#hospital inpatient

[ittyalfie]

I went in to the hospital unexpectedly for emergency surgery. I nearly did not even ask for medical help because of interoception difficulties, alexythmia, communication and high pain threshold. I am just amazed and so grateful I did the best thing and saught help. They thankfully considered my symptoms and presentation carefully, considered and ruled out appendicitis or kidney stones but it was ovarian torsion. But pain scale is so, so hard for me and I’m sure others, especially autistics could relate. I thought my pains were maybe 7 but it was a lot higher. I just wanted to share. If you try so hard to trust and advocate or assert your need in anyway , I am proud of you. I am proud of my self today. It was such a challenging day on so many levels. I don’t even know how I’m posting this but yay, I felt I really wanted to. I used my autism alert card from Aspect Australia and thank them for their resources. How to get one Link in here only for interest:

[neuroticboyfriend]

not that people who've been to the ward are immune from being pro-psych, but if you've never been to a psych ward*, i sincerely don't want to hear about how psychiatry/psychology is good because you've had such a good experience with X provider, or X medication saved your life. *i also don't want to hear about how the forced treatment was what you needed or how the ward you went to let you have your cellphone etc. etc. i genuinely do not want to hear it.

like. the first hospitalization traumatized me so bad, i became dangerously delusional, was re-hospitalized, and sent to state. when they transferred me, i was strapped down into a gurney at all points on my body, *head and neck included*, and loaded onto an ambulance. my parents lost most of their parental rights; i was a ward of the state and had near zero rights. when i got there, they made me choose if, "if necessary," if i wanted to be wrangled down and forcibly injected with a sedative... or wrangled down and locked in a padded room all by myself (but at least i had a choice, right?). i signed consents and paperwork that i did not fucking understand. then i was told i'd be locked inside for 2 straight weeks (which yes, they followed through with). the psych ward was remote, nothing but barbed fences and trees around us. cant even see the sun through the heavily tinted windows. that was the *start* of the stay. i'm sure you can imagine nothing good came after.

so like. if you walk out of a place like that thinking it was good for you, then i can only imagine how traumatized you are and i hope you heal someday. but if you've never faced the destruction of your autonomy like that and go around being like "oh this is good actually" then shut the ever living fuck up.

[redstainedsocks]

I gotta tell you... Being hooked up to a bunch of machinery and being gently strapped to a table (for safety) is low-key unsettling even when the people doing it are nice and explaining exactly what's going to happen, when, and why.

Without being spoken to? While being forced? With no information? In a strange place? Surrounded by enemies or hostile people?

That shit would be frightening as fuck. The lack of control. The lack of answers. Feeling less important, less human, than everyone else in the room.

So do that to your characters. If you're into medical/lab whump you're hitting all the right notes with this trope. So go HAM. Do it MORE. It's perfect.

[thedreadvampy]

sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

[crippled-peeper]

the way my body smells when I am stresssd out is such a massive trigger and I hate it

[wikipediapictures]

Automated dispensing cabinet

“Pyxis SupplyStation automated dispensing cabinet at Campbell County Memorial Hospital in Gillette, Wyoming.” - via Wikimedia Commons

[grantwilson]

you know what time it is

[angelic-cosm]

We went into inpatient this week, and it was long overdue yet really traumatic. We were told to go voluntarily or else they'd get a court order to keep us there against our will...so yeah, it was against our will. Jadie was so scared. Some of us feel like the hospital is going to call us any minute and say we need to come back or else. That's not realistic, but it's a paranoid thought that follows us at night. We're finally home.

[slveepyscwrs]

okay but this is a quick shoutout for the disabled peeps who live long term or permanently in the hospital

on the side of the internet that i grew up on there were a lot of hospital kids, and they were all some of the kindest people ive ever met

i remember asking one of my friends long ago about her pain and she said, "i dont know, i just need a distraction"

and yet none of us can imagine the pain they must be in, constantly being confined to a bed that isn't theirs 24/7, with nothing to do and not knowing if they'll ever be free

if you are one of them, take a virtual hug

[neuroticboyfriend]

massive trigger warning for abuse/suicide on this one, but for anyone who thinks psych wards are about protecting people:

1. my friend was trying to choke herself. i begged the staff to help her, and they said she was only looking for attention. minutes later, they call a code, wrangled her to the ground, and forcibly sedated her.

2. a girl was upset because she couldnt call her dad past a certain time. she started screaming, and crying, messing up the front desk. 8 security guards took her down. they broke her arm and sprained her wrist.

3. i came back to my unit in shambles because the staff on hand did nothing to stop a fight. i had to remedy the situation myself. things like this happened often.

4. i was having a trauma meltdown during "quiet time." the youngest patient tried to comfort me, and staff told her to stop and go back to her room because i was "a big girl who can handle herself." i was an out trans guy. the staff member didnt speak to me at all.

5. they separate roommates if they become friends. but they put me and my friend together for the sole purpose of putting us on constant observation together. we had zero privacy, even in the bathroom (which they took the door off of). at state, if you're on C.O, they take away your clothes, possessions, and "privileges."

6. im a CSA survivor. i was forced to regularly occupy the same space as a rapist, no matter how many flashbacks it caused me. they even roomed him next to me.

7. i am intersex. at state, doctors forced me onto an anti-androgen. i refused at first; they labeled me noncompliant, extended my stay, and took away my "privileges" (ex: snacks, going outside, doing fun activities, socializing).

8. they left my friend in a padded room strapped to a table for hours. they then let her off the table and left her in the padded room overnight. she had to wait hours in the morning to be let out.

9. at state, kids have to choose between being forcibly injected with a sedative, or being locked in a padded room if deemed "necessary." your parents have to sign away most of their parental rights, and if they want to sign you out, they need to go to court. for months. the state owns you.

we were all children. none of what i said is a "bad apples" situation. things like this happened every. single. day. it happened at multiple hospitals. these places are made to control mentally ill and other marginalized people. they exist to abuse us into conformity, take away our autonomy, and keep us away from polite society. psych wards should not exist.

[broken-bxy]

So I haven’t posted on here in years, my old posts make me really sad, because I’m here to tell you, things in fact, DO get better. After becoming very unwell with an eating disorder and severe self harm, last September I was admitted to a specialist psych hospital. I’ve been here a little over a year now. And it’s helped SO much. They’ve put me on a combination of meds that work for me, finally offered me the right therapy. For the first time in forever I finally see myself with a future guys. And it’s magical. I want to experience so much. If you’re looking for a sign to commit to recovery, this is it! I promise it is so worth every cry, every heartache. If I can do it so can you.

[tranquilsanatorium]

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[heph]

was scrolling through your posts and read somewhere that you used to be a med student?? you cant just drop that and not elaborate...what is your opinion on house md from a medical standpoint (from a wanna be med student😞)

LMAO specifically I was a pharmacy student, I worked in a hospital and I forgot nearly everything about medicine bc it's been a few years

The diagnoses in House MD are complex, rare diseases and most of the things that happen are way outta my understanding, and it's also really unrealistic at times 😅 but I don't really think too hard about it BC I'm just watching this for enjoyment.

[itscalledmidgar]

heading home today babeyyyyyy

discharge nurse was being very gentle and caring and sympathetic about the loss of my uterus and i was trying to explain back that. no it really is fine, i have support at home but losing this piece of shit is definitely not something i'm mourning i promise srthsrhr

[wikipediapictures]

Automated dispensing cabinet

“XT Anesthesia Workstation, an automated dispensing cabinet (ADC) used in hospital operating rooms.” - via Wikimedia Commons

[protosstar]

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