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My jewish community, friends, rabbi, and educators: We are very invested in helping you be jewish. Do you want to help read the haftarah? Here's a chanukiah! You can have it!! Borrow these books! Here's some books! You need more books... Come to pesach! Come to the chanukah party! When are your classes done? We need a minyan for once!
Me and my 50000 IQ: What if I am Secretly Appropriating judaism? What if I am doing a Cultural Appropriation........
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#there comes a point where your concerns about if you are an Appropriative Cultural Appropriator hinders your jewish journey#i think a comforting thing is knowing that my incessant fear about this is confirmation that i love judaism#i love it with my heart and soul and (i feel) i'd be a less realized person without it#and i think people who genuinely engage in cultural appropriation just Do Not Care about the cultures they appropriate from#they don't love the culture enough to respect it and that is a big reason that it even IS appropriation#especially when jewish people are INVITING you to do things... it's not appropriation#i dunno last night i was feeling very anxious about lighting the chanukiah candles because i'm alone#but i've also lit shabbos candles. and it's just like... why would i choose not to engage in this when one day i will have to?#this time next year i will have to light candles. as a jew. and if i have no clue how to do it myself then i'll just avoid it#plus... i love my chanukiah and i want to use it. it is currently decorating my room because i love it#i hope they'll let me take pictures of all the chanukiah that'll be at the party#i'm sure they will because they're very open and they are very accommodating. in fact i'm bringing my clarinet too#i haven't touched that thing in well over four years 😭#but jewish music without a clarinet is like a body with no soul. it's impossible. it is not what g-d wants i think.#i just hope my ability to play by ear hasn't been affected by my lack of playing. i don't have perfect pitch tbc#but i fully believe you can know your instrument so well that you develop an ear for perfect pitch#in fact... i refused to memorize my marching band music because i DID develop that 'perfect pitch' ear. that's my dirty secret#i didn't practice in part because i can't have a space where noone could hear me practice and it's embarrassing and private to me#literally EVERY jew in my life has been almost TOO ecstatic about my jewish journey. i'm very thankful for it#i guess i just didn't think i deserved to have people as happy about me being in judaism as i am#so to be clear this is my brain being rude and dumb. this anxiety has NEVER been reinforced by anyone but myself#so i take full responsibility for it. but i think that anxiety is something many/most converts/jews-in-progress feel
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today i remembered sonic style miku. one thing led to another and now ive drawn a shadow style teto. really hope tumblr doesnt fuck up the quality, i spent so much time on this shit 😭
* REBLOGS >>> LIKES!! if you like my art please feel free to reblog so more people see it :^)
#sth#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#kasane teto#art#my art.#when i find my computer charger i might make a teto cover of i am all of me#and then use this drawing for the video#new way to fill empty space without a background: director’s commentary#oh yeah did i tell any of you im currently knee-deep in a sonic obsession#i have another new blorbo and everything. can you take a wild guess who it is
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chuuyas diary, 2017
#i had a vision#when the wan anime released i remember on fukuzawas phone the year was 2021 and that was when it came out so.#i am just going to guess bsd takes place in whatever year it currently is at any given time#bungou stray dogs#bsd#soukoku#worlds worst art museum#again sorry for the weeb shit. its going to get worse
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the cdc now recommends you take an ibuprofen and walk it off, advice you could also get from literally any dad ever
#text#or from james (my old pediatrician)! i hope he develops endometriosis (or whatevers wrong with me. thats my current guess)#'you can take a third ibuprofen if you really need' do you think i havent tried that‚ james. do you think i am stupid#See now i go to my parents for med advice And i have a whole system for it#i ask my mother when i want actual like information thats probably on the bottle but im not reading all that#or about like interactions btwn meds#and i ask my dad when i want to know like . if i have more than the actual dose is that chill or will my tummy hurt#LIke he's my medical malpractice guy basically. he does it for free unlike james
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cora’s bad time hell simulation steps or how to play “sprite station for girl” “harvest moon ds cute” the wrong way
(all ways are wrong this game is Accursed)
ok so here’s what my disorganized “guide” to myself for harvest moon ds for girl (aka indecipherable notes i wrote to myself as i played and revised as i tested various things and restarted due to mistakes) looks like. at some point when i become a real gamer i will write a legible guide meant for eyes to look at but uhhh this is how i play this accursed game personally
i’m not sure if anything i wrote will make any sense since i wrote it as notes to myself so probably definitely use fogu and fc2 jonason wiki (may not work but some pages should be archived) instead
ALSO if you’ve never played or barely played the game it won’t make sense at all! hmds was my first harvest moon so i am used to various horrors!
my play style is probably not fun in general HOWEVER if you are a grinding hell goblin like me then it’s GREAT!!!! if not you may still find it amusing that the game gives you permission to play like this
(it’s a great background task game while doing like productive stuff but otherwise playing this way would probably be unbearable)
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anyway after that the days go a lot faster, you’ll get the island on summer 1, so on spring 30 i put all my money into million G tickets and sell 200 of em, do the 5x money thing, and save the rest. so when thomas comes the next day to sell you the 900 million G island you can just sell 180 tickets and do the 5x money thing again with like ~600 million G tickets left over. it takes up inventory but you’ll get the shelf in a few days. basically you just need to remember to order from the TV shopping every saturday and place orders with gotz and gray whenever they finish stuff.
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after unlocking the fuckass hot spring sprites (the ones that require you to spend a total of 700 1 hour sessions in the hot springs) i usually grind grazing points— if you put your animals outside for 5 hours you get a “Love Point”, but if you interact with them after they earn that LP then the timer switches over and you can get another LP after 5 more hours. if you wear the time ring the whole time it’s 2.5 hours. i’m not very good at explaining this but basically if you’re super efficient you can get way more animal LP than you realistically should, which is great because the touch glove petting minigame is Bad!!!!
i usually wait on getting the rest of the purple sprites (the ones that require you to hire the purple team and ask for healing) until i’m totally done with the indigo team, cuz i wanna get HG’s purple heart event asap, but you can switch the order if you want
by summer y1 you’ll basically have a feel for everything. aside from Skye, Leia, HG and WP everyone can be married early-mid autumn if you want
if you want to Gay (in the japanese version only) keira is the quickest to marry. leia is the quickest to max affection but it’s impossible to get leia year 1 because the bottle you need to fish up can only be caught in spring. you have to wait until at least year 5 for WP and iirc year 6 for HG.
#i’m really sorry i can’t make this more organized#if i literally ever have time i’ll just make a video guide instead of pasting this because it’s easier to explain with visuals….#i can’t Write in an organized way i can only Visual Medium#i have a very complicated relationship with corobuckle station for girl#it scratches my brain#(derogatory)#(positive)#i have no idea how many hours of HMDS i’ve played in my life but it’s definitely the game i’ve played the most of all time#i’ll just paraphrase something i read on a japanese wiki for hmds/koroste a long time ago:#’i once again feel that the effort required for the completion of the task is unreasonable’#god i really hope ds gets a remake so all of the titles you can get in the mailbox become steam achievements#bokumono#if people find out there are achievements that take at minimum real life decades to complete with basically no reward#gamers will lose their minds and society will collapse#‘trying to accomplish it is like trying to collect a sparrow’s tears#so at some point it may be inevitable that you have to give up trying’#i really think the devs saw the ds could handle higher values than gba and went insane without considering balance at all#currently i’m trying to record as many cutscenes as i can in the jp version since y’know. english translation is very awkward#i am also trying to see if the pastor carter/cardi marriage option exists in the english version of cute#i will update so stay tuned for that if you want sex on the phone with pastor cardi b. i guess
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Here’s just a little nordegrim WIP I’m working on
Edit: Finished piece
#started it today#letting you know also the prompts and stuff for nordegrim week will be out soon I just need to finish getting the post ready#this may or may not get posted for one of the days I haven’t decided yet#there will obviously be some changes made from this sketch to the final#I know it’s not WIP Wednesday yet but idc I just wanna share this sketch that is currently filling me with joy as I work on it#god I love them sm#also take a guess as to which song inspired it (hint: I posted about it last night at 3 am)#scott pilgrim#young neil#neil nordegraf#stacey pilgrim#nordegrim#emily shares some wips :]
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historically accurate trip to clifton's cafeteria!!!
[progress shots under the readmore]
#em draws stuff#SEND HIS ASS TO THE CLIFTON’S CAFETERIA!#I have been working on this image for More Than A Week and I feel like it has taken years off my life :]#look sometimes you get possessed by enthusiasm about fun comics you read and also nostalgia for bizarre novelty restaurants#due to the fact that clifton's no longer exists I cannot go there. but I can send the blorbos there by force if I so choose.#there's just something about old southern california restaurants with strange gimmicks and themes. take me away to there.#since I am very proud of this I will be using the full proper tags just this one single time [lying through my teeth]#swapping my usual format so there’s not just an absolute deluge of organizational stuff right off the bat#I think I said that the madness would probably go away soon but as you see that has not been the case (it's only gotten worse)#this is the most people I’ve put in a picture since I don’t know when#actually after a quick look-see through my files this might very well be the most people I’ve put in a picture Ever#the madness will do that to ya I guess. also the sheer raw clifton’s energy.#(altho' I got so tired in the end that about half the background is a very crunchy photo of The Real Clifton's...)#this is why my header is what it currently is and also why I posted that horrid 70s jello drink a week ago#many thanks are owed to jon dxppercxdxver for chatting with me about outfits and drink orders and such!#this is fanart for the weirder forefather of a rainforest cafe just as much as it is fanart for a videojame#I do not know what the typical tagging etiquette for this is but by golly I'm going to guess#clifton's cafeteria#team fortress 2#spy tf2#engineer tf2#soldier tf2#sniper tf2#demoman tf2#medic tf2#heavy tf2#pyro tf2#miss pauling#scout tf2#why yes I am tagging clifton's Like It Is The Piece of Media. what of it.
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ok i know u r all DYING to hear abt my topic for my 60 pg paper basically i had originally wanted to write abt creating a separate standard for women who have been abused killing their husbands other than self defense bc self defense has an imminence requirement that leads many women to be convicted of first degree murder for killing their abusive husbands. but someone in my journal wrote that last yr and even tho i could make a different argument i just felt like there was no way i wasn’t going to be preempted so i was like ok nvm. and there was a whole bunch of other ideas i came up w that were also preempted. but anyway i was really upset abt the first one being preempted but it came to me like a vision that i could write abt postpartum psychosis instead which is a somewhat similar issue in that the law doesn’t consider it bc it is an issue specific to women which leads to women being convicted of first degree murder & even getting the death penalty for killing their children while suffering from that. so i am going to write abt creating a specific standard for that other than the insanity defense which isn’t good enough and no one in my journal has ever written abt that & i haven’t seen any other articles written that make the exact argument i want to make so we are good 👍
#michelle speaks#ONLY problem that could arise is if someone wrote abt it last semester bc i can’t see what ppl wrote abt last semester. so if someone did#i’m just killing myself & dropping out of law school. in that order.#the only reason i could see someone having written abt that is bc there is a current case that has gotten media attention abt a woman who#had postpartum psychosis & killed her kids where the trial is like happening soon or it happened last yr i can’t remember at the moment#by happened last yr i mean the incident took place last yr not the case. bc the case prob isn’t happening this yr if so#that wasn’t why i thought of it but i know that case exists so someone might have written abt it bc of that. but i hope not 😭 bc as i said#i will simply have to kill myself bc i cannot take it anymore. i would like to write this paper on this topic pls 🤲#edit: i checked her trial is set for dec 2025 and she had her arraignment in feb hold on idk if it was 2023 or 2024 😭#ok the incident took place in 2023 so yeah. idk if it was feb i didn’t see what i say before when i checked again goes to show how much#i forget in literally 10 secs. the adhd short term memory loss is insane 😭#i guess it’s not THAT much current in the news that someone would have def seen abt it & written abt it ykwim. it’s a possibility tho#or someone might have just been like oh i want to write abt that for whatever reason. i hope not but yeah 😭#but anyway her lawyers r arguing the insanity defense so actually a great way to open my paper in the intro. bc every article on it i have#read has opened talking abt the andrea yang case from the late 90s so at least i will have a more modern example#which will set my paper apart from the others a little bit. bc it is very much abt setting urself abt 😩#APART. i cannot read or write or type or think or exist i SWEARRRRRR#i say that after i just wrote like a million words in these tags. doesn’t mean i am smart or competent tho! just means i can say so much 😔
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#take a wild guess about what life i am currently trying to level up to god rank#fantasy life#fantasy life 3ds#videogames#fishing#angler#nintendo ds#nintendo#level 5#evia's posts
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So many people followed me for that iwtv fanart I did and I feel bad bc the only thing that I want to draw in the foreseeable future is doctor who fanart but only of the parts of it that are no longer relevant to whatever is going on with the show currently
#No shade to the current doctor who i haven't watched it yet it might take me years to get there.#I am still. Technically. Going through the eleventh doctor's run. Trying to.#Except not really because my current focus on doctor who media is mostly edgy books from the nineties to the early 2000's...#And occasional serials from the classic show.(Mostly 80's)#You know. When i first got into doctor who there was nothing that would make me guess that i would ever care about said edgy books#But i look deep within myself and i know that it makes perfect sense. Its deeply in-character for me.#These books are my hole they were made for me.#Anyways. Next up: more doctor who fanart (silly) or more doctor who fanart (creepy and wet)#Which one depends on whether i first finish some seventh doctor doodles or some comic pages of a scene from an eighth doctor book
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Wait wait wait you just watched Marry My Dead Body?!?? I need to commiserate then holy shit. I watched it yesterday because I was travelling and also figured it be a fun goofy film to watch while stuck in transit for hours and then suddenly it was over and I was sitting there in goddamn TEARS. I WAS NOT EXPECTING IT TO BE SO EMOTIONAL. IT MADE ME LAUGH AND THEN ALSO STABBED ME IN THE HEART. I feel like it played me for a fool, but in the best possible way. What a good ride it is :’)
OH MY GOD SAME.
Well, except I was at home and went: "I'll watch this before going to bed, I'm sure it'll be a fun time" and, I mean, it WAS but it also wasn't. Like, after I finished it I just sat there, not knowing how to contain all the emotions I was experiencing. How the fuck was I supposed to sleep after something like that?
I genuinely had no idea what to do with myself (I still kind of don't tbh). I did NOT expect to cry as much as I did. Quite a few things can make me cry but this just hit me right where it hurts. And I didn't expect it, in any way, shape, or form. I was completely unprepared.
It was supposed to be a silly comedy!
But, like, for real? The "my husband" moment? You should have HEARD the fucking noise I made. It was guttural. I was fucking obliterated.
(and oh man, I so desperately want to make people feel that way with my writing. I am so, so inspired!)
Long story short, I'm emotionally compromised and I have absolutely no regrets. I just love, love, love becoming this invested in a story and I'm still neck-deep in feels. It's been two days already but my thoughts just keep returning to this movie, time and time again.
So I'm guessing I'm going to rewatch it in a day or two x'D
#Amethystina Replies#wolfandrain#Marry My Dead Body#This won't be something I write a fanfic for tho#I don't have anything to add#Like I genuinely can't think of anything to write because I'm afraid of ruining my current feelings for this movie#I want to leave it just the way it is#So I guess I'll have to find and outlet somewhere else#And considering the level of emotion I'm itching to convey?#Time to get back to Who Holds the Devil I guess#Since that's the only story I have right now which is intense enough#I am going to wreck some shit up#Which was planned all along by the way#I usually take a break after a big emotional climax#But I actually did the opposite this time#I paused because I needed to brace myself for what's to come x'D#So I apologise in advance I guess#This will hurt
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Never.
#ffxiv#emet selch#have currently put myself in a weird place emotionally with my ffxiv pawns in dd2#i am still not over this man?????#help ?????#so taking a minor break from dd2 ng+ to do EW ng+ i guess 😭
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im so glad this is my last day of work for the week and i have monday off
this week has been ROUGH
#trying to muster up enough energy and focus to finish my current project#which isn't even that bad but i am so tired#on top of the stuff with ares#who is doing much better but is still not 100%#(plus he needs multiple meds 2x a day & absolutely hates it & im decent at administering them but my hands are so torn up)#husbando has been having a hard time getting his adhd and anti-depressant meds#like his doctor just.... didnt feel like putting in the prescription i guess#and when she finally did he was already on like day 3 of cold turkey withdrawals#and then we find out it's gonna take another two days bc the pills have to come from florida??????#what??????#but hes been a wreck the past few days and his sleep schedule is all out of whack which messes up mine#we all need a break over here is what im getting at#t: wench.txt
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I have to be honest, I hate the “Eddie has so much sex with women, we don’t see him having any problems with it so he CAN’T be gay.”
Like, it took me YEARS to realize that the way I was feeling about sex wasn’t normal, that you weren’t supposed to feel empty & cold & a little gross after sex, when the high of an orgasm wears off. Even when I didn’t really want to have sex, I still did it, bc that’s what was expected of me & I thought it was normal. I had a whole “slut phase” on my late teens-early 20’s, & thought that the way I was feeling was normal. I didn’t stumble onto the word “demisexual” until I was like, 25 years old & had already decided that I was just broken, somehow.
Granted, I am a woman, so the experiences might not be exactly the same, and I obviously don’t know what direction they’ll go with Eddie’s sexuality, but I think for a lot of people that discover their queerness later in life, you don’t even realize that what you’re feeling is wrong or that there may be another way to feel until something happens & you can’t really ignore it anymore.
Idk, sexuality is really confusing & I feel like it’s going to be that much harder for Eddie, considering the way he grew up & his predilection to repression. He could be literally anything.
#911 abc#eddie diaz#I truly believe that Eddie is gay but that’s not really the point of this post#sexuality#911 speculation#I guess it’s spec idk.#am I projecting onto Eddie? maybe idk#also I feel like we’ve never seen Eddie have sex just bc he enjoys having sex like Buck (the other bi character) does#like with Shannon it was mostly about avoiding talking or making their family whole again#we never really actually saw anything with Ana other than a kiss & her comment in the suit shop before he had a panic attack#I think the closest we had is with Marisol but I’m having a hard time taking their relationship seriously#given that she STILL doesn’t have a last name & Eddie moved her right back out & is currently cheating on her… so…#911 discourse#<< idk that this is really discourse or not but I’m going to tag it anyway just to be safe#BSS rambles about her sexuality on main oops lol
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I got an email from my grandpa today and all the draft responses I’ve been working on in my head sound like an 18th century letter that’s going to have to travel for months to reach him.
pandemic year 5 really has me feeling like me and a very small handful of people I know are living on an entirely different plane of existence than everyone else
#like I haven’t seen him in over a year. I’ve seen him 3 times since 2020#so I guess on the isolation and slow communication front it’s pretty similar#he used my chosen name. I haven’t changed my email yet but he used my chosen name#I don’t even care at this point if he never gets my pronouns right#I thought I’d never be able to tell him. I didn’t want to find out his politics were more important#he’s quiet and kind and he gives people expensive gifts any time he can afford it but he constantly forgets people’s allergies#so he might get you something you can’t have but whoever you pass it along to will love it#he cries at weddings and during church services and sometimes random holidays#he passes out in his rocking chair at every family function#he’s the unofficial photographer of every gathering ever since my great grandfather stopped being able to walk as much as the job requires#and he voted for trump in 2016 and has afaik an active nra membership#he once complimented my outfit by telling me he’d call me a stud if I was a guy#which like. ok. I have some notes#but uh. thanks?#idk I’m just. it sucks being so far away from everyone and everything because the rest of the world is ignoring an ongoing pandemic#I’m missing so much of my life and others lives and even parts of my own transition#I can make steps to reach out but it only goes so far if poeple#are unwilling to mask or vaccinate or even just ask what needs to happen to make it safe#so I don’t. idk. kill my partner#or become even more disabled than I currently am#my family’s been making steps and they’re taking me seriously but it’s all so slow and I’m still sore from bracing for rejection#I’ve been bracing for rejection for so so long it’s terrifying to reach out. about anything#this is not condusive to a healthy relationship lol#not sure what to do other than bonk myself on the head and say ‘get better’ tho#*bonk* ‘try again’#one step at a time ig#ahshitherewegoagain.jpg#.txt
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Started AFK Arena, got Eugene as my first Legendary, liked his design but was worried I might not like his story bc I haven't yet read many of them and it didn't seem like a story/event heavy game, finally gave in 3 days later Anyhow order of operations: -love it, joke around why there isn't a series about it -no there actually is a comic and other ones too -read them all -actually go back to read Gavus and the kids stories as well -learn you basically JUST missed all them being introduced like 4 months ago -hide your pain by consuming everything NOW -it's 7 am i haven't slept since yesterday where am i
#txts#afk arena#halp#yes i am currently scrolling through tumblr#i LITERALLY at one point during the labyrinth went#'huh Eugene and that angel looking dude seem to work nicely together-wonder why' BEFORE I LEARNED#truly amazing#so far everything was just 'huh if x is the case' AND IT IS#10/10 need more#i wanna both hug them. shake them by their shoulders. chew on them and also just let them live their best lives however they wish#same with the kids but i am way less feral about them-i am counting them in as my babies as well#with every new piece of info i got worried that things might turn out bad or tragic#the relief when i read through all oH GOD#precious little weapons of mass destruction#i-will probably take a nap now#and try for more coherent thoughts another time#i also got like 5 packages arriving anytime between 10am and 10pm which is just....totally great#other fun fact: literally looked at Eugene and Lucilla design wise and put them down mentally as my favs#which considering the everything: yeAH I GUESS IT MAKES SENSE HUH#good genes
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