#i am just...

[courteous-cryptid]

Jason Todd as a character is deeply sad in a way I think a lot of us are afraid of. Imagine you were a child, taken in and more or less beloved. Things weren't perfect, even more at the end, but they were the best years you've known. Imagine you're growing up, youre changing and with how your guardians act, you're scared they won't love who you're becoming. Imagine that when it's at its worst, you're presented with what looks like a silver parachute. Sure, your dad didn't love you and your mom died and your guardians think you're capable of murder (and if they're willing to believe that, who knows what they really think of you. They definitely want to be rid of you.) None of that will matter if your birth mom wants you. And she does! You're so sure of it you fly to Ethiopia! And you meet her, and she's a little rough around the edges but so are you and she loves you! ...but she doesn't. It was all a trick. And you love her still, and you're so sorry she got caught up in your life because now she's dying with you and it'll be all your fault, but only if Batman doesn't come. And maybe he's been upset with you lately, and maybe he thought you killed that guy, but he doesn't want you dead. He doesn't want anyone dead, so you know he will save you. You believe that as a fact, it's not faith it's knowledge, he's coming and he won't let you die here! ...but he does. He's too late. You tell your mom you're sorry, right before the fireworks and then... nothing.

Until.

You're back, and you're not you, but it's okay because Talia is willing to bring you back (as a favor to bruce, who doesn't know you're alive) and then you're you again or sort of, you're different, you're wrong and you're so so angry and hurt. She brought you back for bruce, Bruce who wasn't fast enough, Bruce who has another kid in your boots, Bruce who will never killed the joker, not even for you . The world marched on without you, and now you're back like a piece of gum on their shoes, and youre pissed that's all you are so fuck it all you can at least become a thorn in their side, if you can never be their beloved soldier again, you can at least become a problem. While you're at it, you'll save all the people batman never could, you'll clean up the streets permanently because there's already blood on your hands and they already thought you were a murderer anyway. And in the meantime you'll scare that kid out of your boots before he goes and gets himself killed just like you did.

You don't know they want you back. You're too scared to hope. But they forgive you for the blood. They're willing to work with you. You didn't know. And somehow it's not too late.

[xo-arcie]

I finished book 6 and I am fine she lied.

[blazingblorbos]

My jaw, AGAPE.

MY COUNTENANCE? AGHAST

I've been catching up on the HI3 YouTube channel recently, bc I haven't dedicated much time to keeping up with Hoyo's content lately. So I've been about 3 months behind (probably more) on their trailers and live streams and development vids and what-not

and. suffice to say I got to all the extremely recent Vita content

[madame-mongoose]

That collar thing is really doing something for me too. Hey. What are you. What are you doing to me. Cut it out

ME?? ME???? ITS EVERYONE ELSE DOING THIS TO ME!!! I AM BUT A WITNESS. HELP ME

[korrolrezni]

Oh......Oh, Simon you gigantic idiot.

[ohwolfling]

Having to remind myself that I have a lot of trauma around being sick and specifically having ear pain (my parents ignored my pain until my ear drum collapsed and I had repeated surgeries on my ears and sinuses all by the age of 3) and that the feeling in my body might not be an actual emergency. Trying to be nice to myself & tend to myself when I don't have a support system where I live, I have chronic pain & fatigue so any illness hits me so much harder than it used to, & my body is staying in a strange fog between fight & fawn the entire time. Taking the time to rest & get better when my existence relies entirely on people enjoying time with me enough to tip me on stream or drop a coin because they're excited about a WIP or enjoyed my past work...

It's just a lot. I need a little coma please.

And just like wow... imagine just being able to go to a doctor instead of trying to do broke bitch holistic healing all by myself, not knowing how severe anything actually is

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Ok I know it's just a mistake. I do.

But my therapist cancelled on me the day of my appointment last week because she wasn't feeling well, rescheduled me last night for this afternoon, and then no showed me after I took half a day off work to make this appointment.

She's officically 20 minutes late, and again I know it's just an honest mistake somewhere along the line.

But boy howdy does it feel like a hint/sign from the universe after the rest of the shit that's been going down.

[achillean-knight]

I Just realised Nimona and my past 2 obsessions all had something in common.

Black and red villain characters who have a blonde partner they'll cherish but something happens, and they're driven apart.

Yeah boiz, I'm talking about Hades and the Castlevania anime 👍 Also, how funny that they're all historical coded as well. Hades being in Ancient Greece, Castlevania being set in Medieval Times (I believe) and Nimona ofc being a futuristic medieval setting.

Also movie Ballister and Dracula share weird AF pointy goatee's and I thought that was funny and wanted to point that out.

[eri-blogs-life]

mom and brother came by for a visit for easter

ended up kinda breaking down around them which absolutely i do not wanna be doing but my god is my situation so fucking dire in so many ways right now

[cornyonmains]

Something I find very interesting about this CEO assassination is that the guy who did it has basically become an American hero.

They're probably quite worried about what will happen when they catch this guy, especially with the level of public support he has. If they catch him alive and he gets to air his grievances, he could unite the entire country against the private healthcare system. It could go to trial and result in jury nullification, which would basically send a message to the American public that catching a rich body comes without consquences.

If they kill him to keep his mouth shut, I'd say people will burn cities to the ground, and it could potentially provoke even more anger against private health insurance. In a powder keg, it only takes one person lighting the match.

I know it sounds over the top, but a figurehead is a powerful thing, and that's what this shooter is. The rich understand it. That's why Blue Cross just magically decided they were going to pay for anesthesia again. Those dead-eyed psychopaths were going to take everything they could until someone shot that guy and that's the gospel truth.

Keep the hate fire burning. Watching their fear is the closest I've come to knowing joy since the Bush administration.

[rafeandonlyrafe]

well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.

[koobiie]

shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this

[sparklebyte]

“here’s what we know about the uhc shooter”

WRONG! He is a suspect and we should treat him as such. He should be treated as innocent until proven guilty, not guilty until proven innocent. He’s a person of interest not the killer. I don’t care what the media or authorities are saying, he’s a human being who deserves a fair trial and deserves to be treated as innocent until proven otherwise.

[tawnysoup]

Found my fav Slay the Princess route recently. Dragon my beloved. Your horrifying beak mouth was an impossible-to-refuse lip syncing challenge 💖

Shoutouts to @blacktabbygames for making such a cool game!

[korrolrezni]

Oh, Arthur.....

Someone hold this man, and by someone I mean you, John! Use that damn arm already!