#i am procrastinating so many things rn

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Take me to da BEACH (imagine dragons)

this is literally 27 seconds and i don't have any explanation for it except that one transition is so fire and i do what i want

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

kitsune!geto staring at me like this as i rifle through every other suguru wip in my docs

[deadly-n-dapper]

ORGANISATION!!!

[incohorace]

The Beast ™️

[mygnolia]

INCEPTIO DE AMORE : ENHYPEN MINISERIES

୨୧ -› the beginning of love: a wonderful thing, truly, to catch such fleeting, powerful, intoxicating feelings. hey, what type of magic did you cast that makes my heart only burn for you?

pair -› enhypen x reader | genre -› highschool crushes!

REN SAYS... inceptio concept tew good

orange creamsicle !

in which your school newspaper needs to be printed, someone's broken the same reliable printer you've been using all school year. who, if not to blame, than master procrastinator park sunghoon? [idiots/enemies to lovers]

'you're going to break the copier, sunghoon!' - coming soon!

be my slime !

your mom invites jake over to help take care of your cousins- and somehow ends up with hearts on his face and washing glue and borax out of your hair in the sink. [neighbors to lovers]

'i'm trying my best to get it out, okay?' - coming soon!

zoo animals !

during volunteer service you’re tasked to decorate a kindergarten room with animal stickers and trees, so how did they get on sunoo’s face? [friends/classmates to lovers]

'wait, let me add some too!' - coming soon!

word love search !

jay decides to be cryptic this valentine’s day, and promises he’ll reveal his plans, just over a couple hundred letters and lots of circling. [situationship/friends to lovers]

'so much work for you to ask me on a date!' - coming soon!

passing notes !

your new seatmate needs a bit of help, but the room is just so quiet- how else is heeseung supposed to answer question 7 and confess his feelings if not through doodles and paper from his notebook? [classmates to lovers]

'pst...help? please?' - coming soon!

card tricks !

pick a card, any card! and when you’re able to see how he pulls the red card from your hair, you snatch it, and not just the five of hearts was taken- his was too. [strangers/classmates to lovers]

'how did you even do that?' - coming soon!

stop snooping !

jungwon realizes you've forgotten your notebook at his house, and in desperate need of math answers, he thumbs through. what he doesn’t expect his hearts, his name, and your initials in the footnotes as well. [friends to lovers]

'hey, you weren't supposed to see that!' - coming soon!

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this will be updated when i have no writing juice :(( i am sorrey if ygs are looking forward to it i have too many wips rn

[hoodieseasoned]

empires smp lizzie & joel

I'm too lazy to write something new about this so I'll just copy here what i said in my insta caption:

I'm very sane and normal about empires lizzie & joel (she's holding him like a goddamn guitar but ignore that pls i wasnt going for accuracy)

when i was younger i used to watch lizzie's crazycraft series but i didn't know much english back then so the only things that really stuck to me from that series were her pink castle and her "annoying boyfriend" (idk if they were an item yet back then i just rmbr not liking him very much lol),,, now years later i watch soooo many smallishbeans videos and then think "hm, this ldshadowlady person gives me strong nostalgia for some reason"

well wouldn't you know it

I've been watching the annoying boyfriend (now husband) all along

how deceiving

in other news I've been re-watching the crazycraft series bc oh my god the nostalgia

here's some progress pictures too

i have another empires art in the works rn but i am severely procrastinating on the coloring stage bc the lineart already took me two hours (about four if you count that i sketched it first in pencil and then redrew over that in digital) SO idk when I'll show you that one (it also has lizzie and joel in it and also! jimmy)

oh wait i have a jimmy art too

here you go

[laylasverse]

TOLD 'EM IN PUBLIC

౨ৎ doing this shifting exercise by zaddizu for my better cr . this is a longer one so buckle up. i skipped some of the questions, sorry lol . . .

✶ WHAT IS YOUR NAME ? my name is layla amelie mullis. my mother named me after the song "layla" by eric clapton. she knew from childhood that she wanted to name her daughter after the song. my biological father gave me my middle name & last name. "amelie" is after a girl he found pretty at the dmv.

✶ WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD ? this question is so difficult to answer because it changes all the time. and the answer is dependent on a lot of variables. anyway, right now i love yogurt parfaits with strawberries & granola.

✶ WHAT IS A SONG YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE A PLACE FOR IN YOUR HEART ? mockingbird by eminem. i used to listen to it as a little girl and it reminds me of my biological father. ( we don't have time to get into this rn lol )

✶ FAVORITE COLOR, GO ! dark red, but i look best in green because of my hazel eyes so green too.

✶ WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MEMORY ? my favorite memory is every time i saw a movie with my sister and my step-dad. it isn't really a specific movie but the feeling over sitting in a movie theater with them. sharing popcorn, making stupid comments & jokes, complaining about plots, having the aux on the way home and so much more. i am forever grateful for those moments.

✶ IN A CROWED ROOM, WHO WOULD YOU LOOK FOR FIRST ? my little sister. i drag her along with me wherever i go so she's always there. she the first person i tell when something major happens so i always look for and to her.

✶ BEST MUSIC GENRE ? oh, definitely hip-hop. it has set the foundation for so many trends & norms.

✶ WHAT TOPIC WOULD YOU DEFEND WITH YOUR LIFE ? literally anything kendrick lamar does. like the imagery and storytelling in his works is just so amazing. my friends know not to say anything bad about him while i'm around because i will not stop defending him.

✶ WHO IS A CHARACTER YOU RELATE TO ? stiles stilinski, because i am also the funny best friend of the main character.

✶ PICTURE YOUR ROOM, IS IT ORGANIZED OR MESSY ? right now it's a combination of both. it's messy but i know where everything is. i should really just clean it out like an intense spring cleaning but i got other things to do ( this is me procrastinating if you couldn't tell ).

✶ GUN TO YOUR HEAD . . . ARE YOU FUNNY ? yes, i am. i know that may come across conceded but being funny has been my thing since childhood. i was not the prettiest girl growing up so i had to be funny for people to be my friend. i used to hate just being the "funny friend" but now it's just who i am. and i love making people laugh.

✶ FRUIT PLATTER OR CANDY PLATTER ? fruit platter, one thousand percent. fresh strawberries, pineapple, crunchy green grapes, raspberries, green apple slices, mandarin oranges, & kiwi. like give me five minutes and it's gone.

✶ SUGAR, SOUR OR SPICE ? spice. even though my mouth sometimes feels like it's literal lava afterwords, i love spicy food.

✶ WHAT'S YOUR AESTHETIC ? i don't even know how to put it into words so here's a little moodboard.

✶ WHO IN YOUR DESIRED REALITY WOULD NOT SURPRISE YOU AS BEING A SHIFTER ? this might be an easy answer because she's a shifter here but my friend stevie. we both add each other to our drs and stuff so it would not surprise me if she gave me wink or whatever.

✶ WHAT'S YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE ? i was never a harry potter girlie. i tried to watch the movies a few years ago. they didn't really latch onto my brain though. my friend kennedy is really into harry potter and stuff so i took the quiz a few times & always got gryffindor.

✶ AMBIVERT, INTROVERT, OR EXTRAVERT ? ambivert. around my friends i am an extravert through and through. i enjoy making them laugh so i turn up my personality while i am around them. but at home or in front of people i don't know i am definitely an introvert. talking in front of crowds is the bane of my existence.

✶ BEST SCHOOL SUBJECT ? math because there's a definite answer for everything. or maybe history because it's already happened and i don't have to analyze some author's meaning. can you tell how much i hate my english classes?

✶ WHERE CAN SOMEONE FIND YOU WHEN YOU'RE SAD ? in my room, for sure. i love to be alone when im feeling "big" emotions. i just need like two hours to deal with it all on my own then i'm good.

✶ SOMEONE'S MUSIC YOU DON'T ENJOY ? it's not so much of a person than a type of music. i really don't like music without lyrics. it just doesn't make any sense to me. i can't focus on anything if there's like classical music playing.

✶ HAVE YOU HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE ? surprisingly, no.

✶ WHO WAS YOUR FIRST LOVE ? DO YOU REGRET IT ? okay, so... surprisingly jason was not my first love. i had a friend that i had an intense homoerotic friendship with from sixth grade to the middle of freshman year. i don't exactly regret it but if i could go back i wouldn't got through it again. she was just not someone I shouldn't have loved. when i confessed she acted like i was crazy even though literally everyone around us thought we were already together. so sick, awesome.

✶ HAS THERE EVER BEEN SOMEONE FAMOUS YOU DIDN'T LIKE ? oh, many many many people. usually when i meet someone i almost immediately get their vibe and most famous people give of strange ones. sorta like leeches or parasites. lmk if y'all want me to tell you who...

✶ DO YOU ENJOY YOUR FANBASE ? yes! well, most of the time. sometimes they get a little weird when i bring a non-youtuber friend into my videos because they become bloodhounds and have to find out everything about them. but other than that they're pretty chill. they make a bunch of compilations on youtube & i watch them with my friends stevie because she's in my videos often.

✶ WHAT ARE YOU FAMOUS FOR ? i'm famous for my elementary school vines & baking videos.

✶ LEAST FAVORITE INTERVIEW ? my least favorite interview i've done has got to be when i had chris evans on my "show". but only because he made me nervous a few times so i fumbled over my words. this is one of the few interviews of mine i literally won't watch back.

IB : the amazing @rrezshifts & his post !!

[magicluckystars]

would i date my ikemen favourites in real life?

I saw a post a WHILE ago that talked about the idea of their favorite characters meeting their parents, and I was procrastinating on work really bored so I decided to do a spin-off of that!! why not?

CW: crack, spoilers for: kenshin's route, ikerev prologue, and some of jonah's route, long post,

I am still a beginner writer so characters may be inaccurate/ooc! constructive feedback and reblogs help <3

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Chevalier (Ikemen Prince)

-I would have to tell him to tone down the ice prince behaviour. how are you almost 30 and still calling yourself "the brutal beast" 😭

-he's really smart so we won't have an issue with that

-we don't have a lot of common interests though

-the "show me your worth" and "when someone is no longer of use, that's that" is a major turn-off

-he's so tall?? +1 for that

final rating: 3.5/10 okay guy with questionable morals, i wouldn't date him

William (Ikemen Villians)

-again, really tall

-we won't have many issues, this man knows how to talk to people

-he can play piano too?! +2

-decent guy overall, so higher than chev

-final rating: 6/10 we could be friends, but he's not my type

Harrison (Ikemen Villians)

-I don't even have to mention the height, do I...

-the "am i lying or am I telling the truth?" thing would probably get old fast

-but he is the most normal (i mean, as normal as you can get in ikevil) out of all the boys

-he is pretty fun so the lying part doesn't matter

-final rating: 8/10 good partner

Vincent (Ikemen vampire)

-he deserves the world.

-I love sunflowers and you're telling me you PAINT THEM??

-he's friendly and a good person so we would get along fine

-that said he also doesn't have many strong opinions so that would be a bit frustrating and I also cant draw for the life of me

-brush is now my child. no he doesn't get a say in this.

-vincent can be mischevious sometimes though iirc so that's good

-final rating: 5/10 could be friends, but not really good friends

Kenshin (Ikemen Sengoku)

-i'm starting to notice a pattern in this list with the blondies with lore...

-i don't know how we'd even get close in the first place, considering I don't like conflict (and this man loves fighting)

-but he's considerate of MC's emotions in several routes so that's good

-YOU HAVE BUNNIES?? MULTIPLE OF THEM?? marry me rn /j

-he also doesn't seem like the person to like loud people but then again he lives with Yuki and Shingen (and they're chaotic in and of themselves)

-one thing i would definitely have an issue with is when he tries to keep the MC "all to himself" by KIDNAPPING HER. oh absolutely not.

-final rating: 3/10 potentially friends, but would NOT date him

Hideyoshi (Ikemen Sengoku)

-don't like the hostility towards MC in the beginning stages but he gets better towards her so it's fine

-i don't know how i feel about his many female admirers

-he's really kind though and pays attention to details (which I do not) so that's a plus

-i can respect his dedication to nobunaga

-the fact he has a MONKEY as a pet is adorable.

-he's also very justice-aligned, so thats also a plus

-don't really have much to say other than he's a good guy 👍

-final rating 6/10 we could be friends :)

Jonah (Ikemen Revolution)

-i'm sorry trying to arrest the MC as soon as she falls into Cradle is a big no

-he can be super nice but at the same time super insensitive to other people and I don't think I can get past that

-also not a big fan of expensive gifts, especially when we just met

-he likes sweets though and so do I so he at least has one redeeming quality

-not much other things to say here.

-final rating 2/10 i don't see how we would even click in the first place

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gonna end it off here cause i wanna get it out of my drafts and also to avoid it getting too long

but anyways thanks for reading! if you decide to try this please tag me I wanna read it!

bye for now and see you later <33

[itsrlymine]

hi, what do I gotta do to enter the void state i mean my family is so loud and i have sm things and stress through out the day and everytime I try to induce pure conciousness i fall asleep or procrastinate it it’s like a stupid looop i want to very badly know my worth and know im a god but my family is really religious and it makes me overthink EVERYTHING and then i feel bad 😭😭 anyways I love you 💗💗

Girl I don't know anything about void state. You don't need it to manifest. You are manifesting rn without it. You can't induce pure consciousness. You just are it. This is why I made this blog because so many people are lying to yall and writing long as posts just to sound like they know something when they could have left it in the drafts.

In terms of dealing with daily stressors, my suggestion is to always start calming your nervous system by taking slow breaths and allowing your mind to quiet itself down. It could take a few seconds or a minutes, either one is okay.

I was also raised in a very religious family and they are still heavily religious. I would suggest watching channels like The Power of I Am, Be Something Wonderful and Zakari Hikari. They all in their own ways explain what it means to be God in a way so that you don't feel bad but recognize this has been your role this entire time.

Don't worry babe, you got this.

[nadinefromwhere]

Self aware (rafayel x reader) part 2

word count: 1.1k

HI GUYS IM BACKKK I JUST WANNA SAY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! PLUS CALEB GIRLIES HOW WE FEELING RN plus enjoy this fic!!! next one will be a xav oneshot~ BUT ITS FLUFFY I PROMISE

Warnings: none

FANFIC UPDATES!!!! ao3 wattpad

Everytime he sees you, the only thing he just wanted was to hug you and never let you go. Sadly, It couldn’t happen since you were both separated by a screen. Yes, a screen.

Today was just any other day for you, Log in the game, do dailies and weeklies and maybe even farm a bit. But now it seems really weird ... .For some reason. Well not the game but its Rafayel.

Usually he’d just say something or probably be reading or sleeping but it's weird… maybe you're just hallucinating? After all, you haven't been sleeping well the past few days since you’ve been working on an art project that's due soon….

“So this is due next week, the other later, and the other….” You count how much was due, maybe around 5 - 10 projects? You slowly start regretting for procrastinating, using that time to farm in the game for rafayel’s latest banner, into the canvas. Make it even worse there was a quad banner after and you only having 300 gems was the worst…..

“I'm sorry raf but i might have to skip this incoming banner” you say sighing in defeat, turning off the game in your phone to start finishing another art project…..

Meanwhile

Rafayel pouts as he sees you close the game, The only thing he wanted in the world right now was to just hug you, not the game you but the real life you. He did notice how stressed you were nowadays, especially the fact that your schedule was packed. Sure he did see the amount of effort you did when farming and also he did find it a coincidence that you went to art school.

He waited…..and waited…..and waited….

Seriously, are you just going to be gone for the next 800 years? (even though it's only been 2 hours but still)

He kept spamming you with messages on the phone, which was very usual of him to do. While you on the other hand was focused on finishing as many projects as possible.

“If only i was there with you….i could’ve helped you out but no, i'm stuck in a screen” he says pouting

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A few hours later…

“Well I'm finally done with half of it so maybe i’ll just…. Sleep it off first….” You say as you started to fall asleep while listening to one of Rafayels 4* memories..

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It was so comfy, like really comfy. You know the feeling when somebody’s beside you and then it’s a rainy morning? Wait. wait this is wrong.

You live alone,

You don't even remember letting anyone sleep beside you yesterday,

NOW WHAT WAS THIS!?!?!?!

You open your eyes in panic just to see him. No other than Rafayel, the very same man that you wished to see in reality ever since you started playing love and deep space.

“Morning cutie” he says, and immediately you smack rafayel immediately, throwing him off guard. 

“Hey why smack me when you could give me a kiss :(“ Rafayel says pouting confusedly on why you would do that to him first thing in the morning. Don't you miss me?? He wonders

“You're real?” you say as you kept touching everywhere, the face, nose, hair everywhere./

“Yes I am real, didn't you sleep well yesterday?” rafayel asks, even though he knew that you probably spent studying until 3 in the morning.

“Uhm of course i did-” you say before rafayel cuts you off

“Liar i know you slept at 3 am so thats means you don't sleep well 😠” rafayel says as he looks at you as if you committed a crime or something.

“Wait how do you know-” you ask confused on how the hell did a fictional character that you loved knows you slept very late in the morning

“Because you left me all alone in the cafe to study silly girl, that's why i know” he says winking at you

“But- BUT-”

“No buts, the only thing i want to do today is just spend time with you” rafayel says as he picks you up bridal style……

The entirety of the day was spent in laughter and enjoyment, visiting the aquarium, painting with rafayel, having dinner with him and the last thing on the bucket list for today is watching the sunset at the beach.

“You know everytime i see the sunset, the first thing that reminds me is you,” Rafayel says, as he interlocked his hands with yours. 

Looking into his purple - magenta eyes before you could even say another word, suddenly you felt like you were falling into the abyss, as if you have gotten knocked out or something….

“WHAT THE-” you open your eyes just to see yourself back in your good old bedroom, same home, same lifestyle. 

“So it was just all a dream?” you wonder, as you stand up from bed. 

As you sigh and get yourself ready for uni, you find yourself lost in the moments where rafayel was doing everything with you…it felt so real you swear that it all happened….

Sometime later you find yourself in the middle of a lecture until you receive a message from an unknown number….

Messages

Unknown number: hey cutie when’s class going to finish?

You're scared. No creeped out to be exact. Who is this? How did he/she find your number? How did the person in question find out you're in class right now? Your breathing becomes heavy as you debate whether to reply or not. At this point the class wasn't the topic anymore. It was about who that was and how creepy they are.

You: who are you? If i may ask 

Unknown number: it's me cutie, the name's rafayel. Did you forget about me? 

You: yeah no way you're actually him creep. Hell no way i'm believing that easily

You close your phone as you block the number, hoping that everything won't escalate later on…..

Rafayel on the other hand, was to say driving to the art school where you study. Having a bouquet of flowers at hand as he was almost near….

“Yeah yeah whatever besides I already blocked the creep so there's nothing going to happen next right?” you say chatting with one of your friends as you walk outside the school.

Suddenly a sports car pulls up at the entrance, before you could react to anything you see a young man in his mid - twenties purple hair and purple - magenta eyes get out of the car with a bouquet at hand as he immediately spots you.

“Hey there cutie, how's life in art school?” rafayel asks, smiling as he gives you the flowers he bought earlier

You missed him. Missed his touch, his whiny voice everytime when he loses the claw machine, and how you and he would tease each other at times.

“Rafayel you jerk” you said as you immediately hugged him, not caring about anyone right now except  for him. 

“I finally found you, cutie. Don't leave me again” He says hugging you back, he finally found you. Maybe waiting for 800 years really was worth it. 

_________________________________________________________ Taglist: @ladyof-themoon

[afantasyoffiction]

a lil intro :)

hi hello to anyone who's checking this out!

i’m caitlin, an aspiring fantasy writer and maybe poet, english literature nerd and general fandom weirdo who likes to talk a lot about all my many many obsessions :)

i'm new to actively participating on this site as opposed to watching thru the window of pinterest...but now that i write more and 9-1-1 in particular doesn't post on pinterest so much, i'm on here too rip

i talk about: writing, procrastinating writing, reading writing and characters in writing who drive me insane!

my writing: i write poetry which i will post on here occasionally! but my main writing that is intended for other ppl to read is fanfic, and my fantasy wip:

my fics that you can go read literally right now if you want:

just to sit outside your door - buddie post-hiatus wip

if I glued myself shut (you would find your way in) - buck's pov during the 'are his concerns your concerns', feeling realisation

you've haunted me, so stunningly - eddie pov during the post -lightning convo w buck, based on that amazing edit making the rounds rn

just to sit outside of your (ipad screen) light - eddie post-hiatus mini fic, feelings realisation

the witches wip: a ya fantasy book (one day trilogy i hope!) about a world where witches are gone, but persecution of them isn't. trying to save her innocent sister from execution, my fmc gets dragged into a storm of political plotting, conflicting agendas and strange powers beyond her comprehension. a book about family, and realising that what you thought was a bedtime story might still be around to haunt you... tagged with #the witches wip

my ao3: a_fantasy_2 - all the good stuff is copied above! tags are #shameless fanfic plug and #caitlin's original writing

main fandoms: i have been in a ridiculous number of fandoms so this is not all of them but these are my main ones - bold are ones im currently in the trenches abt :)

9-1-1 (pls no ship war content tho i just cannot)

marauders (my og loml one true fandom its a canon event i fear)

good omens (book and tv show changed my life)

anything leigh bardugo but SoC and RoW especially

supernatural (its been a while but then again i'm fandom posting on this site so its kinda a given)

anything by chloe gong....(message me PLEASE. best ya fantasy writer and my literal writing idol)

EPIC the musical - i love this so freaking much, if you don't know what this is go find out u won't regret it

hamilton (i am in fact hamiltrash, unfortunately)

aftg (im not writing that out. if you know what that acronym is thats on you.)

tagging system: i got one of those creepy teeth 'frequent poster badges', so i think it might be time for me to get one of these. ahem. on an incoherent blog, i declare order:

#caitlin writes and yaps abt it - writblr content (these will almost always have the 'writblr' and 'writers on tumblr' tag as well)

#caitlin's homebrew hallucinations - any writing or OC content from my wips or poetry i share

#the witches wip - specific wip content!

#caitlin the english major - literature posts

#caitlin reblogs from even cooler blogs and/or #caitlin's moot besties - reblogging my moots or other cool ppl!

#caitlin does ask games / #caitlin does reblog games - making a separate tag bc i LOVE these

#shameless fanfic plug - fics that i write on ao3 and want to share here

#caitlin rambles miscellaneous - anything else thats incoherent

fandom posts will all be tagged with their fandom and with #caitlin a fandom nerd

sound good? let me know if this actually makes this blog make any more sense mk team

please send me: asks/posts/comments about these fandoms, short fic writing prompts within these fandoms, writblr content, writing questions, or literature thoughts :)

(pls don’t send me requests for money or ai content. i will block and delete, here’s why. )

basically reach out if you just want to ramble about any of these things because what else is tumblr dot com for ... seriously what. actually what was this site made for it beats me

[berry-hwa]

Things voltage inc love interests would have to deal with if they chose to date me for some reason (bc I'm bored and procrastinating)

I've thought about writing this for a while since i've noticed these habits of mine lately and have thought about my future partner dealing with them, but since i have no hope of a future partner rn i decided to settle for otome love interests (some not love interests at all heh...i'd gladly take many side chrs especially the women) and i thought it would also be a fun way of getting to know who i am behind the screen! This might be a two parter if i remember any more weird habits i have, but for now, enjoy this self indulgence as always

- My unimaginable ability to be an introvert all. The. Time. I barely leave the house and prefer to be in the comfort of my own space at all times, so spontaneous dates or anything of the sort that isn't planned at least a day or two in advance, i am being a whiny bitch about

- I'm an artist. I plan to be a fulltime artist/freelancer, so again, i spend most of my time at home either doomscrolling or messaging my friends which keeps me away from drawing most of the time. I also deal with art block a LOT and i have a hard time focusing in general, so sometimes i come off as being a lazy bum when in reality i literally cannot will my body to do what i have to do and i need my environment to be the least condescending and judgemental as possible

- Picky. Eater. I literally do not eat ANYTHING. I circle around the same foods ALL THE TIME, and getting me to try something is literally like pushing a boulder up a mountain. This doesn't bother me since i know my wants and needs and im very assertive in keeping my boundaries, so the love interest better not be bothered by it either🎀

- We're sitting at the dinner table with the love interests friends, everyone's eating a variety of different foods and talking and i'm eating french fries and bread

- My hyperfixations and rants. Once i dive into something, i dive IN, and at some point i WILL start yapping about it to everyone that lets me yap, even as the yapping turns into complaining because of how many things i wanna do but never find the time or motivation to even begin. Boy do i wish the love interest is rich so they could entertain my hyperfixations and get me whatever i wanted💔

- I doomscroll or am kept up by said hyperfixations for up to 4AM almost every single night. So I get up anywhere around 12 to 2PM most days

- I am DEAD on my period. I'm basically invisible for 5 days because i can barely move and do anything for myself for those 5 days

- Speaking of periods and hormones, i can get horrible mood swings and get upset and pissy about the smallest of things. I usually don't get argumentative when that happens and since i've already voiced my annoyance, i just wait it out and spend the whole day being passive aggressive and pouty so i can slowly get over the anger without making a scene and getting too emotional and crying

- Social cues are a mystery to me

- If we're eating out or going anywhere where we're serviced, the love interest WILL be doing all the talking for me because i WILL stumble over my words and make a fool of myself

- I don't have the pleasure to yap about my ocs to many people i love, so i WILL yap about my characters and everything about my favorite ships with the love interest. They WILL understand my obsession

- I love chocolate. And peanuts. I am very possessive of chocolate and peanuts that are specifically meant for my consumption. There WILL be bloodshed if they ever think to eat my shit without asking me first

- When i get sick, my entire life becomes miserable. I'm coughing and blowing my nose all day, throat is sore and i likely have a fever. Basically they have to deal with a dead body once again and be nurturing and patient with my miserable ass (and not complain about the evergrowing pile of tissues next to me) ALSO i have major nose problems like. Every single day. I'm sniffling all day and blowing my nose even when i'm not sick. Because of this i constantly toss and turn in bed before i'm able to fall asleep

- My body temperature rises at the speed of light sometimes, so unless it's freezing fucking cold and we can only warm each other up by cuddling to sleep, no love interest is ever spooning me for more than 10 minutes. I could spoon them tho, since i always need to hug something to fall asleep :3

- Speaking of, the cat toy i've been sleeping with for 7 years is not leaving my bed even if i'm 30 years old. If i don't cuddle with the love interest, i'm cuddling my precious pink kitty

- Hahaaaaa no kids. Ever. I think that's self explanatory

- But to dive deeper into it, i did use to want kids when i was younger and saw how every woman i knew had kids. Little me just thought life was gonna be like "find boyfriend, have wedding, have kids" but older me is wiser and more responsible!!(and less straight lmfao) Since i want to be a fulltime artist (it's what i love to do and what i've wanted to do my entire life) i am not giving that up to go through raising a child, much less going through PREGNANCY. I'm overwhmed and overstimulated very easily, so dealing with pregnancy for 9 months and then raising a child for 18+ years is NOT on my radar. I also don't want to go through that and try to balance my work and family life because frankly, i also wouldn't be a great parent! I can barely look after myself! I don't want to have to choose between doing what i love and neglecting my child for hours everyday and wasting away being an exhausted mother who misses who she was before pregnancy. Basically, love interest has to come to terms that i won't have children and won't be coerced into having children if god forbid plan b went wrong lmfao

- If i'm cleaning, we're BOTH cleaning the house together

- Honestly we're doing EVERYTHING together. If i love them to the point i wanna spend my whole life with them, i am dragging them into everything with me that i don't want to do alone

- They cannot carry my ass over their shoulder or carry my ass at all (looking at you bitchsuke ichinomiya) Half of them will actually buckle and both of us would fall on our asses

[crab-people-overlord]

Ok I’ll prob never get political again on here- this is probably the only time. So I’ll not be offended if you skip past this post.

I’m so sad rn 🥺 I was a small content creator on TikTok that did stupid guitar songs, and I had a small but fulfilling following. I work from home, so TikTok was kinda like my ‘second space’ so to speak. I was in the middle of downloading all my data when TikTok went dark all of a sudden. This was one of the things that kinda kept me sane lol, not to sound dramatic. Not sure why it went out so early- I’m in the mountain time zone but am a procrastinator so thought we’d have until midnight eastern time.

It’s totally possible that someone in government will swoop in and ��save the day’ and bring TikTok back- but I can’t help but to feel utterly betrayed by our Supreme Court, much like I did when they reversed Roe v Wade. This feels like a massive betrayal of the first amendment. And look, I work in data security and understand that TikTok absolutely takes much more data than it rightfully should, much like literally every other American-owned social media platform does. I’ve always wished our gov would write laws protecting our privacy and data-security. I honestly do understand the security concerns more so than I think a lot of folks my age seem to care about- and maybe that’s because I’ve both interned at the federal level in online data security as well as that’s partially my job now.

But instead of getting to the core of the issue and writing meaningful security laws that would be applicable to all platforms, my government decided to go BAN a platform so many of us use as a means to express our first amendment rights. This is so concerning to me and is such a blatant disregard for our constitution and free speech. And everyone in the US should also be concerned about this. It feels like the equivalent of burning books. It feels so dystopian and fascist.

At the end of the day, I’ll be okay. I only used it to share a small following of folks silly little songs I made up. But I am genuinely concerned for the small businesses who truly relied on the platform as their means of income- real, true human American beings who the Supreme Court never once took a second to think about.

[lobotomy-lady]

you're a wannabe artist and domestic terrorist. do you ever meaningfully advance your goals in any fashion or do you just like to think about what it would be like if you did them? you impotently post about wanting to commit terrorism, and yet never do it. you're a thin veil of a person. youre a bad perfomance. you narrativise everything you do it's so transparent and embarrassing! lack of self awareness is the pinnacle of cringe. i can't believe I ever liked your blog.

This is...literally the most ridiculously parasocial ask I've ever gotten (which I'm sure you know is really saying smth, I don't know why I attract these type of followers but it is what it is). I am actually deeply fascinated by your perception of me & the fact that I'm apparently on your mind enough for you to feel betrayed & offended by me like this?? Wild. But anyways I'm just gonna respond earnestly bc I'm working a double rn, no one is in the center so I'm bored as shit but just know that this is the funniest thing I've ever received & I laughed for like 5 minutes before starting to type anything.

So like...first of all idk why this needs to be said but I am not in fact seriously aspiring to a life of terrorism-are you saying that bc I post about wanting to kill rapists but am not actually out there killing them?? You wouldn't know if I was bc I'm not an idiot who posts about committing felonies, secondly I'm a grown adult with a job & responsibilities to my family so I can't exactly go & throw my life away to become a vigilante for a few weeks then spend forever in jail.

As for the artist part, I mean...I write literally every day (& I talk about my various ongoing projects on here sometimes so idk how you missed that, real parasocials would know, sad!) so yeah I'm advancing in that respect lol. When I talk about my chronic procrastination it's usually me ignoring my novel for my screenplay ( which is much less likely to turn into anything by virtue of needing a producer investing hundreds of thousands of dollars rather than the option of just self publishing an e-book). I have a novel, two screenplays, & an album of songs that I'm almost done with, plus a ton of ideas for future projects I want to work on. If anything my problem is flittering between too many projects at once, if I could stick to one I'd have completed it by now lol.

Also if there's one thing I have in abundance it's self awareness! I'm literally the most self aware person on earth why do you think I refer to my dreams as delusional...it's bc I know being a famous writer/director is a crazy aspiration to have for a working class nobody with no money or connections. Why do you think I'm working as a crisis counselor & pursuing a career in the mental health field in the mean time? Backup plan!

[hwanswerland]

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thank you for tagging me @seonghwacore ann! it's been 84 years since i did anything like this

What's the origin of your username? -> seonghwa + answer (prob my all time fave ateez song) + wonderland (my fave song at the time of creation of this blog)

OTP(s) + shipname -> uhhhh. ngl not something i have? sometimes i do enjoy a ship but not so much that i could name even one rn

Song stuck in my head -> advice (taemin)

Weirdest habit/trait -> there's probably many things lol but one thing i became aware of at the last ateez concert was: i always sing the adlibs (when no one around me did), sometimes rather than the actual lyrics. its not very weird but i cannot think of anything else rn sorry

Hobbies -> atm not a lot since i have to write my bachelor's thesis and can't really affort to do much that would let me procrastinate ripppp. only exception is always my horsie

If you work, what's your profession? -> currently work at a supermarket, however i study geography and will likely soon work in city planning or smth (if i get a job that is. I HOPE!!!)

If you could have any job you wish what would you have? -> idk man i'm not a workaholic, idk about this. i do enjoy working with horses a lot and am good at it (horse girl fio confirmed) so probably that. but it would have to pay better than it actually does

Something you're good at -> drawing

Something you hate -> not many things tbh, mostly awful people (like nazis and the like)

Something you forget -> people's birthdays 🥲

Your love language -> good question

Favourite movies/shows -> lord of the rings trilogy always. some other things i enjoy (a lot) but nothing to the level as that

What were you like as a child? -> shy, introverted, insecure

Favourite subject in school -> english or really anything as a second language. but i was by far best at and had most fun in english classes

Least favourite subject -> physics

What's your best/worst character trait? -> literally idk. i'm really self aware about what i'm doing and how i probably am perceived by others, but i'm not self aware in the way that i could tell you this. which i hate btw

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? -> be done with uni and have a stable job (that i like). highkey hate not knowing where tf i'll end up after i'm done with my degree

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? -> someone from the last generation of humas before this planet becomes uninhabitable and we die out. i want to know how shit it's gonna get lol

i havent been around here in forever and idk who's around anymore so no pressure tagging @applejongho @starcatching @jeongyunho99 @oyeixcher @hwatermelon @baekwin

[mer-acle]

Howdy! (< You would think I started saying this because I'm an American but It actually came from asgore undertale hsgshsj)

1, Read the post you made about Athenas law stuff, and you could just have it be that Athenas an overachiever and reads ahead in the books so to speak; in that she studies law things on the side before she gets taught them in class so she can be prepared early. This would probably happen if she finishes work early in a class, like she got done with her assignments and has a half hour to kill so she continues teaching herself law stuff instead of just relaxing for a minute. Or she learns stuff when she has time off "for fun" (<kinda reminds me of one of my friends, who taught herself trigonometry over a 4 day weekend for fun, but she actually likes math because whenever I make a friend it's usually the most neurodivergent person in the room, {<aka the only person who understands me properly} sooo. Not quite Athena Ig)

2, I would help with figuring out school stuff, but I am not old enough to be in college yet, and new Mexico is rated 50 in the country for education, so I'm not the best source I suppose. It's ranked 50 for pre k - 12 but higher for higher education, cus college is decently good here actually, not like I'd know from experience tho. It's also ranked 50 for public safety and internet access :D, yippee /sarc our highest ranking is a 4 though, because we have very little pollution evidently. :]

3, I feel like I would probably not have learned anything as a child if I didn't like learning, cuz I taught myself probably at least half of what I know (which is why I know far too many nature facts and far too little about stuff like how to take care of a home, or how to find the area of a circle. No clue what a cosine means cuz I did not care enough to learn about that properly, but I can tell you like 30 facts about flamingos)

4, With the whole history thing it reminded me of something. I remember back in middle school I would procrastinate on quite a few assignments, and I would actually spend a long time watching YouTube videos that were pretty educational. Instead of doing my math work I would be watching a video on the Irish potato famine or something with my headphones in, because I didnt want to cause problems in class or anything, I just couldn't focus. I got good grades back then because it would get to be like the day before a project was due, and I would just get it all done at once, turn it in, and apparently do good work when I'm panicking and doing an entire assignment at far-too-late-o'clock, but nowadays I don't get good grades. Because. My brain throws hammers at me when I exist, so I use up all my daily "being functional points" on doing things like eating food and generally appearing like a person and not a stressed out bedraggled coyote someone just dragged in from a rainstorm. So its possible Athena also did that kinda thing, and was learning history in class when she wasn't supposed to, or if she was either a better student than me/ too scared of consequences, she would just do that after she got all her work done.

(4.1, side note, one of the channels I watched was extra credits, specifically their extra history series, it's good :] recently I was watching their series on the only woman to be empress in China {<it mightve been a different country in Asia, can't quite remember, it's been like a week or 2} and it's very dramatic, lots of intrigue and stuff, feels like a soap opera almost)

5, I've got some owl related stuff that I kinda wanna share, but I also have other stuff i need to do rn so I'll write about that tomorrow probably. A lot of it applies to actually-a-goddess Athena too, so that's fun, I'm talking about her outside the modern au :>

6, Happy Easter! Do they have Easter in Germany? If it exists over there I wonder if the traditions are any different. I'm pretty sure once I saw a post which said that peeps aren't A Thing outside america, and people were Horrified about them, and it's kinda interesting heheh.

(6.1, man thinking about peeps made me think about marshmallows generally, and then s'mores, and apparently y'all don't have those because y'all don't have graham crackers, and that honestly kinda sucks cus they're really good. Ares and Athena making s'mores together would be fun. Whether they're making them over like, an actual campfire, or making sucky s'mores using the microwave/maybe stove in their apartment. You could probably make s'mores with peeps now that I think about it, but I don't think that would taste as good

7, another long ask, but because I saw a different post where an asker numbered the stuff and it made it easier to answer, I numbered the paragraphs c:,. If you wanna be we can be weird online friends :D, sorry that I'm a cryptid who scurries around in the leaf litter of the internet like a tenrec instead of talking to people like a well adjusted human being. The ordeal of being known is mortifying after all :V!

-🌻 (my Easter was kinda sucky, this morning I just kinda awkwardly sat next to my breakfast for like 2 hours instead of eating it because the concept of putting the nice food that I enjoy into my mouth was not something my brain could get behind evidently, so I just put it in the fridge, then I went to IHOP with my family. And proceeded to sit there in the car as my parents argued while we sat outside waiting for like 25 minutes cuz apparently everyone wants to go to IHOP on Easter for some reason. I mean something that's interesting is that it snowed recently even through it's the middle of April. {Our seasons are hot, actually predictably nice going into chilly, cold and sad and grey and dry, and chaos/mud} but today it was like 60° out {16~C} and while I was sitting in the parking lot I could see the air wigging from heat above the cars in front of us, with snow on the mountains in the background. Kinda weird! Neat. The snow sticks around on the mountains cuz they're colder than the basin that Albuquerque sits in, due to being higher up. And the temperature can range so drastically cuz there's barely any humidity and NM generally is very high in altitude, so the sun can blast us and heat things up very fast, but the air doesn't retain heat so it also cools down really fast. Also the lowest altitude I'm regularly at is when I'm in Albuquerque, which is like 5000 something feet in the air, and the highest city in Germany is like 3000 feet in the air, so assuming you're in a city and not at the peak of a mountain or something, I'm at least 2000 feet above you at any given moment. Be very afraid /lh >:3)

Gods this ask is long and I went on tangents about me and the place I live in so often (I actively stopped and googled stuff for research purposes augh) I'm sorry ':D anyways farewell :2

Greetings and salutations 😉 (Yeah this is not a german greeting lmao)

Ohh yes you would definitely do that I just think that she would not be comfortable with calling herself a law student anyway because imposter syndrome, I think it's far more likely Ares would be like “my sister the law student” and Athena would always correct him. (Neurodivergent people just get it it is true, what's one supposed to do?) But yeah I totally see her preparing for law school in that way and increasing her workload even though that should not be even possible because she also has a job O.O

Ah, You know I go to college and I barely know how it works lol  obviously I go to college in Germany but at the same time I also don't know how German college works XD Thing is that Germany is divided into different states not quite unlike the US and all of the education systems are completely different so if somebody was like so how is school in Berlin I would be like I have no idea if they have schools /silly

So real tho. I was way too anxious about school so I kept up with classes pretty well but I cannot tell you what a cosine is it’s been like 5 years since I graduated lol

*ADHD has entered the chat* in school I used to be pretty punctual about my assignments like I would not do them super early but not super late either and I didn't have to study a lot (which is why my father still calls me lazy to this day even though an A is an A no matter how much you have to study for it… anyway) college I have totally adopted the “we pass we win” mindset because I cannot do anything more than that, so I feel you. I remember learning about the spoon thing with how many functional points you have available per day last year when I was in my internship and I was like there is no way that work is only 4 spoons out of 12 I am dying over here. Still applies honestly. Virtual hug <33  I firmly believe that Athena was the kind of person to read history books in her dorm room after class because well she already had the nerd image, there was no saving it now, might as well.

Owl stuffff

Thank you, to you as well :D Yes Easter is a thing in Germany. I don't know much about the traditions in other countries or honestly even in other families from mine, but we have egg hunt, chocolate, and the Easter bunny. There's also a more openly religious tradition where you make a lamb-shaped cake in reference to Jesus but that depends on how religious your family is ig. Peeps are indeed not a thing here please don't kill me XD They look adorable though. Hey candy that might be more unique to Easter in Germany might be these fondant eggs, they're just pure sugar I used to love them but my current pack is still half-full lmao.  For my family specifically we all come together on Easter and my grandma makes this buffet of food (insert me looking for a translation for it) uhhh so it’s nothing cooked, just bread and stuff to put on the bread lol Cold dinner is a big thing where I live and that’s our big easter tradition. :D (6.1, yeah we don’t really have those unfortunately. I had like Marshmallows that were not cold from the package like. Once. Lol. Have mercy on me. But yeah Ares and Athena need these microwave/stove smores they feel very “student” to me lol like instant noodles)

Yess thank you for numbering them it makes my structure-craving brain so much less anxious lol yayyy I acquired a cryptid friend :D *happy Tasha noises*

(damn I so feel the breakfast thing… food is weird. oh yay the family just being family, lovely :/ Damn snow at that time of year… it’s so warm here already, we’re at almost 20°C (68°F) I was wearing a dinosaur tshirt yesterday and regretted my undershirt lol damn you are above me :< how rude. Let me check how high up my city is lol… yeah okay my city is 1250 feet above sea-level apparently LMAO Lol I googled stuff too lmao)

byeee