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huboi · 2 years ago

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GENSHIN BOYS WITH AN AUTISTIC S/O HEADCANONS (SUMERU BOYS)🌴

character(s) — cyno, tighnari, alhaitham, kaveh, wanderer

reader’s gender is not specified, nor is their race. I always try to make my fanfics as inclusive as possible

tw/cw — none ig, lmk if there are any

note(s) — I made this as an autistic person, however this may not include like every trait of someone with autism if that makes sense. PLS DON’T USE THIS FANFIC TO SELF DIAGNOSE URSELF WITH AUTISM, it’s important to get professionally diagnosed due to overlapping symptoms

CYNO

he would be the perfect boyfriend tbh

like if you have any hyperfixations u wanna talk about? he’s all ears

even if he’s busy playing tcg with someone, he doesn’t mind you talking about your hyperfixations with him

my man can multitask, it ain’t hard

if ur not a big fan of large crowded areas, he will make sure to walk with you in the least busiest parts of sumeru city

if you don’t like loud noises, like the crowded area, he will try his best to make sure he doesn’t bring you to loud areas

if anyone ever makes fun or belittles you for having autism.... he will beat them up/hj

he will mainly use his threatening aura to make them apologies or just make them leave you alone

no one messes with the mahamatras partner and gets away with it

you have comfort foods? he’s learning how to make them. whenever he can’t make them, he will buy them for you

you’re clingy? he loves that, hug him all you want, fidget with his hands all u want, he’s smitten asf

struggle to make eye contact? he’s ok with that too! he’s actually kinda used to it tbh, cause people can barely look him in the eye due to his status

overall, quite protective and just overall rlly loving, doesn’t rlly care u have autism, he still loves u as you are <33

TIGHNARI

when it comes to your sensory issues, he can relate, as a fennec hybrid his senses can easily get overwhelmed, so don’t worry about your sensory issues being a burden, he’s totally ok with it

have comfort foods? he will make them as much as he possibly can, he doesn’t mind how simple they are, he’s making them and sometimes he will buy them whenever he goes to the city

you stim? he will support you with it, if he’s feeling generous, which he usually is since ur his partner, he will let you fidget with his tail and ears, as long as ur gentle with them obviously

have hyperfixations? he’s all ears, quite literally, you can tell him all about whatever it is ur obsessed with no matter what he’s up to, whilst he’s studying the wildlife? he doesn’t mind, whilst he’s patrolling the forest? go ahead

anyone ever makes fun of you or is mean to you, he will sort them out with a good telling off. this sassy fox man will give them the lecture of a lifetime, he doesn’t mind if it’s for u tho :)

collei is supportive as well, she’s even more so understanding than the other forest rangers mainly due to her elazer, it’s not the same in any way shape or form, but she understands what it feels like to be different

ALHAITHAM

this man has traits that are quite similar to autism, so it doesn’t bother him that you have it, he’s supportive in his own way if you know what I mean

sensory issues? oh look, there’s now a pair of noise cancelling earphones for you, how strange, how’d that get there?

people would think that your stinking annoys him, newsflash it doesn’t. in a way he finds it kinda cute, but not in a belittling way if that makes sense

have hyperfixations? he can and will listen to you all day if he has to, and he would do it gladly too

doesn’t mind if ur clingy, he can read his book whilst you hug him on the couch or sum, kills two birds with one stone, he gets his research done, and you get cuddles

he’s actually a huge softy for you but won’t admit it to anyone, not even himself :))

KAVEH

kaveh is amazing, like best supportive boyfriend alert

if you have sensory issues, he can’t really help with the big crowds and loud noise but he’ll try his best to help you cope through it and give you distractions

like if ur in a crowded erea he’ll ask you to talk about your hyperfixations to him. if you don’t have hyperfixations he’ll just ask what you have done today

when it comes to taste sensory issues, he’ll try to avoid eating food that you dont like the smell of cause he doesn’t wanna overwhelm your nose. he will eat said food like that someplace else when ur not around

if you have comfort foods, he sadly can’t really buy them often since he doesn’t have a lot of money, but now and again as a special treat he can make it for you or buy it

clingy? great, he is too, cuddle him all you want, he’s not one to complain. wanna kiss him all over? go ahead, he embraces it

tries his best to understand how you work, he can sympathise with how frustrating things can be when people don’t quite understand you and how you work

you don’t like affection? that’s fine too, he will try to keep physical affection to a minimum as much as he possibly can, he can be affectionate in other ways tho

love language is probs spending personal time together, so that’s enough for him if u don’t want affection too

overall, 10/10 best boy and baby girl, recommend

WANDERER

ngl he’s not rlly the best, but he tries. it’s just really difficult for him to be nice since after all he’s been through, he tries tho, he really does

whenever you’re feeling overwhelmed by large crowds and/or noises, he will pick you up bridal style and bring you to nahidas place, where it’s quiet and no one else is there

like certain foods? he can’t cook, since he was made by ei who can’t cook to save her life, so he will just buy your comfort foods for you instead

want cuddles? it depends on his mood wether or not he’ll comply, if he’s in a good mood, yes, if he’s in a neutral mood, yes, if he’s in a bad mood, no.

whenever you stim, he sometimes watches, other times he looks away, he doesn’t wanna say anything mean to you by accident

if you can’t understand sarcasm, he’ll try his best to not use it around you, but it’s difficult sometimes since he has used sarcasm for so long

if you have hyperfixations and like to talk about them, he will listen, doesn’t mind hearing you talk about your interests, in a strange way it fascinates him, sometimes he asks questions other times he just stays silent and nods his head now and again in acknowledgment

if he ever hears anyone being mean to you, wether that be on purpose or not, he’s finna throw some hands, and he will win. tries not to actually fight them, tries to argue with them. he tries to fight less cause it makes nahida kinda upset

speaking of nahida, she’s amazing with you, like the best person to ever go to. she’s the god of wisdom after all, more or less knows how to take care of you during certain phases, he sometimes actually goes to her for advice on your behaviours and how best to support you, but you didn’t hear that from me

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majoryeager104 · 2 months ago

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heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ty for doing meh request :)

could you do another comfort fic for hawks and dabi with a user who gets more cheerful and active when sad/depppressed and have a hard time talking abt whats wrong ? I have a problem where i get rlly more acting like im fine when i feel like shit and it drives me kinda crazy cause no one can ever tell when im sad sooo yeah

i sowwy im bringing out de angsty comforty requests

ill be sending some silly fluff requests ater this one :D

hope ye have a lovely day :D

girl I do the same thing 😭 I’ll totally write it no need to apologize for the request I enjoy writing em 🫶🫶🫶

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Keigo

Keigo had known you for a while now. So much so that he could pick up a thing or two when it came to your behaviors. He’d been taught to read people in the hero’s commission training, so he could read just about anyone like an open book. You however, were a much harder book to read. Keigo doesn’t consider himself to be the best at communicating his thoughts or feelings, and it seemed to him like you struggled with the same thing, even in a similar way. His issue, was how he’d crack through that overly positive shell when he knew damn well you were hurting.

“hey y/nnnnnnn”

“hey Keigoooo”

Playing along with his teasing, you turned and grinned at him, the smile not reaching your eyes in the few seconds that the two of you made eye contact. Yep, you were upset. He watched as you turned back to the laundry you were currently folding. Busying and distracting yourself from the thoughts that you currently found suffocating. How should he do this? Was he gonna make it worse? He shook the thoughts away. It wasn’t the time to overthink.

He walked up behind you, snaking his strong arms around your waist and resting his chin on your shoulder. From this point forward, you could suppose he was winging it. What else could he do? So, needless to say the next words he said caused you to pause.

“what’s bothering you, y/n?”

You let out a sharp exhale- how’d he know? It’s not like you were trying to hide it, hiding it sort of…happened. Did he think you were trying to lie? Was he upset?

“You’re acting cheery…but there’s something wrong. You can tell me, yknow. It’s kinda my job to help people.” He smiled against your skin, placing a few gentle kisses on your cheek as he spoke. Of course he’d figured you out by now, why wouldn’t he?

“how’d you know?”

Your voice faltered as you tried to fake another smile,

“That pretty smile of yours didn’t reach your eyes”

You were equally surprised and…happy. You’d had this habit for ages, and growing up you usually just felt like your feelings were…forgotten. They were there, but they were tucked away behind the mask you used to cope. And yet, Keigo managed to see right through that mask…that was what made you happy, you supposed, was that he made efforts to understand you in ways no one else ever did.

And so, you told him what was bothering you, and he listened, all the while helping you with your laundry.

The help was nice, but his understanding and genuine nature was even better. Before you knew it, he’d cracked a few jokes and got you smiling again, for real this time.

“there it is”

He said in a song-song voice, pinching your cheek. Once again, you found yourself giggling at his antics, playfully swatting away his hand.

“There what is?”

He sighed, stepping close enough to place a quick, soft kiss on your forehead, before gently flicking the spot with a grin.

“That pretty smile of yours! The real one, this time.”

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Touya

Your smile looked…different. Touya noticed the change immediately, but he wasn’t sure what it meant. It wasn’t a gradual change, no, it seemed to him that all of a sudden your smiles were…fabricated. Maybe he was just reading between lines, but if you’ve seen someone’s genuine smile enough, you’ll know the inauthentic ones from a mile away, which he did. Touya had earned your smiles a million times, whether it be from his casual flirtations and jokes, or his sweet words he’d only ever let you hear. He knew that contagious grin from anywhere, but the smile you’d worn lately was not that.

But, he didn’t know what the hell to do about it. Should he ask you? Would that be weird? What if it was nothing, and he just ended up making you feel self conscious? So instead, he just quietly watched you busy yourself organizing your bookshelf.

Till he wasn’t quiet about it at least.

“what’s wrong?”

He of course changed his mind about keeping it to himself, because he couldn’t keep watching knowing something was wrong, whether he knew what it was or not.

You glanced over at him, and there it was again, that smile that didn’t quite fit. “what do you mean? Nothings-”

“you’re smiling weird. Stop it.”

you raised your eyebrows, but the quickly furrowed into a look of faux confusion. He scoffed at this, standing to walk towards where you sat. He knelt down next to you on the floor, his blue eyes boring into you. “just tell me what’s wrong.”

“nothings wrong”

“something’s wrong. Your usual smile’s much prettier. You know, the real one?”

“Touya-”

“aren’t people in relationships s’posed to be honest with each other about feelings and shit?”

you laughed nervously, going back to sorting, as if ignoring him would make him let it go. You probably should have known that wasn’t the case.

Rather than giving up and walking away, he grabbed the book in your hand, setting it down while his other hand cupped your cheek and forced you to look at him. “y/n.”

“…Yes?”

“spill it. I’m not stupid.”

his voice was gruff, and as always, it was also hard to ignore. So you told him what’d been bothering you, and he plopped down next to you, playing mindlessly with your hair as you spoke. Once you were done he looked at you with a frown. “That’s what you were worried about tellin me?” he sighed, a small smile forming on his face. He’d known what had happened, he just didn’t know it was bothering you. Of course, you didn’t make that easier by hiding how upset it made you, but nonetheless. “Man, you gotta get your shit together”

“Touya!”

“I mean- ugh, I’m not talking about that… I mean, you’re always asking me to be open with you, and I have…”

He glanced up at you, flicking your forehead. “Just… be honest next time, stupid. I’m always here anyways, so, don’t just smile and act like it’s okay when it’s not…”

You couldn’t help but sigh, a soft smile forming on your face too as you ruffled his soft hair. “you’re probably right…”

“I know I’m right, doll…love you”

“love you more”

he side eyed you for a moment, and you couldn’t help but grin, for real this time. He scoffed with a smile.

“don’t compete with me I will win.”

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I fuckin love this song 😭😭😭

a/n Lowkey(high key actually) hoping I can find someone who actually can see past the fake smiles like this yk 🥲 like if I had a Touya I’d never try to hide my feelings again I proooomisssse 🙏🙏🙏(I’d do it so he’d flick my forehead and call me doll 😁)

Banner creds to @ melwakame/Goto and @ Sharlock!

#mha dabi #bnha dabi #bnha touya #mha touya #touya todoroki #touya x reader #dabi x reader #hawks bnha #mha hawks #hawks x reader #bnha hawks #takami keigo #keigo takami #hawks mha #keigo x reader #mha keigo takami #mha takami keigo

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nettlebrand · 1 month ago

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I don't doubt that you studied psychology but I feel like you're missing the point here

Fiction is a powerful tool that can help someone, but it is also not something that is recommended to everyone. In itself, using fiction as a coping mechanism is also neither a good or a bad thing, it all depends on the effect it has on someone.

If a person who copes with fiction begins to rely on this form of coping to the extent that they trust a character more and avoid facing that which they are avoiding by using this character, that is not beneficial in the long run.

But if they are simply reading books when they're stressed out or if they reenact their traumatic experience through fiction, or if they like to indulge in taboo fiction to redirect their (intrusive) thoughts and feelings on fictional characters, then that's not an issue.

People like you seem to have forgotten what fandoms and fiction are mostly used for: escapism. And there's nothing wrong with using fiction and fandoms as escapism as long as, again, people don't start isolating themselves

And even psychology understands that! I'm sure you have learned that someone's thoughts and fantasies alone aren't always a direct sign that the person is (going to be) a criminal.

Alsoif you were there around the time the discourse really started popping off, then you would have realized that the people who changed the definition of proship are the ones who started the discourse first. The label "proship" wouldn't exist if "antiship(name)" didn't appear first. The same people who started it over ships changed their narrative to appeal to emotion, of course no one defends actual real pedophilia and abuse but that's not what people are doing at all.

Second of all: I think you should have said that overly relying on social media as coping mechanism is not beneficial, and that it is a temporary coping mechanism if at all, but forming connections and socializing with people over shared interests or similar experiences is not an issue.

However, you claim that (all) proshippers socialize with "people who consume romanticized SA" and don't even understand that one's perception of romanticization is subjective. Furthermore, art isn't a product to be consumed. Art is not content.

Third: you're also implying that people who do struggle with their trauma should keep their feelings and experiences to themselves because, as you said, they will be harassed. Instead of calling out this harassment, you shame people for wanting to connect with others online through art, and I doubt that is something psychology will teach anyone.

And lastly: there is this huge contradiction of you knowing proship is a fandom label which describes a stance in fandoms, but that you also privately used to "proship" as coping mechanism. How do you use a fandom stance as coping mechanism?

Besides, judging someone basd on your own feelings of disgust in a law career is going to cost your job because that's highly unprofessional. You judge people based on whether or not they broke the law, not on moralities or feelings.

While people can be sued for writing fiction (and real people fiction), it is considered a waste of time and effort to go after it. As long as you don't show it to companies or want people in the business to react to it, you should be fine.

If the text or image breaks the obscenity law (USC 18 §1446a) that is very different. Just recently, a website owner was charged with 480 months (or 40 years) in federal prison because his website contained stories and drawings involving children enaged in an explicit sexual conduct. (see USA vs Arthur).

Such extreme cases are rare though and what is "obscene" is defined in the Miller test, and a text or artwork has to satisfy all 3 conditions to count as obscene. There is also criticism of the Miller test because

even the U.S. Supreme Court and Legislatures have had difficulty defining the term

The test denies people due process of law because they cannot know whether the material they distribute or possess is obscene until after the jury returns its verdict

The first two prongs of the test require the audience to be turned on and grossed out at the same time

What is "obscene" is not cleary defined and too vague

obscenity crimes are victimless

The law can be used to target specific groups. For example, in the 1930s, 90 percent of those charged with obscenity were Jewish

Yet you and all the other moral panic criers seem to find many of such law breaking cases and assume they all fulfill the Miller prong test, and I can't help but wonder:

Where do you find it? Because this isn't stuff you'll commonly find through a google search or on social media. You would have to know a spcific website's existence somehow to be aware of what's posted there because it isn't advertised publicly at all.

Well, for one, don't come into my ask and question what I do in my personal life or what you think I've studied. Again, studying psychology doesn't change your mindset it just makes you understand people. Same with law, if you honestly think my personal life and professional life mix at all, you are wrong. And if you think lawyers of both sides can not judge their clients or their crimes, then you are naive and stupid, and you clearly don't understand what lawyers do and why and how we do it. Even criminal defense attorneys understand that they people who often defend bad people.

I also don't live in the USA. So, any argument you brought up there is immediately invalid. In fact, never once did I state that obscene material is illegal and should go to a criminal or civil trial. I don't even study american cases. I actually believe that opposite of that, and unless it was drawn cp that was of a real minor or being shown to minors, I don't think it should be brought to a trial. You are assuming my mindset and beliefs on something that I actually have the opposite opinion about. While there are a few and in-between cases of people being charged with them even in my own country their just deter others from being so public about it, especially because minors are getting easier access to the internet. Multiple times I stated that in private it's okay to write about obscene material.

You all are missing the main point of my argument. My main point is that you should not be pushing out the idea and belief that enjoying material that romantizes abuse and publishing it in an easily assessible place to minors with no warnings or MDNI.

You said it yourself that fiction is a form of escapism, and if that escapism is dangerous, it can be incredibly harmful to you and to others. Escapism isn't the answer to a traumatic event, many disorder that make you "escape" prove this correct. And while yes, it can be incredibly help it again is a temporary coping mechanism. Just like self harm is a temporary coping mechanism that is also harmful. You wouldn't post self harm pics on the internet for everyone to see so why do that with proshipping or material like drawn CP incest or rape?

You also stated how do you cope privately with a fandom stance, I personally just cannot think of the English word that compiles what I'm trying to say in one word which is why I used "proshipping" as the word. Because a lot of proshippers write and draw about abuse romantically, which is what I was thinking of. I apologize if that word wasn't used correctly again I couldn't think of an English word.

"This is something psychological will teach everyone." You have clearly never taken a clinical psychology class or even a basic one because no. We aren't taught that "everything is sunshine and rainbows even if it's from a mental disorder." And "hold hands because even though we all cope differently, it's all valid!" We are taught the opposite. Not every coping mechanism is a good one, and heavily engaging in material about your trauma in a positive light is a very temporary coping mechanism. We are also taught to not post those types of coping mechanisms online because we aren't fucking stupid. We know the internet will makes things worse, you will br bullied harassed and attacked for that. It will just make your mindset more awful and there are many many studies showing this. It's basic psychology. It's similar to alchoal that if you over induge, it makes you bad, but some people do it once in a while.

Also, this entire time, I haven't brought up proshippers who DON'T have trauma and still want to draw obscene material. What excuse do they have besides enjoying it and romantizing abuse?

Again this isn't some conservative moral stance. Objectively speaking what purpose do proshippers have pushing that idea that romantizing abuse like child porn, rape, and incest in a public space easily assessiable to minors besides enjoying it and romantizing others abuse?

#proship discussion #proship discourse

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verdemoun · 6 months ago

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Hiii been a minute since I asked something. I know Mary Beth didnt timewarp (it makes me both happy and sad 😞) but if she did what would it be like (I'm very interested in how she and Jack would interact. Pls pls pls)

Okay iiiiif Mary-Beth timewarped:

Mary-Beth was murdered by a stalker following the success of her novel mere weeks after John saw her in Saint Denis. In this AU, this stalker would later be the bounty that successfully got the one-up and murdered Sadie Adler, too, who was in a recklessly blind rage trying to avenge one of the woman who had supported her following the death of her husband.

Mary-Beth was obviously traumatized by this experience, clinging onto Arthur in tears when he was there ready to pick her up. Being a well renowned author already in 1907, she was easy to locate. She originally stayed with Arthur due to him having the spare room, but despite loving the space and generally what a nice house it was she realized she couldn't handle being alone after the experience. She moved in with Hosea, Bessie, and of course, Kieran (later, Javier too).

Mary-Beth was truly had symptoms of agoraphobia, including severe monophobia. She had to be with at least one other person or she would get panicky, even if she knew others were in the house but not in the same room. Even with others, she struggled to leave the house.

But she was lucky in that being around a group was exactly what she needed. She had, privately, gone through a very similar thing when she left the gang: learning to be alone again and coping with that anxiety. Being with the VDLs was one of the only times if her life she felt safe, and being with the gang again was a balm for her soul.

Shout-out to her and Kieran just besties. Autism be damned my boy felt a debt needed to be repaid. Mary-Beth was his best friend and closest thing he had to an ally in canon era, and if she was hurting he was going to be there for her. They were joined at the hip and some of the glares Kieran would give people when Mary-Beth needed space really reminded them he was as much an outlaw as them once upon a time. Femme-nb solidarity they share clothes.

Predictably she becomes an ao3 queen, secretly writing sequels to her own novels. She also earns a tidy living writing dime-store erotica, which she reads aloud to Kieran to proofread. Hosea and Bessie both sit at the kitchen table drinking their coffee very slowly when she's proof-reading because - well she's a damn good writer.

At first Jack is a little bit intimidated because 'holy shit since when was Mary-Beth Leslie Dupont what do you mean an aunt I don't remember is the Leslie Dupont'. You meet one of your favorite authors only for them to laugh, affectionately say they haven't seen you since you were thiiiiis tall, that they remember changing your diapers, only to then enthusiastically ask to see your writing the second your pain-in-the-ass well meaning cousin drops that you write too.

After getting over a lot of his own awkwardness and other assorted issues, Jack will go to Hosea's because really all his favorite people are there. Hosea might be his papa and go-to for new book series he's obsessed with, or really anything he's reading, but he loves sneaking looks at whatever Mary-Beth's writing and sometimes very rarely sheepishly asking her to read his stuff which makes her whole face light up in the most overdramatic gasp yes of course imaginable.

He also does not know he sits there like an excited puppy waiting for her reactions and comments because she is so positive and supportive of his writing and poor boy craves validation. It could be red hot garbage and she would still give him an essay of what she loved about it before gently making corrections.

They are losers your honor Jack and Mary-Beth sitting in Hosea and Bessie's chairs respectively in the reading room parallel play style both frantically writing and teasing each other with spoilers.

#rdr2 timewarp au #mary beth gaskill

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nayialovecat · 1 year ago

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The Ink Demonth 2023 - Day 12. Angel

Day 12. Angel Crossover: W.I.T.C.H. (comics) This could be true, if it weren't for the fact that Joey is probably canonically gay (but I'm not sure if it's a fact).

And now a bit of history. Comics W.I.T.C.H. in Poland were published for about ten years from 2002 and were extremely important to me. I bought this newspaper from the first to the last issue - I skipped maybe 3-4 issues when I was on vacation and couldn't find a shop that had the current press (I'll fill these holes someday). For me, this series was extremely important and played a big role for many reasons - firstly, it was how I learned to draw human figures and my style still somewhat resembles the style of W.I.T.C.H. Secondly - reading this comic coincided with the moment when I first started to suffer from depression and reading about magic, about friendship that works and that friends don't stab you in the back - made it easier for me to cope with reality. Finally, thirdly - I was then very into magic and I was looking for it in a more interesting form than the one presented in Harry Potter (where magic, by the way, is very boring and monothematic). In each issue, apart from the next part of the comics, there were interesting horoscopes from different parts of the world, methods of fortune telling and interesting facts about various magical things. This was the beginning of my collection of myths, spells, creatures and magical plants. But then the comic stopped being published, and then that nasty French series came out, which is one big abomination - and I completely forgot about W.I.T.C.H. for many, many years... But then, some time ago, my dad, who was cleaning out my old room (where he has his "office"), found a huge pile of my magazines and decided to bring them to me - among them were all my issues of W.I.T.C.H. magazine. When my daughter saw it, she was immediately delighted and asked if I could read it to her. Reading comics is difficult and unattractive to the listener, so I thought she would get boring quickly - but no... we're halfway through the first saga (about Merdian) and Ursa keeps asking for more. And when I read it to her, I take a sentimental journey back to my childhood, I'm moved again by the stories, I laugh at the jokes, I discover that I look at the characters differently, but like them the same, although for completely different things.

That's why I decided to include such an important element that made me who I am now in this year's Ink Demonth - and the slogan Angel seemed more than appropriate. Interestingly, the previous entry also fit here, and in order to include the Phantom of the Opera, I had to find another place for it, because - yes - it lost to W.I.T.C.H. However, this inconspicuous comic book for teenagers had a greater impact on me, my character, interests and who I am today - than the musical I saw several years ago or the book I read only this year. Sad but true.

I must admit that I had fun drawing and colouring this. And if someone asks: my favourite character is Will - not only because she is redhead and is (like me) a Capricorn, but many threads from her story were similar to mine. This hasn't changed. However, today I look more kindly at Cornelia, whom I once disliked, and a little less favorably at Irma, whom I once liked very much (the way she treats Martin at the beginning is terrible). While drawing them, I realized how unfairly Hay Lin is treated - her guardian outfit is the worst and least highlights her charms. However, after upgrading the outfits, she gains the most, while Cornelia's and Will's outfits are terrible. By the way, Taranee, what did they do to your hair, tell me? By the way, it was even fun to do something similar to the SATIM comic - was this comic always so electric yellow? It was very difficult for me to adapt to this...

Bendy and the Ink Machine (c) Joey Drew Studios Inc. W.I.T.C.H. (c) Disney Italy Sammy and the Ink Machine (c) Nayia Lovecat

#The Ink Demonth #Bendy and the Ink Machine #Sammy and the Ink Machine #BATIM #SATIM #WITCH #Will Vandom #Irma Lair #Taranee Cook #Cornelia Hale #Hay Lin #Bendy #Ink Bendy #Ink Demon #Sammy #The Ink Demonth 2023 #crossover

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silversongcomic · 3 months ago

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2018, that was my last post. I've been doing a lot of soul searching the past few years. Life's been hard, but who here hasn't felt the that things have gotten rather tough?

So what the excuse for the absence? Why did I stop drawing) why did I let my comic ROT! Just good old trauma. You know the saying that the grass is always greener on the other side? Well I guess I fell for that old adage. I took a job, closer to home with better pay and seemingly better prospects, and within 18 months it began to eat away at me from within. All my flaws left magnified, my every step under scrutiny. At first you tell yourself to grown up and get on with it, be an adult and learn to cope. But it's taken until now to truly understand that a part of me knew something was wrong and that I was hollowing myself out.

I got pregnant in 2018, had my boy in 2019 which was classified as a traumatic birth. We both nearly died and mainly due to noone hearing my concerns, I knew something was a miss and I was right. I won't get lost in the weeds. Tired and in survival mode I trudged on, went back to work.

Then you spot it, the same pattern, the way the company likes to remove people they don't think are a good fit. No meetings addressing the issue, just cutting their involvement in mainline projects, assigning their work to others, cutting their dept budgets or assigning them unreachable goals and then you see it happening to you, and you KNOW what comes next. It either a 'redudancy' or an off-site sacking followed by a fake ass company wide email about how YOU decided to leave the company to pursue your passions.

I get pulled into a manditory 6 months review meeting to check how I'm doing after coming back from maternity leave, only to served a redundancy marked the same day as my birthday. Happy Birthday to me! 🎉

I saw it coming, but it STILL stung. "It's not you, it's just business" but you know that's not true. These smiling assassins have performed this play by the book to everyone else who wasn't well received or who didn't play ball. But they don't like confrontation, they'd rather the problem just disappeared. They want me to disappear...

Cue COVID!

The chaos, the stress, the fear, the isolation. The world changes, but you're still hurting. The healing doesn't really come. You feel broken and damaged but you have a child to look after, so you're stuck survival mode.

I had not found joy in my creations for sooooo looooooong, and that hurt. The guilt, the anger, the sadness trapped in a loop.

But in the past year or so, I've felt that spark start to ignite again. The path to healing hasn't been straight forward but similar to that of an artist. The wobbly line that climbs upwards so you progress. with leaps and setbacks along the way but the healing is happening and I am starting to recover, I'm starting to feel 'me' again.

Why'd it have to take years? Who knows, but looking back on this blog, my deviantart account, my comic, I'm feeling that enjoy again. That cruel voice in my head quietening. I've lost so much time, or have I? Is this what was needed, this very painful journey or growth? Had that toxic job consume too much unnoticed and this was what was needed to repair? Who knows.

What I do know is that I took a look and decided on what I wanted to be not want people expect. I did the same for my art. The worse part was that I ever let them make me believe my art wasn't good enough. Perhaps I wasn't the right fit, but I and the art was still good.

Getting this out has been healing. And once I hit post it'll feel real. And even if noone reads it, I'll know it out there in the void, it's been aired and I can move on finally and stop dwelling on the past and get on with it all!

If you stuck it out this far, kudos! Give yourself a pat on the back! That was a long read!

#silversong #my art #trauma #post traumatic stress

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sugarfiendgfx · 3 months ago

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Trauma's a bitch ...

2018, that was my last post. I've been doing a lot of soul searching the past few years. Life's been hard, but who here hasn't felt the that things have gotten rather tough?

I get pulled into a manditory 6 months review meeting to check how I'm doing after coming back from maternity leave, only to be served a redundancy marked the same day as my birthday. Happy birthday to me! 🎉

Cue COVID!

I had not found joy in my creations for sooooo looooooong, and that hurt. The guilt, the anger, the sadness trapped in a loop.

If you stuck it out this far, kudos! Give yourself a pat on the back! That was a long read!

#silversong #art block #my art #healing #post traumatic stress #trauma

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charmedreincarnation · 2 years ago

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hi!i'm new in your account.

i'm so tired of my 3d,i want to enter the void state,as someone who's manifested nothing,who's obsessed with void,who' lazy af,who's always complains and all that shit,what you would recommend?

i would be happy to have an answer, I don't know what to do, I don't wanna live as me.

and i'm bad person, everyone hates me,i want to be loved :(

Ok long response incoming!!

If you're someone who is feeling stagnant and is looking for a way to break free from your 3D reality and enter into the Void state, I have a few tips for you.

Firstly, is to find your inner calm. It's important to be mindful and practice mindful exercises, such as meditating or even just focusing on your breath. This can help to quiet your thoughts and tap into the creative energy of the Void.

Second, take time out for yourself to relax and reflect. We often forget to take time out of our day to focus on ourselves and our inner needs. Find activities that help you relax and rejuvenate, such as walking in nature, art, reading, writing or even just having a hot cup of tea.

Thirdly, focus on harnessing your intent and visualizing your desired outcome. The Void is all about potential waiting to be realized. Spend time visualizing what it is you want to create. Get into a space of stillness and focus on sending out your intentions into the world. Believe that you can bring into existence what it is you wish to experience and attract it into your life.

Lastly, don't be afraid to take action when necessary. The Void is a creative space, and you don’t have to put it any work if you don’t want but you’re already speaking negative about yourself and habits so maybe you should to put in some work to manifest the things you desire. Be willing to step outside of your comfort zone and trust in your intuition to show you what is possible.

As for your last two statements, outside from an loa perspective, I've seen many people in similar situations where they start to feel like everyone around them hates them or don't have the same love for them that they would like. It can be a difficult situation to deal with, and trust me I would know and I’ve been here.

it is important to acknowledge that feeling of being unloved and take ownership of your own emotions - no one else is responsible for how you feel, not in a harsh way but in a way I mean that we create animosity toward ourselves. I promise no one feels towards you what you’re projecting that others feel towards you. All this is coming internally.

Second, try to shift your mindset and focus on more positive thoughts like how much you do love yourself, what you appreciate about yourself, and how you are unique. Remind yourself that everyone has faults, but that you are worth loving.

Thirdly, be kind to yourself. No one will love you more unconditionally than you can for yourself. You are a soul stuck in this body remember that, you might as well treat yourself with maximize kindness and love okay? Take the time for self-care and do something for yourself that brings you joy. Take a relaxing bath, read a good book or write in a journal. Journaling can help process your thoughts and emotions, so taking the time to write out your feelings can be beneficial in understanding your emotional state and helping address any underlying issues. I also want to add going outside and laying in the sunlight and listening to birds chirp and life’s beauty helps! I hate to minimize depression and self hatred to being solved by going outside but I promise the sunlight and earth helps from personal experience

Finally, if you feel like no one loves you, and that you are bad person, try to think of someone that does care about you and show appreciation for them. You can also try reaching out to a friend or even a mental health professional to discuss how you feel and get some guidance and support.

I know it can be hard to cope with feeling unloved, but it is possible to take steps to cope with this feeling and build better relationships with others and yourself. Remember, you are never alone and there is someone out there that cares about you. If you ever need someone to talk to, please reach out.

Now through an loa scope.

As we know law of attraction states that your thoughts and emotions are the most powerful tools for creating the life that you want. For example, if you are feeling bad about the current situation you are in, the law of attraction says that if you focus on the positive aspects of the situation, you will start to attract more of what you want.

For example, if you think to yourself “I don’t want to live as myself because everyone hates me”, try to shift your focus to why people may not hate you. Maybe you are an incredible listener or have a generous spirit. Whatever it is, focus on those qualities and start to believe in yourself.

It is also important to speak positively about yourself and the situation. It can feel silly at first but studies have shown that speaking positively about yourself is one of the most powerful tools for creating change in your life. So instead of telling yourself “I am bad person” try replacing that thought with something like “I am doing my best and I will get through this”.

As you start to focus on the positive aspects of the situation and tell yourself encouraging words, you will start to feel your energy shifting. You will become more confident in yourself and be able to take control of your life. You will know that even if people don’t always love you, you have the power to make your life something you can be proud of.

Even scientifically (long study ahead sorry I’m a psychology nerd :p)

Smiling, even when we’re feeling down, can actually be beneficial to our mental health. This phenomenon is known as the Facial Feedback Hypothesis, which is a suggested psychological phenomenon derived from the study of Charles Darwin, where he suggested that facial expressions can influence emotional states.

So how does this work exactly? According to the Facial Feedback Hypothesis, when we move certain muscles in our face, it can trigger the autonomic nervous system to react and send signals to our brain to change the emotional state we’re in. For example, when we smile, certain muscles in the face need to be contracted. This then sends signals to the brain, which in turn releases endorphins—a neurotransmitter associated with pleasure and happiness—in the body. This then can make us feel better.

Studies have also been conducted to further support this hypothesis. One of these studies found that even forcing a person to smile—even though they may not be feeling happy—can lead to cognitive changes in behavior which resulted in a positive emotional state. So even if you don’t necessarily feel like smiling, if you force yourself to do it then, according to this study, it can lift your spirits.

Another study has also made the connection between facial expressions and mood. In this study, participants were asked to maintain a neutral expression while appreciating different positive and negative images. The results of the study showed that when participants were asked to maintain a neutral expression, they tended to be less impacted by the images that were presented. On the other hand, when participants were asked to smile while looking at the images, they felt their emotions were impacted more significantly. This is thought to have been because of the Facial Feedback Hypothesis, as the act of smiling activated their brain’s reward system, leading them to feel more emotionally engaged with the images they were looking at. I’m not saying smile through your misery, I’m saying there are ways to help you no for one not feel the need to hate yourself because you are so loved. I just want you to understand that you have the power to create positive change in your life and it’s a liberating feeling, and I hope that this knowledge helps you feel better when faced with difficult circumstances.

The tongue is powerful and you found the law so you can make the best of your life and be your dream self but that change starts within.

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mbti-notes · 2 years ago

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Anon #1 wrote: I wanted to thank you first for your amazing blog. Whenever someone engages me about mbti or cognitive functions, your blog is what I swear by and reference, and I encourage them to read in case they’re interested in having a more thorough and wholesome understand of type theory. I wanted to ask you a couple of questions about severely underdeveloped dominant Fe due to childhood trauma. How does it present itself? And have you noticed any correlation between that and BPD? I know that trauma in early childhood us one of the factors in BPD, and at the same time, is a factor that hinders dominant function growth and ego development—leading into unhealthy reliance on defense mechanisms. I know that mental health issues and type theory are not necessarily connected, but it was a hypothesis that I came up with and I’d like to know your opinions on. Thanks again for all your time and effort.

Anon #2 wrote: Hello mbti-notes! I have a question regarding typing LGBT people living in isolated, homophobic or transphobic places or in the past (old times, old movies or books, etc). Perhaps it could help me in the path of typing myself too. Would living in such situation have an impact on the character's type or functions, or how it would be perceived? In other words, would a sensor type vs an intuitive type, a feeler types vs a thinker type, a Ne-Si type vs a Ni-Se type, or a Ti-Fe vs Te-Fi type act, feel or cope differently if stuck in those situations? Which functions would be more impacted or impactful? Would there be a (type or function-specific) behavioral pattern? And would it make the person be perceived as a different type? For example, would it make a T (thinker) look more introverted, or more F (Feeler)? Is it the person's type that determines how that person would react/feel/cope in such situation, or it's the situation that makes the person look like a specific type or go through an odd or unhealthy function development? Thanks a lot.

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I generally don't like to speculate about connections between type and mental disorders due to the overall lack of research in this area (it is not a popular topic of study). When I respond to questions related to the field of psychology, I try to ensure that the claims I make are predicated on some credible research, and I'm not aware of any studies that link Jungian type to BPD or LGBTQ+ matters.

If you're going to talk about whether someone is "healthy" or "unhealthy" psychologically, it's good to know the word "adjusted" and how that looks.

A well-adjusted person is someone who possesses the necessary traits, skills, and resources to adapt confidently and competently to the circumstances of their life. People who are generally well-adjusted in life tend to feel more happy and fulfilled. These people all look somewhat similar regardless of type because there's actually only a few pathways to happiness and fulfillment.

A poorly adjusted person is someone who lacks the necessary traits, skills, and resources to adapt well to the circumstances of their life. People who are not well-adjusted tend to be more dysfunctional and, thus, more likely to feel unhappy and unfulfilled. These people present much more diverse characteristics and traits because there are innumerable paths to becoming a poorly adjusted person.

Adjustment is a spectrum because maladaptive cognitive-behavioral patterns can take many forms and degrees of severity. Because there are so many interrelated factors that can influence a person's ability to adjust (trauma being only one of many), there is no reliable way to predict how the effects of trauma will present behaviorally. You'd have to consider factors like:

the age at which trauma occurred

the kind of trauma and damage

the severity of trauma and consequences

whether the trauma was one time or continuous

subjective experience of the pain

subjective interpretation of its meaning

available traits, skills, and resources for coping

learned attachment style from primary caregivers

every experience of relationship failure in life

how symptoms of dysfunction changed over time

In other words, every person is an individual, and each finds their own way of dealing with their unique set of life challenges. For example, how might Fe doms deal with early childhood trauma or continuous discrimination? Some Fe doms might become very needy or clingy. Some might become very fearful or guarded. Some might become attention seekers. Some might become paranoid or delusional. Some might live secret double lives...

Humans are highly creative creatures, so the list of possibilities for how to cope with pain and suffering is quite, quite long. The reason there is no one-size-fits-all mental health therapy is that human psychology is very complex.

Anon #2, if you are wanting to do type assessment, your approach is flawed because it's backwards. You are treating type as some kind of computer program that reliably produces the same behavioral results in every person of the same type. Doing this basically erases the complexity of how individuals respond to adversity in reality. Your approach also belies an overemphasis on using superficial behaviors to identify type, which is very prone to error. The method of assessment you want to use isn't the method I use, so I can't answer your question. If you want my help with assessment, follow the instructions on the contact page.

IMO, type isn't meant to be used to predict exactly what a person will do, rather, it ought to be used to achieve a deeper understanding of how a person interpreted the meaning of their experiences. Many laypeople are drawn to typology because they want a simplified way to know people. My approach is the opposite: I use type to reveal people's deeper complexity.

The most I'm willing to say is that trauma is one major factor that has great potential to interfere with psychological development. Since there are many ways in which psychological development can be affected, there are many possible ways the effects of trauma can present in any given individual. If you want to understand the symptoms of BPD better or the negative effects of experiencing prejudice/discrimination, I suggest that attachment style is a more useful concept than type.

You want me to make generalizations but, personally, I hate making generalizations about people. I understand that there are reasons to want generalizations, e.g., to feel less alone in knowing that others have had similar struggles. However, intellectually, I don't find generalizations very useful, and worse, they often lead people to draw biased/flawed conclusions (e.g. stereotyping). Thus, when I'm asked to generalize about people, I usually end up responding with something along the lines of "don't do that".

#unhealthy #adjustment #trauma #borderline personality disorder #lgbtq #psychology #mental health #mental disorders #ask #assessment

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satanicchristiancult · 1 year ago

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Heartstopper 7-30, and why it is that representation matters

Or: the perspective from a queer and mentally ill teen about figuring out your future and moving forward from the past, through an analysis of a singular chapter of Heartstopper

Alternatively: a queer, mentally ill teen projecting their issues and analyzing life itself through a comic about queer, mentally ill teens

Warnings: spoilers for all of the comic version of Heartstopper up until the most recent update (September 11, 2023), past self-harm, issues with self-image, and unspecified eating disorders (all of them both in fiction and in real life). (The last one isn’t really spoken about, but the topic lingers around this essay, keep that in mind).

It’s the second time I’m writing this. Bear with me. It’s long. You’ve been warned. Also, as you can see, this was written over the course of two days, and took multiple days for me to clean up and post. It’s no longer Monday 11th, so there are inconsistencies.

Today I woke up like any other Monday morning. Grabbed my phone at 5 am before getting ready for class. Today is update day for Heartstopper, as is every 1st, 11th, and 21st of each month. I looked up the chapter on Tumblr, read half of it, got ready for the day, read the rest of the update, and kept going with my day.

Usually, I wouldn’t think much about it throughout the day. I would think about it and re-read the chapter during the time between classes, or during lunch. Today was different. We’re in the middle of exam season. Today’s exam had to be done in a very small amount of time, only an hour. All of it was writing and analyzing. It’s 20% of the grade for the class. I spent 15 minutes of said exam just thinking about Heartstopper.

Here’s the thing about me. I have the tendency to fall in love with fiction. I will find something new, a book, a series, whatever, and consume all of it, engage with the fandom, consume all of it again, and repeat the whole thing until I find something new.

I engaged with Heartstopper a while after it had first been presented to me. Just like right now, it was the middle of exam season and I needed to get my mind off of things. I opened Tapas, which I often use to read things, mostly fan comics. I saw that Heartstopper was in there for free. I thought it was odd, but I was bored and tired, so I began reading.

I read the whole thing in two days, only three hours or something like that. At first, it became something like a comfort for me. A world that resembled the real world but made it its ideal version. Heartstopper presented me with a dream-like gay relationship, filled with self-discovery, varied characters, and, once again, an idealized version of the world.

It was so liberating at first. What if the world was like that? What if we didn’t have to fear people that much? What if life could be so filled with love?

Then it got dark.

Holy- then it got dark. It broke me, but I loved it. Gosh, I really did. I love stories about mental health. I love reading about how life can break a human being, but at the same time, how it can slowly and carefully put them back together. Sure, life is not perfect, and therefore, a person will never be fixed, and they will never be “how they used to be”, but life can persevere through darkness and pain. Life can get better. That’s what I chose to believe.

I’ve always related more to Charlie than to any other Heartstopper character, (aside from Tori, but she doesn’t really count as a Heartstopper character). We both struggle with similar issues, and we both deal with them in similar ways. Unhealthy coping mechanisms, baby~!

This arc of Nick trying to choose a university is significant to me, mostly because I’m having the same issues as him. I’m supposed to have figured out what I’m going to do, and I’m supposed to know where that’s going to be. I don’t know anything. I know what area I’m interested in, but that’s still not enough.

Currently, Nick is touring universities with his friends, trying to make plans for the future, while figuring out whether or not he’s willing to leave behind the people he loves for the sake of his education and personal growth.

That struck a nerve in me. I’m also terrified of leaving behind my friends, who are essentially my family. I want to be the best version possible of me. I want to have these new, meaningful, and life-altering experiences.

When I was younger, I used to think that I wouldn’t make it far. I thought that I would die young and I would be at fault for that. I found hope and comfort whenever I thought about college. I always thought/dreamed about leaving everything behind, going to the US, and living the “American Dream”. I never cared whether or not it was doable, it was my dream and it was going to happen one way or another.

Now I’m older. Somehow still alive. More bitter than before. Sadly enough, I don’t allow myself to dream about those things anymore and still believe that they can and will happen. Now, my perception of the US has been broken and I’m truly afraid of even going there.

Back to Heartstopper 7-30, Nick and the gang visit the University of Leeds. Nothing seems to particularly catch their eye, but they speak with a student, and things change.

Nick gets asked the question. That haunting question that almost seems to chase you down. “What are you thinking of studying?” Then comes the dreaded answer, “I’m still undecided.” Lucky for him, he doesn’t seem to take it in a bad way or overanalyze the situation.

How the social life is described to Nick attracts him to the university. He’s interested in the sports facilities, because he’s our rugby boy, so of course he would be. The person he’s talking to tells him that their partner is in the team, and that they are really enjoying it.

That’s the moment in which, even if isn’t consciously, Nick makes his decision. He turns around and sees a group of students playing rugby. One of them turns around and waves at them, signifying that they are the other one’s partner. The rest of the group just looks at them and smile.

They just seem to accept each other no matter what. They show affection between them and don’t even question it. That means the world to Nick. That’s everything he wants. A community. To be accepted. To be able to engage in one of his favorite activities, rugby, and not have to hide who he truly is. He sees himself as one of them. Straight up, imagines himself in their shoes, and he finally finds what he’s looking for.

A year ago, I started telling myself that I should figure things out. I went to a fair with multiple international universities that offered different programs for students from my country. At the end of the day, the dream never fully dies, I guess. I still want that god-forsaken college experience that appears in books and movies. That feeling of community. Anything.

I found this public university in the middle of nowhere, but it truly did captivate me. I don’t even remember why. Cool mascot, a nice ambiance. Good enough. I looked them up on Instagram and fell in love. Their posts were truly everything I had ever dreamed of. Community, acceptance, fun, pure joy, and happiness on that campus.

Then, what meant the most to me: an LGBTQIA2S+ organization. Queer-friendly spaces. Monthly meeting just to talk. I can’t stress enough how relevant this one was for me at first, a bingo game night with drag queens.

Where I come from, people know that you’re queer and you’re dead, honestly. You will never hear the end of it. We isolate ourselves because we know that otherwise, we’d have to fight daily just to be tolerated, to be heard. We’d have to argue why our existence is okay.

This idea of being out, the whole concept to me is wild. I genuinely never considered it a possibility. Being openly queer, alongside other openly queer people is something revolutionary in my head. I do mean it.

I understand Nick. Finally finding a place where you think that you could actually belong is such a liberating experience. The idea of “I could be there”, “I could be one of them”, “I could be myself and not have to worry”. It changes everything. It genuinely does.

I truly do hope that Nick finds himself at home in Leeds. I wish him only the best. May he figure out what he wants to do, and may he be happy doing it.

Now, time for. Charlie.

He barely even appears on this update, yet, his actions are incredibly relevant, both to his character development and to all of the people reading.

Charlie’s mental health has been all over the place, that’s something everyone who has ever interacted with Heartstopper knows. Most fans can also say that they relate to this. A pretty big amount of the fans of this saga would say that they consider themselves LGBTQIA2S+ and/or people who are currently or in the past have struggled with their mental health.

The beauty of Heartstopper is that we get to see these characters grow, not only grow older, but also grow emotionally. They get to learn about themselves. They get to battle their internal conflicts and win them.

Charlie means a lot to a lot of people. He means a lot to me. He is, in some way or another, a reflection of myself. My issues. My life. Which is really worrying, actually, but it does mean something. People relate to him. He is a good enough representation of mental health issues for people to be able to identify with him.

In this update, Charlie wants Nick to see him without his shirt on for the first time ever. This is such a big step for him. For his recovery. Charlie has many self-image issues, especially around his arms and torso. All of us readers know how hard this was for him, therefore, we know how much this moment means.

I love that it wasn’t like a gigantic revelation that was reacted to in an exaggerated manner. Nick, being Nick, just blushed heavily. He truly is the personification of ‘bi crisis’. Good for him.

Some of Charlie’s biggest insecurities, as seen in 7-13, are the fact that he’s skinny and has scars. The entirety of chapter 7 has focused on how hard this is on him, and how much it affects his daily life.

Him taking off his shirt doesn’t mean that he overcame this issues. Recovery isn’t linear. This action only means that he’s finally comfortable enough to try. That’s all that recovery really is. Trying, hoping, to get better.

As the audience, an outsider looking in, we have seen Charlie shirtless before. Something new happened this time. We saw something that we didn’t need to see, but some of us, me included, are glad we saw. We saw Charlie’s self-harm scars.

It could be stupid. It could be worthless, but it meant a lot to many of us. It meant a lot to Charlie.

Charlie finally feels confident enough with himself to show this part of him to his boyfriend. Sure, he trusts him with all of his very being. Charlie is well aware that Nick will never judge him for it, but his mind doesn’t see it that way. Charlie is in a fight of will against himself. He wants this, he truly does, but there’s a voice in his head telling him that everything could go wrong. Even if it’s illogical. Even if he knows that it is.

I love how Alice just subtly writes onto the story small details that will later on become important for the plot. They don’t even have to be really important. Them being there is enough. Every single time in which he holds onto his arm, or anyone touches that specific area, there’s always a reaction from him. Every time he feels insecure, he holds onto that specific area.

It could be because I’m an angst-loving fanfic reader/writer, but I always wanted to see those scars. It might be a morbid thought, but I really did want to. We didn’t need it, sure, but seeing them shows that they aren’t just a plot devise. We know that they aren’t only that, but it’s just one of those illogical thoughts that one might have.

Seeing them shows their severity. Seeing them shows how far Charlie has come.

To me, seeing them meant seeing someone like me in a book. On a published book. In the future, on a TV show.

It is one thing to read about it in fan fiction, in people’s blogs, on YouTube videos of people who are getting better, or anything like that. Anyone can post that. It being on something published in that way, something edited and checked by so many people, something that could be professionally translated onto other languages, something that at some point we may find in a library. It means a lot to me.

Alice Oseman’s book Loveless caused the same impact on me. My first time reading a book where there were asexual and/or aromantic characters, non-binary characters. There are people like me in media. In books. In my home country, as oddly homophobic and transphobic as it is, I can go to a bookstore and buy myself a copy of this book. It is real. I am, in fact, not faking all of this. Other people are like me.

Six years I’ve been hiding my arms from the world. I’ve spent my whole life hiding my legs, but three or four years ago I began hiding them for other reasons as well.

Six years ago someone finally asked me, in a worried tone, what happened to my arms. People had asked before, but no one ever asked as if they were concerned. Six years ago it happened for the first and only time. I haven’t worn a sleeveless shirt outside of my room in all that time. I don’t know if I ever will.

Charlie gives me hope. Maybe, one day I will. Who knows. I don’t really want to do that now, but if I ever do, I know that I could.

It is nice to see oneself represented in media. Small representation means something. A more relevant role means even more though.

As a child from a pretty ignored country, I found myself represented in Elena of Avalor, in Marco Díaz from Star vs. the Forces of Evil. Neither one of them was from my country, not even close, but it was as close as I could get.

Representation to me meant the beginning and sometimes end of the Jurassic Park movies, “Isla Nublar, 120 miles west of Costa Rica.” That island doesn’t even exist.

Nowadays, there’s an NCIS character who at some point talks about wanting to move to a beach in Costa Rica. I thought that was going to be it. She would retire, never be seen again on screen, but would still call every once in a while. I don’t regularly watch NCIS, but I pick it up randomly at times. Recently I saw that she didn’t even move to Costa Rica, so that’s that for my “representation.” I don’t know what has happened since, I mean it when I say that I don’t really know what happens on NCIS.

Representation can come in many different forms, in this case, it comes in the shape of a boy who only wants to belong somewhere, and another one finding his place, and finding comfort in his own body after struggling with it for so long.

Representation shows people that they aren’t alone. It shows how important it is to see someone like you on any type of media.

The mere acknowledgment of one’s identity or existence is an indescribable feeling. Seeing oneself in any type of media genuinely causes a great impact.

Representation is necessary, and it not only helps people feel seen, but it also teaches others about different aspects of life that they might not think about. People’s lives are different. Representation helps to put it into perspective.

-Mori (They/Xem)

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cherrytea556 · 1 year ago

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'It Ends With Us' and its missed opportunity of using Plant symbolism

[The screenshot of text being: 'I shrugged. "For loving my plants the right way. Plants reward you based on the amount of love you show them. If your cruel to them or neglect them, they give you nothing. But if you care for them and love them the right way, they reward you with gifts in the form of vegetables or fruits or flowers." I looked down at the weed I was tearing apart with my hands and their was barely an inch left of it. I wadded it up between my fingers and flicked it']

Okay so far I'm reading it ends with us by colleen from my plan on doing an iceberg where i review all of colleens books from most popular to the least/lesser known and see what similarities they all have and what it says about them. Having a read through 'it ends with us' (though not finished yet though I have seen a video from rachel oates who read it and described the events in detail), I already have issues with how its made from atlas, its queer representation, its poorly aged pop culture reference (that being Ellen de generous), how out of pocket privileged the characters are (with the main character already having a florist shop at 23 and having a rich lady come to her store and randomly decides to help her), how the story has no trigger warnings for a book on domestic violence and even sa at some point etc...Though what i will give it credit for is this line.

This line is of lily describing how plants function. You love them right, they grow to love you, if you don't live them right, you'll get nothing. This line in particular can be looked at in many ways like relationships humans have like when you love someone properly, they'll love you back, Whereas if you don't love them properly, they wouldn't feel the same way. The plants in question can also be a symbol for mental health in relationships as they give you 'rewards' that benefit both of you; Trust, honesty, authenticity etc. However, when if you don't love them the right way or neglect them, you will not get any of that trust, honesty or authenticity etc.

Plants also represent growth/balance, loving the plant the right way needs to be in moderation; meaning that you cant overlove (giving them too much water) nor underlove them (not watering them). Both of these can represent the toxic traits of a relationship, overlove being possessiveness, neediness, insecurity, trapping, lovebombing etc....while underlove being neglect, ghosting, non communication, silent treatment etc. Balance in a relationship requires communication, trust, honesty and viewing each others needs (as both overlove and underlove never view the others needs, only their one in oppose forms). This is also where growth comes in as when plants are loved in a balanced form, it grows to become a healthy plant till they grow old to die (symbol of healthy relationships/persons mental health) however, when their being loved in an unbalanced way (either overlove or underlove), then they die faster (both a symbol for relationship and persons mental health as the relationship progresses), although the plant may be dead, that doesnt mean it goes extinct as theirs plenty of more plants to grow by, representing healing from an unhealthy relationship.

I just wish their was more plant symbolism in the book especially with how its a major motif in the book (The main characters name, her career, her coping with anger by destroying tearing apart weed, the book covers being of flowers etc). Imagine her tearing apart weeds at the beginning to establish her emotions towards her father as ryle notices as he kicks a chair, both bonding over their coping mechanism with anger and the events that went through with their lives, making us see how lily fell for ryle (because i honestly couldn't see why she would besides his looks) from how he seems to understand and even empathize/support her even when it foreshadows his domestic violence towards her in the book. Imagine instead of letters for ellen, their letters for her plants as she views these plants as her safe space, being open to telling them about her life and issues than her parents (from her parents themselves (specifically the father) having an abusive relationship) and would read or summarize her letters to them, maybe even keeping them vague in case either her parents or people who might tell on her to her parents of what she says to them. This can establish on her being a vulnerable teenager relying on plants as her support system at home, seeing how it makes her exploitable to atlas (because if he still exist and the age gap is still gonna be there, you might as well paint it for what it truly is; creepy and predatory) and see how it all carries to her into adulthood (maybe her thinking how these big age gaps are okay or how she falls the trick these guys use of supporting her vulnerability when their actually doing it to use her). Imagine instead of the flower shop being this 'deathly, cool anti flower shop', it was a regular flower shop from the get go until her relationship with ryle, seeing how the flower shop slowly resemble her mental health, this generic but cozy shop turned into a more depressed, muted and an all around shadow of itself, representing her mental health decreasing and her identity slowly being lost the more shes with ryle from his abuse. And imagine towards the end where she leaves ryle for good, she takes away the dead plants as she waters the new ones (alone, with a support system or her daughter) in the right amount, symbolizing of her on a journey to healing. With a support network, you can have them talking about their experiences as the plants start to slowly grow or her with her daughter, using the dialogue of how plants function before as a metaphor to teach her daughter that she should both be loved the right amount and to love people the right amount. All of these would show the cycle breaking in favor of healing from the pain that comes within it.

Plant symbolism could've helped the book convey a powerful message of breaking the cycle of abuse in both a technical and/or (at least) in an artistic standpoint, but it doesn't which is really a shame.

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blogsforsmarts · 12 days ago

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Review and analyzing "Son of a Trickster" By Eden Robinson

If you are looking for a messy, tragic but supernatural young adult novel with Indigenous spirituality elements then Son of a Trickster is for you. Wow. There is so much to talk about, I don't even know where to begin. If you are interested in learning about generational trauma because of Indigenous "forced assimilation" and colonization then this is the book for you. (That is only in quotes because no matter how much you force someone, you can't change a key part of who they are!) This novel has already taught me so much by one read through and I don't think I understood more than the surface level symbolism. Y'all, I am SO critical about the books I read, ask anyone around me, I am super picky. But this book managed to hit me right in my feels where it needed to be. It subverts your expectations but ties together so well in the end even though some plot lines are left without a concrete ending.

One of the biggest things that I found perfect about this book was the fact that Jared was my age, it really drew me in and interested me. It was nice because you learned that you can relate to him. You can see aspects of Jared's life that you can relate to in your own. For example, Jared struggles with pressure from his environment to start trying drugs and other harmful behaviour. I know that as a teenager, I could totally relate to that. They surround you and only become more of a problem as you get older. Don't get me started on the drinking culture for college students, so harmful! But you are able to see yourself in Jared which makes it so much easier to empathize with him and his struggles later on in life. I know you guys understand what its like to be in similar situations like that. He also has a tough home life which is (sadly) relatable to a lot of people nowadays. Whether it's because you've dealt with abuse, divorced parents or poverty, people with hard home lives can see themselves in Jared too. It shows what colonization and residential schools caused, the reason for the addiction stemming from that in the first place.

Son of a Trickster should be a necessary read for all high schoolers interested in Indigenous studies. As long as it is in the correct age demographic, this is honestly a book that perfectly exemplifies all the damage residential schools and many other Indigenous related issues have caused. It is everything that has continued to affect the Indigenous community in Canada. I can't help but think how learning this early on while also learning the facts will change how people understand what the lasting effects of residential schools mean. You always get told the literal issues in school but they never get down to the nitty gritty and the results of the cycle of violence, abuse and substance use. The book in itself helps you understand the roots of the "drunk Indian" trope and how it must be connected to the fact that people needed to cope with their trauma through alcohol like Maggie and it became a stereotype to demean them even though the same people caused the alcohol dependency. It can really open your worldview and give you some raw insight that you won't think that deeply about from reading statistics.

If the rest hasn't pulled you in and interested you already, I think the fact that it has supernatural elements might! It keeps you interested through and through, the plot development is non-linear and quick, constantly throwing you off and keeping you interested. It goes from highs to lows to talking birds who are possibly God! It truly is a tear-jerking story that also inspires you at the end. As sad as it is, watching Jared's character development is beautiful in itself.

If y'all need another little review to get you interested, PLEASE go watch this video ASAP

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She covers this book in an amazing way. It was a 4.5 stars by her and i think that says more than enough. I swear on my life, if you are interested in a young adult novel that covers topics such as Alchoholism, substance abuse, physical abuse and neglect whilst educating you about serious problems within the Indigenous community then you should read this book ASAP! 5/5 completely recommended if you are into that type of novel. I promise, you will love it.

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Mushroom, wine and meat for Ori and Tristan

warning- these are a little spoiler-y if that's something anyone cares about (specifically saying this for my irl friends who follow me here and are reading star)

Mushroom - What's the worst/most toxic relation your character has ever been in? What's the best?

Tristan- worst definitely his family situation. They were pretty intense right wing Christians and after the apocalypse, their church (already decently radical and extreme) pretty quickly turned wholly into a cult at about the same time Tristan began realizing that he wasn't a girl. Best is towards the end of the book with ori when they're genuinely in love and devoted to one another. It's still hard, but he at least has one person who would protect him no matter what, and one person who he knows his care and love for won't be taken advantage of.

Ori- worst is probably a few months after the apocalypse started. I won't go super into detail bc it's pretty plot important, but he was completely alone for the first time in his life and very very scared. Before he developed his very unhealthy coping mechanisms, he was pretty mentally fucked. Best was probably either with his family before the apocalypse or with Tristan at the end of the story, for similar reasons to tristan's. He knows Tristan would do literally anything for him and he trusts that he'll keep himself safe and keep loving Orion until they die.

Meat - What is your character's (Murder) bodycount?

Tristan- zero, although he's tried a couple times (depression ✨️✨️✨️). By the end of the story it might be one?? But I can't remember exactly

Ori- at the start of the story, zero, but he'd say one. By the end I think four or five?? Some shit goes down near the end. He also has the same issue as Tristan above although for him it was only once

Wine - How fucked up is your character on a scale of 1-Oh good God? And How do they deal with it?

my autism doesn't let me accept that scale so I'm turning it into a scale of 100 haha

Tristan- like. 98. And he knows it. He doesn't deal very well, he's stuck in the past and running from people who he doesn't even know if he wants to escape from anymore. By the end of the story, he's down to like a 67 and still heading lower. Ori makes him feel safe and like there's something in the world worth living for

Orion- 96-100 depending on where you are in the story. He denies it fervently and would say he's like a 5 or a 6. A little anxious but overall totally fine and not in denial about traumatic experiences. He never thinks about his past and is entirely set on the future, until Tristan comes in and challenges his worldview, leading to him probably being close to a 61 by the end of the story.

#thanks for the ask!#writing #writeblr #writers on tumblr #ocs #my ocs #writing blog #writerscommunity #🌟star tag🌟#🌲oc tag: tristan🌲#🌌oc tag: orion🌌

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the-matrix-network-news · 1 year ago

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Ready to Explore Space? Here Are the Must-Knows for Your First Stars Journey

So, you're gearing up for your first space adventure! Whether you're an astronaut or a space tourist, venturing beyond our planet is an exhilarating experience. However, before you take that giant leap for mankind, there are several crucial things you need to consider. In this article, we'll explore the essentials you should keep in mind as you prepare for your cosmic journey.

1. Space Training: The Foundation of Your Adventure

Before you rocket into space, proper training is essential. Astronauts typically undergo rigorous training for months or even years to ensure they're fully prepared. You might not need the same level of training as a professional astronaut, but some basics can make your trip smoother. Example: Consider enrolling in a space tourism training program that covers G-force, zero-gravity, and emergency procedures. Understanding these fundamentals can help you stay safe and enjoy your journey to the fullest.

2. Health and Fitness: Preparing Your Body

Your body will experience some significant changes in space, from muscle loss to bone density reduction. Ensuring you're in good health before your space adventure is vital. Example: Regular exercise and a balanced diet can help you maintain physical fitness. Consult with a healthcare professional to assess your health and address any underlying issues.

3. Mental Preparation: The Isolation Factor

Space can be isolating. You'll be in a confined space with a limited number of people for an extended period. Mental preparation is crucial to cope with the psychological challenges. Example: Consider practicing mindfulness and relaxation techniques. Reading about the experiences of astronauts in space can also provide insight into what to expect emotionally.

4. Packing Essentials: What to Bring to Space

Packing for space isn't like packing for a vacation. Spacecraft have limited storage, so choose your essentials wisely. Example: Think about items like prescription medications, personal hygiene products, and entertainment (books, music, or movies). Also, don't forget your space suit!

5. Familiarize Yourself with the Spacecraft

Understanding the layout and operation of your spacecraft is essential for your safety and comfort during your space journey. Example: Study the spacecraft's manual, take a virtual tour, or even visit a replica if available. Knowing where everything is will save you precious time and prevent confusion.

6. Safety Protocols: In Case of Emergencies

Space travel involves risks. Familiarize yourself with safety protocols and emergency procedures. Example: Learn how to operate safety equipment and understand what to do in case of fire, rapid depressurization, or other emergencies. Your life may depend on it.

7. Space Sickness: It's a Real Thing

Space sickness, similar to motion sickness, can affect anyone. Be prepared for the possibility of feeling queasy during your journey. Example: Talk to your space tour operator about anti-nausea medications. Knowing how to manage motion sickness can make your trip more enjoyable.

8. Documentation and Photography: Capture the Moment

Space offers breathtaking views and once-in-a-lifetime experiences. Don't forget to document your journey for posterity. Example: Bring a camera or smartphone equipped for space travel. Capture stunning shots of Earth from orbit and share your adventure with the world.

9. Respect the Environment: Leave No Trace

Just like on Earth, it's crucial to respect the space environment. Follow guidelines for waste disposal and be mindful of space debris. Example: Dispose of waste in designated containers and avoid any activities that could generate space debris, such as unnecessary satellite launches.

10. Enjoy the Journey: Embrace the Wonder of Space

Above all else, remember to enjoy the experience! Space is vast, mysterious, and beautiful. Example: Take time to appreciate the awe-inspiring views, the feeling of weightlessness, and the sheer wonder of exploring the cosmos. After all, it's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity! In conclusion, embarking on a space journey is an incredible adventure that requires careful preparation and consideration. From training and health to packing and safety, every aspect matters. So, get ready to make your mark in the stars and savor every moment of your cosmic voyage! For more fascinating articles on space exploration and other intriguing topics, visit The Matrix Network News. You can also stay updated by following us on Instagram. Safe travels, space explorer! Read the full article

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hi, can I please get a match up for legend of korra, narnia, and percy jackson? im an intp, 5w4, slytherin, true neutral, and a capricorn. I'm cisgender and my pronouns are she/her, and I'm bisexual with a heavier preference for guys. I'm 5'2, fair skinned, and midsized. I also have brown curly hair just below my shoulders and light brown eyes. I'm usually wearing cuffed jeans, a shirt with some show or movie reference on it, and converse. My hobbies are writing (novels and poetry), reading (books and comics), baking, watching shows and movies, sometimes drawing, and playing piano. I love mythology and ancient history, and I'm very interested in anthropology. I would love to work in a museum, as well as become an author one day. I dislike fatshaming jokes, tight spaces, the heat (I prefer the cold), and most outdoor roller coasters. I struggle with social anxiety and depression, but once I open up I can be prone to rambling to people I trust and I use humor a lot to cope. I'm a very loyal friend who loves to help solve problems. thanks so much if you get to mine!

Hi Anon! Thank you for your request! I hope you like your matchups!

In Legend of Korra, I match you with...

Bolin loves going on museum trips with you! He never really got the chance to when he was a kid so it’s nice being able to go now.

Will never make fatshaming jokes. Come on, Bolin make a purposefully mean comment about someone? I don’t think so.

I see Bolin as someone who has struggled with anxiety and depression in the past. He’s in a better place mentally now but he has nothing but sympathy for you.

If there’s anything he can do to help you better deal with your mental health issues, he’s the person to ask. He’ll do anything, even if it’s as simple as giving you at least one hug every day.

Baking dates! Bolin absolutely loves baking with you and he doesn’t mind the added bonus of having something tasty to eat at the end.

Greatly admired your loyalty. Bolin's a very loyal person as well so it reassures him that you're the same.

In Narnia, I match you with...

Peter is one of the best people to support your interests. He thinks there’s no one better suited to work in anthropology/museums/writing than you.

Speaking of writing, Peter loves reading your latest work, regardless of how good you think it is. Of course if you’re not comfortable sharing your writing with him, he won’t pry but he truly loves anything you write.

Another one who admires and appreciates your loyalty. As the High King, he can only afford to be around loyal people and he’s glad you fall into that category.

Even though he doesn’t get a lot of time to relax, Peter would love to spend his free time with you, either drawing or watching you work on a project. Being around creativity is a good change of pace from his royal duties.

In Percy Jackson, I match you with...

Percy is very similar to you in several ways and I think this would make your relationship a strong one.

Definitely thinks your humour is hilarious but he’s also aware that it’s your coping mechanism. If he notices you making more jokes than usual, he’ll check in to see how you’re doing.

The go-to source of information about ancient history and mythology. If he doesn’t know the answer to one of your questions, he’s got Annabeth on speed dial and she’s sure to know the answer, no matter how obscure.

Another one who would love reading your novels and poetry. If it wasn’t for his dyslexia, he’d be reading everything you write. Instead, he’d be really grateful if you would read your writing to him. That way he can properly appreciate it.

#writing #fanfic #matchup #matchup request #request #legend of korra #bolin #narnia #peter pevensie #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson

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