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My local branch of the Interflora flower delivery network sent me a newsletter yesterday, reminding me that now is just the time to buy allium bouquets. And, I mean, the Demeter is amidst her doomed way to bring Dracula to Whitby, so I guess Interflora has a point here.
I just hope they'll have some garlic flowers for me in three weeks.
#i admit that i like these flowers#they had me at purple#allium#allium flower#flowers#flower delivery#interflora#fleurop#dracula daily#dracula
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i am genuinely emotional that marvel is using this line as promo. this is part of their brand strategy now. arguably the most conservative force in the mainstream entertainment industry, which let me tell you is real conservative at the best of times and doing its best to go backwards. it shouldn't be this fucking rare to get the most bare minimum of recognition in media but it still fucking is and yet people are changing that.
#agatha all along#agatha all along spoilers#i hate getting emotional about like. business admitting that queer people spend money.#but marvel doing this#and saying queer! in the episode!#seismic fucking shift#i kind of want to look up jac schaeffer's info and send her flowers.
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I love seeing Danny Phantom showing up and being like ‘don’t ask too many questions but John Constantine I own your soul. All of it. Lmao sucks to suck bitch’, and he’s usually all Ghost King Full Regalia as he does it, at least in front of the Justice League, but consider—
He just shows up as Danny Fenton.
“yeah I got bored and collected the pieces like Pokémon. Gotta catch ‘em all” says the 5’2 teen who looks like a stiff breeze could trip him. He denies being a sorcerer, or a magician, concedes he’s maybe psychic but mostly he’s just…. The kid of two mad scientists—who have a basement lab where they opened a portal to what he SAYS is not hell but no one is frankly CONVINCED, by the way—and he hasn’t decided what to do with Constantine yet besides getting Danny into some r rated horror movies, but figures he should tell the dude probably.
“What’d you even trade for some of his soul contracts?”
“Don’t worry about it”
They worry about it
#danny phantom#john constantine#dp x dc#dc x dp#demons will NOT admit to being menaced by a baby ghost#not to mention that said baby ghost probably kicked their asses#this maybe changes some of Constantines powers?#like I don’t know the exact details but he primarily sold his soul for an immortality cheat. but he probably got some powers out of it?#so like maybe now it’s fueled by Danny/the ghost zone or some such?#not quite a Halfa but like what do you MEAN his pretty gold magic is TOXIC GREEN?#Danny just sorta shrugs and goes Yeah That Sounds About Right#and then does not elaborate further#he’s selling that he’s just a normal kid VERY HARD#they’d almost believe him if they didn’t know he had ALL OF CONSTANTINES SOUL CONTRACTS#bonus content of Batman#you can choose what he’s doing but I think it’d be funny if Danny found out about the contingencies and went Oh Cool I’m super allergic to..#… this one specific flower haha#not at ALL elaborating that this flower is rare and WILL melt his skin. oh and that he destroyed the world in at least one timeline hehe#one reason I love OP Danny in DC universe—if Danny’s native to that universe he HAS to be OP. because he WOULD HAVE TO HAVE defeated…#…if not outright killed#the ENTIRE LEAGUE#ITS GREAT#1k#2k#3k#hnnnnnnnn#4K#5k#?!??!!!
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As densely packed as I could tolerate making it- Roxie doodles! (Vast majority of these are from several weeks ago I'm not gonna lie,,)
#there will be more roxie today rest assured... well. I'm INTENDING to post more roxie at least#idk why i like it so much but the top middle might be my favorite rn idk#spto#sp comic#spvtw#art#fanart#roxie richter#spto roxie#spvtw roxie#roxy richter#roxanne richter#kim pine#ramona flowers#lisa miller#(yeah i couldnt help myself...)#im not putting this in my ship stuff tag BUT:#ramoxie#roxim#lisrox#roxkimona#scott pilgrim roxie#scott pilgrim fanart#spto fanart#spvtw fanart#happy roxie day everyone!! and neil banging out the tunes day.....#(no promises but i has a silly little idea that i might sketch related to that)#((top left doodle- i think it would be funny if rammy and roxie were like ''hey kim!! skate date!!'' and kim agreed but was too embarrassed+#+to admit she has no idea how to skate... idk it's cute to me. they can teach her [unsuccessfully /j]))#(had to sacrifice a tag. L. anyway roxie is wearing Kim's stfu shirt in the kneeling doodle there. also lisa was a last second addition-)
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✨🌸 Sunshine on your skin, flowers in my soul 🌸✨
🌊🫧Summary → In the midst of his reconciliation with Team Wish, Dusknoir begins coughing up flowers. This unfortunate brand of bad luck should be a cosmic joke. A spiteful punishment that the world has brought down on him out of malice, out of vengeance for his past deeds. A cruel, agonizing curse manifested with the single unjustified purpose of preventing him from realizing happiness, ever seeking redemption, ever righting his multitudes of wrongs and moving on with his life. But that's not true, and he knows it deep down. Knows it in the very core of his soul like the flood of petals building in this throat.
This is his fault because he is a coward, and that's all he has ever been. A backstabbing, lonely coward.
And now he is going to die because of it.
[AO3]
[CH. I -- Word Count -- 13,290]
🌒💫 Return → the act of going back to a place, person, or memory
[CH. II -- TBA]
#(Momentarily comes back from hiatus just to drop this and then proceeds to immediately leave)#I didn't forget about my fic that I promised literally a year ago! Woo!#Here's the 1st chapter fellas!#I've been through misery and hell (still there tbh) but I'm hanging in there with my pencil and paper#(mutuals I did this for YOU)#(scribz once again THANK you for the art ilysm)#I gave up on trying to write everything coherently like a perfectionist before posting chapters#I've decided I'm just gonna post 'em as they're done instead of hoarding them all until I'm satisfied with the entire fic#It was unhealthy and hard to be motivated while writing all of this in my own little isolated box#Maybe with some feedback from readers I'll be more willing to focus on this and get it done rather than let it rot in my docs for months#Sunshine on your skin; flowers in my soul#my fic#Dusknoir/Grovyle#Dusknoir/Grovyle/Celebi#Hero/Partner#Echo/Sora#echo/umbreon#sora/lucario#pmd ocs#lots and LOTS of feelings in this fic be warned my friends#Must admit I am so nervous sharing this publicly cause it's like baring my whole heart to you guys#If you take a peek then I hope you end up enjoying it c:#pls leave me asks if you wanna share thoughts!!! I'd be so unbelievably happy to talk about this fic if anyone is interested#or maybe post a comment or kudos on AO3 instead!! anything pls I'd be indebted to you forever#No promises on a fic update schedule but I will TRY not to let it take months this time#pmd explorers#pmd eos#pmd sky#pokemon mystery dungeon#pmd fanfic
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tfw I have been so utterly bewitched by a kind and gentle necromancer that he's showing up in my dreams 😔
#spy's sketches#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#emmrich volkarin#like oh my god... i had a dream he was giving me a bouquet of yellow flowers#and he had a whole speech planned but fumbled on his words and got embarrassed about it#literally every emmy fan i'm friends with have admitted they've had dreams about him too wtf is with this man
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So, your Clear Sky post is absolutely horrifying, but it was very needed, so thank you. What are your general thoughts on tackling his abuse for the AU? Like you've said, pretending he's a good guy is not the way to go, but are you planning on toning down *some* of the situations, just to give some of the cats a break? Clear Sky is a very realistic depiction of abusers, but that seems to come across even without victim number 25, yknow? I'm very curious about how you'd like to go about this.
My most recent big change was bringing Slash back into the fold, because I realized that it was actually a disservice to not address where DOTC's themes dip into Colonialism. It's a hard topic, and I'm still trying to work out the details, but I realized it was important.
With how BB!DOTC is such a MASSIVE overhaul, to properly address abuse and the ways it impacts you, ableism and its violence, and xenophobia broadly, a huge reworking of Slash belonged here too. He's one of the greatest examples of how badly WC demonizes non-Clanborn cats. I shouldn't dance around it.
That's what I need to do with Skystar.
MANY of his victims have happier endings than canon, though. Bumble is one of the most famous, bumped up into a major character and directly responsible for the formation of ThunderClan. Bright Storm is taking most of Gray Wing's roles. Birch and Alder are getting examined, with either a father who wants his kids back or Milkweed as the mate of Misty.
A lot of people will die because of him, even more will be hurt, but I see BB!DOTC as a story about victims and survivors.
Others might grab POVs here and there, but as a response to canon which I feel is Clear Sky's story told in many parts, I center this rewrite around Thunder Storm. The path of kindness he marches down, with love and with anger, and the people he helps.
So BB!Star Flower...
Previously I was playing her as ENTIRELY just manipulating Clear Sky. She was loyal to One Eye and trying to get at Skystar to bleed him dry for 8 lives to sacrifice; but connected to Thunderstar over recognizing him as a victim who deserves her idea of justice. So, she offers Thunderstar the final kill, so her father will be grateful to him and he'll get power AND the death of his abuser.
(When Thunderstar looks upon Skystar, pathetic and neutralized down to one life, he thinks about the collateral damage that will descend upon the forest if he accepts the deal. He decides that he has found the line between Justice and Justification. Of course he wants the power to make his enemies cower, protect his people, and eliminate Clear Sky so he never threatens them again; that's not the problem.
He can still do these things. He wouldn't NEED the power of a war god to do so.
But if One Eye returns, he will be endlessly hungry, ruthlessly dedicated to revenge, and set out to devour the whole forest. Everything would get worse, and even more people he loves would die. It's where his desire to destroy a monster would lead to him BECOMING one.)
Even on its face, it was previously missing an element. There's a step between "Starf decides to bring One Eye back" and "Starf offers Thunderstar the final kill" that was bare. This is the piece that was missing-- That she, herself, is trying to reach out to the only person who's ever really understood her.
But more importantly... I do feel this topic belongs here, in BB!DOTC. Abuse is a MAJOR theme. SKYSTAR is a monster already. He's harmed two wives in BB (Bright Storm and Falling Cry) and played toxic games with all three kits (Thunder Storm, Pale Sky, Tiger Sky).
And I'd avoid Star Flower being abused... why? Because it's uncomfortable to confront the pattern that Clear Sky displays? That in-canon, he tries to cut all his victims into the same ideal shape, from Storm to Thunder to Star Flower? ...it should be uncomfortable. Everything that I described in Clear Sky Is A Monster is rooted in the same desire for control, power, and punishment most abusive people share, he just happens to be a severe example.
Yes. That includes how he treats his child and romantic partners. The parallels that are drawn between Starf and Thunder are there because he wants power in the form of obedience. Starf replaces the son as a narrative award for his "growth" of not killing random people anymore for a while.
A cookie cutter is an effective tool because IT ONLY MAKES ONE SHAPE.
You know what's more uncomfortable? Reading canon!DOTC and seeing someone who hurt you reflected almost perfectly in the character the writers think did nothing wrong. Because of "good intentions" that were not there.
I will say though, just to be clear; I don't see a purpose in being more than PG-13 about serious topics for this project. I promise none of my intentions have changed. Nothing will be more graphic or gorey than canon WC-- just more intentional.
I'm keeping the sacrifice because it's dope. No one is taking this from me. Girl Moment: Killed her awful husband 8 times to count as 8 sacrifices and offered the last life to her buddy as a show of good will. How else do you make friends outside of high school
But I know now that Star Flower NEEDS to keep the canon fact she has very little agency, UNTIL that moment she snaps.
She's sacrificing one abuser to try and bring back a bigger, badder one, because in spite of everything, her father One Eye always made her feel safe. Even though he promised her off to Skystar, and expected her to be willing to die for him. She's followed every command, every order, past the death of his mortal vessel.
The first, and only, selfish choice she's ever made was in reaching out to Thunderstar to offer him the power of her father.
Thunderstar's Justice is a story about a Thunder Storm at the pinnacle of his arc, how the survivors of his Clan are settling into the new normal after the carnage of The First Battle, how Skystar's arrogance brings a violent god to the Forest... and the connection Thunderstar makes with the daughter of a monster.
#Kronk meme: ''Oh Yeah. It's all coming together''#I'll be making the fragments in another post#Just because this one's getting really long#It works well as an explanation of my intentions#I think I had been making a mistake previously to conceive of BB!Starf as a femme fatale who seduced Sky#Again: I'm not perfect! As I analyze and re-read with a more critical eye. My art changes.#Tho I will admit I do like the idea of a Starf who is totally cognizant of how she can manipulate a villain#Into doing what she wants. I do love myself a powerful and scheming woman#It's that it didn't fit my story or my themes OR even the purpose of BB as a fixit that addresses canon#Better bones au#BB!DOTC#BB!Star Flower#BB!Skystar#BB!Thunder Storm#Also imo this philosophy will let me make BB!One Eye what I think he deserves and works best as#THE WORSE OF TWO EVILS#The Tyrant of Tyrants#And man.... the idea that Skystar becomes the Clan patron of war...#The God of Summer laughs at him.#''Outdone and reeling your wounded pride speaks the words your tender mouth can never say''#''That you were outclassed and now you obsess over the bigger monster you aren't good enough to become''#''You fell into the step of a lion and think you can replicate what my paw does without effort.''#Cw abuse#Tw abuse#Abuse#Child abuse
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DIVORCE BEGIN *STARTS CRYING*
#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#like...oh my god#Annabel you know the maze trio comes as that.. a trio#Anna you're so sly with your negotiatinggggg#Pluto and Duke rushing to Lenore's defense maze triooooo#Oh yes of course Duke would know something about Anna's wicked side oooohh#The arboretum's right there what#“I wanted to visit the flowers” Wow antithesis to Lenore in life being like “I thought there would be no more flowers” broooooo#“Like a toy” Annabel are you saying 28-29 was childish to you hmmm??????????#Duke and Pluto having to watch Annabel and Lenore be gay hahahah#WALKS IN THE ROSE GARDENS OMGGGGGGGGGGG#IRA WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT#THEY LOOK SO CUTE TOGETHERRRRRRRRR IN BOTH LIVES#YOU WERE EXPECTING HIM TO DIE OMG ANNABELLL#THE DARKNESS CONTRASTING WITH HER LIGHT COLORING SHE HAS EVIL INTENTIONS#THE PARALLELS TO EPISODE 80 WITH THEIR RESPECTIVE RANTS IT’S CRAZYYYYYYYY#She says the last line so quietly she doesn’t want to admit it waaaaaaaaa#Divorce is divorcing
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are you really a flowey fan if you can type u in your browser's search bar and the first thing that shows up isn't undertale.com/alarmclock/flowey
#undertale#flowey the flower#can i be honest I don't think i would like him nearly as much if it wasn't for this dialogue. I would still like him#but i may or may not be as obsessed with him as I am right now if i never saw it#this dialogue recontextualized so much of what he does to me. i remember watching someone's playthrough after reading it and going holy shit#post pacifist flowey living up on the surface!! being friends with papyrus and finding a little bit of happiness in his own way!!#it's so important to me you have no idea#he's still flowey the soulless flower. but he's moving on and living his best life because it's not the end for him!! he can be happy too!!#just because it's not a “perfect” happy ending doesn't mean it isn't still happy#also the whole “asriel... I'll never let you go again...” and the way flowey is so comfortable with admitting his past identity ughhghhhh...#that whole thing was such a treasure trove of flowey goodness I'll never get over it
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I NEVER POSTED THIS!?!?!?!
Well that must be fixed
Found out how to edit pictures and crop 'em so there ain't too much empty space... you'd think I'd remember to look for features like that considering I like to fix up tech and see what they can do... but here we are.
#hollow knight#hollow knight art#the knight#nail master oro#listen#this man calls our flower trash and says to take it with us#then puts it in a vase#he cares he just doesn't like to admit it#did i make the knight particularly tiny?#...maybe#do i regret it?#no#knight deserves to be loved and their parents...#just remembered that nailmaster is typically used as one word#sorry y'all#nailmaster oro#have a nice day
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The interesting experience of being pro Sasuke, anti konoha, pro tobirama, anti Naruto ending, pro Sasusaku, anti Itachi, pro Sakura, anti SasuNaru, pro Tobirama×Izuna, anti Madara, pro karin, anti Orochimaru, pro Uchiha and anti Hashirama. And also as much as I hate the guy danzo was kind of hot when he was younger...
#I FEEL ITS VERY IMPORTANT TO SAY THAT I COMPLETELY RESPECT SNS TO THE ULTIMATE DEGREE AND I AGREE WITH THEIR SHIPPERS ON MOST THINGS#BUT THE SHIP STILL KINDA PISSES ME OFF IDK WHY IM SORRY IT JUST RUBS ME THE WRONG WAY I HAVE TRIED TO LOVE IT I REALLY HAVE BUT I CANT#AND MADARA HAD SOME GOOD POINTS BUT I THINK ITS SHITTY THAT HE ABANDONED HIS CLAN AND THEN PLOTTED THE END OF THE FUCKING WORLD#ALSO ITACHI HAD LIKE OTHER OPTIONS!???? WHY THE FUCK DID HE TORTURE SASUKE TWICE LIKE 😭😭😭#WHAT WAS THE POINT MY G WHY ARE YOU TORTURING HIM I THINK THE MENTAL IMAGE OF THEM DYING WAS ENOUGH DIDNT NEED TO GIVE HIM 500000 EXAMPLES#WE AS A SOCIETY DO NOT TALK ENOUGH ABOUT THE FACT THAT WHEN MADARA ASKED HASHIRAMA TO EITHER KHS OR KILL TOBIRAMA#TOBIRAMA GENUINELY THOUGHT FOR A MOMENT THAT HASHIRAMA WOULD GO AFTER HIS THROAT FOR LIKE- THIS GUY WHO HE USED TO THROW STONES WITH!???#ITS SO DIFFICULT TO FIND PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND SASUKES TRAUMA AND WHO LIKES SASUSAKU 😭😭#COS LIKE ILL 100% ADMIT THAT THE RELATIONSHIP WAS WRITTEN SHITILY AND SUCKED AND DESPITE THE FACT THAT THEYRE SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE BROTHERS#SNS HAS BETTER WRITING THAN SSK OR NRHN SOMEHOW???? ITS WRITTEN SO WELL PEOPLE GENUINELY BELIEVE THE ORIGINAL PLOT HAD SNS PLANNED#BUT ALSO SAKURA IS SO SILLY AND STRONG AND DID ANY OF YOU READ SASUKE RETSUDEN “Trapped by a body he knew perfectly”#OKAY SASUKE YOURE ON A MISSION??? CALM THE FUCK DOWN 😭😭#NO AND IN LIKE SSK FICS SASUKE IS SOME BAD BOY WHO JUST SMIRKS AND IS EMOTIONLESS AND SAKURA IS SOOOOO EMOTIONAL FUCK OFF YOU TWATS!!!!#SASUKE IS THE KITTEN!! SAKURA SO OBVIOUSLY RADIATES DADDY ENERGY YALL ARE FUCKING INSANE!!!#WHY DO WE GET KITTEN SASUKE IN EVERY OTHER SHIP BUT THE FUCKING CANON ONE!! AT MY FUCKING!!!! LIMIT!!!#FIND SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS THE COMPLEXITYS OF SASUKES CHARACTER AND UNDERSTANDS WHAT TRAUMA DOES TO A PERSON YET DOESNT HATE SSK CHALLENG#Uh oh I went a bit mad there hahaha#I REGRET NOTHING SASUKE DID NOTHING WRONG SAKURA IS GIRL BOSS AND THE NARUTO WORLD IS EITHER UNEXPLAINABLY VIOLENT OR FAR TOO FORGIVING#naruto#naruto shippuden#itachi uchiha#pro sasuke#haruno sakura#Pro Sakura#Sasuke Uchiha#sasuke did nothing wrong#It looks awkward to just go from all those long tags to the iddy bitty ones#Moldy-flowers#Kitten and daddy? Tf am i on about I've been watching too much game grumps shi 😭😭
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Maybe I don’t come round here often, but if we’re still debating about which songs on the album are underrated..
Why hasn’t Nonviolent Communication been brought up? Where are my Nonviolent Communication truthers at?!
#across the spiderverse#atsv#metro boomin#nonviolent communication#and yes I’m admitting I have a bias cause it’s my favorite track#not tryna start no discourse or something#but like…#I BARELY seen any like mentions of it#where’s the love?#it’s hearts and flowers?
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A watercolor painting I did for a friend.
This was a commission piece I techinically did for the mother of a friend and it was my first time making anything for her so I was quite nervous when making this for her. I got doubly nervous when she wanted the original piece to frame but I was honored that she would want a physical piece of art from me. Her only requirements for the piece were "an angel that was neither black or white", as she mostly saw angels that were black or white, and for the picture to be 8"x10" to frame.
With the size being what it was, I had to forego colored pencils and go for watercolors as it would cover more space in less time and give a very dreamy and delicate look to the piece. Since my client wanted a more unique angel, I thought it would be fun to give her a Desi angel, as her dark features would contrast beautifully against her more paler clothes.
She never requested a background, probably because this was her first time commissioning from me or from any artist, so I figured it would be nice to just give her one instead of having her float in a void. I figured lotuses on a pond would be a good way to go if I want to add more details and color to the picture. Painting the lotuses, lily pads, and the design on the salwaar kameez were so therapeutic to me so this paunting was such a joy. It's been a while since I made anything larger than 4 inches so I'm quite proud of myself for getting this done so I could have this sent to her!
Please do not edit or repost without permission. (I edited my commission prices!)
#artists on tumblr#watercolor painting#commission#character design#angel#birds#flowers#Please feel free to reblog!!#Or comment!#Nishat's doodles#I had just posted it to my portfolio and realized I should put it here as well#I heard she (my client) was recently admitted into the hospital#While I can't give too many details my friend told me she keeps the painting by her bedside and her nurse (who is from Bangladesh)#seems to like it as well#It makes me happy that she finds it comforting in such a situation#It really makes me happy that my art can actually do that for people despite how stressful the situation may be
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"Oh, why did I gift you this silk dress? You see, you are... from the moment I first saw you... Nevermind."
#my dearest#mydearestedit#kdramadaily#kdramanetwork#kdramagifs#nam goong min#ahn eun jin#jh said i can fight 15 men by myself while dying#of an illness but don't make me admit#you're the most beautiful woman i've ever seen#anyways... let her live like a flower#it's what she deserves!#gifs#*
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Cannot imagine whatever is going on through Mr Leonard Echowatcher's head. You spend your life yearning for a world where you lived differently, where the day wasnt soaked in war, blood, and battle. Where you could envision a future where you have a partner and a family with friends to live gracefully with. But then you are given such opportunities only to find you were never taught to be gentle, you have a gentle, empathetic nature and yet the physicality of it is a stranger to you. You are expected to raise a child with gentle hands so that she saves the world, What does that even mean? How can you accept your growing love for your friend when you were never taught how to love, that intimate love is a luxury best left forgotten, there are no need for such things in war. He has to learn to become the things he wanted bc he grew too old to develop it naturally. He becomes a father to taimi fumbling his way into learning how to care and parent, he is defensive of Aurene bc he is from a culture where they arent expected to raise their own young and yet has to do so with a dragon. It feels like a test, He has to prove both to others and to himself he is capable of being a father, of nuturing, that calloused, stained hands can still be gentle. He has to accept that love is a terrifying leap of faith in vulnerability in order to gain a partnership that is considered a rarity. I love the idea that he spent 30 years yearning for things he thought he would never have and when he is actually given those opportunities (albeit admittedly through unusual circumstances) he has to learn how to actually live in them, becuase they were always just Concepts until now. Ohhhh my god Mr. Leo you are my everything
#rambling about my guy at 3am#its so so sos so important to leo's lore that he wishes he had freedom from the legions while still being inherently loyal to them bc he#cannot break the loyalty that is so fervent in his culture's belief so he doesnt leave and instead tries to be the change he wants to see#in savoring life and preventing reckless deaths and maybe one day allowing for more connections between the charr re their relationships#while also battling with the fact now that he has these chances hes not actually prepared for him#hes defensive about Aurene and he takes a while to admit his feelings for rytlock because of these#does this makes sense me shaking the camera do you see my vision he makes me insane#hes so tired hes sooooo tired but theres this constant weight on him at all times its just not a world ending one but a personal one#javi gw2#leonard echowatcher#this isnt even ABOUT being diallusioned with how the legions disregard lige and treat their soldiers as a numbers game bc thats an entire#different problem this is just abt his more personal struggles.#god i remember describing all his interactions with rytlock (intimacy wise) were all very passionate bc he didnt know how to allow himself#to be vulnerable and gentle#or rather hes scared to be bc its not natural to him#so when they see each other again and leo IS more gentle with him in private that is a huuuge deal#also im definitely not conflating romantic and platonic relationships bc those can be just as important#so im directly speaking about more intimate relationships or regarding whatever leo viewed himself wanting#which was like a partner and a family#sound the alarm this hardened soldier secretly dreams of a domestic fantasy he will never have#is esentially what it is#leo was made to be bbq dad who cleans gravestones and plants flowers for the feceased and is forced into [the entire plot of gw2]#sorry im rambling okay bye
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yesssss re my post about marc's vulnerability etc marc WANTS people to participate in his myth-making in an environment he controls (he dictates the narrative but in typical marc fashion stays authentic, subverting casual sports machismo where an athlete admitting it could never happen in a million billion years) but also he doesn't want anyone to know IN THE MOMENT but ALSO wants everyone to know how much he overcame and he WANTS all the suffering to mean SOMETHING SO TRUEEEEE ALL OF IT
i am thinking. of when i was at cota and these two (stupid) guys behind me were talking about marc’s documentary and their initial impression of both marc and his authorial voice was. that he was a crybaby. which i suppose i should have realized might be a take that a fan of a sport considered as macho and “traditionally masculine” (stupid assumption but i think it DOES attract some of those people because of the perception) as motogp. but still i was like. hm. okay so that’s how a casual fan of the sport might interact with all in. okay. marc was actually being very brave here.
like it’s HARD to be as vulnerable as marc has been concerning these major (and traumatic! this doc was about marc and his trauma!) life events. as a public figure (esp one with as many haters as marc) it opens you up to judgement and a lack of empathy— it’s a risk! but i also think he neeeeeeeeeeds people to know about how much he suffered to make it WORTH something. to solidify the belief that marc marquez went through all of this and came back and could still ride. and i think it’s as much for HIMSELF to buy into as it is for his fans. he is (to me) a man who really takes stock of narratives, and really wants people to have an ACCURATE picture of him as a person with feelings and struggles, even if hes also attempting to manage his image to keep a competitive edge or keep the press/haters off of his back in the moment. he keeps his cards close to his chest and then lays every single one of them on the table, time after time! once it can’t be used to hurt him, he wantsssss (NEEDS.) people to KNOW him. and frankly i think so much of that has to do with sepang.
#like vale will never admit to the artifice of the character he’s playing as a self protection maneuver that is ongoing#MARC will look you straight in the eye and tell you he was putting on a regional production of newsies last weekend. and that he’s not now.#and then also drop that during the production of newsies he had a broken ankle. and you should send him flowers please he’s very brave 💐#which to be clear i don’t begrudge him AT ALL narrativizing your life all by yourself queen#it’s better than when vale decides to do it for you#motogp#callie speaks#asks
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