#how i'm feelin

[tpup]

puppy waking up in the morning, rubbing its groggy eyes, and setting up its wet cardboard box. taking out the "free to a good home" sign and hanging it on the cardboard before clocking in to another long day of looking at passersby pathetically

[moodyseal]

TOApril Day 19 – Haunted

"Am I making you feel sick?"

[carrythetorchtoinferno]

we are the same, you and I.

-grian voice- welcome to a new series where we become the monsters!

[shaylogic]

The Lust Cow

Innocent little cartoony white cow

SAVE YOURSELF FROM HELL, CRYSTAL!

The camera specifically panned this way to keep the lust cow out

There might be something to AroAce Niko actually

[lettingtimepass]

Dude, fucking HASAN just came out as a "Jayvik Truther" AJDJSLALSK I'M FUCKING DYING.

[cybersteal]

portrait practice/dump part 1 feat @preemshots's V

[hulloitsdani]

DAY 15: Fallen.

OH, SUNLIGHT, DO YOU KNOW HOW THIS FEELS? CAN YOU IMAGINE IT?

DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO KNOW THAT SOME COPY OF YOU WON AND YOU'RE LEFT WITH NOTHING?!?

ANNA… ALFONSE… SHARENA… VERONICA…!!!

THEY WERE MINE, THEY WERE MINE, THEY WERE MINE!!!

THEY WERE MINE FIRST!!!

AND YOU STOLE THEM FROM ME!!!

[quick-catton]

i just want to say that these two have been on my mind literally all of january. the thought of the debauchery they would indulge in. bobby and his pretty boygirlfriend. using him as a decoy in robberies, his cute lil thing an easy distraction while he takes what he needs, allowing them both to easily slip away. getting to show off his pretty baby in clubs, having a sweet little thing as his passenger princess during long drives through the dessert. a doll for him to dress up and have hanging off his arm wherever they go. anyway <3

[ronnie-james-dio-brando]

"Donne-lui le dicke"

“Sie wollte den Hahn”

[b4kuch1n]

one string is all that I need

[exhausted-think-bucket]

I'm not adding the link cause you need to subscribe to read about what I truly hope is a rumor

[sugarpasteltmnt]

ok ok hear me out…. What if you and your sister tried to work together and post your climax chapters on the same date… we can all wait until you both are ready and that’d be really fun (HEAVY ON THE WHOLE THIS IS JUST A SILLY IDEA THING! IN NO WAY DO YOU GUYS HAVE TO IF YOU DONT WANT TO OR HAVE THE ENERGY FOR IT!! )

[vcrnons]

VERNON // fishbowl & sea.

[aurosoulart]

one of the things I wasn't prepared for as a trans person in a big industry was the absolutely OVERWHELMING emotions around being accepted for who I am. ;__; some highlights from the past couple months:

a prominent speaker at a UK media company showing my work to his son, casually saying: "Do you like this picture? Ewan drew it." I've never spoken to this man, but he respects me enough to not only show my work to his child - but to future students as well. these kids are going to grow up knowing the work of a publicly trans artist, and with any luck it will be normal to them.

Tilt Five publicly replying to my TDOV post with THIS, from their official corporate account.

Tilt Five also featuring me in a blog post on their website, and using they/them pronouns!!!!

and even more Tilt Five positivity: being INVITED TO DEMO IN-PERSON AT GDC FOR HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE. I'm in this picture but you can barely see me because of the crowd. again, I'm visibly trans here - long hair, stubble, voice deepened by testosterone... and it was a non-issue.

and lastly: not only being able to publicly fundraise for LGBTQ+ causes like the Club Q healing fund without fear, but actually receiving support & donations from my employer while I do so. technically, I get PAID to fundraise as long as I use Figmin XR, like with Cover The World With Flowers!

and that's just a handful of examples!!! there was also the whole getting accepted into AR House thing (where I'm one of MULTIPLE trans people in the community), and then PERFORMING LIVE at the Marriott HQ, and then my art making it onto Adam Savage's youtube channel???!?!

I keep saying this, but I legitimately don't have words for the level of gratitude I feel. I've had other trans folks reach out and say that my visibility gives them courage, which makes me want to fight even harder to show that trans joy is REAL and POSSIBLE and that there is still so much love, despite everything.

I don't want to take for granted that it is still very much radical to just exist publicly as a trans person - and even more radical to exist publicly as a HAPPY trans person. I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared being in this position, but at least I know I'm not alone. there are still so many good people fighting for us.

[laminelfc66]

Who's ready for tonight?

[telekineticseance]

BRAVEST FACE

pairing: matt stone x f! assistant reader

summary: matt invites you to go on a mini vacation (fifth part to circumstances)

genre: fluff

word count: 1026

cw: legal age gap although nothing happens....yet

author's note: i’m sorry

if you haven't read the first part check it out here: "CIRCUMSTANCES"

It was now Thursday, despite it being apart of your job, you and Matt would hardly say a word to each other when you'd go into the office. He would just give you a list of things to do in exchange for his coffee, and then when you were finished, he'd send you home. Normally when he'd send you home you'd object but it was different now. Anytime you exchanged glances, the kiss would replay in your mind. The feeling of his lips against yours.

You sat on your couch, watching some random show from Netflix you decided to put on. You just started it and weren't paying much attention because all you could think about was Matt. He kissed you. That was the key thought through all of this. You had thought about kissing him, but he was the one who kissed you. Who knows what could've happened if Trey hadn't knocked on the door?

You jumped from the sound of your phone ringing as you looked down to see the called ID was the man himself. You hovered your finger over the answer option, knowing it could be important but could you bring yourself to have a conversation?

You slowly answered and lifted the phone to your ear, "Hello?" Matt let out a small sigh from the other end before speaking up, "I have a business trip to go on. I need you to come with me."

Your eyes widened softly at his comment, expecting him to at least say something. "A business trip? Where?"

"Colorado. Trey and I have to go to Casa Bonita for a soft opening event. It's kind of like a test opening with just a few people. Most of the crew will go, but I wanted you to go. With me."

"With you?" You repeated the words to him, and he chuckled slightly, "Not with me. But like with me."

Your voice dropped a little bit with disappointment but you tried to mask it, "Oh yeah. Um..yeah I can do that. It's my job after all." You sat up more straight on the couch, pausing the show on the TV before Matt started talking again, "Okay well..be ready by 8am tomorrow morning. The opening is tomorrow night and we're leaving the day after that. But I wanted to give you time to do a little sight seeing and maybe some shopping before we went to the opening. If that works for you?"

You nodded before responding, "Yeah that sounds good. I'll meet you at the airport by 8?"

"No it's alright. I can come get you if you're okay with that."

"Yeah that's fine. I'll be ready by 8 then."

He said his goodbye before hanging up, the silence resonating in the room. You didn't know how you could handle being on a plane with him for a few hours, and you especially didn't know how you would handle going to an event with him, and everyone from the office as well. But the best you could do was put on a brave face and do your job. Right?

———

The next morning you finished packing up the last few things you needed before receiving a text from Matt saying he had arrived right at 8. You took a deep breath as you looked one last time in the mirror before grabbing your small duffel bag and leaving the apartment, locking the door behind you. You took the elevator down to the bottom floor and walked slowly to Matt’s car, each step feeling heavier as you got closer. When you arrived at the car, Matt was waiting outside with the trunk open, and helped you put your bag next to his before you both got into the car.

The car ride to the airport was quiet, and the air felt so heavy you thought you were going to choke. It was even worse than the night Matt picked you up from the bar. At least while you were riding in silence he was glancing at you, now he just kept his eyes on the road as he held the wheel with both hands, not even bothering to drum his fingers to the music. You took a deep breath, hesitating to speak, break the silence, maybe just get the air cleared before you arrived at the airport. Maybe fix things.

“Are we going to talk about what happened?” You squeaked out, barely making it above a whisper. Matt glanced at you before turning down the music, “Hm?”

“Are we. Going to talk. About what happened?” You asked, louder now. Matt thought for a moment, keeping his eyes on the road, his fists tightening slightly on the wheel, “What do you mean?”

Your eyes widened slightly at his question, “What do you mean ‘what do I mean’? Are we gonna talk about Monday? What happened on Monday?”

Matt shrugged, “I don’t know what you mean. When you got sick and had to leave early?” He told you, continuing to stare forward at the road ahead. You felt your stomach drop to your ass as he said this, he wasn’t actually serious was he?

“What do you mean I got sick?”

He chuckled slightly, “Well you were looking at the paperwork, and then Trey came in, and then you said you weren’t feeling well and left.” He glanced over at you, his face serious.

“So nothing happened between us?” You asked, not believing what he was saying. He fucking kissed you, and now he’s acting as if nothing happened. Like his tongue wasn’t down your throat. Like it was something you should forget about.

He’s shook his head while shrugging and you frowned slightly before turning to look out the window, placing your fingers against your lips softly, “Oh.”

You kept silent as you continued to ride to the airport with Matt, his music continuing in the background. You didn't know what to say or what to do. He was acting as if the kiss didn't happen and despite how much you wish you could've done the same, you couldn't. You just...couldn't.

updated a/n: next part