#i am so incredibly grateful for this show!
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norris!reader x oscar piastri
when lando's actress sister attends her first race weekend fans can't help but notice that she is close to a particular australian
faceclaim: ella purnell
y/nnorris
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y/nnorris: filming just wrapped, what am i suppossed to do with my life now
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landonorris: you could always come watch your fav sibling race
y/nnorris: flo is doing a horse race?
user1: y/n is fucking brutal
oscarpiastri: monaco is next weekend....
y/nnorris: i am picking up what you are putting down mister piastri
alexandrasaintmleux: please please please come to monaco, you can meet leo
y/nnorris: now you have sold me
user2: y/n norris is ready to steal all the wags
user3: i really hope we get y/n race content
y/nnorris posted a story
written: am i one of the cute insta girlies yet
y/nnorris posted a story tagging landonorris
written: i surprise lando by showing up in monaco he comes over takes a picture with me like i'm some fan before realising "Oh shit that's my sister" fucksake
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ln4updates: after confusing his sister for a fan lando norris has brought y/n norris to the monaco grand prix. this is y/n's first race due to her very busy acting schedule. i am so happy to finally see her in the paddock!
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user4: i am forever forgetting that they are related
user5: i hope we get y/n in the paddock more
user6: she is so cute omg
y/nnorris posted a story
written: i'm a proper mclaren girlie now
landonorris replied to your story: who took this picture, did you bully one of the interns
y/nnorris: oscar did
landonorris: hmmm...
y/nnorris: what does that mean?
landonorris: hmmm...
y/nnorris
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y/nnorris: maybe i should come to more races, that was rather fun
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landonorris: it took me years to convince you to come to races and now you won't leave
y/nnorris: what can i say, i changed my mind....
oscarpiastri: i will always be happy to see your face in the garage
y/nnorris: that's it i'm convinced
landonorris: i don't know what this is but i know i don't like it
user7: oscar and y/n flirting on main omg
user8: please come to every race, your bts content is the best
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written: boy have i missed the water
y/nnorris posted a story
written: am i a real monaco girlie now
landonorris replied to this story: who's boat is that
y/nnorris: i think you know
landonorris: i hate you
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ln4updates: lowkey considering changing this account into a y/n norris fanpage because this girl is the best, i might just be her biggest fan. she has been to monaco, canada and spain, she slays every single time and gives us the best f1 content ever.
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user9: as an oscar fan i am so grateful for all the oscar content she gives us
user10: fr she posts him more than her own brother
user11: you can't be y/n's biggest fan, that is oscar jack piastri
user12: finally someone who understands. y/n is the best norris
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written: the fit for hungary
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mclarenupdates: oscar and y/n entered the paddock together today. lando later met up with them in the mclaren garage but it seems like these two are really close...
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user13: i have been convinced that they are together since monaco
user14: they would be such a hot couple
user15: i know they probably aren't together but they should be
user16: pookies
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y/nnorris: so incredibly proud of you
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oscarpiastri: couldn't have done it without your support
y/nnorris: yeah me crying in the pits deffo made you go faster
landonorris: i told you i supported your relationship but did you really need to kiss in front of me, ew
y/nnorris: grow up
mclaren: our papaya girl
user17: i would pay good money to have gotten to see lando's reaction to them
user18: i am so in love with them
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Momo - 16PRODUCERS Rabbit Chat
Please note that I am not a professional translator and I'm only doing this to share the side materials to those who cannot access them, if you notice any mistakes please let me know nicely. Enjoy!
Yuki: Thanks for your hard work
Yuki: Anyone here?
Okazaki Rinto: Youāre early, Yuki-kun!? Iām here!
Yuki: Okarin, youāre online. Yuki here
Okazaki Rinto: Yeah, I know. Thereās still time before the interview though...
Yuki: Thatās true, but todayās an important interview day and I finished composing, so I thought Iād camp here early.
Okazaki Rinto: How wonderful. Momo-kun will be thrilled when he reads this!
Yuki: Yeah, whoās the star of the show today after all? Are you at the recording booth with him?
Okazaki Rinto: Actually, the recording ran longer than scheduled so Momo-kun should be back to the dressing room right around the interview time!
Yuki: Is that so. So itās just the two of us for now.
Yuki: So what should we talk about until heās back. Shall we have a competition to list what we find the cutest about Momo?
Okazaki Rinto: Thereās no way Iām winning that. Letās talk about what we like about you instead!
Yuki: Are you doing a bit
Okazaki Rinto: Momo-kun himself actually suggested it. He said "Thereās a chance Iām gonna be late, you two can just talk about how super handsome Yuki is!"
Yuki: We thought the same thing.
Okazaki Rinto: Iāll start with my opinion! You used to say you werenāt good with people, but now youāre so approachable itās amazing!
Yuki: Thanks. Do I have to say something too?
Yuki: I can write music
Okazaki Rinto: Next! I also think youāre an incredible actor. I feel so proud seeing you soar even beyond the idol world!
Yuki: Thank you. More new rivals keep popping up, so I canāt slack off anymore.
Yuki: Nowās my turn
Yuki: Now Iām out
Okazaki Rinto: Thatās it!?
Yuki: Thatās it
Momo: You barely scratched the surface!?!?!?
Yuki: Here comes Momo
Momo: Here comes Momo-chan!! Sorry for making you two wait š„ŗš„ŗ I couldnāt stop smiling reading all the rabbichat notifications š„°
Momo: But really, just three or four points donāt even compare in the sea of Yukiās charm!?!?!?!? Like, his beauty mark is beyond handsome, the way he looks at me with such intensity makes me fall in love all over again. Heās so beautiful from the tip of his fingers to every strand of his hair?!?!?!?
Momo: And the way he calls me his āprecious partnerā is just too handsomeā¦!!!
Yuki: You type really fast, Momo.
Momo: Lightning fast!!!!!
Yuki: I appreciate you saying all that, but today is all about you, Momo.
Momo: Thatās trueee~
Momo: Youāre gonna share,,,, what feelings you poured into producing my project right,,,,,,,,
Momo: aaaaaaaaaghhh can my heart even handle this ā¼ Yuki, Okarin, please take it easy on me ā¼
Yuki: Iāll be gentle.
Okazaki Rinto: Letās get started! As requested, weāre aiming for a casual, relaxed vibe for this interview, as if youāre not even working. So we decided to do it over rabbichat!
Okazaki Rinto: First off, Momo-kun! Please tell us how you felt when you found out Yuki-kunās gonna produce your song!
Momo: Hmm...he usually composes for Re:vale as a whole, but he did it just for me this time. To think that he created not just the song but also the lyrics, costumes, and the whole concept...I feel so lucky itās almost too much to believe.
Momo: The person Iāve admired for so long brings me so much happiness now. I want to take that a hundred, a thousand times and deliver it back to all my fans.
Momo: Wait a sec is this real? Iām not dreaming, right?
Okazaki Rinto: Donāt pinch your cheeks so hard, Momo-kun!
Yuki: Itās real, Momo.
Momo: It is...
Momo: This is so special to me that it always felt like a dream! I mean, just singing with Yuki already makes me so happy, but I didnāt know there was even a possibility to ascend to another level of happiness.
Yuki: Iām just as grateful for the opportunity to focus on a project entirely for you, Momo.
Momo: Yukiiiiii~
Momo: Wait a sec, how come my darling is the most handsome guy in the world !?!? ššš
Yuki: I know. So what did you think when you heard the song?
Momo: It was so cool... I thought itād be more cutesy
Momo: But it was completely different! And it has this super stylish dance number, I could picture us dancing together the moment I listened to the airy melody.
Momo: Even though we sing in a high pitch, the deep bass was so powerful, I love it soooooooo muchā¦
Yuki: Iām happy
Yuki: I wanted to capture all your different sides
Okazaki Rinto: Interestingā¦! Iād love to hear more about your creative process!
Yuki: You could say itās about Momoās āswitchesā, in a way. A switch for when heās singing, when heās performing.
Yuki: A switch for when heās pressing close to my side, thinking about lyrics to write. Working earnestly and wholeheartedly.
Yuki: Theyāre all different switches within Momo. It all shifts. The gap between them all is intriguing.
Momo: My āswitchesā huh... So thatās how you see me.Ā
Momo: Youāre right though, I do change depending on the person or situation without even realizing. The gap between the melody and the high pitch reflect that.
Momo: And the electronic sounds are supposed to represent little switches, right? Thatās just like you, itās fascinating!!!!
Yuki: Thank you. It was challenging since I wasnāt allowed to compose the entire thing myself, but it was worth it.
Momo: And the lyrics moved me deeply. I could feel your message of wanting to face the future together, and to keep singing for an eternity and beyond.
Yuki: Thatās right. This song is for you, who pulled me forward and shone your light upon me that day.
Momo: Thatās because
Momo: Yukiās music gave me the push I needed back then
Momo: So thatās why I
Yuki: Momo. You always say youāre thankful to me but
Yuki: "Beneath the countless stars, I can reach anywhere as long as Iām with you." Being with you lets me sing anywhere, Momo.
Yuki: Just like that day we sang together on the sandy beach of a deserted island, the place where you and I sing, the place where Re:vale is, will always be the best stage ever. (1)
Okazaki Rinto: Momo-kunās crying.
Yuki: Donāt shed tears when I canāt be with you to wipe them.
Momo: Wh
Momo: Whoa stop stop stop stop hold up wasnāt that way too smooth?!?! That line was so hot my tears stopped on their own!?
Yuki: Hello, itās me, the handsome Yuki.
Momo: Kyaaaa!! Please look my wayyy!! š¤©āØ
Yuki: Yep. Iām looking straight at my phone.
Momo: lolololol thanks! I totally feel your eyes on me š¤©āØ
Okazaki Rinto: Alright, Iām sorry but letās get back on track. Iād love to hear about the concept behind your outfits and promo shoots!
Momo: Iām so excited to hear about it! I was hyped the moment I walked into the room for the photoshoot! It looked exactly like a gaming room š®
Yuki: The song doesnāt fit an outdoor setting. I felt like even indoors would still be too bright, so I went for a moody, neon-lit setup the moment I found out something like that existed.
Yuki: It was perfect for Momo since he loves gaming, but the gentle neon light reflecting in the dark felt especially very Momo-like to me
Momo: Iām so happy!!!! I really do love those kinds of lights toooo~~ I see how it is, hehe~~~~
Okazaki Rinto: Yuki-kun, your idea of what āfeels Momo-likeā is always very diverse.
Yuki: Is it? I think itās normal
Momo: And donāt forget the outfits, I loved them so much >u< Yuki doesnāt usually wear clothes in that style so I snapped a ton of photos of him!
Yuki: I thought we might as well embrace the Momo vibe for this shoot too. We even took tons of pictures together.
Momo: Yup! We were dressed like Player 1 and Player 2! šŖ
Yuki: It's been fun trying a style I donāt normally wear
Momo: You looked amazing!! š š Why donāt you start wearing clothes like that more often?!
Yuki: Then how about we try some different combinations next time? (2)Ā
Momo: Huh?! W-w-ww-w-ww-we donāt have to go that far!!!!!!!!!???
Yuki: Why not? Matching outfits always have a wide variety
Momo: Huh!!!!!!!!!! Okarin !!!!!!!! What do I do !!!!!!!! Work is one thing, but a private setting is totally different?!?!?!?!?!
Okazaki Rinto: I find it funny that youāre typing what youāre muttering in real life, LOL.
Yuki: How nice. I wanna be there too
Momo: You have work after this right? so Momo-chan will wait for you to finish!!
Yuki: Yeah. Thank you
Okazaki Rinto: The request was to make this a more relaxed conversation, but you might be a bit too relaxed right now, or maybe youāre just acting like you always areā¦.
Yuki: Is that a problem? Itās fine, right, Momo?
Momo: Right, Yuki! š«¶
Okazaki Rinto: Thatās right! Itās totally fine! And finally, please share a message for the fans!
Yuki: This new direction may surprise some fans, but from where I stand, Momo is strong, gentle, and full of warmth. Just like a sunrise that blends the dark and light, heās a mix of many wonderful qualities.
Yuki: Thatās why the song plays tricks with a variety of rhythms, melodies and singing tones. They reflect Momoās ever-changing expressions. I hope you enjoy āGet in the Groove.ā
Momo: I always spend every day thinking about how happy I am ever since Yuki and I became Re:vale. Sometimes so much so that I wish time could stop.
Momo: But you know, listening to āGet in the Grooveā made me feel even happier! I know this project was born all thanks to our fansā unwavering support. Thank you so much!!! I feel like the happiest person alive right now!
Momo: And thatās why I want everyone who supports us to feel as happy as I do, always and forever! I hope that you never get your feelings hurt! And if sadness ever comes your way, I hope our songs will be able to heal you!
Momo: Re:vale will always be a warm light, shining on everyone like the sun that rises each morning. Now and forever, with Yuki by my side!
Momo: Thatās all I got!
Okazaki Rinto: Thank you both! This was Re:vale in full force!
Momo: Yup! I feel Yukiās love overflowing more than usual š„¹ā¤
Yuki: Really? Iām not really good with words
Momo: Well no, youāve gotten dangerously much better at that recently!!??!!!
Okazaki Rinto: Itās hard to believe you once had to practice saying stuff like this.
Yuki: Yeah, that sure did happen.
Yuki: Momo, promise me youāll keep smiling by my side now and forever
Momo: Yeah. I promise!!
For those who are confused, the sandy beach of a deserted island refers to a specific plot point in part 5 of the main story.
I. am frankly not entirely sure how to interpret this. Because judging by Momoās reaction I believe Yuki was Most Definitely Not insinuating an actual change of color combinations but. A Different Kind of ācombinationsā.Ā
#idolish7#i7#ainana#idolish7 translation#re:vale#orikasa yukito#sunohara momose#yuki re:vale#momo re:vale#okazaki rinto#16 producers#rabbit chat
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OFMD is so fucking earnest and that's still my favorite thing about it I think.
So often nowadays, whenever a piece of art dares to be weird, it has to be all quippy and self-referential about it. If you look at any MCU movie it's just full of characters being like "wow that was weird" because they're too scared to let it stand on its own.
And OFMD doesn't bother with any of that shit. Ed sees Stede as a mermaid and it's fucking beautiful. They kiss under the moonlight and hold hands like teenagers and play sweet little thumb wars and it works perfectly because it never tries to dilute it with humor where it doesn't fit. Ed and Stede get to cry and lean on each other for support and be their weird, goofy, cringey selves, and that's never presented as anything other than wonderful and beautiful. OFMD gives us everything with all it's got and it never flinches away from being heartachingly earnest.
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surprise it's yuri!!!in 2024
#my art#yuri on ice#yuri!!! on ice#yoi#fanart#katsuki yuuri#victor nikiforov#victuuri#yoi fanart#this was the secret 4th thing that lost the poll jdsfgsdfjj#id been thinking about doing a tribute since getting that one ask but i didn't anticipate how Into it i would get once i started#the way i flew through this piece .. just over 1 day??? insane#yuri is /that/ ingrained in my muscle memory#I was looking at refs and ?? id forgotten how wild this show was#we just got all of that?? a pole dance a proposal a kiss a pair skate....and it was ALL canon? incredible#AND YEAH UNPROMPTED HISTORY MAKER PLAYS IN MY YT MIX#dean fujioka jumpscare#also looking back at my old yoi pieces was so wild. that ws really 8 years ago huh.#little bit of an ego boost looking at how far ive come#but also im just grateful idk sry 2 b sappy on main#i hope 16 year old me is happy that i did this bc im happy i did this#edit bc i forgot a bunch of white outline i am a fraud
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IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder
ā°āā¤ āAt times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if youāre living with this illness and functioning at all, itās something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher
#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies#(more thoughts at the end of the tags)#shameless#shamelessnet#shamelessedit#ian gallagher#cameron monaghan#*macygifs#bipolar disorder#hello pals how are we doin#i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags#and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes)#i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation#that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day#world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder#which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life#while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life#and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines#over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful#i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended#hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles#world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder#and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized)#it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all#it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen#so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can.#we are worth it#i promise#anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder#go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives
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I've been trying to make a post about the OMITB finale but I'm just. Overwhelmed. It was too good. I was in tears as soon as the episode started and I kept tearing up all the way through. I suppose it starts with finding your hero. I can't do it, Sazz. Oh, I can't do it by myself / That's why I'm here. Sazz was kind to everyone. He's gonna get you, my... number... one. You know, I appreciate this movie in a whole different way now; I mean, Sazz wrote this. It's just so, so special to have an amazing show like this that's centered on platonic bonds and the love between friends. I loved the wedding, of course, but the true relationship at the core of this show is the one between the trio, and the true relationship at the core of this season was the one between Charles and Sazz, and the way they went about it was everything to me.
I love you, OMITB. You're the most wonderful funky little comfort show ever. Never change.
#god. damn it.#HOW do they do it folks. how??? every season is better than the last this is genuinely such a gift of a show#sazz... oh my god sazz... she found her hero in charles... she wanted to write *his* story because she loved and admired him so much#IM GOING TO BE SICK (/pos)#and the complete *trust*. the way she just knew charles would solve her murder. i'll cry again oh my god i love this show so much#charles and oliver went UP ON A LEDGE A FUCKTON OF FEET IN THE AIR to save mabel OH MY GOD#i just. i just. i can't articulate just how much this show means to be this was so beautiful#i loved the wedding ofc!!! and im really sad to see loretta leave! but i hope we'll still manage to see her at least once next season#also im caling it now. the dame at the end is the murderer in s5#i know because i was instantly attracted to her. and that's how i knew who the killers were in s1 and s3#(do not ask me about the victim DO NOT ask me about the victim i am NOT ready to deal with it oh my GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!)#we're in for a spetacular s5 folks! and i already can't wait!#but in the meantime... AMAZING INCREDIBLE s4 im so grateful it was such a magical experience#everybody say thank you omitb!!!#omitb#omitb spoilers#omitb s4
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Your boy finished the drawing for the gary mousepad!!!!!
I will show it properly soon, and hopefully get the actual mousepads soon
#venture bros#henchman 21#ball pit trinkets#gary mousepad#small business#so i didnt know how to do cmyk#and the website for my supplier asks for it specifically and i wasnt abt to spend A Lot a Money for CMYK Russian Roulette#and i already took such a long time to do the og one and i highkey got uh#got pretty down abt having to redo all the values l#but its doooone#and im so happyyy abt it#will show tomorrow āļø#the conversion was for the better and anyone still here and still interested i am incredibly grateful for
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Girls when the end of Sketchbook Week fills them with a melancholic yet unimaginable gratefulness and a contradictory nostalgia for the present moment. Girls when the feeling of community that was already there was enhanced by an event and they're emotional over people on their phone
#you guys. fucking broke me#like yeah I KNEW everyone here was awesome and kind and sweet and talented#but there's something about the organized coming together of it#it feels like the internet equivalent of everyone accepting to hang out together outside of just seeing each other in school/work#to everyone who commented/reblogged my works or just interracted in some way with me during this week#I hope you know how incredibly grateful i am. I hope you know I think of you as a friend (ESPECIALLY the mutuals)#I've never taken more comfort in the saying 'shows end. But fandoms last forever'#but I hope you know you can reach out even when you no longer think too much about hilda#I'm just. so humbled. Like this common interest brought all these amazing people together. Now we can stick by each other#even when there's no longer this common denominator#(which is going to take me a WHILE to leave behind either way don't know about you)#anyway. yeah. I'm happy to share these moments of my life with you people. you are alright [I say as I bawl my eyes out]#wife speaks#not hilda
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#ive had an amazing year in this fandom#i saw louis and harry for the first time in seven years - the first time since my otra show#i somehow got so close to louis in berlin that he kept making eye contact with me and it was the first time i was surrounded by so many#pride flags apart from pride and i definitely felt safer than at pride there#i started rainbows for lights up which i will forever cherish and im forever grateful that you encouraged me because the entire hslot europ#was something absolutely amazing and magical#and in many ways it was obvious harry knew and then we did the Prague project for lights up and harry knew about it and did a double take#for the flag before the song even began#HE KNEW he LOVED IT and we had another rainbow project and a loml project and i stood so close he saw me#and thereās this interaction during which he definitely saw me and i saw the video the other day and am still gatekeeping it but#i had that#and it was one of the best days of my life and one of my best achievements and#seeing harry do what he does the way he does reminded me what i want to do in my life and who i want to be and was key in me taking the job#that i did a few weeks later that changed my life#i saw louis in freaking malaga at his own festival where i travelled by myself and it was a nightmare for many reasons but i DID IT and it#was an incredible show and we did an absolutely incredible rainbow project that was acknowledged by louis there#and that was acknowledged even afterwards when they registered copy the day after#i still canāt believe we pulled that off and he kept pointing to us like that and so many people said it was such an important moment#i made and met some of my best friends in this fandom to date this year#liz Petra Lisa raine hope im looking at you guys and i love you#i discovered and saw otp thanks to louis (and Petra)#i got to be here for harry and louisā new albums and achievements and world tours and it was INCREDIBLE and im so proud and it brought me#so much joy and happiness to be here and they really were with me during a majorly defining period of my life once again#so i am grateful and filled with love for the projects for the friends for the music for the memories for the shows i went to and am going#to next year (my teenage self absolutely cannot believe) and im excited for whatās to come#but right now with everything thatās going on im taking a short break from the fandom for the sake of my mental health and to consider how#i engage with the fandom and some matters in the future#iāll be back after new years probably and i hope you have an amazing start to the new year and spend calm holidays with those you love!!!!#love you guys!
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so glad i have therapy tonight im. Ready to talk about scary things
#gonna talk more seriously about hrt. im so scared but theres been Enough happening that makes me feel. ready ig#it's the yearning it's the longing it's the being envious of my friends when i am actually overjoyed for them#it's the i want to be a visibly trans philosopher it's the fathers day special on npr that made me sob in my car#it's the singing along w my favorite songs makes me cry it's the i dont sing on the rare occasion i go to church it's the. uh.#i don't go cuz i want to i go because i want to see what's being shared in the sermon bc that's what people take messages from#mini book reports and challenging the passages selected bc sometimes they are Vague or whatever#it's the i have a complicated relationship w religion in general lmfao#i am very scared of ruining my relationship w my parents though#im incredibly lucky and incredibly grateful every day that i had a good childhood and good relationship w them#never ever want to take that for granted#but im terrified bc i told them my name and mom carefully didnt show a reaction and dad uh. idk we were at starbucks and i did the order#bc im a starbucks girlie zillennial#and i gave my name and he went š¶š¤Ø#this is my blog i can say what i want here but im baring my soul in the tags becauee i trust ~3.2k strangers more than my father xo#anyway#blah blah blah in the tags
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songbird's season of general sadness/first real grief/sorrow is coming to an end: (in chronological/journeying order) songs and poetry that helped my heart a lot these past few months :)
Always Good, Andrew Peterson / Marjorie, Andrew Osenga / Ask Polly article I read on a whim: 'My Boyfriend Refuses to Change' / You're On Your Own, Kid, Taylor Swift / One Foot in Front of the Other, Griff / Heavy, Mary Oliver / Monday by @madamescarlette / The Letter, Linda Gregg / Summer's Retrospective by @madamescarlette / Ode to Some Lyric Poets, Gregory Orr
(bonus--from the scraps of writing that came out of this chapter of life, which are slowly being assembled into a more coherent story:)
#yknow i felt so alone at so many points but i really really wasn't#i had such good friends (here and in my church community) who held my hand so gently#and God used the things i understood best to show me His incredible love at just the right moments#still an ongoing journey but i am so so grateful for the secondhand heart-strength given to me and the tenderness that was extended when i#when i was really at my lowest and saddest and most oversensitive and easily provoked to impatience or anger or depressive spirals#anyway i can't remember who sent me marjorie but thank you so much for that it was such a comfort. it continues to be#and thank you eden for sharing your beautiful poetry!!!! it continues to refresh and encourage my soul#mmmm it's hard to put into words what everything (and by everything i mean: the songs here and on my playlists#and the poetry here and the books i've read during the summer and into the autumn#from cyrano de bergerac to tolstoy to rilke's poems and dorothy sayers and dostoevsky and st therese & st teresa and madeleine l'engle#not to mention the night walks and morning prayers and the wonderful times i've had with the other dorm girls!#suddenly quite overwhelmed by the abundance of love and blessing#immensely immensely grateful for everything. i can be such a little wretch sometimes and wallow awfully for days#or act like a little human machine and try to Rid Myself of all emotional surges. or just focus on all the negative things with astonishing#tunnel vision (you wouldn't BELIEVE). but God has been so gracious despite songbird being a silly goose#and every once in a while having mental breakdowns and having to learn the same lesson (surrender and humility) a bajillion times#anyway!! my heart doesn't hurt anymore!!#and i am learning to take it one day at a time and to Rejoice in all circumstances#slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21#which really is so much harder than i thought at times!!!! but that makes it even more important to do so i think
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Somebody tell 12 year old tara that in 6 years sheāll meet her favorite band, and her favorite member will tell her heās glad sheās there and so glad to meet her when she tells him they saved her life. Somebody tell 12 year old tara that in 17 years sheāll still be seeing that band perform live and sobbing to albl exactly as she always has š„ŗ somebody tell her her entire world changes but through it all sheās got the jonas brothers
#I am feeling so nostalgic#and grateful to have had their music carry me through so much#and even tho my sister shouldāve been with me tn#the show was still incredible#anyway ignore me#shut up tara
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#i never thought I'd fall in love more with these movies than i already was but here we are after 3 incredible weeks#finally watched them on the big screen after 20 years of watching them and I've never felt more grateful that i got the chance#20 years and everything is still impeccable! from the direction to cinematography to how everything was put together i was blown away#it's a masterpiece through and through#you know it's good after watching it for so long and knowing what happens and you STILL wait with baited breath to see what happens next#helm's deep was masterful and also finally seeing iconic badass woman eowin killing the witch king yelling 'i am no man'#just overall 1000000000/10 experience#i was also blown away by how good the cgi and special effects and the quality of the film still is after 20 years#the film rarely showed its age to be honest!#lord of the rings#lotr#i could talk about these movies forever#and I've been tempted for a while now but it grew stronger since yesterday to read the silmarillion again
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i mean itās just kinda crazy cause. and forgive me if i sound somewhat spoiled here but. this trip im doing to take more credits and get experience and make connections etc is obviously expensive and i talked abt it with my parents. a lot before trying to do it. and somehow my dad didnāt understand that yk we would have to pay for it. ??? and is putting me in this spot of āfiguring out what weāre gonna do about itā and itās like dude. i mean iām going i paid for my fucking flights you know iām. regardless iāll be there. and i make $10/hr i have not been able to work consistently and when you donāt have thousands and thousands of dollars just sitting there accumulating more interest it doesnāt fucking last. like what exactly do you want me to say? iāll drain all my accounts and give what little i have to you? tldr my main point here is the only way this man truly shows any kind of affection is through money and since he fucked me up im glad to take advantage of that lol like why wouldnāt i. so to have it thrown back in my face is just um an awful feeling. like im not even worth this to you. this is just too much. it truly does feel like someone put a number on love and im just not up there
#itās not like we ever took trips or vacations or had super nice things or even. you know. like fucking furniture#and to be clear even when he does help me out with stuff itās held over my head so itās truly not even a good way of showing. love.#if you want to say that. like of course iām grateful that i havenāt had to struggle to make ends meet in the way many people do because i#have his money and iām not trying to pretend i donāt but like. iāve also had fucking anxiety attacks thinking about spending money and#basically how much i would owe him for my whole life. like how do i buy myself out of obligation here.#and i never could rn i donāt have Money money#but he truly pulls the same shit he does on my mom like āwell where does it all go???ā#dad. i donāt have piles of money sitting around. oh i made 2000 at my summer job? wowzers incredible that goes so fucking fast#when iāve had to pay to break my lease and something else for school and bills and groceries#and yeah ok letās not pretend i donāt sometimes go out with people. and everythingās so expensive now. but even so i have a heart attack#any time i spend more than like 20 dollars so. i usually donāt.#itās just soooā¦ šµāš« like. damn yeah i do wish i had parents that just Took Care of things and i didnāt have to worry. but itās like. i do ta#money from him and then iām just expected to grovel forever and ever#which is why i do need to be more financially independent from him i literally canāt wait for that day i need to make actual money at some#point but i am just not someone who can work full time and go to school and the only way i qualify for my scholarships is if i go full time#and graduate on time so. here we are š#abby talks#aaaaand post. lmfao
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tempted to enter the ticket battle for indy n1
#tate.txt#taylor swift#the fomo is getting progressively worse#i am so incredibly grateful to have gone when i did back in april of '23#but i DESPERATELY want to get my mom to see shs live ++ ofc i wanna see the show again#but shs is her favorite song and she's had a shit year#i just think. yk.#we shall see.
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well now that iāve delivered my very altruistic forgiveness (sort of) to punk boy via drunk text, i am officially declaring no contact ever again except for basic pleasantries if i have to see him at events. going to focus on the important things in life (finding a hot girl to rail me)
#after everything i do still want the best for him#which i recognize is insane of me#heās so fucked up and i just cannot help him#i am one young sensitive woman and he needs likeā¦ a therapist and a doctor and a dentist and probably AA meetings#and who knows what else#he doesnāt want my help or my care or any of that. or if he does then heās too screwed up to accept it and it is what it is#it would not be smart of me to try to fix an incredibly damaged older guy obviously. i really really have to let this go for the last time#i just stupidly feel bad that he hasnāt been showing up to events since we ended things#but i should just be grateful i donāt have to deal with him for a while#if he wants to isolate himself then again! i canāt stop him!#itās not my problem and it is honestly absurd to care at all after how heās treated me
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