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Happy new year!!! Let's hope to seek out revenge on all our enemies and beg God to pick up the phone because what are we if not the cattle branded by the callous hand of God, our father?
#far cry fandom#joseph seed#happy new year#fc5#far cry 5#hope this year isnt horrible#building a bunker to survive this one#the collapse is cumming
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Funniest shit ive seen from an arcane blog was them getting mad at caitlyn and vi for being shipped when caitlyn is bad to her, then immediately shipping ambessa and vi… ambessa, aka the one that murders children and thinks all people from zaun should die. Cant make this shit up
#arcane#arcane spoilers#dont get me wrong. caitlyn is a shitter in act 1 to vi#how the other acts handle her will determine how i feel about her#i hope its grief. i hope its to show how horrible grief is#because her behavior somewhat resembles vis when she lost her family.#and how vi was to powder#but idk.#caitlyn fucks up but calling it abuse is pushing it. she lashes out after her mom dies#if caitlyn refuses to properly apologize and make amends#yeah i wont be fond of her#but hopefully she does#and like. yeah vis character is goin g through it#is it pathetic? yeah a little. but she was in jail for 6 years and starved of human contact#it isnt unbelievable that shed latch onto the first person that showed her any affection#shes still young like. thats what being in your 20s is like#fuck ambessa btw#the hypocrisy to hate caitlyn while loving ambessa??? tf
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making a collection
making another collection with a threatening aura
#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo#HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn.#luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!!#what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there#FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :(#one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend#usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase#nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls#i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki#luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg#cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy#zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over#zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn#komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom#luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk#it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also#was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up???#'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!'#flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe#zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her#that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme#fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems#foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests#now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby#the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies#kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs
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why..... am i still awake......... coughs like i dieying
#thistle.txt#i mean my cough has gotten better. winning. somewhat. but i have been up the past 28? hours? which isnt ideal?#i dont know i kinda dont know numbers right now maybe its been longer.. i dont know......#just been very antsy due to thinking about the characters too hard for too long. i dont know why it odes that to me.#i have to think about NOVEL INTERESTING THINGS to survive. & well there havent been many interesting things to think about#kinda just like mold & spores figuratively...#caught a glimpse of whats going on at sment & closed my eyes. ahh... horrible horrible. not good stuff over there. not good.#oh my god. dpr in one month. shaky breath. they better not put any fucking lame songs on the setlist!!!!!!!!!!#fuckk i think rome did mood at that one concert last year i hope he does it again#tried to think of a song i dont want him to put on the setlist & couldnt find one. really? surely theres one#i thought there was a song on miito i didnt like as much....? hm. oh well more good music for me#maybe it was avalon but like so long as it doesnt take the spot of a song i REALLY like im fine w avalon. its not bad#& its hard to be mad at music once im seeing it live#now live........... well alli ahve to say is he should release more music some time. maybe. think about it.#not to be ungrateful or anything.#fuck my voice is like SHOT shot i forgot i cant speak at any kind of high pitch rn..... well i do like the deeper voice lip bite emoji..#i have no reason to talk out loud though good night
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#theres a decision that as a pet owner you hope you never have to make#and knowing that this decision had been made#for who grew from child to adult with me#for my company through YEARS of no friends. no school. no leaving the house. no contact w/ extended family. either alone or ignored at home#knowing this decision had been made; knowing when; knowing how hard its been against self blame and self hate#my best friend who'd offered again and again to be there for me and help in any way they can... left?#then. of all times. thats when my friend chose to disappear off with others. without a word. for days#i could write an essay breaking down our relationship and it still wouldnt convey how just..unexpected and horrible that is?#just. why choose then to leave? how - if thats someone you truly love or care about?#i didnt deserve that. i hope my forgiveness isnt expected because it will never be offered#odim
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so unfortunate when smth has a basic enough name that its not conducive to the tumblr tagging system and other stuff mixes in with it. surely no posts unrelated to the saw franchise will use both the words ‘saw’ and ‘x’ in their posts
#if u say x isnt a word im powncing on u like a tiger attack attack#im joking ive just been seeing a good handful of non saw x posts in the tag#cest la vie..#the pains of ur franchise literally being the word ‘SAW’#hope this doesnt get horribly obnoxious w the twitter fiasco tho thats my only wish my hopeful prayer#saw x#click#nope.. spiral.. it.. year tag it is
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#i wish i was a better brother to my sister#for so many years from 6 to the age of 18 or even 19 my sister were in horrible terms#hearing she has cervical cancer frightens me#i have finally gotten over my childhood and understand why she's was the way she was for lack of better wording#if I had known she took out her anger out on me cause her boyfriend was physically abusing her I would never held that grudge#shes changed a lot and isnt the toxic sister she was when i was growing up and shes even apologized to me#i hope they found it in its early stages and she will live#even if it means she can't have anymore kids#which would be so sad but at least she has 3 kids#i would hate a world where they don't have their mother....#all we can do is pray for her and hope she survives
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I didn't have the time to queue up posts before I left to visit my family last weekend, thought it's totally fine, I'll just do it from mobile, but... mobile won't let me upload pictures, it gives me an error every time I try to post anything with a picture... :(
Apparently people have had this issue for months, @staff please, you've GOT to have a working phone app in this day and age.
Big sad. No new pictures from me then :( But on the bright side I can still reblog pictures, so just gonna be reblogging other people's art until the weekend when I'm back then!
#i also thought hmm maybe i can do that from my ipad#turns out i need to update that stupid ios before it lets me DOWNLOAD THE TUMBLR APP?#girl i havent updated my phone in like a year despite it begging me every week and i can download whatever the hell i want#every time i have to do anything on that stupid ipad that isnt drawing i want to rip my hair out#i really hope to see Apple die in a fire in my lifetime kill kill bite kill#i had to download the fckng google drive APP to ATTACH A FILE TO MY EMAIL ON GMAIL FOR F SAKE#because for some reason we cant just??? BROWSE FILES LIKE A NORMAL OS?????#ONLY PHOTOS AND GOOGLE DRIVE ATTACHMENTS ALLOWED? i honestly dont understand how anyone uses Apple stuff voluntarily im sorry its horrible
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one of the things i sort of regret is telling ppl i know that dont have ed that i do have it.
#stop forcing me to eat stop threatening that you will force me to eat i fucking beg you it doesnt have the result you think itll have#'how do you eat so little' isnt the neutral comment you think it is.#even if ppl dont mean it what i hear a lot of the time is 'how do you eat so little and are still fat'#'i dont understand how you can eat so much and stay skinny' from me isnt a neutral comment either.#its actually an expression of jealousy that keeps eating away at my insides like the acid in my stomach hope this helps :3#'oh trust me you dont want to be this skinny' shut 👌#i know what i want#i have been fat for all 17 years of my life i can and i will fucking starve myself to death if its what it takes for me to look like i want#this post has been brought to you by i had a breakdown for no fucking reason#my brain decided that they uh *checks notes* found me repulsive. source? i hardly know her!#urge to go on a 72h liquids only. i think it'd fix me on a fundamental level.#tw ed#something something id prefer they found skinny me repulsive than fat me attractive#i could handle being broken up with over being too skinny methinks.#of course thats a very unlikely scenario i doubt i will ever get so lucky and get skinny to the point someone finds it repulsive#but let a boy dream :((#ive had a horrible day as you can see
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like its a tually ridiculous bc if i have like conflicting feelings on somebody bc nuance is a thing that exists my brains likw Oh so youre making excuses for that awful person but then if i do black and white thinking and think of someone as ourely evil my brains like God are you stupid do you even know about nuance youre so reductive. nobody is purely good or evil and acting as if someone is innately evil is a horriblr thing to do bc its making excuses and coddling yourself into believing Oh incould never do something like thst because im not innately evil like they are . Nobody is ourely good or bad Except for you who is irredeemable and awful and going to hell forever and you are completely unequivocally an evil aeful horrible person. and it is your fault because you choose to be evil and also youve always been evil and you canr help it or fix it but its your choice as well and your fault. so
#To clarify please dont understand its not like. i dont make excuses for ppl i just try to like. ok. i feel like i am crawling on glass rn .#purely my own fault im not saying that whoever is reading this is like. Being ovefly critical of me for thinking what im saying is awful#thats not what i mean like i am not being clear and itis coming off like im evil and im making excuses for it . Okay . okay. what i mean to#say its that i dont think its good to like. look at somebody who does truly heinous things and label them as nonhuman or act as if its like.#something they cant control bc rheyre always evil. i dont think thats productive bc its ignoring what leads someone to do such awful things#im not saying like Oh well its not their fault NO i think there are things that are unforgiveable but im saying that writing it off as Oh#that person is judt evil thats why they did that is ignoring the fact that like. when somebody does bad things they arent doing it bc they#like. like being evil and doing bad things. they justify it and think its a good thing and it can happen to like. no thats not good phrasing#like. obviously i dont mean like. OH my hod how do i phrase this. like saying somebody did a bad thing bc they are evil is making an excuse#not to examine yourself and see like. bc you could be rationalizing your own bad actions. you know. everyone is capable of evil so it isnt#useful to just. bc like. you know ahat i mean does this make any sense im rlt worried it sounds like im making excuses for ppl#like im not saying ppl cant be evil or that just bc somebody does something evil that doesnt mean theyre evil i just mean like.#ppl dont do bad things bc theyre a bad person theyre a bad person if they do bad things. like. depending on the bad thing bc theres a#difference between like. being a shitty boyfriend as a 13 year old vs like. committing genocide. you know what i mean. like. idt being a#shitty bf as a 13 year old manes you eternally a bad person its bad things that you did and justify to yourself . and as long as you work on#that and dont do it again thats good. but if youre doing something Truly horrible like. you are a bad person not bc you were born evil and#thats why you do bsd things. you judtify yourself and dont examine your beliefs and your actions and then you do horrible things and doing#the horrible things makes you a bad person#but obviously no person is 100% evil not in a like. Oh yeah i murdered those orphans but i also picked a worm up off the sidewalk after the#rain. i just mean like. IDK IDK IDK i dont think im making sense i hope this is understandable
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kind of wonder if i quit my crew now can i join another crew that actually plays the game,,,
#idts tho and my crew isnt horrible#im like semi casual tho competitive crews r NOT going to leave me alive#but i can also 2b0c this time round so maybeee i should try#was crying earlier bcs i was struggling to find a way to keep it under 5b :skull:#until i rmbed pholias existence then#yeah lol#bubz -> pholia s1 -> attack so thats 3b technically huh......#whatever its 1b for me bcs i press fa and tabout for the 10 seconds this takes#i hope that one singular crewmate will be active this gw too and that one of our fos will activate the bonuses BCS PLS I NEED THE GREEN POT#anyways yeah maybe in 5 years ill consider upping to a semi competitive crew
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i do want to have a career that is related in some way to environmental/urban planning because that is something i do have a real interest and passion in… however… the rate at which things get accomplished in those fields is actually horrifying to me. everything i’ve heard from people who work in those jobs is like
“we have this great plan that would be really amazing for literally everyone. it needs to be reviewed by 6 separate boards who have a waiting list of 9 months, redesigned after each review, voted on by the council at least 5 times, and we won’t get funds unless we POSSIBLY get a grant that is offered once every 5 years. and at any point the state could reject it entirely. we hope to start construction in 2040”
#ISNT THAT HORRIBLEEEEE#when i went to a meeting about a new bike lane in this horrible stretch of traffic and the engineers were like#‘yeah it’s well known that this is THE most dangerous traffic corridor in town. lots of accidents…#‘we’re hoping to start construction in 2027’#i was like FOR REAL??? i almost die on this road Every day. and you’re telling me 5 years.#anyways….#oh also a guy came to my class yesterday to talk about a solar panel project he’s been planning for like a DECADE#and explained all the different commissions that would need to approve it and all the hoops to jump through and plans that have been denied#i was like holy fuck 😭#like for example. there’s literally one TINY area where it would be feasible because it’s just barely (we’re talking INCHES)#out of the land area controlled by a separate org who would Never let solar panels be put in#shit like that. I mean oh my god
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yahoo thinking about literally switching schools and getting a degree in library sciences. is this a bad route of thinking or
#I have been my current uni for 4 years. only need 2 more years to finish my current degree#and that's IF i pass this one horrible course#for the library science degree it's only 2 years#saturn in the 9th is REAL#I just want some glimmer of hope... that my future isnt going to be horrible :')#or am i deluding myself again#saturn tell me
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a new new year
pairing -jude bellingham x reader genre - bestfriends to lovers, fluff warnings - not proof read author’s note - im so proud of the title cause im bad with titles pls tell me u get it😭 also sorryy for inactivity</3 and hope this isnt horrible due to the writers block ive been having☠️
you were having a blast at the new years party your family had arranged. you came from a relatively wealthy and big family, which meant that parties were always invested in. the house was buzzing and people kept showing up. there was one person specifically you were waiting for.
jude bellingham. your bestfriend, who you have had a secret crush on. pretty sure everyone has a crush on him, you thought. he had informed you hours earlier that he would come to the party, yet he wws no where to be seen.
you got up and ordered yourself a glass of champagne. the liquid streamed down your throat. your phone vibrated in your pocket.
judee💞, it read.
“heyy, are you coming?” you asked him, sighing at his absence.
“yeah i’m almost there, i had to ask my mum to drop me off cause, you know” he laughed.
you smiled at the thought him spending another new years eve with you. you had known each other since birth, due to your mums being best friends since high school.
“well, i’ll be waiting for you, bye” you beamed. you ended the call and joined your aunts gossiping to distract yourself.
a tap on your shoulder made you turn around.
“judee, your finally here!” you squealed, wrapping him in a hug. you felt judes laughter vibrating through his chest, making you feel warm.
the night flew by as the midnight approached. you guided jude to a garden with no one in it, deciding to finally confess to him.
“i have something i’ve needed to tell you for a long time. promise you wont be mad” you entreated him.
“i promise” he said, barely above a whisper.
“i like you. like, in a romantic way” you admitted, looking away.
before you could say anything else, you felt his lips crash against yours. you both kissed hungrily, full of passion. judes hands explored your body, while you wrapped your arms around his neck, slightly deepening the kiss.
when you finally pulled away, you were out of breath. “would you be my girlfriend?” he asked, face centimetres away from yours. you could feel his breath against your face.
“obviously” you nodded.
you both could hear a faint countdown from five to zero coming from the house.
“5..4..3..2..1..happy new year” you heard, feeling jude immediately pull you in and connect your lips again when the countdown ended. all you could hear were cheers and fireworks.
needless to say, it was the best new year you had.
#🤍#judeslove#football#football imagine#football x reader#football x y/n#football x you#jude bellingham imagine#fluff#football fluff#jude bellingham x reader#jude bellingham imagines#jude angst#jude imagine#jude fluff#jude bellingham fanfic#jude bellingham smau#jude bellingham#jude#jude bellingham fluff#football masterlist#football imagines#football angst
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The Great War -141, Vladimir Makarov
Based on a request:
with the new mw3, lets do angst, something along the lines of "Somewhere in the haze, got a sense i've been betrayed" coming from us because 141 betrayed us horribly, which ended up in us getting tortured and then we pretennd its fine when it isnt. forget and forgive we lie and when we meet with Makarov, we tell them, 'oops sorry, forgot i was also a enemy at some point, guess its time to betray like real enemies do' and as we set Makarov free, we show that we have been working as his spy ever since they betrayed us. also can this be with a female reader and we also marry makarov behind their backs so thats why we betray so hard? i love u!
A/N: anon knew what they were doing with that ask…anyway, here you go my love…betrayal as a meal <3
--- F!Reader, soldier!reader, enemy!reader, betrayal, mentions of torture and violence
A/N: also, not much of an angst since I don't want to kill Soap in this one...but I hope you like it
[Present day]
File #21712
Name: [Readers Last, First name]
Alias: Grim
Callsign: Bravo 0-5
Gender: F
DOB: [Redacted]
Rank: 2nd Lt.
Affiliations:
-TF 141 (Former)
-Kasper Team (dissolved)
-Konni Group (Current)
Status: Alive. Threat.
Summary:
Deadly, fast and a killing machine. Soldier was trained as a recon sniper and has been trained by allied forces as an insertion specialist. SAS has recognised this soldier as a necessity for most of its joint operations. Decorated with high awards and recognition by all military forces. TF 141 acquired soldier after a mission in Al Mazrah. Capable of killing all those that come between her and the goal, will not hesitate to harm enemies.
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The file was there, Laswell and all of the men in the team stared at it. What have they done, was all that played in their minds. To betray a soldier that has been wanted by all allied forces, by all teams and now losing you so quickly to a Russian group. To think your hands will be responsible for their demise. One torture room, where you begged as they did vile acts against you. Truth yelled by your gravelly throat, only to have Price ask for more of your blood. "How did he get to her so quickly?" Gaz asked, baffled to have lost you to the man you hated when this all began. "He had her all along," Kate spoke. Nikolai shook his head. "But how? We were her family," a betrayed Ghost said. "We betrayed her first," Price recalls.
[Eight years ago]
There had been suspicion someone within the base was working with KorTac, a double agent. All fake puzzles led to an unsuspecting, then officer cadet, you. Ghost and Soap made sure to tie you nicely to a chair. The same one that watched you bleed the truth as they cut looking for lies. You were always the hunter, never the prey. "Tell us, R/N, why the fuck were you talking to KorTac!" Price made sure to have the young Lieutenant punch you each time you stayed silent. Your blood on the walls of the torture-...interrogation room. "I told you Price, it isn't me!" Your eyes poured the truth they never saw.
"Fucking answer us!" Soap, more than ever hurt, slapped you. You play tough, but this hurts, the people you trusted with your life are now wanting to end it. An oath you hold close to you, now far away, or so they believed. The patch you wore with pride, is now ripped from your uniform. No longer friendly but an enemy. You knew what this meant. Ghost took his knife out, began to approach your neck with the sharp blade and before he took your life, Gaz walked in. A small-figured soldier is being pushed into the room. "Tell them what you told me!" Garrick barked. "I-it's me! I'm the one who is talking to KorTac," voice filled with fear, rightfully so. Ghost let go of the fisted uniform in his hand, and watched as your body fell forward. Soap, look of regret, held you in his arms.
On the way to the medic centre, Ghost was by your side as you kept whispering it wasn't you. The scar he made, is forever to be kept. Days of healing, hours of apologies. Nights when you didn't hear it, but the cold lieutenant apologised with a stream of tears on his face. A blade he cared for, neared your death.
A/N: Makarov's information has been updated for the reboot, so I'm basing myself on that
[Seven years ago]
[Saint Petersburg, Russia]
You visited the country as a civilian and bumped into a man on your way to your hotel. "Sorry, mate," you kept walking and then days later, the same man appeared in the hotel's lobby. Bumped into you and then as an apology for spilling your wine, he offers dinner. 36-year-old Vladimir was still not illustrated, not to any of his future enemies or hunters at least. You learned many things with him that evening, from his young years in the military and how his night had gotten better since meeting you. "It's wonderful, to have such a beauty like you visit such a dull country." He had you blushing and knew how to mess with your young heart.
"You're just saying that, Vlad," a smile on your lips. It was bizarre how he went from Vladimir to Vlad, a short name that meant too much to a man like him. "Well, it's true, my dear," his smile winning you over. He didn't know your real job and you didn't know his. That night, you made a friend, someone you hold dear. That night, he made a lover, a puppet to his future.
[Six years ago]
[middle of nowhere]
"Where are you taking me?" a blindfold on you as your boyfriend, Vlad, took you to yet another date. "You'll see my dearest," he whispers against your soft skin. Warm breeze hit your skin. The ocean, as free as you and him yearned to be. "Suprise my love," his thick accent melting your heart. The blindfold off you, you smile and hug him. This day, all truth was told, no arguments, just two lovers understanding each other's lives. "No no, my love, I would never hurt you," a promise he knows to keep. "And you wouldn't betray me, right love?" His hands cupped your delicate face as you nod. "I would never," you whisper as you feel his lips fall on yours.
From then on, no one knew who he was to you. But to his comrades, friends and family you were the girl who held his heart. The task force all thought you were just like them, stuck to the mission and not to civilian love. Dancing with the devil, making love to him and promising your all. An engagement ring that hangs with your dog tags. Secret love to never be told.
[Five years ago]
"Who is this?" Soap and Gaz looked at the photograph. "Vladimir Makarov, a Russian nationalist, born during the USSR," Laswell responded. "He's the target," her lips said. A knot at your throat, this can't be, you have to warn him. "Y'alright love?" Ghost's hand on your back. You nod. "Yeah, I'm just thinking," you turn to him. He nods, "Right, well, what do you think we should do?" He encouraged you, the new lieutenant of the team, no longer a cadet officer. It was something he pushed you to, to be the best. Proud smile on him when you ran up to him with the news. "I say we start with intel," you look at the photograph once more. It was your Vlad, no doubt. "Right, sergeants with me, Ghost and Grim stay behind for Laswell's next intel ask," Price nodded and left.
Days passed and Operation Golf was established. Ghost taught you how to perfect your ghillie suit. He just liked how you tried to make yours better than his, which always turned into, 'which Lt. wore it better'.
By midnight, as Ghost went to sleep, you left base to meet with Vladimir. Price and the two other men in a different country, looking for him. "What is it, my love?" His gloved hands held your face. "They are now gathering intel on you. They believe you are still in Russia," you spoke in Russian. He chuckles, "Shame that I'm here, isn't it," his lips meet yours. Your nose is cold and now warmed by his kiss. "Don't trust no one, not even Ivan," you warn him. "I only trust my beautiful love," he kisses you again. "Now, let me hold my precious darling before she plays pretend." And that night, was the first of many rendezvous's he took for you whilst you play ally to the task force.
[Four years ago]
You were on an operation with some old teammates from a past squad when Price got a hold of you. "Grim, it's that Captain Price guy!" A teammate calls out. You answer the call. "Prisoner 627 is now in Russia," Price proudly spoke. 627, a number unique to the case the military had opened for Makarov alone. Your wedding ring is hung with the dog tags. "Copy, out." You say over the call. That night, your bedroom was not filled with the call of your dearest lover. It's strange, to play pretend with the family you made as a soldier and to play feign with the man you call home as a wife. All in the name of love and war.
Months pass and you play calmly. No husband, just an enemy in some Russian prison. "Y'okay bonnie?" Soap sat beside you during mess hall. "Yeah, just a bit tired from that training," you lie. The sleepless nights you have thought about your husband. You look around the table, no one knowing you knew what would come next from Konni. In the end, it wouldn't be you who got betrayed again. Not tortured, especially not by the men in your husband's team that guarded your life with theirs.
Mission after mission, you would go to a country near Russia. Have meetings with people on your husband's side, and hear how he would escape prison. Asked you to stay away from his people when the day arrived. Play good, he would remind you. You know the date, time, how and when it would happen. The plan is all memorised in your head. You knew the people that would break him free, you knew it all and yet no one in 141 was aware.
[Three years ago]
On yet another mission, you got news of Vladimir. He isolated himself, prepared for when he would see you again. Sent letters to you occasionally. Details of love no one would see from a man like him. A love for all movie lovers to never witness. You roamed the home he set out to be his and yours, no one, not even his best soldier knew that home existed. It was days like these that you wished to have stayed in bed and kissed his body, all details to be taken in for when you waited to once more kiss him.
The picture of the secret wedding was held between your fingers. A smile he dreams to see as he awaits the prison break. The man who was set to believe evil held your hand and promised an entire lifetime of love. "I'm sorry," you whisper as your gaze focuses on the 141 emblem.
"Never be sorry, never, what they did to you is cruel, you never do that to a woman who was oathed in," fury escaped his lips. It was the night he finally told you all about him. He kissed the scars that the torture room left. In that moment, all else who dared question you, especially the rats of 141 would pay for what they did to his darling. Maybe he did corrupt you, but those scars, the lies they believed and the truths they never heard from you, were way before he met you. He believed in loyalty, good or evil, opposing or not. And the way you told him how you held the oath of being a soldier dear to you, he admired it. He believes that loyalty is essential, and if you are loyal to who you are, he applauds it.
[Two years ago]
A mission gone wrong, a phone call from within the prison. All he sacrificed to just hear you say, "I'm fine, honey." With that oh-so-soft voice of yours. A sigh of relief came from his lips. This was a reminder he would always be around even from within a guarder tower of hell. His men would always guard you, even if they fought 141, you were never the target. KorTac had a target on their backs when Vladimir found out they were the ones responsible for the bullet on your shoulder. "What is it?" He asked the guard. "The girl has been injured, gunfight at some mission." He had people that worked for him within the guards, and when the news arrived to him, that's when for the first time in his life, he feared life and a gun. Vladimir Makarov is a villain in everyone's eyes. In your eyes that hold paradise, he is peace. He is Vlad, your husband.
Whilst waiting for Soap to get cleared from the medics, you played with the ring on your necklace. "Oh, R/N, has some lover?" Gaz was the first to notice. Ghost's stare went to you, eyes wide as he heard the words he never needed to hear. Your blush told the words his heart never wanted to hear.
[One year ago]
[Las Almas, Mexico]
"Are you threatening us?" Ghost asked and in that moment, he made you back away. Guarding you with his body. Betrayal, the first of many he would see with you. That became the night you escaped the shadows of Commander Graves. Soap was somewhere in the city, Ghost and you escaped every chance the shadows had at catching you. Imprisonment is something you got Colonel Vargas out of. Ironic. By the end, you killed him, the man who used his shadows, in some explosion. "You alright, love?" Ghost asked as you went to the aircraft quietly. "Yeah, Mexico just tired me," your head hung as you played with the dog tags. "Who's the lover?" He finally acknowledged the ring. "No one, it's just a silly joke," you lie, something he knew well. "Hmm, yeah...a silly joke," he turned away from you.
[Present day, 21 November 2023 ]
[London, England]
The last time you saw them all as a team, well, now that you were sure you'd be a newfound enemy. With Makarov now out of prison, prisoner 627, your love called for him. As Ghost looked through the CCTV cameras, one of the men in Konni gave you the signal. And as you approached, you caught a glimpse of him. Your heart flutters and then you look at Ghost. He nodded and you pretended to try and fight against Makarov. Czar-9-0 Actual. The callsign of your husband and the name of the man you betrayed them for. Guns blazing, bullets directed at them, not you. Gaz and Ghost, a team, Soap and Price, a team, 141, one unit. You, the wife of the enemy. Two bullets and then, the head hit the ground. Young soldier down. "What are you doing?!" Soap asked as you turned on them. A 20-year-old soldier died within seconds, you knew him from when he joined at 18. James, the man whose blood ran on your gun.
Makarov fired, one of his men held your hand and brought you to your husband. The 141 patch off your uniform as now, you were given the Konni patch. "Welcome back, comrade," a man spoke with an evil grin. Ghost, the eyes that saw the betrayal again. 23 soldiers died, from both sides. 141 on the ground, trying to recover.
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"C'mon, Grim, you have to trust me on this, yeah?" the young lieutenant that made Ghost told you. "What if we fall?" you asked. "If you trust me, we won't and if I trust you, we will go home and get a pint or two," He smiles at you. From this day on, you and he became close, a bond no gun could break.
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Ghost swore you were taken hostage. And as Makarov was about to kill Captain Price, one of his men tapped him out. "No time, we will get him later!" Ghost's glare never left yours. He shook his head. This can't be, not his R/N. You looked at him, no remorse behind your eyes. It wasn't R/N, it was Grim that stared at him. The soldier he respected the most. You pointed your gun at one of the other soldiers with them.
It turned into something bigger
Somewhere in the haze, got a sense I'd been betrayed
He jumped at you, to not kill you but to bring you back and let Makarov run with Grim. You pushed him, what turned into a fight for his teammate to be back, became a fight against the enemy. You pushed him to the ground. "Ghost!" Gaz yelled as he saw your gun pointed at him. It was never Makarov that would be his demise. It wasn't an enemy. It was you. It was the one he held dear to his civilian self. The woman he would drink poison for. The one he jumped a bullet for when they were young cadets. Stupid, stupid, stupid. His eyes never left yours and for a second, he saw past Grim and noticed the scared R/N that obeyed her husband.
Soldier down on that icy ground
Looked up at me with honor and truth
Broken and blue, so I called off the troops
That was the night I nearly lost you
You put your gun down and turn away, running to Vladimir. His open arms, ready to embrace his darling. Now, all of 141's secrets are with Makarov. It clicked in that instant. How four years ago Makarov knew who Ghost was. How well he knew all their names. It wasn't some file he saw when his hacker got in, no, it was you, the best of all pawns. The train cleaned your tracks. Price and the others stood in fear, all this time, you were part of Konni. Ghost stood in silence.
In every war he was in, you were there. His favourite of all soldiers. From his early days as just Simon to his latest days as Ghost, all witnessed by you. He was the one who asked for you anywhere he went. His life came in a flash, all the Christmas events, the dinners and drinks he had with his friend...no...enemy. The one person who knew Simon liked the palm of her hand, now holding the man Ghost called an enemy.
"How did he get to her so quickly?" Gaz asked, baffled to have lost you to the man you hated when this all began. "He had her all along," Kate spoke. Nikolai shook his head. "But how? We were her family," a betrayed Ghost said. "We betrayed her first," Price recalls. "But that was years ago," Soap comments. "It started years ago," Gaz mentions. "We weren't meant to win this one gentlemen," Kate informs.
"Fuck!" Ghost's blood boiled. He scared them, he knew that well. So when he slammed his fist on the table, he even made the best of soldiers flinch. "Lt," Soap tried to calm him down. "No, Johnny! You don't get it, you don't know her as I do," he approached the sergeant. "She didn't kill you, why?" Kate walks to the betrayed soldier. "What?" His voice is hoarse. "She had the chance to kill you, headshot even, yet she didn't, she ran to him and then when she did, all fire ceased." Kate is after all a mastermind. "She didn't betray Simon, she betrayed Ghost, she betrayed Soap, not Johnny, Gaz, not Kyle and Bravo six, not John." She states.
"She betrayed soldiers, not family," Price came to realisation. Grim did that, Grim killed all that came between the goal. 'Capable of killing all those that come between her and the goal, will not hesitate to harm enemies.' The goal wasn't to kill Task Force 141, it was to get revenge for the betrayal, for torturing you in a room, letting your blood drip. You married a man, something all fools do. But even though Makarov wanted you to pull the trigger on Ghost, you didn't. You ran away and the fire ceased.
There's no morning glory, it was war, it wasn't fair
A/N: see what I did there?...mastermind me y'know
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this all makes it even better :))) also knowing charles anger issues, him being ready to insult even his own family, slamming desks, physically blocking his escape, and yelling at al (he was ready to do so at a ball full of people he mustve been even worse in private) if charles didnt like a concept of something alastair wouldnt have dared to do it or talk about it in anything but negative light
which makes you wonder if alastair hasnt learnt about the 'charlotte cheated with gideon' from him, or at least if hes heard him repeat it
especially since as far as i remember, alastair doesnt bully people for their families but strictly for their own vulnerabilities (james' eyes, thomas' height, mathew being mathew)
which if he did learn from charles, it would not only make very unfortunate sense, it would also close everything in a horrific circle
hi btw at the latest (1900 i.e. before 1901) alastair and charles met when al was 16 and charles was 21. as in al would be a high school junior/ in year 10/11 writing gces and charles would be in fucking college. and theres a very high chance they met even earlier. *points at alastair and shakes the entire fucking cast of tlh* that is not a bad person that is a grooming victim who was still in relationship with his abuser at the start of the series!! not even mentioning his fucking father!!! what the actual fuck!!! at the start of the series that is a 19 year old That Is Still A Child. what the actual fuck
#WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE MOST OF THE CAST HAS NEVER MET HIM BEFORE HE WAS GROOMED#WHAT DO YOU MEAN WEVE NEVER SEEN HIM BEFORE HIS ABUSE DOUBLED UP#wdym this 14 year old boy travelled literally the entire world and no matter where he went he was abused#wdym this 14 year old sacrificed every sense of self he ever had just to survive and No One Has Fucking Seen It#also im genuinely so sorry love that you relate to alastairs story thats a horrible thing to happen to anyone#trauma and abuse isnt a sport but if anyone aside grace in the cast suffered through more than 2/3 of what al went thru thered be no plot#theyd all just kill themselves And Hes The One Walking Around Begging To Be Forgiven#taylor alison Truly Was Writing From Alastairs Pov When She Said You Wouldn't Last An Hour In The Asylum Where They Raised Me#tw grooming#tw sa mention#alastair carstairs#tsc#i just woke up hope im making sense grammatically
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