someone he knew. Now, he stares at Grian as if he’s never seen him before."

- Before, Scar knew they didnt have all the pieces to the puzzle. He knew Grian creating the game wasnt as simple as it seemed, he knew there was something greater at play. Later, he says "that's just not your style...I never believed you would. Not even for a second". Now that all the cards are on the table, Scar can't comprehend how there was so much he missed. He knew that just before mcc and before the games Grian gets tired. He didnt know why. Theres so much Grian kept from everyone, and Scar slowly piecing it together only to realise just how much pressure has been on Grian's shoulders, how much emotional weight he must be carrying. I can only imagine how much of this Scar reads on Grian's face in this moment

-☀️

"Scar’s voice takes on an awed note— as if the simple act of slipping past Grian's defenses for the missing puzzle pieces changes anything between them. Soft as drifting snow, he whispers, “And that's why you won't let us help.”"

- blows you up with mind

- It does change something!! Scar now understands- to some extent at least- WHY grian is acting the way he is. GRIAN doesnt think this changes anything. The fact that people know his motives doesnt mean they know how to stop his code from unraveling, after all. Ohoho. Grian you underestimate the hermits. Do you really not understand how insane they are!! Scar and the others are ready to do whatever they need to to stabilise grian's code and make it so Grian is able to properly live alongside all of them, SAFELY. Without fear. But Grian is so convinced he's unloveable that he cant see this

-☀️

"At any other point, his palms would be a warm, grounding weight, laced with familiar lines and calluses; now, all Grian can focus on is the inexorable tilt of his entire world's axis as it falls apart."

- this line genuinely had me throwing my phone onto my bed and putting my head in my hands.

- There is no more running. No more hiding. Grian has spent his entire time as a Watcher-disguised-as-a-player pretending and hiding the truth of his existence. But now everything is out. Everything that grian has spent years hiding because of self-hatred and disgust, thinking he is a monster beyond help or love; there is not much left for him to hide. His world is falling apart, theres no way to recover his life before, the one he oh so carefully cultivated on Hermitcraft. That life is gone.

-☀️

Aldjnskajan. I hope this makes some sense 😭 i still have another section of quotes that i copied, but ill do those tomorrow (my time) because i am sleepy :)

AAAAA I WASNT ABLE TO GET TO THIS YESTERDAY ANON BUT WAAUGHHHHHH /POS THIS IS SOOOOOO

IM SENDING YOU BEAMS THIS IS SO SWEET AND VALIDATING TYSM YOU ARE AMAZING AND I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING AN EXCELLENT DAY