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Just found red liquid of mysterious origin splattered across my wall. Am I in the beginning of a creepypasta?
#creepypasta#maybe#i WAS just cleaning my house#but not with anything red#should i be concerned#for my safety#is jeff the killer behind my curtains#jeff the killer#funny#funny shit#funny stuff#shitpost#funny post#ha ha funny#ha ha ha#haha funny#haha#shitposting#sillyposting#silly#hehehe#:]#lmao#lollllllllll#how do i clean my walls#send help#send help?#i dont know#❤️
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doing chibi is a good design exercise bc it forces u to think on shapes n essential details, essentially thumbnailing ur designs. its also a terrible design exercise bc it ends up looking cute no matter what
#dimension 20#fantasy high#riz gukgak#very specifically class swap bard!riz#fh class quangle#mm. I may need tags for all the asides Ive been doing lmao#riz's canon design is so coherent and thematically clean that I genuinely struggle to keep up...#bard!riz's whole thing is working out his identity through abject fear so it kiiiinda makes sense that hes got a different thing going#on every year I guess? like lmao the directive I go into each of these designs with changes vastly#freshman bard!riz has to look extremely nonthreatening. and also make you wanna pick him up and chuck him at a wall#annoyingly inoffensive. slides off your memory pretty much immediately. a void of an experience#crucially Does Not Show Teeth While Smiling#sophomore year bard!riz I have been keeping the like. cameraman direction for#I want him to be swimming in clothes a little bit... he kinda lands at like. 80s/90s shlocky horror protag too which I do like#bc what is season 2 to riz if not a horror story lmao#junior year bard!riz I want to be somewhere between clark kent and tintin#the journalist aesthetics is not so clear and easy to build as the detective or spy aesthetics...#but also I just. really like boy journalist lmao this is the BD blood speaking again#and! I actually do draw his hair differently than in my canon junior year riz stuff. its a bit shorter here so it doesn't#obscure as much of his face#its so funny actually going from drawing canon stuff to class swap esp. with riz bc he's smiling SO much here#and it's 100% trained like its crucial for u guys to know he is equally if not more fucked up as a bard#barely anybody can wrangle him in canon it's already been mostly him keeping himself on track. imagine if he actually learned how to act#mmm. I think these designs are still gonna soft change as I draw them. thats fine we have fun#drawing sophomore year bard!riz for those comiclets was fun as hell. I think on this factor alone I call it a success lol
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"They despised you, trampled on you and cursed you, just because you don't belong to the same race as them. How did it feel? Don't you hate them? Don't you feel aggrieved? You're not a sinner, but they still hate you."
FANGS OF FORTUNE (2024). EPISODE TWENTY FIVE.
#fangs of fortune#asiandramasource#dramasource#cdramasource#tvedit#*#faiza gifs#I AM BITING MY KNUCKLES PUNCHING THE WALLS THEYVE GIVEN ME EVERYTHING I EVER WANT IN LIKE. 2 EPISODES.#I KEEP WINNING!#GOD ITS SO SEXY TO ME how its yichen who's being choked and stepped on and YET its li lun that's doing the BEGGING to yichen to become a#demon like OH MAN idk man its just SO SEXY to me. yichen will NEVER beg but li lun ends up doing so like UGHHHH BIG BAD DEMON YAAA BUT HE#SUCCUMBS SO EASILY mannnnnnnn.#but also? A PLUS manipulation tactics and mindgames from li lun but yichen IS NOT GONNA FALL FOR IT HE IS NOT A FALL LI LUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#LOVE it when a match meets a match but then the match SURPASSES them COMPLETELY wipes the FLOOR CLEAN oh li lunnnnnn.#anyway in my head im making up 10000000 scenarios of these 2.
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I've had this pose ref saved for a while and the Superman set photos just gave off the same energy 👉🏻👈🏻
The reference is this photo of Katharine Hepburn as Antiope and Colin Keith-Johnston as Theseus in the 1932 play 'The Warrior's Husband' (and I'd love for people to turn into a draw your otp meme pls pls pls this pose is so good)
And also, of course, the Superman (2025) set photos
#superfamilyweek#superman#dcu#clois#lois lane#clark kent#i was actually gonna post this a few days ago but then i found out about the superfamily week#it wasn't made for it but i hope you can accept this humble offering even if it doesn't really fit the prompts#art#digital#fanart#live-action#dc#regular#final#colour#this actually from june when the set photos came out and i just got completely obsessed and went into a clois haze#it all looks so good though!! the whole thing!!!! i'm vibrating with excitement just thinking about it!!!!!!!#if this film isn't good i'm gonna be sooo disappointed you guys have no idea how much i'm looking forward to it#but anyway. ART RAMBLES: as i mentioned on the tags of my last drawing this piece gave me SUCH a headache#i think it's probably cos it was just supposed to be a quick sketch so i used a more stable pencil brush#but then i really liked it so i decided to properly colour it instead of just doing the watercolour thing i usually do for sketches#but with finished pieces i like the lineart to be kinda messy and the sketch to even show through bit#and since i used the more stable brush for the sketch it ended up looking WAY too clean. not like my stuff at all.#so i just started throwing stuff at the wall to see what could make it more interesting. full background! actual lineart! texture layers!#and this here is what i was the happiest with. i don't... love it though. it should be looking way more interesting given the pose#and then i also did the purge girl halfway through this and it looked SO good right out of the bat (pun intended)#so i went a bit into a spiral. did some realistic stuff i'll post soon. and now am trying out a thick black lineart style.#(i'll definitely still use the coloured lines for the sketchy watercolour stuff though. it just looks way too cute)
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Home Is Where The Fanart Is
Happy Fanuary! What's Fanuary, you ask? It's my own little excuse to draw some very long overdue art for my friends, and develop better style with lineart at the same time!
Without further ado, I started with an author whose work captivates me in a truly indescribable way. It would be truly terrifying to a hacker to see how often I'm on her blog rereading an old favorite or an entire story. I will never be able to find the words to explain the magic of her storytelling, but I sure try my damndest every time.
Kirsten @whumblr 's Zayne and Jay of HIWTHI have had a deathgrip on my soul since the first chapter back in 2020 and, though I've drawn them before, once was never going to be enough.
And, well, maybe I figured out the plot of this interaction and impulsively wrote fanfiction. At the end of the cut are a few bonus detail shots as well <3
Content warnings: Belting, forced stripping (partial, not sexual), and canon-typical home invasion.
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“Aren’t you tired of this old song and dance?” Zayne flashed him an unimpressed look, then glanced down at his own outstretched hand. Still empty.
“I am. Glad you finally agree,” he huffed and brushed past, only to be caught by the collar of his button down. The grip tightened and pulled him, stumbling, face to face with his unwelcome visitor. His eyes cast down.
“Then why is that belt still around your waist?”
Jay bristled. He knew damn well how long his day had been, because he’d started unloading it on Zayne the moment he arrived home. If it weren’t for the sudden order that cut him off, his tormentor would have still been listening to that afternoon’s office melodrama. The last thing he needed was to present his battered body on a platter before the long weekend.
“I have more than one, you know. If you can rummage through my fridge, you can give my closet a passing glance every now and again.” Regret only came on after handing him an open invitation to look through more of Jay’s belongings, but he suspected Zayne had already done more than his fair share of that.
“As it happens, I was looking for this particular belt.” He drew a finger along the smooth leather. “If you’re craving ice cream, an ice lolly just won’t cut it.”
“Does the trick for me,” Jay shot back and turned away down the hallway. “Here, I’ll show you where they are.” His brisk pace far too closely resembled running, and the heart pounding in his throat mimicked that well. He’d hung last time’s belt separately when he remembered he didn’t have the funds to simply keep discarding them. Probably the same reason Zayne didn’t care to use it again.
Just like a cat. The moment something was designated his, his interest dissipated.
On an instinctual level, Jay knew he wouldn’t make it to the bedroom, but some part of him still had the audacity to be surprised when a hand twisted his hair and flung him toward the wall. Even though his shoulder took the brunt of the impact, the blow to the head was enough to skew his glasses. Jay leaned back and raised a hand to set them straight when Zayne took hold of his shirt and yanked it from his trousers.
“Get off!” In finding a stable place to lean back, Jay had unwittingly trapped himself against the wall where a knee now dug into his hip, holding him still enough to free one button, then another. He wrapped fingers around Zayne’s wrist. “The hell are you doing?!”
“Why don’t you deduce that yourself, Jayboy? Surely you can be a more reliable source than your coworker found.” A fist drove into his gut and Jay lost his grip, allowing the shirt to be shucked off him and thrown aside.
“You could’ve just asked!” He tried to swallow the clear hypocrisy. Somehow, he only happened to think these plans through about two minutes after initiating them, and wondered how he hadn’t already anticipated the outcome.
“Try giving the same order three times in a row. See how patient you are when your punching bag cusses you out,” Zayne shrugged, reaching for the undershirt next when Jay hugged his waist in protest. He didn’t understand why Zayne held him by the hip instead until nimble fingers flicked out the end of his belt, pulled to free the buckle’s prong, and whipped it out in a single flourish.
“On your knees.”
“Wait, wait- fuck!” The full length cut across his front, only shielded by thin cotton, but the familiar sting throbbed on his jaw. A tentative touch found hot, angry skin just below his cheek. “That was my face, Zayne!”
“You clearly don’t care to heed my requests today. I don’t see any reason to return the favor.” He doubled the leather over and tilted his head.
Finally Jay made eye contact, turned his back, and slid to his knees.
“No. Face me.”
“I’m not letting you bust my lip with a belt!”
He’d already resigned himself to the shove when it came and caught himself just before he hit the wall again. Zayne’s boot landed on his ankle and couldn’t hold back a smile at the yelp it forced out.
“Then you’d better get your arms up and make sure I can’t.”
#whump#whumblr#fanart#my art#whump art#fanfiction#my writing#whump writing#fanuary#nope it's not a real event just a word i made hehe#belting#bruises#blood#male whumper#male whumpee#defiant whumpee#manhandling#forced stripping#noncon stripping#do i know jay's undershirts are usually t-shirts? yes. did i think the way i drew his sleeves looked dorky? yup.#these men cannot get enough of white shirts damn. or is it my fault for always mentally putting zayne in white...#zayne wasn't Supposed to hit him in the face but i put a lil something on jay's jaw when drawing so... who am i to deny?#i just think it's nice to make jay do all the work to keep his face clean :)! poor zayne always has to be so considerate and careful aiming#problem solved!!! put your fucking arms up jay!!!#honestly i can't believe i haven't written fanfic before now. i've done written in blood fanfic... sv-240 fanfic...#i got here eventually didn't i :3? (p.s. i forgot to say: it's MY fanart and I get to paint the walls !!!!!!!! muahahahaaa!!!!)#oh and yes kirsten. i asked about zayne's knife specifically for this. was i sneaky enough ;P?#note how it's literally the tiniest bit of it poking out LMAO but i wanted to be accurate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!#then i was drawing jay's glasses and was like.. shit. are rectangular metal frames my headcanon or do i know that from the story.#ANYWAYYYYY i'm probably out of tags!!! i hope you enjoy!!!!!! time to schedule this for morning :3
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my eye-spy sitcom best friendcore ass apartment. btw. just thought you should know. I kind of recommend zooming in if you want to.
Constant Visual Stimulation. No Escape.
bonus: the newest addition that we stole rescued from my place of work yesterday after taking these pics. a lovely lady.
#this covers the majority of it for now. I cannot stop myself from putting every little thing on a wall#if you can spot just how many of these things are my own art you get some sort of prize ig#I don't think you'd be able to though. not in full tbh.#also please forgive me for the tumblr sexyman sash and the blorbo poster. I was going thru it last year. had a moment of weakness.#idk what to tag this as tbqh.#maximalism#I think?#apartment#aesthetic#the tragedy of this is that you can't see my Dr. Who book+comic shelves in this#I also didn't really document our bat shelf very well either. maybe I should just take pics of the bookshelves. lmao.#ok to interact. please do actually tbh#there was a part of me that was going to make a way more intense exploration of the living room#almost point and click style. hard to explain rn. maybe one day I'll do it when I clean up the bookshelves and stuff more#but this doesn't even get into all the stickers on the end tables and my speakers and stuff loll
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gonna have to bury myself in the dirt for a thousand years to recover from all this rejection
#tattoo shops keep turning me down; this time it really hurt…#and i mean; i know *why*— it’s a tough industry to get into; especially for someone who’s more of a cartoonist than anything#but gosh. this has been happening all week.#one session is all i’m asking for. 5 hours of their time.#i’ll be a fly on the wall. gimme some windex or smth. i’ll dust. i’ll mop. dawg i’ll clean ur fuckin toilets ok??#just one sesh; and u will never see me again. it’ll be like i was never even there.#i drove for hours this time guys; i drove for hours and i practiced what i was gonna say; i even had some art ready just in case#<<(nothing i’ve shown on here; but point is; i really felt like i came prepared.)#but i was hardly in there for a minute#it’d take longer to microwave a hot pocket than it took for them to send me away#all they had to do was look at me…#guhhhh…#(how much more rejection is this going to take)#(i need my old mentor to come back please please come back please)#stan’s forum
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ngl. every time i see someone talk about a fairly standard/innocuous bong or pipe that isnt that structurally complex and they talk about the way it would be "impossible" to keep it clean my concern for the ways y'all treat your glass (and therefore your lungs) rises by 10 notches........
#as someone who smokes DAILY: PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CLEAN YOUR GLASS OFTEN#if you just change the water daily even/try not to leave it filled with wet it will significantly improve your smoking experience#if your bong is getting BLACK AND MOLDY WITHIN THREE DAYS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO ANYTHING DIFFERENT OH MY GD#filters.... change the water more.... DON'T ash into the water........ anything??????#😭#also not rbable bc this is very judgemental in tone and i dont feel like ppl crying to me about why they Should be able to do this#like ultimately do what u want im just really concerned for ur lungs & u can Genuinely have such a better smoking experience 😭#(<totally not autistic ab weed & smoking (lying))#also if u genuinely dont know how to clean ur bong effectively: get at least 70% alcohol & the frequency of cleaning depends on how much u#use it but when im smoking from the bong a lot i do it before every sesh (yes it takes extra time. i find it peaceful but regardless. you#will just need to keep track of ur own habits) and fill the (empty) reservoir ~1/3-1/4 with the 70% and then plug the mouth piece and stem#hole with your thumbs and shake that bitch a couple times to slosh the alcohol on the walls. if theres grime add a couple spoons of coarse#salt (or rice if its a lot!!) and then shake shake shake (be careful dont hit it ofc) and then dump that out and rinse repeatedly#(i personally fill it with as much water as i can and dump it out lile 4-6 times but just MAKE SURE THERES NO MORE ALCOHOL)#bottle brushes and straw cleaners help with residual grime / harder to clean spots but are unnecessary in my experience if you are cleaning#it often enough. for bowls (& pipes) I recommend letting them soak for a bit in some rubbing alcohol while you do this#and then by the time the main piece is cleaned you can use a straw cleaner in the hole part or even a toothbrush or a q tip to clean off the#resin/gunk (i clean my actual bowl less often than the bong itself but also i use filters and the resin helps that stay better)#anyway i love cleaning my bong and i love glassware so much and bongs can be beautiful just be niceys to it!!! it needs baths!!!
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Winter's Child Preview Snippet
This one is Jon's arrival and first day at the wall, and a conversation with a LOT of subtext. It's a pretty important one for beginning to unpack the mythology/lore driving the story, and I'm curious to hear what you guys think of it! This one is wildly unedited, so pardon the possible capitalization errors/clunky sentences.
Jon reached out, placing a trembling hand on the great wall. immediately, he began to feel his knees buckling, taking a gasping breath to try and center himself again.
He had always known that Bran the Builder had constructed the wall, had used magics beyond any house’s gifts today, to create the towering monolith.
What he hadn’t realized was just how much magic was humming in the layers of ice and- he blinked, unsure.
He’d always thought the wall was ice and rock, but something nagged at the back of his mind.
“Uncle-“ he asked, later, quietly, as they stood atop the structure, “what is the wall made of?”
Benjen was quiet for a moment, turning eyes on him that had always been more perceptive than Jon cared for. Twyla didn’t blink as she stood behind her bonded, her golden eyes piercing him.
The oldest stories we have speak of it being Bran the Builder’s creation.” Benjen murmured, his voice pitched so that only Jon could hear it under the whistle of the wind atop the wall. “Ice created of magic wilder than you or I could dream of.”
Ghost gave a snort beside him, his breath clouding the chilled air. Jon agreed.
“And what do you believe?” he asked his uncle, grateful for the fire that flowed through his veins as the temperature dropped.
“I believe that no stark- not even a winter-blooded one has ever been able to do anything-“ Benjen gestured around him, “Like this. Not Torrhen, not Brandon the Breaker, not even-“ he swallowed, looking down into Jon’s eyes with something that looked oddly like guilt. He turned away the next second, continuing. “If the Stark gift before Torrhen was really that powerful-“ he sighed, looking down over the frosted landscape, “Then why did the gods take the winter-blood gift from us when we needed it the most? Why, if Bran the builder could use our gift to protect the entire north with something as massive as the wall, did it not protect us from the clutches- the claws- of dragons?”
Jon felt a hot rush of shame in his veins as he thought of the Targaryen conquers bringing the north to heel 300 years ago. Would that his blood was only Stark. His uncle’s hand on his shoulder cut him off the next minute, though, and Jon realized that his expression was affectionate, and held no blame.
“You are a Stark.” Benjen reminded him, softly. “Not what blood the man who sired you gave you. The old gods granted you the gift of skinchanging- no Southerner has ever been able to do that.” Jon nodded, his throat tight as his uncle squeezed his shoulder. The flames leapt up his throat, flickering against his insides, but he held them down.
“The winter-blood gift was… harsh.” Benjen continued, looking Northward with a distant expression on his face. “Skinchanging- warging- is akin to communing with the old gods through the creatures they brought forth in the first days. It brings out the truth of a man-“
“Or woman.” Jon said, thinking of Arya’s ferocity and the ease in which she slipped in and out of various creatures.
“Or woman.” Benjen chuckled in agreement. “it allows us to connect to the old gods in a way the winter-blooded never could.”
Jon frowned.
You have heard tales of our ancestors, Jon.” Benjen sighed, his shoulders dropping. “Harsh, cold men- many of whom held a powerful ambition and the gift to make it truth. All of whom were winter-blooded. It’s a magic that can easily corrupt- turning hearts to ice as the self is lost. It doesn’t feel akin to greensight or skinchanging- but rather something other. Something older and harsher. Winter was never meant to be a gift.”
“But it’s been gone for 300 years.” Jon’s brows drew together.
Benjen was quiet for a second, and something prodded at the back of Jon’s mind.
“What testimonials we have written of it are telling.” he answered, finally. “And the feel of it can be found in the crypts among the oldest of the tombs. Magic harsh and alien enough that, at times, not even the weirwood will draw on it for nourishment.” they were silent for a moment.
“Do you think it will ever come back?” Jon asked, feeling the bite of the wind on his skin. “The winter-blood gift?”
“We are better stewards of the north- better men- as skinchangers.” Benjen told him, with some finality, his face darkening. “The greatest stories of the winter-blood gift speak of impossibilities like the wall, or of power that twisted the minds of men and made them something less than human. Less than alive.” He smiled at Jon, but something about it was strained. “As skinchangers, we can see through the eyes of others- we can hold a sacred bond with the guardians of the weirwood.” He buried a steadying hand in Twyla’s thick fur. Though still massive, she was a leaner creature than most of the direwolves, though Jon knew it only lent her a speed that none of them had. “If the winter-blood gift ever was returned to us, I would pray it was given to someone who could tame it. Who could temper the danger. and not be swallowed whole by it.”
Jon frowned, searching his uncle’s face. It felt as though they were having two separate conversations.
“But to be able to create something as magnificent as the wall-“
“No man could ever create something as powerful as the wall.” Benjen shut him down. “Not alone, and not instantly. Magic undoubtedly helped build the wall, but no man could ever hold onto a power that absolute. It would destroy them.” He twisted his face. “Regardless of whatever magics built the wall, you have to decide soon if you’ll devote yourself to guarding and protecting it. There’s little room for questioning once you’ve chosen, and it makes men uneasy to speak of the wall’s origins, Jon.” he sighed. “The wall is a strange and not well understood marvel. such things can inspire awe, or they can inspire suspicion. To discuss it is… not done.”
Jon nodded, his tongue heavy in his mouth with more questions, but he remained quiet, thinking of all his uncle had spoken of as they watched the night fall over the far north.
#my writing#Winter's Child#my wips#IMPORTANT: everyone is an unreliable narrator in certain ways#the reason the stark gift changed isn't important at all no sir nope#(sarcasm)#histories are written by the victors! By the people who survived!#also the weirwood trees here are a bit more symbiotic with the starks- we'll get into that going forward#but a form of worship is to offer a blood sacrifice from your own body (we haven't seen it yet because it's a pretty serious thing)#and the roots of the weirwood feed on bodies (and their magic) in the crypts after death#How WAS the wall built? Why did the Stark gift change? Is Benjen fully correct about the winter-blood gift?#Good questions to think critically about!#I need to clean it up but i really do love this scene and this conversation
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Hnnnnnng
#guesss who found a broken claw machine for cheap#in the cleaning phase#well extra clea ing#this is how i cope with not getting the clown machine (silly)#im gonna store my plushies in here :3c#girl help how do you convince your father that you dont want to go though the cost and effort to get thsi working#i dontt have anymore outlets on that wall. your speaker and lights idea is cool but how many times do i have to say it needs to be#battery powered instead of a plug or any sort of wire#not sure how to clean the metal/black parts#taking out to windows to clean the inside more thoroughly#and the windows#this bitch is DIRTY#i accidently stepped on the foam from the prize drop after taking it out and it crumbled into dust
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There’s not enough discourse in the paranormal fandom about those of us who are such space cases that we could walk into the kitchen and find all the chairs stacked on top of the table in a manner that defies physics and either a) not notice, or b) notice and think, huh, I don’t remember doing that - maybe it was the cat?
#that poll reminded me of this#like good luck trying to haunt me with strange noises and shadows and so on#a shadow person could do the Macarena in my living room at 3am and it would just#blend into the background noise of golden girls on the tv#I have long wanted to write a story where a person lives in a haunted house#but they are adhd and also middle aged and tired#so they don’t notice the haunting#and the ghost who had been haunting this place for like hundreds of years#just does not know how to deal with this so they get really invested in the haunting#and the paranormal activity just steadily escalates to the point of absurdity#the main character will walk into a room and see shit like#‘get out!!’ scribbled on the walls in blood and be like#‘… uh. the fuck?’#and the ghost will be like ‘FINALLY JESUS CHRIST IVE BEEN TRYING TO GET YOUR ATTENTION FOR A YEAR AND A HALF’#and the narrator will be like ‘…. so are you gonna clean this or? bc I’m not losing my security deposit’#and the ghost is like ‘oh yeah sorry about that - the economy amirite?’#and the narrator is like ‘you have no idea’ and the ghost is like ‘yeah I do I’ve seen how you live’#anyway#this has been a quality post#paranormal#the Charlotte Lennox diaries#adhd artichoke
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No crafting update today, because I did a bunch of cleaning, ran some errands (had to mail some stuff and get a replacement headset for work because mine spontaneously separated into two pieces yesterday) and now I'm making chicken and dumplings for dinner So like, got a lot done, but absolutely none of it craft related and I'm really pushing my limits physical spoons-wise (in that my POTS is flaring up not in that I used all the actual spoons cooking lol) I have a really really cool art trade thing to show y'all but it has to wait until I can take photos, so that'll be later today or maybe tomorrow
#the person behind the yarn#crafting update#food mention#chicken and dumplings is perhaps an odd choice considering how hot it currently is outside#and the fact that the AC is not working correctly in my house#but my dad asked for it for fathers day#so...chicken and dumplings it is!#I just looked at the thermostat and it's 80 in my house right now I no longer feel even slightly bad#about hitting the metaphorical wall so hard pots-wise#because this morning I was feeling GREAT and I was like I can DO THINGS I will CLEAN THE WHOLE HOUSE#and then I got back from shopping and was like I will...sit down#sitting down is what I will do until cooking time#and I didn't know why but it's 80 inside!!#and like yeah 80 isn't thaaaat hot but I am very very sensitive to heat. anything over 76 I start wilting#well okay with my new meds I can actually tolerate up to like 78 most days#but 80 is Too Hot#for anyone new confused as to why I don't tolerate heat when it's not really that hot: I have salt wasting syndrome and POTS#heat is a dilates blood vessels (bad for POTS) and makes you sweat (losing even more salt)#I visibly wilt like a dramatic houseplant lol
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I understand the sentiment behind a post I saw recently about having a tidy and cleansed space before invoking a deity, I genuinely do, but also it triggered something deep within and now trying to tidy up feels more like a threat on my life than it already did and I am deeply afraid of trying to clean up because it won't ever be enough and I should be deeply ashamed of myself for clutter existing in my lived in space.
#screaming into the void#shout out to my dad for threatening to throw me out of the house because i wasnt cleaning to his standards#scolding me for trying to get rid of things (because i 'made a bigger mess' in the process) after telling me to get rid of things#shaming me for how i cleaned and telling me i should know better when he never once taught me how to clean#whose idea of clean seemed to be 'nothing should be visible ever and even if it brings you joy'#because having things visible that brought joy was cluttered and childish#clean could only mean empty surfaces and minimally deocrated shelves with almost nothing on the walls#who had the audacity after all that to be shocked and confused at why i didnt want my hs diploma on the wall#really appreciate feeling like im being hunted for sport whenever i try tidying up or doing my laundry
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every time u reblog those paintings of coloured squares and rectangles I get so happy
“yay yippee” <- me
omg i’m SO glad u like them i love rothkos sm they make me so happy i’m so glad you like them too!!!
#ask#ive never had the chance to see any irl but i really hope i can one day but there are none close to me :(#they’re so beautiful and i’ve heard that they have such a presence when you see them irl bc no scan or photo can really capture the size#of them and the colors in the scans aren’t 100% accurate from what i’ve heard but i will enjoy them how i can for now#anyway colorblock paintings are so cool but i find a lot of ppl don’t like them as much as my anytime i show someone irl they’re like uh ok#it’s nice ig but they don’t get it and like ik a lot of ppl are like that with modern art but it saddens me…. why can’t they see what#i see in them…. but it’s whatever i think they’re so rad tho like they’re also RLLY FUCKING BIG irl btw like i think most r bigger than me#i think the average size was smth like 5’4 by 4’3 if i’m remembering correctly#and like one i rlly rlly like (orange and yellow. 1956) is like 7’5 by 5’9 so it’s MASSIVE which is so cool like the simplicity of#the color fields with the complexity of the layered colors with teh sheer fucking size of the things omg…. and they display them rlly#well i esp like the rothko chapel’s way of doing it bc it’s a nice clean room with these giant paintings contrasting the walls and the#lighting looks so good like ough i really wanna go but it’s in texas and that’s like a wayyy too long drive lol. but it’s so fucking#gorgeous like no hate to other museums that display them but the bright lighting is not what they’re made for the softness of the chapel#is like so perfect for them and i’ve heard that other places r trying to display them in softer lighting as to recreate the lighting that#rothko would’ve been using while painting them so that’s so fucking cool#i got distracted and forget where i was going w that but i’m SO glad u like them i am trying to spread my love of rothkos to other ppl#i think we all need to appreciate them more bc they’re so awesome
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The problem with my life is that I am not the mom friend by choice it's just that my parents actually taught me how to be a functional human being
#'why don't you want children' i already spent enough time teaching people (my age!) how to clean up after themselves honestly#just to be clear i don't mean that my friends' parents are abusive or anything. i mean that they completely spoiled them lmao#'when i am showering i always leave my hair on the wall' 'do you ever have to clean the bathroom' 'no' yeah i couldve guessef#guessed*#personal
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l e t m e i n ! ! !
#d a m m i t d to the h to the l whyyyyy did you have to increase the shipping cost by 20 bucks the literal day before the preorders shipped—#thanks to that it only shipped today auuuuuuuuuaughdjejdjdjdhd#wdymmmmmmm the package is still in the same place from 4 hours agoooooooo#auauaaaauauaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i want in s o b a d l y#s o bs the only song jp twt is talking about is last stage#i don’t care about last stage (for now) i want m e o t o ! ! !#s. s o b s. unless a surprise mv drops ig im gonna have to wait till 12am for the midnight release… 7 hours to go…#ig i’ll just skip a few hundred times and do some pushups while i wait… im lich rally bouncing off the walls here i cant even auauauauaaaaaa#this. seriously hasn’t been a good couple of weeks for online purchases for me…#first my local shipment for [insert item] was delayed bc of last week’s oddly rainy weather#and t h e n that item was apparently mislabelled and locked in shipment purgatory for the weekend (sadge)#it only arrived yesterday (sadded) though ig i should be glad it even arrived at all#and nowwwwwww. this happens. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh#idk there’s so many other things i’ve been meaning to do while i wait for the cd but. i just. can’t#this sucks i wanna be marginally more productive too heyyyyyyyyyy#i wonder how long meoto is though… hopefully between 3-5 minutes…#if the song’s like. m. ilgram t2-length im gonna cry#but ymk said that it’s her favourite song on the album so it should be good!!!! right??!!!!!!!!#ausgshhssh he l p i should really go back to. like. cleaning idol sengen pages instead or sth.#see you in a few hours for meoto tl/if they decide to drop a sudden mv or sth idk
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