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I will start sobbing violently no one look at me
Poem by Natalie Wee
#NATALIE YOU’RE ENDING MY LIFE AS WE SPEAK#that’s 2 blindfaith comics now under my belt why am I like this#artists on tumblr#traditional art#malevolent#malevolent fanart#malevolent podcast#arthur lester#arthur malevolent#oscar malevolent#john doe#john doe malevolent#john malevolent#blind faith#blindfaith#natalie wee#tw blood#not the first to use this poem with the blorbos but I’m only human ok I can’t help myself
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finally finished This Wip from Ever ago and so now i ask you ever look into another dudes eyes and suddenly want to do whatever he wants
#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#professor x#magneto#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#the kids are here too but i aint taggin them vaeLKEVJKLJ#snap sketches#posting this now and not obsessing over the details i need to SLEEP#please click/tap and zoom to read anything im sorry theres so much dialogue#i thought i was gonna finish this sooner but i went grocery shopping with my bro today and that took longer than expected !!!!#ALSO CHAT. if youre up to date on My Lore via my tags ... my prof's lettin me submit my assignment ... life's so good...#speaking of life being good i was giggling like stupid while drawing this . i named it 'this is stupid' and i stand by that#this is so unserious im gonna make myself throw up ITS SO CORNY i make myself sick with what i draw <- will continue to do this#only god knows if this is even how that power of his works i just saw an opportunity and ran with it#the trick here is he doesnt even have to use any 'power' he can just do that to charles by default#however im making them be obnoxious about it. i am making them obnoxious over dramatic grandpas because i can#my only crime is loving the utter cheese and corniness of the 60s comics like God. anyways bye !!!!!!!#maybe one day ill finish that other comic i sketched for this weekend but i fear i wont have time to so next weekend me thinks ....#for now i hope you all enjoy this. goofy as hell nonsense jLAKJVEKLVJ
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Sorry, last one, swear!! I'll try and finish this by the 10th and then I will leave you all alone. I'm experiencing some long missed joy in creating this, please forgive my impatient excitement
#Just need this to be done already but its not so I just need to share one last bit of it to keep myself motivated. Please understand#Mercy... Thank you for all the support though but I'll express more of that at the end of this#scarian#desert duo#trafficshipping#trafficblr#those pink forest backgrounds are like the only ones I remotely like in this entire animation#but I'll try to redo and improve some of the others before I dare show them to the public eye. My backgrounds suck ass#seriously though wahhh I am so miserable but alas... the joy of creation#sorry for speaking like this is my magnum opus and everyone needs to look at it. I just dont know when I'll ever create smth like this agai#to me this means a lot#too many tags#tubby art
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svsss au where there's a system glitch that happens as shen yuan saves liu qingge from his qi deviation, resulting in sy's system being linked to lqg as well. aka, they share a system account. they share quests and points and everything. this... Changes things. such as well, the implications and fallout of an early system/identity reveal to one person, someone that hated the original shen qingque. but also, lqg being forced to have to work together and cooperate with an "imposter"! like in my head i can see lqg being rlly conflicted abt everything that's going on at the start. sy will get over it somewhat quickly i think because sure, why not, fuck you system!! but also in pidw lqg isn't a major character so i can see him having less hangups abt working w him. like his experience w lqg is basically a blank slate. but lqg? he has history w sqq. he simultaneously is on a blank slate and a huge monolith of history/shared experiences/past. he needs to not only adapt to that but also his new situation of sharing sy's system.
i've been microwaving this idea in my head for the last day or so and mmmm yes.s i love lqg. i haven't read svsss in like 4 or 5 years maybe so my memory of certain things is kinda fuzzy but i Cannot get this au idea out of my head
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#liu qingge#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#svsss system#sai speaks#liushen#in my head this is a slow burn liushen#i am 100% convinced if lbh wasn't well. lbh. then lqq would have been the love interest.#like cmon dude transmigrates into another guy's body and saves the life of a man who hated that guy??#the potential.#dont get me wrong i love bingqiu but in the grand scheme of things in this au lqq gets a headstart in many ways#such as being insanely pretty#and also being in a position where he has to cooperate w sy but also they r technically peers#and if lbh still gets thrown into the abyss tjen well. that's a lot of years combined for lqq to get ahead#also im sorry i love poly ships and lbh/lqq/sqq is cute#but personally i cannot see sy as poly#it took how many years for him to realize he was a boykisser????#and like it's been maybe 5ish years since i read svsss but iirc wasn't sy still like hmm yes lbh is my exception. gay only for him#he's utterly hopeless there is no way he's snagging a second bf#born to give sy a harem forced to pick only 1 bofie because he's an idiot#scum villain's self saving system#liu qingge x shen yuan#liu qingge x shen qingqiu#svsss au#i want to start writing this but i probably need to reread svsss to refamiliarize myself fully w sy & lqq's personalities#which would hav been easy i could've done that in like a day svsss is p short but#the fan translations r no more </3#mxtx
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Hello! I have great news! My mission internship in Japan was conditionally approved! The bad news is that I am the only woman who applied for an internship, and unless another woman applies I won't be able to go (housing and whatnot for only one person would be expensive, plus they don't think it would be entirely wise for me to be completely by myself). For my friends who have prayed that my application would be accepted, can I ask you to pray now that I will have a companion?
#just so i am very clear#i completely understand#and i even agree with this decision#it would be hard to be the only woman#i think it would be very very difficult as a foreigner who speaks next to no Japanese to handle being by myself with only male colleagues#it sounds like a recipe for disaster#so there is no bitterness or judgement on my part and i accept their decision#but i am very much hoping that another woman will also apply#and i have faith that God will provide
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teddy saying that he's hopeful that brilliant minds could run for years to come, the whole cast refusing to call the show anything else but "season one" and leaving the finale so open ended... my god here we go again
#i am putting on clown makeup as we speak#i'm only a hopeful fool myself#brilliant minds#ramblings#brilliant minds spoilers
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idk if there's anything you can do about it but someone is using your chappell hot to go art on teepublic & I thought you would want to know if u don't already :(
Nice. love this for me./s
uhhh anyways thank you for bringing this to my attention @hyuckieberry! I’m gonna try to figure out TeePublic’s DMCA takedown request. which is very frustrating since i am from the Philippines. and DMCA is very much bound to just the USA.
for now, if anyone sees this, PLEASE HELP ME REPORT the account.
If anyone is interested in buying the tshirt/design, please consider supporting me, its up on my Redbubble. the only place where i have uploaded the design.
Honestly, simply reblogging and liking this or the original post i made will help immensely.
#narwhal speaks#chappell roan#chappell roan fanart#chappell roan fan merch#I thought i was finally having a good day and i was so proud of myself because i finally managed to get out of bed#after having a fucking relapse#and now this????????#it fucking sucks because the more i look into the DMCA takedown request of TeePublic#which btw very labor intensive and full of legal jargon i am ill equipped to follow#ITS LIKE ONLY FOR THE US????????????#I am currently living breathing in the philippines unfortunately#anyways uuuhhh#i’m gonna go cry and maybe my rage/frustrations can help me figure something out#i’m gonna be sick#hopefully my rage and frustration will keep me from spiralling back into a depressed state lol.#is this what i get for bedrotting for months?#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#fuck me gently with a fucking chainsaw
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the fact that me, as a fan of both lando and oscar without any bias (maybe a bit on lando but not that much), is going to witness both "oscar fans, lando antis" and "lando fans, oscar antis" posts all in my one dash 🥲🥲
also the fact that atp i couldn't even bother enough with this same situation on both lewis and george. now it happens on lando and oscar as well which got me like....
#landoscar#lando norris#oscar piastri#f1#maybe i need to admit atp rn that#this sport is just not built for a person like me istg 🙂🙂#like....i miss the moments 2 years ago where what i only care the most is only football and football only#and couldn't even give a fuck more about guys being in circles vroom vroom#i mean thank god that there's a bayern match just now right after the race ended#which really liften my mood up and distract myself a bit from intimidating discourse and whatsoever#hmmmm ngl maybe the fact that being a football football fan in general especially in this website really brings a comfort in me#meanwhile for f1...idk why but everything about it (especially during race and after race) really overwhelms me a lot seriously speaking#maybe the fact that football is more team oriented sport#meanwhile f1 is more individual oriented despite there are teams consists of 2 individuals#and the fact that me supporting multiple individuals in a one same team despite that f1 is individual oriented sport#kinda gets me digging my own grave atp tbh#i mean when i said individual oriented sport...it kinda means that in a perspective of most of the f1 fans#and now seeing all every kinds of discourse on my dash really makes me overwhelming a lot i'm ngl#that the fact that i couldn't able to curate my own preference for this f1blr space on my dash 🥲🥲🥲#goddddd srsly tho i just want to turn back time where i only cares about bayern frankfurt and germany nt only ffs 🫠🫠🫠🫠#but yeah who am i to turn around the past 🙃🙃...and plus that once i'm getting into one hyperfixation there's no turning back at all for me#so yeah#goddddd i'm so sorry but i'm just being so fucking messy rn#like all the things that i see on my dash really exhausts my brain and my thought process forreal i really need to throw up forreal srsly :(
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ok as someone disabled with severe motor skill issues i really hate the argument that "anyone can learn art" and that it's completely accessible to everyone. it's not. there are lots of disabled folks who are getting left out of this discussion with the ableist argument that anyone can do art and if you can't you're just not trying hard enough (which is an argument a lot of abled people tend to use against disabled folks in general). i'm against ai art and will never use it but we have got to stop acting like art is an accessible hobby to everyone because there is unfortunately a lot of people who would love to become artists but will never be able to because of our disabilities.
nah you right! I try to be mindful of that sort of thing but it does admittedly fly under my radar at times because I'm not someone living with a physical disability (and thus it's not as front-of-mind as someone who is) so thanks for catching me on that, many apologies. My argument was regarding the people I've seen who have exclusively used "well I've tried to learn how to draw and it's hard / took too much time / etc." as their driving argument (of which there are just. so many) when like. these are realities for many artists who have been doing this for years, too, including those who are disabled. yeah, making art takes time and practice and a lot of hard work! welcome to the party LOL
but I also understand how keeping that argument so simplified can be exclusionary to those who do genuinely face barriers when pursuing art due to living with disabilities. I've met and observed the work of many disabled artists - webcomic artists, game designers, musicians, etc. - who are out there making their stuff and it comes with all its own unique struggles that shouldn't be forgotten about or overlooked in the discussion regarding AI art, struggles that bar many people from even getting into making art from the starting gun.
I do genuinely believe that art can come from anywhere, that anyone is capable of expressing themselves through whatever medium that compels them... but you're right that many artistic mediums in and of themselves are not wholly accessible to everyone. And I hope to god that more tools are developed to help those who are both working artists as well as aspiring ones.
But AI, in its current state, just isn't one of them. And I'm seeing this sentiment being yelled from the rooftops by many disabled artists who firmly believe that the ends do not justify the means - that they don't want the medium to become more accessible if it comes at the cost of other artists (many who are disabled themselves!) whose work and livelihoods are being replaced with cheap carbon copies. AI art doesn't allow anyone to actually participate in the joy of creating straight from the heart, it just takes from others' joy and spits it back out with an impression of what it thinks the joy of creation is supposed to look like through lifeless pixels. That's not even getting into just how much damage it's already actively causing to our environment, and how quickly AI has started to replace other surrounding industries as well.
Separately from that, you're right, paying for art is a luxury for many, but that's all the more reason why we shouldn't be supporting the current climate surrounding AI IMO which is the crux of what my argument was in that previous Simpsons meme post. Many people do face severe limitations in trying to create their art; the people I'm referring to who are heavily pro-AI are often not those same people and only face the limitations of their own entitlement, which is destroying the livelihoods of many human artists. Is it worth participating in AI art to save money if that same participation perpetuates a growing system that's costing people their livelihoods?
Maybe some day we'll get AI tools that are less predatory and destructive and help those who want to create art do so. Maybe we'll finally get some stricter regulations around what companies are allowed to get away with in their respective industries. I'd like to think also that the rise of AI art will, by extension, make human-made art all the more valuable. And I'd be lying if I said I didn't wish for tools that made making webcomics just a teeeeny bit more efficient without being completely unethical LOL But until any of those scenarios prove to be true, we're dealing with a monster of our own design that will never stop eating even after we've all been consumed. The toothpaste is out of the tube.
#idk you can take my opinion with as much salt as you want#again i'm not disabled so my contribution to this topic means very little#but i have seen a lot of the discourse surrounding this topic and i feel like i learn something new every time haha#i am only speaking on behalf of myself which is gonna be very painfully limited LOL#ama#ask me anything#anon ask me anything#anon ama
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had a very nice realization about peace, especially spiritual peace, the other day. (Been brewing for a while.) and it’s just: peace is for the non-peaceful.
#very obvious of course#but it’s just—-#it’s hard to explain how messy I feel all the time#in all areas of my life#what a grubby little gremlin I feel I am#with my unfinished projects and my half-done things and my unsorted through internal life#and my room that needs vacuuming and my bathroom that needs dusting and the text messages that need answering#and the relationships that I feel need attention or fixing or solving#and tbh counseling has been helpful simply because my counselor is just like ‘girl if you don’t chill’#(kind)#like. she’d just like you’re doing FINE#everyone doesn’t have the dishes finished or everything in order at all times#so I’ve been able to kind of see the ridiculously high expectations for myself I just walk around with#and/or just the pressure I feel to have everything DONE#but even all of that aside it has just been dawning on me that—I can have peace in those contexts#not only once everything is ‘sorted’#because it’s not that I don’t think I deserve it or whatever! that’s not exactly the issue#it’s just literally my brain is like ‘peace is for people who have their shit together’#‘and that isn’t you’#and it just !!!!! isn’t true!!!!!!!!#even if I were as grubby as I think I am (and sometimes I think I AM)#it doesn’t matter. you can still know peace. God still loves me#in the middle of the mess#my WORST states have been when I felt like I had to get myself spiritually in order before God could come#sort of dusted and vacuumed metaphorically speaking I mean#and of course there is work to do#but that happens only with God and because of God and IN God#so I don’t have to wait#can’t explain how often I have heard people talk about peace and been like#‘not for me though’ but it actually IS lol. it I s. beCAUSE I am grubby!!!!!!!!
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Lucanis Dellamorte why are you so mad with me personally for going to Minrathous instead of Treviso that you refuse to use support moves
I literally sent HALF the team with you. Both of which who are archers only for you to tell me that you couldn't fight off the dragon bc it was... flying around???
Seems like a skill issue to me sorry /j
#I get that he wants me to help his home it's just a bit funny how silly it is#brother you have WINGS#What do you MEAN 😭😭😭#lucanis no longer has time for a romance with you but he does have time for Neve apparently#even though she was also fighting with me in Minrathous#idk if it's a bug or what but I also keep getting those timed conversations markers only for me to go to Lucanis#and have him tell me he doesn't want to talk#like yeah okay buddy whatever you say ig?#stop calling me then if you don't want to speak#I'll be by anyway as I make my rounds but still#don't want to feel like I gotta rush to the back of the lighthouse for nothing (I don't know when timed things disappear)#lucanis dellamorte#dragon age#da#dav#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age spoilers#veilguard spoilers#dav spoilers#also destroyed that Minrathous dragon in like 2 minutes#literally thought I almost soft locked myself from beating it too fast (I am on the easiest difficulty and have mods)#but it was also extra funny for Rook to be like “If only we beat that dragon faster maybe we could have helped Treviso 🥺”#like idk if we could have really beaten it any faster
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If you were to like redesign Magneto's classic outfit in a way that both suits the character and your own tastes, how would you redesign it?
uhhhh errrmmmmm i dont know i really couldnt improve upon perfection but i have still tried for you my friend !!!
#xmen#xmen comics#magneto#erik lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#erik magnus lensherr#like ig fc erik there too but only if you squint Generally Speaking this aint about him#snap sketches#i thought this was gonna be a quick thing but then As I Do i sat and thought about it for too long#and for what. my end result isn't that different from the beginning !! tragic .#out of these i think. it MAY be obvious i like the far right one#once i remembered I Do In Fact love megaman i locked in cause everytime i draw Classic Magneto all i think of is megaman#cant even make a magnetman joke that mfer already exists and he from my FAVORITE classic megaman title tyvm#anyway. should i explain my reasoning now. man i guess i can try#i couldnt tho is the thing- at least for the first set i really was just ickin around and seeing what i Might like#evidently it was nothing LMAO i told yall i cant improve perfection ... so i just. Smash Bros'd his classic look#With some tearing on the cape cause i said so ............#at most- with the furthermost right bit- i just wanted to emphasize a feeling of 'power' hence the chunkier boots + gloves#with the first look i tried that angle with showing some arm skin buuuuttt i dont like it ...#i think the sleeveless look really only works if the outfit's black idk i cant explain it#overall the first design i tried just feels too sleek for my liking if i wanted to go for a 'power' approach#i like the 'M' i did with the legs at least. i really wanted to incorporate an M in case it wasnt clear but alas ...#tbh i might steal the boots/gloves/underwear design from myself when i draw classic magneto regularly. SHRUG we'll see#as for now i am very sleepy and i have class in the morning and i want to do some work Before Class#very cool but very sad i dont have my third class today :( its my fave class :( at least i get more time to work#and the more work i get done the more time i get to draw the sillies !!! epic ...#anyways. good night everyone !!!!!!! talk to yall tomorrow ..... probably ... or later ig technically... i should sleep earlier <- wont
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The thing I love about Milgram is that most fandoms have to defend/examine some character's crimes at some point (whether it be canon, implied or overexaggerated) but here it's. All we do. We have to rank them based on crimes.
and I think it's beautiful
#I'm being 100% sincere btw#I can only speak for myself but I know if Fuuta was in another series I'd probably hate him#yet here I am rotating the canon doxxer in my mind at terrifying speeds#milgram#milgram project
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i feel like a lot of Discourse (read: fandom wank) happens in places that have forgotten or never learned the death of the author theory
(which i know is not sacrosanct but it is very useful for handling fandom spaces, particularly fraught ones)
for those who don't know, the death of the author theory goes like this: as far as the work is concerned, the author dropped dead the second that the final word was published, and thus cannot comment, object to, clarify, or expand on anything that is not on the page.
my understanding is that it's most strictly used to mean that that the author's interpretation of the work doesn't matter, but can be expanded to state that nothing which is not on the page matters. imo, the expanded definition is particularly useful for fandoms and needs to be adopted on a larger scale.
because what it means is this:
it doesn't matter what the creator(s) intended. it doesn't matter what they said in an interview. it doesn't matter what the actors think, it doesn't matter what supplemental materials say or imply, even if they're signed off on by the creator(s). it doesn't matter if everyone involved in making it hates your interpretation and says that it's wrong.
they don't get to say that it's wrong. they dropped dead the second the last episode/book ended. their interpretation is simply one more in a vast sea of others.
listen to me, fandom spaces. i am taking your face in both of my hands. embrace the death of the author. you will no longer be bound to the (possibly fickle) words of the creator(s), your interpretation can no longer be the wrong one. if the text can be used to support it in any way, even twisty ways, it's valid. you don't have to jump through hoops to defend it against haters who say you're wrong.
the death of the author. open your heart to it. live it. be free.
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bonus kalei pics
#*kalei ka'uhane#mine#cas#*grim reefers#yall#i have to perform a speech in class tmr and i haven’t started writing it until now bc i was sick#and it’s 5-7 mins with a lot of stats and citations so on top of getting this done today i need to spend time actually memorizing it 😭#i’m so cooked#starting my second body portion at least#the only thing keeping me going is my wax pen rn#i set myself up for failure too bc i rly went hard on my first speech (im in a public speaking course as a pre req for a nursing program)#like had that shit fully memorized no notecards#it’s so over#i just have rly high expectations for myself it rly won’t matter that much#also these pics are from yesterday i am not wasting time playing the sims rn (i wish)
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Just saw @mechanical-sunchild doing this and I got inspired, rating various terms. From my own perspective.
Alterhuman 2/10 - not for me, I might throw it in tags now and then for the sake of being easy to find. But meh. It's not a neutral umbrella term, but an entire subculture with ever shifting norms and conventions I barely relate to now.
Nonhuman 7/10 - it's alright, it narrows it down way better than alterhuman does. A bit literal sounding at first glance.
Therian 8.5/10 - it fits well. It's the label I found first. It used to be 10/10, couldn't find fault, but since the mask shit took over it makes me almost embarrassed to be associated by name with a tween trend.
Otherkin 9/10 - it fits well. As an umbrella and to specify the whole mermaid thing
Human 10/10 - quite literally what I am. What that means to me might be a bit different to most people but I can't exactly deny it.
Animal 10/10 - this is also literally true of me, plus if you mean it in a nonhuman way then it's a lot of fun.
Being/thing 3/10 - weird and stilted
Person 10/10 - obviously
[specific identity of mine] so the species basically, 10 million - (unless I feel like you're humouring me a bit tooooo hard then suddenly minus 10)
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