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nooksickle · 7 months ago

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#house of leaves #literature #bookblr #books #horror #the abyss has looked into me #i kissed the abyss #and I didn't like it #hope I dont lose my mind now #what the fuck was that

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ruporas · 8 months ago

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dragon meat, you, and me

#marcille donato #falin touden #farcille #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #tw blood #tw body horror #tw gore #as a normal farcille fan this revival has been on my mind since i first read it and getting to watch it is like yippee!!#like messy revivals are everything - the consequences that will haunt u for the rest of the time they are alive #the initial hopeful moments where it all seemed well but quickly descend to That not being the case - losing not only the bit of evidence #evidence that your dream may work out but also someone you deeply care about in the process… marcille my Beloved #ofc wholly thruout the journey - at the forefront of it - getting falin back was the most crucial point but so wuickly :(( it was lost #on the other end its crazy to think about the compoments of falin now - human - dragon (dungeon) - marcille’s magic and desperation #the food the crew cooked (digested) - she is made of many parts!!#also i did not realize how medical it feels to draw smth like this. i dont usually explore the inner parts or use a lot of blood #in my work so rendering everything and looking up refs it felt quite magical (?)#ruporas art

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puppyeared · 30 days ago

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act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

#THID FUCKING GAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEE #i have more i wanna draw but my hands not working orz.. maybe ill get around to it later idk #i finally FINALLY managed to get inside that star room.. my own clone!! now neither of us will be virgins!!!!#i dont have anything to go off of but when the journal mentions making another 'me' it reminds me of loop saying theyre like a mirror #theyre always able to read siffrins mind without actually reading their mind (or so they say) but maybe it could just be tone matching???#or smth like that.. idk if these two things are connected though so maybe its more like subtext #i hope im not the only one who made the childrens hospital joke when it came around to color lore part 2 #im also getting the sinking feeling of watching siffrin toe his way near the deep end like bro is so so close to losing it #i feel like if i knew nothing abt the game beforehand and why siffrin is looping in the first place my feelings abt this would be different #cuz id be pretty angry too if ive been stuck in a loop long enough to feel like everyone around me is pretending nothings wrong #than the fact that i have decided not to disclose im in a time loop and that everyone is living this day for the first time #although i also get hes doing this for a reason and when u believe in the universe i guess it also comes with sunk cost fallacy #'this is the path the universe led me down before i even knew what i wanted so all i can do is double down' THATS THE FATALISM TALKING #puppy plays isat #in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #isat act 3 spoilers #isat act 4 spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #sona #puppysona #friends #chipper #doodles

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anewp0tat0 · 1 year ago

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Happy Fathers Day, I'm finally on time for something!!! I don't have that much flavor this time though folks. just sweetness. that's it. hope that's cool, never too bad.

if you think this is anything but platonic then no, plz. away

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shesmore-shoebill · 4 months ago

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As promised: An Amangela fic inspired by the whole "Hey Siri, remind me I'm an asshole at 2:30 tomorrow" arm grabbing in the latest Sounds Fishy video.

Written sporadically over the course of today, edited on the go. Completely platonic although there ARE bits in here you can interpret otherwise if you'd like.

also yes when i posted about this earlier today i said it was 2.6k words. You might notice it is 4.2k words. Thats because I wrote everything leading up to the actual inspiring event. And then when I tried to wrap up the fic the actual event snuck in and doubled the size. Oops.

#first time writing amanda pov! hope it comes out okay. i didnt actually meant to do that but by the time i realized i was halfway thru lol #smosh rpf #amanda lehan canto #angela giarratana #amangela #smosh fic #smosh au #my fic #again this is completely platonic but mostly bc i think if i wanted to do anything non platonic justice it would balloon in size again lol #and almost everything i was REALLY losing my mind over worked in platonic context too so why not #but i mean. are there. Interpretations to amanda letting angela grab her wrists and do things without blinking. Y e s .#whoops formatting broke a bit when i ported it. paragraph formats should be better now #anyway theres banter! theres bits! theres courtrasha if you squint! theres changela!#theres good platonic friendship and there is also amanda doing a tiny bit of flirting with angela bc no matter how platonic i make them i #dont think i could do amanda justice without a lil bit of flirting. you know.#joint custody (hey siri)

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princekirijo · 2 months ago

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World's most frustrating feeling: having multiple ideas and character designs but despite working on the thing for nearly 5 YEARS still being nowhere close to having a coherent plot 💀

#yeah ok this is UBER specific lmaoooo but u get me #idk man i think im really proud of my character designs (finally) especially the prsonas ive been designing lately #and i have a character i adore so much and i KNOW many things about him #but apparently cant come up with a decent plotline. like alirght #cool cool brain #sorry to be bitching ill probably delete this in the morning #but i was thinking about this as i was playing royal and thinking about how he would react to the situations #even thinking out dialogues and how id change small lil things now that hes there #but i cant realy go in depth if i dont have a plot to introduce him huh #yeah basically back to the drawing board again. for the like. 7th time idk i lost count #realistically these things take time i know but at some point i have GOT to resist the urge to just scrap all the stuff ive done #and start over going this time itll be different!#look in the grand scheme of things this really doesnt matter i just wanted to get this off my mind LMAOOOO #sorry friends <3 hope you dont mind me losing my mind over a fictional au i created for FUN again 💀#i will now be going to sleep because lets face it thats whats really wrong with me

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 18 days ago

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Some mild existential dread in the house today

#im just feeling reeeeally really drained #works taking a LOT out of me #like. it feels less intense day to day? or maybe im reacting less? but its still very much piling up #and im just feeling very...idk. like im still waiting for permission to live my life #except now the permission osnt coming from any one person its. having the money to docit #and the time and the energy #and i guess thats just what adult life is? waiting #and hoping #and along the way losing sight of what i even wanted in the first place because im so *tired*#idk. i definitely need a project of some kind but im struggling to settle on something and then organise it #i have stuff to do today anyway. alfie had a lil bit of emergency cash saved so i need to go shopping #and i need to tidy the kitchen and do some dishes #and have a bath and shave at some point #i also want to draw but again. struggling ti pick something and idk if ill have the executive function spare #AND i want to try and be more social and talk to folks but thats its own kind of difficult #part of me would like a disc server that just has all of my friends in it bc i find it easier to dip in and out of conversarions #but i imagine that would be weird for folks who dont know each other #idk. lot goin through my mind when all i really want is sleep #which also hasnt been...greeeeat lately #mainly because Alfie wakes me up in the mornings bc they dont like being alone but also have a very different sleep schedule to me #and can take multiple smaller naps over a day whereas i really need a solid 8 or so hours or i just. dont fully switch on #but theyre also struggling atm (mentally and also they got an injury at work AND seperately broke their foot ffs)#so they need me more and its just #this never ending cycle of SOMETHING needs my attention #and its fucking exhausting asfghfkd #but!!! we keep goin!!!!! been applying for a bunch of jobs and havent heard anything positive yet but. we keep tryin huh

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thesassiestcolor · 10 months ago

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Just thinking about how Qrow and Winter's introductions in the show and how they left vol 8 like.

Vol3 Qrow baited Winter over and over until she was mad enough to use a "finisher" that we didn't end up seeing (Qrow going to use his scythe that we didn't end up seeing until the end of the volume) because Ironwood ordered her stop, probably sparing Qrow's aura (if not serious injury lmao get fucked) AND proving she's not ready for the (fall) maiden powers

Go to five years later when vol 8 Qrow is the one mad enough to kill ironwood but was stopped on his way by Winter (And robyn but Winter physically redirected him to stop the bomb) Only for Winter to turn around and use her finisher on Ironwood thus proving she IS READY FOR THE MAIDEN POWERS

SOMETHING SOMETHING PARALLELS QROW SAVED HER FROM BEING A MAIDEN TOO SOON AND THUS UNDER IRONWOOD'S CONTROL

#REALLY would have made me lose my mind if Winter was the one to talk him out of murdering ironwood #acknowledging him as a better huntsman and not a murderer like the ace ops want him to be #not that i dont love 'robyn is my sister now' it would just to bring it full circle #anyway i hope they talk again i love them #rwby #winter schnee #qrow branwen

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bugsnaxocs · 9 months ago

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Ever wanted to ask questions to an oc and it be bugsnax related? WELL NOW YOU CAN!!! go ahead and ask him stuff! And here’s my main blog too! @sugar-on-fries

#i don't really have a clue if this is gonna get asks or not but I hope!#bugsnax #grumpus oc #ask blog #do what you want #i dont have any thing i don't want asked YET so send them now!#Linc Rockbark #im losing my mind

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themyscirah · 1 year ago

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"Who are you?" - Green Lanterns: Rebirth

#“its me.” WILD... the passive aggression..... im actually losing my mind here #“SOMEONE DIE” LIKE- SHSJSHAH #also the i hope it was guy gardner is funny to me. also such a parallel bc barry literally said that EXACT SAME THING when simon met the jl #the parallels are making me crazy.......#also simon saying that abt guy is SO funny to me actually. bc guy is literally one of his best superhero friends. probably number 2 after #b'dg tbh #like simon broke him out of prison they had a little trip together they hung out AGAIN during godhead and then a little more (but as a #group) during edge of oblivion like agduashwh #simon basically told him he should get therapy like twice #he was all like noooooo guy dont be suicidal in godhead and then all noooo dont blame yourself to guy in oblivions edge #(and them ofc kilowog was all like shut up simon guy i hope you DO blame yourself you useless asshole) and somehow that translated to a win #so ig it worked. anyways find it very funny that the second hes not hanging out w guy he badmouths him. like his initiation is complete #hes a real GL now. hes just got to do it in front of the entire corps and then his rookie status will disappear #anyways what was i saying #oh!#simonjess #simon baz #jessica cruz #swishy liveblogs #blah #panelposting

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dandyshucks · 10 months ago

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everyone pray for me that i did not just give myself food poisoning (;･∀･)

#i may have made a bad decision with the meat i cooked shdjdkl BUT I THINK IT'LL BE FINE #it was past the date on the packaging but it didnt smell or look or feel off at all so . i decided to risk it #and now im panicking bc i think perhaps that was actually rly stupid fhdkdl #but it was. so much money. i had no idea the date was so soon on the package when i got it from mum #I would've frozen it if I'd known dhdksl i should've looked #alas !!! i think it'll be fine tbh bc it genuinely did not seem spoiled at all so ... now we just pray #i had a fairly small serving of it and I'll see how i feel to figure out if the rest of it is safe to eat or not #im just fhdjdkl crying a little rn bc the past two days have been so awful and im so tired #i rly dont want to get sick on top of everything else going on #i would like one thing to go well fjdkdl just like. one thing. this feels like divine punishment for having the old lady group go so well #im just kind of losing my mind rn i think actually fhfkdl i have a therapy/counseling appt on monday though so we'll see if that helps #i do not have high hopes fjfkdl #MANNNN. can the universe give me a break PLEASE. I've been trying so hard the past three weeks to do well 😭😭#im putting in so much work and effort fhdksl can i PLEASE have this one thing go okay djdksl i do not want to get sick !!!#if i do get sick then im just. hhhhh. idk djdkdl it's just one more thing to add to my pile of Bad ig djdkdl what can ya do djdkdl #i am going to pull myself together and stop crying and go play stardew maybe idk fjdkdl i feel like im starting to crack a little bit #augh. augh. i would love to catch a break djdkdl #dandy.cmd #vent //

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chelleisamazing · 2 months ago

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Wow, 8+ messages in the past 12 hours; is this what it feels to have fans?

#*regina george voice* why are you so obsessed with me?#checking hourly my blog for everything i post?? neat #in all seriousness this is actually harrasment #its kinda funny seeing someone losing their minds over me celebrating my favorite actors #but the insults are not fun buddy #and doing it on anon of course because you know you're being a homophobe and a coward #why dont you tell everyone loud and clear what you think about an actor none of us know to judge?#flashnews sweetie just because you insult him that doesnt make you a hero/not a racist #it just makes you hateful and nasty and nobody wants you here #okay so im blocking you now and stopping this bc i thought you would but you clearly can't stop being insane #and i came here to celebrate my favorite book/movie and up until now everyone has been wonderful in this fandom #so im keeping it that way #hope you find some general love in you heart #it must be awful to live with the ugly feelings you keep spewing in my inbox..#stuff

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feelo-fick · 3 months ago

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it is 6:35 pm and i. am still at school. my carpool is. not here. help

#doesnt help that my phone is almost dead too #AAAAAAAAAGHHHHH IM WORRIEDDDDD IM WOOOORRRIIIIIED #mind you im still running on 3 and a half hours of sleep #i intended to take a nap after class but then the school suddenly suspended classes #so now i have to go home #which would be good if not for the fact that my driver was busy swapping out the seats in the van when it got announced #so really its a lose-lose all around #its getting dark and i dont like getting home late #i hope my carpool gets here soon cause if not i. idk i might just set up camp here and start hunting rats in the schoolyard

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famewolf · 11 months ago

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all my old fav youtubers coming back this fall has gotten me into a mood where I've been diving back into old bands I used to listen to religiously. and i gotta say ... they all still slap

#[static]#not that i ever stopped listening to them much but ive been playing the entire album instead of just listening to favorites #so many memories tied to certain albums fkjghdf #i dont miss being a teen/in my early 20s at all life was so much harder and confusing and it was the height of my worst mental health years #but the world did feel simpler #the punk and emo scene fucked HARD in the early 2000s and 2010s #i hope we see a revival (and i feel like ive been seeing some new artists that hit that nostalgia in the right way)#i have been genuinely feeling Older recently and not in a bad way. its just funny to be in an age bracket that is a minority where i work #ppl are either way to old to know what im talking about or where literal babies when i was in school #i had to explain what camp was at work the other day and also they had no idea what rocky horror picture show was and me and the -#other gay millennial at work were losing our minds that people in their 20s hadnt heard of rocky horror #politely losing our minds of course like ... who cares if people dont know or do the things we did as young queers but also it -#- definitely made us feel older!#theyve also been playing a station that has all the music from my middle school and high school years ....#you know you're getting old when theres now a store radio station for it LOL they never play anything current

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bangcakes · 1 year ago

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#i go about my day as normal. but then moments from this week will come into my head and im a blushing mess NFNDNDNXMXMX #if this turns into something More. oh i am going to..... lose my mind NFNFDXX #idk i just... i can picture everything but its like #i dont wanna be presumptuous JFJFJFJJFJF #but at the same time i just..... i feel like this is all heading somewhere. like slowly... but theres a Destination..... its hard to explain #JDJDJDJJDJDJ #honestly ive never got this far b4 and its not even far NDJDJDJJD #like ok yes ive been on dates or like briefly dated guys but ive never really... truly... liked any of them #like now that ive seen what i can feel.... ya every other guy just seems..... !!!!! like tiny baby crushes based on like superficial things #like this time 1. im attracted 2. we're friends 3. i wanna see him all the time #those 3 things have never been present before LMAO.#like my default is liking guys from afar so they cant hurt me #but man...... the circumstances this time just lined the fuck up #same classes... same friends.... truly it was inevitable JFJDJDDDKDDK #n e way #just me talking about this Again #im just in disbelief that it might be mutual....#i just hope im not jinxing it by talking about it so mych NFNFNDND #i'll go crazy if i dont talk about it tho JFJFNNFNFNFNF #personal

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dreamcast-official · 1 year ago

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i hate. the scaryfulness

#eli.txt #my heart is racing my arms feel weak i am going to fall on the floor and i dont know if im going to get up #why did i get involved in a conversation about a topic i Knew was just going to remind me of her. why did i do this to myself.#shes fucking dead and the power she still holds over me makes me want to throw up. and i cant talk to anyone about it #no one but me and another friend know shes dead. i cant break that information to anyone i dont know how i would.#everyone. EVERYONE IN MY LIFE was friends with her before they realized who she was.#and i cant blame them for not seeing it. i didnt see it either.#she let me believe i had a choice on the matter.#i dont know what im doing anymore #how can she still hold this power over me when shes not even on this fucking earth anymore #i dont even know if shes actually dead.#i hope she is. i fucking hope she is.#i hope i can stop being scared of going to places i love that she frequented. im losing my mind right now.

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