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Not participating in/interacting with 'fandom' communities anymore, haven't for quite a while. if i ever post anything related to bnha or fanart in general, it's for me and maybe a friend or two
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referring to people with mental illnesses as like “healed” in later life is not something i fw because it just sounds like thinly veiled ableism and a very big disconnect to understanding how people with mental illnesses function and can function later in life even if they have a difficulty doing so in earlier stages of life (:
#saw this bcs someone made art of “healed dazai” where he’s not in his bandages which. firstly no ? and secondly no ?#“healed” girl he’s not damaged#i also see people saying this abt if like. dazai had kids#and i’ve been stuck on the thought of dazai being a father for a whileeee bcs no 1 girl dad#he’s alr letting kyouka deck him out in funky clips and headbands with pom poms on#like that man was born for tea parties and tiaras but a mentally ill person doesn’t have to be “healed” to have children#the way that i see it is through the source content we see he has such a huge disconnect with what he thinks vs how he feels#and later in life he comes to have a better understanding of that#but that doesn’t mean he’s “healed” and anyone who talks about mental illness like it can be cured needs to dieeee#but. yeah tldr dazai would have one daughter and then want five more#he’d be so good w imaginary games like wym mr bear wont share his crackers with u? jail for mr bear immediately. life without the possibly#of parole for mr bear!!!! justice for his little girl!!!#man.#dazai and fatherhood is something that can be so personal#sobbing thinking about it. man#MAN!!!!!!!!#there’s still a spiral to be had about having kids and the way that dazai views himself#and how he views life. but like i can’t think abt it it will make me cry but#he’s good w kids. he would be good w his own if only not to introduce them to the same suffering and confusion he had#like the thought of passing on his genes? terrifying#sage enough. ENOUGHHHH anyway.
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gilda is like. a perfect incredible movie if you stop watching it ~10 minutes before it ends. if you watch it all the way through it becomes a baffling wild experience.
#the ending feels sooooo disconnected from the entire rest of the movie it is such a turn that it becomes like#idk. like it doesn't ruin the movie bc it is so irreconcilable. its WILD#anyway the end result of all this is that the movie gilda elicits huge emotions in me#w.me
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And they were ✨roomates✨
WIP!!! Kikee is trying hard to scold Zel for sneaking out to see her in the middle of the night after the celebrations earlier in the evening, but he’s kinda cute with his hair all wet.
I am such a sucker for romance, but forbade myself from doing anything until I felt confident in my character’s backstories. Zel is such an enigma for me because of how much time I had to spend trying to understand how he could find it within himself to fall in love/have romantic relationships with anyone, but stay true to the trauma he has gone through in his life. At one point I considered making him asexual, but the more I worked on his story, the more I felt that wasn’t quite true. Would he ever even want a romantic relationship, not just a once off? And after meeting Kikee, yeah, I think he would.
(If you’ve ever seen Fruits Basket, Zel is 100% Kyo Sohma)
#yeah my sketches are utter chaos#art wip!#Zelun’jin#Kikee#my ocs#don’t ask me his sexuality I don’t know what it is 😭#maybe demi????#i see him having a huge disconnect from physical intimacy if there is no emotion#one night stands hate to see him coming
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Rebecca Chambers in Resident Evil Remastered (2002)
#crimson's gifs: resident evil#Resident Evil#RE#Resident Evil 1#RE1#Resident Evil 1 Remastered#Resident Evil Remastered#RE Remastered#RE1R#Rebecca Chambers#Rebecca Chambers (RE1)#Why is her cgi cutscenes so scuffed in the end of this game bro 😭😭 RE0 has much better cgi cutscenes how are they in the same collection#Speaking of that im ngl her va in this game isnt nearly as good as her re0 one either :/#RE0 and Vendetta Rebecca is her better characterisation where you can tell shes scared but shes also a badass#Because yes shes young but shes also a fucking special ops cop so shes gotta have a backbone yknow#Idk theres just a huge disconnect between her character in re0 (half an hour ago) and re1 (also chris needs to cut her some damn slack)#Anyways ILY REBECCAAAAA#Dont take any of this as me hating Rebecca I actually adore her I've just played so much RE1R recently#That Ive collected a lot of thoughts on the game as a whole#Btw I was so fixated on getting every single piece of Rebecca footage that I accidently got the No Saving achievement 😭#I genuinely forgot to fucking save bro I noticed after i fucking GOT TO THE MINES#Thats the under courtyard btw idk why ive stuck to calling it the mines
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do not know how wyll does not have 100 million kisses with how many times i've kissed him this playthrough
#also honestly i'm so surprised that astarion's the no.1 origin played besides dark urge?#like i expected gale to be highest because you can speedrun with him in a way you can't with anyone else#but the only people i see talking about playing astarion origin are huge astarion stans (like me lol)#i also expected wyll origin to be much higher on the list because i see people talking about playing his origin the most#there is such a disconnect between how this game is talked about even on sites like reddit and these stats...
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I am stressed, and I am on edge, and I feel like I'm actually, legitimately reaching my limit. It's kinda funny how my mom was the one to push me there
#she seems to think i have all the time in the world#but i don't think she realizes just how much of that time is spent mentally recovering from#or preparing for#something#i also don't think she realizes she is a huge part of the problem#on top of the general school and work stuff#she's been badgering me to do things for a while now#it's cleaning my room#or applying to jobs#or going to church#or reading the bible#it's always something#there's always something im not doing well enough#then she'll go behind my back and make plans involving me without telling me and then blame ME for not being considerate of those plans#she had the fucking gall to say “there's something going on that you aren't telling me”#like no shit it's almost as if any time i talk to you about something you either blow me off or turn it against me#apparently im getting pretty good at hiding when im having a shit time when im not actively trying to make sure the person knows#to the point when i had an actual panic attack before a surgery once it supposedly came out of nowhere for her#like im starting to realize just how disconnected from my life she actually is at this point and i don't think i care to fix it#i shouldn't fucking have to#i shouldn't have to deal with that on top of school. work. my social life. my finances. hygiene. self-care. etc#not when i don't think she's willing to put through any effort towards improvement#not when she's “the grown adult”#not when her reaction to me making a mistake or losing motivation for something is often along the lines of...#“do you want to end up like your father?”#im so unbelievably fucking done#im about ready to give someone more than just a piece of mind. they're about to get the whole fucking mess of a thing.#the best part? this week's all downhill from here#gobby rants
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I have… lots of thoughts on milsiril and kabru and the commentary on mixed-race family/adoption, in particular white parents with children of color. I think it’s really cool kui incorporated this into the story because lots of (particularly white) people just think adoption is this pure altruistic thing and don’t think about the negative affects it has on kids (again, kids of color) to not have people of their own culture to grow up with.
#I’m white so I can’t pretend this is something I am able to fully understand#and I feel like it’s not my place to write an essay on it? I’m sure poc could do it a lot better than me#but someone who is close to me is a poc in a kind of kabru adjacent situation#and I don’t want to give details bc this is personal and (obviously) not just to me so I don’t really want to talk about it too much#my point is. kabru ans milsiril just hit me really hard#I really love that kui made their relationship a relatively good one for the most part but she doesn’t just pretend it’s perfect#because it’s like. even if your parents are the best they can possibly be.l#if they don’t understand your culture that’s still a huge loss isn’t it?#and milsirils parenting skills….. definitely need a lot of work even if she means well#and the description of her adoptions as a ‘hobby’ makes it seem rather flippant imo#(not sure if that was just a translation thing tho)#but my impression is that kabru does still think of her fondly and is grateful for her taking him in and teaching him things#at the same time he does voice his frustrations about the cultural disconnect between them and her being ‘overprotective’#but yeah#like that kind of thing needs to be talked about I’m grateful that she not just doesn’t shy away from it but puts it in your face like that#.txt#dungeon meshi#oh also clarification#when I say kui talks about this stuff I do mean as an allegory#bc while I don’t think it is at all a coincidence that kabru is dark skinned and milsiril is white (coded?)#their skin color doesn’t really come into account here#it’s really the disconnect between elves and tall-men#but look me in the eye and tell me that’s not what she was going for
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shoutout to my therapist literally looking up the "kids in the hall" tag on tiktok during our session today
#we were talking about my frustrations with social media but still wanting to be on it to promote my comedy etc#and she was like ''well what if you find your niche on these platforms and then you don't have to feel as overwhelmed''#and i saw her typing on her phone for a second while i was talking and i just went ''are you looking up kids in the hall on tiktok'' ''yeah#long story short my therapist basically told me i NEED to make my aubrey webseries now lmao#went on a huge rant about feeling disconnected from modern queer culture and she was like#''other people probably feel this way too but you won't know unless you talk about it. and you're already talking about this in comedy''#so thank you to my therapist for prescribing me ''aubrey aubergine sitcom'' for my troubles lmao
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My friend is leaving for a different state and I don't know what to feel
#its not like we meet that often either#we met once in the last two years#We weren't on talking terms for a year too#and yet yet i love her too much#she stopped talking to me for no reason and later during her birthday i texted her a long message she replied too and.. that's it#again during my birthday she sent me a huge text and i cried and i called her the next day#she was so skeptical about starting over again and almost disconnected the call#all because i simply told her that it will never be the Same again and that I'll always have the fear that she's gonna leace#*leave#yet we started talking again#though I'm the one doing most of the talking part#and guess what? this is not the first time this has happened. she stopped talking to me out of nowhere a few times before too#it took her months :)#does she still hold too much power over me? yes#would I die for her? yes#what am i on tonight omg i need to get a life#sorry having a moment#had to get that out#idk what to feel anymore#i want to die#abhi rants
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#anyway. i don't really want to make having adhd the center of my conversations and ruminations irl#so i hope you'll all excuse me a bit for taking up space with it here#it's really only been four days of this new reality and i still feel#a huge disconnect between my existing sense of identity#and the fact that i have adhd#and what that means for that sense of identity#if anything#so we're going to do some of that processing here#where i can talk about it and not feel like it's tied to who i am in brickspace#and hopefully i can figure out what it looks like to come to terms with this#at the very least until i can get myself into consistent therapy lmao#fai has adhd
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this is not fire emblem i just have to say
HOW IS IT
THAT WE GOT
CHRIS PRATT
FOR MARIO IN THE MARIO MOVIE
RIGHT? RIGHT
AND JAPAN GOT FUCKING MAMORU MIYANO IM FUCKIN LOSIN IT
#DCB Comments#us: chris pratt for real#japan: THE MAN THE MYTH THE LEGEND THE BELOVED MAMO-CHAN#i just found this out and my brain is trying to process this at all speed and failing miserably#everyone was like can we have ACTUAL voice actors for voice acting work#AND JAPAN IS OVER HERE /ON/ THAT WITH MAMO-CHAN???#im losing my mind right now yes im only just finding this out#i hadn't even thought abt watching that movie but im this close just listen to mamo's performance as mario#what is this sorcery what is this ABSOLUTELY BATSHIT INSANE DISCONNECT#west: what if we hired chris pratt that's a good name everyone knows#japan: what if we hired mamo-chan that's a perfect name everyone knows and will love#but it's also hilarious the man with the softest fucking voice i have ever heard in my life voices mario at all#it's going to take me all week to properly integrate that into my brain's recollection ability#i know im late to the party i just saw it in passing and after the huge backlash from chris pratt voicing mario#seeing japan on the TOTALLY opposite side of ''voice actors get va roles'' spectrum is just killin me#mario must be D A M N precious to them even for that movie bc they didn't pull their hiring punches#that's a level of care in the hire we will probably never see in the west im dead gjksjhfgjs
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anyway. it’s been a rough week
#on my last day of my family vacation and like… it was awful. emotionally#my family are so fucked up lmao and i barely got to talk to either of my sisters bc they both brought plus ones :) :)#and i’m still reeeeeeeling from one of my best friends from college revealing she had a full on affair w a coworker a few years ago#while she was living w her gf… and the fact she kept it secret from me for sooooo fucking long like come on#it explains everything it explains why i havent felt close to her in years there was always this between us. and in all that time the amount#of convos we had abt feeling disconnected and me thinking maybe even I had done something or failed somehow. NOPE!! she’s been lying to me#for years :)))) and years :)) and this isn’t even the first time she’s kept a huge secret LOL#AND. oh my god. my current roommate is finally at the end of her abusive relationship and is actively suicidal rn#she’s watching my cats alone while telling ppl she doesnt care if she lives or dies.. girl no offense but you HAVE to survive one more day#for the sake of my fucking cat. bitch. so i have to deal w that when i get home and it’s going to take up all my time. i just know it#UGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AND I STILL CANT FIND A THERAPIST!!!! ive been without one since mine quit being a therapist a year ago#😖😖😖😖😖😖😖 pray for me lmao!
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mob psycho(logical horror) 100
#Chatterbomb#There are some terrifying concepts in there they should be stretched more#That comic reminded me of junji itos The Long Dream#I’ll have to do a rewatch and write some stuff down#The mental prison stuff? Terrifying 10/10#Shigeo in fabricated world for six months is terrifying but I feel like being trapped in a static environment that only gets longer even#Though real world time has barely passed and you are all alone and you can’t escape and you can’t change the environment besides clawing at#The walls#day and night don’t pass with the sun and moon but your body is aging anyway#Nothing changes and you are running out of resources.#How long until you accept no one will come and save you? How much are you willing to starve while waiting for someone who left?#What if the world that trapped you won’t let you die? Starving for centuries without a sign of life#Thinking at some point you must have escaped. Or was it a dream within a dream? Can that happen? How many times have you fallen asleep?#How many dreams deep are you already in?#WHAT IF HE STARTED ROTTING#what if he was living in his own dead body!!!!! Would that be fucked up or what!!!!!#Something about reigen sparks a desire to see him experience pain disconnected with reality#The dreams in train hell are only getting longer. None of them are peaceful. He can’t tell if his hair is greying from aging or how much th#Dreams take a toll on him. How much time has really passed? Can he even rely on how his body is changing? Is it truly time who is#Responsible? Or is it him? Or the train itself?#What if all they found of him was a dryed up body with a beating heart and pulsating brain. Laying limp and clothing scattered#If I really indulge myself the scratched out days. When looked at from farther away. Still marking the potential days reads#Abandon all hope#ye who enter here#Which yeah that’s stretching into being ridiculous but it would be cool TO ME#Dante’s inferno you are so silly and special to me#I got really autistic here but <3 big fan of horror huge fan of suffering <333#ALSO!! taking inspiration from “heck” short film but the days might be counted by “sleeps” as time cannot accurately be measured in a place#That defies universal law#Ok I think I’m done now ok I’m normal probably
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and idk idk cause the way that fandom interacts with characters is so nasty cause i guarantee if ricky were put in the exact same position as ej this season y’all would not be as upset with him. cause yeah ej wasn’t around as much as he (or gina) wanted but that’s because he was busy having to quickly put together a show that a) none of his friends were cooperating on creating (except carlos briefly but like that quickly goes away wtf?) and b) means so much to gina as she co-stars in it and he wants to do his best for her. but suddenly he’s big and mean cause he spent less than two weeks not giving her his full attention and idk if your boyfriend has been with you for months now and you can’t deal with him being busy (with something that benefits you) for two weeks are you really ready for a relationship?
#especially with a senior who’s gonna have to put in extra work for college too so who will ALSO be a bit absent like#cause i’m not gonna blame her it’s her first relationship and she’s still young (arguably 16 or 15 if she was a late in the year baby)#so baby girl is doing fine in my eyes but like get a grip for two seconds!#i do like her before her rabid mob comes for me btw and if you’re gonna foam at the mouth bc someone recognizes a character’s flaws u need#to go outside and disconnect for a second#cause she isn’t a saint and that’s okay bc that’s the point!!!!!!! she’s growing and learning and she’s ALLOWED these mistakes it happens#she learns she benefits she becomes a better version of herself#it’s a huge disservice to not acknowledge a character’s flaws tho and bc of this fandom i’m p sure tim won’t be recognizing anyone’s flaws#this season at all! but anyway!#esp cause this is not a good show idnsisbsi like don’t get upset this badly if it’s already a messy series cause what’s the point#tag: i speakth#hsmtmts#hmm anti rina i suppose
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Books of 2023: DAEMON VOICES: ON STORIES AND STORYTELLING by Philip Pullman feat. the current knitting project!
Since I have both set aside my current revision project and successfully completed a beta read for a friend, I'm trying to catch up on knitting and reading! Said friend actually got me this book for last Christmas, and I've been waiting until I was between (writing) projects to start it.
#books#books of 2023#daemon voices#philip pullman#i....don't actually love philip pullman lol#golden compass did not make a huge mark on me as a small and i haven't felt compelled to seek out anything else by him#but i also don't say no to gifted or otherwise free books lmao and i'm always interested in hearing what writers say about writing/stories#this is a deceptively chunky book also so i'll be chipping at it for a while probably#(and it's disconnected essays so that's okay to do)#but i'm enjoying my fiction read a lot rn and i need to do a bunch of knitting so....this one might fall off the radar intermittently#i'm not mad about it XD#my friend seems to be enjoying it so i'll give it a go!!#we read a george saunders nonfic last year together and i got a lot more out of that than i was expecting going in#fingers crossed for same thing here
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