#how do i find irl friends?
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I'm not looking forward to 8 hours in car and then non child proof house with special needs kid who's been having a rough couple of weeks.
With in laws where I flip a coin whether they're going to be assholes or not.
And I'm still sick with a not so fun new... I don't know what to call it. Not necessarily side effect. Or complication. But. It's freaking embarrassing.
(ha! Tumblr goes... You've reached 30 tags. So write in your post. Not in tags. It's not the p.s.s.s.s. that you used to write to your best friend 😂)
#Tumblr diary#sorry im really complainy lately#but i hear tumblr can sometimes just be screaming into the void#and i need it at least in the universe#not bouncing around in my head unsaid#or invalidated#but that's a different story#anyways#I'll survive#I'm buying a lot of chocolate#bc that's the only coping mechanism that is even somewhat healthy#don't know what that says#i wish i could go to my family instead#but then 2/3 kids wouldn't go up#and they're more worried about image if we don't show up#bc they don't really give a fuck if me and k are there otherwise#anyways.#I'm buying chocolate and downloading all the things on my Kindle#my tags are getting stupidly long#ooh i should treat myself to lunch today#how do i find irl friends?#like fr#bc who i knew best here are fucking church ppl#and they've loved me. except it's conditional#and the majority of them voted for fucking Trump#and they are ignorant to the harm it's going to cause my kids#so again. do they really love me#i want to talk to someone so bad#i want a hug#fucking copious usage of the fucking word fuck in these fucking tags
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Novice sewing pattern: Cut out shapes. Line up the little triangles on the edges. Stitch edges together. We've also included step-by-step assembly instructions with illustrations.
Novice knitting pattern: yOU MUSt uNDerstANd thE SECret cOdE CO67 (73, 87, 93) BO44 (63, 76, 90) 28 (32, 34) slip first pw repeat 7x K to end *kl (pl) 42 * until 13" (13, 13, 15) join new at 30 pl for 17 rows ssk 27 k2tog mattress lengthwise BO and sacrifice a goat to the knitting gods. WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU WANT "INSTRUCTIONS," I JUST GAVE THEM TO YOU
#knitting#no it's not a real pattern but I can't write one that makes sense because I have no freaking clue what any of that means#How do you make things that aren't basic rectangles#Why has every knitter I've asked for help just said 'patterns are easy; you just have to know how to read them' & then refused to teach me#Where do I even find a goat to sacrifice#How do I join the pattern cult#I am so confused#I've been knitting for almost a decade but I can only make scarves and potholders#I learned one (1) stitch by watching a YouTube video and none of my friends or family knit so I have no IRL resources#And nobody I meet seems to want to take the time to explain the rest to me#I taught myself to sew through trial and error but that doesn't really work with knitting because error is pretty much just... Unraveling?#Anyway sorry for the tag rant I'm just frustrated that I see pretty things I want to make but the instructions are in an alien language#And the gap between 'absolute novice' and 'intermediate' seems to be about 20 years of experience and formal instruction
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What do you get for the fangirl who has everything?

A spoon.
#indeed I did not have a spoon shaped like this#kny merch#agatsuma zenitsu#since almost everyone I know irl forgot my birthday last month I became a demon but a friend who remembered afterward gave this to me#i find it very ironic how Zenitsu has always feared being eaten by a demon#also might I just add that I got a cheap and silly Setsubun headband with oni horns AND I LOOK REALLY GOOD IN THEM#no matter what my hair is doing or what I'm wearing these horns look very cute on me#i work very well as a demon#nom nom nom#time for soup
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The scariest thing that has happened today is me remembering my friends aren’t into whump and believe it’s kinky 👹
#whump#whump community#whumpblr#whump scenario#sad times#happy halloween#can’t whump without being judged smh 😔#this is why i love tumblr#I need more whump friends#whump writing#whumperflies#i have no one to talk to about this#guys what do i do#help 😭#how does one find whump friends irl without looking like a freak#same thing with writer friends who don’t mind talking about crazy shit#writer things#writers on tumblr#writer problems#writeblr#cannot believe I just got called k!nkee 😭#I am very normal guys#i swear
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#i just think they’d play together a lot when they were little#ok listen#think they’d be more like big brother little brother at this age#but like#fanon kaito has always been less mature than most characters his age#so when he’s younger i imagine he’d find himself with friends younger than himself as well#and i just#i love when his friends totally accept this and don’t mock him#sosososo much#and i don’t know it means a lot to me as an autistic person who grew up mocked for my childishness#to see this guy with supportive friends and irl fans#idk how to fully articulate my thoughts do you get me#autistic kaito real you guys#also this should go without saying but pls do not tag this as a ship 😭#1) they are quite little here specifically 2) im not comfortable with the ship in general#please please please#krash art#artists on tumblr#vocaloid#vocaloid fanart#cryptonloids#kagamine len#kaito#kaito vocaloid#my art#vocaloid kagamine
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Confessing my sins to the internet because my irl friends don't know my tumblr
I'm actually a horrible friend and I don't plan to change :)
I'll be a good friend to anyone I actually like and I usually don't associate with people who I don't like, but sometimes there will be an occasional lonely (usually annoying) kid that follows me around. (They're lonely for a reason.) I kinda hate people who are loud literally all the time but I can hold my tongue and this kinda person just doesn't leave because they're not being told directly to leave.
What do I do? I talk to them only when I need them, I make unnecessarily mean comments as a joke, I point out their obvious flaws that I know they have a hard time changing, and all while they still follow me around like I'm not kinda bullying them.
Sometimes I'll treat them like an actual friend when I'm in a good mood, but if I'm not, then the unfortunate victim becomes my emotional punching bag. (I have ways to quickly fix my mood and this is completely unnecessary and I could distance myself until I feel better like how I do with actual friends.) I think this is like. Breadcrumbing? Anyways yeah, toxic shit.
If any of your "friends" treat you like this, they don't see you as a friend. If they leave you doubting if they like you or not, leave you doubting if you're actually friends, they probably don't see you as a friend. (because that's the case for me :3 )
I'm a horrible human being and I don't feel nearly as bad as I should about it :)
#i had a friend in primary school who was treated like this by me and my then best friend for the whole 6 years#she was very much bullied i think#we literally had a “class x girls group” and “class x girls group without (victim)” and we sometimes shit talked her in there#my best friend was a bit more obvious about not liking her#she would like be my shield anytime things got confrontational while i never stood up for myself#pretty sure she shared snacks with me a lot too and i just never returned the favour.#and now theres this boy that has nearly no friends who follow me around during breaks#just today i literally gave him the silent treatment because i was having an inner monologue and i didn't bother telling him#i even found it kinda funny that i walked around silently while he muttered to himself and questioned if he did anything wrong#like dude no you didn't do anything wrong but also i found it too funny to correct you#i have actual friends that i treat decently btw#like. without all this weird shit#i just take advantage of the loney and probably neurodivergent kids :)#moral of the story. please have more than 1 friend. especially irl. dont let them treat you like how i treat these poor “friends” of mine#ive literally never told the 2 people i mentioned here anything along the lines of “im grateful i have you”#feel free to stop being my friend because of a post like this :3#i wouldnt say i *like* being a horrible friend but also im like. not doing anything about it and not bothering to change for the sake of#these people who are already kind of outcasted and probably need someone to rely on#“im not doing charity” proceeds to refuse basic respect to these people because theyre “annoying”#you could call this a vent post#im kind of telling myself that im a horrible person to begin with so i feel less bad about “breaking character” on top of being guilty#honestly i hope this kind of person finds someone who genuinely accepts them because they deserve better than this#and also because theyre a headache for me and im sick of them
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I am going to shoot myself in the head

#I feel so helpless and clueless rn I feel like I’m going to fail my entire academic journey#Nothing bad has happened this week (besides my sis and mom getting rlly sick) but I just feel like I know nothing anymore#Am I a dumb stupid fuck#I have yet another exam tomorrow and I thought I loved the subject but suddenly I realize I didn’t understand anything#Trying to take down notes but I have literally no material to work with only my book in which I’ve made over 50 errors#I don’t count them I just know it’s over that number#I haven’t showered I’m trying to do homework I’m trying to take down notes and I’m also trying to take care of my sis bc she’s very sick#I bear a cross far too big for my size I feel like I can’t handle anything at all#Jesus christtttt where is old me when I need her I would’ve tanked this shit so easily but now I’m just crying and whining#i need to stop thinking about how I was so much better before but I can’t stop#I really was so much more than a spineless piece of shit what the fuck#Ghhhh mitski you were so right#I was so young when I behaved 25 yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child is so very real mitski#Lately I’ve been crying like a tall child yeah keep it up mitski sing ur shit I will jump off of this ledge I’m on yeah#Clawing my skin offffff I wish I could tell someone irl#I still haven’t written to my friends parents so they could help me#but I don’t have the time to make a word doc ab everything I go thru and how I feel#And they might not help me#I just want to crawl a hole in the ground and wait to become a sprout to become a pretty flower I don’t wanna be living this shit no more#Vent#vent post
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Anyone also returning to superhell after many years sober and want to do a complete rewatch together (maybe as a lead up to a s16 revival shhh)? I need the emotional support for this and my therapist can only hear so much :((
#how do you make friends on this site?#I don’t feel equipped to make post or content since I never finished the show#but I have so many thoughts and feelings and devoted years of my early life to this show :/#basically#There are people feelings that I want to experience differently than I have before#or maybe even for the first time#destiel#spn#deancas#spn thoughts#s1 rewatch#someone be my friend on here since I can’t find any irl#dean winchester
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sometimes i think "ough, does this come off as too horny??" and then i remember this is the kink blog
#LISTEN#i just don't have much experience with talking about things i find hot.....#nobody in irl even talked to me about finding celebs attractive at any point in time#thats how little talking about attraction has appeared in my life#+ most of my vanilla friends are uncomfy hearing about any kind of attraction#so im usually policing what i say for them and i've been doing it so long ive gotten too used to filtering myself sjdfskjdflksjfs
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you are complaining about complaining too much while complaining about the fact that maybe people dont like you because you complain too much while complaining about being alone. just stop complaining and do something about it. talk to people. reach out. dont just wait for someone to come to you first.
i have tried reaching out to different people in the past year or so but it never works. i understand its my own fault for letting relationships decay because of my own insecurities and issues but that doesn't mean i can just will myself to think or believe different things about myself. it's a self fulfilling prophecy ; i think people don't like me so i don't reach out so people don't like me etc . i am sure you do not want to hear me list all the things i want to say in response so i will put them in the tags.
#every time i try to reach out or talk to someone it goes nowhere. i dont have any social skills anymore and have no clue how to keep a#conversation going. half the time even when i do people stop replying to me. which is fine theydont owe me a reply but still feels likeshit#when i tried to make one new irl friend it just didn't work because they have better options for friends. we spoke occasionally but never#messaged online like ever and would only talk when we happened to be in the same place. i tried multiple times to organize a time to hangou#none of which came to pass. i dont understand why this one didn't work because i thought this person was interested in being my friend but#i guess i was wrong or thought they were more interested than they really were.#i have a problem with reaching out anyway which has been a problem i have had since i was like 11. reaching out to people first doesnt come#easily to me - in the beginning when i was a lot younger i didn't want to bother people with my presence & thought if i were to come to#someone first they would feel pressured into talking to me when they didn't want to. this is stupid of course. but has still not left me as#something i feel is very core to the way i act today. waiting for someone to come to me first feels like my only option because i do not#know how to reach out effectively (my evidence being i have failed every time i have tried) & i am convinced people dont like me in the#first place and do not want me to approach them.#i dont really even know who to reach out to in the first place. my world is extremely narrow. the number of people i know has shrunk#significantly and my standing in their eyes collectively has also shrunk significantly in the past few years. i feel like every person i#was once friends with wants nothing to do with me. i feel as if i have burned every bridge possible.#when it comes to the fact i complain all the time . which i know of course is annoying. its because i cant find any kind of joy in anything#i do or see or whatever. nothing makes me happy - i only see things to complain about. all stimulus seems grating and the world seems#specifically catered to make me miserable. all i can really do is complain. i treat this blog like a stream of consciousness and when most#of that consciousness is occupied with how much i hate being alive the blog will mostly be complaining. its a vicious cycle lol .#anyway . i guess the key theme is low self esteem begets low self esteem in many ways. mental illness begets mental illness.#i am not really saying this to anyone least of all to you anon. i just felt compelled to recount i guess for myself the reasons that came#to mind for why i am like this. i am talking to myself here
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pulps law is that whenever i get insane enough about something, i will inevitably attempt to make a persona 5 au, regardless of whether or not i am successful at it.
#pulp speaks#anyways guys youre never going to guess what au ive been thinking of lately .#i know the correct way to go about this is make sidestep the main character but you see#i will not be doing that. and actually in fact i will not be following the storyline of persona 5 in the slightest. because lol#but morgana exists in this au purely because i dont think the others would survive without him explaining what the metaverse is 💀#the rangers are a team of detective for the public sector in this au#and dr mortum is an unassuming everyday scientist that should not peak the rangers interest in any way. at all#in the video game that exists in my head the player can pick between playing julia or ricardo#it doesnt change the storyline that much but it does make the character relationships funky so#in my head chen is best friends with julia and argent is best friends with ricardo#chen and ortega stumble into the metaverse together so if you pick julia its two best friends in a life or death situation#but if you pick ricardo its your sisters best friend+kinda your boss in a life or death situation which personally i find extremely funny#regardless of which ortega you play with the other one doesnt know about the metaverse until id say like. the end of the first palace? beca#use thats when they start getting suspicious#and because this is ortega they follow them and find out about the metaverse that way#i dont think they become a phantom thief but i think they do end up covering the others asses irl#dr mortum still isnt actually a doctor but i think theyre the one providing medicine to them at the start of the game#theyre extremely wary of the rangers at the start and ortega can barely convince them to sell them things which they still charge-#-extremely high over. i think the turning point comes when they discover the metaverse because holy fuck they are So excited about it#both because of the implications and what the metaverse could be used For#chen is not thrilled about letting them know this but theyre kind of their supplier so its not like he can argue#i think mortum joins the phantom thieves eventually but as a navi#obviously its in their best interest to provide everything for free now that theyre part of the team but they still have to order supplies-#-so i think the way it works out in game is that theres certain days supplies can be ordered and you have to pay for it but the items can b#-picked up at any day of the week#but also i have no idea how that would work practically (its all in my head anyway so it doesnt actually matter but yk)#theres still more thoughts about this but im ✨running out of tags✨ and also i cannot organize my thoughts enough to explain it#im not main tagging this its going to be my silly self indulgent au for eternity ok
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Every grudge that wasn't resolved is hurting at once like scars reacting to a bad weather no matter how much I try to just get distracted with irl activities or something positive, and I don't have anyone to talk about it because people I trust with it are only available when I need to sleep or am at work. I wonder how much longer I can hold it inside before I erupt like a volcano and severity of my negativity leaves everyone within reach with permanent fear of approaching me with ten yards distance 🤔
#/vent#personal#hopefully one of two things prevents this either:#1) a more 'serious' problem forces me to swim out from the depts of my depression and struggle or#2) I find someone to talk to in the RIGHT moment#curse of bad timezone and literally every irl friend changing cities if not countries#I am all alone...#not knowing how to make it stop#I have strong negative breakdowns only once in a while#I wish I could vent more 'harmonically' or forgive people even if they haven't payed or apologized#instead of the 'volcano' thing#well if it really gets bad I'll get into urgent hiatus again#I also hate how because of personality fracture it is another alter that absorbs every positive-#-stimul like a parasite right now#usually I sprout and lose alters like malenia but some stick around for a bit#maybe Im also about to fall out I don't know#right now it is just too much gravity to get out of my own head no matter what I do#all I can think about is my million bad memories until it just stops already
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i just saw the clip in question and like??? what are yall even mad about 😭 im sorry but the only thought i had was “huh good for her 🙂↕️” and then “makes sense” cause all we’ve seen tells that exact story WHO’S SURPRISED
literally my reaction:
and like I said in the tags of my previous post, as funny as this all is, he wasn't even being specific. He was just like "sorry I can't relate to being a 50 year old dude who takes his wife for granted and expects things from her without considering her feelings." I don't follow Travis or the Kelces much outside of Taylor so I don't know the history of it all, but that's like, the greenest flag and hopefully bodes well for their future!
I think it was Jaime who said there was a tweet going around that said Taylor and Travis are "corny and horny" and that is 100% accurate from what we can see lol. AND GOOD FOR THEM. She didn't have either of those by the end of her last relationship and it almost killed her.
I don't think people should be exposing their entire sex lives for public consumption, um, unless they feel like it that is, but this is hardly that. It was just a couple of adults sharing some fairly healthy life experiences and maybe trying to open the eyes of some douchebags idk lol. Who'd a thunk open communication and appreciation and consideration of one's partner would be so sexy and scandalous!
I'd even argue maybe Taylor WANTS more people to know that this is how many women would like to be treated by their partners lol.
#Pouring out my heart to a stranger but I didn't pour the whiskey#Anonymous#travis: I like to make my partner happy and ask how they're feeling and do things for them to reduce their mental load#and also maybe find ways to satisfy them in intimate settings because those things can also change over time#the internet: IS THIS PROBLEMATIC?!#many women: THEY CAN THINK THAT ON THEIR OWN?!#I fear if my friends and I were conversing about a partner like this IRL we'd be like GOOD FOR YOU HONEY HE'S A KEEPER lol
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i have a headache
#i've been stuck scrolling instagram for the past few days#i don't even like being on there#modern ig is so overstimulating everything is either a reel or a reel in disguise or an image post that inexplicably has audio#i kept making myself go on there because i wanted to find a way to make art friends or a community or w/e#and i thought if i had more of a presence and interacted more i'd eventually get people to like. talk to me and comment stuff ig. idk#but ughhhh#i don't think insta is a good platform for that cause it's either pictures with a short caption or the worst media format known to man#like. idk i wanted to find and follow and be friends with and be Cool Artists (don't ask me to define that)#but no artist on instagram is a Cool Artist because there's no goddamn text on there#like if it makes sense i wanna find people who talk About art as well#but not in an art Discourse way#which is another thing. even if instagram had more Talking it would still be shit because the mainstream 'art community' is insufferable#art tiktok is that on steroids#and instagram is is bootleg tiktok#the same five discourse topics jokes memes advice whatever the only difference is now they're circlejerking about ai too#i wanna be Casual and Spontaenous and Mysterious and shit but IG's layout makes me feel like i can't just post whatever#i feel this pressure to give my posts all the same format and add tags and do this and do that and have good Branding or w/e#and it's just ughhh why can't I be a famous enigma (<- doesn't make or share anything)#even on tumblr the pressure is the same#and at the same time i hate looking back on my art accounts (both ig and here) because it just. doesn't align with what i wanna do#like my attempts at categorising and tagging and being consistent#it's just so. yuck#i want to have a Good Brand but i also want to be 'real' but then i look back at my disjointed messy past work and i cringe#i think i need to block my irls from my art accounts bc i feel super embarassed trying to do any typical Get Noticed on Social Media thing#cause it feels embarassing being seen doing shit that's ''influencer-y'' (idk what to call it)#cause it feels out of character to how i actually am in real life#but also why i do want to show my ''real'' character? I'm not cool#and that's another thing I've had these accounts for ages#looking at my past posts makes me fuckign cringe#I want to purge them or start over
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into music but like in a Nerd way where what i actually wanna do is sit ppl down and ask about their favourite bands & what they think are their magnum opuses & bandlore they know && just. opinions. but somehow i feel like a club or even a concert environment isn't conducive to that tbh so what's left apart from harassing your preexisting friends.
#how do u find irl music friends.#how do u even find ppl to go to concerts with I really don't understand#where is music socialising for introverts srsly#like ofc I'm still gonna vibe to music i like but it's not enough just to vibe w others. i wanna discuss mannnn#hex.txt
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In retrospect I apologize for the lack of a “at least daily for sure” answer
#irl death#as a blacklist tag#obviously no one is actually dying#I DO NOT INTEND TO DIE ANY TIME SOON#personally I latched onto ‘what if that’s the last interaction you have with each other’ VERY literally a while back#and also have spent enough time thinking abt it that I’m like. what would happen to my finances?#would everyone be ok if something happened?#how would online friends find out? is everything in place for that? I don’t think I have any friends that no one knows how to contact?#and lastly what if someone unlocks my computer/phone? what websites are open?#what would people decide to do with my unpublished poetry and writing?#what happens to my childhood teddy bear?#yknow there’s ingredients here. having once spent a span of time being actively suicidal: now that I am not; I remain aware of what needs to#be thought about!#and then also my best friend’s dad died last year and I lived with her while she was in charge of his will and finances and everything#hi my loved ones I hope this didn’t suck to read#it’s? one of those feelings I like talking about? I like talking about quite personal stuff sometimes#yeah
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