#i am js very insecure

[dangopango00]

Demonic Features HCS (2)

Om demons HCs + Om demons x gn reader

Pt. 1 (123) | Pt. 2 (Satan, Asmo, Beel, Belphie) | Pt. 3 (Royal trio) Coming soon (again)

CW: Teeny but suggestive I think. Mostly asmo’s part if anything

A/N: THIS IMAGE IS SO FUCKING KEWYWTTTTT 😭😭😭😭😭 i cant w them ue i am unhealthily attached to this family goodbye world also sryy these are so long, honestly after recharging for a couple days I js started going crazy on the hcs 😭😭

Hcs UTC

Satan: The Unicorn

- I think he should look more beastly overall like hes some wild creature that just emerged from the forest

- His pants should look like hooves like those bellbottom esque fuzzy ish pants like

Shout out to someone in 1545 ig. Unicornis

Also spots should look more like. Horselike like speckled or splotchy

- Has two black stars and one green in the middle on his forehead

1. As a reference to Lucifer who created him and

2. A reference to how biblically unicorns were out of control beasts that could only be tamed by a virgin maiden (honestly im a lil tempted to write a fic of satan x sweet innocent reader but gn. Goodbye even)

- HES A UNICORN HE SHOULD HAVE A UNI HORN PLEAADEEE 😭😭😭 they should be a similar shape to Lucifer’s but one short one and should be able to summon a longer one below where the star diamond is on his forehead is when he gets pissed enough and both should be black with green tips + it would actually make him look more vicious too

- I appreciate them making the little bow look like ribs but I think it would be much cooler if his ribs just were sticking out and wrapping around his body and they were black and green

- Ribs should also have patches of fur resembling flames where they start (near his back or at his sides)

- I also think his tail should have short rugged fur lining the outside and it should get longer at the tip; I’m going heavy on the beast agenda I fear. He may clean up pretty well in his human form but he can’t hide his sin in his demon form cmon now y’all

- Since we don’t see his markings I’m making shit up and I think his markings should be fur lining his back and arms

- Just wanna say I resemble the fur wrap thing because it kinda resembles a horse tail/mane and the gray shirt bc it resembles a rhino (What unicorns in the bible were based on I think)

- A bit insecure about you seeing his demon form tbh. Thinks he will scare you and a little afraid he might do sth he’ll regret if he loses himself; he sees himself as beastly in that form, anger is a hideous emotion and he doesn’t want to scare his loved ones away like he used to when he was first born and always lashed out with full force, scaring his brothers (Don’t get me wrong if he’s angry he’ll show it but he wont let all of his anger out at least not at once and if he has to do sth drastic he’ll first isolate himself)

- Very nearsighted but refuses to get glasses and only wears them when reading (glasses are weakness)

- Bulks up a bit and gains more strength in his demon form frs

- Snarls when hes angry and sometimes sneezes in the middle of his anger often (it would be funny)

- Pact mark is only visible on your temple but internally spans throughout your veins and is not very big but grows the angrier you get post activation; that shit is freaky it can even cover your whole face and put your body in autopilot (like how anger issues people black out) if you get angry enough

- It’s pretty wicked its first shaped like a small spade but bulges like flesh; is similar to tanjiro’s mark somewhat

- Pact mark allows him to enhance your rage by giving you some of his own (can be a pro or con depending on the situation but i mean u can just tell him to stop iykyk policy)

Asmodeus: The Scorpion

- I THINK HE SHOULD BE VAMPIRIC Feeds on sexual energy and life force yk incubus/succubus thingz but he should have the fangies too imo

- Tired of them having collars and looking prim and proper so I’ve arbitrarily decided that his shirt should conjoin with his skin and become kind of like calcharos ult for VERY loose reference; hes the avatar of lust he can be shirtless ish

- IK I SAID NTM ON THE CLOTHES BUT UGHHH Imagine if he was wearing like a robe similar to aphrodite bc its like a nod to his past as a high angel but also how he’s steeped in desire and lust. Like its being held up by the roses, sheer will and the fact that it is conjoined with his skin

- Hc that he is like cupid and can see connections between people SO I think his spine should be lined with like. Arrow-like spines

- Despite being like cupid, he finds it really hard to genuinely connect people and find someone who enjoys his presence beyond his looks and will typically avoid people on his recharge days (he likes partying and being around people but its also pretty draining keeping people entertained which is why he usually brings someone with him. I also imagine this is how he and Levi connect “I guess we aren’t so different after all” type shi)

- He should have a tail. I thought about it for a while and like. ???? Scorpions tails are like their whole thing I think he should either have a tail or towards the bottom of his spines one of them is long enough to resemble a tail (his wings are cool but like he should have a. Tail)

- Tail/spines should have venom

- I think his markings should be connected, like the hearts are good but they should be connected in like a segmented line and wrap around his arm; preferably 7 to represent the scorpions seven chamber heart

- He needs glasses too and he only wears them when they go with his outfit otherwise its contacts (which he also introduced satan to)

- He should have more eyes on his face smaller eyes below his main two that only appear when open (otherwise his face looks normal just with slight slits you’d only notice if u were REALLY staring)

- Very tolerant to weather changes. He still acts like he’s dying but he def doesn’t have it as bad as Levi who is literally dying over there

- Pact mark is a tramp stamp and he won’t stop asking to see it gn. Its shaped like a hollowed heart with a design inside and becomes a spade with a similar design when activated as well as spreads a bit (as all the others do) its very classy and pretty tbh

- Activation is almost like. Erotic? It feels good but its almost like it steals the air from your lungs and makes your chest tighten; its a mix of pleasure and panic (not quite pain because it gives you urgency but not so much that it makes you want to stop) Unfortunately this isn’t something that really wears off but rather wears down and just becomes leas intense as you get used to it/stronger

- Pact mark allows him to shapeshift into you and anyone who you have had a sexual or romantic encounter with

Beelzebub: The Fly

- MOUTHS ALL OVER: A mouth on his forhead where his horn comes out of and the markings spread across his body can open, revealing mouths (def gotta have some on his hands I fear. Can also change the locations of his markings and can consume things such as magical energy through his mouths

- Should be able to create a third horn in the middle of his forehead to make his horns appear like a crown (Lord of the flies had a teeny lil crown its a bit funny)

- Should have more fur aspects like his wings should have fur at the base and around the outline maybe

- His markings should be furry and the fur makes it look like they’re black flames 🔥

- Should have four wings that appear like two until he gets ready for takeoff, to which they spread out real wide

- Ik he’s a really simple guy so his design is simple too but I think he’s just missing some of that demonic flair. He should have insect arms that he can control (they might look like sticks but they’re actually very strong and useful)

- Always wants to be around you. Always. Even though he moves insanely fast he always loops back around to match your pace

- A bit colorblind and nearsighted but is fast enough to make up for it

- Almost never gets sick but he’s usually the one who brings sickness in the house so his brothers have to make sure he cleans off before coming in 😭 (I imagine demons don’t get sick in the traditional way but its typically some behavioral or magical illness like a common cold for suc/incubi causing like them to be less efficient in seducing humans; like how asmo has his power with his eyes maybe his vision gets blurry for a few months/years or it makes HIM fall for the person he was trying to seduce)

- Lucifer has had to ban him from the kitchen because he kept eating food that already went bad especially if he was sleepwalking

- Can make a protein shake/smoothie out of anything !!!! No matter how erm. Odd the combination

- Always rubs his hands together and licks his lips before eating a meal

- I would like to propose….. him being in charge of the Devildom air force like how Levi is in the navy…. Ik ik came outta nowhere but Flies having those big ass eyes gave me the idea to out goggles on him that look like Fly eyes and then I was like ok well what if that was for when he’s flying and here we are

- OK STAY WITH ME NOW. He used to do the equivalent of illegal drag racing but flying and Belphie would always bet on him and thats how they made food money for Beel sometimes until Lucifer shut the whole thing down after finding out bc its a bad look for Diavolo he also doesn’t want his baby brother getting hurt but he wont say that (Belphie thought he was a killjoy)

- To him. It feels like wherever he goes death and despair follow and has gotten stronger and stronger so that no one close to him will ever die again (“I should’ve been strong enough so that the safest place for her would be by my side” -Marius von Hagen [he makes me so emotional]) (If you’re wondering how this is related its because flies symbolize triumph over adversity as well as death and decay)

- Pact mark is right on top of your stomach (above the bellybutton) and it looks like two triskelions (three wheeled spiral) stacked over each other to create six wheels as a reference to his prior angelhood but as well as a nod to his transformation

- Activation costs you a lot of energy and it feels like you’re starving like you haven’t eaten all day even if you just ate a hearty meal (you go back to normal a bit after activation but its a little maddening while its taking place)

- He can possess your body for a limited amount of time (typically only accidentally triggers this power) during this time any damage that his body takes transfers to you and vice versa (tbh this is much more risky for him than you bc his body is extremely strong so he’ll only take minimal damage but it’s a gamble with you)

- He can also steal some of the nutrients from your body so um. I’d be careful of that (he won’t ever actually do it but now that your bodies are connected he can)

Belphegor: The Cattle

- STOP SHOWING HIS FUXKINH EYE BEHIND HIS EMO HAIR/ sorry had to get that off my chest. It coulddd be something that could make him more eerie and off putting like a demon but his whole thing is that he looks cute and sweet but is actually intelligent and dangerous so maybe just. It shows in his demon form only if anything

- He should have a bell on his tail. It would be kewt. Not something he inherently has but he wags his tail in his sleep often so the brothers put it on him so they don’t trip over him (he hates it but he’s too tired to gaf)

- He should be more fuzzy too like having his right arm have an arm warmer rather than that sleeve that doesn’t even look connected like. Also theres a mix of fuzz and thorns on his person. It’s a gamble. Proceed with caution.

- His boots should be more like hooves kinda like what I said for satan but boots and more comfy looking

- They were way too shy with his cow spots imo. I think it should almost look like he has vitiligo (but with more melanin rather than less yk)

- HE SHOULD HAVE A LITTLE EARRING THAT LOOKS LIKE THE CATTLE TAG

- Got a nose piercing (septum I think?) after learning about piercings in the human world but doesn’t use it much anymore

- Nitpicky but I think his horns should end while sticking forward rather than curling out all the way to resemble a bull thats ready to charge

- Appreciating the fact that he has four belts likely to represent the four chambers of cows’ stomachs

- Separation anxiety victim NUMBER ONE. Especially after Lilith died he’s gotten so anxious being without his loved ones and never really wants to leave their sides bc he never knows when they’ll be gone

- He is Beel’s eyes and probably has the best vision in the family tbh 25/20 vision fr

- A lil colorblind though; affects his drawings and when levi asks him to doodle with him he always uses a unique set of colors (hes grabbing at them randomly)

- Likes to just watch his brothers socialize and be with them. An observer in his own home. The only reason he gets out of bed everyday is to see the people he cares about most

- Likes silly little puzzles, games and toys like rubix cubes and bouncy balls n shi but gets annoyed if you just give it to him and expect him to play by himself like !!!!! Keep him company !!!!!!!!!

- When he was trapped in the attic Lucifer would sometimes bring him enrichment toys and fill him in on current news or just sit there in silence to keep him company while turned away from him (If he looks at him too long he might fold and let him out; he loves his brother but. He thinks this is what needs to be done)

- Pact mark is on your thigh probably snug on the inside and whenever he’s laying on your lap he looks at it and maybe traces it before drifting off

- It probably looks like a symbol of a moon or spiral inside of a sun representing the midnight sun and the neutrality of the sloth sin (a sun that never rises or sets)

- Can sap your energy and make you see hallucinations or make you want to sleep; can probably put you in hibernation as long as it doesn’t hurt you and can eat your nightmares # dreamcatcher

[tsumuus]

here for the 555 event!! congrats ^^

i’d like to rq a romantic matchup!! i’ve watched hq a lot so i’m way more familiar w the charas, but if you think there’s a better mha chara, i’ve recently gotten into it and so i’d really love that too! i’m a straight female so i’d like the matchup to be male please :))

my good friends would call me super bubbly and super energetic. i’m often told that i light up a room, and i’m super positive and optimistic. i am a d1 yapper and the ultimate thought daughter lmao. it does, however, take a little while for me to get comfortable and really let my personality come out with new people. i’m a bit quieter with people i don’t know. (trust you js gotta let my personality defrost) while i love people and spending time with my loved ones, i do need time alone to recharge. my mbti is infp. i can spend lots of time with my close friends when we can just sit together and cuddle and not talk, but i find it difficult to spend lots of time with people who have to be doing something all the time. i’m SUPER empathetic and a big crier. it takes NOTHING to make me cry. hopecore tiktok? sobbing. old people eating alone? crying. my friends sharing their traumatic experiences? bawling. a children’s movie? wailing. someone talking about animals? weeping. someone telling me how much they love me? howling. when my parents talk abt my immigrant grandparents’ upbringing? dying on the floor. i have the most tender heart ever and i feel things very deeply. however, i would not say that i let my emotions control me. when faced with upsetting situations, i have never once lost my temper or yelled at someone. my family is full of hotheads, and i’m really the only one able to stay calm and coolheaded. anger kind of scares me because of my family and so i really like people who are like me in the sense that they can be patient and understanding and talk things out instead of yelling. sometimes, i can get kind of avoidant and pretend like the problem doesn’t exist (due to my confrontation-avoidance) in addition to being unable to describe what i’m feeling in words when i’m worked up and also bc i’m scared of how they’ll react. i get annoyed with people who aren’t self-aware or aren’t able to pick up context clues. i get intense cuteness aggression and i love ppl who are smushes. sometimes i’ll just see one of my friends sitting there and i have to just run up to them and give them a fat hug and scream abt how much i love them and how cute they are and how they make me wanna sob bc i love them sm and they’re so FREAKIG CUTE.

due to family situations, i am kind of attention-starved and so when someone pays attention to me i am locked in with them for LIFE. i’m super loving and super affectionate and i have no issue showing it in private. however, in public, i’m not the hugest pda fan. if we’re watching a movie with friends, a head on the shoulder or a hand on the thigh is fine, but i just feel awk when people around me are like super pda lovey-dovey. it just icks me. i have no problem being suuuuper affectionate with my friends in public, but it’s different with bfs. i’d say my love languages are physical touch and quality time, but i will honestly soak up any love anyone gives me. i’m definitely kind of clingy, and i would get kind of insecure if they couldn’t love me with the same sort of passion. i have a lot of love to give, and i’m able to receive a lot of love in turn!!

i’d say my interests are pretty basic lol. i’m a big sabrina carpenter/ariana grande fan, i really like sweet drinks, im super girly and i like anything pink, i love romcoms, i play volleyball, im a big sephora enthusiast, i’ve rewatched gossip girl and clueless and mean girls many times, but i’m also big on children’s shows. sofia the first, liv and maddie, my little pony, ever after high, descendants, phineas and ferb, etc. i’m TERRIFIED of anything remotely horror or scary (one time i watched paddington 2 and i had nightmares for weeks) and so i think i like the comfort they give me knowing nothing REALLY scary can happen in them. (i’m still scared sometimes) i’m not really scared about getting run over by a car or getting kidnapped or anything real that has almost happened multiple times, but i am very scared that the evil princess ivy will come and cast a spell on me.

wow this was a lot of info sorry. (can you tell i’m a yapper) thank you sm in advance and congrats on 555!

your perfect match is…

₊✩‧₊˚ keiji akaashi ! ˚₊✩‧₊

₊✩‧₊˚ runner ups: osamu miya and eijiro kirishima ˚₊✩‧₊

✧₊⁺ akaashi’s calm and composed demeanor would provide the perfect balance to your bubbly and energetic personality

✧₊⁺ he’s someone who thrives in environments where he can observe and be thoughtful

✧₊⁺ which would allow him to appreciate your enthusiasm without being overwhelmed by it

✧₊⁺ since you mentioned being avoidant in confrontational situations

✧₊⁺ akaashi's patient and understanding nature would be a comforting presence

✧₊⁺ he’s known for his emotional intelligence and communication skills

✧₊⁺ which means he’d handle your emotions with care, always taking the time to talk things out rather than reacting impulsively

✧₊⁺ akaashi isn’t the type to raise his voice or get frustrated

✧₊⁺ he’s calm, composed, and would understand your need to avoid conflict while gently encouraging you to open up.

✧₊⁺ akaashi would appreciate your empathy and tender heart, always paying attention to your emotional cues

✧₊⁺ he’d be that person who notices when you’re on the verge of tears and subtly offers comfort without making you feel overwhelmed

✧₊⁺ his intuitive understanding of people would make him the perfect partner for someone who feels deeply, offering quiet support when you’re moved by something emotional, and he wouldn’t shy away from giving you all the attention you crave in meaningful, subtle ways

✧₊⁺ akaashi would find your affectionate outbursts both endearing and amusing

✧₊⁺ he might not be as open, but he’d secretly love your sudden hugs and declarations of love

✧₊⁺ probably offering you a small, amused smile or a gentle pat on the head in return

✧₊⁺ he’d let you express your affection fully without feeling awkward, knowing it’s your way of showing love

✧₊⁺ your preference for subtle PDA would align well with Akaashi's own more reserved nature

✧₊⁺ he wouldn’t feel the need for grand public displays of affection but would enjoy the quiet, private moments

✧₊⁺ like holding hands under the table or resting your head on his shoulder

✧₊⁺ in private, he’d return your affectionate, clingy nature, appreciating the warmth and comfort that comes with your love

✧₊⁺ your love for comfort shows and avoidance of anything remotely scary would also be something akaashi could relate to

✧₊⁺ he’s someone who appreciates calm, low-stress environments

✧₊⁺ given your love for quality time

✧₊⁺ akaashi would excel in creating meaningful moments with you

✧₊⁺ with your tendency to be super affectionate and sometimes clingy

✧₊⁺ akaashi’s emotional stability would provide a solid foundation

✧₊⁺ he’s not someone who would feel overwhelmed by your love

✧₊⁺ instead, he’d welcome it and offer reassurance, making you feel secure in your relationship

✧₊⁺ his calm approach would ease any insecurity, as he’d show through his actions and words that he’s there for you wholeheartedly

a/n holy yap😭 idk i just love akaashi so much <3

₊✩‧₊˚ 555 follower event ! ˚₊✩‧₊

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[these-emo-thoughts]

Pit Babe Anniversary Rewatch! Episode 2!

Getting into the end of Week 1 of the Pit Babe 1st anniversary rewatch just in time by finishing off my day with Episode 2! Looking very forward to this one fajsdfahkhs thoughts as I watch will be down below!

Okay yes I'll be changing my phone ring tone to Speed of Love, I'm too far own this rabbit hole lol

Oh we start off with Tony and his interview lsjdfalsfsa

Tony has perfected the "smile that doesn't reach your eyes" trope, he looks like he just wants to murder that reporter asking him all these questions

That direct look into the camera when talking about "old racer" Babe 👀

Uncle Alan always so caring, worrying about Babe being okay instead of the race betting 🥹

First "Daddy" of the series

Nefarious plot and flashback, ugh yes, sign me the tf up (again)

I mean look, Kenta managing to hold back Alpha Babe is pretty solid of him LOL

I love Babe's confidence, like even though he's got those bad memories he's not afraid to face up against his adoptive father

THE SHOULDER TOUCH, WAY 😭😭 BABE LOOKS LIKE HE'S UNDER A SPELL HERE, GOD, THE SIGNS FROM THE BEGINNING ARE SO BRILLIANT

Far out I'm not going to shut up about this am I??

Again tho, it has to be said - Alan in a singlet top 😔👌

And now Babe and Charlie in a singlet tops 😔👌

Of course Babe can't resist such a sunshine smile, man is already so smitten even while brooding and I totally get it haha

JEFF!! AHH! THERE'S OUR BABY BOY DRINKING HIS PINK MILKSHAKE!! 😭

Lol I can't, every time I see 'UAC' I think of University Admissions Centre 🤣

Damn Kenta is doing the work - and he looks so happy too he probably thinks this is gonna make Tony love him

This obsession with cars of any kind amuses me but like, I also wanna build a track and play too 🥲

BRUH the omegaverse, I know I watched this entire thing but I still get so 😮 when I see it manifest on my screen, what a time to be alive

Puppy Charlie 🐶 these two are so cat and dog coded

There he is, there's baby boy Jeff coming to save the day 🥹

Show 'em Jeff, show 'em how good you are and get that job!!! Haha I'm writing him so much more insecure in my current fic but I love seeing him so confident in himself here ahaha

The duck under Alan's arm kills me

LMAO Dean, North, Sonic please, laughing like that at poor Alan who can't even get a handshake 😭

LMAO I forgot Babe calls Jeff cute here, and Way too like almost winks at him, bb boy is just too adorable 😭

I'm like honed into whatever North and Sonic are doing in the background at any given moment, js

Look at North, such a gossip lol

But also the instigator, damn, Babe is not playing

He also says he's not jealous that Charlie is talking to Jeff but we all know that's a lie lol

He also says he's not angry but welp, LOL

Again with Babe's jealousy, look how happy Charlie looks about it AHAHA

I actually do like that Babe is teaching Charlie in between all the 'concetration' he does

KIMMMMMM WHAT'S UP BOY!! WELCOME

Winner, I can't believe by this point you've been on my screen longer than bb Jeff AHAHAH

Winner: *Trash talks Babe into fighting with him* Also Winner: *Sics Kim on Charlie*

The attraction that Babe has for Charlie in this moment is peak *chef's kiss*

This is a great fight scene actually goddamn

AYEE go go Charlie

Winner once again losing at life (I'm going to keep a tally, this is loss number 3 for him so far in the series since he copped it twice already in the first episode AHAHA)

Bad idea to be smacking Kim against the wall, Winner 👀

Told you, there goes your fkn wrist babes do I could this as a loss for the tally AHAHA

AYEEE CHARLIE IS GETTING HIS CAR! 🙌 and what a choice he makes, the car that made Babe King of the Hallows

Way is quaking

There's gotta be a work for the kink Charlie has for Babe's coaching because he's really enjoying himself but I'd be crying 🤣😭

Dean is so chill, but look at how his words are cutting Way deeply haha

UGH MY HEART HURTS AT THIS BEAUTIFUL FRIENDSHIP BETWEEN WAY AND BABE AHHHHH WHY 😭😭

PLEASE that kiss Babe planted on Way's cheek healed my soul 😭

"Alai-wa"

"You're my best friend but complain like my boyfriend" lmao Way WISHES 😭

Here are the terrible two ready to cause trouble! Now being asked to keep an eye on Charlie.

Charlie has been called a puppy 3 times this episode ahaha

North is drunk but can see clearly that Way loves Babe

NORTH SAYING IF HE AND SONIC WERE EVER CLOSER THEY'D BE LOVERS 👀👀👀

Poor Alan lmao everyone always laughing at him

Way switches from supportive friend to bitch real quick and I'm here for it - but goddamn, he's harsh to Charlie

WAY HATES CHARLIE SO MUCH HE LITERALLY TELEPORTED TO INTIMIDATE HIM 🤣

I swear to god I was not planning on thirsting over Alan while rewatching this but lo and behold here I am. Thirsting.

Kenta, baby, sorry but Alan is not going to give you his son Pit Babe, no matter how much you offer - though that is a great way to end the episode ahh 👀

PETE IN THE PREVIEW YESSSS the family's all here!!

ALAN GIVING JEFF A KISS ON THE HEAD JKSFHSKJADHFJSKA

The no-kissing rule gets broken next ep, YESHH

And my favourites, the behind the scenes 🥹

Ep 2 is done!! Right in time for Week 2 of the anniversary event, yay!

[rebecca-babe]

What are your personal headcanons for rebecca?

This one is OLD man but I am finally ready to answer this one (I've collected enough)

-after the uzi attack at the camp, she survived (everyone did) with very serious injuries, so she was in a wheelchair for a while, and then decided to grab Js legs and a pair of regular worker legs and rig her body so they would be able to go on and off

-she listens to kpop, sabrina carpenter and chappell roan

-she is VERY confident in her body, she has basically zero insecurities and is very happy

-she got closer to darren and the rest of the camp crew after the incident

-she LOVES nicknames (I actually have a list of nicknames for her and Darren for the fluff fic I'm writing)

-she wants to be a singer when she gets older, and she has a really nice voice when she sings

-actually likes video games, but the only game she plays is lollipop chainsaw (she relates to juliet)

-gloomybear fan

-scratch that she plays roblox with darren, Sam and Emily too, and she has the best house in bloxburg

-she can't draw, but she wants to

-karaoke OBSESSED, she takes Thad, lizzy, and doll there all the time

-she doesn't try that hard in school but she gets good grades anyway

I think that's all for now! These are very fun <3

[theshe-devil]

SO DEAR PEOPLE,

-GG REBOOT SPOILERS AHEAD -

I just saw the finale. And as I initially only watched season 2 for the polyamory relantionship between Aki, Max and Audrey, I will very understandibly post and discuss first about them:

I will adress the scene, oh you know what scene (Thomas is a very underrated actor, that isn’t for debate), and it was heartbreaking to watch through.

" What an absolute...fool", you can feel his pain.

Max realized that Audrey & Aki had no intention of breaking up between them even tho they all agreed that is "all for all or none for none".

And the fact that they (Aki & Audrey) broke the very pact that convinced Max to start a relantionship with them (his first of a kind too), hurt him more than the break-up per se. That must have been very hard on Max, with also him realizing that they don’t love him in the same way he loves them.

I am not saying those two aren’t in love with Max. What I am saying is that :

They didn’t fall hard, at least not like Max did for them.

They don’t seem to know that they have fallen in the first place.

It was dissapointing to see them ultimately break up. I don't intend do deny it. But I do understand the directors's take on this for a various number of reasons:

They are teenagers. They make mistakes, they try hard to learn from them but they also follow their instinct a lot. The instinct to just take it. To just do it. This is the part of their life when they are exploring, finding themselves, starting to risk things. And so on. This whole new unexplored area is scary. And insecurities are always gonna swim their way through.Breaking up, drama, a very large amount of overflowing emotions, failed relantionships (platonic or romantic ones)- these are very common between the ages of 16-20, more so in the GG universe, where we have a little taste of arrogant, entitled, used to get their way or/and selfish teenagers. They are gonna make bad decisions(fully aware). And this js the process of them reaching maturity. All the bad in the means of good ( a saying from my country, it means that we have to pass very bad times to reach the fullfiling ones at the end)

Polyamory was a new thing for all of them. How do u compromise so everyone it’s happy and comfortable? As we could see from this season, it was tricky and a bit difficult. Again, they are teenagers. They don’t know how this works, they are scared and they are trying.

They ALL needed time apart from their other 2 partners. (Something that didn’t happen (A+A) entirely...) To grow and see where they standed outside of their relantionship. You know, having different plotlines for each of them, like the original GG. I think the 3 of them coming together after all of that would have made a much bigger impact than them staying together now.

They were gonna be ENDGAME. As I said before, them coming back together in the end of season 3 after some time apart would have made a big impact, and a much awaited moment. It appears they were actually gonna do that, as I recently found out:

They did add that scene where Audrey stares at a painting simply because it reminds her of Max.

But they didn’t add the dialogue between her and Aaron, nor the context of her staring. Because they knew when they were editing the episodes that they wouldn’t get renewed for another season. They cut a lot of scenes filmed in Italy beacuse of that. The episode was meant to be longer.

They didn’t know that fact when they filmed tho, another proof that originally, those 3 were meant to end up together sooner or later.

In another words, I was right when I said that Audrey looking at the painting was foreshadowing their (Aki's and Audrey's) longing for Max in the future.(in a hypotetical third season)

I am kind of mad (just a little) that they knew this was a farewell, and they still ended, with such a negative note too, the poly relantionship. (A type of relantionship that is almost always portrayed as unreal and non-functional, which, unfair)

But again, I see where they were coming from with this. Safran said himself that it wasn’t their intentions to portray polyamory in a bad way, and that they believe it's real and does work for some people. (See the images attached).

And it would have been splendid if a third season would have been released in the future, so we could see them play this out, (as characters with unique storylines too), how it's gonna be Aki's and Audrey's turn to fall as hard as Max fell for them.

Just when it started feeling like a true familiar show....it gets canceled. Altho I am not a fan of their "keeping Luna and Monet out of the group in meaningful moments".

But maybe they would have changed that.

Oh well.

You can not have everything.

Can you?

[gardens-of-may]

ENTRY TWO - chap. 23 to chap. 50

spoilers ahead

AAAAAAAAAAA

that was me singing opera

you wish you heard it

also i can’t stop talking in a british accent because guess is on repeat 

good lord jennifer 

😐😐😐

this book is getting BORING

caves are amazing 😑

WHY IS THERE A CHILD

is the child okay????

eughhhhhhb

fuck you child 

ugh him

I STILL DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THERES A CHILD

oop he’s fAcToTuM 

i’m sorry this book is getting more boring by the second 

*an hour later*

the boy’s a liar the boys a liar he doesn’t see ya he’s not think about blahhhh

idk

i’m also currently falling asleep rn so 😗

CHILD LABOR

I DESPISE CHILD LABOR

I HAVE CERTAIN TOPICS IM VERY PASSIONATE ABOUT 

AND VHILD LABOR IS ONE OF THEM

*days later* (i wasn’t lying when i said this book is boring)

okay good consent!!!

oop he knows

i thought i was smart for knowing the french

i didn’t know bonne chance meant good luck 😑

it’s like avery is nonexistent and i HATE it

because in the main trilogy, his presence was very shown

but i keep forgetting that avery’s even here because of this shitty narration 

oh hi gray

oh my god grayson in shorts would actually scar me

oh my god

that’s evil

and she’s such a saint 

i forgot that we’re dealing with his dad

oops

technically avery didn’t kill him

so what’s so bad about putting the evidence of what he did against avery out?

i love xander i miss him sm

bonjour!

sisters 

hehehe 🤭 

that’s true tho

sav and gray are very similar 

gray also likes to deny his feelings tho

same bro 😜

nash is the best 

ily him sm 

suspicious 

oh no

was gray told abt the devils mercy thing?

i don’t really know what whom is 

LYRA

AHAHAGAHHAHS

ISVTHAT LYRA

IM GONNA SCREAM

STOP

MY ABAY

IVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH HER SINCE I HEARD OF HER AND THIS IS THE FURST TIME I MET HER

OMG

ASSHOLE 😍😍

IT IS LYRA

IM LIT DYING

NEW CRUSH

she’s so funny

that’s one way to deal with mental health 

get a lyra!

no not shorts 😭

ughhhh

i love gigi

lemonade? too sweet?

oh shit

i js realized i can only imagine gray with a british accent 

the aaron warner effect

grayson davenport hawthorne

i find it hilarious that it’s in autocorrect 

“I am so sorry that Avery girl took all of your money,” one of the others said seriously.

“And chose your brother,” another one added.

“And broke your heart!”

“But not your spirit.” The bravest of the girls reached out and laid a hand on his arm”

HAHAHAHA 

stop it’s like a fanclub

what has gotten into me?

😟😟😟

she isn’t a bitch 

her future is probably brighter than your fucking phone screens

oh yeah i forgot

gigi doesn’t know who he is

GIGI NO

GOOD LORD NO

no he is not your boyfriend or anything like that 

GIGI STOP

GIGI UGHHHH

THAT IMPLICATION ISBT 

SAVANNAH IS NIT A BITCH

gigi what cleavage?

gray’s reaction tho

NASH 😍😍

i’m in the rural rn

an ode to nash 

cupcake a palooza? 

ohhhh

WHAT

tallllll

as a 5’5 girl anything above 6’ is tall

seems ugly 

NOOOOO

FUCKING BITCH

UGHHHHHH

THAT BACKSTABBING BITCH

ARGHHHHH

USNT SHE RICH NOW?

a flashback? NOW???

TREE HOUSE YAY 

how tall was jamie at ten?

that’s so mean

yeah what about nash ?

he’s amazing 

okay gray might be perfect and xander can think outside the box but jamie is good at taking and measuring risks 

is that a skill? i don’t know 

js triggering pain and insecurities atp

wait they’re supposed to lose

ohhhh

okay so the point of the flashback is to show why he’s doing what he’s doing

wait what did he do?

ZELLA IS THE PROPRIETOR 

I BET

BET

mr. hawthorne js has a aura that is 

you know

i js read smth kinda sad and it lowk ruined the vibe 

ANYWAY

oh

i had hoped the proprietor was zella

ALREADY KNOW WHAT YOU GOT GOING ON DOWN THERE

sorry 🙂

THE HELL JAMIE

i forgot avery and jameson weren’t married 

i don’t know why i thought they were

GODDAMN JAMIE

oh shut the fuck up

this feels so wrong

WHAT

WHAT DO YOU MEAN 

brother?

ARGHHHHH

UGH

not this

where’s nash then?

AUGGHBBBBBB

EVE THAT FUCKING BITCH

what does that bitch want? 

a boyfriend? not even once she’s six feet under

WHY ARE YOU SYCH A CREEP???

“my existence?”

your existence pains everyone 

AHHHHH

i love gigi

oh shit

😳

anywayyyyyyy

LYRAAAAAAA

oh my god

hmmm

THATS SLATER???

BITCH IS UGLY AS FUCK

i love gigi 🥰

“prone to eyebrow arching, very fond of imperative sentences, blond and broody.”

how cute?

NO IT JUST GOT GOOD

WHAT TGE HELL JAMIE

WHAT HS WRING WITH YOU

i’m gonna kill you 

“oN tHe cOnTrArY-” shut the fuck up

ugh 

that’s terrifying 

i hate him

awwww i love avery tho

I HATE YOU 

WHAT

I THOUGHT THAT IT WENT 

nash > gray > jamie > xander

i think im used to leo

“privileged, prep school boy”

ughhhh

HE WON

i didn’t think he would

oh shitttttt

😣😣😣😣

i’m not describing this

good lord jameson

risk?

OM MY GSIF

oh yeah

his brothers are gonna kill him 😀

why would you purposefully do this to yourself?

that’s cute rohan, but i don’t think so

heheh 🤭 

bitch

what did you do in prague jameson? what?

no you did not 

MMMM-

oh nooooo

AGHGHBBBVBVVVVVVBHHH

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED IN PRAGUE???

gigi no

ajaksjjw he’s your brother you cannot date him 😭

that weirded me out even typing it

GIGI SYOP

HAHAHAHA

SAV AND GRAY NO

your imaginary girlfriend okay

(it’s me guys)

limes

our forever is limes

mhm

not like that

huh (i took a break if you couldn’t tell)

OH FRIENDLY WAY

UGHHHHH

FUCKING BASTARD

acacia is more of a mom to gray than fucking skye will ever be

good lord

UGHHH

NOW???

anw eight years ago everyone 🙂

this is so traumatic 

yay

[shytastemakerthing]

Can I please request a romantic TWST matchup! I am veryyy outgoing. I make friends really easy and overall I’m a people pleaser. I do get very anxious and overwhelmed easily, which can cause panic attacks. I dont like sports, but I do like studying and my grades are something I take pride in. I overwork myself a lot and I make myself crumble. I thrive in environments where I get to help people. I tend to fall for possessive people because it makes me feel like someone actually likes me, even though they’re toxic. I get a long with people pretty easily though a lot of people have taken advantage of me because I’m naive and overly kind and I do anything in my power to make sure that people like me. I crave validation so I love being praised and takes care of, it makes me feel like I’ve done something right. I really enjoy video games and puzzles cause they challenge my brain. Its very easy to get me to do anything- just tell me “if you do _____ then I’ll be so proud of you.” And I’ll do it-. I am a little chubby with stretch marks and surgical scars. I’m very insecure in my body and I would like someone who would hold me close and let the world fall away. I love the idea of someone rough and tough getting soft and snuggling with me. I have some sensory issues that can cause panic attacks, like loud places/crowds. I prefer someone tough and dominant, but on the quieter side. I crochet and I recently finished making a blanket! Thank you!!!

A/N: Thank you so much for your request! I re!lly hope that you like this! On another note, if you ever feel like you need to vent or talk about anything, my messages are always open😊. I am in no means a therapist of any kind, but I know just what a lot of what you stated feels like and I've been there myself 😊. Continue to be amazing!!

I match you with........

Riddle Rosehearts

• Now, there are a number of reasons as to why Riddle won in terms of this matchup, and I'll touch on several of those points.

• This is a man who has always seeked validation, mostly for it to come from his mother despite how toxic she truly was for him and to him. Once he was able to look past that in his life, seeing just how she was for him, he began to find that validation in other things. He greatly helps you in that as be knows that you need it.

• He will praise you when you do well, and bring tea and tarts to celebrate. If you're falling behind in classes or not quite sure on a certain topic you are studying, he is there for you all the way to help you through it. He takes great notice of your cues if things are beginning to be too much, if you need a break, if you're hungry, or if you finally understand what js being taught.

• He knows what it's like to be around toxic individuals, mostly his mother, and he will certainly help you. Yes, they gave you validation, but they also hurt you for their own benefit. You do not need not need. Come over to Heartslabyul for an unbirthday party. You will be guaranteed to find and make new good and healthy friends there *cough* Trey *cough*.

• Beijg a people pleaser is okay, but bot when jt comes at the risk of hurting yourself. You can't make everyone happy, and then also expect yourself to be happy as well. He is gentle when telling you this. It's okay to tell people no, it's okay to let them down. It's all a part of growing. If they can't see that you did try to help, or redirect them to someone who can help them better, than that's their loss.

• He is someone who takes his relationship very seriously. Words of affirmation seem to do wonders for you, and he gives you plenty. While among his dorm members, he can be still quite strict, though not as bad as his time in overblot, there is still that nature to him. Once it's the both of you behind closed doors? Pajamas are on, and the both of you are curls into one another and he whispers praises to you and you to him. You're each other's greatest moral support.

• Make him a blanket and he melts, he loves it❤. Honestly, you'll see him using it every night within the confines of his room. It's usually going to be very nearly folded on his bed, it's either being very delicately washed, or maybe he's studying at his desk and it's being used to keep his legs warm. Can he.... possibly have a couple more?

• Overall, this relationship is built on trust, care, love, respect, admiration, gentle words, and care. He may not be perfect, but he promises to be there when you need him the most, no matter what. You're his darling rose, and he wishes to see you bloom.

[loveyourlovelysoul]

Sometimes, when dealing with others, we may encounter triggers like people trying to make us inferior or that we perceive as better than us. These work on the same issue: not feeling good enough and needing to be perfect/the best so that we can be praised and feel worthy.

In the first case, the trigger is on the other person, not up to us. We cannot control it. If someone wants to brag, outstand us by talking about their successes and diminishing ours, or doesn't let us talk/explain things but come in between a talk and start speaking taking up our voice, it's their problem. It's possible that they had to grow up in an environment in which they weren't valued, they were made feel inferior, not smart enough, not trustable for a specific knowledge especially compared to their sibling or any other relative. They have developed this habit to show off their abilities, their knowledge, even if it's not theirs first-hand, even if it's not their experience, cause they just consider this knowledge as something that will make them valuable in the eyes of others. They need to show they can, they know, they are able, so that they can be praised as well. On occasion they may also try to bring you down cause they would have (or had) done better than you in a specific situation. Again it's not you, it's their issue they need to deal with: but dealing with it on the outside, projecting, and acting as their caregivers (or others) is what they have now learned to do. And what is easier to do.

In the second case, the trigger is ours. We're the one needing to be perfect/the best probably for similar reasons to the above mentioned: we had to be perfect/have great grades to be praised in our childhood and we realized our self worth according on the level of praise we used to receive (that change daccording on our personal results and behaviour). If someone is asking through questions some infos (or you are simply reading someone else's thoughts or work or anything really, something you have done as well but differently cause you're not them), and by talking with/reading them you realize they have done a better job than you or seem a better person than you, you may start to unwillingly try to diminish their job/self worth (or even bring yourself down even more cause you feel a failure). Remember that we are many, and we are all different first and foremost. The fact that this person asked you something (cause probably they see you as someone inspiring even) or that they showed they can do something that you do too in a very good way (even better than you) doesn't mean you're a failure or not good enough. If they seem better than you caus ethey thought about a thing you didn't, it doesn't mean you are not a good person (but you can still learn and work on you: what's better?). It is only one aspect, one specific situation: not everything. Put this fact into an objective perspective. Turn off your inner self judge and open your mind: learn from them, there's nothing wrong in that. Cause of your experience being different from theirs, you two have different points of view and you can even learn from each other. You don't have to be perfect, you don't have to be the best always, in every situation: it's impossible cause you're a human. It's also okay to have bad days in which things are tougher and seem harder, js. So let others shine as well: the stage can be shared. Every single person alive has their specific light: never dim it cause of your own insecurities, but add its brightness to your light so you gonna shine more together.

As you can see, these two triggers may even work together in someone: we get the trigger as not being good enough and we try to solve it by bringing someone elses down. It's a neverending cycle. But not necessarily: be aware of the problem, in you or the other. Try to put a fullstop, try to realize that you are worthy no matter what you have been made think or feel (of which I am very sorry) and no matter what this person says. Let it slid, even if it's deeply annoying (unless you really need to point it out cause it's too much). Take your time to work on this, and ask for help if you need.

[v-anrouge]

I'm sorry if I didn't get the memo, but I was wondering if I can request a match-up with a character?  👉👈

If I am allowed, I'll just type up the stuff for it under here. But if not, then you can just disregard this request and have a lovely day!

My love language is probably physical touch and quality time. I also really like reciprocating because I want the other person to feel as appreciated as I do when they are with me. So that means I'll listen to them as long as they'll listen to me, or if they want to hang out I am ABSOLUTELY there!

What I like in a partner is someone who likes to have fun but can also be reasonable, patient, and understanding. I tend to be insecure, so someone needs to reign me in or be there for me during those moments of vulnerability.

Some of my hobbies are writing, video games, and art. My social nature gets sporadic, so while I'm prone to doing these activities for long periods of time I still like going outside to hang out at parties (though I get drained really easily).

I AM SO SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE THIS 😿😿💔 PLEASE FORGIVE ME also pleASE IGNORE ANH TYPOS ENGLISH MISTAKE MY BRAIN JS FRIED FROM WORK AND COLLEGE 😭

i match you with....

LILIA he loves to pop up behind you to surprise you with a hug, he does it every single day so you don't really get scared anymore but he doesn't really mind because the end is always the same, both of you laughing and hugging eachother tightly

lilia and you have quite a bit in common and perhaps that's what make you both work out so well, lilia loves to talk to you, it doesn't need to be anything important he just wants to spend time with you listening to your voice and watching your expressions change as you speak, its very common for you two to spend hours talking about completely random things, the topics change quickly and the more you two talk the more excited you two get to talk about the next topic, sometimes either you or lilia will get a bit tired of talking and either just listen to you or you both will just stay in a comfortable silence, in those moments if you're close to lilia you can feel him purring with a cute little smile on his face

lilia adores the fact that unless you're really truly extremely busy you'll always show up to hang out with him when he invites you, he'll wait excitedly until he can detect your presence and when he does he'll teleport in front of you trying to scare you, sometimes you get scared and sometimes you're already expecting it but regardless of your reaction he'll always give you a soft kiss on the cheek to greet you and then take your hand to guide you to the place he wants to hang out in

lilia is an old fae, he has LOT of experience comforting and calming people down, those skills will get even better if it's someone he cares about, so you can imagine how sweet and caring he is when he sees that you're feeling down, lilia knows you well and so he'll always find a way to cheer you up, it's honestly surprising how quickly he can make all of your sadness go away and have you laughing until your stomach hurts instead, it's a skill lilia is very proud of, after all it shows him his favorite view; your smile

gaming nights are a must! most of the times you'll both be in the same room because lilia thinks it's way more fun than talking through a call, and he is right! it is way more fun to have the person playint against you right by your side, the only bad thing is that lilia will try and distract you from your game so he can win, sometimes he'll start tickling you or flirting with you just anything that'll make you start paying more attention to him, however you have found a way to cut the distractions and distract HIM instead, play with the little wing like things in his hair he'll immediately start giggling and purring giving you a few seconds of advantage

other possibilities: rook, cater, jade & malleus

[jomamaofficial]

i read your post about the todoroki quirk marriage fanfic and im super excited! i have a few suggestions that im hoping maybe you might like??

for starters, maybe reader could be like the younger sibling of Momo so reader always feels like kind of lesser than Momo because Momo is the elder of the two so reader just always feels like Momo has been better. It also doesnt help that (your choice if u want to or not) Todoroki and Momo had small feelings for each other when they were at UA.

Ofc our boy Todoroki still isn’t the best at feelings so hes always just very straight up with what he says so maybe for example he literally tells reader they need to be/do better so they can be more successful like their older soster Momo which causes reader’s insecurities to worsen. Like maybe reader has had nightmares (or js bad thoughts) about Todoroki cheating on them with Momo.

maybe reader has seen the way Todoroki and Momo interact and they can just tell thats not the way in laws should be looking at each other. I mean yeah they’re not looking at each other like they’re in love but it definitely looks like they had feelings for each other so this only caused readers self esteem to drop even more than it had before. reader has seen the way Todoroki gives Momo small glances and wonders if they could mean that Todoroki would rather be with Momo instead of reader (this is up to you if todoroki does want to be with momo or not. but if he doesnt then reader is just hella insecure)

ALSO!! maybe the first choice for the marriage was Momo but for some reason she had to reject so they asked reader instead. This would obviously mean that (at least some) of the Todoroki’s preferred Momo over the reader and would rather have Momo as Todoroki’s wife/partner instead of name.

These are all really bad and I don’t expect you to use any of them but it’ll just be here if you need any inspiration! Anyway im super hyped for this and i cant wait! Keep up the good writing <33

PLEASE THE WAY I ABSOLUTELY ADORE WHEN I GET A MESSAGE IN THE ASK BOX. I AM SUCH A CHILD.

And omds, anon, my partner and I already brainstormed 2 out of 4 of these ideas, but you have given me so many more.

I don't want to give away the plot yet hehe, but please do know that I will be incorporating these. My mind is just spinning in thoughts hehe.

Also, thank you so much for reading my work and giving it a chance, it warms my heart when you all communicate to me about anything, and it's like AHHHH.

I hope you have a great day anon, thank you for giving me these wonderful ideas.

Sincerely,

Your Only Toe, RichieTheToe.

[yb-cringe]

Having a normal one, I see (real talk tho your enthusiasm is fun to see)

😭 thANks no /gen thank u for the assurance i am Extremely insecure abt my enthusiasm bc its soooo stupid but im Very happy and yes im having a normal one <- js not normal at all

[daystobook]

Day 5: VE Schwab Fanboying and That Sentence

Selected excerpts from a scene from The Invisible Life of Addie Larue. Context: the first time Henry and Addie really get to talk with each other.

Henry shifts in his seat. "What do you see," he says, "when you look at me?"

"I see a boy with dark hair and kind eyes and an open face." He frowns a little. "Is that all?" "Of course not," she says. "But I don't know you yet."

...

"I see someone who cares," she says slowly. "Perhaps too much. Who feels too much. I see someone lost, and hungry. The kind of person who feels like they're wasting away in a world full of food, because they can't decide what they want."

This line hit really hard. I sat where I was reading, book abandoned, and only this line plucked out, wondering, without a set feeling or timeline attached in relation to how the line is talking about me, in a daze, frightful. Another year has going to go past, and I would have nothing plausible to show for it.

I sent ONE flash fiction to ONE publication. I gave up submitting to a speculative fiction anthology by an Indian wing of a publishing house, because I didn't write anything. I didn't make anything with code, that could be used, even by me.

I feel lost yes, hungry too. But sometimes that hunger leads to tiredness and I give up. I had almost given up writing, because I'd have a very difficult time to balance it with anything else. If I'd read, I'd keep reading and feel anxious about not having learnt or done anything else. If I'd code, I'd constantly feel anxious that I'm no way closer to building anything. So I thought it'd be for good, if I just stopped writing. That way, giving my time to coding and learning, I'd at least have an assurance, that I'm making directed efforts.

But a lot of good things have happened this year. I completed a literature course online, which I enjoyed very much, even if it was frustrating at times—with some for-home readings. I got a certificate to show for it.

I open sourced a small plugin for MDX Editor. I went into a lot of rabbit holes learning about exciting things like local-first architectures. I learnt that I have to make notes for any knowledge I want to stick with me, and keep coming back to it. So I started taking a lot of notes in Logseq.

I learnt a lot about the web in general, special thanks to two online courses I bought and am still going through — CSS for JS Devs by Josh W Comeau, and Epic Web by Kent C Dodds.

I completed a couple of freelance projects, so I did earn a little bit this year, even if it's not sustaining and I used my savings to sustain this year. I learnt a lot tinkering with stuff.

I have become kinder to myself so that I can actually make efforts, instead of feeling anxious about what is not there yet. I've made it a rule to not judge first drafts. I have Jass to thank for this. Every time I've struggled to keep up, she's filled me with hope and replenished my will to keep going.

I finally am giving it a shot to make a web app to solve a real problem. The other day, over call, my mother asked what I was doing and I said that I was making an app to solve the bigger worry she has. I waited for her to ask, to build suspense, and when she did, I quoted her, trying to mimic her as I did

Kal Subha Kya Khaana Hai? (what do you want to have for breakfast tomorrow )

I met a lot of new kind, wonderful, hilarious people, thanks to Jass. I got to spend a lot of time with Jass, which I cherish everyday. My parents have—even with all the insecurities they feel towards us children, and themselves, as they get older—have supported non-stop in every way.

Building blocks have laid a foundation, I just have to keep going. I want to build a life on my own terms. I want to earn by building exceptional skills, and never depend on an external job to sustain myself. It takes time, I just have to keep showing up ever day. And I thank everything and will make all my efforts to make sure that it is never a corporate job office ever again.

To a productive, building blocks year, and to a more visibly seen one that's upcoming.

Happy festivals of light and love 🪔🌻☀️

PS:

I went into a rabbit hole of watching VE Schwab on Youtube. One thing that I could just sense from her upbringing and the way she's lived is—because of her loving and playing competitive sports, she's always up for a challenge. That energy is invigorating.

[etoiile]

ami, ami, tell me more about your selfships, please. i love hearing/reading them ^^

RAHHHH noo i hope that you know this door cannot be closed once its been opened (｀ω´) ANYWAYS HERE WE GO

okok so my biggest one for blue lock is definitely REO. and here's why

reo lowkey has like attachment and abandonment issues (thanks nagi!!) and like .... ME TOO!! (cries in parental problems) so we'd both be like very attached to each other and wouldnt ever have to doubt if the other person loved us and much as we loved them. NO INSECURITIES YAY!!!

reo loves pampering people. its his love language. I LOVE BEING PAMPERED BC IT MAKES ME FEEL SO SPECIAL (again cries in parental problems lol my parents never made me feel special HAHAHA) (this post is actually js me trauma dumping)

reo is very perceptive to emotions and so am i ^^ im not too good with expressing how im feeling so having someone who can just tell is so nice

idk why but like i love being carried for some reason. AND REO CARRIES NAGI EVERYWHERE ITS PERF !!!!!

reo talks enough where i dont feel stupid for talking too much but he's also not too talkative which is good bc i love talking (clearly)

i am actually nagi 2.0. like i am nagi nagi is me. WE ARE THE SAME. im really lazy and clingy and unmotivated hehe and reo loves nagi so therefore reo loves me!!!!! (this is my delusion talking)

i think that reo really needs to feel like he's needed. and like. ME TOO BRO!!!!!! im good at making people feel like they mean a lot to me coz im very affectionate and i think that that's something that reo really needs

he's kind of a teasey flirt?? but like not too much where i'm like boy stfu like i dont want an f-boy but i think that like teasing is fun. idk he's just sassy and i think its cute ^^

reo is just so earnest and caring and un-judging, if that makes sense. im really sensitive and a crybaby, but he seems like the kind of guy to welcome me into his arms regardless of my flaws. (unlike sae no offense who's a judgy bitch. still love him tho!!)

reo is rich and my grades lately are looking like im gonna have to marry rich (´ε｀；)

the other ones are chigiri (a good listener but not TOO quiet, sweet and sassy which is fun, def has a better haircare routine than me) and nagi (because we're pretty similar)

ok. ONTO HAIKYUU!! (if ur wondering i have a ton of hq works sitting in my drafts lol. I PROMISE I'LL COME OUT WITH ONE SOON!!!) (jk no promises)

SUGA AND OSAMU AND SUNA. i'll keep these ones short coz i feel like ive made this too long alr lol

suga:

super sweet!! i cant deal with too much meanness (like tsukishima)

despite sweetness hes still super silly and sassy which is just fun

emotionally perceptive (like reo!!) put reasoning for why i need an emotionally perceptive guy above ^^

osamu:

shared love of food LOLL

i have a thing for twins idk why LOLOL. im sorry this is so random but it had to be said. i also like kaoru from ohshc. and like. my current irl crush is an identical twin. IDK WHY ITS LIKE THIS BUT IT IS HAHAHA (i think maybe its bcoz like between the two of them one is always more quiet/perceptive so i notice that?? idek bro)

quieter!! yes!!!!!!!

he would give the best hugs ever. like osamu is just so squishy and yes and he would give such good hugs!! (sobs in touch starved) (this is ur sign to make smth w/ a touch-starved s/o and tag me. im begging u.)

suna:

A FLIRT. i js think its fun

js super goofy

he seems like a really good listener

PERCEPTIVE!!!!!

im sorry this was so long i just couldn't stop yapping once i started lolol

[s3xtones]

i decided to get into contact w my dad last night after feeling kinda lonely , its been 4 years. i made it explicit it wasn't my duty to reach out but carried on just telling him whats new and hopefully we'll catch up in years to come. he told me it was my duty , and said its my responsibilty as a son , which i found dumb considering he is the reason why we dont speak. i js moved passed it nd ended the conversation aftwr a while, but its been on my mind if its really my fault/duty?

Think of it as a duty and responsibility to yourself. Knowing the person that co-created you and/or raised you is important in knowing yourself better. As personal example, I grew up with my dad in my household and he was always very strict,emotionally hard to reach, but intelligent beyond my comprehension. I despised talking to him cause he was always taking any chanceto stab at my passion and career choice leaving me more lost then I was entering the conversation. However, knowing the fears, insecurities, and pain of your parents helps you get a peek into what runs through you. If I was stubborn and kept avoiding conversation with him, I would not have known he was just scared for me because he came to America at 17 and had to give up his dreams to support his family but if he could go back in time he may have wanted to do what he desired as I am. Now, i persisted through that projection of fear, and Ik traveling the wild off my talents. He’s still on edge about what I do for a living but through regular conversation every now and then we connect. I am healing that inner child by following my dreams.

The family history plays a role in who you are today. If you truly want to be empowered spiritually, physically, and mentally learning your family, especially your parents will save your the time of looking outwards for answers.

We are here to break generational trauma and curses, that lil attitude or snarky comments mean nothing. He is hurting and it’s your responsibility to hear him and transmute that negativity into power and love.

🤍

[toddtakefive]

HINATA IS ONE OF UR TOP FAVS TOO i love that hen will people love hinata More. am i js biased maybe people alr do love him a lot but BUT !!!!! i love hinata

He absolutely is!!!!

(This is gonna be kinda long, so excuse any spelling and/or grammar mistakes or any poor formatting because I’m on my phone and it’s 4:44am as I start writing)

I find Hinata’s character really interesting not only because of his natural ability and overall potential but because of the setbacks that present themselves so many times throughout his life and that, even in the face of those, he never backs down.

Hinata isn’t just short, something that is easily fixabel given his raw talent; He goes to a school with no boys volleyball team.

Hinata doesn’t just go to a school with no boys volleyball team; No one is willing to make one with him.

Hinata doesn’t just have a lack of understanding of the actual mechanics of the game; He has no one to teach him (And at this time it’s still 2011-2012, where they are seen using what are very much flip-phones and he likely has no access to things like google or youtube to look up tutorials).

Hinata wasn’t just a kid who loved volleyball; He was going to play no matter fucking what, and I ADORE that about his character.

From the beginning of the series, Hinata is driven. He has passion for what he plays, and he never shies away from expressing that passion even when he’s the only person around that has it. To him it doesn’t matter that he’s short, or that his school has no team, or that none of his friends care about volleyball because he does. He loves volleyball with everything that he is, and nothing can take that away from him.

Even when he loses the first - and only - match of his Junior High career he doesn’t back down. In fact, it only increases his passion ten fold. He sees someone he considers better, the pinnacle of what being a volleyball player is, and instead of being insecure or thinking he might as well stop playing, he takes it as a challenge and uses that rivalry that he then devotes the rest of his life (that we see) to because that’s just who he is. He doesn’t back down, he doesn’t tuck his tail between his legs, he charges forward without a second thought and never brakes.

Not only does he bring out the best in Kageyama- something I’ll get into when I inevitably make a post about him - but almost everyone that’s around him (with the exception of Tsukishima who, if I remember correctly, only gets his head out of his ass when Yamaguchi finally snaps at him). His love for the game absolutely rubs off on everyone around him, so much so that his Junior High friends joined the team only so he could play an official game. He’s the type of person that says they’re going to make it big, be a name that people know someday, and even if it sounds over the top you listen because they say it with so much belief and conviction you catch yourself believing them wholeheartedly.

Hinata makes goals, and he knows what he wants, and he dives for it and that is why I love his character. He isn’t just a good person, he’s an incredible athlete that never backed away at the face of adversity; If anything, I think it made him more eager to run out onto the court.

Anyways, yes, Hinata is definitely in my top favorite characters of the show and if I were on my computer this would probably be so much longer, lol <3

[springsteenicious]

WRITING PLAYLIST #2 of 5

This one is for @those70scomics‘ fic, Jackie Stargazer (ao3 / ffnet). Keep in mind, I put this together. None of these songs are approved by MistyMountainHop, I just think they fit the vibe of her excellent fic. And I would like her to know that she has veto power over this playlist, meaning that if there is a song she feels does not fit on this playlist, she can tell me to take it off :D 

I will also be adding to this as more of the story is published. Each time I add to it, I’ll make a post with the tag ‘Jackie Stargazer Playlist,’ so if you don’t want to see these, block that tag. 

Listen to the playlist on Spotify! (Let me know if that link doesn't work, Spotify was being weird.)

Number of songs on the playlist (currently): 24 songs

Bands/artists: Cheap Trick, Deep Purple, Ezra Furman, The Kinks, Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Pink Floyd, Rainbow, Ritchie Blackmore’s Rainbow, The Dead Daisies, Black Sabbath 

Significant Songs: All. So, under the cut is my explanation for each song, or just the important lyrics. 

Downed by Cheap Trick - I’m gonna live on a mountain / way down under in Australia / it’s either that or suicide / its such a strange strain on you / Ooh, I got a mind / Over you it's not the first time / Ooh, I got a mind

Mean Streak by Deep Purple - This song is about Ro. It’s a kickass song and the lyrics fit her (and Hyde) very well. --- She drive me crazy gets inside my brain / She spun my money down the drain, ohh / So I roll over for my reward / How much can I afford? / She says, "Just a little more" --- I can't take this no more / Tried so hard but I can't get through the door / Because one smile from those eyes / And I stand there paralyzed / And she says, "You better beg for more I mean / Get down sucker you know what I like"

Perfect Strangers by Deep Purple - I am returning / The echo of a point in time / A distant face that shines --- I am the echo of your past

Black Night by Deep Purple - The whole song is relevant to Jackie. 

The Queen Of Hearts by Ezra Furman - See this post. 

Destroyer by The Kinks - Again, relevant to Jackie. --- She said, man, there's really something wrong with you / One day you’re gonna self-destruct / You're up, you're down, I cant work you out / You get a good thing going then you blow yourself out / Silly boy, ya self-destroyer / Silly boy, ya self-destroyer / Silly boy, you got so much to live for / So much to aim for, so much to try for / You blowing it all with paranoia / You're so insecure, you self-destroyer

Serve The Servants by Nirvana - Teenage angst has paid off well / Now I'm bored and old / Self-appointed judges judge / More than they have sold --- Serve the servants / That legendary divorce is such a bore / As my bones grew they did hurt / They hurt really bad / I tried hard to have a father / But instead I had a dad / I just want you to know that I / Don't hate you anymore / There is nothing I could say / That I haven't thought before

Heart-Shaped Box by Nirvana - Just. This song is so good. And can be very easily applied to JS. --- She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak / I've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for weeks / I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap / I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black --- Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet / Cut myself on angel hair and baby's breath / Broken hymen of Your Highness, I'm left black / Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back --- I got a new complaint / Forever in debt to your priceless advice

Rape Me by Nirvana - Self-explanatory. 

All Apologies by Nirvana - What else should I write? / I don't have the right / What else should I be? / All apologies --- I wish I was like you / Easily amused / Find my nest of salt / Everything is my fault / I'll take all the blame / Aqua Sea Foam shame / Sunburn freezer burn / Choking on the ashes of her enemy

Corduroy by Pearl Jam - This song is amazing and I could write so much about this and how it fits not just Jackie but Hyde too. If you listen to the song and follow along with the lyrics, you’ll see what I mean. 

State Of Love And Trust by Pearl Jam - State of love and trust as I busted down the pretext / Sin still plays and preaches, but to have an empty court, uh huh / And the signs are passin', grip the wheel, can't read it / Sacrifice receiving the smell that's on my hands, hands, yeah / And I listen for the voice inside my head / Nothin', I'll do this one myself

Once by Pearl Jam - I admit it / What's to say / I'll relive it / Without pain / Backstreet lover on the side of the road / I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode --- Once upon a time / I could control myself / Ooh, once upon a time / I could lose myself, yeah / Oh, try and mimic / What's insane / I am in it / Where do I stand? --- Ooh, once upon a time / I could love myself, yeah / Once upon a time / I could love you

Release by Pearl Jam - Again, relevant to Jackie. Just look at the lyrics. 

Black by Pearl Jam - Like Corduroy, if you follow the lyrics while listening you’ll see why I put this on the playlist. 

Paranoid Eyes by Pink Floyd - You believed in their stories of fame, fortune and glory / Now you're lost in a haze of alcohol soft middle age / The pie in the sky turned out to be miles too high / And you hide, hide, hide / Behind brown and mild eyes

The Thin Ice by Pink Floyd - Again, Jackie. And again, just pay attention to the lyrics. 

Stargazer by Rainbow - I will be completely honest with you, I chose this mostly for the title. The song is kind of a stretch, but if you look at the lyrics a certain way, the wizard is kind of Hyde. Anyway, I kept it on the list for the chorus(es): Where is your star? / Is it far, is it far, is it far? / When do we leave? / I believe, yes, I believe

Still I’m Sad by Ritchie Blackmore’s Rainbow - See the stars come fallin down the sky / Gently passing, they kiss your tear drops dry / See the wind come, softly blow / Your hair from your face --- For myself my tears just fall in the dust / As I search in the night and find they're lost / See the wind come gently blow / Time into my heart / And the rain comes falling down / While were apart / Still I'm sad

Unspoken by The Dead Daisies - Mostly because the lyrics fit, also there is a Degenerate Matter song with this same title --- In the oneness now you realize / Lost your compass and I sympathize / In the darkness now you fade to grey / In the stillness you will make your way / Oh, I can hear you breathe / Unspoken, you gotta let go / Unspoken, you're out in the glow / Unbroken, you let it all flow

Like No Other (Bassline) by The Dead Daisies - Don't breathe in the air on the dark side / It's a lie, you will go insane / You fall down, down deep in the landslide / Who am I, who am I? / You lose your head in the music / Move up and kiss the sky / You slip away and refuse it / Do or die, do or die

Come Alive by The Dead Daisies - Come alive / You can start over / Now take me by the hand and come alive / Gotta break your malady / You got to live your life free / So come alive

Resurrected by The Dead Daisies - Stare in the mirror, lines on my face, yeah / I wonder where the time has gone / It's been a long hard road out from the grave / But I keep a moving on / I been up, down, turned around / Kicked hard to the ground / Keep a coming back again / From the ashes, from the flame / I'm here to light the fire again / I'm back, resurrected

Paranoid by Black Sabbath - Sadly, this is yet another Jackie song. --- I need someone to show me / The things in life that I can't find / I can't see the things that make / True happiness, I must be blindMake a joke and I will sigh / And you will laugh and I will cry / Happiness I cannot feel / And love to me is so unreal

If you have questions about the songs or don't get why I put them on, feel free to ask!