#i am NOT articulate enough for this but it is a thought i am having

[brynnmclean]

Okay, I will say that I think the show de-emphasizing the sheer level of "we want Ciri for her bloodline" in the Witcher books in favor of, idk, everyone being either like "she belongs at my side" (fuck off, Emhyr) or "I can train her on how to use her exceptional power" feels like it is maybe a little bit missing the STRONG Pro-Choice point.

[vampmoneys]

something about the black parade almost destroying the band and the members’ lives, it going on to change countless people’s lives and inspire hope for a generation, them performing it for the first time in 17 years in the most stunning, raw display of the album’s power, with the same passion and honesty behind the music as always, the message resonating in all the same layered heavy-hitting ways as well as fresh nuanced ways with countless fans old and new alike…something something beauty coming from pain, something something rebirth and hope something something never let them take you alive…

[rosekasa]

creating for a fandom from teenage years to adulthood is so special because you can see where your subconscious was through the history of your works

[hirakiyois]

don't touch me. don't talk to me. don't look at me. don't perceive me. don't regard me. don't. just don't.

[thecraftgremlin]

Somebody smarter than me should write an analysis about Falin’s role in the narrative as literally both the Damsel and the Dragon.

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

honestly it's been really healing being back to actively contributing things and writing out thoughts on tumblr the last week or so, because while twitter tends to be easier for me to write out Thoughts on without getting overwhelmed, the environment in the twitter fandom circles i'm interested in is not only infested with antis but cliqueish in a way that is caustic to the fucking soul if you try to express a thought that's more than three sentences long--a hundred times over if you're autistic in slightly the wrong way--and it's incredibly reassuring to come back to an environment where the very kindest and most inclusive people toward you are not clearly thinking the r-slur the entire time they interact with you lmao

[copia]

mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted from my first ever listen of telomeres

[pencap]

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[zeb-z]

“Even if it’s not my fault, it’s still my accident, it’s still my mess. It’s still something that - exists, because I do” oh. and he just doesn’t know another way to help, either, because all his life has been screwing up without helpful direction in order to meet impossible standards, and so there is no other way than to bleed himself dry. for the cause, for a friend in need, for anyone he doesn’t know. especially for the problems that he himself creates, because to him his pure existence has always been the problem, because the elders were fucked as hell and traumatized him to no end - so even causing problems is a sin. a single mistake is a sin. it always has been. and it’s rough trying to learn anything other than that mindset - but Jay and Chip won’t let him struggle alone.

and it’s like - that’s what comes with being raised the way he was. punished for imperfection, but there’s no guidebook, no definition of perfect. and so perfect is never good enough anyway. it’s a trap and there is no winning, so there’s nothing else to do but take the blame and bear it, and internalize it. and it makes actual failure and actual mistakes that much more painful. of course responsibility needs to be taken for your actions - but when you’ve been taking responsibility for everything, up to and including the literal fate of the world, all of your life, every outcome is your fault. and guilt only builds, and resentment only festers. of course he hates the elders for how they treated him. of course he hates himself.

he’s grabbing his own destiny and making his own choices - but the thing about making your own choices is that there are so many of them. there’s no destiny to blame anymore. and all you can do is the best you can. and it’s not always going to be good enough. he’s learned plenty about failure, but with Jay and Chip around, maybe he’ll learn about second chances, and self forgiveness. maybe he’ll learn that accidents aren’t always met with extremes. and that he’s not the only one left to deal with a mess if he slips up and breaks something.

[cerealmonster15]

How many times have I drawn this exact same image,,,,,,,, it’s what my hand defaults to when I got nothin else in my brain 😔✌️ Ft crunchy discord image bc the power flickered and went out seconds after I sent this screenshot to my friend lol

[iguessyouregonnamissthepantyraid]

the avatar series was fine y'all are just haters

[dossei-dossei]

how deal with taidan

[autistic-autumn]

I am so normal about the island being symbolic of a post-colonial state with it's lost culture.

[caterpillarinacave]

omg what did you just notice about the cadair idris battle scene? I'm so curious now

Oh, this is so genuinely deeply underwhelming, but this part of the battle way at the beginning:

I just hadn’t noticed that the automaton stood up as opposed to just sat up between these two moments, presumably in smooth motion:

ei, sat up, grabbed Henry, stood up while keeping hold on him, was standing by the time shit hit the span, presumably less than a second since Charlotte couldn’t bridge the gap.

For certain taking “a step forward” to tear out a silent brothers throat (uhhh RIP Brother Micah you were a walking death flag) requires standing at full height.

Plus logically speaking, to pull off that sort of attack on a 6’4 adult man then physically throwing his body is most logical if the automaton stands up. 

I specifically never processed the “took a step forward line” which a) gives means I evidently have the reading comprehension skills of a kindergartner and b) gave me an instant internal crisis.

 TLDR: when the automaton “sat up” it stood up, which makes complete sense, doesn’t really change anything, and I didn’t notice. 

[orchideius]

genuinely, when will it end??? I am so tired of being here and I am not sure how much longer I can push myself to keep going. i’m exhausted.

[stiinkysocks]

i've been frequently told i have no identifiable gender by my peers and in passing, people on the street a couple times have said to the person next to them "is that a girl or a boy?"

i've been frequently called an "it" and a "thing" which should realistically upset me since by most it would be considered dehumanising [although not all of the time on purpose, mostly out of pure confusion as far as i can tell] but i am not offended by it at all, in fact i do not mind it [even though i do have a definite gender] since i already feel so alien to my peers, straining my face and voice and muscles and thoughts putting on a human suit every day in order to fit in, which does not work very well at the end of the day

it does not come naturally to me at all

I have to contort myself into unnatural shapes

all that said, i do [and don't] like the idea of being seen in that sort of way, strange and ambiguous but at the same time it is lonely, at the same time, i want to be able to bring up casual conversation like every body else can without it being forced, even though it is so banal. i want there to not an awkward air after every thing i say that even i notice , i want to be able to let out noises that occur in my speech naturally, and flap my hands and rock in my chair and assume my natural posture without every single person trying to get away from me. at the same time i prefer to be alone, because that is when i can truly be myself, by myself i can unzip the disguise i have made for myself

maybe it is more that i yearn for someone i can truly and completely unmask with, other than myself. even with my closest friends i do not do this with [hello]

where we do not even have to speak but we can just enjoy each others company in complete comfort, no expectations, just being ourselves

i really do feel like something inhuman approximating and just mimicking when i do talk. but i do it because otherwise i yearn for that type of connection with others without it i will be more jealous of people that have it, with it it is like i am saying "look, look, i can do it as well, i can have friends as well" the absence of this mask is social suicide