#i am procrastinating so many things rn

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Take me to da BEACH (imagine dragons)

this is literally 27 seconds and i don't have any explanation for it except that one transition is so fire and i do what i want

[deadly-n-dapper]

ORGANISATION!!!

[incohorace]

The Beast ™️

[ffwriting]

When you are trying to write but your main writing platform is down.

like why is my obsidian glitching out right now. LET ME WRITE. PLEASE

[mygnolia]

INCEPTIO DE AMORE : ENHYPEN MINISERIES

୨୧ -› the beginning of love: a wonderful thing, truly, to catch such fleeting, powerful, intoxicating feelings. hey, what type of magic did you cast that makes my heart only burn for you?

pair -› enhypen x reader | genre -› highschool crushes!

REN SAYS... inceptio concept tew good

orange creamsicle !

in which your school newspaper needs to be printed, someone's broken the same reliable printer you've been using all school year. who, if not to blame, than master procrastinator park sunghoon? [idiots/enemies to lovers]

'you're going to break the copier, sunghoon!' - coming soon!

be my slime !

your mom invites jake over to help take care of your cousins- and somehow ends up with hearts on his face and washing glue and borax out of your hair in the sink. [neighbors to lovers]

'i'm trying my best to get it out, okay?' - coming soon!

zoo animals !

during volunteer service you’re tasked to decorate a kindergarten room with animal stickers and trees, so how did they get on sunoo’s face? [friends/classmates to lovers]

'wait, let me add some too!' - coming soon!

word love search !

jay decides to be cryptic this valentine’s day, and promises he’ll reveal his plans, just over a couple hundred letters and lots of circling. [situationship/friends to lovers]

'so much work for you to ask me on a date!' - coming soon!

passing notes !

your new seatmate needs a bit of help, but the room is just so quiet- how else is heeseung supposed to answer question 7 and confess his feelings if not through doodles and paper from his notebook? [classmates to lovers]

'pst...help? please?' - coming soon!

card tricks !

pick a card, any card! and when you’re able to see how he pulls the red card from your hair, you snatch it, and not just the five of hearts was taken- his was too. [strangers/classmates to lovers]

'how did you even do that?' - coming soon!

stop snooping !

jungwon realizes you've forgotten your notebook at his house, and in desperate need of math answers, he thumbs through. what he doesn’t expect his hearts, his name, and your initials in the footnotes as well. [friends to lovers]

'hey, you weren't supposed to see that!' - coming soon!

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this will be updated when i have no writing juice :(( i am sorrey if ygs are looking forward to it i have too many wips rn

[hoodieseasoned]

empires smp lizzie & joel

I'm too lazy to write something new about this so I'll just copy here what i said in my insta caption:

I'm very sane and normal about empires lizzie & joel (she's holding him like a goddamn guitar but ignore that pls i wasnt going for accuracy)

when i was younger i used to watch lizzie's crazycraft series but i didn't know much english back then so the only things that really stuck to me from that series were her pink castle and her "annoying boyfriend" (idk if they were an item yet back then i just rmbr not liking him very much lol),,, now years later i watch soooo many smallishbeans videos and then think "hm, this ldshadowlady person gives me strong nostalgia for some reason"

well wouldn't you know it

I've been watching the annoying boyfriend (now husband) all along

how deceiving

in other news I've been re-watching the crazycraft series bc oh my god the nostalgia

here's some progress pictures too

i have another empires art in the works rn but i am severely procrastinating on the coloring stage bc the lineart already took me two hours (about four if you count that i sketched it first in pencil and then redrew over that in digital) SO idk when I'll show you that one (it also has lizzie and joel in it and also! jimmy)

oh wait i have a jimmy art too

here you go

[nadinefromwhere]

Self aware (rafayel x reader) part 2

word count: 1.1k

HI GUYS IM BACKKK I JUST WANNA SAY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! PLUS CALEB GIRLIES HOW WE FEELING RN plus enjoy this fic!!! next one will be a xav oneshot~ BUT ITS FLUFFY I PROMISE

Warnings: none

FANFIC UPDATES!!!! ao3 wattpad

Everytime he sees you, the only thing he just wanted was to hug you and never let you go. Sadly, It couldn’t happen since you were both separated by a screen. Yes, a screen.

Today was just any other day for you, Log in the game, do dailies and weeklies and maybe even farm a bit. But now it seems really weird ... .For some reason. Well not the game but its Rafayel.

Usually he’d just say something or probably be reading or sleeping but it's weird… maybe you're just hallucinating? After all, you haven't been sleeping well the past few days since you’ve been working on an art project that's due soon….

“So this is due next week, the other later, and the other….” You count how much was due, maybe around 5 - 10 projects? You slowly start regretting for procrastinating, using that time to farm in the game for rafayel’s latest banner, into the canvas. Make it even worse there was a quad banner after and you only having 300 gems was the worst…..

“I'm sorry raf but i might have to skip this incoming banner” you say sighing in defeat, turning off the game in your phone to start finishing another art project…..

Meanwhile

Rafayel pouts as he sees you close the game, The only thing he wanted in the world right now was to just hug you, not the game you but the real life you. He did notice how stressed you were nowadays, especially the fact that your schedule was packed. Sure he did see the amount of effort you did when farming and also he did find it a coincidence that you went to art school.

He waited…..and waited…..and waited….

Seriously, are you just going to be gone for the next 800 years? (even though it's only been 2 hours but still)

He kept spamming you with messages on the phone, which was very usual of him to do. While you on the other hand was focused on finishing as many projects as possible.

“If only i was there with you….i could’ve helped you out but no, i'm stuck in a screen” he says pouting

.

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A few hours later…

“Well I'm finally done with half of it so maybe i’ll just…. Sleep it off first….” You say as you started to fall asleep while listening to one of Rafayels 4* memories..

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It was so comfy, like really comfy. You know the feeling when somebody’s beside you and then it’s a rainy morning? Wait. wait this is wrong.

You live alone,

You don't even remember letting anyone sleep beside you yesterday,

NOW WHAT WAS THIS!?!?!?!

You open your eyes in panic just to see him. No other than Rafayel, the very same man that you wished to see in reality ever since you started playing love and deep space.

“Morning cutie” he says, and immediately you smack rafayel immediately, throwing him off guard. 

“Hey why smack me when you could give me a kiss :(“ Rafayel says pouting confusedly on why you would do that to him first thing in the morning. Don't you miss me?? He wonders

“You're real?” you say as you kept touching everywhere, the face, nose, hair everywhere./

“Yes I am real, didn't you sleep well yesterday?” rafayel asks, even though he knew that you probably spent studying until 3 in the morning.

“Uhm of course i did-” you say before rafayel cuts you off

“Liar i know you slept at 3 am so thats means you don't sleep well 😠” rafayel says as he looks at you as if you committed a crime or something.

“Wait how do you know-” you ask confused on how the hell did a fictional character that you loved knows you slept very late in the morning

“Because you left me all alone in the cafe to study silly girl, that's why i know” he says winking at you

“But- BUT-”

“No buts, the only thing i want to do today is just spend time with you” rafayel says as he picks you up bridal style……

The entirety of the day was spent in laughter and enjoyment, visiting the aquarium, painting with rafayel, having dinner with him and the last thing on the bucket list for today is watching the sunset at the beach.

“You know everytime i see the sunset, the first thing that reminds me is you,” Rafayel says, as he interlocked his hands with yours. 

Looking into his purple - magenta eyes before you could even say another word, suddenly you felt like you were falling into the abyss, as if you have gotten knocked out or something….

“WHAT THE-” you open your eyes just to see yourself back in your good old bedroom, same home, same lifestyle. 

“So it was just all a dream?” you wonder, as you stand up from bed. 

As you sigh and get yourself ready for uni, you find yourself lost in the moments where rafayel was doing everything with you…it felt so real you swear that it all happened….

Sometime later you find yourself in the middle of a lecture until you receive a message from an unknown number….

Messages

Unknown number: hey cutie when’s class going to finish?

You're scared. No creeped out to be exact. Who is this? How did he/she find your number? How did the person in question find out you're in class right now? Your breathing becomes heavy as you debate whether to reply or not. At this point the class wasn't the topic anymore. It was about who that was and how creepy they are.

You: who are you? If i may ask 

Unknown number: it's me cutie, the name's rafayel. Did you forget about me? 

You: yeah no way you're actually him creep. Hell no way i'm believing that easily

You close your phone as you block the number, hoping that everything won't escalate later on…..

Rafayel on the other hand, was to say driving to the art school where you study. Having a bouquet of flowers at hand as he was almost near….

“Yeah yeah whatever besides I already blocked the creep so there's nothing going to happen next right?” you say chatting with one of your friends as you walk outside the school.

Suddenly a sports car pulls up at the entrance, before you could react to anything you see a young man in his mid - twenties purple hair and purple - magenta eyes get out of the car with a bouquet at hand as he immediately spots you.

“Hey there cutie, how's life in art school?” rafayel asks, smiling as he gives you the flowers he bought earlier

You missed him. Missed his touch, his whiny voice everytime when he loses the claw machine, and how you and he would tease each other at times.

“Rafayel you jerk” you said as you immediately hugged him, not caring about anyone right now except  for him. 

“I finally found you, cutie. Don't leave me again” He says hugging you back, he finally found you. Maybe waiting for 800 years really was worth it. 

_________________________________________________________ Taglist: @ladyof-themoon

[laylasverse]

TOLD 'EM IN PUBLIC

౨ৎ doing this shifting exercise by zaddizu for my better cr . this is a longer one so buckle up. i skipped some of the questions, sorry lol . . .

✶ WHAT IS YOUR NAME ? my name is layla amelie mullis. my mother named me after the song "layla" by eric clapton. she knew from childhood that she wanted to name her daughter after the song. my biological father gave me my middle name & last name. "amelie" is after a girl he found pretty at the dmv.

✶ WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD ? this question is so difficult to answer because it changes all the time. and the answer is dependent on a lot of variables. anyway, right now i love yogurt parfaits with strawberries & granola.

✶ WHAT IS A SONG YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE A PLACE FOR IN YOUR HEART ? mockingbird by eminem. i used to listen to it as a little girl and it reminds me of my biological father. ( we don't have time to get into this rn lol )

✶ FAVORITE COLOR, GO ! dark red, but i look best in green because of my hazel eyes so green too.

✶ WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MEMORY ? my favorite memory is every time i saw a movie with my sister and my step-dad. it isn't really a specific movie but the feeling over sitting in a movie theater with them. sharing popcorn, making stupid comments & jokes, complaining about plots, having the aux on the way home and so much more. i am forever grateful for those moments.

✶ IN A CROWED ROOM, WHO WOULD YOU LOOK FOR FIRST ? my little sister. i drag her along with me wherever i go so she's always there. she the first person i tell when something major happens so i always look for and to her.

✶ BEST MUSIC GENRE ? oh, definitely hip-hop. it has set the foundation for so many trends & norms.

✶ WHAT TOPIC WOULD YOU DEFEND WITH YOUR LIFE ? literally anything kendrick lamar does. like the imagery and storytelling in his works is just so amazing. my friends know not to say anything bad about him while i'm around because i will not stop defending him.

✶ WHO IS A CHARACTER YOU RELATE TO ? stiles stilinski, because i am also the funny best friend of the main character.

✶ PICTURE YOUR ROOM, IS IT ORGANIZED OR MESSY ? right now it's a combination of both. it's messy but i know where everything is. i should really just clean it out like an intense spring cleaning but i got other things to do ( this is me procrastinating if you couldn't tell ).

✶ GUN TO YOUR HEAD . . . ARE YOU FUNNY ? yes, i am. i know that may come across conceded but being funny has been my thing since childhood. i was not the prettiest girl growing up so i had to be funny for people to be my friend. i used to hate just being the "funny friend" but now it's just who i am. and i love making people laugh.

✶ FRUIT PLATTER OR CANDY PLATTER ? fruit platter, one thousand percent. fresh strawberries, pineapple, crunchy green grapes, raspberries, green apple slices, mandarin oranges, & kiwi. like give me five minutes and it's gone.

✶ SUGAR, SOUR OR SPICE ? spice. even though my mouth sometimes feels like it's literal lava afterwords, i love spicy food.

✶ WHAT'S YOUR AESTHETIC ? i don't even know how to put it into words so here's a little moodboard.

✶ WHO IN YOUR DESIRED REALITY WOULD NOT SURPRISE YOU AS BEING A SHIFTER ? this might be an easy answer because she's a shifter here but my friend stevie. we both add each other to our drs and stuff so it would not surprise me if she gave me wink or whatever.

✶ WHAT'S YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE ? i was never a harry potter girlie. i tried to watch the movies a few years ago. they didn't really latch onto my brain though. my friend kennedy is really into harry potter and stuff so i took the quiz a few times & always got gryffindor.

✶ AMBIVERT, INTROVERT, OR EXTRAVERT ? ambivert. around my friends i am an extravert through and through. i enjoy making them laugh so i turn up my personality while i am around them. but at home or in front of people i don't know i am definitely an introvert. talking in front of crowds is the bane of my existence.

✶ BEST SCHOOL SUBJECT ? math because there's a definite answer for everything. or maybe history because it's already happened and i don't have to analyze some author's meaning. can you tell how much i hate my english classes?

✶ WHERE CAN SOMEONE FIND YOU WHEN YOU'RE SAD ? in my room, for sure. i love to be alone when im feeling "big" emotions. i just need like two hours to deal with it all on my own then i'm good.

✶ SOMEONE'S MUSIC YOU DON'T ENJOY ? it's not so much of a person than a type of music. i really don't like music without lyrics. it just doesn't make any sense to me. i can't focus on anything if there's like classical music playing.

✶ HAVE YOU HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE ? surprisingly, no.

✶ WHO WAS YOUR FIRST LOVE ? DO YOU REGRET IT ? okay, so... surprisingly jason was not my first love. i had a friend that i had an intense homoerotic friendship with from sixth grade to the middle of freshman year. i don't exactly regret it but if i could go back i wouldn't got through it again. she was just not someone I shouldn't have loved. when i confessed she acted like i was crazy even though literally everyone around us thought we were already together. so sick, awesome.

✶ HAS THERE EVER BEEN SOMEONE FAMOUS YOU DIDN'T LIKE ? oh, many many many people. usually when i meet someone i almost immediately get their vibe and most famous people give of strange ones. sorta like leeches or parasites. lmk if y'all want me to tell you who...

✶ DO YOU ENJOY YOUR FANBASE ? yes! well, most of the time. sometimes they get a little weird when i bring a non-youtuber friend into my videos because they become bloodhounds and have to find out everything about them. but other than that they're pretty chill. they make a bunch of compilations on youtube & i watch them with my friends stevie because she's in my videos often.

✶ WHAT ARE YOU FAMOUS FOR ? i'm famous for my elementary school vines & baking videos.

✶ LEAST FAVORITE INTERVIEW ? my least favorite interview i've done has got to be when i had chris evans on my "show". but only because he made me nervous a few times so i fumbled over my words. this is one of the few interviews of mine i literally won't watch back.

IB : the amazing @rrezshifts & his post !!

[imnothungryyouare]

MARCH 19TH 2025

OH MY GOD I WANT TO KILL MYSELF.

I'm studying logic for the SAT (I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO CALL IT) like we don't call it "the SAT" in Scandinavia) (whatever it'll work( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)) and the cravings are INSANE.

I binged last night. I wanna say it was my dad's fault for pouring himself yogurt an hour before, but let's be real - I chose to eat all that shit. I could've gone to bed ∼midnight, kept my sleep schedule structured and gotten up at around 8 PM to study. I chose staying up to stuff my fat fucking face with peanut butter, cheese and bread instead. So yeah, that's what I'm dealing with rn (this is like my own personal hell😊✨😊✨💕😊💕✨😊✨💕) (I'm way past the honeymoon phase brO it's NOT coming back).

It wasn't like this a few weeks ago. I've noticed that starving's a fuck ton easier when you're in love / when you're fixated on somebody (you can be motivated by someone's rejection too lol) (TRUST ME). I don't know if it's the death of appetite from all the butterflies, or just the sort of nagging self-notion that you'll never be good enough for them -> (kind of removing all doubt / making you 100% convinced that you need to GET SKINNY, FAST)

That was a few weeks back, though. That's not now. Now I'm giving in to every urge.

I trust that ONE successful fast, JUST ONE, is enough to motivate me continually. Like the hardest part of making a good study schedule is facing up to the disgusting mess - the PILE OF ASSIGNMENTS YOU GOTTA CATCH UP WITH AND DO - that you've created from weeks of procrastination. After that, all you need's a good night sleep - you'll just get to work.

I've fasted for ∼6½ hours. If I go to bed right about now, I'll be sleeping on schedule.

. . .

I gotta be honest man I DON'T THINK I CAN TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE. Whenever I'm miserable (which would be ALWAYS😊😊😊 ), it's either because I'm hungry or because I'm NOT hungry. I'm n e v e r satisfied. The 4n0r3x1c part of me says "Well yeah, that's because your BMI's 21,20. You'll be happy when your jawline starts showing." but WILL I REALLY? Is my jaw even pronounced enough for the bones to show? I know people with my BMI who have no trouble at all getting their jawline to show.

Why would that make me happy? I know I'll be angry, depressed and insecure then too. It's not like my jawline starts showing, and everything turns into sunshine and rainbows. It's only a shame I can't rid myself of that conviction so long as I'm this weight.

What's there telling me I'll look better with a BMI of 17? What if I'm just ugly, FUNDAMENTALLY?

Would I be 4n0r3x1c if I wasn't? Would I have low self-esteem if I wasn't? Am I not going against evolution by depriving myself of this many calories? WHEN THEY'RE RIGHT THERE, ON THE TABLE NEXT TO ME.

If I was 1000000% certain this shit wasn't helping me - I'D STOP. But I have my objectives - I want to be romantically desirable. At least I think that's my objective. It's the one thing on my mind post-binge. And I don't need to be 100% certain that 4n4's gonna help me reach that objective for those nagging "YOU ATE TOO MUCH"-thoughts to appear. I just need to be 0.0001% sure that I run the risk of making my self un-loveable if I eat too much.

[itsrlymine]

hi, what do I gotta do to enter the void state i mean my family is so loud and i have sm things and stress through out the day and everytime I try to induce pure conciousness i fall asleep or procrastinate it it’s like a stupid looop i want to very badly know my worth and know im a god but my family is really religious and it makes me overthink EVERYTHING and then i feel bad 😭😭 anyways I love you 💗💗

Girl I don't know anything about void state. You don't need it to manifest. You are manifesting rn without it. You can't induce pure consciousness. You just are it. This is why I made this blog because so many people are lying to yall and writing long as posts just to sound like they know something when they could have left it in the drafts.

In terms of dealing with daily stressors, my suggestion is to always start calming your nervous system by taking slow breaths and allowing your mind to quiet itself down. It could take a few seconds or a minutes, either one is okay.

I was also raised in a very religious family and they are still heavily religious. I would suggest watching channels like The Power of I Am, Be Something Wonderful and Zakari Hikari. They all in their own ways explain what it means to be God in a way so that you don't feel bad but recognize this has been your role this entire time.

Don't worry babe, you got this.

[afantasyoffiction]

a lil intro :)

hi hello to anyone who's checking this out!

i’m caitlin, an aspiring fantasy writer and maybe poet, english literature nerd and general fandom weirdo who likes to talk a lot about all my many many obsessions :)

i'm new to actively participating on this site as opposed to watching thru the window of pinterest...but now that i write more and 9-1-1 in particular doesn't post on pinterest so much, i'm on here too rip

i talk about: writing, procrastinating writing, reading writing and characters in writing who drive me insane!

my writing: i write poetry which i will post on here occasionally! but my main writing that is intended for other ppl to read is fanfic, and my fantasy wip:

my fics that you can go read literally right now if you want:

just to sit outside your door - buddie post-hiatus wip

if I glued myself shut (you would find your way in) - buck's pov during the 'are his concerns your concerns', feeling realisation

you've haunted me, so stunningly - eddie pov during the post -lightning convo w buck, based on that amazing edit making the rounds rn

just to sit outside of your (ipad screen) light - eddie post-hiatus mini fic, feelings realisation

the witches wip: a ya fantasy book (one day trilogy i hope!) about a world where witches are gone, but persecution of them isn't. trying to save her innocent sister from execution, my fmc gets dragged into a storm of political plotting, conflicting agendas and strange powers beyond her comprehension. a book about family, and realising that what you thought was a bedtime story might still be around to haunt you... tagged with #the witches wip

my ao3: a_fantasy_2 - all the good stuff is copied above! tags are #shameless fanfic plug and #caitlin's original writing

main fandoms: i have been in a ridiculous number of fandoms so this is not all of them but these are my main ones - bold are ones im currently in the trenches abt :)

9-1-1 (pls no ship war content tho i just cannot)

marauders (my og loml one true fandom its a canon event i fear)

good omens (book and tv show changed my life)

anything leigh bardugo but SoC and RoW especially

supernatural (its been a while but then again i'm fandom posting on this site so its kinda a given)

anything by chloe gong....(message me PLEASE. best ya fantasy writer and my literal writing idol)

EPIC the musical - i love this so freaking much, if you don't know what this is go find out u won't regret it

hamilton (i am in fact hamiltrash, unfortunately)

aftg (im not writing that out. if you know what that acronym is thats on you.)

tagging system: i got one of those creepy teeth 'frequent poster badges', so i think it might be time for me to get one of these. ahem. on an incoherent blog, i declare order:

#caitlin writes and yaps abt it - writblr content (these will almost always have the 'writblr' and 'writers on tumblr' tag as well)

#caitlin's homebrew hallucinations - any writing or OC content from my wips or poetry i share

#the witches wip - specific wip content!

#caitlin the english major - literature posts

#caitlin reblogs from even cooler blogs and/or #caitlin's moot besties - reblogging my moots or other cool ppl!

#caitlin does ask games / #caitlin does reblog games - making a separate tag bc i LOVE these

#shameless fanfic plug - fics that i write on ao3 and want to share here

#caitlin rambles miscellaneous - anything else thats incoherent

fandom posts will all be tagged with their fandom and with #caitlin a fandom nerd

sound good? let me know if this actually makes this blog make any more sense mk team

please send me: asks/posts/comments about these fandoms, short fic writing prompts within these fandoms, writblr content, writing questions, or literature thoughts :)

(pls don’t send me requests for money or ai content. i will block and delete, here’s why. )

basically reach out if you just want to ramble about any of these things because what else is tumblr dot com for ... seriously what. actually what was this site made for it beats me

[lobotomy-lady]

you're a wannabe artist and domestic terrorist. do you ever meaningfully advance your goals in any fashion or do you just like to think about what it would be like if you did them? you impotently post about wanting to commit terrorism, and yet never do it. you're a thin veil of a person. youre a bad perfomance. you narrativise everything you do it's so transparent and embarrassing! lack of self awareness is the pinnacle of cringe. i can't believe I ever liked your blog.

This is...literally the most ridiculously parasocial ask I've ever gotten (which I'm sure you know is really saying smth, I don't know why I attract these type of followers but it is what it is). I am actually deeply fascinated by your perception of me & the fact that I'm apparently on your mind enough for you to feel betrayed & offended by me like this?? Wild. But anyways I'm just gonna respond earnestly bc I'm working a double rn, no one is in the center so I'm bored as shit but just know that this is the funniest thing I've ever received & I laughed for like 5 minutes before starting to type anything.

So like...first of all idk why this needs to be said but I am not in fact seriously aspiring to a life of terrorism-are you saying that bc I post about wanting to kill rapists but am not actually out there killing them?? You wouldn't know if I was bc I'm not an idiot who posts about committing felonies, secondly I'm a grown adult with a job & responsibilities to my family so I can't exactly go & throw my life away to become a vigilante for a few weeks then spend forever in jail.

As for the artist part, I mean...I write literally every day (& I talk about my various ongoing projects on here sometimes so idk how you missed that, real parasocials would know, sad!) so yeah I'm advancing in that respect lol. When I talk about my chronic procrastination it's usually me ignoring my novel for my screenplay ( which is much less likely to turn into anything by virtue of needing a producer investing hundreds of thousands of dollars rather than the option of just self publishing an e-book). I have a novel, two screenplays, & an album of songs that I'm almost done with, plus a ton of ideas for future projects I want to work on. If anything my problem is flittering between too many projects at once, if I could stick to one I'd have completed it by now lol.

Also if there's one thing I have in abundance it's self awareness! I'm literally the most self aware person on earth why do you think I refer to my dreams as delusional...it's bc I know being a famous writer/director is a crazy aspiration to have for a working class nobody with no money or connections. Why do you think I'm working as a crisis counselor & pursuing a career in the mental health field in the mean time? Backup plan!

[hwanswerland]

Get to Know Your Tumblr Mutuals

thank you for tagging me @seonghwacore ann! it's been 84 years since i did anything like this

What's the origin of your username? -> seonghwa + answer (prob my all time fave ateez song) + wonderland (my fave song at the time of creation of this blog)

OTP(s) + shipname -> uhhhh. ngl not something i have? sometimes i do enjoy a ship but not so much that i could name even one rn

Song stuck in my head -> advice (taemin)

Weirdest habit/trait -> there's probably many things lol but one thing i became aware of at the last ateez concert was: i always sing the adlibs (when no one around me did), sometimes rather than the actual lyrics. its not very weird but i cannot think of anything else rn sorry

Hobbies -> atm not a lot since i have to write my bachelor's thesis and can't really affort to do much that would let me procrastinate ripppp. only exception is always my horsie

If you work, what's your profession? -> currently work at a supermarket, however i study geography and will likely soon work in city planning or smth (if i get a job that is. I HOPE!!!)

If you could have any job you wish what would you have? -> idk man i'm not a workaholic, idk about this. i do enjoy working with horses a lot and am good at it (horse girl fio confirmed) so probably that. but it would have to pay better than it actually does

Something you're good at -> drawing

Something you hate -> not many things tbh, mostly awful people (like nazis and the like)

Something you forget -> people's birthdays 🥲

Your love language -> good question

Favourite movies/shows -> lord of the rings trilogy always. some other things i enjoy (a lot) but nothing to the level as that

What were you like as a child? -> shy, introverted, insecure

Favourite subject in school -> english or really anything as a second language. but i was by far best at and had most fun in english classes

Least favourite subject -> physics

What's your best/worst character trait? -> literally idk. i'm really self aware about what i'm doing and how i probably am perceived by others, but i'm not self aware in the way that i could tell you this. which i hate btw

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? -> be done with uni and have a stable job (that i like). highkey hate not knowing where tf i'll end up after i'm done with my degree

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? -> someone from the last generation of humas before this planet becomes uninhabitable and we die out. i want to know how shit it's gonna get lol

i havent been around here in forever and idk who's around anymore so no pressure tagging @applejongho @starcatching @jeongyunho99 @oyeixcher @hwatermelon @baekwin

[chaotic-multi-fandom]

Something that I love and appreciate about Ash Lynx that I don't see many people talking about is his lack of desire for personal revenge. It's such a small and obvious detail, that I don't think we stop to think about it enough, but Ash is not consumed by revenge. Even after everything that happened to him, we never see him express a desire to kill or torture Dino, or anyone else who hurt him, we just wants to be free. Even with researching banana fish he's just trying to figure out what's wrong with his brother so that he can cure him, his motive is never revenge. Wanting to destroy and make Dino suffer would be a completely understandable reaction, yet all he wants to do is prevent other children from experiencing the same things he did.

The only times we see Ash express a desire for revenge, is when people he loves are hurt. This is seen several times with Eiji, such as when he's shot and he chases the men and shoots them with rage in his eyes, or when Shorter dies and he kills Dawson as he begs for mercy. This is why at the start I emphasised *personal revenge*. But I just think that his overall lack of thirst for revenge and just deep desire to be free is an extremely important facet of his character, that really just highlights who he is on the inside beyond all the violence and suffering, and is also very telling of his strength.

This is also one of the reasons why I dislike the "yut lung is just ash without eiji" rhetoric, because I feel like it does such a disservice to both their characters. Yes, they've lived through similar trauma and are in several ways parallels to each other, but they're different people with or without someone to support them. First of all, before Eiji, Ash did have someone, Shorter, and he had other people he cared about such as Skipper and his gang. Obviously none where as influencial or life changing as Eiji was, but painting him as being completely alone before meeting Eiji simply isn't true. Secondly, Ash and Yut lung are very separate people with separate personalities and with indivual nuances to their stories despite their similarites. One of these is the desire for revenge. As I established Ash isn't consumed by personal revenge, but Yut Lung very much is, his entire first arc is his search for revenge agaisnt his own brothers, whom he wants to kill.

Yut Lung isn't Ash without Eiji, he's just Yut Lung. He's a different person with different responses and reactions to the world around him, and of course, having someone to love and care for him would be monumental, but he'd still be a completely different character to Ash, and in my personal opinion, would have a harder time accepting that love than him (as we see briefly with his connection with Sing).

Of course there's also differences in their stories that I think are worth noting. I won't do it on this post because frankly I've been procrastinating making lunch and I need to do that rn. But reducing Yut Lungs's character to an "ash without eiji" is truly tragic in my opinion, and not only a disservice to him as a character but also to his story. Yut lung isn't just there to be a parallel to Ash, and I feel like we sometimes forget that. Anyway I'll get more into the nuances of Yut lung's character, and the nuances of his and Ash's stories and they way they both parallel and differ from each other if y'all want. If not I'll probably forget, and it'll just live in my mind, keeping me awake at 4 am.

[mayuichi]

“Rest assured, it is not mine.„

William James Moriarty x fem!reader Warnings: dark contents (murders, beating, blood, etc...), spoilers of MOSTLY the second season! be aware!

note: i'm so obsessed again over MTP, you can't know how much. i'm rewatching it rn, and i'll reread it too. ALSO i'm so sorry for my absence, i'm procrastinating and finding it hard to stay motivated, especially with my nausea, but it's slowly getting better so i hope i'll be capable to write more!

Pictures from the anime Yuukoku no Moriarty / Moriarty the Patriot.

Being the child of an earl isn't too hard. But as a woman, you are expected to be nearly perfect. Graceful, elegant, flawless, and charitable. Most respect you, or more likely.. fear your father. Speaking of which, you still live with your parents. You haven't found a suitable man yet. It was infuriating for your father, he wanted you to find a husband. But you couldn't care less for now. Strolling around in town is much more entertain than finding someone.

After one more heated argument with him, resulting in a red mark across your cheek like it happened so many time before, you call it a day and leave to your room for the night. Clutching on the plush you have managed to keep, you sit on your bed, staring at the moon through the window. Your mother didn't even tried to protect you, never. If only things could change.

Undressing yourself to slide on a warm robe, you close the curtains and fall on the soft mattress, engulfing in it, pulling the covers over your frame. Tomorrow is another day, it will all be okay.

At least, that's what you thought...

Awakening by a voice. You focus on it, only to realise it's a stranger. You've never heard them before... did you? Chills parkour through your veins, jolting you forward. You don't know who they are, nor what they want. But you don't want to stay near them.

Stepping cautiously out of your room, you hurry as best as you can to the front door. On your track, your gaze averts on a gruesome scene. Your father, resting in his blood, his life slowly fading from his body. With your mother, next to him, heavily injured. The footsteps behind you make you believe they're after you, now.

Sighing in relief when you finally see the front door. Your hands reach for the handle, your body freezes at the voice. “Leaving so soon? I've been told this family was full of cowards, but still...„ his voice malicious. You couldn't even move, feeling the tip of the blade against the back of your neck.

Just swallowing was hard. One bad move, and you'd die. Trying to take a deep breath. Your heart is pounding in your chest, your hands sweaty. “I... I am not like them..„. Hesitantly turning around, you could perceive one of his eyebrow raising. “The day... The day I'd be like them, I'd rather die...„

You don't even know half of what your father does, but all you've discovered about has never been good. A smirk displayed on the stranger's face, his golden locks falling ever so slightly above his scarlet eyes. “Hmm.. Interesting...„

Staring at him, also because you don't want to miss any of his action, your eyes get used properly to the dark, allowing you to see more of his features. And it isn't long before you recognise the second son of the Moriarty. A mathematics professor, and a noble, now pointing a blade at you.

However, he withdraws his blade, sheathing it back in his cane. Taking a step forward, he moves his hand across your cheek, his fingers grazing gently. “... Such a poor thing. I suppose it's a recurrent treatment, isn't it?„.

His touch, his words, his expression... It's so sweet, so caring. Is it truly the same man that has murdered your parents? With a sigh, he pulls away, thinking of a way to be sure you'd keep your silence over his true identity. But before he could utter a word, you got carried away and whispered your thoughts.

“I wouldn't mind... joining you. I want to be useful as well...„. Surprise filled his eyes. His piercing gaze staring right through your soul, he leans in, his tall frame towering over you. “Are you sure ? It is a dark and dangerous path. You shouldn't be impulsive.„. He hasn't dismissed you. He feels it in you, after all. That strength and resilience after all those years. This desire to be able to make a change. Even if you aren't a good fighter for now, you could become one.

His associates were unsure, at first. You were so fragile, so sensitive. How could you become useful ? But he kept believing in you, training you, and asking for Jake to train you as well. Within weeks, you were already close to be as good as them. You just lacked experiences.

And perhaps, everything that happened got you closer to their leader, the true Lord of Crime... William. He'd often invite you over tea, or to stroll around town. At this point, it became a habit of you, to go buy some pastries to a hardworking baker and have your tea party. It wasn't always just the two of you. Sometimes, Louis and Albert would join in, or even Bonde. It was such heartwarming times.

It has never been a surprise for you that in a middle of your discussions, William would suddenly fall over the couch and sleep. It always made you giggle quietly. But despite it, none of you took a step further. After all, neither knew if the others actually had feelings or if it was just a mere thought.

Months after you joined, William has went again with Louis only to take care of some aristocrats, with Fred's intel. Those nights are the worst. You're restless, incapable to be in slumber.

Sitting on your bed, in your robe, you hear the front door opening. Footsteps in the corridor, and the brothers' voice, casting each other's goodnights. Stepping out of your room, you gaze over William, blood soaked. “Is... is that blood?„

He turns around to face you, a gentle smile spreading when he sees you. “Rest assured, it is not mine.„. You blink, unsure of how you should feel. It's clear though, it isn't having the right effect. “Is that supposed to reassure me?!„

Your exclamation caught him off guard, and he walks closer, placing a comforting hand over your shoulder. “Isn't it usual now, though? You have seen me bloody a lot before.„. His words hit you like a train. You have seen him blood covered, yes, but your mind has never been calm about it.

“I know! I just-.. Ugh..„, anxiety floods you, your head lowering as you dismiss his hand. “I never said it was fine for me. It makes me worry. What if you get hurt?„. It's a stupid assumption, and you know it. He makes plan for every tiny details. He never leaves room for uncertainty.

Hurrying yourself to ask him to forget it, you go back in your room, closing the door behind you. Plopping on your bed, you can't help but hate yourself. Why are you so worried about him? He's not a child, and beside, he knows how to act upon unexpected twists. You pick the pillow, placing it in your arms, hugging it against you.

“... I hate it so much.„ you growl under your breath. Eyes closed and lost in your mind, you don't pay attention to the footsteps and the door opening. You only get out of your thoughts when you feel something, or rather someone, taking place on the mattress.

You turn around to see William sitting next to your laying form, his hand hovering over your hair, caressing it carefully. He has taken off his coat and changed his clothes to his usual sleep attire. “I find it flattering, you know? Your worries being on me. But I have my shares of worries over you, too.„ he chuckles.

It makes you groan silently, turning again to make him face your back. Seeing you holding your pillow so tight, he allows himself to lay beside you, wrapping his arms around your waist. “Don't be upset, my dear. How about we plan a tea party tomorrow? As a token of apology for all those worries I fill your heart and mind with.„

Just the thought of it cracks a smile from you, and he sees it clearly. You slowly nod, closing your eyes as you lean further in his embrace. You know it wouldn't last forever, but you'd drown yourself in it for as long as it last.

It's an hour later he withdraws his arms from you, giving your hair one last stroke, before standing up. “I will see you tomorrow, my dear. Have a good night.„

As he walks away, you turn around, sitting up quickly, calling out his name. “... William!„. Your voice is so urgent, like your feelings are about to explode. “Yes?„ he turns to face you, his eyes softening at your desperate state.

“I...„ you hesitate. Is it truly a good idea to confess ? It isn't a secret for yourself anymore, you've fallen for him, smitten by his simple presence. But maybe it isn't a good thing to tell him... “... Take care... Goodnight...„

Something tells you by the look of his eyes, he knows you're hiding your feelings from him. But he doesn't push. Not yet. You're too vulnerable for now. He wants you to willingly admit them. He closes his eyes. “I will, thank you. I'll see you tomorrow.„ and with that, he leaves your room, the silence feeling it. Your feelings drowning you in slumber.

/ᐠ - ˕ •マ Ⳋmayuichi's property. do not repost, copy or translate without permission.

[crab-people-overlord]

Ok I’ll prob never get political again on here- this is probably the only time. So I’ll not be offended if you skip past this post.

I’m so sad rn 🥺 I was a small content creator on TikTok that did stupid guitar songs, and I had a small but fulfilling following. I work from home, so TikTok was kinda like my ‘second space’ so to speak. I was in the middle of downloading all my data when TikTok went dark all of a sudden. This was one of the things that kinda kept me sane lol, not to sound dramatic. Not sure why it went out so early- I’m in the mountain time zone but am a procrastinator so thought we’d have until midnight eastern time.

It’s totally possible that someone in government will swoop in and ‘save the day’ and bring TikTok back- but I can’t help but to feel utterly betrayed by our Supreme Court, much like I did when they reversed Roe v Wade. This feels like a massive betrayal of the first amendment. And look, I work in data security and understand that TikTok absolutely takes much more data than it rightfully should, much like literally every other American-owned social media platform does. I’ve always wished our gov would write laws protecting our privacy and data-security. I honestly do understand the security concerns more so than I think a lot of folks my age seem to care about- and maybe that’s because I’ve both interned at the federal level in online data security as well as that’s partially my job now.

But instead of getting to the core of the issue and writing meaningful security laws that would be applicable to all platforms, my government decided to go BAN a platform so many of us use as a means to express our first amendment rights. This is so concerning to me and is such a blatant disregard for our constitution and free speech. And everyone in the US should also be concerned about this. It feels like the equivalent of burning books. It feels so dystopian and fascist.

At the end of the day, I’ll be okay. I only used it to share a small following of folks silly little songs I made up. But I am genuinely concerned for the small businesses who truly relied on the platform as their means of income- real, true human American beings who the Supreme Court never once took a second to think about.