#i am going to keep an eye out for that

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

i just started a new puzzle magazine this afternoon of 'suguru' something i hadn't tried before

i'm 25% of the way done with this

i've done almost 40 puzzles this afternoon/evening

would recommend suguru

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

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[deiiamorte]

After Rook comes back from the fade, I need him and Viago to have a single moment together in which their walls are completely down.

They're too goddamn tired to snark and bicker; too relieved to imply anything other than, "I thought I'd never see you again." I need them to hug. I need Viago's fingers to dig into his fledgeling's shoulder and ribs so tightly that one might think he's trying to crush Rook's body into his own. Meanwhile, I need Rook to cling onto his brother's Talon's body with his face hidden in Viago's shoulder as if he's still the broken and bloody child Viago found all those years ago.

[catboythanatos]

bro how is there 7k words in this document already NOTHING HAS HAPPENED

+ i decided to address the "stone having an iq thats one point higher than robotnik's" detail bc i think its very funny

[whirlpool-blogs]

“Nice suit, bro.”

[kristalijah]

HE'S CHECKING OUT GARY!!!! I REPEAT, HE'S CHECKING OUT GARY!!!!

[zkretchy]

It's 2am and I can't sleep, have this silly doodle

[ephemeralgalaxies]

no no don't talk to me. you're telling me that Blitz and Stolas both have pictures with the other of themselves smiling while the other doesn't? and those are the ones they each keep? you're telling me there is a tangible representation of their different perspectives of their relationship???

Stolas' pictures including a conscious Blitz looking away from the camera and Stolas. Blitz's picture including an unconscious Stolas cuddled up next to him. Because Stolas believes them on equal footing/the same page about what their dynamic is with Blitz just hating every minute of it and Stolas. Because Blitz believes they're on different levels entirely and that the only way he can be content is when the rest of the world (and Stolas specifically) live on without him.

Because Stolas and Blitz are both terrified of being/dying alone, but while Stolas would sacrifice his love for Blitz, Blitz doesn't believe his own love is worth anything to begin with.

[gingermintpepper]

Obsessed with the way Evadne's relationship with Apollo is described. Obsessed with the way Apollo was especially gentle with her because she was sheltered, hidden away and hadn't had any sort of experience with love prior to Apollo (and due to it being described as her 'first learning Aphrodite's joy' through Apollo', it was probably her first time even being attracted to someone). Obsessed with the way when she runs away, she stops in a violet patch to give birth. Y'know, violets, very famously the flower so strongly associated with Aphrodite that they were used in love potions? Those violets. Obsessed with the way that when Apollo realised his lover was going to have to deliver their child alone, he sent BOTH the goddess of childbirth and ALL THREE OF THE FATES to help and support her. Obsessed with the way that Apollo sends snakes to feed his baby honey straight from their fangs because Evadne abandons their son out of straight primal fear when her stepfather finds her and how the description of that honey is 'sweet venom' [ἰός] of the bees and is DEFINITELY a poetic pair/pun with [ἴον] aka violets and that every single thing about this relationship, conception and birth is a complete and utter fairytale down to Evadne's insanely overprotective stepfather having an immediate change of heart when he learned Evadne's child was an actual, legitimate Son of Apollo and the babe, after being cared for by his dad's honey-fanged snake buddies, was found perfectly healthy five days later swaddled in a blanket of violets (y'know the flowers so strongly associated with Aphrodite that they were used for lo-) and they called him Iamus aka Boy of the Violets which is AAAAAARRRR I AM GNAWING AT MY ENCLOSURE

Iamus was made of love. Everything about him was surrounded by deep and profound love and like, let's not even talk about his whole Thing of when he came of age and was like "I need to find out what my purpose is" and he literally had a Disney Protagonist moment where he ran out into the wilds and was like "Father!! Grandfather!! Tell me what I'm supposed to doooo!!" and then APOLLO FUCKING ANSWERED AND LED HIM TO ONE HIS TEMPLES ENTIRELY BY TALKING WITH IAMUS AND LETTING HIM FOLLOW HIS VOICE FOR THE WHOLE JOURNEY LIKE -

What do y'all know about the kind of SSS tier romantic escapades Apollo had fr?

[satosray]

I do not think people actually realize how plagiarism works in fandoms or in gen and i will stand by that. The general consensus is that if a headcanons goes far out of your reach and almost everyone is talking about it adding to it it, it is not your patterned bs. and when i said basic, i meant what i meant, you are thinking about the most ideal man that almost everyone is thinking about, and then you are saying omg how dare you say he is obsessed with you, that is my thing. If i made some original claim let's say, and someone saw that and spitballed it and everything i would not be going around saying thief. that would be dumb. no literature is free from "stealing" let's say. and i am saying "stealing" because that is all how these people will understand what inspiration, allusions, thematic influence is and never bother to know it works.

please credit artists yes, painters, writers, graphic designers alike when you are using their works—what i am saying is that it is simply dumb to sit there and shade people and then send army of people to harass someone because you think they stole something when that is not the case.

[rustyrailways]

This might be an odd detail to fixate on but one of my favourite Jayce features are his eyelids, and I feel like they aren't super talked about? When I first started drawing him his eyes were the hardest part to get down (second being his jaw due to how square it is) and I can't tell you how long I spent looking at them as references or studies, eventually there became something so endearing about them.

I love how they always have an element of softness regardless of how beaten down he is. I think it's the way the lid fold tilts slightly downwards to cover his upper eyelid slightly which gives the illusion it's ever so slightly curved or drooped at times. You also can see the shadow where it begins to tilt up again to the corner of his eyebrows, especially in contrast to his previously mentioned upper eyelid which is much more creased with causes a more noticeable contrast. Softer curves around the eye tend to be percieved as more gentle looking as opposed to harsher curves which come across as more intense.

I'm not always too great nor confident with verbal descriptions but if I pull out my cobbled together "eye board for when I'm too lazy to look up a reference" page I put together I (hopefully) might be able to verbalize it better:

^(Latest edition. Now with photos from s2)

These are probably my favourite examples that highlight it. The gentle curve it causes creates a much softer look that absolutely contributes to how doe-like his eyes are. In addition, the permanent crease it causes at the side of his eyes give them an overall more gentle appearance (as upwards titled creases tend to do - often reminiscent of eye crinkles which are associated with people that smile often). Not to mention the extra creases add further visual interest on a purely interesting character design level.

The eye crease in itself, along with his permanent eye bags are other features I unreasonably adore - but I think I might make a seperate post about them. This might be a bit of a curious thing to be thinking about but just I love how much more life it gives him and how kind it makes them look, I always catch myself looking at them :)

Tldr: I love how gentle his eyes are and I need to stare at them for hours memorising every detail and squeeze his head like a watermelon between thighs

[pilindiel]

If you're anywhere in my friend circle, you know I haven't SHUT UP about @sararaasch's Go Luck Yourself since I finished it earlier this week!

As happens with all my obsessions, I have created a 3+ hour playlist for all your reading and fantasizing needs, including songs featured in the book itself. ENJOY!

[ulteri0rm0tives]

....and if I said I wanted Johnny and Kerry in the messiest divorce arc since Paul McCartney and John Lennon.. what then...

[alukaforyou]

im trying to draw a desktop bg for my new imac uhh 💀🔫

it verrrrry very vaguely reminds me of an old hanbok girl drawing i made

i should draw it like that, add the pink flowers because f it i love pink flowers?? and put a MOON in there too cuz i love da moon 😍🌙💖 like the theme of the pic can be "all the stuff im obsessed with" what the hell maybe creamy & crunchy should be there as well 💀 PEAK DESKTOP BG FOR ME 👍🏻 and we all kno i am all about hanboks in this shape from late joseon era 19c

the itty bitty crop top and the super high up skirt 👌🏻 but im getting into the looser boxy tops too from earlier like 16-17c?? artist cred for the illust

ooh waist skirt + loose top yeah its growing on me 😳 also i have this hanbok and im like in love with the bigger sleeves sooo 😭💖 IM IN MY BIG SLEEVES ERA

also the ladies from 16-18c with the. big wigs 😭 ouch neck. older kr dramas loooved to put royalty charas in these huge wigs omg i always thought it looked kind of unnatural with how neat and even it was 😭

no way ur relaxing at the palace home with that on ur head 😩 neck problems speedrun???? the only show i've seen this look good in was the saimdang drama it looks rly pretty and not over the top here v believable v natural 👍🏻

i feel like if i lived in kr my dream job would be a stylist for period dramas / movies or for when ppl do hanbok traditional wear for weddings / photos etc i literally can make this hairstyle irl plzz ㅠㅠ i am qualified looooooolll

[organised-disaster]

I have discovered Ambessa Medarda for the first time

Here's a silly video I made