#how did this one get so long wtf ??

[beeduoo]

originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins

[icewindandboringhorror]

I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

[arolesbianism]

Welcome to the “they’re just like me fr (derogatory)” club featuring no color because I would rather die than draw Sif with color

[zandrawz]

Finally watched Kung Fu Panda 4, tell me why it unironically changed my life

[todayisafridaynight]

Hey so Snap this is going to be so fucking weird, but honestly don’t care. So I was watching a clip of Drag Race Philippines and it was the make over episode and I think they were making over family members and this father was all about getting into drag. So, I just wanted to tell you never forget how much of a lovely loving kind and caring father you have, who loves you and protects you and makes you feel heard. That’s all.

i'd have to die before i forget how great my dad is thank you for the opportunity to brag about him again anon

[triglycercule]

i want to headcanon the mtt having absolutely terrible hygiene and struggling to keep themselves clean (this MAY... just QUITE POSSIBLY.... only in the SLIGHTEST bit be projection) but i think it would be too gross and man EVEN I dont wanna think about that

also killer canonically smells good and i actually really LIKE that idea so oh shit there goes that idea out the window. horror and dust youre my only hope please let me make you smell bad for reasons you won't understand

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[orchideae]

CECILIA CARA IS THE ONE THEY GOT TO SING THE FRENCH SONG AT THE END OF FURINA'S QUEST??? MY YOUNG TEENS ARE SMACKING ME, WHAT IS THIS.

[jenevawashere]

I took a personal day to try and get normal life stuff done. I got the first thing on my list done before lunch. The rest of the stuff wasn't done until after dinner. THERE WERE ONLY THREE THINGS ON MY TO DO LIST!!!

[astro-inthestars]

YOOOOOOO WE FUCKIN DID IT!!!! YEAHHH!! We slayed SOOO well!! EVERYONE DID!! The other sections were SO FUCKING GOOD i LOVED it!!! And like, we won first place or whatever i didnt care about that really BUT WE ALL DID GREAT!

Anyways, just got home from my pal's birthday party (more like Hang Out at the mall, we ate out) it was AWESOME! First time inside a Starbucks, and first order ALL ON MY OWN! (HELL YEAH RELIGIOUS REBELLION!!)

[chvrrycola]

1920S! AU x KIM DONGYOUNG

you wish you could say you were used to being treated like dirt by your colleagues, but for some reason it still managed to surprise you. everyday you went into the office hoping that today might be the day that they stopped treating you like the new kid, and everyday you were disappointed. 

it ranged from ‘accidentally’ spilling coffee to the documents you were working on, to complaining that your conduct was inappropriate, to not-so-secretly insulting you behind your back. 

you were close to confronting your boss about it, but you had no confidence whatsoever that he would side with you, an intern, over some of his most loyal, most profitable employees. you’d be out of the door the second you tried to say a word against any of them. 

so you’d just try to sit tight, hoping they’d leave you alone eventually, and that you wouldn’t do anything to encourage their treatment of you to get any worse. 

the feeling of dread hit you the second you saw a note from your boss on your desk. you had just gotten into work for the day, feeling flustered by the lateness of your train and trying to avoid people’s eyes. 

there were two possibilities, and you couldn’t decide which you liked less. 

number one, it was a prank. someone else had written the note and assumed you would go to see your boss anyway, fearing retribution if you didn’t, leaving you to burst in embarrassed and be scolded for wasting his time. 

or number two, they had finally said something to him and he wanted to see you in his office so that he could fire you. 

you straightened out your shirt, standing up just as you saw your boss’s head emerge from his office. his eyes caught yours immediately, and you were surprised to  see a soft smile play on his lips as he nodded to acknowledge you. 

leaving your desk, you made your way over to him, shuffling into his office as he held the door open for you. it clicked softly as he pushed it shut, waving a hand to invite you to sit as he pulled out his own chair behind his desk, kim dongyoung glittering on the plaque in front of him. 

he cleared his throat.

‘it’s been brought to my attention, unfortunately, that you have been receiving some trouble from some of my other employees.’ 

your gaze fell to the floor, hoping he didn’t think you were weak and not worth your position. 

‘is this true, y/n?’ his words demanded eye contact, albeit gently, and you looked up to see concern swimming in his irises. you nodded. 

‘you’ve done some excellent work for us here already, y/n. i hope they’ve not been making you feel as though you’re not an asset to the company. i value the workers that value their work, i need them working at their best to keep the company at its best. and i wanted to ask whether you think a promotion might convince them to keep their mouths shut about your qualifications and your value here?’

as if to punctuate the offer, he drew a contract from one of the drawers of his desk and placed it on the table in front of him, drawing you forward to scan the small print. 

‘there’s no need to decide today, but i just wanted to put it in your mind. it’s important that they see you’re staying, y/n, if you’re not too sick of them of course, which i’d understand.’

you took that as your cue to leave, taking the contract from his hand as you turned, only to realise he was following you to the door. 

‘it really would be a shame to lose you, y/n, let me know if there’s anything in the contract you’d like changed, we can work something out.’ 

you smiled at him as you left, clutching the contract to you chest and smirking at the arrogance in your coworkers’ faces. 

[sualne]

been looking for jobs for three years and in the past two months ish I’ve gotten for the first time my first job interview and for a different job my first job essay.

(I did have an actual job as a comic colorist for like six months but nobody around me considered it a Real Job so I feel like I just never have a job even though I very much did.)

and each time, during the interview where I know realise I was kind of being explained the whole time why I wouldn’t get the job and at the end of the essay(which might not be the right word, like a day we’re your try out the job to see if you can do it) one of the reasons given why I wouldn’t be taken it was ‘we need people who can smile’.

(there were actual argument like being ‘too introverted’ and ‘not dynamic enough’. That last one is funny because i had another ‘almost pass out for no reasons’ moment right for break time (genuinely perfect timing) during the essay and while I was cold sweating and going blind on the bathroom floor I realised, if anyone ever know I have health issues I will never get a job. So being told I wasn’t dynamic enough a fourty something minutes later was straight up comedic).

Back to the smiling, my entire life since I was a literal baby I’ve been told I wasn’t expressing the Right Way. ‘If you feel a specific way you Have to emote this specific way, act this specific way and not do anything else otherwise you’re not actually feeling what you say you’re feeling, it means you’re actually lying, faking it or don’t know what you’re actually feeling because your not showing it the Right Way’ and obviously I’ve dismissed this my entire life because I was sure it was obvious and everyone knew that everyone exist differently and people don’t act the same. I kind of assume everyone that ever bothered me about it was some flavor of 1 having a day and decided to being weird about it to me or anyone else that was also not existing the correct way. 2 just kind of an asshole and therefor they’re opinion didn’t matter. 3 just kind of strange about thing and so be it, ´not my problem tho’ I thought.

But seeing how it’s an actual argument people have use twice now to refuse me a job I’m kind of being thinking, it might actually, for real, be a thing people actually are worried about, actually. Which is wild, but also make sense because people have very much for my whole life, to me and to a ton of strangers, made comments on folks not existing the proper way. Like how in horror someone being slightly off, slightly wrong, a little bit not how it usual should be is the trope of all time. And I love this trope, someone who’s voice is in differed from how they mouth work, someone who seems to not walk directly on the floor but just slightly above it. It’s fun and interesting.

Anyway, real life stuff, being told I’m not smiling enough is wild, like yeah I don’t smile much at all that’s a fact, and both job were about interacting with people and every time you go to a restaurant you’ll ear someone saying out of nowhere mean thing about people who work there. Insane things like ‘I don’t like the way they’re standing’ and over analysing someone expression and body languages when they’re literally just doing their job.

This post is kind of a mess but I had a point which was, I don’t understand people and why are so many mean for no reasons but I wanted it to sound less like a kid complaining and be more verbose about it.

And (this isn’t over yet) I did force myself to smile, like I very much did, I tried my best to be as pleasant and polite as possible. And being told again, this isn’t enough, just suck. Like I have to mask and hide and deal with so much I kind of expected that of all thing I was allowed to keep my face. Like people have bothered me about it my entire life and I’ve dismissed it my entire life because it just did not make sense and I couldn’t make it make sense(still can’t). But I’m genuinely at lost at what to do about it, if apparently I also have to change my face to get a job, that I need to exist the correct way in order to have the damn job in order to exist at all is all so, Not Good.

[pepprs]

mutuals i got myself into a situation so sticky i don’t even know how to describe it (edit: *describes it* lol). please send thoughts of successful escape my way lol

[billowyy]

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[rubberbandballqueen]

also, the kids found a nest with a dead bird on the ground today, and they started yelling abt it n drawing all the other kids over, so i had to actually switch into the Authority Figure Voice(tm) with them so that they wouldn’t like. literally desecrate its body by kicking it around for funsies

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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