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your thesis update.... i will tell you that your advisor is definitely the problem (and so is the organization of your program for not having published the theses in a way that is accessible because wtf). please take care of yourself and treat yourself well because a terrible grad school experience is no joke. you WILL escape that place with a degree and i hope everything goes a little bit more smoothly in the future🫡
i can tell that she REALLY does not like me nor wants to put up with me which is..... kind of incredible. im truly not quite sure where it all went wrong — my program is like...stupidly expensive (hello terrifying student debt!) as well as pretty damn renown and i came to this uni SPECIFICALLY for this subfield that im in and it's been a genuine mess from my first semester (not even counting the whole thesis debacle). im going to drag myself to the finish line even if it kills me but also like. this is genuinely the most degraded i've ever felt LOL
#reminiscing about all the meetings and emails she'd blow off<3#and regarding the theses i KNOW!!#it was genuinely kind of hysterical. read the first thesis and went. huh. the second one and went. wait a minute. i see how it's supposed#to be now........#anyways. area man's advisor can't bring herself to tell me what's wrong and was gonna pawn me off to the writing center<3#this genuinely has kind of................killed my belief in my writing though like ): there's no way i was gonna strike out bc i just#didnt know the specifics of the format of the thesis bc...guess who was never told lol.. but#i've always prided myself on my writing especially my academic writing and... ):#oh. if it makes it worse. i took a class w my advisor beforehand and she complimented me on my writing. so. LOL.#thank you for this message btw! ive been feeling so alone it's been terrible lately at least in ellian pendraegon world#hopefully youve been doing better!
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all i can think about is that i am going as L for halloween. I AM GOING AS L FOR HALLOWEEN EEE.
#🍂 arian's shit#l lawliet#death note#it'll be very shitty and low effort but still#all i will be wearing is a pair of skinny jeans (i don't even own them baggy) and a white long sleeved shirt which I can hopefully find#under 10 dollars from five below#the shirt I'll try to find in a size that's bigger than me#makeup also virtually nothing at all#probably some foundation for that paleness and eyeliner for the dark circles#my hair i will have to wear it long and kinda ruffle it up#long haired version of L that's it#NOTHING ELSEEE#i do hope people at school notice and draw attention to ittt#WHAT JF THERE WAS SOMEONE DRESSED UP AS LIGHTTT#SOCIAL ANXIETY BE DAMNED I WILL BE SHOUTING TO THEM LIKE#HAS THERE EVER BEEN A POINT WHERE YOUVE TOLD THE TRUTH???#please please please praying to God someone shows up dressed as light#even better if they would like us to act together and do light-L shenanigans all day LIKE IMAGINE AAAAAAA#i am getting ahead of myself. my outfit is going to be so shitty literally nobody will be able to tell if I am even in costume or not#BUT STILL. DRESSING UP IS GOING TO BE FUNNN#mutuals if they dm me can get photos after the day is done :DD#AAA WHY CAN'T HALLOWEEN COME QUICKERRR#something about death and a notebook. or whatever. she dies of diarrhea in three minutes.
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what i really like so far abt 2 is that they put in a lot more little details. the sprites still have the paper doll thing where sometimes you need to approximate an action thats too complicated to animate but way more stuff DOES have custom animations like particio pulling out a bag or throné doing the little knife flip at the end of battles, and also it seems like the protagonists you havent picked up yet have different dialogue depending on the party leader who talks to them which is great. most importantly though i really like that they have dialogue that react to each other in combat though, like giving them all lines for when specific party members do a good job or are in danger is really sweet
#c.paradisi#octoposting#octo1's weakest point to me was that the party members just did not interact with each other enough#the travel banters were good(i mean. the good ones were.)#but having them talk to each other in battle which you do a lot more of does a much better job selling that these ppl are like. friends#hopefully in octopath 3 they have onscreen gay sex but for now ill take all the girls taking turns telling throné she smells nice#also i dont wanna praise the game too much before i see the clerics route#but hopefully this game wont have the problem where like#if in-character a lot of the ot1 protagonists shouldve fucking hated each other. but theyre not actually allowed to fight#like primrose and alfyn shouldve been at each others' throats.#<- like if u do have characters who have mutually exclusive moral codes thats not bad . but in that case i want to see blood and biting#either i want the characters to make sense as buddies OR i want them to have clashing personalities that actually clash#the best im hoping for from the cleric is that he will be blandly inoffensive#idk if youve picked up on the incredibly subtle undertones but i was not a fan of ophilia#ideally he would be actively terrible and so a bunch of characters would have interesting conflicts with him#BUT i will settle for him just being There and not much else
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can you do a lil story abt alasor x chubby reader? Idk I've been getting kinda insecure lately especially abt all my stretch marks so please and thank you! Have a nice day also I love your story's and stuff
rahh i just had to write something for this even though its at the top of my list. hopefully you like it, and i hope youve been feeling better lately! heres some sickeningly sweet fluff!! rather short, around 1.5k words
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Alastor x Reader (fluff/comfort)
TW: body dysmorphia, insecure reader, alastor ooc but hes a cutie pie so its ok really (coping)
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You purse your lips at your bare reflection, turning this way and that to peer at the different angles of your body and its curves. The expression on your face turned into a frown as your eyes trailed over the stripes that decorated the conjunction of your stomach and thighs, evidence of the weight you had gained over the last year.
The atmosphere was all too uncomfortable, which only made you feel worse. A mediocre shower had left your hair damp and skin cold, and the light breeze that wafted from your slightly cracked window chilled you. Your towel was lying, discarded, by your feet, but you had become too engrossed in looking at yourself in the body length mirror to really take note of the goosebumps that pricked up your arms.
You looked away from the mirror and down at your legs, lifting and twisting one to get a better look at your thighs. You sighed at the sight. You thought you might cry, but you didn't want to cry—
“Cher,” A familiar voice made you jump to attention, head whipping up and almost knocking against the chin of the culprit had he not placed his hand in the way to halt your motion. “We don’t want to catch a cold now, do we?” His voice was uncharacteristically low, and it lacked the usual intonation of static.
You met Alastor’s red gaze through the mirror as he stood behind you, bent slightly so his head was level with yours. You were embarrassed, standing here naked in front of the Radio Demon, but you were frozen in place. His hands rested gingerly against your shoulders, trailing up and down your arms, slow and gentle.
You fought back the urge to shove him away when his hands strayed from your arms, traveling under them and wrapping over your stomach. You swallowed. Tears started to blur your vision as numerous racing ideas filled your mind, casting doubt on the genuine nature of Alastor’s affections. You paused mentally when you felt another light touch of his lips against your cheek.
You didn’t blink, worried that a tear may slip down and concern the demon behind you. You caught his gaze again in the mirror and he stood silently for a moment, studying your expression. You knew your eyes looked glassy and your lips were pressed tightly in a thin line, but you prayed to God—ironically enough—that he wouldn’t notice. His brows knit, creating a slight crease on his forehead, and you timidly stood there wringing your hands together. You felt so vulnerable, so scrutinized, because why else would he be staring at you so intently if it wasn’t to judge your bared body?
“What a sight,” He said suddenly, promptly placing a featherlight kiss on the crook of your neck. “How lucky is a man to have you all to himself?” He eyed your face and your body, but his gaze lacked the typical glare of lust and hunger that you would expect from a man. Instead, they only conveyed some tender, unspoken feelings of affection for you. As strange as it was to see such a look on Alastor, you had grown accustomed and welcoming of it.
There was still doubt in your mind, but you knew to trust the gentle words he spoke to the best of your ability. Alastor was full of lies and manipulation, but he was different behind the doors of your shared room. You knew a side of him that was, for him, as equally vulnerable as you were currently. So, though there was still a part of you that fought against the idea of him loving you despite what you found in yourself to be so ugly, you allowed the reassurance of his touch and words to calm your mind.
“Now,” He said, standing up straight once more. He gingerly picked up the damp towel by your feet, contemplated it for a moment, and then vanished it in a dark plume of inky smoke. “Let’s get you something warm.”
He lightly placed his hand by your shoulder blade, pushing you with the lightest pressure to maneuver you away from the mirror. You cast one last look at yourself out of the corner of your eye, but noticed he was still watching you. You quickly looked away with an awkward, breathless laugh. He pulled you closer to himself as he walked you towards the bed. With a gentle shove from Alastor, you sat lightly on the edge of the mattress, bouncing your leg as you watched him cross the room.
He hummed as he sifted through the closet of your room, a finger on his chin as he looked too concerned about picking out pajamas. You figured he was just trying to be silly to lighten your mood, and you appreciated it. Plus, you had to admit to yourself, seeing him look so serious at a bunch of old, oversized shirts did cheer you up.
He returned after a moment with a simple red top and fuzzy black pants. He motioned his finger to prompt you to lift your arms, which had subconsciously come to rest over your stomach. You obeyed, albeit with some hesitance, and bit your lip as you lifted your arms from their protective position.
“You know,” He spoke as he aided you in pulling your arms and head through the shirt. He paused his words for a moment to shake out the pants so the fabric was straightened, and then he continued. “If the Gods were to exist, I’d say your beauty would make them rather jealous. I don’t think art even portrays them quite as enchanting.”
“Oh, you flatter me,” You said with a light eye roll and a too-sarcastic tone in your voice that you immediately regretted. He didn’t seem to mind, though.
“Oh, but it’s true!” He argued back with a light smile. He tenderly lifted one of your legs and slipped the fabric of the fuzzy pajamas over, and followed suit with your other leg. You lifted yourself up with your hands so he could slip the waist over your hips.
He stood, looking down at you for a moment, again just analyzing you. It was easier to feel more comfortable under his gaze��as comfortable as anyone could possibly be with Alastor looking at them so intently—when you were clothed.
He ruffled your hair, accompanying the movement with a pleased hum, before turning and beginning to change himself. You shuffled yourself up the bed, resting your back against the headboard as you carefully watched him.
His coat came off first, slipping down his shoulders and hung carefully in the closet. Your eyes were immediately drawn to the fluffy red tail that flicked as the cold air breezed through the fur. You made a mental note to ask to pet it later—maybe he would let you if you told him it would make you feel better. He then pulled at the hem of his undershirt, tugging it up and over his head and then down his arms. His hair tumbled down in soft locks from the neckline as he popped his head from the shirt.
God, how embarrassing you probably looked right now, watching Alastor undress in front of you with the sickest, lovestruck eyes. If you were a drawing, there would probably be hearts floating all over your head right now.
He bent at the hip slightly to rustle through a drawer of his own night shirts, and you watched the edges of his shoulder blades and the slight curvature of his lean muscles shift and contort under his pale skin with every move he made. Your eyes traveled up and down his back, drawing mental images with the lines of scars that marred his otherwise smooth flesh.
Heat flushed your cheeks when he turned his head slightly, looking at you through the corner of his eyes, catching you ogling him. His grin only grew wider, though, before he finally threw on a loose shirt. What a tease.
He made quick work of his pants, replacing them with some comfortable sweats that looked almost alien on him, considering his usual attire. He joined you in the bed, his body creating a sizable dip in the mattress that made you fall against him. His arm snaked behind your back, coming to cup you at the curves of your waist and pulling you closer. He pressed a kiss against the top of your head before resting his cheek against it.
There would be no discussion about what had been bothering you minutes prior, and you were perfectly okay with it. Alastor was useless at emotional discussions, and in extension comforting you directly, but he could, to the best of his ability, comfort you through his actions and presence. A light, soothing jazz tune reverberated in the dark room, manifesting from his cane that sat against the wall by the bed. You closed your eyes and sighed, tangling your legs into his underneath the sheets.
You purse your lips, a light curve at the corners as you smiled at your previous idea.
“Al, my love,” You said softly, moving your head so he would lift his own off of it and look at you. His red eyes had a light glow in the dark.
“Yes, ma moitie?” He lifted his clawed hand and gently placed his index under your chin. Your next words made his body jerk and tense.
“Could I pet your tail?”
#ohdeerfully#hazbin hotel#alastor x reader#hazbin hotel x reader#alastor#alastor hazbin hotel#fluff#alastor x you#tw: body dysmorphia#dysmorphia#insecure reader#):#alastor tries his best really#love him
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MOOT APPRECIATION POST
I love my moots(keep reading baout them) also these might repeat so if you all want another more specific post lmk!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hey i figure youre probably pretty done with anons re: the daisy story so feel free to ignore and never answer.
But i did want to say that im so glad you posted that story. Its been a real moment of comfort for me during a stressful time. Not just the story, but the way youve handled the ridiculous BS youve gotten in response too.
Im a writer, and ive followed you for awhile! I love your comics and little snippets across the board and its a little moment i take whenever i do get the chance to log in every once and a while and just skim through your blog and see what little story youve posted recently.
Like, the daisy story is what it is, but i really really appreciate you standing up for yourself and what youve said re: growth and maturity. I have a severe and stigmatized mental illness, and as i go through recovery im often reminded of all the times ive hurt people whether unintentionally or maliciously. Seeing a creator i enjoy not only acknowledge mistakes theyve made so publically, but also not accept the public beating people feel they are entitled to really helps me personally. Like, you don't deserve this level of vitriol, so maybe I ought to be nicer to myself yeah?
I know it hurts and sucks right now, people are vicious sometimes. But i wanted to send some encouragement your way too. Its refreshing seeing a creator being unapologetically human, ugly side and all. I know im full of ugly sides and it feels good to know that its not too late to be a decent person, because theres time to learn and grow.
Its funny tho, all of these people are getting mad at you and saying all these mean things to you about something you know is wrong and have learned from, but none of them have taken the time to recognize that they are actively doing mean things right now. Like..?
I’m honestly so glad to see this. It’s really what I was going for when I shared it as well as just.
I think people often don’t think like, how long is someone on the hook for a past misdeed? Don’t you think someone is capable of growth?! My past actions making me feel guilty is a sign that I’m a different and hopefully better person now.
Thank you for your kind words and letting me know what it meant for you to see the whole debacle go down.
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the last chapter for walking study in demonology was CRAZYYY im so happy you updated. im so curious about what your thought process in writing it and if youre willing to share?? you dont have to if you dont want to btw! but in any case thank u so muchhh
hey thank you! appreciate it
okay super long answer below
honestly this one was difficult. idk if its bc its been a while since i write fics from scratch so i might have forgotten how difficult the whole thing is, but this one was tough. ch 8 wasnt from scratch tho cos i had the drafts since like 2022 or smthg lol
ik the formatting is non conventional in ch 8 and i was aware that itd be hard to read for some people. but i do think abt the readers often when i write.. mainly not what the readers want in terms of storyline (altho ofc i consider this too sometimes lol) but what the reading experience will be like for them.
i.e consider if id written the chapter in a linear, traditional way and narrated the confrontation between 1-A and LoV (or even other wackier “Villains” like godzilla and invading aliens or whatever). the truth is, although def easier to read, that version will be very boring.
(i know bc i tried and scrapped those versions.)
(im sure a better writer can write it interestingly but i am not a better writer.)
the thing w writing these traditional fight scenes is tht im sure — im 1000% positive in fact — that the readers have read it before. there r literally thousands and thousands of bnha fics out there with great fight scenes, on top of the actual manga, where youve read these characters fight their assorted villains. why would i make you read that again, esp when i know i cant do it better? i already know the readers r just gonna skim the chapter if thats the case. ive been a reader, ik what fic fatigue is like — esp with bnha when everythings been rehashed infinity times in infinity different ways.
same thing also applies with even the “metaness” of the fic itself.
i dont want the fic to come off like its talking down to readers, whom i believe alrdy have the instinctual knowledge of what the fic is trying to do. im willing to bet tht the readers have read something similar to this before, like multiverses n time loop n meta stuff, also cosmic horror. i still end up narrating some things even though often i feel im being too explanatory. i jst feel like the readers will know what im talking abt by virtue of their familiarity to the tropes involved.
therefore the least i can do is serve it in an interesting way, aka the fuckass formatting. like although the tropes im doing r done so many times before, at the very least i cld let the readers hopefully have fun by piecing it together puzzle-style with the fragmented formats — so its more of an experience thing rather than jst a lore dump. i dont like lore dumps, they can be condescending.
demonology def doesnt succeed in avoiding that however. in fact its fallen to that exact trap. ch 4 and 6, those r very lore-dumpy. i tried to make it fun w the humor dialogue style but its not perfect. i know tht by ch 8 that tricks alrdy old, and the readers have all the puzzle pieces at this point anyway so itd be even more repetitive than it alrdy is. even so i still feel im being too explanatory esp with the emotional arcs but thats a skill issue on my part
overall i feel demon can be more oblique and “elegant” in its mechanics.
but anyway, it IS crack… it was never meant to promise intelligence, least of all eloquence lmfao. its never meant to be taken seriously.
of course, at this point u can tell that i actually am taking it pretty seriously LOL. i never meant to write meta fiction. i have some gripes w it, namely that i feel meta fiction is used by weaker writers as a storytelling crutch n it can come off as lazy — demon is guilty of this too. but now that i end up writing meta fiction, i might as well fucking commit and try to push it as crazy as i can. if its not gonna be good, at least it can be interesting, or weird.
blah blah im yapping. point is, ik the end product might look very “random” and pastiche as if i was jst doing whatever i wanted … which, true … but it went thru a lot of trials and errors until this final version. you would not believe the amount of time ive rewritten this chapter, due to all those ^ considerations.
however i always knew i was going to start ch8 with the classic mary sue “fanfiction” — that segment was written a long time ago like in 2022/2023?? and mostly stayed unedited since, unlike the rest of the fic which i stripped and repainted and restripped again lol
ok thanks for reading abt my wack anime crack fic writing process that, again, shld not be taken seriously. i will admit however that i do put a lot of effort n heart into it so i cannot pretend i am aloof and disaffected. id be lying if i say its been easy. i consider it a miracle i updated at all. i keep saying its not meant to be taken serious but if i managed to make it even a little bit meaningful, id be very happy.
ah also. bnha ending actually forced me to scrap a lot of things too. but it kinda ends up for the better, maybe.
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Meraaaaa im not sure if we're allowed to send in hsr thoughts but.... yan stepbro!geppard who FUMBLES when you come to him crying and tell him that your bf broke up with you because you couldn't take it balls deep 🥺 Aaaaaa and he's been so on the straight and narrow his whole life, he has no idea what you're talking about until you whip out his dick and show him just what you mean 😖
He's livid that his sweet little sister has been whoring herself out to the streets hes spent all his time protecting, but beg him sweetly enough and he'll bully his way in until his balls are slapping against your skin!!!
Even if you beg him to stop, he cant. You're too hot when you moan and tremble about how youve never taken anyone this deep before how many others were there, how you cant go any more your pussy says otherwise and most importantly how he's the biggest you've ever had doesn't that mean that he's.... the best?
Omg Gepard unintentionally ruining men for you with his crazy big dick... T_T <3 he just thinks others need to appreciate his cute step-sister more often (although not at intimate levels... only he can be the one to appreciate you in the bedroom). You really can't expect him to pull out after he's just managed to slot himself inside. He'll wipe sweat from your brow, kiss your tears from your lashes, and pet your cheek so fondly, assuring you you're doing well and that he knew you could take it. Omg maybe he even rubs circles into your hips when you squirm beneath him, mumbling dumbly about how he has to pull out, it's too big, it hurts, it's too much, it's not a safe day... Nonsense. <3 you shouldn't worry so much! He's here for you; he'll take responsibility. Do you really think your kind-hearted, gentle step-brother would ever abandon you? He'll always be here for you, whether you want that or not.
Now when you try to fuck another man it just doesn't feel the same or nearly as good as it did when you did it with your step-brother. Maybe you feel better with him because he's safe and sweet, always so patient and gentle, unlike your ex who broke up with you for such a foolish reason. You may be able to take dick balls deep now, but Gepard isn't going to let you continue whoring yourself out to just anyone. You need stability, a long-term relationship, and you'll find it with him. He's always loved you, so just let him take care of you. Your step-brother knows best because he's always looking out for you, so there's no need for you to dress in skimpy outfits and parade around the streets of Belobog.
He'll be your boyfriend instead (and hopefully your husband in the future) and then you can always take his dick balls deep. :D
#honkai chit chat#tw: stepcest#n/sfw#you are always allowed to send in hsr thoughts hehe!!! :D#especially gepard thoughts <3 i love him a lot#he came home when i was trying to pull for silver wolf so i think he may love me too much ^^;;;;
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The aftermath of being in a toxic ?idk) relationship is certainly... something!
I guess it just sucks. not only do i have to deal with the feeling of betrayal over someone i cared about hurting me really badly but i also i have with cope the damage the relationship did to me in the first place.
I was bed bound at some point. I didn't eat or take care of myself. I guess im just shell shocked... abused to the point relapsing really hard to self harm and eating disorders, like genuinely suicidal haha. I was literally just dead at that point.... it was. Bad
Like omg lmfao its crazy how even now i still doubt that it was that bad...Irs hard to think rationally and logically when youve been hurt to the point where youre constantly in fight or flight mode. You dont realize it when uour in it... until its too late
.. im only functional now because i have a routine to follow, and even then, im barely doing so haha. Living on only a routine is barely living at all... not to mention that i have trouble maintaining it, i dont really have the desire to soo its a little harder. Then again Its better than literally being catatonic for weeks straight..
It'll... hopefully be ok. After all i ended things a month ago so. (Its crazy how recent it is haha) itll be hard but i know i can do this. Even if its just alone.
(Have kbms bc why tf not
In hindsight i dont think i should be talking about super personal information like this in my public accs but. I really dont care anymore. Its my blog i can do what i want.
#text#dont you love being a high functioning depressed person#tw ed sh sa#LMFAO RHE WHOLE FUCKING NINE.#im fine. kinda... more like in the road to healing HAHAHA#i didnt mention the sa part but like. yeah. thats a whole... can of worms.#ivans biggest lore drop!!! the new oomfs get tk know a bit about me now#any support is welcome but its ok i dont want your guys pity 😅#my ask box here is usually open if you want to ralk about your own stuff or want to know more about mine. idk just go ahead#or jusy talk. thays fine too.#tw ed#tw sa#tw sh
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Teddy Bear - 11 : i wont ever forget, okay?
*⁀➷synopsis ! : on your birthday one of your best friends, soobin, gifts you an adorable teddy bear. you keep it all day once he gave it to you, carrying the adorable thing around for your entire birthday day and going to sleep with it that night. the next morning you wake up with.. a man in the place of your precious bear?! he doesn't have a name and he looks at you like you hung all the stars and.. did he just say he WAS the bear?
wc (0.6k)
From the second you got home, you noticed something was off about Beomgyu. He wasnt being anywhere near as energetic as he used to be and he was doing a lot of zoning out. He would stare at the wall with a pouty, almost frowning, look before picking up his phone and typing furiously.
Honestly you didnt know what to think. You assumed it was just him still upset about his game even though it had been hours since then. You dont know why he would still even be upset with it.
You were gonna just leave it alone and let the boy sleep it off until you heard soft sniffles coming from Beomgyus direction. Almost immediately, your head snapped up at the sound to see the most pitiful sight youd ever laid eyes on.
There Beomgyu was sitting on the small, single chair while crying. He tried to wipe at his eyes, looking honestly confused and just upset. He didnt seem to understand what was going on, he might not even know what tears were. Yet there he was, crying in your living room.
“Beom?! Whats wrong? What are you crying?” You were quick to jump up and approach him once the initial shock wore off. He looked up at you, still hiccuping as he cried before shaking his head.
“I d-dont know..” Beomgyus words trailed off into another sob, making your eyes widen. You were never the best at comfort like this, it really wasnt your forte. But you couldnt just do nothing!
“Shh shh, It's okay Beomie.. I'm here okay? C'mere give me a hug.” You lowered your tone into that of a soft whisper, hoping it would ease him more. The hybrid was quick to take up your offer, practically diving into your waiting arms.
You just rubbed his back gently, whispering any comforting words you could think of as you let him cry onto your shoulder. What could have made him so upset? From all that you know he hasnt been doing much that could get him this upset.
“..Beomie? Are you feeling better?” You finally whispered gently a few minutes later once Beomgyus sobs lowered into soft sniffles. He had yet to look up from where he was cuddled up against you, just nodding softly.
“Do you want to talk about it?” You added along, bringing up a hand to run your fingers through his hair. He melted into the touch, making the corners of your lips quirk up into a small smile.
“You..you texted me and said you didnt remember how we met and I got.. sad. Even though you said it was Yunjin I worried and-and then I thought what if you really did forget even though i'd never forget cause thats the more important day of my life but youve lived such a long, human life and-”
“Oh, Beomie..” You gently cut off his long, panicked ramble. You didnt want him to work himself up again. Carefully, as if you were touching glass, you cupped his cheeks and brought his face up so that he could make eye contact with you.
“I wont ever forget, okay? Never. You're important to me and that day changed my life forever in a good way. Im sorry that my friend upset you this badly. Ill talk to her, okay? But I promise you i'll never, ever forget the day we met.” You rubbed his cheek with your thumb as you spoke, making sure to maintain eye contact to hopefully get across the point of how serious you were.
“..Okay. Thank you, yn.” Beomgyu finally replied after a few seconds before smiling a small smile and leaning forward to hug you again.
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[Clink! The man perks up as he hears the door begin to unlock after what felt like hours of deafening silence, at least back at home when things were quiet he could throw on some music and have it defy the loudness of the silence, but here all he could hear was himself. He tried to remain calm as he watched the surprisingly short man enter, his ears and hair just how he saw on stream. His voice filling the silence as he approaches, trying to keep focused on his face but the cigarettes quickly gaining more of his attention he gracious accepts the one placed in his mouth, savouring his first inhale, inhaling more as the smoke emanating from the Fox’s own cigarette blows over his face, clearly someone who has been itching for this relief.]
eh- i wasnt expecting them to bring me here on a silk pillow and a private jet. that shitty old van needs some new suspension by the way, i could feel every single bump on the way in, it was almost worse than when your bigger guy hit me right in the eye! i hope he wasnt two heart broken with the jab i landed on his gut, heard him coughing a little on the ride here.
[He snickers after his rambling and takes another drag from his cigarette, taking a moment in the silence to eye up the Fox, appreciating some of the smaller details even the camera couldn’t pick up, like a faded scar or some of the aging of his skin, textured tastefully from years of existence.]
yknow, i really appreciate this though. i get it and expected it, you cant treat me too well. but i guess my surrender deserved a little something.. hopefully if i can perform as well as some of your regulars maybe this little exchange can repeat.. maybe a burn per cigarette i know your fans just love burns…
[He rolls up one of his sleeves to reveal a small assortment of round burns, some scarred and some fresher than the rest, on the underside of his arm, turning it slightly to be seen by the Fox.]
wouldnt be anything too new to me!
[Another drag of his cigarette leaves his lips, his finally burnt nearly to the butt with a small ember left, he looks down to his arm and swiftly extinguishes what was left of it onto his arm, letting out a soft hiss as it goes out, leaving a raw red divet where it was shoved.]
guess im not feeling too bad, definitely better now after your gift. im pretty eager to get on camera, honestly its going to be different being on the other side of the screen. never thought id actually do it but uh hey were here now arent we? im glad your excited for it! wouldnt be much of a stream without your enthusiasm would it? sounds like youve already began cooking up a little in your head? do i get a heads up on the plans or am i going into the first round blind?
[He looks up at the Fox, watching his tail sway and ears perk as he listens. Trying to keep a relaxed demeanour as the Fox’s aura fills the room.]
[Fox rose an eyebrow at the comment about the van, he wasn’t very knowledgeable in machinery, especially when it came to vehicles, he usually let Kangaroo deal with that. Nonetheless, he nodded his head at the other man’s comment.]
New suspension, eh? I’ll bring that up with Kangaroo later. I don’t do the machine work around here anyways.
[The beastkin grinned when he heard that the other punched one of his men in the gut, it did explain why one of them was nearly coughing up a lung when they returned with him. He loves when his new stars put up a fight. It’s more fun.]
Ooo!~ I see you like put up a fight, eh? That’ll be exciting.
[Fox was about to talk about how he has multiple different methods of giving people burns, some more brutal then others, but seeing the random man he kidnapped casually roll up his sleeve to reveal his cigarettes burn scars and put another one out on himself like was a human ashtray nearly made the older man’s jaw drop. Oh, he got LUCKY. The man’s words started falling on deaf ears as Fox processed what he just witnessed, his legs shifting around a bit to hide…something.]
Oh? Um. Uh…y-yes. I have SEVERAL ideas in mind for you, little pet.
[Fox then smirked sinisterly as he saw he was at the butt of his own cigarette now, he then, without warning, quickly gripped onto the others still exposed arm with his free hand and used the other to press the somewhat still lit butt into his arm, pushing it nice and deep into his flesh so it’ll hurt worse.]
Feel good, darling?~ This is one of the MANY things I’m going to do to you on stream. <3
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omga i love your airphone gijinkas
anyways i uave no idea if youve already said this somewhere ,my memory sucks ,but how do you reckon airy and mephone met. what is ur perosnal headcanon. grabby hands i must know (i love airphon
UUWAAAA THANK YOU !!! im really glad you do... looks up at you so politely and with a big smile.. i want to draw them again but better and more like a ref so hopefully soon! :D aaaatehee heeee i have not spoken about it publicly so im more than open to go into it now... cracks my knuckles(its actually not that intense but i jsut have a lot of thoughts)
OKAY, so personally i like to think about it starting after airy dies the second time(the end of ONE). its nice for him to still have gone through everything hes done and experienced because its what makes him him. he needs to be the airy we know and love. this also allows for bonding and growth and other such things. anyways, he uses the radio and ends up in the world of inanimate insanity! this would also take place after season 3 has wrapped up, either before or after the library is built. this means he can meet mephone and they can start bonding over being hosts of game shows but as airy talks mephone starts to understand "wow he just like me, but i got better, and now i want to help him" so mephone feels this need to help airy out with the same growth that mephone jsut went through. but also anyone whos been through the isolation that airy has been through along with dying who knows how many times. mephone just wants to help him and help his mental state and get him resocialized and to a point where he understands why he should be a bit more thoughtful or so on and whatever. airy would still be his old self but a bit more caring/understanding to a degree. i think hes just got some mental problems going on and hes just kind of an odd guy. mephone lets him hang around and either they could MAYBE? co host together, but at first hes just watching mephone do a show first before anything like that. which he watches from afar. hes not so used to being upclose or even being around people anymore so he likes to watch from a distance. as time goes on yada yada mephone would develop feelings first, and airy would much later. mephone would develop feelings while helping airy and such, airy takes a lot longer because he is readjusting and just, getting some basic social skills back. i like them in part because i just see mephone having gone through the growth he went through because he was similar to airy, and then meeting airy after this and realizing "wow i should help him too because this is just how i was and id hate to see someone else suffer the way i did" kind of thing and blah blah idk sorry i yapped and i hope any of this makes sense/is readable period. i ramble a lot and my thoughts kind of get lost oops. im not great with words or wording things well. not everything is thought out but those are my thoughts :] ps: airy still has the cracked head because thats just how i personally like to see him and draw him. i also think that if he died and came back that after all hes done, thats more akin to who he is now. hes a broken individual who needs help/fixing. if that makes sense(also a bit of self projecting) pps: my boyfriend wanted to add his two cents for what he knows of mephone as well(hes not finished season 3 yet) and yknow,,, hes right i think its a mix of what i said and mix of what he said... which is: "wow he just like me for real, not anymore though, also this guy's committed some major fucked up stuff and that's just not right, if i fix this guy maybe it'll look really good for me"
#airphone#ask#emmkittycat#sorry i went off omg ive just had most things pent up inside of me#ive talked somewhat in private to friends but no ones as crazy as i am yet#please feel free to ask me more things or send requests for them or literally anything#dm/pm me idk im hungry for more content and talking about them in general i need the juices i NEED AIRPHONE#ii mephone4#hjfone airy#i fucking hate this site... trying to get a read more tab thing to work is HELL OMG
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hiya cas!! so i saw about your new job - congratulations!! im glad you were able to find something better for you, especially somewhere where your identity will be respected <33
as for advice with middle schoolers, ive only done a short teaching experience with kids aged 13-16 but hopefully some of it could be of use! (once ive finished my university course in teaching, ill absolutely be asking your advice in return ahaha)
so this ones less like advice and more just... a suggestion, i guess? maybe not for your first year there if you dont want to have too much on your plate or if you dont have time, but if theres any sort of extracurricular activities or lunchtime clubs you might want to set up, do it!! it creates such a safe space for kids if they dont feel like they can go outside/in the lunchhall etc - i definitely benefitted from a few myself when i was at school - and it helps make your classroom feel like a place kids can go to whenever they need help, which is huge. my english teacher at my first high school literally saved me by setting up her creative writing club, and we barely actually wrote stuff. but just by her having that space for me, it made me feel like her room was a welcoming place for me to exist whenever i needed support or somewhere to take a breath, and showed me that she was a safe person to be around <3
also, this maybe seems like an obvious one but just be yourself! dont try too hard to be likeable; im absolutely not saying to be an awful person, but i just mean that trying too hard will make the kids lose any respect for you because theyll deem you cringe :/ be yourself!! im sure theyll love you!
its okay to make mistakes, too, and if you do make any, dont try to hide them if anyone notices!! the kids need to know that its okay not to get things right all the time - perfection is not going to happen every time! i wish someone had shown me that in school. most of my teachers either hid their mistakes or they blamed it on others, which in turn made me feel like i had to hide and deflect my own mistakes too. its still a habit im trying to unlearn
i dont think ive got much else to say? a lot of it looks to have already been covered by others ahaha
best of luck!! youve got this in the bag, cas <33
Hi hon!!! Thank you so much for all of this advice, I really appreciate it. I think it's hilarious that you were in a middle school creative writing club that didn't actually do much writing because...I was too lol. Is that a common queer experience? Were your teacher's initials perhaps DM? (because that would be so fucking insane).
But YES I definitely want to do a club. I actually don't know if they have a GSA yet, so if they don't I'm gonna look into that. But if they do, a writing club sounds amazing.
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hey i just wanted to say that i love your spreadsheets SO much i hold them almost reverently they're amazing!!!! your yj reading guide has really saved me and now i fear kon is my favorite char of all time.. if you ever decide to share the teen titans sheet youve been working on it will be such a beautiful day.. thank you so much for the work you do i hope youre doing good!!
i’m so happy you like the guides!! and i am SO happy you like kon, he truly is THE BEST EVER!!!!
here’s the titans guide, if you want! it’s nowhere near complete, but i haven’t really read comics in like two months and i really don’t know when i’m getting back to it, so maybe it’s just better to post the part i’ve done. rn it covers from 1980 (the start of ntt vol. 1) to 1995 (almost to the end of new titans). hopefully i’ll complete it in the near future but i don’t really know.
anyway, i’m very glad you like the guides so much!! and hopefully the titans spreadsheet can be helpful!
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TLT UPDATE!! BEFORE I GO TO BED
(gods im so tired...)
@vincentaureliuslin @tatsumisheep3
no photos today so heres my cat :P
OPENING NIGHT!!! it went super well!!!!! (i think)
it was PA night so the understudys were percy and annabeth and they killed it!!!!!! :DDDD
also my director gave me a compliment today so im in a good mood (it was somethin along the lines of "you finally did a good job as cerberus" but ill take what i can get...) (i still have beef with him but.. whatever....)
its crazy how fast this show is going and that itll all be over after sunday,, but also i am SO tired bc we literally spend more time at school than at home this week :(
also getting a lotta acne bc im not used to wearing this much make up every day :P
but hey at least ill get to rest a teeny bit on the weekend (just in the morning TwT bc we have matinees)
also my parents and some of my friends are comin tomorrow so they BETTER FUCKIN BUY ME CANDY (i really really really want candygrams... one of the stage managers got like 4 boxes of candy i am so jealous...)
also also also we did the legacy robe last night before preview night and my friend (and mother /ij) got it :DDDD very happy for her
um um um i felt like i had more to say but idk this is already a lot and i cant remember things im kinda tired :P
oh i finally got my camper necklace!!! the beads were missing for like a week but they were just on the table in the costuming room... anyway my friend made it for me during tech class bc shes so so sooo sweet <3 (while i was in math trying to force my friend to study... *stares at neeks* /aff) i got four beads that kinda almost make the ace flag!! (black for tech, silver for the fall play, light blue for this show, and purple for my grade)
idk if i explained it before but all of our necklaces represent how much theater we've done,,, bc its kinda like how long we've been at camp. theres a bead for each grade based on our class colors, and the tlt bead, so everyone gets at least 2. theres also beads for each of the past musicals and plays at school, and a black bead if youve done tech, and a white bead if youve done leadership :D some of the seniors have like most of their necklace filled because of how many shows theyve done
heres another cat pic to keep you engaged and reading this /hj
also also also many many thanks to my wonderful actor and tech friends i would not survive without them (especially thanks to tech bc they have to put up with us actors... /hj) its poseidon's actors first show i think and they have a LOT of quick changes so their section of the rack is,,, kind of a mess. also the lamp for the oracle scene has broken multiple times i think already... and i already left my make up bag out yesterday and my watch in the cubbies today TwT we are a hot mess
my graphic design teacher was acting today :D (the farmer in drive is a teacher role, and they switch out every night) and i love him being so absolutely perplexed by the energy circle before show :333
also i remembered to put setting powder on for the first time,,, and... i forgot that my mom is SO much paler than me TwT (i was very washed out...) so ill probably stick to spray for the rest of the week :P
sorry i really am rambling tonight...
ok i will probably hopefully do at least one more update after strike on sunday!! (depending on how tired i am,, i might just curl up on the floor and sleep after the sunday show actually...) unless something goes horribly wrong,,, then ill probably post about it too
good night!! i need to collapse in bed and try to save up enough energy for tomorrows show :3
have a wonderful day/night and remember to hydrate! (or you'll die straight...)
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thank you both @simstuition & @nectar-cellar !!! TWO WHOLE ASKS WOWOWOWOWOW
putting this under read more since most have probably seen these if youve followed me for a while BAHAHA
to some, this won't come as a surprise, but my most fave post of all time is still this one:
i just popped off with this one (in my opinion LOL) and ive never been able to create anything like it since.
a few other notable mentions from the sims 3:
the "finn" one i still love to this day, i was trying out more simple editing, and i think it turned out just how i wanted it. the elodie in the field one is something i wanted to recreate for ages, and im very proud of the final product! i find that it takes a while to learn to love all your posts, even the ones you hate, but im getting better! the last one is from the collab i did with three of my besties, and i absolutely adored how it came out. it was one attempt at doing something proper photography-esque and im really proud of my attempt!
this one above is probably one you guys havent seen, but i did post it on reddit. i try not to post my gameplay because i tend to get bored easily and it never lasts long. or, as is the case a lot in sims 3, the save gets too laggy to play. i think with this save, it was a bit of both, but i still adored this wedding picture of my two sims.
and from sims 4 (weirdly quite a few more?? i thought i would like more of my sims 3 posts but guess not)
the statue photo is one of my all time faves. when i was editing, i was like, this is actually awesome jessie im so proud of you. and the top one was eli and elodie in sims 4, and i just loved the lighting and elodie's hair flowing. if you have any pics you like of mine, id love to hear...
thank you to both again for asking me to do this, i feel like looking back on your favourites gives you a lot more confidence about what you can do. a reminder that despite what my thoughts keep telling me, im not so horrible at this, and i can be proud of things that ive made. i feel very inspired, so hopefully maybe i can produce something...but first assignments, UGH!
#replies#sorry for babbles#and the soppy bit at the end WHOOPS#i love you all#have a most lovely day/night
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