#just. why choose then to leave? how - if thats someone you truly love or care about?

[draculuve]

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[ancientgoddessofegypt]

Venus in the 6th; Harmony, Love, & The Universe Surrounding Them

Venus in the 6th house individuals have a love for life itself. They crave a new life every morning when they wake up. Their lives can be based on some sort of routine because this can give them a sense of purpose. Their work life has to let their essence shine is some way or they will be extremely drained. When it comes to their love life, they must always choose themselves. If they dont do this they will be in a world of trouble.

All of these things I mentioned can heal them or hurt them in the same breath. With venus 6th house people, their self esteem has to be at an all time high. They could be used for what they have or what they know. These individuals take learning to a whole new level since the 6th house is the house of virgo. In some way or form, they may love to teach, and may end up in teaching roles that they didnt ask for. Natural leaders, they can show people how to be more compassionate, graceful and empathetic in these roles.

Now back to their love life, why I said they should always pick them selves is because at most points of their lives they may have been bit of a people pleaser. They do this to keep things going at a stellar pace, not moving out of chaos and just wanting things to be the same because it works to keep their minds and bodies in check. If anything gets a little out of whack, they'll think they did something wrong and will continuously search for harmony in the relationship by putting themselves in the back burner. They dont mean to do this, but they must learn that it isn't always on them to keep the relationships in balance and order. It must happen in due time.

What I like about these individuals and this placement is that they love a divine feminine/divine masculine dynamic.

That can apply to anyone doesnt matter the persons sexuality, as we all carry feminine/masculine traits.

These individuals truly want a spiritual connection with their lovers and me be prone to committing to celibate acts or staying away from sexual relations that do not appease their senses deep in their core.

This is another thing I must mention, sex with them is an act that connects them closer to the gods. They do not view sex as some hit it and quit it act. They'll wait years if they have to, to get the love that they crave. Making love is what they truly desire, not the fake stuff.

Their love is universal, and they love to help others in any possible way. However they must be careful because although they can be of service to other people, they could be seen as an opportunity for someone to get by and this can drain them. Thats why in the beginning of this post I declared for you guys to choose yourself first at all times because its easy for your compassionate energy to be used very quickly.

When it comes to work, please quit that job if they are not treating you like the royalty that you guys are. When you leave a work space that isn't for you, you get blessed. Like karma works in your favor because you are openly choosing yourself no matter what happens.

This can go for love and friends too. When something is no longer working for you and the routine is chaotic & draining, you choosing yourself well bless you with better friends and lovers each and every time. So I say this to all my venus 6th housers is that you guys have an incredible power when it comes to your love for the people and the universe itself. This will never go unnoticed. You may come across old friends, lovers, work associates and they'll probably tell you that you were a great person after all of these years. So don't look back at the times where you over extended yourself & evidently became used for it. Look to those moments where you gave your all and you committed to showing empathy and being of service in anyway you could. Thats it <3

[tookerthetookiest]

Wanderer/ Scaramouche x Reader

Kinda angsty

@fruityvegetable - OP's Idea

* Ok but imagine a fanfic w/ fatui recruit reader who has a big, fat, highschool level crush on scara. Scaramouche being him is obviously disgusted by this and pushes the reader away but they never really get the hint. He soon realizes that they'd do whatever he wants without question (besides leaving him ofc). So, he plays in. Leaning into their affection to get some other selfish motive he has. Reader is ofc, estatic thats scara has finally 'accepted' their love. *

This is what happened after the reader heard Scara talking with the other harbingers about how he's only using the reader for his own ideals. That's my shortened version, for more detail you can check out the Fruityvegetables account!! They repost some funny and cute pics too, so go on over to them!!

"Send for (y/n)! Now!" The indigo haired man yelled at a subordinate. Wasting no time the fatui agent scurried away to summon you.

You walked into his office with a blank expression, "Yes my lord" you said with a bow, not looking up til he spoke again. He was agitated, as per usual, though this time he had a reason. Since when had you become so monotone? Where was the annoying, energetic, loud person he hated so much. He paid no mind to it as you may have just woken up or something?? Yeah, that's probably it.

"Tch, I have a mission for you." You rose your head to see his cheek in his palm, elbow resting on his desk, eyes opening to look at you. He readjusted his form to sit in a more intimidating manner. Finally seeing your face he came to the conclusion you were most definitely tired. Eyes droopy, bags under them, an overall mood change, you even looked as though you were crying, but what for? He was worried, but him being him, he decided to just not care.

You only stood there, arms at your side, awaiting your order. The more he looked at you the more he wonders what has you in such a state, though your just a pawn in his game, he shouldn't he caring this much.

"I need you to go to X location and oversee that the items are getting safely transported to Y location" His eyes never leaving your figure, waiting to see your reaction. How he hoped you would say your normal "Of coarse my lord! How kind of you to allow me to watch over goods of yours!!<<333" or something along those lines. That never happened and much to his dismay you replied with "Yes Sir Balladeer, also I must inform you-" he cut you off "I swear if it's some dumb shit I'm going to kill you" He said, expecting this whole thing to be some sort of joke. How wrong he was "Ahem, as I was saying. I must inform you that I have requested to be transferred to Lord Tartaglia."

With that, something inside him snapped. Childe!? Out of all, you chose Childe! Plus you were his! Ahem, his subordinate of course. How could you just choose to leave out of the blue. Barely any warning to go with it, he was prepared to destroy whatever or whoever led you to this decision. "WHAT? WHY! HAVE YOU NO SENSE, ARE YOU THAT STUPID. LEAVING ME?? DO YOU REALLY HAVE A DEATH WISH?!?!!" Yes, he's been angry, that's basically his whole personality, but this was different. He was angry, jealous, confused, sad all in one.

"My lord, you should already know why I'm leaving. You yourself said I would eventually no longer be of use to you. I'll take my leave now." He was perplexed, he said what? Then it all clicked. You heard him. You heard everything he said. Just then he felt everything come crashing down. He was lucky you closed his door, he began.... Crying?

Tears were forming, his eyes wide, unable to process what was going on. Why was he acting this way, for some random person he could easily replace. He could live his life without you anyday, you were annoying anyway. The more he sat and pondered, the more tears flowed, the more he finally realized. He loved you. You weren't someone he could replace, no one in this world could ever truly love him as you did. You had no reason to love him for this long, he gave no reason, yet you still did. He realized he can't live without you, you were apart of his routine.

Now you were leaving? He thought 'Just like everyone else' but he realized once again, it was his fault.

He couldn't bare letting you leave. He rose from his seat, hat covering his face as tears fell, then he ran. Ran til he arrived at your room, not wasting a second to open the door. He looked up, teary eyed, only for them to be left open in shock. Was this the right room, he checked again, yup it was the right one. But where were you, the room was surprisingly empty. Had you planned this. He said it only a day ago, how were you this quick. The tears were uncontrollable at this point. "No, nononono no no no" he chanted.

He walked into the room, noticing a paper on your bed. "I will be leaving as soon as possible, it wasn't Tartaglia I was transferring over to. I'm not actually transferring over to anyone, I'm leaving the fatui, disappearing completely. It'll be hard seeing as everyone will be hunting me down as a traitor of the fatui. But I cannot bare the thought of someone I loved treat me as a mere peice to a puzzle and I know you will never love me the way I did you. I'm sorry my lord...... My love. " With that he searched the entire building, with you nowhere to be seen.

If only he realized his love for you sooner, maybe he could've prevented this. You were the only one to truly see him as a person, someone to be loved, cherished, admired. And he just threw you away. He deserved it, though it won't stop him from searching for you. He needs you back in his life. His new life, as a Wanderer. He's changed, changed for you, and he won't stop searching until he can live his life with you.

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I tried ┐⁠(⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠)⁠┌, it turned out way longer that I was expecting, probably got boring at the end. But I'm still proud of it! Hope you enjoyed reading this!! Please leave requests for me!!

Have a great morning, evening or night!! ☀️🌙🌅

[chrisevanslovesposts]

Chapter 2

"Why did you just leave without telling anybody?" Andrew there father asked after they told him what happen.

"I was sick." Beatrice said then took a bite of her food.

"Beatrice... Isabelle..... I don't think you guys understand the level of scrutiny we're under. They're doing everything they can to discredit us right now." Andrew told them.

"Wait, who is," Isabelle asked making a face.

"Erudite. They believe that they should be the governing faction, not us." Natalie they mom told them.

"So you have to be careful right now, okay?"

"Even Marcus is under attack."

"For what?" Beatrice asked

"It's an old accusation. That he mistreated his son and that's why the boy defected." Andrew told her.

"Is that true?" Isabelle asked

"No."

"Course not. Children defect for all kinds of reasons." Natalie said as Isabelle looked at down at her reflection in her spoon.

Caleb, Beatrice, and Isabelle all went to the kitchen and started washing the dish's. Their parents came in with more dish's.

"Don't take too long in here. You need a good nights sleep.... For tomorrow. I, um..... We love you." Andrew said as everyone looked at him before he went and hugged Beatrice and Isabelle while Natalie hugged Caleb.

Natalie then came and hugged them while Andrew hugged Caleb. Andrew and Natalie then left the room going to bed.

"Beatrice? Isabelle?" Caleb said

"What?" They both asked

"Tomorrow when we choose.... You have to think of the family." Caleb said

"Yeah." Beatrice nodded

"But you also have to think of yourself." Caleb told them

They finished the dishes then went to bed. The next morning they started there walk to the place. When they walked in they first walked by the black. Dauntless. They were all talking to each other and messing around. Then they passed white. Candor. Then they came upon blue. Erudite. As they came upon the stairs a blonde woman in blue stepped down the stairs.

"Morning, Jeanine." Andrew said politely

"Good morning, Andrew. How is Marcus holding up?"

"As well as can be expected."

"We need to find out who's behind these rumors." Jeanine said sarcastically.

"I think we all know who it is." Natalie said

"If it's someone from Erudite, I promise I'll find out who. These are your children. I don't think I knew they were choosing today. What's your name?" She turned towards Caleb.

"I'm... I'm Caleb. It's a pleasure to meet you." Caleb smiled shaking her hand.

"Jeanine Matthews. And you two are?" She turned towards the girls.

"This is Beatrice and Isabelle." Caleb answered for them.

"Well all three of you have a big decision to make today. I'm sure your parents will support you whatever choice you make." Jeanine said to them.

"Thats not supposed to be a choice. The rest should tell us what to do." Beatrice said

"You're still free to choose." Jeanine told her

"But you don't really want that." Isabelle said

"Isabelle." Caleb warned

"I want you to choose who you truly are and where you truly belong. Not on a whim. Not because you wish you were someone you're not. But because you honestly know yourself. I want you to choose wisely. And I know you will." Jeanine said to her.

She gave her a small polite smile before she went and took her seat with her family. After everyone was seated they finally started. Everyone started clapping as Jeanine walked on stage.

"The faction system is a living being composed of cells, all of you. And the only way it can survive and thrive is for each of you to claim your rightful place. The furtive belongs to those who know where they belong." Jeanine said walked off then Marcus walked on to say a few things.

"When we leave this room, you will no longer be dependents but full-fledged members of our society. Faction before blood." Marcus said then everybody said it back.

"Jonathan Ziegler." Marcus said and a Erudite kid walked up.

He cut up his palm then dropped water into water.

"Erudite."

"Jeffrey Yates."

A dauntless kid comes down, cuts his palm, then drips some blood into coal.

"Dauntless."

"Morgan Stokes."

A Candor kid comes up, cuts his palm, then drops blood into soil.

"Amity."

"Claire Satron."

A Candor girl drips blood into glass

"Candor."

"Sam Robertson."

An Abnegation kids goes and drops blood into grey stones.

"Abnegation."

"Caleb Prior." Marcus said then Isabelle and Beatrice both look at him.

He looks at them for a moment before he gets up. He walks down to the bowls and grabs the knife. He slices his palm before he stretches his palm out and dips blood into water.

"Erudite."

Isabelle and Beatrice looked at each other before they look at they parents who's smiles have disappeared.

"Beatrice and Isabelle Prior." Marcus says.

They both look at each other and sit there a moment before they finally get up. Natalie and Andrew both stand up and hug them before they walk down the steps.

They walk up to the bowls they grab the knife and slice both they palms. Beatrice hand stretches over the grey stones before she looks at Isabelle. They look at each other for a moment and a split second before either can drip they both jut put towards the coals. Both drops land on the coal with a sizzle.

"Dauntless."

They grab a napkin and wipe there hand as tow dauntless people stand up and welcome them and let them have their seats.

[rgthoughts]

09/12/2023

I've had such a high expectation for myself and others in my life, overall everyone around me. I learned one of my strongest WHY's is I am not an ordinary person. I know I am made for greatness and I believe that for not only myself but everyone else around me. I have compassion and understanding of people but it also hurts when things don't go the way I imagined. I guess that's the challenge I am faced with. I grew up always having a plan, the obvious plan and having a back up knowing how things could possibly go. I shoot for the main plan because it typically is the best plan and route. But I figure thats never how life is supposed to go. Life happens and situations happen the exact opposite or just anything else other than the original plan you have set in place. I always lived on stress and last minute because things never go as planned for me. I bet a lot of people would relate to that. I may sound like a typical human being, but thats where I know I am not just a simple, typical, ordinary human being. I truly believe I can make things happen exactly how I have it planned. - insert God laughing here - Exactly. I still have yet to find my purpose in this life. I just know that for who I am, I know God is on my side but yet, the problem is I am not full heartedly leaving my life in His hands, trusting God. The problem there became present recently and I realized, I don't have the relationship and connection fully with God. I always felt I was one of God's special angel's on this earth. I always felt protected but I took too much advantage of that type of feeling that I probably and possibly left the ones that matter most to me tired, exhausted, working so hard - to make me happy and I've lost gratitude or at least with showing them. I always feel like I need the credit when I'm not doing more than even half of what others do for me. I am spoiled, I am given everything I want and need. Yet, I feel dissatisfied. Where is all this coming from? I get into this dark place where I feel I'm being blamed and I act out just so someone can just console me and tell me I am the greatest thing. I don't even know how it feels to hear those type of words/feelings. I do remember when I did hear them, I'd feel bashful, I'd feel its not real, I don't just accept the kindness of what people truly feel towards me. I never believed it. I know I am loved, I am cherished, I am important. I guess it comes from believing. I don't believe it myself. This is where I get present to the lack of belief in myself and if I can truly be who God already has chosen for myself to be. I have good - GREAT things in my life. I always yearn for more. Am I working towards it though? Am I really putting the effort? I don't like the thought of settling for any less, yet -- does it reflect in what I do everyday? Is there anything I am doing physically/mentally to really go after what I say I truly want? Its the beliefs I've set in my mind that no matter what, God is there and He will take care of it. So yes, I sit back and sometimes not do anything until it comes down to making it happen based on urgency. I hate this way of living because the feelings that go through my heart, mind, body - I feel low, I feel like giving up. I know God is giving me the strength at the last stretch and most likely He's been giving me the strength and pouring on me his blessings and grace but I'm not hearing Him - He may be tired of it too how I choose to move forward, the choices I've been making thinking this is the way He was choosing for me to live. Correction - I haven't been hearing Him. I haven't accepted His grace. I haven't left my trust in Him. -- Actually, haven't really left trust in anyone, really but worse kus He is our almighty powerful God. I keep saying, I'm still discovering myself, discovering this life, discovering what I need to do when in reality, its right there in front of me. JUST DO. Why am I so hard-headed, the only one in my way is me.

I pray, God, to be a better mother. I pray, God, to be a better partner/lover. I pray, God, to be a better sister. I pray, God, to be a better daughter. I pray, God, to be a better person. I pray, God, to have complete confidence. I pray, God, to be someone to inspire others. I pray, God, to be someone that makes a difference in this life. I pray, God, to trust others around me. I pray, God, to stand out of my own way. I pray, God, to love whole heartedly, genuinely. I pray, God, to be proud of myself. I pray, God, to be free from any distractions. I pray, God, to be free from negativity. I pray, God, to be free from the stories and making meaning to things that can possibly tear me down and others around me. I pray, God, to reach success in all areas of my life. I pray, God, to be present; Feel the happiness, joy, excitement of life. I pray, God, to truly believe in you and myself. I pray, God, to clear my mind and hear you. I pray, God, to let go and just trust.

Amen. Looking to you for guidance and an open ear and heart to hear you. I will do as you say. I pray to give in to you and accept the help, guidance, the direction. Love, your angel: RG.

[lunarmoonmoth]

Suffocation at its finest

My pulse feels weak as you pull away from me with ease

I gaze at once was admiring what it has that i don't

Constantly craving the touch and validation in which will never be received

Late night texts spiking my anxiety of what could be a terrible fate

Old feelings linger back into this broken heart of mine

It feels as though you don't care

Wishing for happiness to embody me whole so i can finally feel at one with myself

Not constant hatred for what looks back at me

I'm not him but at times i very much wish i was

I feel as though your seemingly bothered by me

I just wanna feel whole again

Unlike i've ever felt before because then i can feel eternal happiness

My brains scattered and broken into millions of pieces and i search allover to find whats missing

Nothing ever fills that void

Nothing ever will

Or at least i think nothing ever will

This shattered heart aches and aches for something in return for what is taken

You don't feel like i do

Do you

Do you feel saddened in a sense when i'm not around

Or does it not affect you

Shutting out the noise in my head by drowning in a field of dead flowers

Constantly hearing the happiness around you tends to slowly tear apart your mind

Brain constantly scattered and drifted

Can't tell if i feel anything really

I feel numb to any feeling

I feel the tears as they run down my face but i am in shock of their origin

Why must they shed

I feel nothing until this sudden burst of sadness reaches its hand out to me

Pure pressured i take its hand let it lead me afar because that is all i've known

All i will know truly

Suffocating and drowning in this void at times

Feeling swallowed whole against my will

Sucked into a void of melancholy music and fucking up my life because thats nostalgic for me

Offer me some help and i'll turn it down because its my problem so i must rescue myself

Not before the others

Never before them

As they matter more than anything

I'll still be here

Maybe not as full but its more important that i'm still here

I don't bother

I don't want to be a bother

Nobody wants someone who complains or vents when shit gets tough because god is that annoying

We all have problems so get over it

Choose an outlet

Or a place all your hidden secrets lay

Where no one can judge

No one can hurt you

Act fine until they cant see the reality

Punch, hit, yell

Anything to stop the noise of it all

That suffocating and honestly annoying sound that follows you everywhere

Playlist after playlist

Only 10 ish songs cause no way i could do anything more than that

Raising my mother at times wishing she would return the favor

Getting let down again and again without fail

Trusting you

I should trust you

That would be a mistake

You'll run if you learn of what's inside the notebook i keep hidden away

Away from harm

I wish someone knowing i loved them would be enough at times

It never is though

What was i really expecting

Truly

Could i be more of an idiot to think that would ever be enough

That id ever be enough

I told them

I told them to keep you safe

And selfishly to keep you here with me

I love you too much to leave you to rot like i am

You deserve better than that

It's scary

The thought of having to bury you

I should've said something sooner

And i hate how no one else cared that you were suffering in this big black hole

But me.

I needed you

Selfishly

I know

Why'd you tell me you love me

Unexpectedly

No reasoning

Just those three words

[ratrap]

You're not overreacting. Tbh if I was in the same position I would prepare to be able to move out and then leave him. He's done it more than once despite you telling him it's not ok. And he should know without having to be told that what he's done is wrong, because it's a basic physical boundary that everyone has. You leave sleeping people alone, I know I feel that instinctively, and I don't know anyone who has or would touch a sleeping person in that way, he's chosen to ignore that instinct as well as ignore your directly stated wishes.

I'm not you though, and whatever you choose to do is valid. I only have a tiny glimpse into your life from what you've posted. I hope your therapist can help you through this 💕

thanks. I do really appreciate your kindness. I have been reading this over for a bit bc I don't really know how to respond. I do know every you're saying, really. I know he doesnt really I suppose care about me.. Hhhhh. I didn't mention it to my therapist yet, but it's just so fucking much after my mum passing in 2021 I just can't really deal with this on top of that. I think thats probably why I ended up moving in with him anyway bc I guess I just didnt care and just needed someone. I keep having like impulse thoughts to just escape it but I have no idea where else I can go right now either. I don't really want to admit like how we met cause it's embarrassing but even though hes not fully like my first boyfriend ever who was an evil person, I do know that my current boyfriend doesn't truly love me for me no matter what he says or does but I do know that. I suppose hes just using me too. I dont know I'm sorry if this makes no sense I'm really brain foggy when I take my medication. Thanks for saying I'm not overreacting about it you're kind. I'm just sad

[donkeys-waffles]

It could definitely be something he built for himself, like a family most likely. It's interesting also how lost and stolen aren't the same at all in meaning. Yes, both mean to lose something, but one is more of an accidental thing and the other is deliberate. Thats why AFO blames Kudou for stealing Yoichi because from his perspective he was, Yoichi was 'kidnapped' and was in the enemy's possession. All Might never mentions a severed hand, a hand that is most likely preserved in a jar (I really hope it was preserved or it's just a hunk of rotten flesh he carried around, one I don't think All Might would take.) It sounds like from the translation, he just dropped it, lost it but it wasn't really taken. Ya feel me. While at Kamino, he's adamant that All Might STOLE something precious from him, if he was talking about Yoichi's hand, he could have just used the same terminology in that translation, lost. Because of you I lost something important to me.

And that's not taking into consideration the sheer amount of secrecy around what was stolen from him. Why not just say what he stole, it doesn't damage his evil villain image, after all we are talking about a severed hand. A simple lack of information about the true reason for him having the hand leaves just enough blanks to have everyone guessing his nefarious intentions. The secrecy suggests that he's angry, furious even but not enough to tell him exactly WHAT he stole.

It all sounds like a diversion to me, like yeah Izuku has weird shadows in the center of his palm looking a little too similar to someone we know, but AFO only care about the severed hand that fell out of his pocket.

You see, I really don't think All Might stole Yoichi's severed hand. He's not in possession of it, I feel like if he was, we'd know, it'd be brought up as a sort of evidence to 'future plans of evildoing.'

You know what I think All Might is in possession of, something he inadvertently 'stole', Izuku Midoriya.

Izuku Midoriya, the only other person in the entire series that can handle multiple quirks naturally (despite his quirkless status,) who mirrors AFO in fights with Tenko, and sharing the man's love/analysis of battle plans and quirks. They share mannerisms, interests, and a silver-tongue.

Izuku Midoriya, who is treated with such gentleness in comparison to opponents like All Might and even Bakugou. He rips into All Might about his failure as a teacher and his mentor's death, he rips into Bakugou about being in "Izuku Midoriya's shadow" (weird but okay, not untrue.) And then he gets to Izuku, he warns him about how he's going down a 'thorny path,' (okay weird that you care so much about the kid's future, especially considering you just killed off the others without a care.) then proceeds to set off the weakest bomb known to man, easily giving Izuku and everyone else time to get away. In the first war, when he takes over Tenko's body he doesn't aim for the guts like he did with All Might, or even aim to kill like with Bakugou. No, he unleashes the weakest air blast to bat him away like a fly, actually injuring his own hand holding his power back THAT much. No Izuku got a couple of useless comments that weren't even directly said to him but about him to someone else (he REFUSES to confront Izuku directly or address him.) With the comment he made about Bakugou, you'd assume he could think of a more creative insult than 'Useless'. That was such a specific comment, the man has the resources to do real damage to Izuku. But no, he chooses this ONE time to be uncreative.

And the cherry on top is the second war. The fight between All Might and AFO, where AFO says that All Might will "pay for passing on his heroic ideals to children," then proceeds to do nothing to hurt the children, like you'd assume.

It makes me question what he's truly angry about. Is he really THIS angry about losing the hand accidentally or is he THIS angry about All Might passing his heroic ideals onto HIS child.

Idk just food for thought...

I wonder if this what All For One meant when he said “All Might took something away” from him.

[nataliaphantomhivesblog]

Newsflash: Dazai cares for Chuuya

Before reading any further, I will be talking about stormbringer, so spoilers ahead!! Translation credits go out to: @popopretty on tumblr, make sure to give this kind human some love and appreciation<3

Also if you want to read the first few chapters of stormbringer: @buraihatranslations is currently translating it, give them much love and appreciation as well, they deserve it!!

Honestly, I have been so obsessed with Soukoku lately and I think the reason behind this is because when it comes to Soukoku, their feelings for each other are not as easy to grasp as love or hate, it is much more profound than that. There is care, hurt, trust, resentment, companionship, bitterness, and consideration...And ironically enough, thats just the tip of the iceberg.

If we break down their individual feelings towards each other, it will be easier to understand their bond.

On Chuuya's end, his feelings are much more clear due to his expressive personality. He wears his emotions on his sleeves, he can try and hide what he feels towards Dazai but his true feelings tend to unravel easily.

He sometimes tries to mask his feelings towards Dazai by throwing insults, but his facial expressions are enough to contradict what he is saying.

Chuuya's feelings towards Dazai can be easier to comprehend. He obviously feels this certain betrayal due to the fact Dazai left the Port Mafia. Not to mention, he and Dazai have always had a rivalry relationship.

In the Soukoku wiki page, it is stated that Chuuya is aware of Dazai not experiencing a proper childhood, therefore allows him to act as childish as he can and lets him tease him relentlessly. I don't know how reliable this source is, but either way I think its worthy enough to add.

In the Dragon head conflict when Dazai was out of sight, Chuuya told Mori to forget about Dazai. That was until Hirotsu mentioned a microscope, Chuuya quickly realizes it was code language because he remembered a previous conversation where Dazai says he needs a microscope to be able to see Chuuya properly.

The moment he figured out it was a tracker, Chuuya did not hesitate to jump in and rescue Dazai. But here is the catch: No one but Chuuya knew about the microscope, if Chuuya really didn't care for Dazai he wouldn't have mentioned the microscope and kept all this under wraps, leaving Dazai in a mess.

Chuuya trusts Dazai with his life. He never hesitates to leave his life on Dazai's hands when it has to come to it. Chuuya and Dazai have known each other for years, for Chuuya to be able to trust Dazai that much is because Dazai also cares for him too, right?

The answer here is yes, Dazai cares for Chuuya. In a superficial level, it doesn't seem like Dazai truly cares, but I can assure you that he does care for him. Weather you like to think of his care in a platonic or romantic manner, the care Dazai has for Chuuya is undeniable and extremely significant for Dazai's character.

I think that stormbringer establishes this idea even further. There is one specific moment in this light novel that shows his genuine concern towards Chuuya's well being:

"There is one problem." Dazai cut off his sentence hesitantly. "It has nothing to do with the sucess rate of the plan. It is a matter we have to overcome in the end but... It may require some time to decide."

"What's with you?" Chuuya raised his eyebrows at Dazai. "Stop dramatizing it. Just hurry up and say it."

"I said earlier about this control spell to open the 'gate' that is used to reset the command inside Chuuya, right?" Dazai spoke with a strangely restrained voice. "If we use that, the logs of the command formula that were written in the past will be erased. That means...even if the memory erasure was used on Chuuya in the past, the traces of that will be erased as well."

"What?"

"I told you before right, the memory erasure command. The only way we can confirm if Chuuya is human or not is to check the history to see if the memory erasure command was ever used. It means..." Dazai looked at Chuuya with eyes that he had never looked at him before. Those eyes were serious. "If we use that control spell, the method to confirm if Chuuya is an artificial personality created by a string of code, or just a normal human being, will be lost. For good."

The time had stopped.

Chuuya opened his eyes and looked towards Dazai but his eyes were not seeing anything. The wind blew between the two of them. Even so, Chuuya did not blink.

"Verlaine became like that because he was tormented by the curse that he was not human. That only is enough of a big problem. The matter of being human or not." Dazai looked at his pocket watch, gave it a glance and continued. "I can delay the time until the plan starts for about two minutes. I will send an order for my men to wait... You can think about it alone for a while. Cuz I guess its hard for you to collect your thoughts with me around."

Having said so, Dazai turned away and walked down the stairs, leaving Chuuya alone.

Dazai fixated in his pocket watch. Two more minutes. Too short for a life decision. But he couldn't afford more than that.

Inside Dazai's head, he was planning a procedure to swith to an alternative plan in case Chuuya refused, at a tremendous speed.

This section in stormbringer is personally one of my favorites, this is a very rare moment between both of them, but especially for Dazai. Like I stated earlier Chuuya wears his emotions on his sleeves, therefore even if he tries to mask his care with insults, its still painfully noticable that he genuienly looks after Dazai. Chuuya also sometimes show a vulnerable side of himself to Dazai, especially after using corruption.

Dazai on the other hand is extremely unreadable. Its hard to understand his true intentions and if he really cares for people or only sees them as a pawn. In this moment though, Dazai was being painfully genuine. Dazai literally prioritized Chuuya over the mission. He was already thinking of coming up with an alternative plan just in case Chuuya refused, obviously the sucess rate of the alternative plan would be lesser than the actual plan Dazai had in mind, he choose Chuuya's wellbeing over a mission.

In this section, Dazai wasn't throwing jokes or witty remarks, he was being serious. Because Dazai knows how desperately Chuuya wants to be human. He knows how important being human is to Chuuya.

Dazai wasn't manipulating Chuuya by giving him the chance to decide, we can see that Dazai was literally showing a lot of hesitation when mentioning this to him, we also get to see what Dazai was thinking, and we can tell he wasn't thinking about manipulative his movements in any way. All of this wasn't coming out of manipulation, it was coming out of pure care.

After six steps, Dazai reached the stair. He stepped on the stair and started walking down. Three steps down the stair, he heard a *clang*, a cool sound of metal echoing behind him. It sounded like the metal was kicked by the sole of someones shoes. The moment Dazai realized what the sound was, Dazai turned around in surprise.

There was already no one at the top.

Dazai was dazed for a moment, then he loosened his lips and laughed.

"Trying to act cool, huh?" Dazai smiled, both annoyed and relieved. Then he turned on his radio and sent out his order. "Chuuya has sallied, everyone get ready for battle."

I personally love this part so much, relief washed over Dazai the moment he noticed that Chuuya was going to go through with the first plan, which proves my point that he wasn't manipulating him and how Dazai was under a lot of stress because he wasn't sure if the alternative plan would be as effective as his original one.

Yet he still was willing to go through the alternative plan if Chuuya refused, because Dazai values him and regards his wellbeing.

Dazai was being surprisingly gentle in this section, he was being honest. There was no ulterior motive behind his actions here, just a boy looking after his partner.

"So i'm going to send an order to my men to prepare for action... Is that okay?"

"Of course it's okay." Chuuya turned to Dazai. "Why are you asking me such a thing?"

Dazai didn't answer right away.

That was an unusual expression. It's like he was trying to say something, but he had to arrange the words in his head to decide where he should start. An expression he rarely shows.

This was right before Dazai drops the bomb to Chuuya about the memory erasure command. He was even asking for Chuuya's opinion on sending his men to get ready, this was the first time Dazai ever showed actual concern without masking it with witty remarks. You can tell that Chuuya isn't used to this.

And when you think about it, when Dazai and Chuuya have missions together, Dazai always uses corruption as a last resort and he always allows Chuuya to make the decision if they will be using it or not.

I personally belive that the main reason Chuuya trusts Dazai with using corruption is because The Sheep used to exploit his powers too much, but Dazai leaves the decision to use corruption up to Chuuya. Dazai understands the physical and mental toll corruption takes on Chuuya and therefore leaves the choice up to him.

Theres another section in stormbringer that I really enjoy, it doesn't necessairly show solicitude but I still think this should still be taken into consideration:

"You seem pretty confident that Chuuya is human, don't you?"

"I am," Dazai laughed with a sigh. "There is no way a man-made code could create such a personality that I detest so much."

Throughout the whole story, Dazai is more than determined that Chuuya is human. The main reason Dazai finds Chuuya so intresting is because of how frighteningly human Chuuya can be, because of the fact that he always wears his emotions on his sleeves, something Dazai rarely does himself. Thats personally a nice sentiment from Dazai's end, even when Chuuya struggles completely when it comes to believing in his own humanity, Dazai still can't help but see him as a human being.

Also I am aware that Dazai literally said he detests Chuuya here but he also sighed and laughed while stating this, showing us that he isn't being serious about hating him.

And its not only in stormbringer were he shows his concern towards Chuuya. In fact, in this following manga pannel Dazai is telling Chuuya that if he is willing to listen him, he will stage his own escape so that Chuuya doesn't get punnished.

Honestly, if Dazai didn't care enough for Chuuya, he wouldn't have mentioned this to him. Chuuya didn't care enough to realize that he literally unwillingly freed Dazai which would get the pm mad at him, so the fact that Dazai is literally helping him out is no doubt out of care for him. If Dazai didn't have any regard for Chuuya he would've not staged his escape or mentioned anything to Chuuya, eventually incriminating him.

There are many misconceptions when it comes to Dazai's feelings towards Chuuya, people think that he doesn't care for him due to the fact that he left the Port Mafia, leaving Chuuya behind. But heres the thing: Dazai's intentions had nothing to do with Chuuya. He left the organization for his own good, he left it to fullfill Oda's wish.

"If Dazai cared for Chuuya then why didn't he take Chuuya with him?" the reason is simple, he knows how much the PM means to Chuuya. In stormbringer it is shown that Chuuya feels as if his humanity is attached to the people he is loyal to, in this case its the port mafia. Verlaine wanted to get rid of the pm because he believed that the pm is what kept Chuuya's humanity, eventually making Chuuya believe that he is only human if he stays loyal to the pm. Dazai knows this. Thats exactly why he didn't take Chuuya with him or even explains to Chuuya why he left, he knows it would be selfish to basically rip Chuuya's sense of humanity apart.

I have a feeling that if Dazai told Chuuya about the real reason he left the Port Mafia, Chuuya will not only feel conflicted about being in the pm, but he would also have an inner conflict with himself as a human.

People also think Dazai may not really care for him because of the fact that after the fight against Lovecraft he actualy deserted him, maybe that part was truly just supposed to be seen as simple humor, but either way I want to talk about it. Chuuya's only request to Dazai was to take him back to base safe, so why did Dazai leave Chuuya behind?

I mean he has carried Chuuya back to saftey before with no problem, for example in stormbringer when Chuuya uses corruption for the first time Dazai carries him back to the billiards bar and not to the mafia’s base so that he could say goodbye to his passing friends.

The reson behind this is because Mori needs to know that unlike Dazai, Chuuya is absolutely loyal to him. Leaving Chuuya the way he did will make Mori believe that these two really are at each others throats and that Dazai is insignificant to Chuuya. Making it seem that for Chuuya, the mafia comes first before anything else.

Therefore Dazai established Chuuya's saftey within the mafia since not only does Mori want these two to be hostile with each other, he doesn't want Chuuya to eventually turn against him if he truly found out more about Dazai's true reason of departure. Then again, this isn't canon but it is a logical assumption.

Not to mention that although Dazai did leave him behind, he folded Chuuya's coat and hat before taking his leave. There is also an an extra chapter where Ozaki Kouyou was talking with Chuuya but when he left he forgot his coat, which made Kouyou came across the coat; where she noticed a badge sewed inside saying "Name: Hatrack", she smiled fondly thinking to herself that some things just never change, in this case, Dazai and Chuuya's bond.

Dazai literally took his time to sew this into his coat just to tease him, it was a simple gesture but it shows us how their dynamic will never change. No matter what these two go through, they will always share a bond that consists on teasing, trust and underlying care.

All of this actually makes that theory of Dazai planting a bomb under Chuuya's car for the sole reason that the PM doesn't find Chuuya as an acomplice who aided Dazai on his escape much more feasable.

For Dazai to just plant a bomb under Chuuya's car with no motive makes no sense because if Dazai's true intentions were to simply mess with Chuuya, he would've most likely made it clear at that time. Dazai always has an underlying motive behind his actions, and in this case it is very likely that he did that for Chuuya's sake.

Don't get me wrong, I am aware that the bomb incident could've just been a comedic moment and I shouldn't look too much into it, but there is still a posibility, right?

These two hold so much trust and care for one another, yet they also hold a lot of bitterness and resentment. In the end the good aspects of their dynamic outweighs the bad.

Either you see these two in a platonic or romantic way, you can't tell me that their bond isn't significant.

Thank you so much for reading!! I wanted to talk about this for a while because I feel like people misinterpret Dazai's feelings towards Chuuya a lot so I hope this clears up things a bit<3

[unoriginalmess]

A Second Mask: Chapter 4

Did that just happen?

Hello guys! It's me. I'm finally writing again. Sorry about the delay. I'm going to explain more at the end of the chapter, but I'm just going to keep the beginning short. So here is chapter 4:

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To say Adrien was concerned would be a huge understatement. He was downright disturbed. Its been weeks and still Marinette hadn't changed back to the happy, peppy, nice girl that he knew. AND SHE WOULDN'T EVEN TALK TO HIM ABOUT IT!

He tried to talk to her for a whole week after her original trasformation, but after the repeated firm rejections, he stopped altogether. He figured that maybe with some space, she might be able to work through whatever she was going through, but at this point, he's losing hope.

When he is feeling this distressed about something, he usually turns to his lady, but she has been acting weird too. Ever since she suggested they start sparring, she's started to show that she is going through kinda a rough time as well. She is the same ladybug when everyone is watching, but when it's just the two of them, she looks sad and tired. She has also started saying some concerning things while they are sparring. She has started talking about how she has started taking being Ladybug and the Guardian more seriously, and how she has less distractions now, which would be a good thing if she didn't say them so sadly.

The good thing is, the sparring has given him a chance to get out his aggression because of the whole Marinette-situation and his anger at his father in a safe environment. He didn't like the idea of hitting Ladybug at first (especially in the face) but with her not holding back on her hits, he felt more comfortable doing the same. It has helped them fight better too. He hopes that whatever Ladybug is going through in her civillian life will work itself out soon, but until then he will be there for her. He just needs to figure out how to be there for Marinette.

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Felix was making good progress with Marinette. After they first asked marinette about (insert fashion question of your choice here, I legit know nothing and I didn't have time to research anything for this chapter), she had started answering their questions on a daily basis. After a couple of days of that, she had started to rant to them about different things in the fashion world that were bothering her, exciting her, or confusing her that particular day. In response to that, they had started to respond to her rants with their own opinions on the subjects and even start their own rants.

It had gotten to the point where Felix would now consider them to be friends, though they know that Marinette would never call them as such, it was fine with them. They know she has trust issues, and they can understand why, so they are fine with being friends in everything but a name.

Felix was looking forward to their daily banter as they waited in their seat for Marinette to arrive. When she did, she was followed by a very pissed-looking Alya. Felix turned to look at her and noticed that she had what looked to be tears forming in her eyes. What they didn't notice was the little black butterfly that had entered through the window in the back of the room, and was making a beeline towards her.

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Marinette walked to school in yet another one of her newest fashion creations: a pair of oversized grey ripped jeans and a navy blue sweatshirt. She was actually really liking her new look, and the comfort that it offered was just an added plus.

She was actually feeling excited to talk to Felix about Gabriel Agreste's newest fashion flop. They were the only person that she had met that actually cared about fashion as much as her. It made her happy to talk to them. It kind of scared her how excited she was. Shouldn't she be distancing herself from everyone? she thought to herself. No. Felix isn't my friend, they aren't close to me, they are just someone I talk fashion with. Like a coworker, yeah. Totally. Felix is just a coworker. ("Liar" says the inner voice in her head)

She was shocked out of her thoughts when she was pulled to the side by someone as she entered the courtyard. Her mind immediately thought of an akuma, when the person spoke.

"Marinette! Girl," Oh it's just Alya. Wait Alya? "How long are you gonna keep up this cry for attention? Are you really THAT jealous of Lila? I know that Adrien likes her, but that doesn't give you the right to act like this! And you are hanging out with Felix, who accused her of sexually harrassing Adrien on their first day here-?" She looked absolutely furious at her, but Marinette had heard enough. She cut Alya off in the middle of her presumably long rant.

"ALYA!" Said girl jumped at both the inturruption and the tone of voice used, "First of all, this isn't a cry for attention, if anything its a cry for leaving me the fuck alone. Second of all, I'm not jealous of Lila. I'm not in love with Adrien anymore, and haven't been for a while. You knew that I was dating Luka right? Why would I care who Adrien likes? Lastly, I am allowed to hang out with whoever I choose, whether you like them or not. It's none of your fucking business Alya, and if you think that I'm just some jealous, attention-seeker why do you even care?" With that last question she stormed off to the classroom, leaving a speechless Alya behind her.

When marinette sat down in her seat, she just kept thinking about how Alya was just talking to her. How could she think that about her? They used to be best friends, and Alya wasn't even concerned about her not talking to her anymore, she was just concerned about her being "jealous of Lila". It made her so furious that she could feel tears trickling down her face. She sees the black butterfly out of the corner of her eye and without hesitation grabs it out of the air.

(Next part is taken from this post by @bigfatbreak)

"Go ahead and akumatize me- See what happens, Hawkmoth!" She screamed the words with a slight madness that the energy of the akuma was giving her, "Every leash has two ends! I just have to pull until I find where you're holding it!"

At this point, the entire class was frozen in place watching her and listening to her crazed-sounding voice threaten an actual terrorist. Marinette felt Hawkmoth's confusion and terror through the bond. What in the- She's sensing me through the Akuma?! The akuma then started to fly away, and when it couldn't it zapped her hand like it was made of lightning and fluttered through the same window it came from. Marinette felt like she had failed yet again and collapsed down on her desk, muttering, "Uuuuggghh. It escaped anyway... What a waste. I didn't realize that Hawkmoth was such a coward. He usually likes grandstand..."

She was startled when her hand was picked up by Felix's, "You likely scared him off by managing to locate him like that... A risky move, I should mention. I would ask that you not attempt that a second time. No one knows what his akuma is truly capable of. You'll want to keep off of this hand for a while, too."

"Oh, are those the doctor's orders? Why, Felix, it almost sounds like you care about meeee." Marinette was all too amused by Felix's concern for her. She also liked to tease them... AS COWORKERS DO.

"I have an investment in your presence. Now don't be cheeky and let's get you to the nurse's office," They said while holding her wrist and gently pulling her in that direction.

Marinette scoffed, "'An investment in my presence'??"

Felix chuckled while still semi-dragging her by the wrist towards the front of the room, being careful not to hurt her injury even worse, "What did I just say about being cheeky?"

On their way out of the door they passed a VERY distressed-looking Adrien. He seemed to be sharing the sentiment with the entire class of: Did that just happen?

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And thats chapter 4. It is VERY LATE! I know. I've been swamped with work, and when I went to write it, I had zero ideas on how to write this chapter. I never ended up getting those ideas. I just went where my writing took me, so if it doesn't really match the characters that's why. I will try to be better at updating regularly, but it probably won't happen. Sorry to everyone with a normal sleep schedule, but this is the time that I write things. Also I didn't have my outline with me while writing this chapter, so it might not have everything I planned to write in it.

I would like to thank you all for all of the support I've been getting on this fic. Despite all of the chapter delays, you guys have stuck with me through all of it, so thank each and every one of you. I love seeing so many people loving this au as much as I do. Without you guys this story wouldn't exist, and I would've stopped writing it after the first chapter.

As always, constructive criticism is always accepted. I love being able to improve my writing whenever possible.

Thank you for reading. Have a nice day/night/whenever you are reading this. See ya next time guys, gals, and non-binary pals.

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[sukirichi]

Like, what happens to Mia? How does Gojo end up picking us? Naoya? How about Naoya? 😭😭😭🙏🏼😔

Omggg if you’re not going to continue reckless, can you please please please tell us how it ends? 😭😭😭 I don’t think I can bear living not knowing how it ends 😭 please? 😔😢🙏🏼😭

okay well here’s how it was gonna go, pls keep in mind my storytelling in asks and in writing are diff so this might be explained crappily HAHAHAHA but basically in reckless...

gojo gets shot in the head by his abusive dad bcos he finally stood up against him, but that backfired. his father is really adamant on control, and gojo loses his memories at the same time y/n gave birth. she decided to keep the baby after deciding that she wants a family after all, but when gojo woke up with mixed and lost memories, he only remembers mia and everything after her accident was gone. gojo becomes distorted and even becomes harsh sometimes, especially when y/n said they had a baby and she was his friend, bcos gojo’s mindset was from way back to six years ago, where he had lots of issues with his family and mia’s that he was wary who to trust.

so,,, they didn’t want gojo to hurt y/n bcos he’s such in an emotional mess that he has no control of himself. eventually, y/n decides to stay away but the baby is adopted by gojo and mia, who gets married for the sake of business and gojo’s current situation. truthfully, mia doesn’t want to marry him bcos it would hurt y/n and she’s not that awful. mia and y/n become friends after realizing they’re pretty similar and actually find genuine friendship with one another. she doesn’t have a choice tho and gojo, mia, along with gojo’s mom who divorced her husband for his abuse move to the states where they raised y/n and gojo’s daughter, sayori, leaving y/n all alone in tokyo who then becomes vice president of kamo enterprises. basically, it shows the repeated history of y/n’s father choosing to hide her from her real parents, and she begins to understand why he did that bcos she also has not really met her own daughter. y/n knows mia and gojo could take care of sayori better than she could, especially with the fact that gojo’s memories are mixed and transfixed on the timeline of him dating mia, mia giving birth to sayori, then them getting married. y/n is not present at all in his memories. gojo thinks he was the one in a car accident, not mia.

sayori is about four years old when gojo decides to come back to tokyo. now that he’s disowned and his mother has also left, gojo becomes a successful model in the states. he comes home bcos he remembers geto and wants to start their own agency (gojo as a model, geto as the photographer.) mia is wary at first for fear gojo might remember everything. she’s not being selfish; the doctors warned that anything that could potentially trigger gojo’s memories that his subconscious has erased could be detrimental to him. mia tries to hold it off but gojo insists, so the gojo/yamazaki family go back and that’s where gojo meets y/n, who he first thought was geto’s new wife.

in the reckless fanart, geto’s photo is like this.

geto’s ring is silver - it’s his dead wife’s ring. the hand caressing him is gold - it’s y/n wearing the ring of gojo’s mother, who by then has already apologized before they all left.

geto and y/n become best friends on the course of four years. missing her daughter, y/n becomes attached to mei (geto’s daughter) and acts more like a mom than an aunt. geto basks in this faux family they’ve built, though he makes sure mei is not too dependent or expecting that y/n would be her mom. he falls in love with y/n and he notices how after gojo left, she becomes softer and a lot sweeter. all the anger and hatred disappeared, all thanks to y/n finding peace with her new life and making up with her mother, Valeria, who once overdosed on drugs after it was exposed to the public that Y/N is a child she abandoned. y/n saved Valeria by rushing her to the hospital, which is also the same time that Y/N saw gojo being wheeled in the emergency room with a bullet in his head.

now that gojo is back, he can’t help but notice that y/n is avoiding him. she feels familiar but he plays it off over her being a close friend and possible lover of geto. meanwhile, y/n’s dedication to pretending he doesn’t exist breaks slowly when she sees sayori, a beautiful little girl who’s growing up, call mia as her “mommy.” it hurts her that she missed her first words, first steps, or that she’s being excluded in the family that is truly hers, but everyone is happy and doing great that she chooses to be the only who isn’t for the sake of everyone else.

in ch2, gojo goes to a carnival/amusement park and takes a polaroid photo with y/n. he finds them in one of the stuff he left behind in the penthouse he used to live in; shocked bcos y/n had been adamant they never met before. that’s when he begins to confront her on who she really is what they really used to be. he feels guilty that he can’t remember, but most of all, gojo is torn inside that y/n had been all alone the whole time when he promised he would be there.

its complicated for them since gojo x mia are already married, and sayori got her mom’s stubborness so its difficult for her to believe someone she never met before is her real mom and mia is...well, mia. mia actually helps sayori accept that she is not the real mom, apologizing to the child for lying to them and it ends up with sayori running away and getting lost for a few hours. sayori is scared since tokyo is alien to her and she doesn’t speak japanese, but when y/n finds her, she comes running to her arms and that is when she begins to soften up around her real mom.

this is where the slowburn with gojo and y/n begins. for them, getting to know each other once more on a clean slate is both refreshing yet scary, especially since one has erased the past in their mind and the other is desperately trying to forget it. the thing about the mia x gojo as a married couple and parents is that gojo deep down feels he does not love mia that way. he can’t explain why there’s just something missing or confusing in his life. he loves mia out of respect and friendship, but he would never admit that he is not in love with his wife. however, he plays it over the fact that its “just the broken memories” and lies to himself that he is very much in love with her. when he meets y/n again, however, it makes sense. he does love y/n and him forgetting her was a defense mechanism of his system to erase the most painful times of his life, and that included his guilt for hurting y/n with the abuse of his parents who controlled the way he acted around her. as for mia, she also does not love gojo and she probably never did, but for the sake of his well being and for sayori’s future (which was entrusted to her by y/n) she stayed with him. now though, mia knows its time to let go.

geto...it is not easy for geto. he loves y/n so much because of her tenacity and kindness, but he also loves her enough to know she is happier with someone else. to him, he’s content knowing that she felt less lonely when he was around and that he helped make her smile. in the end, geto has closure with y/n who apologizes for not returning his feelings.

NAOYAAAAA though...ofc i gave him a good ending 💕 after he was brutally rejected by Mia, y/n cheers him up by setting Naoya up with a law professor around his age, who is Ayame. Ayame is supposed to be named Suki tbh 😋 but I thought the self insert is a little too much so I changed it to Ayame. Ayame is pretty funny and even respects that Naoya is uncomfortable on the first date, telling him that it doesn’t have to be that kind of date and she doesn’t expect anything from him. Ayame’s bubbly yet blunt nature is a breath of fresh air from Mia’s secretive and perfectionist nature and the two become good friends. Naoya and Ayame end up hanging out a lot bcos “thats what friends do” but it doesn’t take long before they go out together. And ofc, Naoya is a little ashamed that Ayame was the first to confess and she beat him to it, but they get married and are happy nonetheless 💕 Mia ends up as a successful doctor who helps her family with the business, divorces Gojo, but she still has no plans to marry and is perfectly happy and content to focus on her career.

Eventually, Gojo and Y/N get married once everything is sorted out. Gojo becomes a well known model in Tokyo as well, and Gojo Group is absorbed by Y/N herself after proving Gojo’s father guilty of attempted murder. Gojo doesn’t want anything more to do with the corporate world though, but Y/N stays and kicks ass as a vice president to all the merged companies.

Y/N and Valeria also makes up after Valeria is indebted to Y/N who saved her life, and Valeria’s parents become more supportive and start to see Valeria more as a person than a child to inherit the business. Albeit being in her 40s, Valeria enjoys the youth she lost only now, but also enjoys being the grandmother to Sayori. Its a little awkward between Valeria and Y/N after everything that happened, but they’re trying and are even dubbed as the iconic motherly duo who is unbeatable in their games.

Gojo’s father is thrown into prison, and his main victim, his own wife, also shows recovery from the years of abuse. Although her obsessive control with Gojo and his sister (the eldest Gojo child) was not right, his mom was left with no choice but to keep them on close watch and control their lives because she was trying to keep them safe from their father’s wrath. In the end, Gojo’s mom makes up by being a better mother, and Gojo and his sister forgives her while also apologizing that both of them left home when they knew their mom always shouldered the abuse to protect her kids.

Overall, its a happy ending for most of the characters! the last chapter is Sayori’s wedding to Naoya and Ayame’s son, Naori, who is a few years younger than his bride. Gojo is grumbling to Y/N about how his little girl is all grown up now, and that their son, Shinichiro, who is 18 in that timeline is also maturing and would be leaving the nest soon. Y/N thinks its adorable and asks Gojo to just enjoy the union because its only one of the many great memories they would still have to make.

That’s how it would end! Gojo Best Dad and Gojo DILF. Everyone is happy!

Basically the theme of Reckless is that sometimes the most unexpected things we do out of character can end up as one of the greatest things to ever happen, which in their case was the suprise baby. They went through a lot and it has a lot of psychological themes, along with heavy family drama, but overall I wanted the series to be a heartwarming one by the end. I really would’ve loved to see it all happen but I am also happy to share it to you guys in this way.

So yeah, happy reading and thanks so much for supporting Reckless !! I was also thinking of doing maybe like a bonus chapter where the characters pretend it was all a movie and they’re actors that you can talk to, but that didn’t happen so :// anyways I hope you enjoyed this and thank you for reading up until here 💕

[zuffer-weird-girl]

Okay since dabi is the centre of attention, how would he open up to his s/o about all the trauma in his life? How would they comfort him?

You know when this man will speak about the whole package of being a Todorki and Endeavour's abuse?

Never if it depends on him. Probably when he shows to everyone but talk about it with you before? Nah.

But it does happen.

This man has trust issues fight me

It happens when Dabi begrudily admits to himself that he does care. That he does have feelings for you. That he is not that crazy... but wont admit it neither shows it much.

But when he is drunk? Sorry Touya...

Spills the tea if ONE, ONLY ONE subject rwlated to the todorokis come about.

Thats why he doesn't want to get hella drunk along with the league.

He has some toletance but everyone has their limits.

So does Dabi.

It happens when both of you are alone and he lower his walls just a bit down to just have a nice evening with his S/o.

Jokes over there. Drinking vompetions here.

Make out sessions..

... sex...

You both decided to just chill for a bit later and just watch some Tv. You snuggling up to his chest as him with spread legs.

Wrong decision.

It aappeared a fuckin documentary about the now number one hero Endeavour.

A documentary.

You just snorted in sarcasm at it, knowing your boyfriend's dislike towards the hero... until you felt his body starting to heat it up.

".. Dabs?" You called for him and widened your eyes at the pysocothic look he had towards the T.v... Scarred hand trembling as he holded the remote as one part showed about Enji's first kid... the one you knew that was knowm as dead.

You got off of gim due to ocerheat as you tried and tried to xall out for him... but suddenly when Endeavour showed up lamenting about the loss of his son was what scared you the most.

He threw the control on fire and with animalisc shout he threw the remote towards the Tv, crashing iyt and setting almost the whole apartment on fire.

He snapped back to his sentences when he heard your screams and the sound of the fire extinguisher you used, thankfully saving both of your asses and apartment.

 You panted as he stood there with wide turquoise eyes at the destruction he made.

"What the fuck was that for?!" You didn't meant to your words to come out as harsh as they were but you were so scared that you couldn't help it.

He only stood there... mouth opening and closing like a fish before he gritted his teeth, his knees gaving out as he gripped his hair.

Oh god...

You threw the fire extinguisher aside and come close to him as you saw him hyperventilating.

"Dabi..?" You called as softly as you could, kneeling down along with him as you winced at the look he had on his eyes...

You decided to risk it and touch his shoulder only to gasp when he grabbed your wrist and glared at your way... not towarda you, he was in somewhere else and you knew him well enough.

"Dabi-!" You winced at feeling his palm heating up on your wrist as you cringed your teeth together before you opened your eyes at seing he retreated his hand.

He was staring at his own hand like it was the most horrific thing in the word beforw burring his head on his hands.

"..fuck.." he whimpered and you widened your eyes at sieng your usual cocky boyfriend just... crashing down...

His shoulders trembled as guttural sobs dipped from his throat... but no tears could even came because of his burned tear ducts.

You hugged him by his shoulders as he slowy took off his hands from his face to grip at the back of your shirt as he burries his head on the crook of your neck.

"Im sorry... fuck Im so sorry doll..." he whispered shakily as you cradled his head and brushed your fingers on his indigo hair.

You waited for a bit before offering to get up and be on the couch as he decided to lay on your lap, his nose almost brushing your stomach as you carresed his shoulders.

His face was remained stoic but with furrowed eyebrows...

You will have to ask him about it or epse he will remain silent for the rest of the night, the max he will only saw he will get something back to compedate the broken tv.

When he does speaks its actually heartwrecking.

He doesn't cry neither his voice cracks... just a hollow and sad tone of voice as he tells all about his life before he choose to run away and fake his own death for more than ten years.

Tells about how the abuse started and how he cried on his younger brother's arms, questioning his own existance even...

... and even spills about his plan of killing his own younger brother only to cause some pain on endeavour, but soon achanging his plan after Endeavour took the first number one hero spot.

He expects you to be scared or to look down at him in pity so he doesn't even budge from his spot.

So when he feels gentle carress on his hair and you going down to kiss his temple as he widened his eyes, not looking up still.

"What a asshole Enji is right hun?" You cooed and manage to have a small chuckle from him as his grip on you tighten just a bit.

"You bet he is..." he murmured as you massaged his shoulders.

"... You know I wont leave you right? Touya or Dabi you're still the man I fell in love with..."

"... you're crazy... I lost my mind and you still have the courage of being here..? You know how much people I killed? Know the things i done..?" He muttered as you giggled.

"Forgot i am considered a villain too?" He still wouldn't look at you "And lets face it... when you love someone you love them and thats it. You dont see or neither mind the flaws.."

He burried his face on your stomach as his grip became a bit pai full, yet you didn't speak as you comforted him the best you could.

"You want me to call you Dabi or Touya?" You whispered as his shoulders shook.

"I dont know... I dont know nothing anymore..... hearing it just give me chills I guess... But you.. hearing from you is... actually nice to hear.. softening even."

So you called him only by the safety of four walls with only both of you... until it came the day where he showed to everyone who he truly was.

Todoroki Touya...

[wrenkenstein]

I feel so bad reblogging this again, because I am not against the people who ship this at all, and I think it’s great if you enjoy it. My thoughts from the last reblog remain relevant. But this last reblog is a PERFECT encapsulation of why watching Phee interact with Tech on screen is so uncomfortable, and I just had to reblog a second time just to put it on my page, like a marker that I’ve been heard. I feel like a broken record when people ask me why I don’t engage with this ship, and I tell them it’s due to my personal experiences as someone on the spectrum. It hurts so deeply in such a visceral way to see the very things that plague your real life and haunt you be treated as “romantic” on a screen, and then to see NT people parade this ship around as something to herald (the new ‘han and leia’) while it continues to hurt us in such a raw manner that only ASD people will understand.

Her first interactions with him are solely negative. She shuts him down on the three occasions she appears on screen with him before Pabu, and he just seems to retreat. She does not care for his infodumping, she does not care for his personality. She implores him to change his thought process and tells him he’s overthinking things, which is something we have no control over. That is a situation I have been in, especially in the romantic sense, and the way she speaks to and treats him hurts. It hurts so much to see a character I see so much of myself in be treated like that! And I have been treated like that, many, many times! I was so happy to meet Tech, and to see how 1:1 we truly were, and then to see him be spoken to like that? It hurts and frustrates me in a way I can’t even describe in this post, because we are constantly fighting to be seen as respected equals in the world, but we are never allowed to be our true selves. Thats what it reminds me of. The constant changing, masking and morphing to be what someone else wants us to be. 

I love Phee as a character. I think she is stellar in design and personality, but I would never let someone talk to or treat me the way she speaks to Tech. 

I will forever love and cherish my good friends who enjoy this ship, however I can’t, in good faith, engage with the content around it. I am not at all opposed to Tech (or any of the boys!) getting a love interest - hell, I write about it myself. And I am aware some people write this ship in a way that fixes many of these issues, but I just can’t bring myself to engage with it. Every single time, I’m just reminded of the people who have treated me that way, and the Phee’s of my life who will continue to treat me this way. That, no matter what, we’ll always just be seen as tokens for people to change and win over - romantically or otherwise. 

I don’t think this reblog really captures my true words or thoughts well, because I feel things at 100% in ways I can’t really describe, but eh. I do like the fact nothing ever happened between them, and that he looked rightfully uncomfortable during most of their shared scenes. It leaves it more open to interpretation - the people who want to ship it can, and we can choose to ignore it.

 TDLR; It hurts. A lot. Please be respectful when writing autistic characters, and take note of how other characters treat them. 

WHY I DON'T LIKE TECH x PHEE: An unintentional essay

Alright, yall, I've figured it out on my end. I think. I just need to get some of this out so that I can move past it. I'm not even gonna tag it under tech x phee, cause you know what, I don't want to harsh the mellow over in that space, I'm just voicing what I've discovered.

This is long.

Wanda Sykes: I LOOOOOVE Wanda Sykes, love her - love her so much that I can't see anyone else with her voice. A 60 year old lesbian comedian... and you want to make her a 20 something pirate captain flirting with a male cl- no. No. Capital N. O. Like, I thought she and Rhea Perlman were going to be a fun comedic, older duo playing off of each other. Or that they'd have some sort of sassy relationship. But instead she's a coy, fun adventurer who starts to join in TBB family? Nope. No. Didn't sell it for me. Gimme someone else, might have worked. Try Anika Noni Rose, or if you need that star factor, Halle Barry or Beyonce or, for fucks sake LIZZO (can you imagine her beautiful voice as Phee? OOOO I just shivered. Loved her as the Duchess, but her as Phee! Instantly WAAAAY more excited about that character.) Not Wanda Fucking Sykes (like I said, LOVE her. But no. Choices.)

The Build Up: You guys. We are all literally writers. Where were the beats? Where were the moments? You naturally want there to be a moment the audience goes 'ooooooh yeah ok I see it'. IT HAPPENED WITH HUNTER. The next day I remember quite a few of us going 'OMG YES!!! Yes, totally ship that, saw the chemistry with Phee and Hunter! Into iiiiit.' I resisted that one too, cause of the Wanda Sykes thing, but you know what? IT. WORKED. I went with it cause it worked. Was actually kind of excited. Was looking forward to the fics. Did not happen once with Tech, never saw anyone go 'oh look at that chemistry between pirate and genius'. NOPE BTW SUDDENLY THEY'RE ALL TEASING TECH AND TECH AND PHEE ARE IN A SCENE AND THIS IS ALL ABOUT THESE TWO TAH DAAAAH! No. Nope. Not how it works. Feels like my favorite is getting the shitty end of the romance arc stick. Fuck off, no. We have all written better.

Toxic Matchup: The way Phee (see dude, I almost wrote Wanda. Thats how much I can't not see her in this character) treats Tech. One of my mutuals on here, @shadestepping, put it perfectly - "It’s because instead of understanding who tech is as a person and being respectful of how his mind works, she tries to force him to mask because it’s what she wants/it makes communicating with him easier". The example that keeps popping into my head is when Phee sarcastically says "when two people are talking its called a conversation". My eyebrows shot UP, like, this is one of the FIRST THINGS YOU LEARN about Tech- his face is in his datapad. Treating him like an idiot (which is what it sounds like in Wanda voice) because he is doing what he is always doing is not ok (seriously, WTF, dude?). Another mutual, @dumfanting agreed and shared how that hit them: "As someone whose been forced to mask for her entire life, that is wrong and damaging and perpetuates the idea that we as austitics are only worthy of love if we continue to suppress ourselves." And it really doesn't have to be that way. I can rewrite every scene they are in together, still have her be sassy, have her show interest and respect for who he is, and still move him out of his comfort zone. I will do it, if I need to, just to prove it. If the writers are trying to give her some growth too, cool, then TAKE THE TIME TO DO THAT - instead we only hear how HE's being taken out of his comfort zone. How about HER? You want to be with him? Maybe you have to meet him half way, honey

Ultimately, I could have gotten behind this if it was done another way - but the way they went about it missed so many marks. And for my man, that's unacceptable to me. He deserves the best, not something thrown together.

I have spoken.

(Ok, I think that is out of my system.)

[hongism]

UM CALY!!!?!!?

MOC46AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHSUSUAJSJSJSJWNNSNSJAKWKWKAKKSNSNXNJXIAIWIWISJSJKAKAMZNSJWIQKMANXJSUWIWJJDEaaUNAHUABAHVAUJAINIKOSMNWJWJNSUBSBGSBUSNUEMI

SORRY BUT YOU KINDA HAD THAT ONE COMING 😭😭😭 ABSOLUTELY DISCOMBOBULATED AFTER READING THIS CHAPTER I JUST HAD TO *SMASHES HEAD INTO KEYBOARD*

as a hongjoong x mc enjoyer from the start, i hope you know i’ll never fully recover from this AHAHA but before coming to the part that we as a society should and will never move on from, i have to say you really never ever fail to step up your game my beloved 🥹

“I’ve gathered as much, yes. That I’m apparently able to put my hand through someone’s chest and rip their heart out if I so desire.”

“And I’m the Siren Iboun who can kill Sirens in the Dreamscape.” Wooyoung barks out a laugh as though he’s told the funniest joke imaginable.”

this scene made me cry-laughed bc my heart aches for both of them so much. i cant fathom feeling so alone and hopeless for the longest time, then meeting the one person that gets you just for them to forget about you completely. and as mc or wooyoung mentioned in the previous chapter, imagine how much pain you have to go through to choose erasing your memory completely. im so glad they got reunited and mc is starting to remember things and they’re so cute i just 🥹🥹🥹

“I still kinda want to punch you in the neck though. Several times. With a steel pipe.”

“Don’t threaten me with a good time, little lady!”

“And yet somehow I don’t want you dead.”

i dont wanna say that they’re cute but like THIS MOMENT RIGHT HERE when they seem to just temporarily go back to the good old times… obviously jisung deserves whatever is coming for him and nothing can justify his actions but he reminds me of taylor swift’s ‘don’t blame me’ - specifically the part that goes “don’t blame me, love made me crazy”, and its sort of sad…. (but fr if moc is ever made into a film you can sure as hell expect me to make those tiktok edits LMAO the things i do for moc…)

Except when he lifts the gun, you find its aim pointed at your head rather than Jisung’s.

you know i’ll probably spend every living moment until the next chapter comes out just wondering what will happen next right?….. please omg he can’t do this it’s probably hyunwoo’s ass again i hope he trips and drowns in his own bs akskskwk

You watch with a careful gaze as he cups his free hand over the end of the thin tube and presses the lighter close. A small huff of opaque smoke clouds up around his face after the first puff.

wtf the noise i made when i read this LMAOOO just when i thought i’ve seen everything, he had to do this??? how can one POSSIBLY become any hotter????? i’ll just casually daydream about this moment forever.

“That you’re mine.”

👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹 THATS IT IM LEAVING

“I don’t see why that’s necessary at all,” you start to protest, but the words fall on deaf ears as that coat you were analyzing seconds earlier starts getting pulled from the captain’s form without further ado. You look away in a panic, jerking your head so far to the side that it makes your neck hurt some. “Truly, this is far from necessary, Captain.”

UGH i could quote so many other parts (or might as well just quote everything tbh) but this start to the whole sexual tension scratches my brain in the best way, truly. anything i imagined happening between these two, you just made it 1000 times better. this might as well trump every other smut scene i’ve ever read AND THERES NO ACTUAL SMUT?? 😭 just know i’ll never recover miss caly, never…. unlesssss you get them to actually do the devils tango AKSKSKSKSK ily i can’t wait for ur work <3 — 🌊

DIFJAIWEOJFAIOWEFA IM SCREAMIGORJGOEI BESTIE!!! UR KEYSMASH IS SO LONG IT BROKE THE ASKBOX IM LAUGHIGN

as a hongjoong x mc enjoyer from the start, i hope you know i’ll never fully recover from this AHAHA but before coming to the part that we as a society should and will never move on from, i have to say you really never ever fail to step up your game my beloved 🥹

THANK YOUUUUU 😭😭😭😭 i try my best to always improve to the point where im like omg isnt this too much? i feel like in a lot of ways i cant OUTDO MYSELF ANYMORE THAN THIS IT WOULD JUST BE TOO MUCH!

this scene made me cry-laughed bc my heart aches for both of them so much. i cant fathom feeling so alone and hopeless for the longest time, then meeting the one person that gets you just for them to forget about you completely. and as mc or wooyoung mentioned in the previous chapter, imagine how much pain you have to go through to choose erasing your memory completely. im so glad they got reunited and mc is starting to remember things and they’re so cute i just 🥹🥹🥹

i really adore them so very much and i think they have something so innately special together, and something that has been touched on briefly is the fact that seonghwa has been present for both of them but it still isn’t the same as what wooyoung and mc have 🥲🥲

i dont wanna say that they’re cute but like THIS MOMENT RIGHT HERE when they seem to just temporarily go back to the good old times… obviously jisung deserves whatever is coming for him and nothing can justify his actions but he reminds me of taylor swift’s ‘don’t blame me’ - specifically the part that goes “don’t blame me, love made me crazy”, and its sort of sad…. (but fr if moc is ever made into a film you can sure as hell expect me to make those tiktok edits LMAO the things i do for moc…)

PLSSSSS im glad it read well bc i was worried it would read too much as a redemption when i was trying to be like !!! this isn’t redemption !!! and it is absolutely bittersweet in so many ways and it’s so deeply... difficult to traverse but that’s what makes it so !!! fun to read and enjoyable to debate!!!

you know i’ll probably spend every living moment until the next chapter comes out just wondering what will happen next right?….. please omg he can’t do this it’s probably hyunwoo’s ass again i hope he trips and drowns in his own bs akskskwk

FKJEHKLFHWLUIEHFW PLEASE 😭

wtf the noise i made when i read this LMAOOO just when i thought i’ve seen everything, he had to do this??? how can one POSSIBLY become any hotter????? i’ll just casually daydream about this moment forever.

EIOJFOWIJFWOIEFW look how do you think i felt... WRITING IT... i was falling apart fr i won’t lie...

👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹 THATS IT IM LEAVING

THIS HAS ME IN LITERALLYIJRIOJAIOJERFIOAWJEF TEARS BESTIE I CANTUIHSDFHWIUEF PELASE THE OFWOIFJWEIOFJO BREATHE BESTIE BREATHE!

UGH i could quote so many other parts (or might as well just quote everything tbh) but this start to the whole sexual tension scratches my brain in the best way, truly. anything i imagined happening between these two, you just made it 1000 times better. this might as well trump every other smut scene i’ve ever read AND THERES NO ACTUAL SMUT?? 😭 just know i’ll never recover miss caly, never…. unlesssss you get them to actually do the devils tango AKSKSKSKSK ily i can’t wait for ur work <3 — 🌊

brain scratching i do love to see it !! just hearing that its BETTER THAN SMUT WITH NO ACTUAL SMUT SLDKFJSLKDFJ THAT’S SUCH A COMPLIMENT AND ALSO SO INSANE TO ME THANK YOU???? we’ll have to wait and see what happens and how it all plays out though 😼

[s-serendipit-y]

infj s/o - hajime, izuru, nagito

@officialshushu asked: Hello! Could I request a Nagito/Hajime/Izuru who has an S/O with INFJ as their database? That would be great. Good luck! 💖

a/n: i got a bit carried away, so i’ll put it under the cut

slight dr2 spoilers

——— hajime hinata

hajime is a reserve course student

so people would generally ridicule him for being talentless

he was standing outside of hopes peak like he always do, some of the students began to say things about him

usually he would just ignore them until they really got on his nerves

but then someone stepped in front of him

they were also wearing a hopes peak uniform

“c’mon leave him alone, he did nothing to you,”

why would an ultimate stand up for him?

he’s talentless, far worse than them by comparison

“i’m sorry about my classmates,” they bow, “i’m s/o”

“oh umm- i’m hajime hinata. if you don’t mind me asking, why did you stick up for me?”

“i feel inclined to stick up for people facing unfairness,”

after this encounter, you and hajime began to hang out

well, more like you two would sit next to each other on the schools bench and make small talk

hajime first noticed how reluctant you were to open up

he wants to know more about you and your ultimate talent but you would always find a way to turn the conversation to him

yet hajime felt happy that someone with an ultimate actually wanted to hang out with him

after a while, you two grew closer and you started to tell him small things about yourself

and that’s when hajime noticed his feelings for you

there was no way that you would want to date someone like him

there was nothing he was good at

yet for some reason he convinced himself to confess to you

“s/o, i-um-i understand if you don’t feel the same way, b-but i need to tell you that i-er-i have feelings for y-you.”

“hajime, i’m glad you feel that way. i feel the same.

now you two started to date, and the first thing hajime noticed is how you would do your best to help him improve

whenever he complained about his lack of talent you would tell him talent isn’t the only thing in the world thats great

making memories with people he loves is more important

and not only that, he was free to do whatever he wanted, not just being tied to a talent

sorry chiaki for taking your lines 💀

you loved that hajime wasn’t trying to change you

many people that you knew would try to make you do things that you don’t believe

hajime appreciated you for how you were which made you gravitate towards him even more

overall you and hajime compliment each other very well. you both want to help the other improve, but you two also appreciate them for who they are

——— izuru kamukura

your reluctancy to open up didn’t matter for izuru

he could easily figure out everything about you just by looking at you

what made izuru pay attention to you in the first place was you avoided the ordinary

you did everything for the greater good, and for you own success

when you two did end up in a relationship there was nothing you could really do to help him improve

and every time you tried he would always remind you that his was great at basically everything

now you could try to help izuru improve his relationships with his classmates since he either chooses not to talk to them

or when they do try and speak he would immediately cut them off since he knew what they were gonna say

but if you really want him to he could try to be “nicer” to them

but it’s boring to him

now if you’re doing something you love, you probably shouldn’t ask for izuru’s opinion

he thinks it’s boring to lie and doesn’t understand how his brutal honesty could hurt your feelings

you tend to be sensitive to criticism, especially if it’s something you truly love

“well how do you want me to respond?” he would say in his monotonous voice

during times when you exhaust yourself and don’t take care of yourself izuru is the person you’d want to go to

he is the ultimate massage therapist after all

or if you don’t want a massage he would just stay with you

he’s not the best with affection but he does love you so he’ll do his best to comfort you

sometimes he would try to say things that are comforting but it could come off the wrong way

in all, izuru is known as the ultimate hope and you want the best for the world, you both fit each other pretty well

junko punching the air rn

——— nagito komaeda

oh wow...

ohwowhowowohwowohwow

people like you actually exist?!

nagito is obsessed with hope

we all know this

and you, who did things for the greater good, was unselfish, and didn’t want to succeed at anyone’s expense

was in the same homeroom as him?

it had to be his luck

you were so full of hope that nagito couldn’t help but follow you around

not only that, you had a ultimate talent to compliment your hopeful personality

nagito was already in love with you

but it’s not like he could confess,

he was completely out of your league and not only that-

he didn’t deserve you

so to combat his growing feelings he just avoided you

but that seemed to do more harm than good

as said in all of these you had a hard time opening up to people

and of course nagito were on of those people you felt close enough to tell home about yourself

you even started to have feelings for him

so it seemed that you were going to have to confess to him

and nagito was very surprised when you did

“oh wow s/o, it must be my good luck. i feel the same way”

when you two started to date the first thing you do is help him improve

mostly it’s how he self depreciates himself

but he really loves watching you improve yourself

now what he dislikes is that you’re a perfectionist

and often get disappointed when things you do don’t come up to par with your expectations

nagito just tells you that everything you do is perfect

on another note, your dislike for people trying to change how you believe is something you never have to worry about that with nagito

he basically worships the ground you walk on, you’re the most hopeful person he’s ever met

overall, you’re the most amazing person that he’s ever met and he’s forever thankful that you chose to be with him

[glassartpeasants]

I Can Give You Everything...

Overhaul x F!Reader x Chronostasis

Warnings: Angst, cheating, kissing, sad boi hours for reader and chrono

A/N: Man i tried to make one where chisaki cried but I can’t man. I’ve done it a few times but this shit just hits different ya know? I also really hated this so enjoy. I’ll start that Lovely fic once this is posted

(BF/N) = best friends name

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That gorgeous bastard. No matter how many times he hurts you, you still can’t get enough of him and his golden eyes. He always made you feel safe but safety is just an accessory when you're too busy hanging out with your girlfriends best friend. Laughing at her jokes and her stories.

“Why doesn’t he laugh at me like that?” You question when you sit at the table with your best friend who happened to date chrono while you were dating Chisaki. 

You pretty much said nothing as you watched your boyfriend and best friend look at each other in a less than modest manner. You put your face in the palm of your hand as you looked at chrono. Who also seemed a little peeved. Hey at least you two had something in common. You try to figure out something that would take your mind off the scene in front of you. 

It was no doubt they were flirting. It was so obvious. Right in front of you and Chrono too. You felt some tears threatening to spill from your eyes. You just couldn’t handle it. It hurt seeing the man you love making advantages towards your best friend.

You stand up and walk out of the office without a word. Slamming the door behind you. Your footsteps ring throughout the compound. Your vision blurring every second you get closer to your room. Your tears streaming down your face, hiccups erupting from your throat.

Once entering your room you shut the door before sitting on the edge of your bed, grabbing a pillow letting your tears drench it. Squeezing with all your might thinking it was someone who would at least sympathise with you. A faint knocking on the door interrupted your crying session.

“Who is it?” You say, not being able to hide the sadness in your trembling voice.

“Hari.”

“Come in.” You watch as the door opens as Hari stepped in, closing the door behind him before sitting on the bed. You looked at him and he looked at you. Before you could say anything you clung to him and started to ball your eyes out. You didn’t know why. Sure you’ve had a few conversations with Hari but you wouldn’t consider you guys friends but, it felt nice. Being able to hug someone. Kai never hugged you and your best friend had recently stopped hugging you as well.

“I know, it sucks. I'm in the same boat.” He hugged you back as you sobbed into his neck.

“Am I just not good enough? What did I do wrong?” Your tears kept coming. As you shake in Hari’s arms. You were so busy crying that you almost didn’t notice the few drops of water that fell on your shoulder. Almost.

You knew what it was before you even looked. You rubbed his back trying to calm him down. You both were crying and trying to comfort the other. Weird yes. But it just felt nice to be held as if someone cared about you. Hari started to slip away to your discomfort but you let him go anyways. You both look at one another, your faces red as it looked like you’ve been crying for hours.

“Uh thanks I guess I kinda needed that-” You both turned silent after you heard the familiar voices of Kai and (BF/n). You both placed your ears to the door trying to pick up and conversations at all. Your body filled with anger once you heard how much shit they were talking.

“Shush, we don’t know if they’re near. We can’t have them finding out.” Kai said in a low voice, obviously trying not to get caught. Well that didn’t matter now did it. Before you could think of a plan, Hari burst open the door. Looking furious. Can you blame him though?

“Are you fucking serious Kai?! Your fucking my girlfriend?!” Hari screamed at Kai. It was the first time you’ve ever seen Hari raise his voice at Kai.

“WHy were you there with my girlfriend?!”

“I don’t know, maybe comforting her when she was balling her eyes out!” Hari growled as he grabbed you and pulled you towards him.

“Hari sweetie I promise it’s not what it looks like!” (BF/n) tried to reason with him. Letting go of Kai to go over to Hari before Hari shoved her back towards him. You didn’t say anything, hell you didn’t know what to say.

“How long?” Har said as he looked them both dead in the eyes. Neither of them spoke.

“I said how long damnit!”

“5 months!” (BF/N) whimpered. She looked at Hari with tears in her eyes.

“(Y/N) come on, let's leave these two to their devices.” Kai said as he turned around waiting for you to follow him. He started walking waiting to hear your footsteps behind him. But there wasn’t. He turned to look at you and saw that you stood still by Hari. 

“(y/n) come.”

“She’s not your fucking dog Kai.” They looked at each other with slowly burning hatred. You figured you had to do something before Kai hurted Chrono. 

You grabbed Hari’s hand and began to walk out of the compound. You looked down at the ground while still hearing Hari’s screams at Kai. You tugged him closer as you walked out the door. Your cheeks stung as the cold air from the winter was approaching, making them red as they were nipped by the frost. Your ears cold as the wind blew at them. You wish you didn’t hear it. You wish you hadn’t heard the hurt and betrayal that was laced in Hari’s voice.

~~~

You sat on the hotel bed while listening to Hari rant. I mean could you blame him? His childhood friend betrayed him by sleeping with his girlfriend, and your lover slept with yours. It was a lose lose situation. Now you have no one to talk to other then the man standing in front of you. 

You let out a sigh before hearing a thu hitting the ground. You look down and saw Hari on his knees crying. Without thinking you dash towards him and hug tightly which he quickly returned. You couldn’t help but let your own tears slide down your face. 

“What does he have that I don’t?” He cried into your shoulder. It hurt to watch truly. A man once proud and tall without no fear break down in front of you. Hari was just as good as Kai when it came to hiding emotions. So to see him collapse to the floor was a surprise. But you hugged him nonetheless. 

“Hari, don’t change who you are for someone that’s not going to be loyal. Once a cheater, always a cheater.” You say softly to him as you rubbed circles on his back. It was the least you could do after he comforted you last time. He hugged you tighter the before.

“Do you think that if I asked her to marry me she would have continued?” You furrow your brows and you looked at him.

“You were gonna ask her to marry you?”

“Was. But do you think she would have?” He looked at you, eyes red from all the crying. Confused would be an understatement.

“If she didn’t and you still found out she cheated on you before you got married, what would you have done?”

“Dumped her i suppose...”

“And if she did I’m guessing you would have dumped her as well?”

“Yeah.”

“So either way it was a lose lose. We both lost in their game they had us in. Going in circles trying to please our lovers when they never wanted anything to do with us. We would have found out sooner or later so It was best that we found out now.” You say as you brush one of his arrows away from his face.

“Did she leave me because my quirk-”

“No. Even if she was doing it because of that then she’s an idiot. Hari, you may see your quirk as a bad one but I see it in a different way. You arrows only need to hit a person once and their done for. They can’t fight if they can’t move. Plus you have options to choose from, one hour or one minute. Both of them still makes you win in the end.”

“It only works when I’m not moving though...”

“So? That’s why your known for your stealth. You may think your quirk sucks but if you use it just right then it can be more dangerous then you ever thought it could be. Its a shame that you don’t see that because that’s what i see.” You smile down at him as he looks at you with wide eyes. He never thought about the words you said. He was to busy thinking about how he wished he had a better quirk. How could you be so kind to him even though your quirkless. You looked at his quirk like it was just as destructive as Kai’s. 

What was Kai thinking? How could he throw away a whole relationship with someone who knew how to say the right things? You were so kind to him even though you went through the exact same thing he was going through right now. You were so calm. So composed. 

“How can you be so calm about this?”

“Guess I’m just use to it. Kai isn’t the most romantic. We were slowly drifting apart for awhile anyways haha. I could kinda sense he was losing feelings and-”

“Falling for (BF/N)?”

“Yeah...yeah he was. But that’s okay. It all happens for a reason. You and I will find the right one someday, it may not be today but thats okay.” Your sweet words felt like honey to his ears. Your voice was so calming, so much kindness in one person and Kai threw it away. 

“Thank you (y/n), it really means a lot.” 

“Hey we gotta stick together now, we both got fucked over by our best friends haha.” You laugh trying to lighten the mood. You looked at the man whos head rested on your shoulder smiling gently. You soon felt a hand grab your cheek.

 Hari cupped your cheek as he looked at you. He should be sad, he should be mourning. But he can’t help but want you. Wanting you to be by his side. With that said Hari leaned up and gently placed his lips on yours.

You were surprised but didn’t pull away. You didn’t want to. Your eyes flutter shut as you relax into the kiss. Its funny since you can’t even remember the last time Kai kissed you. Or if he even kissed you at all. 

The kiss ended to soon for both of your liking but you guys just wanted to test the boundaries. Which were soon crossed when you both left for another kiss. A kiss that felt like something way stronger then lust could ever be. This felt real,

this felt like it was meant to be.