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please do yourself a favor and listen to david tennant malvolio reading the fake love letter to him (act 2 scene 5 of twelfth night). im going to actually start sobbing. oh my GOD
#twelfth night#shakespeare#malvolio#david tennant#my edits#ws#DYING AND SCREAMING. SHAKING AND SOBBING#HOW DOES HE MANAGE TO BALANCE HOW FUCKING FUNNY THIS SCENE IS BUT ALSO PLAY IT IN SUCH A WAY#WHERE MY HEART BREAKS SO BADLY FOR HIM AND I AM ALSO SUFFERING THE WORST SECONDHAND EMBARRASSMENT OF MY LIFE#DAVID TENNANT MALVOLIO MY WET BEAST OF ALL TIME MYYYYYYYY PATHETIC LOSER EVERRRRRRRRRRR#I CANT TAKE THE HANDS OFF MY FACE I AM SO EMBARRASSED I FEEL SO FUCKING BAD FOR HIM PLEASE SOMEONE HELP THIS POOR MAN#THE WAY HE TRIPS AND FALLS OVER THE BOXTREE AT THE START AND ITS SOMEHOW DOWNHILL FROM THERE#th production of twelfth night i just watched (mark rylance's version) has malvolio played in such a way#where he's sort of like this doddering old fool that gets easily duped by the prank#here it's like. david really plays into how malvolio thinks he's ALL that he thinks he's soooooo so smart#and that's why he's even falling for it at all#and like this def has more basis in the text cuz maria is like Oh this loser thinks so highly of himself and thinks everyone likes him#this is going to be how my plan works#which is so so mean btw i think this woman has something wrong with her too
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the way you drew kokichi .. i think im ascending to the heavens .. i see the light .. chest collapsing .. heartbeat flatlining ..
oho, a Kokichi enjoyer!! tysm!! it was my first time drawing him at the time so im glad i didnt fail him. i dont want to fail any of the kyoto group. i love them all!! even w my clear favoritism
he's nice too, a bit more expressive than Noritoshi so i can finally draw something that isnt :| or >:( even if it isnt by much- i like him too
I like how he's both a dick but also kinda sweet. He's a different flavor of tsun... i can use this. my knowledge on him is limited but FROM WHAT I SAW IN THE WIKI OH MY GOD???????? OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! KOKICHI!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#muta kokichi#kokichi muta#mechamaru#kokichi muta x reader#mechamaru x reader#? i guess#double post lets go im tryna be as fast as lightning#woah a non noritoshi post... crazy.......#my hands feel tingly and weird#my blog is so yume centric that my one track mind made you a love interest right off the bat#fuck it. everyone's in love w you unless stated otherwise#congrats. youre a harem leader/protag now except i have a strong bias towards one guy unless asked abt someone else#AND I JUST FOUND OUT MORE ABT KOKICHI???? WHY AM I FUCKING CRYING????? DUDE WHAT THE FUCK#OH NO THIS IS NOT CORRECT.. IS THIS WHAT SHIBUYA ARC IS???? DUDE#IM GONNA RIP OUT MY HAIR. THIS CANNOT BE. I CANT FAWN OVER ANOTHER CHARACTER W SO LITTLE SCREEN TIME AND CONTENT GOD PLEASE#HE GIVES SO MANY VIBES..... LIKE FUCKED UP 'i'll sacrifice the world for you' VIBES AND ITS MAKING MY BRAIN KRCHAKKRCHAKKRCHACK#kokichi muta... another hidden gem.... wipes tear#we'll treat you right kokichi... sobs. there there#null rot#cloaked cult member
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when jaewon went to the river where jihyun had previously gone to explore and find himself in the city, and where they had gone together on their first tentative kinda date, and he sat there, at that place of exploration and discovery and figuratively and literally dipped his toes into the water, and all his memories of jihyun came flooding back as he explored the idea of being with him and reacquainted himself with water, something he’s always loved but is also a source of his trauma, and then that perfectly timed text came through and jihyun reaching out to him, jihyun telling him through that song that their future was their decision, that he had control, and that gave him the strength to take that opportunity…
you better believe i lost it
#I have not sobbed while watching a show like I just did watching that scene for so long#bc it’s exactly what I wanted#for jaewon to run to jihyun with all that strength and bravery and just absolutely kiss his face off#and be so absolutely unashamedly joyful about it#god this show is a fucking feast and I am never full#the eighth sense
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guys…what the fuck…
#yelled at the tv turned it off accidentally knocked over a vase and going to bed w terrible anxiety srsly what the fuck#not even american but I am currently sobbing in the corner of my room in the dark at what could be happening right now#idk how your political system works or whatever but can a miracle still happen!?!#I’m exhausted anxious frustrated and fucking dumbfounded as to how that happened#you hate women that much huh but would rather side w a rapist convicted felon homophobe racist and raging misogynist oh okay you’re fucked#us politics#paige talks
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hehehe… coming to a dashboard near you this friday 🥰
#ngl the only time i want damon is when i’m writing him. all other times he lowkey repulses me#i can’t find him hot in the show like genuinely. only in edits completely decontextualized from his twisted ass behavior can he be hot to me#i think i would be more of a fan of his if he wasn’t consistently rewarded by the show bc julie plec wanted to fuck ian#like one thing i love abt klaus is yes he’s an evil piece of shit but he gets what he deserves and worse routinely#he also has a way more compelling story and dynamic w other characters meanwhile damon’s sob story is his 17 y/o brother made him transition#after stefan was turned against his will and damon had already decided to turn for katherine. like… am i supposed to care#if he was so traumatized and so against vampirism why didnt he just. walk into the sun and off himself immediately#why spent 160 years murdering and terrorizing and assaulting young women and girls lmao give me a fucking break#anyway super random ass tangent i just went on my bad#methinks#klaus mikaelson smut#damon salvatore smut
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People jumping ship cause of the new masks is very ahhhh. Telling. Tbh.
#very much so#tell me you where only here cause of the looks without telling me your only here cause of the looks#listen. I miss the old masks already too. that’s not the point.#you can mourn for something without that taking away your joy for it.#‘it’s all moving so fast’ iii has been turning red since July.#‘they’re evolving too fast’ or we just got here later then others.#‘I can’t even listen anymore’ sucks to be you. the music that has been put out hasn’t changed so I don’t understand this one#‘they’re gonna get cancelled over this’ ok. I guess this is just thinning out the people who were real fans and who where fake fans#I’m gonna be a sleep token fan til the end. if this is the way they want their image to go? I’ll follow. if we get heavier music next?#sounds fucking amazing to me. (I listen to heavier stuff anyway).#idk I just think it’s so so so fucking telling. that if your jumping ship cause their Live Performance Aesthetic has changed… you didn’t#mean it when you said sleep token was important to you.#like I’m 100% MOURNING the old masks. I am BMO with Finn’s old hair sobbing about the old masks.#but I know this too shall pass#this is how I fucking felt about Vessel’s mask change#and to everyone going ‘what about Vessel and the Chior!’#1). VESSEL HAD A MASK CHANGE EARLIER THIS YEAR!!! he isn’t gonna change masks again so fast those fuckers r expensive!#2). the choir did have a change?? they wherent wearing robes at all and where in body chains they looked amazing#I get we are all neurodiverse and hate change but take a deep breath before you renounce all your sleep token love#I’m guessing Vessel will get a new mask in April again. for the kick off show.#tonight was a closing show. and he didn’t FEEL GOOD. I wouldn’t be surprised that if he was gonna do something with a new mask#if he pushed it back because he didn’t feel good.#he performed a whole show while we could TELL his throat was hurting. fuck.#I want to wrap him up in a warm hug and give him hot water with honey in it.#idk I’m rambling. it’s just telling.
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AI can never replicate the pure insanity of being so obsessed with a piece of media/character that you start drawing it for several hours straight and lose track of time and hey when did it get dark out-
#Grim rambles#you'll NEVER guess what I did today!!!!!!#I am so so obsessed with my OFF OC and The Batter I literally spent several hours doodling them SOB#I NEED TO BE EUTHANIZED!!!!! /silly#I literally JUST made that OC yesterday and my god.. I have not stopped drawing them#I got their ref sheet sketched out DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW LITTLE I CARE ABOUT MAKING PROPER REFERENCES????#I'VE NEVER DESIGNED AND GOT ATTACHED TO AN OC SO QUICKLY#THIS IS THE MORTIS SITUATION ALL OVER AGAIN!!!#SOON MY OFF OC IS GONNA HAVE OVER 100 IMAGES ON TOYHOUSE AAAA#THEY ALREADY HAVE 5 AND COUNTING#THAT'S NOT INCLUDING WHATEVER DOODLES I HAVEN'T UPLOADED YET#FUCK
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"guys are joking about me and luosty being twins or brothers" "is mikks the big brother in that situation?" "mikksy is the big brother, you know?" confirmed finns are fambily and mikksy lords over as big brother to luosty and lundy and their squabbling sibling ways 😭😭😭
and lundy who NEVER has any qualms about teasing mikksy any chance he gets gives us the biggest lore drop
"[mikksy] is not a morning person so i always make sure to— you probably won't see him smile that much in the morning, you know? but when he gets his coffee he's funny." LUNDY MAKES SURE MIKKSY GETS HIS COFFEE??? HE TAMES THE DREADFUL MORNING BEAST???
BMW Teammate of the Month | 11.30.24 (x)
"but it seems like you're also really close with niko mikkola eetu luostarinen" ROLL THE TAPE. AGAIN.
jameson has also asked a similar question to the "what's a night out with mikksy and luosty?" question before on tt last season!!
"Who would you say, like, calls the shots in that group? So say like you, Eetu, and Niko are going to dinner on the road somewhere. Like, who's making the plans typically?" "Oh, it's probably me or Niko. Luosty doesn't do anything, he just—he just enjoys and..." "He just gets the text and—" "Yeah, he just comes whenever he's supposed to come, and he's happy about it."
Territory Talk | 4.12.24 (x)
and there's something deeply funny about poor suffering lundy who has to toddle after BOTH HIS OLDER TEAMMATES. MAKE MIKKSY TAKE HIS COFFEE IN THE MORNING. AND PLAN OUT THINGS BECAUSE LUOSTY DOESNT WANT TO.
#anton lundell#niko mikkola#eetu luostarinen#florida panthers#2425#SOBBING INTO MY HANDS#MORE CODEPENT FINNS WHO ARE EACH OTHER SECURITY BLANKETS#they get haircuts together and dine together and have magnets in their shirts and must sit w eo and do signings together and spend off days#CRYING THAT OUT OF THE THREE ITS ACTUALLY MIKKSY WHOS THE GRUMBLE MONSTER#the gentle giant must soothed before he bites someone#hey remember that mini mic and he said he likes putting creamer in his coffee?#he is gentled with sweets#it is deeply funny to me is essentially if honey and mori ohshc became a single entity#luosty who probably thinks its fucking hilarious mikksy is a grump versus lundy who has to make sure he ISNT a grump#tweedlee and tweedledum#twins... brothers even...#that facemash video has added nuance now#but also wow you and your friend are being conflated for eo. are codependent. AND have a dubiously homoerotic friendship?#oh... i know how that story goes ive lived through it... i dont like the ending...#the ending is youll still continue to be whipped for them into your 20s and-#well anyways#mikksy is the big brother :(( luostylundy are the twins :((#i did mention ohshc and now i am doomed#FINNS AS FAMBILY#sorry lundy having to do everything around here is soooooo#coffee... outings...#please pray for lundy and his dumb teammates
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These lyrics in the context of being Rick's thoughts on Morty...
I always thought I might be bad, now I'm sure that it's true 'cause, I think you're so good, and I'm nothing like you, look at you go, I just adore ya! I wish that I knew, what makes you think I'm so special?
#*Sobs loudly*#CAN YOU SEE HOW NORMAL I AM ABOUT THEM!?#Alsoooo sad I have to clarify this butttt#I MEAN THIS PLATONICALLY#RICKORTYS FUCK OFF#rick#and#morty#rick sanchez#morty smith#rick and morty#rick c137
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THROWING THIS DOODLE AT YOU WITH AGGRESSIVE AFFECTION!!
Wanted to render it but ran out of time :') BUT PLEASE KNOW!! Your Rat son au is my Roman empire. I think about it at LEAST once a week, like the designs and concepts and characterization and UGH EVERYTHING!! ITS ALL SO GOOD!! AND UR STYLE?? IM FOREVER CONSUMING IT!!! Literally peek nostalgia, comfort, even thru the angst its just so perfect im-
and- and splinter just bring me so much joy. Hes so goofy and soft and I sob every time I see him, imagine getting like the most gentle and affirming hug- I would cry immediately.
AHHHH!! ANYWAY STAY AMAZING ZACH!! :D <33333
TRIONA
TRIONA. TRIONA I AM SHAKING.
OH MY GOD???? LIKE OH???? MY GOD??????? THOSE ARE MY BABY SONS OH MY GOD THEY ARE GORGEOUS AND COZY PERFECT AMAZING I AM FULLY EMOTIONAL
LOOK AT THEM LOOK AT THEMMMMM AHHHHHHHHHH I CANT STOP STARING AT THEM BUT ALSO HAVE TO LOOK AWAY BECAUSE I AM LITERALLY TEARING UP?????
I LOVE THAT U CAN TELL A STORY FROM JUST THEIR POSES AND POSITIONS LIKE MIKEY DEF CAME OVER TO PESTER DONNIE AND FELL ASLEEP ON HIS LAP SO DONNIE HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO STAY AND NAP TOO (cause its illegal to disrupt little brothers sleeping in ur laps of course, same rule as cats) AND THEN LEO WANDERED IN AND PROBABLY SMILED THAT AFFECTIONATE BIG BROTHER SMILE BEFORE CURLING UP BESIDE THEM THEN RAPH CAME A LIL BIT LATER WONDERING WHERE EVERYONE WAS AND AFFECTIONATELY CALLED THEM A BUNCH OF BOZOS BEFORE TAKING A SEAT WITH THEM (in a semi blind spot too the protective little baby) AND HE DIDNT MEAN TO FALL ASLEEP BUT IT WAS JUST TOO COZY AND AHHH
UGH AND THEN OLD MAN SPLINTER COMES TO CHECK ON THEM AND THOSE ARE HIS BABIES HIS LITTLE BOYS I AM SOBBING TRIONA I LOVE IT SO SO SO MUCH I AM BEYOND WORDS
#LEO IN HIS MASK MAKES ME THINK HE WAS PROLLY TRAINING OR SUCH#he def wears it the most while off mission out of all the boys#mikey forgets it even on missions sometimes lol#UGH I KEEP GETTING CAUGHT ON SPLINTERS SMILE AND HAVING TO STOP AN CRY A MIN /EXTREMELY POS#YOU CAPTURED SPLINTERS GENTLE AND SILLY AND TENDER OLD PAPA VIBES SO PERFECTLY TOO I PHYSICALLY CANNOT COPE#also something about leos pose just makes me so 🤲🥺#my tiny baby son#TRIONA I WILL NOT RECOVER FROM THIS /POS#BYE EVERYONE MY SCHEDULE HAS JUST BEEN OVERTAKEN BY 'UNYEILDING POSITIVE SOBBING' FOR THE NEXT SEVERAL CALANDER YEARS#OBSESSED IM ABSOLUTELY OBSESSED YOU DONT UNDERSTAND#FAVE#IMMA HOARD THIS FOR FUCKING EVER#rat sons fanart#ask reply#fandom friends#'unrendered' she says 'DOODLE' SHE SAYS#THEN HANDS U A PIECE WITH FLAWLESS LINEWORK AND GORGEOUS SO SO COZY LIGHT#ALSO I AM HONORED TO BE UR ROMAN EMPIRE LOL#HUGGING U SO HARD <333 THANK YOU FOR DRAWING MY SONS TRIONA#BUT I HOPE U KNOW THIS MEANS WAR /J
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ARCANE EPISODE 7!!!!
MY GOD I WASNT READY FOR ANY OF THIS!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!!
Also ekko wallpaper I got with my fries lmao
#OH MY GOOOD!!!!!! POWDER AND EKKO!!! AND BENZOOOOOO#ITS LITERALLY WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN OMGG!!!!! POWDER LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭 IM CRYING ALREADYYYY#VANDER WITH A BUN!! AND EVERYTHING IS SO FULL OF LIGHT!!! HER EYES!!! MYLO LOOKS SO RIDICULOUS AKDJSK THIS GIRLAAA#“where would you be without her” WELL BUDDY IF YOU KNEW HOW HE IS WITH HER!!! VI IS DEAD????? OR SHE WAS TAKEN FOR THE INCIDENT!!!#LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID JAYCE!!! MY GOD!!! THE GEMS KILLED VI SO THEY JUST COMPLETELY PROHIBITED THEM!!! JAYCE IS IN JAIL PROBABLY!!#the fact we are seeing exactly why jayce should be sorry about what he has done.... and we are seeing him suffer because of it... cinema 🚬#also mel fading into viktor.... also has he realised how she manipulated him in the beggining??? there is so much stuff...#jayce eating contaminated animals and his wound being infected with the arcane too..... is that what will push him....#omg.... ekko likes powder so much... he apologised by painting actual adult vi portraits where the fallen are in his universe 😭😭😭#“she looks so badass” if you knew... is he gonna ask her to help him make hextech.... that is so sick and twisted....#also jayce hurting his leg loke viktor and having to use a cane and brace.... damn and you know whats worse..... that ekko could be like#this with the jinx of his universe IF ISHA HADNT DIED!!! AND IT IS BEACUSE OF JAYCE!! AGAIN!!!!! THIS MAN!!!!!#the drawing with the anomaly and the two men and the inifite symbol... we get it... jayce and viktor forever intertwined by fate....#powder is sensing something is off.... omg time travel..... THE LIMIT IS FOUR SECONDS AFTER HEIMERDINGER EPXLODED ALDHAKSHSKSJSOJSOSLS#i dont want a time travel ending.... if its done for plot to an extent is okay but idk about solving it all.... it makes it feel worhtless#claggor looks so fine its not even funny..... i cant wait to see what everyone thinks. WHERE IS THE LITTLE LADY bc hes called little man 😭#and vander with arm tattoos.... why did they hipster fied him.... he looks younger somehow ajdhakj he went from taking care of 4 kids to 3!#SILCO!!!! AND HE DID TRY TO KILL HIM!! ALSJAKSKAK Ekko just laighing at it.... girl i would be pissed STROMAE??? OMG POWDER!!!!#I JUST REALIZED THE PINK IN HER HAIR IS FOR VI!! AND HER JACKET!! AND A DRESS LIKE HER MOTHER'S!! CRYING!!! FULL BODY CHILLS!!!#CAN WE JUST PRETEND LIKE ITS THE FIRST TIME!!! I GAVE UP ON YOU!!! WHAT HAPPENED BACK THEN I NEED TO KNOW!!! IM SOBBING!!! EKKO!!!!#NOOOOOOO THE ANOMALY NOOOOO!!!! HEIMERDINGER NOOOOO!!!! AND THATS JAYCE!!! IS THAT MAGE VIKTOR???? the monkeys......#the vi toy with the out love song machine.... my god i wasnt expecting any of this i need to breathe i am stil tearing up my god#what a fucking punch in the stomach christ i cant breathe right akdhsksso#the credits saying the deries has benefited from a spanish tax rebate in the canary islands??? you're welcome i guess lmao#animation production carried out there and has ben collaboration with the Spanish gov... alright another win for perro sanxe#talking tag#watching arcane#watching arcane season 2#watching this i dont think im ready for caitvi sex.... after reconciliation even like what will be of me.... now im scared#i am still scared bc idk what happened to jinx and vi and cait still... thats what worried me and boom!! ekko powder with the steel chair..
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a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)
#self#mori kei#jfashion#NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj#I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat#and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol...#the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly#a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing#sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower...#I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something#but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP#why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no#reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere#in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I'#already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate#anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or#whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ#tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons#and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE#hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like#doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at#some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them#and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like#close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s#etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst#d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol..#AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol#(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i#s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)
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I miss Wanda and vision so much.....they were so happy in Edinburgh :(
the way those days are probably last time Wanda is truly happy....I mean she was happy with hex!Vizh and her babies but her time with Vizh in Edinburgh is where everything is real and normal :( I need more pre-infinity war Wanda and vizh....
thinking about all the things that Wanda and vision left in their apartment....all the clothes, items....the memories...I wonder if Wanda ever visited that place in Edinburgh again after 'endgame'.....
#fuck thanos and his ugly ahh childrens...#where is the scarletvision Scotland adventures spin-off???#moments where he is not an outcast Android and she's not a witch hated by the world...they were just two people in love...god i am sobbing#wanda maximoff#the vision#maximoff girl ramblings#scarlet witch#WandaVision#scarletvision#wanda and vizh#wanda and vision#txt post
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oh my darling
#i am once again fucking sobbing#the crowd crying:(((#stardust playing#my wifi cut off when he was singing#and then i log back in to this#fucking hell
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I have to write a relatively long German paper, and man its just so difficult for me. The pro side is that I can pick any topic I want, so of course I picked Charles VI. But I've literally not written any German in months, and I'm almost 100% sure our prof doesn't actually read them. I should just write and submit boy king fic....
#i wish it was in English#bcs i would be very happy about it#but i have lost so much capacity for any German writing#bcs he sucks so much as a prof and has dropped the ball on actual language learning imo#how am i supposed to suddenly write a 7-8 pg paper after youve spent all our class time just lecturing at us#and giving us no real opportunity to really learn or test our skills#i shall.. probably just cheat.#LIKE i want to learn german so badly#but what the fuck is the point of even trying when i know im not going to get actual feedback on my writing#why should i even try at that point. put that much effort in and know that he doesnt really care at all#it just sucks so much bcs i genuinely love and am so fascinated w the topic#but the idea that id put so much work into translating it only for him not to read it really kills me#again. just submit boy king fic and see if he notices sjfkgllblb#but do you know what i mean? like im sure ill write a good version in english that i think is actual good content#but translating it is such a lost cause bcs all the effort is reallt for nothing#like atp im jusy interested in the history more than making an effort w the language#ugh i wish i wasnt this way but yknow lack of stimulation anf feedback really kills my enjoyment and interest#like see i can convince myself that thr eng version of teh paper is my typical personal research#<- i mean im making a fucking family tree for funsies so this isnt that far off#but the translation part is so difficult bcs my german has been eroding a bit SOB SOB#lol anyways i say this bcs i was plotting a boy king fic in my head as i was goong to bed#and was like oh i shoulf write it out tmr! and then remembered I HAVE AN ESSAY UGH#well yeah. suffering. we'll see how i feel abt i write the original copy and if i have the capacity to germanify it#i just feel so guilty about it. cheating. I dont want to and it feels so low effort and terrible#but why would i force myself thru all that for a guy who barely reads it#catie.rambling.txt
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Absolutely wrecked by dandadan episode 7. I haven't cried that hard for fiction since I read trimax volume 10
#speculation nation#i was fucking CHOKING on those sobs. hands clasped together the whole time.#literally biting at my own fingers (still clasped together) at the most devastating moments#i cried for the whole last 10 mins of that episode and for another 5 minutes after. god fucking damn#it's. so fucking good. but holy fuck. i wasnt expecting my heart to be wrenched out of my chest quite this badly at 3 pm on a friday#i need time to like. recover. had to take my glasses off after. had to sit with it and process it.#parts of it struck a core in Me. personally relevant. which i think is maybe part of why it hit me so hard.#but even beyond that. truly devastating. wasnt expecting a random demon's backstory to wreck me like that hfkahfks#but this show truly is SO fucking good. i am Definitely gonna rewatch it all in one go whenever it finishes airing.
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