#i am just restless

[helpimstuckinafandom]

I actually feel like i'm losing it I only started playing bg3 on friday/saturday and I am in withdrawl from just one day without it

[gods-perfect-idiots]

was overcome with the urge to draw "wade tenderly caressing logan's face while he's Feeling Big Angsty Stuff" and then the parallel urge to do a follow-up of "logan kissing wade's hand/holding onto him for dear life"

(anyway hope you like it - I have been looking at this for too long and so of course I hate it now 🫠 art is hard guys lol)

some details below the cut because I am happy with some small aspects - still really enjoying the painting part of doing Wade's scars for example (thanks again @woof-verine for that inspo it is just baked into my psyche now, and also for being a forever enjoyer of pointy ears Logan - sorry couldn't quite get the fangs in this time but they are there trust me!!)

ps. was listening to She Calls Me Back by Noah Kahan for this one. idk it just hits for me in my poolverine-addled state lol

[chayannesegg]

might be worth noting that tubbo got lore today because he made it canon he warped back from the boat.

i think this was confusing bc he wasn't sure initially how to play it (he is not a lore guy by trade we all know this), and waffled back and forth with it (with fun bits like "it's tuesday" or "it's a time rift"), but he definitely did make it canon.

he has the story: the boat didn't leave, he had his warpstone. he knew they would just steal him back, like they did the first time.

he has the reason: he desperately needed to see sunny before he left; couldn't sit idly by

and he made it clear that's what he wants to have happened. he told his chat to stop "-rp point"-ing him about it multiple times bc he's trying to make it canon (and told fit the same when he came back post-ghost bit).

he also asked sunny's admin whether she wanted their interactions to be filler or canon and she chose canon

plus he had a canon interaction with forever explaining it and asking him to watch over his daughter

and he and sunny built things and interacted with each other based specifically off the info he was kidnapped, that he will have to go, and that they both knew it was coming

so while you may have to ignore or recontextualize some of the goofier interactions when he initially came back (phil/etoiles/fit stuff esp), tubbo did come back, the code attack did happen, it's already been fit into the lore, and i don't doubt sunny is going to tell fit about it this week!!

[welcome-to-the-agender-agenda]

Me: *sitting and scrolling through Pinterest*

Brain: We have energy so we have to do something

Me: Why not shower?

Brain: Not enough energy

Me: Read?

Brain: We can't focus

Me: Read fanfiction? You usually love that

Brain: Boring

Me: Watch a movie?

Brain: We can't just watch a movie and not do anything else as well

Me: Draw whilst watching a movie?

Brain: Too tired

Me:

Brain:

Me: Well can I sit here and scroll on my phone?

Brain: No, you have too much energy!

[spacenintendogs]

fishlegs' giggles & laughs are everything 2 me

[sciderman]

You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

[larks-birdhouse]

rational brain: they never said when they were going to post wonderlust. we can wait, we’ll be fine

the fucking dopamine deficient demon in my mind: hernjegdgwhehgd what if i blew up right now

[nathaniacolver]

lena luthor is asami-sato-coded: a venn diagram

hi everyone it's me the girl who made the korrasami x caitvi x avatrice venn diagrams before.

i am currently on s04 e04 of supergirl so i apologize for any falsehoods ab lena bc i don't know everything yet (BUT 168 bookmarked fanfics should have served me enough, right?)

behold, the two pale af, rich af, genius af, social status af, villain-coded, black-haired, green-eyed engineer/inventor/CEO wives of the protagonist:

if anyone has anything else they can think of for the overlap (or the sides!), i am more than happy to add it! i gave this all my brainpower for 2 hours but that was me alone, just 1 humanpower. always down for a group project

[hearts401]

au where all the aftons live and william doesnt get springlocked and the murders continue and the afton kids each have shit theyre dealign with because of it

[cheaploafs]

late night cuddles

[hersurvival]

Restless with nothing to give,

I've burnt myself out keeping busy

But I cannot stop or I will sink.

I lie in bed, shaking my foot off the edge,

Lying on my back, my stomach, sitting up.

If I quit moving, if I start thinking,

I might never return, I might not make it.

[hesperidia]

What I still can't put together is Akutagawa's personal thoughts surrounding his own death.

Taking a look at some moments from the manga, the first time he fights Atsushi in ch 4 and his death scene in ch 87:

And something that also stuck with me: This scene from 55 minutes.

Where he repeatedly "smiles in self mockery" when he believes his death is near, because he thinks going out in ways he deems "beautiful" is too much of a privilege for such a lowly person.

Knowing how he is and what he's been through, he might be waiting eagerly for his time to come. I would say the way he did actually die is not satisfactory to him at all. He would be so conflicted because what is more honorable than self sacrifice?

He longed for a horrible death. More fitting for someone like him. And I think that would not sit right with him...

Unless he realizes, in the split seconds before his consciousness fades, that death is death and that's what he was looking for. No matter how beautiful or damned it is.

[tamagotchikgs]

regretting eating my mind & body r in shambles

[citrine-elephant]

this world is cruel and unjust

my blanket is in the washing machine

[a-blue-tree-man]

[rosehathawhey]