#i am so sad because i wanted to do all 18 eps

[lilachsgifs]

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[cordycepsfem]

Pageboy - Let's Do This Thing

In keeping with my brand of, well, Ellen-posting, since my name is Ellie, I thought I'd continue Ellen-posting by reading a book by someone who used to be named Ellen and doing a review of said book for radblr. I'm going to break it up into chunks so you're not faced with giant posts of me rambling or EP rambling.

I would like to say that I feel like there are very few 30-somethings who should be writing memoirs. I've had a pretty exciting thirty-ish years on the planet and I don't think I'm qualified to write a memoir - not because it wouldn't be full of interesting, beautiful, life-changing, sometimes horrible things but because I'm only thirty-ish. I prefer memoirs by people who've lived a bit longer - but again, this is only my preference. I don't read a lot of memoirs as a whole, I guess.

Anyway.

Ellie's Read and Review of Pageboy (Part One)

Author's Note

EP is "grateful and terrified" because trans people "face increasing physical violence" and "our humanity is regularly 'debated' in the media" (citations not given)

the book would not have been written without the "health care" she received, which seems weird because what she describes in the first paragraph about not being able to write seems like ADHD and instead of taking Adderall and being seen by a therapist she took testosterone and had her breasts surgically removed

quotes Leslie Feinberg who, among other things, was a very serious pronoun enthusiast (as evident by Feinberg's Wikipedia page, no I'm not being sarcastic here, just go read it and tell me I'm not wrong)

I want to be a jackass about the last paragraph of the author's note but even I don't have it in me, because it makes sense and is kind.

Chapter One

EP meets someone named Paula and falls in love with her and they do mushrooms together

She thinks about Paula on her trip through Europe

They go to a gay bar

This line hit far harder than it had any right to:

She kisses Paula and it's marvelous

Chapter Two

The Village Voice writes a shitty article about EP calling her a "dyke" after Juno comes out

which is a name she was called many times growing up in Canada

EP played soccer and once went to a tournament in a town I would visit some twenty-odd years later for very different reasons

this is important because she rooms with a girl she has a crush on

she tries to come out to this girl as bisexual

the girl says "no you're not" and then her friends make fun of EP

I learn that Tim Horton's has bagels, which confuses me but is in fact true

EP's grandmother asks her father what they're going to do if it turns out EP is gay

the lines in this chapter that punched me in the chest:

because fuck yeah I was a fucked up kid who didn't plan to live much beyond age 18, EP, I see you

fame is not what EP thought it might be; she doesn't want to wear a dress to things but somehow they tell her she has to and she isn't allowed to say no (which I get, and is not great, but eventually you need to be able to say no and do what you want)

another magazine in Canada asks if she's gay

Paula from Chapter One is seen with her and it's speculated they're in a relationship; Paula's not out to her family and so things are all very sad and EP feels like she will never be free to be who she is

At this point I am just sad. I came out later in my life (22), and was diagnosed with gender dysphoria much later (33), but at age 12 after a lifetime of wearing dresses and having my hair the way my mother wanted it, I stopped letting that happen. I started to wear what I want. I grew out my hair. I learned about makeup and shaving and for a little bit bought into it and then said "fuck no," which I continue to do to this day because it's bullshit.

Who in EP's life thought it wasn't okay for her to wear pants, and why didn't she or someone else stop them? I've obviously never been a famous actor but as an actor aren't you the person in charge of what happens to your image? Why wasn't her publicist or her agent on her side?

I had a lot of good people in my life who made me believe in a future for myself. Sometimes they had to carry me physically through what was happening to make sure I made it to that future, and I'm here today because those people didn't give up on me. Where were those people in EP's life?

There are things about the EP situation that make me bow in over my ribcage. It's just sad, and seeing paths others take that look like they make sense to everyone but which seem to say something entirely different when looked at upside down... which is a rambling way of saying that it's almost 4 am and someone should have told EP she could have been a happy lesbian who wears pants without having her breasts surgically removed and taking cross-sex hormones.

Anyway, the laundry's done, more later.

[spacehostilityy]

Part 3 of my nnt rewatch ep 13-18

I'm trying to watch it in latam Spanish but I just rlly love the English voice cast >:( I'm doing it for most scenes anyway tho🤪 I do love español!Elizabeth's voice tho !! I maintain that English!Ban is the best voice tho

Do we know why meliodas loses his emotions in this form?

And what form even is this? We never see it again if I remember correctly?

Helbram's magic lowkey cool as fuck

I want to see ban and Elizabeth interact one on one more often, as the two people closest to Meliodas (aside from Merlin, but she has secrets) I want to see them together, yk?

MelBan is just so good like they beat the shit out of each other to show love and I think that's beautiful

I know a lot of ppl ship lancelot and tristan but I ship their dads🫣 el oh el

Elizabeth should be way more powerful than she is and that is what polishes me off the most in all of sds honestly >:(

Also I'm back on my howzer x diane bullshit 😔

La voz del español!Meli es tan profundo, pienso que es la voz más diferente de las versiones, es extraño

Mi teoría sobre la voz de meliodas solo existe en las versiones de inglés y japonés I guess

King and Ban training together is so fucking cutee

I love how we just never rlly find out anything abt the trumpet of cernunos lol

How is ban's jacket too short but his pants aren't? Not complaining, that's just silly lol

Also him defending Meli even tho he obviously knows he's a demon is so🥺

Meliodas splitting the mountain with the branch is one of my fave scenes, we get to see that there's so much more to him and it hints at his coming power

I forgot how tragic Gil and Margaret were that's a good storyline damn

Ep 14 time !!

Is helbram... hot?

YESSS roars of dawn time !!! Slader is so babygirl I love him sm

Guila is such a girlboss line yaasss kween kill those children !!

Why the fuck does meliodas own so many slutty women's costumes HMMM? is he... you know... 👀💅

Gowther introducing himself to Hawk as oinkity oink oink is so real, I love their bond

I love that will Elizabeth feels insta love and Meliodas has BEEN in love for 3000 years

Slader is like if demon!meliodas, ban, and hawk had a baby and that baby was a slut

Seeing genuine surprise from Meliodas when "gowther" was going to be defeated is so weird, like mans was sad he lost his friend and had no idea that wasn't him

The roars of dawn are all hot and that's a good thing

Poor Dale. He just wanted to protect his family. And he was hot too😔

Ban flipping King off while Meliodas revels in Chastiefol's softness is such a representation of all three of them

Meliodas straight up using hellblaze to fight the armored giant/Dale is so funny, it's like baby isn't ur biggest secret that you're a 3000 year old demon prince?? And hellblaze is your specialty demon power?? This does not seem inconspicuous

Also might do a ramble on hellblaze later 👀

Also ban using a whip is kinda 😳

Indiana jones type drip (I am both attracted to and find gender envy from Indiana jones)

The girls are fightingggg

Also this title card is so cute !!

Meliodas straight up being the holy knight grand Master of danafor is so funny to me

He looks so cute in his danafor outfit😭

Also I wonder where meliodas gets the groping thing from because 3000 years ago he was def not like that, though the groping does get less frequent as the story goes on and that's when the holy war arc is so maybe nakaba just forgot abt it lol

Also slavery being canon in nnt britannia is crazy when you think about it

The only reason meliodas didn't carry a sword being he would kill too many people is just a litttleeee bit funny

But also Cain saying that he is both too violently destructive and "too gentle a soul" is painstaking ahaha🥲 literally the best descriptor for him

Gowther carrying King on piggyback is so cute😭😭

I think the moment Meliodas finally kills Dale is a real turning point in the series. Before this, he had not killed a single opponent. He just fought to disarm and incapacitate. Just the next episode, he tells ban and gowther to "go straight for the kill" against the holy knights. As we see throughout the rest of the series, even before his emotions get caught in purgatory, he no longer feels hesitant to kill. He only becomes more and more like himself from the time of the Holy War (post 10 commandments). This is why I love his character sm, a corruption arc (even if he is never truly evil) is just so rare and one this good and angst filled is even rarer.

Ban continually stealing the same 1980s glamrock red leather set with studs bc he keeps getting murdered in it is the foundation of his character fr

Gowther and Elizabeth being the only ones who are not alcoholics is so real

Also all of them just sniffing king kills me😭

Diane being 30 feet tall means the world to me

Also gowther is so pretty, esp without his glasses

Long hair!Dreyfus is also ridiculously pretty

Ban just letting Gowther squish his tits is so hashtag real, mans gives no fucks

Hug🥰

I don't think I've seen this episode since the first time I watched nnt bc I totally forgot Arthur was introduced in it lol

LISTEN howzer rooting for Diane when they're on opposite sides of the battle is just rlly cute look how flustered he is🥺

so in English, after gowther uses rewrite light, the holy knights say "Meliodas! There you are! Ban, I really missed you man!" BUT in Spanish they call Meliodas mijo (meaning my son/my kid) and Ban hermano (brother)😭😭

THEY CALL GOWTHER MI QUERIDO (my love/dear/beloved) AKKSLDLDLT

Howzer and Gyula being the first ones to publicly stand up to dreyfus and hendy means so much I love them

Hendy was so hot😭😭

Wait how did I just realize that fraudrin was the one to break gowther's nightmare teller

Wait I also juT realized that Dreyfus is Gil's uncle. Gil is dreyfus's nephew. How did I not comprehend that

King, sobbing: why can't I ever protect the people that I care about?😢😭😓 Helbram: it's because you're consistently late🤨😐🙄

Helbram's eyeliner game is almost as good as Ban's

Is Howzer's hair supposed to be green or blond? Discuss.

On that note, we always say Elizabeth's hair is silver, but it's def mint green

Anyway,that's episode 18! Can't believe I'm already about to be on my last part of season 1 !!

[bengiyo]

Love Tractor Eps 7 & 8 (Finale) Stray Thoughts

Last week, Ye Chan spent most of his time in the midst of peak crush anxiety over Sun Yeol. Sun Yeol"s ex decided to come from Seoul and was a total dick to Ye Chan. Sun Yeol finally laid that relationship to rest, and spent some time doing physical labor with Ye Chan because Ye Chan noticed that he wasn't sleeping much. We left at Ye Chan admitting his feelings.

Episode 7

Korean actors are very good with their eyes.

Oh no. I get thst Sun Yeol has been through a lot, but don't ignore this man's confession after forcing it out of him.

I'm glad Ye Chan is holding his ground on his feelings. Feels bad that Sun Yeol is likely regurgitating things said to him or he thought about himself to Ye Chan.

I am loving the cheesy flirting from Ye Chan.

"I'm sure my sincerity will get to him someday." I love this man.

Oh no. My man is spiraling. Stay gold, Ponyboy.

I love that Ye Chan is passionate about farming, because it just makes sense to him that Sun Yeol should pursue music.

Aww, it's his old piano. His grandfather has been taking care of it. I'm gonna cry.

That was beautiful. I loved Ye Chan breaking that with a stolen kiss and comparing music to farming.

We were having too much fun and the final episode is approaching. The looming presence of the dad was bound to make a physical appearance. Love that final shot of the huge space separating them from the dad.

Episode 8

It feels so significant that Sun Yeol caught his father's hand before he could be struck. As we grow up we become a physical match for our fathers. That felt so powerful that he said no, and took all of his father's power away.

They did the music offer completely offscreen, but it works here.

Oh that was fun play with the graphics in the door.

I'm enjoying the banter they're falling into. I think Sun Yeol is realizing he's always wanted to be fussed over.

This show has some of the best lighting I've seen in BL.

Is this a Holland song? I think that's his voice.

Oh, short BLs. We get a "we're a couple now" scene immediately followed by a "work will keep us apart scene." Goddamn.

Gays on bikes!! Nevermind. I'm back.

I'm feeling a bit sad. I wrote about a boy I loved who died when I was 18 during Eternal Yesterday. He struggled with mobility impairments, but those didn't limit him on bikes. I remember riding with him deep into the woods of a state park once like this. I miss him.

I love shots of gays playing in water. I'm sure humans and our ancestors have played like this for hundreds of thousands of years.

Okay, that phone practice was cute.

That was a decent kiss. I like it for the characters.

This was cute!

Final Verdict: 8.5, Recommended. Genuinely, I think this is the rare KBL that uses its time well without feeling like big pieces of it were missing. I feel like the final quarter managed to distinguish itself enough that I will just compare it favorably alongside Restart After Coming Back Home instead of just recommending people watch the Japanese film instead. I also think they managed to cover some interesting ground on queer ideas with the dad and the ex. This was a solid little show.

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary333

8/18/24

sunday

feeling funny.

not really that funny honestly just kind of weird in my tummy but whatever. nothing bad just kind of sore and stuff from working out. i have to go do that now and then watch nosferatu but first i'm gonna post my selfies:

now to work out then wash my face and then movieee.

i also worked on 2 songs today, trying to make one less 'cold' sounding, now i kinda want to work on making it more jangly w/ the guitars but that will be tough and probably impossible. but i kind of want that, i want a bit more of this sound in it, against all better impulses whispering to me that i ought to just leave it be:

i wonder if my guitars have a bit too much low end? not sure... i should see if i can get any track off this w/ solo guitars and see what goes on there.

there was another song too, a bassline idea i had forever ago i am now working into a song, most of it's like, almost done i guess. there needs to be another bass synth in it for a couple parts i think, otherwise it just needs drums... and ofc mastering stuff, but i think i'm getting the effects chain down for that across this whole ep...

but now it is #movietime.

movietime will be cut short... because i am so tired. . .

i am quite liking it though, i am 43:12 mins in, hutter is honestly so cute, and so is his wife, it's sad that they are likely going to encounter tragedy, once again i am really amazed by the way the movie focuses on the characters via action and expression, the acting being so totally expressive over anything else, it's really lovely, for some reason it really gets me emotionally more than other kinds of acting, or it's very immediate, it makes me believe the joy and kindness of characters more when they are like this, at least, those emotions and ways of being come through and connect to me more... maybe that's just because i am like a child mentally or something.

but i have to sleep sleep sleep, didn't read today but i will tomorrow, when i wake up probably i'll watch the rest of this movie,

so

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sepyana]

Noir 2001 Ep. 11-18 Thoughs

This is around the time when Noir's plot starts to pick up.

Some general things first:

The sountrack of Noir is really damn good. I wanted to listen to is some more so I searched it up on Youtube. Turns out it's composed by Yuki Kajiura, which is a name I instantly recognized because she is responsible for the soundtrack of Madoka Magica, one of my favourite anime soundtracks ever. Explains the pmmm vibes I got for sure.

I will say though, she did improve between the osts. I like the Noir soundtrack a lot but there are a few janky bits the pmmm ost doesn't struggle with.

I had a lot of fun watching these episodes, the plot is interesting and the more "episodic" segments don't feel jarring to watch. I'm starting to like Kirika and Mireille a lot.

But the biggest reason for my interest is Chloe. I can't explain why, she doesn't get to do much yet. I dunno, she is just really charming to me.

Onto the episode by episode notes:

Ep. 11

This episode sets up the whole grand retour plotline, we see Atlena is planning something that Soldats is not too happy about. Also we get to know more about the book the photocopies are coming from.

I really like Chloe, I like that we get to see a show of her wardrobe only for her to pick the same wack ass outfit every time. Also the fact that she asks Kirika if she can keep the fork. What a weird little critter honestly.

The whole time her and Kirika are talking all Mireille could think is "What the fuck are these kids doing". She ends up giving in in the end.

Ep. 12

This episode is a oddity in that Kirika and Mireille don't appear at all. It's just Chloe and Atlena. It's a nice episode, we get to see a little bit of their dynamic. She does seem to care about her but Chloe might just be a tool for her too. It's a bit early to tell.

She is... I don't wanna say unmotivated but she is uninterested in the missions she is given. She cares about the integrity of it but she isn't interested in why she is given them. She isn't like "How dare you betray our organization bla bla"

Chloe's loyalties lie in Atlena only. She doesn't seem to care about Soldats, but she is interested in the Grand Retour, since the plan involves her.

Ep. 13

I wrote my thoughts in a seperate post like this:

I expected the painter to be one of Noir's targets or something because that's what happens with anyone who Kirika interacts positively with, thus why Mireille told her not to talk to him. But when he got shot I realized it was so he wouldn't get caught up in their mess and die. It's genuinely sad, you can tell at the end she is saying that from experience. Kirika was really happy to spend time with him, her face lights up. Something like picking up hobbies and making friends would mean a lot, especially to someone who doesn't have any idea who they are. Really nice episode overall

It was always present but after this episode you become on edge every time Mireille or Kirika i teract with a friend, expecting them to die. It does happen with George later on.

Ep. 14

There is some nice writing in this episode. Mireille denies her uncle could lie to her only for her to lie to him after. If she has things she would keep a secret surely her uncle must too.

There is definitely symbolism with the flowers but I am not smart enough to figure it out.

Ep. 15-16

Wild to me that Mireille and Kirika actually listened to Soldats. What if they hijack tour plane on your way to Vietnam or something? I don't think it's worth the risk.

The combat in this show is really lackluster. Maybe I am just not getting it. The henchmen are a joke, beating them is not fun to watch for me. And it drags on for so long too. I do like the shorter action sequences though.

It's funny that they say the poison the killer lady uses is "lethal to normal humans" and do not elaborate on that. Is she not human. What does this mean.

These episodes make me think Atlena does care for Chloe and isn't just putting on an act. Otherwise it makes no sense she would be fond of her in her inner dialogue and watch over her. She won't see that so why bother acting?

Ep. 17

The reveal that Mireille's parents were killed by Soldats was not surprising but I wasn't expexting them to be part of Soldats. We get to learn a lot about Mireille and Kirika's past but I don't have anything particularly interesting to say so I will skip that.

Apparently, her parents betrayed Soldats to protect her. But she had a brother didn't she, who got killed with her parents. Does that mean there is something special about Mireille?

Ep. 18

In every story with a duo protagonist there comes a time where the duo "breaks up". I wouldn't call this an arc since it's the span of an episode but yknow.

Losing my shit at crying Kirika she looks so much like the crying cat image here. How can you be so horrible to a face like that Mireille.

I get the sense Chloe doesn't give two shits about Mireille and only decided to tell Kirika about her because her dying would make Kirika upset. In a similar way to how Homura treats Sayaka, I guess. And she is right that it would make her upset. She is dependent on Mireille since she is the only person she actually knows. And I don't think Mireille realises that until the end.

The end of the episode was really cute. I am really starting to get attached to these two.

And that's the end! I decided to do a little sketch of Chloe at the end here for those who read this whole thing

There is a significant lack of Noir content and I want to change that so I might post some art on my art blog (^o^)v

[empty-tunacan]

LIST OF IMPORTANT JRWI MOMENTS!!!!!! para mi amor @transmasctwilightsparkle

(This only includes majorly important moments that either reveal something significant about a character or have a huge long lasting impact / implication on the story. This will not include things like where beloved but not super important npcs originally came from or things like that sorry.. I can make another post 4 more silly but often brought up moments ^_^)

Episode 8: A Hero’s Burden (18:23 to 29:39 & 40:08 to 45:18). This episode goes into detail about Niklaus Hendricks, a major antagonist of the campaign

Episode 15: The Chip On My Shoulder ( start at 25:29) This episode provides inside on gillions early mindset when he was more accustomed to undersea ideas.

Episode 32: Breaking the Ice (start at 35:24) shows a little bit about important character Captain Lizzie & more importantly speaks about the war & also pirate lord info

Episodes 50-53 are all pretty important but specifically episode 53: Not Ferin Well (5:24 to 48:35. If you truly want to skip combat even if it has dialogue then after 15:47 skip to 48:35) This episode provides huge lore for Jay & her interactions with her Father who is a navy officer!!! It also brings up Drey, an important NPC.

Episode 56: Mystery and Misery (1:08:20) Another scene with Niklaus!!

Episode 57: The Hull of The World (1:42:02) Reuniting Gillion with his sister!

Episode 58: The Tides Between us (1:47:01.. might be missing stuff so if u wanna he safe go to 1:40:00) More edyn n gillion shit

Episode 60: Price is Right (00:00 to 27:35 then 49:59 to end) Information on Price, a villain specific to Chips backstory

Episode 71: Two Sides of the Same Coin.. this one is some gillion lore but I straight up don’t have fucking time to look through the shit.. if u wanna watch it then watch it 😭

Episode 75: A Sticky Situation (1:20:00), Episode 77: Strung Along (1:40:00), Episode 79: Regrets and Reflection (1:27:15), Episode 81: All Falls Apart (1:02:08) A look into gillions past & also current mindset (+ some Chip sadness & some Niklaus lore in ep 81)

Episode 83: All Hands on Deck (1:45:00) Introduction to Finn..

Episode 97: At What Cost.. PLEASE watch the entire thing I MEAN IT!!! Do not read the comments do not look for spoilers for this episode I am so serious.. just watch the entire thing please.

I am actually going to reccomend u listen to all of the episodes after 97 in full partially because I’m getting tired & people stopped putting time stamps for these episodes a WHILE ago and partially because ermm.. they’re fucking good and important!!!

Most of all though I recommend u listen to all of jrwi in general!!! If u rlly want u can skip the Schlatt episode bexause I literally dont think that shit is important in ANY capacity.. like most episodes at least have a SMIDGE of smth plot or character relevant but I don’t think that one does.. it’s just Duke d dukem Duke of duke.. or whatever

Also here’s some other little stuff that is lore relevant.. there’s more stuff than this like the books they found throughout ep 75 to 80 but I couldn’t find shit for it I’m sorry.. m sleepy and also it’s not easy to scan through 2 hour eps for only the important shit 😭

ALSO ALSO WATCHING THE FUCKING PREQUEL CAMPAIGN IF U WANNA KNOW WHAT DEFINED CHIPS CHILDHOOD & ALSO TRAUMA (partly) OR WANT TO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE CURRENTLY GEARING TOWARDS IN DIRECTION FOR THE CAMPAIGN FOR OR IF U LIKE BACKGROUND LORE OR IF U WANT TO SEE MORE OF WHO THESE FINN ARLIN & DREY PPL ARE / WERE!!!!

[cleoselene]

the vinyl albums I desperately want

but will never ever be able to fucking afford lol

and btw these are all presses that only exist in expensive form. I am fine with buying a non-elite version of a record in order to HAVE it so while I'd love one of the colored copies of Lana's NFR! or the orange version of Taylor's reputation, these albums have affordable versions available. the ones in this post do not :(

Tori Amos - From the Choirgirl Hotel this is my #1 desire when it comes to vinyl. But alas, it usually goes for about $400 which is a stupid price. there's a bootleg out there now (that includes b-sides! which the real deal does not!) that my local record store has in stock and I am considering picking it up to scratch an itch affordably, because I've heard the sound quality is good but as a rule I'm not into buying bootlegs. Fan theory seems to think there's something wrong with the masters of this album (either that they have degraded or outright destroyed/lost) and that's why it's never been pressed again, but there's no hard evidence of that being true.

Taylor Swift - Lover Live in Paris ugh, why hasn't she repressed this? I don't even need it in the cute heart shaped colored vinyl (though that's not to say I don't WANT it like this, haha, LOOK AT THEM THEY'RE ADORABLE). I just really love this performance, it's acoustic Taylor, which is my favorite version of live Taylor, but I don't love it enough to spend $500 on it. Hopefully she'll press another run for Valentine's Day this year. Not like Taylor to leave money on the table but then again she hasn't pressed all of Midnights on vinyl and that's insane to me too

Delerium - Karma not many albums defined the ages of 18-20 for me quite like this album. It is immensely beautiful and it has been pressed ONCE, in 2015, a very limited run in coke bottle clear. It's expensive because it's too niche to have a big press but cries. $200? C'mon, this one could definitely use another pressing.

Lady Gaga - The Fame + The Fame Monster I want TFM much more than I want anything of Gaga's, and it's got two presses: this one that goes for like, $300-$400 and a picture disk (ew) that is censored (double ew). TFM is Gaga's absolute best, what a perfect EP. I will say that of all the records in this post I do think this one is the most likely to get another affordable pressing so I am more patient to wait

Tool - Aenima and while Gaga is likely to press TFM again, I am not at all optimistic about another pressing of Aenima. This is my favorite Tool album, was OBSESSED with it as a senior in high school. But this is probably the most expensive vinyl on this list ($700 is the lower range!!) and so I am 100% positive I will never own it. Which makes me sad. Because I bet it sounds fucking IMMACULATE

[invisiblegarters]

Never Let Me Go Ep 12 (Final)

Okay, that hostage pic of Nueng is hilarious. He looks so surly. I know I'm supposed to be worried and I know why Palm is, but honestly Nueng just kind of looks like he got sent to bed without dinner and he's mad about it.

Poor Chopper. Literally every time that boy turns around someone is accusing him of being evil. I do kind of wonder if we're gonna wind up in some sort of Chopper/Kit standoff again, and this time Chopper will have to pull the trigger. I hope not, because he's so sweet and I think it would break him.

And in a surprise twist that literally everyone saw coming, it was a trap.

This. This right here is why you don't hire a literal 18/19 year old as a bodyguard. This family.

OH okay now things are actually getting kind of fun. I didn't actually think that Kit would shoot Palm. And yeah, of course that's the thing that would work. Even though pretty sure Kit fully intends to kill both of them. Still getting the feeling that Kit is living his best life. Still like him in spite of myself.

And a wild Chopper appears! Guess he does have to shoot dad after all. And good for him for telling his dad what is what. He's really the best. Please don't shoot him Kit. I am honest to god worried for the first time that Chopper might not survive this. Kit does seem like the type to temper tantrum shoot his kid, you know?

Why do people keep saying that Kit killed both of Nueng's parents? Did Tanya die and I missed it?

Wow those ropes sure were already untied.

Palm will be fine. This was a fun mess, everyone got a little shot. And suddenly Ben is there? Did someone involve him or was his Chopper sense tingling?

I do like that Chopper went straight for his dad when he got shot. Look, Kit is (was?) a dick and a half, but he was dad, and for most of Chopper's life he probably treated him fairly well, actually. I also like that Ben went right for Chopper.

I am liking Nueng breaking down.

Yay, the Nueng and Chopper scene is what I've been wanting the whole drama. I'm so glad. I always did like their friendship - from the very beginning they always got on, despite their parents. And Chopper finally gets that hug he's needed for like, eight episodes now.

The Chopper/Ben scene is adorable. And ha, okay, yes Chopper did text ben. And AW, the look on Chopper's face when Ben says that he wants to stay by his side. Say what you want to say about Perth, boy does pining like no one's business. He could give lessons. And the hug was adorable, my goodness. I still don't know how I feel about Perth & Chimon as a pair - they work well together and have good chemistry but I'm not sure it translates into the romantic kind. Guess we have to wait for Dangerous Romance to really tell, huh? And I will.

Okay, this is unexpected. I kind of thought that Palm would wake up without a scra - oh. Temporarily paralyzed. Should have known. Can't actually have our heroes hurt permanently. Not that I necessarily want them to be, but come on. Shot in the knee and the back and he's gonna be perfectly A-ok? Sure.

"What if my leg doesn't go back to normal?" Pfft you're not in that kind of drama, my dude.

Aw, I want these four to be friends. For real. Can they, can they?

CHOPPER WILL YOU PLEASE STOP APOLOGIZING FOR YOUR AWFUL DAD. He wants to badly to atone for something that he didn't even do. This kid. I guess though that that's what makes him so great.

I make fun, but I do think that it's kind of sad that Palm seems to be breaking down not because of the way his life will change if he can't walk properly, but because he can't take care of Nueng if his leg is messed up. Although that's not entirely accurate, I can understand the mentality. I just wish that he still wasn't so wrapped up in taking care of Nueng at the cost of all else. I guess that's just his personality, though.

See? Tanya's not dead. She's here to throw yet another wrench into things. Dammit, Tanya.

She's not wrong about Nueng changing. He's much less the spoiled brat that he used to be.

Hm. I honestly can't tell if she realizes what she did when she said that she was releasing Palm and that he could go back to his own life now. Or when she said that she hoped that there would be no more obstacles in Nueng's life.

These two and their disappearing acts and their notes, I swear.

Ooh I really like the song playing over this though. Anyone know what it is?

*quick google later*

Oooh never mind found it! it's If You Still Wanted to Be Loved by Candelion. *adds to playlist rotation*

Part of me is annoyed with Palm. I get not wanting to be a burden on Nueng but also, there's nothing inherently weak in needing help. Although it does feel less manufactured than it could, since Palm's identity for so long has been wrapped up in how much he can do for Nueng and his family. How useful he can be and how well he can protect him.

So I guess Tanya didn't mean to send Palm off. That's good - like I said I was waffling on whether or not that was what she was going for. It didn't fit with the loving mom but then again who knows when it comes to dramas.

I do think that it's nice this time it's Nueng going after Palm, though. Good for Palm to know that he's wanted for himself. And also good for Nueng to be able to help take care of Palm. Like he could have always backed him financially, but I do think that he really started changing for the better when he had to start doing some work on the island, and when he and Palm were on more even footing than they'd ever been before.

Pfft, I don’t Nueng cares about having to be practically on top of you, Palm.

And then a montage of frolicking on the beach and running the new place. The fact that Palm named it after Nueng is entirely in character and entirely eyeroll inducing.

I love that Nueng is like "dude. I was flirting with you nonstop when you lived at my place." We all knew, Nueng. Well, not Palm I guess. But I'm not entirely sure I buy that either. He was very definitely a little too smirky on occasion not to have had some idea.

They're cute, though, and I have to admit that I was expecting a far more angsty version of the lonely cowherd and the maiden story. I don't get the impression that the separation will be permanent, for one. And I do think that it's good that Nueng goes off to pursue his drams.

And dear lord we finally got Palm quitting it with the Mr. Nuengs. Of course it would be the last five minutes of the drama.

This was a fun ride. I had a good time pretty much all the way through, and I think that the chemistry between the leads actually improved as we went along, which was nice (it was good to begin with but it definitely got better). Kit was a fun villain actually, and again, the fact that he was clearly having a grand time made me like him even when I thought that he might be pointing a gun at Chopper, which is just not on. Chopper was my favorite pretty much from moment one, he was the best and I am glad that in the end he was happy. My emotional journey on Ben went up and down a lot. Chanon sucks.

I really did like Nueng's journey in the end. He starts off an isolated, spoiled little brat with more balls than sense and becomes a decent boss and hard worker with a solid friend group, a boyfriend, and more balls than sense. I liked that part though so I make no complaints.

I wish Palm had been a little more present in the middle eps - he was in every scene, practically, and yet his character felt a little passive and one note for too long. Although I do feel like much of that can be attributed to the (unfair) job he was given by his dad and his hangups around that. His teasing banter with Nueng was almost always great, though.

Final: 7/10. I had a good time overall, but I do feel like it could have been better. Probably part of that was that I didn’t really get the kind of angst that I personally wanted. I wanted more bodyguard angst, more of Nueng questioning what Palm really feels, how sincere he is being vs how he feels he has to act as someone who has sworn to protect Nueng and his heart. I wanted Palm to be more worried that Nueng was only going for him because he was there, even though we could all tell that was never the case. Nueng wasn’t kidding when he said he’d been after Palm from pretty much day one. Instead I got them both running off on the other and leaving sappy “live your life free of me” letters. It’s fine but it’s not the meal I was craving.

I admit I was also kind of annoyed with Palm taking off in the last act. We all knew that this was going to come back to the yearly meeting at the island, of course, but getting there felt kind of like an afterthought. Like the writers were like “oh, crap, we almost forgot that they have to separate. How do? Oh I know, have Palm make a bullshit ‘sacrifice’, that always works.” I don’t know. It just didn’t gel for me personally. It wasn’t melodramatic enough on the whole for me to buy into that bit. I’d still recommend it so long as you don’t take it too seriously.

In summation, Chopper is still the best and should get all the things he wants. 

[thegleampt3]

more umineko thoughts. spoilers etc

im reading the manga for the ep 8 halloween party and once again getting emotional and also thinking about. Morality and the fact that yeah very very few people are truly evil. and also as much as i despise certain umineko characters i think it is true that yeah they werent all awful all of the time and that is a way that people are for better or for worse. someone who can be awful and cause a lot of pain to one person can be delightful and kind to someone else. that doesnt make their horrible actions justified or inherently make them worthy of forgiveness but the complexity of humans is very interesting. also i do personally believe that kinzo in particular does not deserve any sort of peace or forgiveness but if the people who were most harmed by his actions want to live in a world where circumstances were different and where he was not a horrible abuser i can understand that fully. its ultimately up to the people harmed to decide how they will heal. all of the parents who absolutely do still contribute to a lot of their children's suffering also do all have moments where they are shown to care a lot about their children and that obviously also hits very hard for a lot of people myself included who have complex relationships with their parents etc but i think umineko in particular does it really well. i also think battler is a really great protagonist because he contrasts so much with how a lot of the other ushiromiyas are presented, he's an outsider, he's a stupid 18 year old boy, he's for the most part extremely kind and sweet and so so empathetic HOWEVER THAT BEING SAID I WILL NEVER FORGIVE HIM FOR BEING MEAN TO MARIA EVER but that in itself is an example of the point i am trying to get to here where a lot of those traits that i do consider to be positive end up hurting people around him even more. he's genuine and overly trusting and just Cannot accept that any of his family members would do horrible things which is.. so understandable and i was definitely in the same mindset as him when i was going through the early episodes even though i saw how horrible all of the parents were i just... wanted to believe in them because battler did. and that is also a large part of the tragedy to me. paired with the fact too that he made what was at the time a sweet promise to sayo but ended up being hurt so much by his own family too that he was unable to come back. and i fully understand why he wanted nothing to do with the ushiromiyas and i also fully understand why it caused sayo so much pain especially with all of her dysphoria and thinking that her body was broken and later on learning the circumstances of her birth... its just so sad. i think its really good writing though having most of the ushiromiya parents be people who are so so awful and cause so much pain and yet Do have love for their children and Do have the potential to break the cycle of abuse. paired with battler who while being so so kind also has the ability to cause unspeakable amounts of pain. i am kind of losing my train of thought now goodbye thank you for reading my incoherent thoughts if you did

[losyash]

Draft from 15th of June: How many chapters does MHA have left?

an old post I found in my drafts. did not finish it exactly but I figured it might be a fun read for someone. I tried to calculate it via anime seasons (laid down nicely) and manga volumes (did not lay down nicely at all but I forgot abt the last volume bonus content which is bound to be more than usually)

this was after ch 425 so I still had just a tiny bit of copium left in me

everything after the cut is text from the draft:

tldr: around ten maybe, maybe forty

one of our main measuring points there will be the anime coming out

as this wikipedia screenshot shows, season 7 is going to have 21 episode. we are one third through!

episode one starts with chapter 329 and ends with last pages of chapter 331. three chapters.

i decided not to check every single ep because that's long and annoying and instead grab all seven. if the amount of chapters serialised is consistent episode seven should end with chapter 349. which is exactly what happens!

so by extending this logic we can assume that episode 21 will contain chapters 389, 390 and 391 thus ending dabi's plotline in final war arc and bringing up the sad man parade. the main trick here is that chapter 391 is 9 pages long so exact details may vary but honestly i am willing to bet the season will end around there

but what then?

right now studio bones makes their anime seasons have either 25 eps (mha s7 is not an outlier if you count specials btw) or somewhere between 12-13. how many exactly? well

in last ten years there was one anime with 10 eps, 2 with 11, 9 with 13 and 18 with 12, however among those 18 two had specials released either during the airing period or just before it akin to s7 specials so it might be more correct to say that there are 10 animes with 13 episodes, 16 with 12 episodes and one with 14. debatable honestly

we will keep all three possibilities in mind

so, how many chapters is that? chapters 392-423 fit perfectly to give us 11 episodes

which means 1 more chapter for 12 episode (probably not)

4 more chapters for 13 episodes (most likely option out of three)

40 chapters for 25 episodes

"okay well what about manga volumes?"

GREAT QUESTION

we usually get 12 chapters per volume. the last released volume is vol. 40 which goes up to chapter 410 and includes it.

by the same logic volume 41 will contain chapters 411-422. but maybe actually 411-423 because come on that's just. one last chapter of final arc. it does not fit well here.

42 - 424-436

43 - 436-448

44 - 449-456

45 - 457-465??

math does not math well here to be honest. it DOES lower chances of getting like five chapters and be done significantly, but beyond that? debatable

what about the plot however? we still have several threads hanging:

lov state, surviving members, their fates

tomura dying and kurogiri's sacrifice. to be honest chapter 420 does not make me believe hori gives a single fuck about kuro and his plotline but what if??

mystery person

izuku's dad (horikoshi did say he wants to do something with him but as for ch 425 we still have nothing)

actually becoming the greatest hero. it did not happen yet. allmight can say whatever he wants really but izuku has not even graduated, i kinda doubt hori will just leave him in 2-a

ochako and shouto's plotlines in general. they don't feel finished yet and we know that at least with shouto there is definitely something coming up next chapter

a lot to cover. i would normally say four chapters definitely won't cut it but then again we DID have four pages to resolve the rooftop gang plotline. it's not the likely option but it's still an option for me now

horikoshi himself predicted he would end the manga in 2024 but he did the same thing about 2023 plus he could not have predicted the amount of breaks he is taking. still it does speak more in favor of having maybe 10 maybe 20 chapters rather than 40.

[pwblogarchive]

March 2004

March 2, 2004

"And the oldest movie I ever saw was the one we wrote together..." So I know I wrote about it already. But the dvd is turning out brilliantly. I guess there was a reason to film all of that footage early on (we can laugh now). It makes me so happy to see these kids in my band and how I don't think I could share a stage with anyone else (we'll make you fall in love too). The artwork looks insane too, it is comprised of valentines form the 1930s its so sad yet romantic (aren't we all). Anyway. Getting ready for europe. Want me to sneak you in my bag?

- petey

March 13, 2004

lovers.

england is amazing. its so strange to hear our words coming out of mouths across an ocean. we have been able to hang out with some bands over here that we have not crossed paths with in the states and have talked about doing tours with them, the fight and senses fail (i can drop hearts as easy as you drop names). we've been writing a bunch of new stuff since we have been over here, i hope you get to hear it soon. the chocolate here is sex everything else is not quite as sex. we are sharing a bus with the god awfuls- they are loud and funny. new morrissey record is gonna be hot. 

you are the quarry.

Me being sleepy in England

right off the bus looking for cherry cokes and the internet, lazy bones.

i can't wait to kiss you on the mouth.

- petey

March 17, 2004

here is the soundtrack to us falling in love:

the academy- ep- dont sleep they are gonna be huge

joy division- she's lost control

electronic- the old one

kent- velvet

bane- "can we start again?"

the weakerthans

carcass- only post heartwork

june- sick and underrated chicago band

i know you might roll your eyes at this but i'm so glad that you exist.

dear america, see you in a couple of days.

- petey

 March 18, 2004

7:18 pm.

“all the failures die starryeyed”

it`s funny by the time you realize who your real friends are you don`t have any. i`m sorry. please call me.

March 22, 2004

“young hearts be free tonight, time is on your side”

back from europe. we took it over. we leave for atlanta tonight. more about that later. they sold our cd at the heathrow london airport. i am so into rod stewart right now except for real. the best love songs- some guys have all the luck.

p

March 22, 2004

“love is blind but not deaf”

Its funny howmuch you run your mouth when I am out of town. Your stories have gotten so much better than you ever were. I'm sick of the phonecalls asking me about the shit you say. You are a flash in the coffin. The hits feel like the joke, watching your teeth fall out is the punchline. Those that live in glasshearts shouldn't throw stones (and I bet you never thought I knew). I'm not your friend anymore.

If you think this is about you. It is.

March 23, 2004

Let me start this by saying people who need prefaces are those unsure, halfway there- arguments can't stand on there own (neither can we). In writing rules exist but are never followed. That is my preface. What you are going to read won't make sense but this preemptive paragraph makes that okay (because I know it). I'm not the kind of kid who believes in god or luck. But I somehow always find myself dropping prayers on takeoffs on airplanes and dodging cracks in the sidewalk. I'm not the kind of kid who believes in much of anything anymore. Just in feeding this paper and phonereciever lies (its always hungry for more). Yes, this is my subtle way of saying I'm sorry or I don't care anymore. To me love can be figured out like card counting, you always take cards on 11s (the house always wins). I wouldn't have anything to write if I wasn't dealt such bad hands. This keyboard covers the stuttering well. Break a name, drop a heart. Its all the same.

Don't believe a word. Iin my moind me and you are so far away all the time.

Don't get me wrong.

I am honestly having the time of my life.

I just want to sink to the bottom with you.

- petey

March 24, 2004

whenever i think of your arms

i forget what street to turn on.

March 27, 2004

"this is love, this is murderous"

Florida has been amazing. Its great to be back. Its like summer here all year. Our label took us out to universal studios. Brilliant. The faces here feel like home. We got to hang out with our good friends in bleeding through and see them play. They smoke. More later.

Ps the only two movies worth a shit right now are amelie and dawn of the dead. Its tough times for dreamers.

Peter cottontail

Iwanttosinktothebottomwithyou.

March 31, 2004

You can live with me in this house I built with writers blocks. I finished writing the clandestine story. I think its okay, now my friend tim beidron has to finish drawing it. Florida was amazing. Saw lots of old faces. Do you ever think sometimes you can't wait to be years away from now and content and succesful and done with all the turbulence? 

I do. 

Goodbless repeat play on my stereo.

- petey

[chloeafrazier]

Why I Felt Caroline Was More Understanding To Mary Then She Was To Laura and how it was Not Right or Fair.

Hey Everyone How are You all doing Today ? Today I would Like to talk about Little House On Prairie again and yes i know that i talk

about it a lot and all but Here is the thing Because i felt that Laura was Not Taken Up for very Much in the shoe i feel that i have to take

up for her and defend her in My Blog Post Because i feel that she was Just Kinda told to Just deal with a Lot of stuff at a very Young age

and Just felt That Charles and Caroline were More Understanding and Accepting Of Mary and Her Mistakes Then were to Laura and her

Mistakes and i just always felt bad for Laura about that ans since there was not a whole Lot of times when Caroline ever really stood

Up or said anything for Laura at Least Not when she was a Little Girl anyway Caroline kinda did not have much to do with Laura untill she

was 15 and 16 years old and i Never Understood why she did that Because when it is all said and done Mary and Laura are both her

Daughters and Mary and Laura both Needed there Mother and i Just felt that the way the writers wrote the show and all they always Made

Caroline seem and be so distant and disconnected from Laura when she was Little Like in season 2 Ep 18 Entitled for My Lady where

Charles is trying to surprise Caroline with a New set of Dishes and in one of the scenes Caroline is getting on to Laura because she was

Upset about having to Give her Marble to Willie and Mary being very rude says I tired to tell her not to i know that she probable not

meaning an harm by that but i don t know it just kinda made me feel bad for Laura like i have said before it was almost as if the writers

were trying to insinuate that Mary was the Good Daughter and Laura was the bad Daughter anyway so Caroline gets Upset with Laura and

says Laura eat your dinner and go to bed and then in the same Episode same season same Everything Caroline asks Mary if Mr

Hanson said he did not Know where Charlies was Today ? and Mary said Yeah that is what he said and Then Mary asked why and Caroline

walked over to her and Acted all sweet and Motherly to Mary and says No Reason Good Night Dear Like okay Hold on how can you yell

at One Daughter kinda for not reason and 3 Minutes Later Look at your Other Daughter and Say Good Night Dear Like that is Not Fair

and not right and Like i have said Before i am not trying to say that Loved or cared for Mary More but i do think that they were Much

Much more Understanding and Much More Accepting to Mary then they were to Laura and Caroline was a Lot Kinder to Mary then she

was to Laura and i don t Understand why and because of that it made me feel very sad for Laura Now if you want some More

examples then i have some Blog Post about this Topic in Blogs Like why i felt Caroline was More Motherly to Mary then she was to Laura

or my Blog Entitled why i felt sorry for Laura Go and Check out Those Blog Post as well so you can get a Better Idea about what i mean and then post a Comment and tell me what you think .

[wilderavyn]

Watch Love Class 2 Ep 1 & 2 with me

Ep 1

1:06 Well this is a rough way to start a show. 😕

1:37 Oh damn. He really just did that.

2:16 They're one of those couples huh?

9:09 Why would you listen to him?

10:06 Well that was awkward af. lol

19:22 What is happening?

Ep 2

He is bold!

4:25 I totally thought the first guy was his bf but I guess they're just friends. He's definitely more interested in whoever this guy is.

8:34 This guy seems so sad.

9:40 God damn this guy is unhappy. You should probably run the other direction but you're probably going to get together huh?

10:10 Not exactly sure who likes who yet. Do they like each other?

11:20 He definitely likes him and now he's leaving. 😕

11:55 WTF dude.

13:41 He clearly doesn't want to talk to you dude.

14:17 lol he totally just blew him off. Hope he takes a hint.

15:09 I love a good sunshine vs grump falling in love dynamic.

16:05 That was a clever way to try to shut him up.

18:50 It definitely didn't work . lol

19:40 Why are you drinking by yourself poor baby.

21:15 Oh no! Don't leave! 😢

21:57 Of course you're leaving because of him.

23:28 He is pulling my heartstrings here.

23:45 Omg mr grump can actually smile?

24:18 Oh damn. So that's why he's so sad all the time.

25:19 Oh this is going to be interesting.

26:18 Hitting on his tutor. How cute.

I knew nothing about this show beforehand. I am mainly watching for J-Min of BAE173 but I'm actually really enjoying the show so far.

[evelzzzk]

Dragons eat Seahorses series: The Storm's Aftermath - Female OC Velaryon Reader x Aemond Targaryen (Chapter 3)

Chapter 1: Battlefield between the sheets

Chapter 2: Outburst of chaos

This is a bit lengthy one but... I think it's definitely worth it, so much is going on in this part guys, I had to make it a bit longer. I hope you enjoy this one as well as the last ones!

WARNINGS(!): Smut, 18+ NSFW, angst, mentions of violence and killing, gulity/comfort sex, dub-con, semi-public sex, clothed sex, lovers to enemies/enemies to lovers dynamic.

ENGLISH IS MY 2ND LANGUAGE.

Word count: approx 7,2k

DISCLAIMER: Mentions of ep 8, 9 and 10 HOTD events

SUMMARY: The day of the coronation of this traitor Aegon has finally come. You had some plan of escaping from it alongside with your mother, she has even outdone you in its realization but your attempts to escape ended in a fiasco as you didn't want any bloodshed to be caused by yourself. After that you stayed in King's Landing and Aemond was sent to Lord Borros Baratheon to negotiate. But never in your life have you suspected that the consequences of this arrangement would be so deplorable, inciting a war even. You quickly revised your decision of marrying Aemond, but he had his way to make you choose otherwise.

Playlist: Track 1, track 2, track 3, track 4

- Are you sure that this is a good idea, My Lady? – asked ser Ryon with a hint of doubt in his voice while he was tying up your armlets with the highest precision. You’ve asked him to help you put your armor on as you couldn’t afford the risk of betraying your plans by some maid to the Prince. Besides, ser Ryon was a knight after all, he knew the complicated art of putting on all those war pieces better.

- I am sure. This is a sad day, ser Ryon, both for me and for all those people who can’t stand this treachery. And I’m not going to endure it wearing a pretty gown and smiling stupidly like all those court gooses – the knight said nothing, only smiled at your undisguised stubbornness and he continued fastening your breastplate. You decided to wear your favorite set, with a huge image of Carantes on plastron and studded with small sapphires, covered with various engravings.

All of sudden you heard knocking on the door. You shook, looking at your sworn shield desperately. You knew who was behind that door and certainly it wasn’t someone who should see you parading in your shiny cuirass.

- A moment please! I’m not ready yet! – you shouted loud enough to keep the intruder out.

Ser Ryon quickly passed you a thick navy cloak, matching your outfit and you covered yourself with it tightly to make sure that none metal scrap would show through it. You looked at yourself in the mirror to be absolutely sure. You huffed nervously, adjusting protruding curves of armor carefully. You glanced at ser Ryon questioningly and he nodded only with assurance.

- Alright, come in!

The door opened and Aemond appeared in front of your eyes. The Prince looked at you with visible confusion, scanning your whole attire.

- My Lady... I must admit I have expected your apparel to be more... sophisticated – he said suspiciously, his shrill eyes were still looking for any kind of a drawback. His glance made you move anxiously.

- Well, due to the fact that I will not be the center of attention today, I thought that it would be more...appropriate – you tried to grin and bear it and his gaze finally relented. A small amused snort left his mouth.

- Come then, little dove. We don’t want to keep our future king waiting, do we? – he pulled out his arm towards you and you grabbed it without hesitation. All three of you walked away and headed to the carriage waiting for you in the courtyard. If you were to be honest, you would have preferred riding to the Dragon Pit on your dragon back and burn the hell out this place with The Greens included. But you abandoned this plan quickly because Carantes was locked securely away from you in the pit.

When you finally reached your destination you hoped that your mother was already on her way to the Dragonstone or at least embarked on the ship. Aemond and ser Ryon led you to the center inside of The Pit where some kind of an altar was now located, it must have been prepared specially for the coronation. You took your place between The Prince and Helaena, ser Ryon was standing closely behind you. You guessed by her face expression that she didn’t want to be here as strongly as you did. Alicent, The Queen Dowager at present, gave you a restorative look and you only bowed lightly in respond. You despised her, she was perfectly aware of inability of her failure son to rule and yet she pushed him to it, considering his gender as the only excuse. She has even pushed on organizing this entire lark in the Dragon Pit before the masses to gain their credit.

The sound of fanfares and the approaching retinue of guards snapped you out of your thoughts. And among guards you saw him. Aegon was striding hesitantly as if he was still not quite certain of what he was doing here. Run you fool, you can still save your and this throne honor, you thought watching him coming closer and closer. But he didn’t run away. He crossed the stairs to the altar and suddenly rested his eyes on you.  You turned your head away from his bawdy gaze and he only smiled mockingly at your disgust. Aemond must have seen this brief interaction between you two because he stiffened momentarily and grabbed your waist, pulling you closer to him. He has always defended you from his unappeased brother as Aegon has always sought for the occasion to provoke you or pinch you in the wrong spot, causing Aemond to rip his brother’s guts off almost. Aegon must have counted on greater opportunity to torment you due to his new position. After Aemond’s dead body.

You looked through the crowd and a familiar face has striked you. Your mother’s face.

Mother?! What the hell are you doing here?!, you thought being deeply in shock and you were about to warn her somehow but she stopped you from doing any risky move, simply by putting a finger to her mouth. You stopped none too soon and checked if anyone has seen your sudden fluster. Luckily no one was paying attention to you at the moment.

The Hand of the King, Otto Hightower (the man you despised the most) started his speech, lying through his teeth about sudden change of will of the dead King concerning his succession. Your bowels were twisting while listening to these prevarications. Then the actual part of the ceremony began and the Grand Maester started to anoint that drunkard of a successor and gave him blessings. The sword of Aegon the Conquer, Blackfyre, was given to his pathetic namesake. You fought with indescribable urge to kick the sword off his hand and decapitate him with it. A demonstrative yawn escaped your lips and Helaena giggled at your sudden sign of disdain. Aemond casted an admonishing look on you but his lips curved in a smirk involuntarily, betraying his actual feelings.

You looked through the mob again, but your mother was nowhere to be seen. She disappeared into thin air. But you knew exactly why and what she was about to do.

After all those ministrations it was time for the climax. The ruby crown of The Conquer was finally put on this traitor head and it was put there by none other than Criston Cole, another turncoat.

Aegon raised his newly received sword, wallowing in the crowds admiration and applause. After a long moment of his excitement you heard a noisy roar coming from beneath the floor as it started to shake. You knew that sound all too well. The adrenaline rush began to overflow you.

The crowd has frozen at the sound of another horrific growl. A second later floor plates exploded with a terrific rumble, falling with a heavy momentum, literally crushing people around with their weight. When the dust fell at last, two tremendous corpses of giantic reptiles showed up. „There is a beast beneath the boards!” Helaena’s prophecy was now ringing in your ears. Well, two beasts to be exact. Carantes alongside with Meleys straddled by no one else than Rhaenys started to squash surrounding them people with their limbs and tails, throwing them to all sides. It was quite a sight, although Carantes was two times bigger than the older she-dragon. Those who managed to flee from beasts terror were running now for their lives towards the gate, which unintelligible guards began to close. The throng was uncontrollable now, screams and desperate cries were only things you could hear at the moment. The total chaos has reigned.

- Open the door! – you heard a stentorian shout from Otto Hightower. But guards haven’t heard him as they kept on closing the gate.

- Let my daughter go – Rhaenys  blustered while she was trying to keep Meleys in check – Come, Elaena. Carantes has missed you quite badly – she added gesturing her hand at your dragoness, who wailed pitifuly as if she could actually understand her words.

Aemond stepped in your way, shielding you with his body. Alicent ran to Aegon and did exactly the same thing with her other son, holding his hand for dear life. Ser Ryon stood by your side with a sword ready. Criston Cole took his position in front of Helaena as he was ordered by the Queen.

- Let my daughter go and I’ll let you live. All of you – you heard your mother’s relentless entreaty. Burn them, mother. Burn them all!, your eyes were begging her ardently. You were sure that Carantes and Meleys would have never harm you, in any way. But deep inside you knew Rhaenys would never do this. First, it wasn’t her war to start and second – she couldn’t hurt Alicent and Aegon, not after she has seen her defending her son as befits a mother. In that case, you couldn’t allow any bloodshed.

- I’ll stay, mother. I won’t let bloodshed happen because of me – you tried to reason with her – You go, fly away. I swear, I’ll join you sooner or later.

Rhaenys looked at you in wonder. But in the end, she realized that it was the most sensible solution to get out of this situation.

- Stay safe, my child. You have found yourself in a vipers nest and remember – you can’t trust anyone. Not even him – she pointed her head at Aemond who kept his watchful eyes on her – I’m looking forward to embrace you, my beloved one. We all do.

After this rather tender farewell she turned the reins and forced Meleys to fly. A moment later you saw The Red Queen and her Mistress flying off the Dragon Pit. But the threat has not been averted as Carantes continued to kick violently in place. She was vexed by the sight of you being trapped behind wall of people and by the lack of your reaction to this. You saw by her lights that The Killing Beauty was about to be very killing.

You tried to pass Aemond in order to soothe the dragoness, but he stopped you with his hand, apparently thinking that you wanted to escape.

- Aemond, let me through. If I won’t calm her down, she will burn the place to the ground and no one will be able to stop her, not even me – you tried to reason with him. He ultimately let you go without taking his eyes off you, however.

You slowly approached the dragon and hugged her muzzle, stroking the nostrils. She tried to cuddle even more, by pulling her head closer, almost knocking you over.

- Shh, it’s alright. Iksan kesīr, riña. Nyke gīmigon ao mesar nyke, yn nyke kostagon daor sōvegon lēda ao sir (I’m here, girl. I know you missed me, but I can’t fly with you now) – you didn’t know if dragons were fluent in High Valyrian, but Carantes had to get the context, because she was now looking at you with her big, golden eyes with sadness.

You petted her a little bit more as you saw her leaning to your touch. You greatly regretted that you couldn’t just simply hop on her and fly far away from there.

- Rȳbagon naejot nyke sir. Istia sōvegon qrīdrughagon (Listen to me now. You must fly away) – Carantes snorted at you fixedly - Istia obeor nyke. Kesi rhaenagon aderī, nyke kivio. (You must obey me. We will meet soon, I promise).

Dragoness initially seemed to finally obey but in the last act of mutiny she pulled your cloak with her snout, revealing your well-hidden (so far, at least) armor. You heard some gasps and rattle of swords. Shit, you thought, being mad at your beast’s malice.

- Did you know she was armed the whole time? – ser Criston asked Aemond with a grudge. But The Prince didn’t grace this question with his answer as he was staring at you, dumbfounded.

- Sōves, Carantes! Sir! (Fly, Carantes! Now!) – you shouted at her wanting her to fly away immediately. The dragon was still resisting.

- Vestan sōves! (I said, fly!) – you spanked her lightly in her long, massive neck. She finally listened, as she, reluctantly at first, picked up her wings for flight. After a while she flew away at last, crashing adjacent walls to the gate, when crossing it.

You turned yourself around only to see those people still being aghast by your coming out. Or maybe it was your hardihood that hit them.

- She has attempted to kill the King! Guards, seize her! – Otto Hightower commanded. You really hated that man.

- Oh believe me Lord Otto, I would do this with the greatest pleasure, but it wouldn’t be much of a challenge for me – you snapped back hatefully, thinking too little. You soon has regretted these words bitterly as you saw guards coming at you with their swords and shields in readiness. Again, without thinking, you drew your sword as well, wondering how you were going to cut through all of them.

- Father, enough of this nonsense! Elaena didn’t want to assassinate Aegon, she only tried to defense herself! And her true intention was to escape from here with her mother! – you were surprised hearing how Alicent tried to defend you somehow. But her father, The Hand, remained impassive.

Criston Cole approached you at your fingertips, waving his sword warningly. You only smiled with pity.

- Come, Cole. Harm me and the last thing you’ll ever going to experience in that miserable life of yours will be the force of the entire Velaryon fleet and my dragon’s wrath – you provoked him with a feral spark in your eye.

- Ser Criston, I command you to sheathe your sword! If you will do anything to her… - you heard distressful Alicent’s obsecration again.

But it was too late. You raised you sword and swinged it to clash against the knight’s blade. But it wasn’t Criston’s sword that you’ve hit. It was Aemond’s.

- Stop this, Elaena. Do you really want so despairingly to loose your head over this prick brother of mine?! – he hissed into your ear. You looked at him with hopelessness. You dropped your sword and it hit the floor with a loud rattle. Quiet sobs were coming out from your mouth as you tried to cover them with your hand. You were shaking all over, feeling the whole tension leaving your body. It's been a long time since you felt like this, so… vulnerable and defenseless.  

A fog has covered your field of view as you felt you were drifting away. Aemond caught you in his strong embrace in the last moment.

The last thing you’ve remembered from that day was him taking you out of the Dragon Pit. All the other memories were nothing but a misty haze.

*****

You spent the next few days preparing for your wedding with Aemond or rather Alicent alongside with Helaena tried to keep you busy with arrangements due to your last vagary and the fact that you didn’t feel well. And how could you feel any good when you missed your family so much it made you wither. You were wondering whether they were waiting for you or planning to rescue you. These thoughts were sneaking through your head even if you wanted to focus on something else, something fiddling like which coiffure will you wear for the wedding or what color will your gown be.

Aemond barely honored you with his presence during most of days as he was totally absorbed with different kind of planning – such as gathering the right amount of allies for his family, which one of them he should convince and which he should let go, and by letting go he meant setting them on fire with Vhagar. In the evenings, however, he kept you company, sitting with you by the fireplace and even braiding your hair. He tried to convince you that Helaena has taught him how to braid some plaits and how he has always loved your dark, thick hair. You only chuckled in disbelief while listening to his excuses. But you knew he was trying to cheer you up, as your dejection had him a millstone round his neck.

One evening you were sitting by the fireside as usual, watching flames dancing vigorously and sparks crackling merrily. This time Aemond braided your hair in some kind of a viking style as he called it, plaiting your strands solicitously around the back of your head. This man has never ceased to surprise you.

- How preparations for our wedding are going, my betrothed? – he broke the silence.

- Lovely. Today Helaena has suggested that she will maybe weave some of her dried up butterflies into my updo – he bursted off with sincere laughter.

- And I assume you’ve rejected this quaint idea? – you glowered at him with a pout. It certainly meant "yes". He kept on chuckling when he saw your grimace.

- My mother is sending me to The Storm’s End to negotiate with Lord Borros Baratheon – he suddenly changed the topic and you strained your eyes on him.

- Lord Borros is a strongly proud man. And what if he demands that you should marry one of his three undoubtedly charming daughters? – you asked him setting a trap for him. He looked at you as if you just swallowed a whole fish.

- Don’t be ridiculous, Elaena. I arranged with my mother that if Lord Borros requests a marriage in exchange for an alliance, I will offer him Daeron as he still remains without a fiancée.

Prince Daeron Targaryen, known later as Daeron the Daring, younger brother of Aemond and the youngest child of King Viserys and Queen Alicent. It's been years since you last saw him because he was sent away to the Oldtown as a young boy to serve as a squire to Lord Ormund Hightower, the Queen’s cousin. But you have remembered him as a cheerful lad, the gentlest among his brothers, which made you even wonder at times whether he was a legitimate son, so much he was different. 

-…  but it will be a short excursion, The Storm’s End is pretty close to King’s Landing - the Prince's deliberation took you out of your thoughts.

- Of course. And I suppose you will burn down the ancestral Baratheons stronghold with Vhagar if the negotiations wouldn’t go your way?

- Naturally. I even think Vhagar would feel offended if I would’ve acted otherwise – he laughed heartily at your unquestionable assumption.

*****

The next day when Aemond left to The Storm’s End you felt uneasy. A huge storm has arisen and you have worried, without even knowing why exactly. Not that this tempest would’ve stopped Vhagar, that colossal beast would even survive a hurricane. Aemond was also a pretty skilled rider, at least that's what you thought until that fateful day. For your own luck, you didn’t know that Prince Lucerys Velaryon will pay a visit to Lord Borros too, as an envoy from the Blacks. Because if you have known, you would go there by yourself instead of Aemond and even negotiate for the opposite team against your will. Or at least you would try to warn Luke somehow from getting anywhere near to his dogged uncle. You knew full well that Aemond has never forgiven the wrong Luke has done to him, even if he tried to persistently hide it. That wound has still remained opened and began to fester again after the last supper, when King Viserys was still alive and wanted to see his quarreling family reunite again for the last time, but your One-Eyed Prince decided to ruin that moment by making a toast for “the three Strong boys”. He was provoked by Lucerys, yes, but this was such a childish instigation that you thought he was going to let it go. But he didn’t and he will do so again, seeking for the nearest opportunity to get his revenge at last.

The hours passed ruthlessly slowly as you tried to occupy your mind somehow. At first you just read the book but eventually your eyes grew weary and you had to search for the new distraction. You focused on some trivialities such as choosing the right material for your wedding gown and embellishments for it. The storm did not stop, you peeked through the window and it was chucking down, lightning bolts lit the sky every moment. You thought of Aemond being soaked to his bones and you having to wipe all that dampness off him. The image of his bedraggled body had you aroused even a bit. Yes, that would be a sight to admire.

Heavy footsteps coming from behind the door snapped you out of your fantasies. The door has opened with a loud clatter as you were sitting on the bed’s edge, crumpling some fabric in your hands. After a moment Aemond entered the chamber and you were right, he was wet to the skin indeed. Water was dripping from his tangled hair as well as from his long coat. His face was pale white due to the cold and being completely drenched. But as you were studying his face more closely you knew something was not right. His expression was blank, dull you could say. When he started walking towards you, he limped a little. Then the thought came to your mind that maybe the negotiations with Lord Borros didn’t go well and Aemond’s listlessness was a result of a failure at performing his duty to the family. Perhaps there was a fight even as you presumed seeing his hobbling.

- Aemond, take off your clothes, you’ll catch a cold – you said quietly, you’ve really started to worry about him.

He took off his cloak and threw it on the floor negligently. But he didn’t seem to be aware of your concern as he kept on walking to you blindly. He kneeled between your legs and laid his head on your thigh, panting silently. You unconsciously started to caress his cheek with your fingers, wiping off the moisture.

- Can I fuck you? I need to feel you so badly, please… - his unexpected request startled you but you didn’t say a single word as you let his hands wander under the skirt of your dress, doffing your skin from ankles to inner of your thighs. When his fingers has reached your core, he looked at you waiting for your permission and you simply nodded. He pushed one of his long digits between your folds without any rush, moving it at a steady pace. You easily became wet and you wandered about what was wrong with you, getting aroused in such situation with him being suspiciously tender with you and scared as if he expected you to run away from him at any moment. He kissed your womb and clit, lapping his tongue on your nether lips gingerly, coaxing more breathy moans from you. Your juices were dripping down his chin and he licked them greedily with a purring hum. You wanted more of this delicious delight but suddenly he stopped, raising from his feet, laid you down on the bed carefully and he took off his breeches, leaving the upper part of his outfit on.

He settled himself between your legs, tucking your dress to your hips, not caring about undressing you fully. He pressed you deeper into the mattress with all his body weight and you could feel his already rigid manhood rubbing against your folds. He smelled with weird mixture of wind and Vhagar’s scent, composed of mud, her tough rugged skin and something else.  

With one swift thrust he buried himself inside you all the way to the hilt, causing a dramatic cry to escape your mouth. He kissed you sappily to prevent another moans and his moves gained a rhythmic pace, even a lazily one you could say.

- You’re mine and mine alone…  He won’t take you, not anymore – he chugged against your neck and got you confused as you didn’t know of who he was talking, did he mean Daemon possibly? But that seemed to not fit as you assumed that The Rogue Prince wasn’t at The Storm’s End. 

Aemond’s movements became more and more chaotic, his hips pushed into you frantically as you heard his hoarse growls. His stark cock was pleasantly warm unlike his body, being still cold and dank. His hands grabbed every inch of your body they could impetuously, his lips were giving wet, open-mouthed kisses on your cleavage just below your collarbones.  

-… she disobeyed me and I tried everything to stop her. There was nothing I could do… Her rage was unstoppable… - he whispered and caught you off guard again. You were quite certain that he was talking about that bloodthirsty beast of his.

You tried to push him away unsuccessfully, as you wanted to inquire him about what the hell was going on but you remained powerless against his force. He didn’t seem to notice your attempt get out of him as he continued his rampageous thrusts.

- Aemond…! Stop this, right now! – you were still struggling with him without any result, again.

- I watched him falling down from the sky… his riven pieces carried away by the wind… - his piercing words made you finally pushing him off with lasts of your strength and you jumped out of bed like a scolded cat. It was a quite small loss as you weren't able to reach your climax in any way, not under those circumstances and not with him in this state.

- What have you done, Aemond?! What Vhagar has done…?! – his face was genuinely frightened and he covered it with his hands. You felt wrath growing within you.

- Vhagar got.. enraged by Arrax… she chased him and didn’t obey to any of my commands… She teared him to shreds and there was NOTHING I could do about it…! – he was almost sobbing, you glanced at him and saw drops trickling down his cheeks. It wasn’t because of his dampness – those were sincere tears.

Arrax, Lucerys dragon, a baby dragon to be precise. The dreadful truth has hit you with such potency that you had to grab the nearest chair to prevent yourself from falling to the floor. You couldn't say a word for a long while because you felt that any of them might choke you. But you had to finally to tell something because your ingrowing exasperation would strangle you sooner or later.

- You have killed Lucerys Velaryon, your own goddamn nephew… My cousin… And you’ve let Vhagar do this…?!

You managed to look at him back again and you saw that little boy in him, the very same he was in his childhood, vulnerable and shiftless when he was struggling to claim a dragon for his own and was bullied by not owning one. But this hasn’t melted your heart, on the contrary.

- SAY IT! You’ve murdered him, haven’t you?!

He didn’t say a single word but his guilty look was fair enough for you.

Before he could say or do anything you flew out the door, smashing them with loud bang. You headed to the beach upon The Red Keep as you desperately needed to calm yourself down even a bit, not being tormented by his face.

Lucerys, Luke. That little boy who always admired you and your sword skills, who always sought every opportunity to spar with you and you fought with him even though you could easily defeat him. He was raving immensely about Carantes as he always complained about Arrax, his looks or size in comparison to hers. And he always had to touch her in whatever way, it made you constantly defending him from the dragoness enraged by intrusive contact. Now that sweet boy was dead, murdered by your lover. His only fault was pointing out a dagger at the wrong person. His Uncle.

Your almost stumbled over slushy sand because your feet were sinking in it with ease. It was the middle of dead night and you barely could see anything because your surroundings were as dark as the grave. Either way you noticed dim, peculiar shape resembling some kind of a cliff or a dune. A second later that ‘dune’ moved revealing snoring Vhagar. You approached her with anger. At this point you didn’t really care whether she was going to ‘dracarys’ you or not.  

- Are you happy with yourself, you ferocious old hag?! You killed a little, innocent boy and ate his baby of a dragon, the very same one you were ages ago! – dragoness grunted gloomily, seemingly understanding your reproaches towards her.

You fell on your knees unwittingly, sobbing audibly and you tossed a handful of sand at the dragon. Fortunately, she didn’t bother with it at all as she was now observing you with pity.

- Are you planning to escape from me, my little dove? – you heard crunching steps coming from behind.

- Yes and I was just about to take Vhagar on a ride and maybe we would kill another innocuous entity on the way – you snapped angrily facing Aemond, who chuckled blackly at your words. The little boy he had become for a while was long gone. His real inherent countenance of a cunning fiend was back.

- Nyke kessa soure gūrogon ao va iā kipagon va zirȳla yn daor gō īlva dīnilūks, ñuha ziry-zaldrīzes (I shall surely take you on a ride on her, but not before our wedding, my Dragoness).

- Nyke vedar sora sagon zaltan naejot ñuqir ondoso Carantes tae dīnagon ao (I would sooner be burned to ashes by Carantes than marry you) – Kinslayer – you added with scorn.

He visibly flurried when he heard your new ‘pet-nickname’ for him. He started to stride towards you gustily, stretching out his hand, but you took out your own faster and slapped him in the face with all the strength you had. He swayed a bit, but still kept a steadfast posture. You started to punch his chest like an upset child, at first he didn't try to stop you, but after a while his patience ran out as he turned your back to him, keeping you caged between his strong arms. You tried to jerk off but to no avail.

- Let go, you mad woman! – he yelled impatiently, trying to keep your throwing in all directions body.

- Oh I am mad, loving a murderer like you! – you succeeded to get your hand enough to pull out a small stiletto from the neckline of your dress – Not this again…! – he wailed letting you go ultimately, avoiding your blind jabs.

For a long time, both of you were doing a weird dance, you were stabbing him at random, swiveling yourself like ballerina and Aemond was graciously dodging your prods like a leopard. You knew he was a dangerous, highly-skilled fighter and could easily knock the blade out of your palm but for some unknown reasons he didn’t do it. Clearly he enjoyed toying with you, forgetting that you also lacked nothing in terms of martial art and unlike him, you had experience in real-life encounters as well as battles.

In one moment he lost his focus for a fraction of a second by turning his head back overmuch and that was good enough for you. Single quick, smooth incision of your dagger cut the palm of his hand, leaving sanguinary oblong gash. Aemond shouted excruciatingly, glancing at his bleeding hand the turning his flabbergasted look to you. The grip on your hand loosened, dropping the bloody blade in the sand. You were staring at his bleeding out limb with stupor, not quite believing your, intentional after all, doings. After a moment of disorientation, you managed to regain your consciousness and pulled out a small bandana and started to bandage the injury, carefully wrapping the fabric around.

- You always cut men first and then fix them? – he asked mockingly, hissing lightly as you tightened the bandage, finally stopping the bleeding.

- No, I don’t. But taking into account what you have done today, consider this as a very small price – you responded, not letting go his disfigured hand, squeezing it intensely, causing another howl leaving his mouth.

- I did not want to do this. All I intended was to tease him and maybe pulling out his eye. As payment for mine – he grabbed you by forearms and looked into your eyes deeply. A spark of sincerity in his only eye convinced you that he was telling the truth.

- If you really didn’t want to do so, then you would have waited until he disappeared into thin air. Especially knowing the unpredictability of that war machine of yours – you pointed at Vhagar who was now snoring again – And yet you chased him, Vhagar sensed your subliminal craving and she did what she did in the best interests of her master – Aemond wanted to respond but before he opened his lips you continued – Don’t tell me otherwise, Aemond. You wanted to get your revenge for a very long time and it is done. And I was naïve to think you matured enough to let go of child's sins.

The Prince sighed, looking at you with resignation. Deep inside he knew that you were telling the truth which he refused to admit to himself. He grabbed your chin gently, forcing you to look him in the eye.

- The burden of this action will torment me until the end of my days, Elaena. The consequences of this act will trigger a war that was inevitable anyway and I’m ready to face them.

- You incurred an unpayable debt, Aemond. Rhaenyra and Daemon will not rest until they avenge their son. They will come for you, your unfortunate brother and your whole family.

- I’d like to see them try, with you as my wife by my side. As your husband I will repay my sins and protect you until my last breath. I will love and cherish you as my goddess and if you ask me to I will give you The Iron Throne itself.

- You've lost your mind, if you think that I still want to marr… - a formidable roar coming from the sky interrupted you. Both of you looked up and saw a dark, large shadow moving within the navy darkness of the night sky, completely blending in with it. Only the hazy starlight allowed you to see the bright pink and purple scales.

- She’s protecting her Mistress – said Aemond with a slight smirk.

Carantes circled you several times in the air and after a while landed with a noisy rumble, partially muffled by sand and laid herself next to Vhagar who has awakened. You watched in disbelief as two beasts intertwined their long necks and decided to take a nap.

- I keep forgetting that Vhagar is her mother – Prince was evidently amused by sight of two dragonesses, snoring now in unison.

- Yes, she certainly did not inherit her mother's beauty – you snapped acrimoniously – Anyway, now that my ride has already came for me, I shall fly to the Dragonstone and try to convince Rhaenyra to not burn you completely – you took a step towards the dragon but Aemond stopped you.

- You mean her? Just look at her, she’s warming with her mother’s tenderness – at this point you cursed Carantes relation with Vhagar – You want to interrupt that precious moment and hurt your endeared beast’s feelings? – you only rolled your eyes hearing this nonsense.

Aemond started to stride towards you, leading you in desirable direction and you began to withdraw, never taking your eyes off him. You walked back until you almost stumbled over a giant stone, hitting your back. You had nowhere else to go, no escape route, you were literally pressed up against a stone wall. He paced in your direction you like a lion ambushing prey, slowly, noiselessly. Finally he found himself just an inch from you, pinning you into the rock more. He looked at you victoriously with a bit of regret because that was how you were defenseless now against him.

- You want to loose another eye, Aemond? - you tried to threaten him, but only to preserve a hint of honor. He only smirked grotesquely at your words, knowing perfectly that you had no weapon, no ace up your sleeve to gain any advantage over him.

- No, that would be a severe loss, not being able to watch you when I’m possessing you – with one, solid move he lifted you with his firm hands, settling his hips between yours. You sighed heavily at the impression, his one hand started undoing his pants gustily while the other supported your bottom, digging his fingers into tender flesh of your ass cheeks. You tried to stop him but to no avail, he tucked the skirt of your dress, almost tearing the material.

- Because you have interrupted our dalliance earlier, we shall finish it now – he growled into your ear and pushed his already hardened cock all the way through your unprepared core, not caring about being any gentle. You cried painfully as his member was ravaging your not wet enough cunt, rubbing it sorely, tearing you up like a spear. Your fingers sticked into his shoulders heavily, leaving deep, livid bruises. His hips picked up a raging pace, thrusting into you punishingly, his teeth grazed exposed skin of your neck.

- You will marry me, my little dove. You shall do so or in otherwise I will burn your mother and father, mutilate her dragon and only scraps will be left of the entire Velaryon fleet - his threats ran down your skin like caustic acid, burning it severely - In the act of grace I will kill my damned Uncle and my beloved step-sister and I'll stick their dragons' heads on the pikes. I will nip this war in the bud and if Aegon turns out to be an ungrateful prick, I’ll kill him too and I’ll make you my Queen – his menaces fueled his desire because his thrusts became significantly more fierce and you couldn’t stop heated moans escaping your lips. Unconditionally you became wet enough to ease the excruciating pain and Aemond smirked lewdly, sensing your liquids running down his cock.

- I’d sooner be dev… oh… devoured by… Vhagar than be dragged down… down the altar! – you managed to gasp between his feral moves, his dick was hitting you in like a whip, racking this spot inside of you.

- My darling, this is a quite great idea but let me improve it a bit. I shall tie you up to Vhagar when I’ll be burning your closest ones, making you watch every second of it – he whispered to your ear seemingly being excited by this whole vision. His palm clenched around your neck, squeezing it moderately, just enough to feel the pulse in your arteries. But Aemond was fairly shocked when he saw you pressing his hand tighter. You always wanted to die the death of a dragon rider, just like your older sister, Laena, did. But if your end was to be while he was fucking you and choked you to death, so be it.

He snarled, removing his hand off you, not giving you the satisfaction. He lifted you higher, wrapping your legs securely around his waist, not pulling out his cock from you and laid you down on a much smaller, more flat stone. He brought your ass closer to the rock edge and buried himself with all the length, lifting up your one leg, so it was now resting on his shoulder. He was rutting into you at this new angle with no respite, one of his digits circled your afire clit, making your eyes roll back inside your head.

- I…hate…you – you breathed out, cursing him in your mind for his ability to break you, to give you the pleasure you tried to deny, but wanted so desperately.

- You may hate me, my little dove, but you can’t deny that you love me – he grinned affectionately almost, his hands massaged gently apex of your thigh and calve of your raised leg, kissing the ankle tenderly. Aemond was right, you loved him still even after what he has done, you couldn’t cease it, it was unconditional, like a mother's love for a child.

 His thrusts became deeper, more passionate, steadier. His only eye was consuming you, starving for more of your delightful moans, more of your back arching, more of your breasts bouncing in a restive rhythm.

- Look at you, how your body reacts to mine… How your pussy is sucking up my cock greedily, how you moan wanting for more… You desire me woman, it is time for you to accept it – again, he was speaking the truth. You did desire him. You did want him to fuck you until you see the stars, to clench around his heavy-stick cock and milk all over him.

He raised you up against him, so your breasts were now rubbing his torso. He was pounding into you harder, pulling your hips closer to him to you to meet his rapid thrusts. You felt his cock was getting bigger and bigger, how his veins were tautening on him. Aemond’s raspy, hasty breath was an clear evidence that he was pretty close to finish.

- Come all over me, my little dove. Seal yourself with me – he panted into your ear, leaving sloppy kisses from your earlobe down to the crook of your neck. But you resisted, somehow remains of your pride were now in charge. But he saw your defiance and smiled encouraging you to let go – Don’t fight it, ñuha ziry-zaldrīzes (my Dragoness).

And you did let go, your walls clasped around his length and you came, shaking so tumultuously that he had to hold you firmly to prevent you from falling. A second later his throbbing cock shot his warm seed down in your womb, Aemond moaned protractedly at the sensation. Both of you were panting heavily, he kissed you passionately, chuckling lightly when you tried to bite his lip. He remained in you still and after a short moment of rest he lifted you from the rock, never pulling out of you and began to walk towards the castle. You stared at him with stupefaction.

- Aemond, you intend to walk with me like that all the way through?! – he looked down his legs, only to see his undone pants dangling between his ankles, cumbering his walk.

- You’re right, my love. I better get rid of these, before we both fall over – and with a few, clumsy moves he took off the pants, his cock still sitting in you like if your womb was some kind of a nest.

He carried you like that all the way to The Red Keep, not caring if someone saw you or not. He even thrusted into you couple times as his cock became hard again in your walls, causing you to moan obscenely, while you were passing dumbfounded guards.

So you were going to marry him after all, a murderer of his own nephew and a war criminal. It was such a Targaryen thing to do.  

And that's it, this is our little's mommy war criminal being war criminal in his pure form. :p I've already started to write Chapter 4 and attention please: Aemond & Daemon duo will be back! :D So stay tuned up because it's gonna be spicyyyy :P Anyway thanks for reading and I will appreciate any kind of feedback in comments!

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This Week in BL - Lots of rings exchanged

Aug 2022 Wk 2

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs. Organized by which ones (in each category) I’m enjoying the most.

Ongoing Series - Thai

The Eclipse (Fri YT) Ep 1 of 15 - Oh it’s good. BL does Blacklist with a good boy/bad boy pairing (paladin/rogue). F&K have great chemistry right off the bat. And it’s so nice to have GMMTV’s production values on 2 BLs, even if they flipped the levels on the music/dialogue tracks in this ep (qua?). Did you SEE what was inside the cursed flower pot? A baby cactus! 

Vice Versa (Sat on YT) Ep 5 of 12 - Gun appearing as Third was very meta of you GMMTV. I see what you did there. Ooo. Cohabitation trope! I was wondering about the pacing with this one, but they have self corrected with a new core trope. Nice. *sits up, pays attention* It’s engaging and never drags, gotta give them that. 

21 Days Theory (Sun YT ) Ep 1 of 8 - I am loving this high school Love Sick revisit, BLUE SHORTS in spades. Yay! 

Coffee Melody (Mon Viki) Ep 4 of 10 - Well, that relationship moved into the sack quickly. I like it, it seems sort of mature and normal than most BL. They are cute and smiley and sweet together. I also think this BL is honestly dealling with mutually hurt. Pleng Ruk says it’s too soon. But also he doesn’t get to act like a boyfriend if he isn’t one. Duen Yi only wants what he wants and isn’t thinking about the consequences. On a different note: The pink hair thing is hilarious: we can see which days different recordings were done and which ones were pickups by how faded the pink is and roots showing. I’m still skipping all of the band stuff which means I’m only watching about half of the show, just the cafe bits. So maybe you shouldn’t take my opinions to heart. But then you should never take my opinions to heart.

Love Mechanics (Sun WeTV) Ep 8 of 10 - I like the insight into Mark‘s home life. That sullen iciness comes from Daddy. I like Mark’s ex-boyfriend too, but then I liked him in the original. I like how miserable Vee got. Yin & War are terrific little actors. It’s hard not to get mad at the messy, but when it’s performed this good, it’s fun to wallow in mutual agony. 

Unforgotten Night (Weds on GaGa) Ep 8 of 12 Neither as bad nor as good as it could be. Shrug. TRASH WATCH IS HERE!

Check Out (Sat IQIYI) Ep 10 of 12 - Honestly the leads are a good pair. I’m sad they didn't get a better script. It’s Tuxedo all over again. But I LOVED that they gave Tee a new boy!

My Secret Love (Sat YT) Ep 11 of 12 - The domesticity with the side couples is really engaging, sex scenes were descent, but that’s it. However there was a probubly verse couple. The main couple is a little better after the time jump, mostly because Mek in now understandably arrogant. I guess. 

My Only 12% (Fri iQIYI) Ep 1 of 15 - It’s a pretty classic friends to lovers jock/nerd set up with neighbors & codependency to get us started and high school. I am actually MIR mixed with Bad Buddy (same author) vibes from this. I like it, Santa & Earth do great at this character dynamic. Seeing Peak back in shorts is a TRIP. Also we’re starting to get that thing where an actor will be in multiple BL‘s airing at the same time (waves at Benz). Also a trip. Awe PREM! I didn’t know he was in this. Wabi Sabi bringing out the BIG GUNS.

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Minato Shouji Coin Laundry (Japan Weds GaGa) Ep 7 of 12 I keep saying next week is gonna hurt, but I’m not saying that this time because they keep delaying the crisis point. Not that the pacing is off, it’s keeping me intersted, just that Japan is too unpredictable. Especially when handed and unprecedented 12 eps. But Shin did finally turn 18 and make his intentions crystal clear. - SQUEE WATCH ALONG  

Papa & Daddy 2 (Mon GaGa) Ep 1-2 of 8 - Honestly I didn’t expect to like this. I don’t have a good history with 2nd seasons, and Taiwan really likes to make a soap opera out of their queers. Witness that this one starts with a secret baby trope. (Or in this case a secret teenage son trope?) There’s a lot of lying to each other and evil parents. (Why are parent characters always so terrible in Chinese dramas?) And of course I already have a crush on the pining chef - 2nd lead syndrome strikes again. Who wouldn’t? I like the new actor playing Jerry (he reminds me of Nunew from Cutie Pie) but his chemistry with his co-star isn’t as good. I LOVE THE DOMESTICITY. 

Want to See You (Vietnam YT) Ep 12 - Vietnam is doing time jumps in later eps now? Everyone just stop it! Also this is an interesting way to enact the amnesia trope, but it’s still the amnesia trope! This turned out not to be the final ep, who knows what will be? Frankly they handled the time jump OK, it’s nice to see the characters having changed and matured (or not) and how this reflects on each other. Still I am mostly annoyed but the tropes. 

Senpai, Danjite Koidewa! (Japan Fri Viki) Ep 8fin - It was cute in the very end, and all about courage. Kaneda’s mainly. But Japan’s weird hang-up around physical expressions of affection in BL which I expect in their slapstick high school stuff, feels cowardly here. They don't leave out end kisses in their het office romances anymore, time to stop desexualizing the gays, too. For a plot about courage, it’s a bummer that the narrative itself didn’t have any. I can’t imagine ever watching this show again or remembering its existence. When Japan drops the balls they drop all the way to the bottom of the well. 6/10 NOT REALLY RECOMMENDED 

Lots of rings exchanged this week. Most form the worst possible, least communicating couples. I would like to remind everyone that marriage is not a way to “fix it to a bad relationship,” it just makes everything worse. Like children. 

In Case You Missed It

Work From Heart a Thai BL from DV8 for WeTV starts Aug 25 trailer here. An office romcom featuring lots of other couples, starring Love With Benefits pair Gameplay & Folk.

Japan bringing us More Than Words, 10 eps for Amazon Prime JP Sept 16,  no trailer, no word on international distribution, premiere on adaptation of Etsuko’s two mangas "In The Apartment" and "More Than Words", starring Ryōko Fujino (Fujoshi, Ukkari Gei ni Kokuru), Yuzu Aoki (Kakafukaka), Daisuke Nakagawa (Colorful Love), and Daiki Kanechika (EXIT comedian). 

Honestly my money was on Viki winning his one, but happy to see it’s going to GaGa! Takara-kun and Amagi-kun from the same studio as Mr Unlucky and Senpai, so expect that style. A popular guy and an outcast boy start dating in secret. Stars Jpop Idols Arata Sato (IMPACTors) and Nao Oriyama (Shonen Ninja).

Gossip

Thai y-novel by Prang “2 Worlds” is getting an adaptation. 

GMMTV is bring us something they didn’t announce at the beginning of the year, Oishi Magic Of Zero, starring EarthMix. They are play the same roles (Win & Korn) as in Cupid's Last Wish, to start (drop?) Sept 25 on YouTube! So this might just be a special or....? This is a sponsored series of one shot specials/adverts featuring exiting characters like Our Skyy. The first one was InkPa from Bad Buddy. Which I have yet to watch. (see comments) 

Strongberry (our favorite production house from Korea) officially introduced 3 actors (fresh faces) for their upcoming FULL LENGTH romcom BL  “#사랑은댕냥댕냥” basically “love is dang dang dang” but roughly means Love is Love actually means ���love is a cat and a dog.” (see ask in feed) Guess at run time is 1.5hr, so normal KBL length. Still casting final lead. About a boy who lives alone after losing his parents who works part-time in his Uncle's shop. One day, 2 strangers appearing claiming they are reincarnations of his childhood pets (a cat and a a dog).

Korea’s Able Casting Agency posted an actor search for a character for an upcoming BL Two Game Over. That’s the first we’ve all heard of it. 

Korea is ALL in on that A Shoulder To Cry On BL starring two members of the same group, OMEGA X (Jaehan & Yechan). Why? Well its schedueld to release mid Sept AND OMEGA X with sing the OST. Ho boy. 

Next Week Looks Like This:

We ramping back up again, that summer lull was short and full of JBL. 

Starting & Ending: Tomorrow, Monday Aug 15th, 180 Degree Longitude Passes Through Us (trailer) on GaGa. But I’m not sure it’s BL. Takara-kun and Amagi-kun starts on GaGa this Friday. Love in the Air Mame’s next offering via Me Mindy is supposed to start on the 19th on YT. Unless it whips into a verbal frenzy, I won’t do a trash watch (I already have 2 going right now). Love Mechanics & My Secret Love both end. Thank fuck. 

This week’s best moments?

Why did no one tell me the side couple in Oh My Sunshine features the actor who played Bbomb in Nitiman? Now I may have to watch for them. Grumble. I blame all ya’all. 

Well that side couple came out of nowhere! But still YAY Check Out, we like it. 

Back hugs! 

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