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i'm kinda tired of reading wangxian modern au where it's in "china" but it's actually usa, or just modern au usa/north america setting, because like. there's just so much media out there about this country, and there's so many people in this fandom i can't believe 99% of them are from there...... please, please let's write more about them in other countries (or just please research before you write about them in china) i just want more diversity (ā Ā ā ā§ā Šā ā¦ā )
#what if#i write brazilian wangxian#bc you know#i'm from there#mdzs#wangxian#just me rambling#personal rant#happy holidays#btw#had a miserable christian latina christmas how about you guys#hopefully better than me#merry crisis
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autumnal chill....featuring the girl
#my art#oc#svanhildr#furry#anthro#goat#almost typed ''featuring the girk''#my favourite girk of all time baby#this took an INORDINATE amount of time but also i was experimenting with style so maybe it's somewhat ordinate#i did the brush/texturing too small but it looks nice when you zoom in on some parts#and i finally have a decent twitter banner so small mercies#anyway summer kind of sucked this year - not much warm weather. better than last year but still pretty bad#hopefully september comes in clutch with some last minute sun. so i can appreciate the autumnal chill more when it comes#also scrumping season is coming to a close and i regret not eating more greengages when i had the chance...they rotted off so fast#apple season save me. save me apple season#illustration
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WHY IS IT SO FUCKING COLD IN MY HOUSE I AM IN TWO THICK BLANKETS AND I'M STILL FREEZING MY TITS OFF IS MY FAMILY ALLERGIC TO PUTTING THE HEATING ON I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IT'S LIKE I'M SAT IN A SNOWY PILE WITHOUT THE NICE SNOW CRUNCHES
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"Waltz with me!"
i don't usually take requests but this one (coming from @mariichengg thank you mwah!) got the gears in my little head turning! 'tis a scene from my own fic from a while back :D was fun to revisit!
#damianya#spy x family#sxf#damian desmond#anya forger#anya x damian#damian x anya#my art#WENT OVER THE ENTIRE FIC AGAIN and fixed what was bothering me SDFKSDL#i think im better at writing now? hopefully? than i used to be?#ive GOT to regain my courage about posting fics tho JKSDFL
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Etho and Grian are back at base, hysterically laughing over their achievement. Cleo sits inside, staring, as the two of them talk about getting a wither and a warden to fight, and tries to figure out what she feels about it.
In some ways it's not their fault. Task made them do it and all that. Plus--
Well, it's not like she and Etho are losing hearts anytime soon. They've both done a damn good job keeping themselves from dying. A benefit, Cleo thinks, of deciding to team with Etho this time. Between the two of them, they'll largely only do chaos they can recover from. Maybe this is their game. Maybe this time, Cleo manages to stick with someone until the very end. It looks like it. It looks like...
Grian, of course, is the confounding factor.
She wasn't going to turn him away. He needed allies. They needed someone a bit better at actually doing damage than herself or Etho. It's mutually beneficial. And, besides, he's weirdly lovable, in an inherently kind of dangerous way. A little like loving a bobcat someone had accidentally raised as a pet cat until it got a bit too big and stinky and murdery for them. Like, yeah, he shouldn't be domesticated and he's not, really, in any sense of the word, but it's a bit sad to watch him try to survive on his own now, right?
Hah.Ā Maybe that's what Scar managed to do to him. Would explain a lot, really.
Anyway, he's her bobcat now, which is the problem.
See the thing is: Cleo understands Etho. It's why finally deciding to be partners for once felt... right. They're similar flavors of people. Scared, mostly. Survivors, but not in the 'will stab anyone' way that like, Martyn is. Loyal, although Cleo has no delusions that Etho is as loyal as she. And scared. Has she already said that? Scared. It's important to the kinds of things she and Etho are. Like... mountain lions, maybe. Mountain lions that have been around just enough people to know how dangerous they are. Like that.
God, she's only doing cat metaphors. Bdubs really is turning them all into furries.
Anyway, the point is, Grian isn't scared.
And that... terrifies her.
That's scarier than anything else. Because, see, Cleo wants to survive. But more than that, she wants her partners to survive. And she and Etho, the two of them are doing well. Better than most people. They're green and they have so many hearts.
But Grian? Grian's yellow and not afraid and goading Etho into not being afraid too. It's not their fault, exactly, Cleo thinks. They both had hard tasks. They didn't have a choice, Cleo thinks.
But. But.
She doesn't know what to do, if Etho gets convinced the humans down the mountain aren't scary. She doesn't know what to do if he gets too close. She doesn't know what to do if he gets hurt.
Because she--she doesn't think she can learn to stop being scared, anymore.
But she also doesn't know how many times her heart can stand to lose someone.
Did you know--wild cats are social? They have a reputation for being loners, but mountain lions, they're social. They don't do well being alone. They don't actually hunt solely alone. That's the important bit here. They seem independent, sure, but actually...
Anyway. This is Bdubs's fault. For making her a furry, apparently.
She watches Grian and Etho scheme together and sits back and breathes and tells herself that Etho isn't going to stop being afraid anytime soon. That if push came to shove, he, at least, would retreat back, and that maybe the two of them could convince Grian to retreat too. Safe from hunters. Safe from red.
Maybe safe from hurting each other, too.
(She's not so sure about that part.)
#secret life smp#secret life spoilers#zombiecleo#a bee fic#staring in. cleo and the fact she seems to consider dying before or at the same time as her allies as her happy ending#staring in. cleo and the fact that the thing she and etho have most in common is CAUTION.#and then staring at grian.#hm. well. hopefully that ends better than it seems like it might.#ALSO SHOUTOUT TO ME HAVING THE BRITISH PERSON USE METAPHORS USING EXCLUSIVELY AMERICAN WILDCATS#in my defense they're the ones i'm actually familiar with
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Compilation of EVERY single time they changed Hobie's filter in the digital version:
Left: Theatrical release Right: Digital release
You might have to click on some of them to get a better look at Hobie, sadly I don't have a video editor that allows me to make better edits than these :')
#This took so long to make lol#cause I had to edit every scene with Hobie from both versions so I could watch them right after one another to compare them#I did this with ALL the scenes he's in also the ones where he's on screen as spider-punk#but they only changed his filters in these scenes so it was a waste of time :')#sidenote: no it wasn't it's never a waste of time to look at hobie I just couldn't use it for my GIFset lol#I also made a bouns one but I'm not allowed to post more than 30 GIFs in one post apparently so I guess I just won't add it then...#but Hobie was basically filterless during all these scenes in the theatrical version#I like that they gave him more different filters in the digital version#the only change I don't like is in the first GIFs#cause like that one post pointed out it looks like they removed his lipstick for some reason#also really wish I had a better video editor so we could get a closer look at Hobie but I did my best with what I had#also slowed some of them down to get a better look at them#been having this idea for a while and now I finally finished it!#which means I can go back to working on my fics now#hopefully lol#also lemme know if there are some other scens you guys want me to make comparisons of#cause I have both versions#the theatrical release isn't the highest quality though so if you know where I can get my hands on a better version lemme know ;)#hobie brown#spider punk#miles morales#spider man#peter b parker#jess drew#miguel o'hara#spider man across the spider verse#across the spider verse#across the spiderverse#atsv#theatrical version
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Time and Time Again comes back tonight!
Thank you all for being so patient with me, I know it was a long hiatus.
My health was struggling, my arm was (is) hurting, and I decided it wasn't worth it. I'd rather be slow!
So thank you for giving me that grace, and I hope you'll be there with me for the rest of the series.
#like straight up. it's not worth it. idc how many people get mad at me#i would rather work fuckin. anything else than maintain this impossible schedule and keep hurting myself#if thats what it takes to do comics full time. then i can't do comics full time. simple as that!#i hope that for my next work i can have a healthier schedule and still make this work as my job#but if not. I'm never going back#i can't do it. 3 more years at this pace will take my ability to draw#anyways. its really good!!!#like genuinely i can feel a marked improvement in my skills#which is WILD!!! And I'm extremely happy about that!!!#just one more step into being better built to give people the quality stories they deserve.#ive not properly had the fire under my ass to finish stuff up but. its fine.#like i said? not worth it.#if i have to pause again then ill pause again. like i literally simply can not my body can't handle it#so. hopefully stuff goes smoothly but whatever happens will happen#whatever will be will be#i keep getting distracted lmfao#im excited about it coming back#and also. will. probably be distracting myself...#other creators dont read their comments. I'm like straight up not capable of that LMAOOO#i check for comments like all the time#love seeing em. love reading people's thoughts about my work#it makes me a better writer and keeps me connected to what matters most. which is my audience!#so i dont regret doing that but also. jts extremely distracting#i get straight up nothing done on big update days#cause im in the comments absolutely massive eyed refreshing.#this sounds obsessive. and it is. no jk#its just fun and keeps me in touch w peoples perception which helps me learn to write better#plus people are nice and ask me questions that i wanna answer#or if someone is being an ass. then i wanna tell them to leave (cause i cant block people) cause i consider it my responsibility#time and time again
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all the progress iāve made so far for isobel!!
maybe a bad idea to do all my cosplay firsts in one outfit but itāll be Fine what could go wrong
#ramble#cosplay#bg3#isobel thorm#the moonlantern is Hopefully going to function#iāve never made armour or used foam clay or done a glued hairline before so i was like#letās do all of that#i havenāt started any of the actual sewing yet and iām definitely stalling bc iām not good at it#idk if itāll be GOOD for mcm but it will definitely be done#people who are better at this than me pls tell me iām doing ok i need the reassurance
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thinking about ???%ā¦butā¦but with adult mob :(
#doctorsiren#mob psycho 100#shigeo kageyama#???%#mp100 fanart#mp100 future#eyestrain#twenty one pilots#digital art#my art#procreate#likeā¦like it comes back#and ough likeā¦like Backslide and Snapback from Clancy just fitting thatā¦#I was having fun ššš#I love drawing him itās so fun to do#this is reminding me of a specific piece I did of the Spot where I put a bunch of lyrics and random phrases everywhere#he wants to be better but sometimes we fall back to those things we thought we got over#and we have to relearn how to be okay again#and itās a normal thing and itās part of living#because even though you may solve a problem. it may come back later.#but at least now you have better tools to deal and handle with it now than you did back then#because youāve learned and grown and hopefully figured out more healthy coping mechanisms
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alas, iām nothing but a child
guys iām dumbassing again
#unfortunately there is SO little that i find more entertaining than messing up my own drawings for fun#donāt worry the og drawing is safe in a duplicate layer <3#iām doodling again#so fun little story#i slept 2 hours last night and instead spend the entire time looking at tua fanart#and i just kept getting more and more upset that i canāt figure digital art out????#like thereās so much i suck at and itās just irritating#nevertheless iāve spent the entire day trying to get better and now im determined#so hopefully this streak will last a while and you guys will be seeing a hell of a lot#of tua fanart coming soon#(hopefully)#(god iām praying this motivation lasts)#guess whoās rambling in tags again!!! (itās me)#the umbrella academy#tua#umbrella academy#five hargreeves#hargreeves siblings#number five#tua s4#tua season 4#my art#my dumbass art <3#tua five#laur draws stuff#laur says stuff
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wylie is so funny.. imagine your life kind of sucks (dead mom, exiled dad, kidnapped, etc.) and then the government forces you to be coworkers with a bunch of teenagers and led by the one that your dad went to mega jail for. i think that would be my last straw.
#hes a better person than me#at least he graduated from elf college before the kidnapping i think#wylie is so interesting and his few interactions with sophie are really fun#hopefully we'll get more in book 10 ā¤ļø i hope shannon brings team v back and does something cool with it#kotlc#wylie endal
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so uh
for 1. most people are gonna take advantage of black friday and wont see your specific niche tumblr post, I hate to say it
2. the us isnt running out of money for war any time soon, so...
3. this is just antisemitism???????? all we need is some (((echoes))) around the us and israel and then I'd have no reason to suspect otherwise from op...............
#why in tf do you think they care that much about getting your money rn and not before in any other war?#does it. mayhaps. have something to do w jewish people being involved now?#our tax dollars go to the govt regardless and has been for years and we already have an obscene amount of funding for military shit#preeetty sure they're not concerned about getting a couple hundred tumblr users money...#and also pretty sure one could only believe that if they're paranoid about jewish ppl.................#hard not to put two and two together and figure out op is prolly antisemitic and hopefully they just dont realize it#i say hopefully they dont realize it bc thats better than someone who knows and is pretending to be a leftist still.#if anything this pause happened bc its thanksgiving and biden doesnt wanna think about it over the holidays. thats p much it.#thats the only amount of conspiracy theory im willing to believe in this situation lmao.#but that ^ still assumes that biden has some sort of control over this that he really doesnt#and i dont think netanyahu cares that much about thanksgiving tbr...#it sounds more like to me that op is seeing this from a very american centric pov and assumes everyone celebrates thanksgiving#or cares enough about it to remember the dates.... i dont think this is as planned as op is making it out to be and any insinuation#that it IS planned sounds like conspiracy theory talk to me personally. i dont think biden is hittin netanyahu up and going#'hey thursday is thanksgiving and would be the perfect time to pause so we can (((get peoples money))) out of them#asiftheUSdoesnthaveplentyalready' like i just really dont think that convo is happening lmao.
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I think that thereās a fundamental misunderstanding of what exactly isā¦happening with Izukuās character. Specifically in regards to chapter 425.
Iām glad that a lot more people generally recognize that Izuku is not a character that can be read at a surface level, given that heās both a repressed person with built up emotion of basically everything and also a very glaringly HUGELY unreliable narrator, but that doesnāt necessarily mean I agree with the ways Iāve seen this most recent chapter spoken about.
I see posts, comments, etc with ideas like āIzuku donāt suppress your emotions! Open up with people! Itāll be okay I promise!ā When thatās fundamentally not what is happening here.
Thereās always always ALWAYS been a distinct difference in character throughout horikoshiās writing when he is showing that a character is:
AāAvoiding emotions, thoughts, ideas less than ideal for them. Not opening up when they probably should about their problems given that theyāve been handed the space to do so. Just genuinely not acknowledging, feeling, or expressing emotions that they donāt want.
BāReflecting on the ways they feel about the world, themselves, or other people given their new perspective on a situation. Not outright reaching out to others to talk about these problems/feelings, but instead waiting until the moment they feel they have the most confidence to do so with their new outlook on their own life.
And genuinely, guys, to grab your BkDk attention rn, this is the exact reason why Ochakoās reflection on her feelings for Izuku and thereafter decision to pull away from them WAS NEVER GOING TO END IN OCHAKO EXPLODING WITH HER LOVE FOR HIM.
This was another common interpretation I saw of Ochako and Izuocha for a long time. That because she pushed these feelings away, they were somehow going to explode in this unbelievable way and she would āget the boyā because of it. That her arc would surround accepting her romantic feelings and that she canāt just push away how she feels for a career.
But yk. That didnāt happen. At all. Nowhere close even.
The same kind of goes for Katsuki, allmight, etc. They all had moments in their arc where it was spent genuinely reflecting, and the only reason we as the audience never connected it in the same ways we do ochako or Izuku was ALWAYS BECAUSE the narrative showed their inner thoughts while doing so (mostly because Allmightās arc after losing OFA and Katsukiās arc on what it means to be a hero were so intrinsically tied, both starting at the same time and ending at the same time during the final war. And because they were so tied this caused their own reflections, development, and thought process to be broadcasted to us frequently throughout their arcsā¦ to each other. They also somewhat shared aspects with Izuku, but these were cherry picked more often than not, like dvk2 for example).
To us Katsuki never seemed to be.. idk, suppressing his anger in any way because we were always told what he was doing and why (side note: this is why Iāve always thought arguments against Katsuki were so weird, bc unlike characters like endeavor or Ochako he wasnāt likeā¦ hiding who he was and how he was changing. Ever. Like the audience knows at all times past basically season 3 what Katsuki is thinking and doing. Like how do you watch this happen, stare me dead in the eye, and tell me how much of a terrible and awful teenage boy he is. Like damn I didnāt think we were this dumb. This is also my theory as to why heās most popular, his arc is veryā¦ in your face if that makes sense). Katsukiās entire mini arc on reflecting his mistakes and his childhood and his future is spent TELLING YOU that itās what heās doing. (Iām referring mostly to the endeavor internship arc, the provisional license exam makeup, and basically everything in the war arc related to him leading up to bakugou Katsuki rising here)
And see, Horikoshi will stare you dead in the eye, tell you āthis girl has taken into consideration that she doesnāt want to waste her time training her career focusing on a boy because he kinda caught her fancyā, and yāall will still say that this will explode in her face.
Yāall this is a series about learning how to manage emotions, maturity in relationship to oneās emotions, how to feel an emotion, but in a way that is helpful. Horikoshi isnāt telling you āgo buck wild, feel everything all the time and always express itā, in fact he explores why you DONT do that! Through Toga or Shigaraki, they show how grief and anger can genuinely consume you. But he also shows why you shouldnāt just put everything in a box to never look at or acknowledge, or why you shouldnāt just let your grief destroy the world around you, or pretending that some emotions simply donāt exist.
I canāt say this enough, so let me say it now, mha is about the extremes of your psyche. That you should control something, but not too much. Everything can be harmful. Everything can be good.
Izuku is not controlling too much, heās expressing just enough.
I LOVE shaming this dickhead at all times in all my posts. I love saying heās an ignorant dipshit with a weird amount of distaste for a girl who just confessed to him. Iāve joked that chapter 348 is basically an entire chapter spent on Izuku calling Himiko a mean dyke. And yet I also believe heās doing nothing WRONG here.
In fact, Iāll even say that this moment right here?
ISNT EVEN IZUKU DOING THE SOCIALLY APPROPRIATE THING ABOUT IT! But heās still TRYING to reach out to someone he thinks MIGHT be able to understand. (And frankly, this moment is far deeper than what itās being made out to be, to me it reads more like an unrequited friendship that Izuku both desires and has thought of them to have, while simultaneously showing the distance Ochako has successfully wedged between them for her own sake. Maybe it was always there though, maybe in weird, miscommunicated Horikoshi fashion, this is a representation of how Ochako always read all those āfun friend hangoutsā as a little more than that, and without those feelings the friendship never really held any substance to her in the first place. Where Izuku saw his first real friend at UA, she saw little more than acquaintance)
Simultaneously, Izuku is genuinely reflecting on what it means for the world to change, to be a hero, to live after lossāand trying and failing to gain the connection he desires from individuals who can not and will not afford him that.
Izuku is ready for the world to change, a few select characters are also ready for the world to change (mirio, for example), but not nearly enough are. So maybe Iāll have to take this back if Iām proven wrong and I accidentally looked into this far past what everyone else did for no reason, but I genuinely believe with moments like this
And this
Aand this
That Izuku has come forward with that aspect of his character development. Heās reflecting on his new beliefs, not repressing his emotions for them.
#bkdk#I will also say that while Izuku did do a bit of a fake smile and attitude for Katsukiās breakdown last chapter#he gets a bit of an excuse for that suppression. theres a time and place to be strong for a friend. and while izuku didnāt exactly say ALL-#the right things or think the right thoughtsā¦ he still imo fits into control your heart within that moment#you can ābe strongā for someone whoās sad or anxious without you being out to be an ultra suppressive self hating boy man#in that moment katsuki probably wouldāve needed that if izuku had said literally anything else but āIām glad I had this dream while it-#lasted!ā and āyour probably just feeling very weird right nowāā¦ DUDE I CANNOT KEEP DEFENDING YOUR ASS#midoriya izuku#mha deku#bakudeku#bkdk brainrot#bnha deku#bakugou katsuki#mha analysis#deku midoriya#last side note lmao: Iāve done like five drafts for this and if this one isnāt good enough hopefully someone better than me can remake this#or Iāll make this at a later time when more things come out#I just knew I wanted this out before the next chapter leaks#which are probably tonight lolllll#oh and I proof read like 80% of this so yāall are getting what you fucking get
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I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :
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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )
#tumblr polls#hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today#still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual#They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully#it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec#fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since#I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm#ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos#or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things#I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming#over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY#I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb#e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about#different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see#stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I#can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud..#but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone#said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects#the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm
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First day of babysitting my friends' cat is going as expected by which I mean I am scared
#heck bistro is handling it better than me#new cat's name is Galaad btw and he is evil#ok not evil hes just a little big guy#hes just been hissing/low rumbly meows at the door#we put him in my roomates room for now#my friends will be gone for 3 weeks so hopefully he gets chiller#but even normally when hes at home hes pretty agressive toward guests
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I must've owed you in my previous life. In this life, I'm here to repay you. Then I owe you in this life. In my next life, I'll repay you.
Meet You At The Blossom (2024)
#meet you at the blossom#su yin#myatb spoilers#hopefully the subtle desaturation of the colours and the blues... the yellow and blue opposites... are coming through.....#im such a lazy gifmaker i cant be bothered to make em better than they are JFHEJDHE theyre so self indulgent...#them talking about their next life broke me a little! imagine living for your next life on the belief you're gonna meet this guy again!#cdramaedit#cdramagifs#li junliang#jin xiaobao#wang yunkai#FIXED THE ISSUE I SPOTTED YDAY POSTING AT THE WORST TIME LETS GO#myatbedit
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