#honestly wild police story is so fun

[roydeezed]

um...

[multi-fandom-lunatic]

The emergence of new adult lit on booktok throws me off as an adult. You are asked to imagine adults with the mindsets of teenagers, who fall into tropes commonly found in YA books, engaging in explicit content. That's wild. You would think authors wouldn't make use of tropes for books about adults - there is plenty of adult lit that focuses on characters and worldbuilding, and doesn't use tropes. The whole new adult lit phenomenon feels kind of condescending, honestly. "Oh well you're becoming an adult, let's ease you in!11". But you don't have to be eased into adulthood once you reach it. When I became an adult I just started reading adult lit and I really liked it. No adult should have to be told that they need to read this book full of YA tropes aimed at adults in order to understand adulthood, that's kind of ridiculous.

It's another flavour of escapism. Booktok is typically aimed at teens to people in the early twenties, which is quite a lot of age difference. Authors, in recent times, recognise that Booktok is a guaranteed (well, as guaranteed as becoming an author can be) way to have your book reach people and be success. So they use Booktok's wide demographic by writing Adult Lit books with YA tropes. It's a pity because it compromises the Adult Lit genre as a whole.

I've observed that the reverse is also true. YA books are darker than ever, because, again, authors want to appeal to the widest demographic. Both these phenomenon waters down the quality of reading material, and it's interesting how they go both in hand. I do wonder how this will reflect on the behaviour and mindsets of adults and teens out there, if it hasn't already.

I think it's also an insecurity thing (among readers)? There's always been a parade of people telling you what to read at a certain age, and, more specifically, what not to read. So, blurring the lines between teen books and adult books is a solution (a bad one. A terrible one) to get rid of the negativity.

It's a vicious cycle: authors write watered down Adult Lit, readers eat this shit up for the escapism it provides, other authors see its success, and repeat. It seems as if authors scroll on Booktok to see what's popular, mix in a mish mash of the tropes in the books, make the YA darker and the Adult Lit more YA and sell. And it sells incredibly well, unfortunately (something something there's a conversation about consumerism to be had here).

This phenomenon only stops when people stop being insecure about what they read, imo. And THAT only stops when people stop policing what other people should read. And that will likely never stop. The problem now is that social media broadcasts this stuff far more than it did in the past.

I happen to hate most YA stuff (at least, in the way it's written currently. No doubt that'll change in the next thirty years or so). The insufferable teen who has to learn to be less insufferable (and somehow always ending up with a boyfriend) is a tired, tired trope I am very ready to move past. I read middle-grade even though I'm past the age for it because, hey, it's a fun read (imo, middle-grade stories have much better arcs than YA stories do, but that's personal opinion)! And if you honestly need a whole (two) genre(s) to bend over backward because of an insecurity you aren't reading the "right thing" you might have bigger problems than your taste in literature.

Thanks for the ask! I hope this is what you meant by what you said. It's my interpretation of it, anyways, and that's as good as any.

[platoapproved]

But how can you connect to all of the unhinged things said in the tags of the iwtv fandom, how can you just forget about your sexual orientation and experiences?? I assume you haven't been able to experience everything that has been expressed in the tags??

Okay! I answered the first one as patiently as I could. But IMMEDIATELY sending a follow-up interrogating my response feels in bad faith, so I'm going to allow myself to be considerably blunter this time.

(If you were just trying to understand and this comes across as unnecessarily hostile, well, it can be a learning experience about how people will react to you questioning them repeatedly. Or don't learn! Up to you. But after this I'm done with the conversation, I'm too old for this shit).

1. I am capable of connecting with and relating to experiences that are not exactly the same as my own! A shocking ability, I know. Even across identity lines! Wild.

2. As far as 'how can I forget', I tried to explain as well as I could last time that when I'm engaging with fiction, I am not doing so through the lens of my personal identity. I simply don't think about myself that much! 🤷‍♀️ Sorry if you can't relate! When I'm watching a show, I am enjoying the narrative structure, the artistic choices, thinking about the characters and trying to empathize with their experiences / engage emotionally with their role in the story. When I am engaging with fandom I am making friends and enjoying their passion, their opinions, their energy and joy. I am not sure what's not clicking here.

3. I will ALWAYS ALWAYS side with people who are expressing their most unhinged, unfiltered, unpoliced, joyous selves, literally no matter how they identify, over anyone - no matter how they identify - who would police or judge other people for being unhinged. Those are my people. You know who is not my people? Anyone but does not focus on their own joy, but instead spends time looking at people whose experiences are different and criticizes or judges them. I'm with the weirdos first and foremost: respectability identity-policing joyless lesbians can lose my number permanently.

4. I have not read every tag on every iwtv post? I honestly only have the vaguest idea what sorts of tags or posts you would be talking about - stuff thirsting after actors? Maybe? That's my guess? Anyway, I only follow a handful of people, mostly people whose opinions or comments on gifsets I made I found enjoyable. I've had fun making friends in this fandom! I love hearing what my friends have to say.

5. Literally what business of yours would it be what I experience? I mean this honestly. What is your personal investment in questioning / policing what another person who you don't know (I assume we're not tight or we wouldn't be having this conversation anonymously) can/can't think or experience based on how they identify? Why is this so urgent to you, and your own sense of self? Something to reflect on maybe.

[cookiesupplier]

Every Rose Has It's Thorns - Part Fourteen

pairing: Ricky Olson x ofc (Talia)

warnings/tropes: slow burn, soulmates, strangers to enemies to lovers, betrayal, angst, fluff, smut, language, panic attack, stalking.

summary: In a world where soulmates inexplicably receive a tattoo that will match that of their soulmate the moment they turn eighteen years old, being famous and covered in very visible tattoos can make finding your true soulmate a questionable fate.

author’s note: Unbeta'd, readers beware as always lol.

tags: @tearfallpixie @cncohshit @jordynyingling0219 @faceless-mirror @nyxthedestroyerofworlds @wild-child-7747 @witchyweeb34 @black-damask1999 @jilliemiw86 @ilovesamkiszka @lyschko666 @lacktoesandtoddlerants @bngurngheart @collapsedglasshouses

Talia made it back to Vinny’s safely just like she knew she would, just as she planned, she Uber’d to his street, and walked the rest of the way, recognising the houses just enough to know which way to go to get to the right one. It was better than having to stop and ask for directions when, one, she didn’t know the house number of the house where she was going, and two, she wasn’t sure how much they knew of Vinny’s life so she didn’t want to cross any lines, and lastly, she was all sweaty and sticky, that would just feel awkward.. Wow, usually she was so much more responsible than this. So, thankfully, no, she was able to get back on her own, otherwise she would have been screwed as if she wasn’t already.

Richard Olson, making all the sense leave her head. Perfect. As if she couldn’t think herself more of a dumb ass right now. For anything that she’d let happen, but craved at that moment, and maybe, still thought over. Damn him. It didn’t help that the whole walk back to Vinny’s house, every time she even thought of the way Rick had touched her, even in the slightest way, her tattoo had pulsed with a warmth that shot right between her legs.

Once she got there, Talia showered and cleaned herself up properly, washing away everything, everything. Asleep, resting in bed when Ava and Vinny got back later in the day, she made sure of it, or at least, for all appearances, she was sleeping. The last thing she wanted to do was face why she had left the party early and just hoped that Ava had told the others she wasn’t feeling well, giving them her apologies. Trying to explain to anyone just felt like too much, Ava had been bad enough, and anything more than a text message.. Hopefully, she’d had fun, and she’d leave it be now that the day was over and done.

The next week, it passed in a blur. She had met Vinny’s family, and it was something of complete chaos. Sweet chaos. Seemed once a month his mother insisted on a family dinner, at least for those who could make it. Considering this was not only the first since Vinny was home from the tour but also since the last time he’d managed to come to one of the gatherings, he’d found his soulmate, they were the star attraction.

Talia smiled, seeing the simple sweet joy in Ava’s eyes, hearing the laughter as the two regaled the story of how they met over and over. How Vinny was so shocked at seeing her soulmate tattoo while they were at the VIP meet and greet. Thankfully they blessedly left out the fact of Talia’s soulmate connection to the story, not only would it have taken away from it, but brought up so many questions that she honestly didn’t want to answer. Especially when she realised that Vinny’s mom asked about how Ricky was doing, something about hearing from Gladys about the police being called to his place the other day, the same day they got home from tour.. She hoped everything was okay.

That shocked her, and Vinny appeared to be in the dark about that turn of events too, telling his mom he didn’t know anything, but Ricky seemed fine when they’d seen him at the barbecue.

Oh, he’d seemed fine, alright.

Physically at least, mentally Talia didn’t know where his baseline was with him demanding her to strip and prove she was his soulmate in the middle of a party with everyone outside, and then them fucking in the bathroom.

Talia didn’t know where she was mentally, either. Who was she kidding, she knew, she hadn’t been okay for weeks, and she didn’t know she would be any time soon, all she could do was keep going. One foot in front of the other and just pretend everything was normal, until, maybe it would be again.

So she did.

That included trying not to get in the way of Ava and Vinny spending alone time together. As much as she knew Ava wanted her to get to know Vinny more, and she did, she spent time together with them, movie nights hanging out and stuff like that, laughing over board games once or twice, it was impossible not to see how they were around each other, and when they were alone together, there were moments that Talia really just would rather be anywhere else fast. Not hard to recognise, Ava should remember how it felt around Kyle and Jordan when they found out they were soulmates.

Sure, those two had been dating for years at the time, but when they finally got their tattoos, it was like something flourished in them. She couldn’t even say it was physical, but still felt intimate, and being around when Ava and Vinny were together, sometimes she’d rather just leave them alone, together. To bond, properly, the way they should. Without her being pesky, without the confines of a bus full of bandmates for two weeks straight.

That was how she started heading into town to explore during the day and enjoy finding different places. She found the local tattoo parlour for one and got to talking to the artists there. They were some good guys, fun to hang out and chat with for a little bit. Found a nice little bookstore to enjoy raiding, even a little café that reminded her of Jordan, who had her video calling him and telling her that she had a new barista, and he was officially replaced because they made better coffee. Did she get chewed out while she giggled mercilessly the whole conversation? Yes, yes she was. Absolutely hilarious, and completely worth every second, too.

It was as she was hanging up her call that she came across someone else she’d met in town already, surprised, Chris.

“Oh hi!”

“Hey Talia, you sound like you’re making yourself at home.”

Shaking her head quickly,

“No, no, not home, just, comfortable, while I’m here. Giving Ava and Vin some space. I’m not really sure how long I’m going to be here.”

Seeing the coffee in his hand, hers was barely half finished, but considering her conversation with Jordan, it might be cooler by now, she’d still drink it though, it was caffeine, so why waste it?

“Did you want to join me, or are you running out the door?”

“Oh, I’m happy to get off my feet, I’ve been all over town running errands all morning.”

Grinning slowly at that,

“You don’t have someone to do that for you?”

Watching the singer's shoulders shrug slightly,

“Well, when it comes to work, and when we’re on tour, yeah. Better than getting swamped under a mountain of everything, ya know? But at home, even if it can all feel like too much sometimes.. I like being the one running around doing everything. Even if it feels crazy sometimes, it feels like home.”

Talia nodded slightly, she supposed she could understand that,

“Feels normal.”

“Yes, exactly. Just like everyone else, you get it.”

“Yes, yeah, I get it.”

Strangely, that was how she felt when she gave up trying to meet Ricky when she gave up having a soulmate at all. At least, almost normal. She still had to worry about the people who were looking for their soulmates, and she knew wasn’t the one so they just didn’t bother with her, it could get very rude and dismissive, as if she wasn’t even a person sometimes, that was frustrating.

“Sometimes, normal is everything you crave.”

Having coffee in the afternoons with Chris became a new normal, laughing, joking, and talking about all kinds of things, it was great to just talk and get things off her chest. Well, some things, there was what she still hadn’t spoken to a soul about, like what had happened in the bathroom at the barbecue, not even a week later despite sitting there, at the table, having coffee with Chris for a few days in a row now, she hadn’t said a word, and she wasn’t going to. Not even to Ava. What would be the point?

Rick could breathe better when the security upgrade was finally finished, and Chris had told him he’d talked to Vinny about getting his upgrade too. He didn’t know if the girls knew, hopefully, they didn’t have to know, and they didn’t have to worry, it should be something they were doing anyway living in the public eye. It was something they should all be doing regularly, but this time, there was even more of a reason. Whether Chris had told Vinny the added reason outside the fact he had Ava to protect now, more than just himself, he didn’t know.

Ricky hoped not, he didn’t think so. If Chris had, he was sure Vinny would have called him over it and probably demanded to know why Rick hadn’t told him about Grace showing up like that himself after everything that had happened between them in the first place.

He hadn’t. Hell, it took him days to get a call asking about the cops coming to his house, something about his mom hearing from one of his neighbours.. Damn that gossip grapevine, though, everyone knows everything sometimes. It could be worse than social media if they weren’t careful.

A week went by and yet, he was doing his damnedest not to think about what Ava had said to him about Talia dealing with the mess of having him as a soulmate. If he thought too much about it, he might turn around and cave into wanting to know more. If he thought about it, he might actually ask. He was trying not to, he was trying to keep his distance from Talia. As far as he could. Because that woman was starting to make him curious, and he despised it. Why, he barely knew anything about her, and he didn’t want to know anything about her. He refused.

Well, he knew how it felt when she came apart around him. He knew how she looked when she did, how she shuddered, how it sounded when she moaned like that, and he refused to admit even to himself that he’d replayed the memory a few times over the past week. Fuck. Damn, his soulmate tattoo heating up on his neck every time he tried to shut himself down and not think about her, the way she felt under his hands. Damn it. The feeling was just uncalled-for, and strange, strange enough that he was tempted to look it up online, but if he was honest, he was a touch afraid of what he might find. What it might mean.

What if it was all in his head?

Today he was in town, grabbing some groceries and while he could order them online these days, he didn’t feel like dealing with strangers picking his produce and touching all his food right now. Sure it’s tedious, but he does it, he goes down to the markets, buys his fresh food, and some nice goodies and packs up his car to head home. Deciding to drop in and pick up some coffee on the way home, far too tired right now, strung out.. He was stopping in at the café when he saw them.. Talia and Chris, sitting inside, laughing.

He didn’t know what was happening at that moment, but all he could see was them, Talia, sitting with Chris, with that bright happy smile on her face, and she looked so carefree. An expression that he’d never been able to give her, not that he’d ever cared to try, but that fact didn’t seem to matter right then, the sight of her look like that talking with Chris just seemed to make something twist in his chest. Glancing from Talia to Chris, whether it was irrational or not, and Ricky, he knew, he knew it was, he couldn’t help but think how dare Chris, after everything he’d said to him. Never mind that Rick had rebuffed it at every turn, he’d tried. Fucking traitor. He was going to fucking destroy- Before Rick realised what he was doing at all, his feet were walking him towards the glass doors of the café, his fingers reaching for the silver handle, wrapped around the bar and ready to push it open so he could walk in. But that was when he saw his reflection in the glass, instead of mentally zeroing in on nothing but Chris where he sat inside. Ricky froze at the sight of the man staring back at him in the glass. He looked fucking deranged.

Shit.

Shit..

What was happening to him?

No. No, no.. Shit. He. What, what is he supposed to do now?

He let go of the handle as if the metal had burned him and backed away, turning on his heel and walking right back to his car, climbing in, and driving away quickly. He didn’t even notice the fact that Chris glanced towards the café entrance. Chris had seen him walk away, watching the guitarist retreat, even if Talia had been none the wiser about the close call of the dramatic showdown that had almost happened then and there.

Dividers by @saradika-graphics

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Some repliessss 🎃

Anonymous asked:

How are you guys feeling about the new twst event, The night before Christmas one, especially your thoughts on the new character!

I’m always excited for the Halloween events, Anon! All of them have been fun so far, and I love events with big groups of characters. Super happy to see Idia participate this year, we miss him a lot… it feels like we haven’t seen him in ages for some reasons. Especially in the same event with Azul and Jade and a lot of other guys!

And the gothic feel of the outfits is great, like super good. I am one of those people who haven’t seen the original movie, but the aesthetics of it are so good and suit the boys very well. Not saying anything about the Jamil card because I’m going to have cardiac arrest if I start thinking about it.

As it always it with us though, it will take some time for us to get to the event and actually watch it – we only watched the last Halloween one this spring. So we probably won’t be able to comment on anything related to the event for quite a while. It’s interesting that this is a “lost in the book” type of event though, but to be honest, I don’t know what to make of it. I hope it’s fun though, it better be.

As for the new character (is it Skully or Skelly?), I talked about him a little bit in this reply, and I don’t have much to add yet. Well, other than now that we see his full design I can tell he is pretty well-balanced. I hope they have a lot of fun with him in live2d sprites.

Anonymous asked:

aw the cuties! kid rook's longer hair makes him look like such a tomboy, do you think he got mistaken for a girl often?

Thank you!! <3

He strikes me as a wild kid that hops around from one tree to another lol So people’s first reaction would probably be “wow, that is one feral boy, who is that, Mowgli?”

But if he sat still for like one moment and people got to see his cute face and the long hair, I wouldn’t be surprised if someone thought he was a tomboyish girl.

Anonymous asked:

Why the younger tweels look kinda...😳👉👈

👀 😌 cute??? Aw, why thank you~

These two have been menaces since day one….

Anonymous asked:

I’m thinking of the eels when they’re younger getting a nanny who’s actually wanted by the cops but no one knows it. After a week with them, she turns herself in.

Oh that poor nanny lol See, they do good things sometimes! Like unknowingly torturing people until they confess their crimes to the police! And honestly, she is lucky, because her fate would’ve been worse if she stayed with these two…

I think Jade and Floyd were the types of kids who considered all the nannies and private teachers to be their toys. Of course, they are here to take care of them or teach them, but in actuality, they are here for them to entertain themselves. Nice enrichment for horrible kids…

Anonymous asked:

The question about me being Gidel and Fellow’s sponsor was in reference to the comic on kofi where the latter was forced to….service some dudes. He looked so traumatized, I want to hug him. Which is why my offer’s on the table! I don’t want anything from either except to scratch their ears. Emotional support scritches. ❤️❤️❤️

Ohh, that one! Got it <3 Yeah, that was a sad one; for some reason I always want to add some angst to their shenanigans… He really is traumatised, especially considering that by that point he almost started to believe that that life was in the past. But unfortunately running away from powerful people who need you to remember your place and their ownership of you is difficult…

Aw, now I made myself sad lol Please scratch their ears a lot!! They need it.

Anonymous asked:

Hi I was the anon who recommended Raul and the Vampire and recently I just found out that it has been serialized!!! So of course I have to share this great news to you heheh

Hiii, Anon!

Yes, we’ve seen it, but haven’t read it yet qwq I’m so happy for the author! Well deserved, I hope they get a lot of new readers and continue developing this story.

Thank you for recommending it once again. Whenever we randomly think about these two it makes us so happy lol

Anonymous asked:

Speaking of Vil, although their lives are somewhat different, this scene and song still remind me of him: https://youtu.be/mI3XowjxP1g?si=vfnFWJf5p2IEZY_W

I see your vision, Anon! Especially in a piano scene changing into a pole scene lol

Fame and one’s relationship with adoring/obsessive/hating/non-caring audience are difficult things to fully process 🤔

[magnificentwolfface]

let's see, random kp99 bits:

vegas and porsche are childhood friends ala gina and jake: gun had cut ties with korn many years ago so he is a weirdo loser dad who has atrocious fashion sense but is so damn hot (ex piya is so goddamn attractive) instead of the abusive monster he is in canon— something HAS to have made him pull pete's mom!

as a result, tankhun and kinn have too little memories of vegas, and kim didn't even meet him and macau until many years later

kinn and vegas meet at the police academy, where they had a tiny bit of rivalry but nothing major, despite korn's efforts lol

vegas has A LOT of fun messing with kinn tho: he secretly thinks his older cousin is so cute when taking everything he says and does ultra serious

however, it will be years before kinn and porsche meet when kinn transfers to porsche and vegas' unit: kinn DID know of porsche though, through vegas' stories

although personality wise, it's vegas as gina and tankhun as the combination of hitchcock and scully in this AU, i think in terms of profession, they should switch: so vegas is a detective and tankhun is chan's assistant lol

macau is the only theerapanyakul not in the law enforcement: he is actually a... wait for it... FIREFIGHTER!!

(gimme ta in a tank top and suspenders, pls pls pls)

vegas meets pete's cousin (played by jes) during a family reunion trip to phuket: tired of pete and not-petes, vegas escaped to the beach and met jes' character (idk what to name him: tyme after 4 minutes? theerakit after his crossover pairing character?) when literally witnessing the man exit the water against the sunset like some sort of sultry romance book's male love interest

vegas wouldn't find out he was pete's cousin until much later, like, after they spent many wild nights together. it was... awkward to say the least. not that it stopped them from continuing in secret after returning home. i mean, clearly, seeing as vegas got PREGNANT

tankhun: never thought vegas would be the first to have kids. i thought for sure kinn would have all of us beat there, i remember how slutty he was in college. vegas apparently wasn't that different but kinn was a league of his own

kim: they nicknamed him 'just say yes kinn'

porsche @ kinn: YOU KNEW OTHER MEN CARNALLY?!

kinn: (⊙x⊙;)

kinn got less slutty the older he grew lol

kinn when asked: my knees and jaw aren't what they used to be _(:з)∠)_ and my back hurts now

won't stop him and porsche from going at it like rabbits tho

Hey, sorry for replying SO late 😅 I’ve been super busy and honestly, I got sick twice this week 🥲🤧, but I finally got the chance to dive into these kp99 bits! 🔥🔥

Vegas and Porsche as childhood friends is such a chef’s kiss dynamic 😭—like, I can already hear the "Jake and Gina"-style chaos 😂. Also, Gun as a hot but weird loser dad? 💀 PLEASE, it explains EVERYTHING about Pete’s mom being into him 👀.

I DID think about Tankhun being Gina for the whole vibe but decided against it 🤔. Also, I forgot about Pol and Arm being Hitchcock and Scully 😭, but that combo is everything too. Macau as a firefighter? 🥵 Ta in suspenders is officially all I need to survive rn.

Vegas messing with Kinn at the academy is peak sibling-cousin energy 😈. And that slow-burn revelation of Kinn and Porsche finally meeting… I’m living for it. Vegas calling Kinn “cute” for taking him seriously though? STOP 💀.

Vegas meeting Pete’s cousin (Jes with romance-novel vibes, yessss!) on a sunset beach? 🏝️✨ The plot twist of realizing he’s Pete’s cousin after their adventures? Perfection. Also, PREGNANT VEGAS?? 🍼👶 Tankhun being shocked but supportive is the energy I didn’t know I needed 😂. (For Jes's characters' name i would probably choose Tyme)

Kinn’s “Just Say Yes” college phase being brought up? ICONIC. Porsche finding out?? 💀 And Kinn’s “my knees and jaw” line—I’m SCREAMING. Kinn still being spicy with Porsche? As he should 💅.

[fakeusernamelol]

I'M LATE--

I do love the trend of Things Happening To Stan. Poor guy.

Also I love kidnapper Ford being a pussy so much. His whispering about how he needs to take care of Stanley because he doesn't want him to hear and get mad :'( He would die immediately if he got released into the wild. But Stan is good to him, he's Stan's special little guy and their kids love him because he's mostly a stay-at-home dad and is very present in their lives. I think Shermie and Mariana are raised in the most put-together home and they spent their first few years in booster seats in the back of Stanley's getaway car.

Also even though young bad ending Ford made fun of young kidnapper Ford, bad ending ford cant say shit when they're older because Kidnapper Ford has a husband that loves him, kids that love him, a town that accepts him, and several academic achievements (under a different name but still) while bad ending Ford is a drifter that his kids hate and are actively keeping his husband away from and that his husband doesn't know about or love back. That Ford can't compare, he can't.

Until that Ford goes back in time and takes kidnapped Stanley away from him. It's not for revenge, more like a self-serving kind of closure. Ford wants to provide that Stanley with the best life possible - one where he doesn't have to starve and nearly die in childbirth and be forced into crime and have to deal with a spineless husband (honestly bad ending Ford and kidnapper Ford should just make out but I don't have my camera ready so I guess they can keep at this weird homoerotic competition for who can fuck their twin brother better but that's me) and also that bit abt Stan being so pissed off until he realizes 'Oh it's just Ford. Somehow.' I love that so much, Stanley is the weirdest rat I've ever met. Meanwhile Ford has imparted his Tragic Backstory so Stanley trusts him (cutting all the abuse parts and just leaving 'my Stanley lost his memory and my kids hate me because I was just too much of a good and sexy father') and Stan doesn't believe shit he says because he's already starting to realize his own Ford is an untrustworthy mess and this Ford isn't his so he's like halfway back to being a stranger. But also Stan was starving and this guy's feeding him and if all Stan has to do is act meek and helpless and this old guy gives him all the cheeseburgers he wants, rents him a ritzy condo and gets him some good clothes that make him look charmingly overweight instead of pregnant then Stan isn't above some big doe eyes and a few 'Wow you're so nice to me' s, old man Ford eats it up and Stan gets to try rich people food and work off his anger at his own Ford (who gave himself some injuries and came back home with a story about double-kidnapping and a description of the old Ford's face as the man that did it so the police could help Ford find Stan quicker)

Old Ford is so in love too, he spent 30 years alone thinking about how he could have done things better with Stanley and Now He Gets To and he nearly forgot how sweet and trusting Stanley was and doesn't even notice he's eating out of Stanley's palm and paying to do it. He's intoxicated on Stanley's full attention unhindered by his own mistakes, this was supposed to be closure but its feeding into his 30 years spent yearning so well he thinks he might spend the rest of his life in this dimension, with this Stanley he hasn't ruined, this life he hasn't ruined. Of course he still loves his own Stanley more but here he was never the fool that fell for Bill, he was only ever the man that saved Stanley (from his point of view while Stanley is actually bleeding him dry and getting ready to leave the second his cash cow stops carrying him up the stairs when his feet hurt)

Anyways I'm rotating them in my mind at terminal velocity I wanna hear the reverb of Bad Ending Ford's skull hitting a metal pole and I'm sorry I'm late

🫎

JAJSJSAJ you Made me feel like a housewife waiting in the couch for their spouse to come home after a day of hard work with a surprise in their hands, MY DEAR 🫎 IM GLAD YOU CAME HOME I WAS MISSING YOU 😭😭💖💓💖💓💖

Even if Ford wasn't able to say loudly his intentions of having Stan as his dependant husband and a big family who fully needed him because that would make him end up crying like a puppy at the other side of Stan's room begging him to forgive him, he could lie to himself that he was near to that perfect life!

Well, maybe Stan was doing better economically than him thanks to his job at the shack and treated ford almost as he did with his kids (Except he was much sweeter with them than with him lol) he was still sure Stan needed him, he was still being affected by what ford said and he noticed it! How a little smile kept on his face when he told him that the dinner was delicious or a frown after a comment about his weight. And the kids love him! They were still too little to have a rational thought so Stan couldn't get mad at them if they ever call Ford «dada» although he did try to correct them gently and instead call him by other ways like uncle or just Ford. Maybe stan was still being reluctant about Ford acting as a second paternal figure to the twins but he was sure it was just jealousy or something, he took care of the children while Stan was busy and proved him that he was really good at it (he was probably a lot better at it than Carla could have been..)

Gotta be honest a bit and is that at least the part of «A Husband who loves him» is very ambiguous yet lol because Stan didn't stop to treat ford more like a roommate than a couple after he took control of the situation. Ford really tried his best to get Stan's heart again but he just acted politely with him and no more. Didn't let him give him kisses, hug him, call him sweet nicknames such as his dear or sweetheart and only managed to have sex with stan if he really was feeling it (maybe once every three months if he was lucky! Sure stan would check carefully the condom before start and no post-sex cuddles tho, after he's done Stan would kick him out of his room and acted like if nothing happened.) Stan took care of him because he didn't want Ford to die but wasn't as excited about the idea of sharing his family of his own with Ford as he was. ALTHOUGH yes absolutely kidnapper au Ford still was doing way better that Bad ending Ford was lol 🤭🤭 (they indeed need to kiss and let their poor twin brother alone, weirdos...)

Bad Ending Ford ended up in the place he was thanks to himself and what a bad traditional upbringing caused in him. Now that he was old and alone in the shack after all he did he was really feeling the consequences of his actions in his youth and even if he didn't want it, he couldn't say anything because he fully understood the reason why their kids preferred to take stan away from him. But he was honest to himself, he wasn't able to hold it. He really needed him, just one more chance to do things right this time and have at least one version of stan alongside him..

So now he had this beautiful young and pregnant Stanley by his care. He didn't really give a fuck about what The version of himself in this dimension would felt about that, he probably just the same stupid abuser he used to be and by how young they looked he probably wouldn't even will be able to give stan the life he deserved. And stan? Well, he couldn't say that he was absolutely comfortable with this but he couldn't complain. That suspiciously-looked-alike-to-ford geezer treated Stanley well by giving him a comfortable bed to rest on, the food he wanted, comfortable clothes that didn't squeeze his growing belly, and massages to his aching body when he needed them by the prize of just acting sweet to the old guy and letting him into his bed a few times. He was still thinking about his own life tho, how his ford and the rest of his family was doing, he was sure of something, he wouldn't stay there, he needed to comeback but he can't do it right now while he was soon to give birth so well, he will just enjoy his stay with that old Ford until it was moment to leave.

...But, will Ford let him? 😉😉

[japanese-korean-lit-lover]

East Asian literature/movies/shows I've been currently enjoying:

The housekeeper and the professor (or my preferred title: Professor's beloved equation) by Yöko Ogawa – Japanese slice of life (find my short review here)

My neighbor Totoro by Studio Ghibli

Revenge: Eleven dark tales by Yöko Ogawa – slice of life-ish horror, truly grew on me

First Love: Hatsukoi – slice of life Japanese romance (find my analysis here), best thing I’ve ever watched

Little Forest – Korean slice of life movie, lots of food shots

Something in the rain – Korean slice of life romance

If cats disappeared from the world by Genki Kawamura – Japanese slice of life meets Goethe's Faust (but executes the trope better)

The guest cat by Takashi Hiraide – the most slice of life book I've read, very meditative

When the weather is fine – korean slice of life romance (find my posts about it here and here)

The Memory Police by Yöko Ogawa – dystopian fiction (if you enjoyed Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury you'll love that too)

I will be your bloom – Japanese... I don't even know how to describe the genre, it was wild, weird and wonderful, but won’t be everyone’s cup of tea

Sweet bean paste by Durian Sukegawa – Japanese slice of life, excellent in every detail

Your eyes tell – Japanese drama/romance – it wrecked me thank you very much, can't recommend it enough

Please look after my mom by Kyung-sook Shin – Korean drama, very emotional

Norwegian wood by Haruki Murakami – Japanese romance, psychological drama, but I wouldn’t call it a favorite

Crash course in romance – Korean rom com, quite enjoyable and fun to watch, really adorable and funny

Nowhere to be found by Bae Suah – a parabolic slice of life short story

Walking Practice by Dolki Min – a horror existential story about being human, not for everyone (tbh not really for me, but I was the editor of the translated version in my country)

Summer strike – aesthetic, calming and full of kdrama (fits the canon 100%), if it wasn’t for the murder case it would be perfect

Turn to me, Mukai-kun – honestly it felt like 90% of the characters on that show were either aro, ace or both and I’m so here for it

The setting sun by Osamu Dazai – a classic when it comes to today’s Japanese literature, I see the value of the story, but didn’t love it as I thought I would

Diary of a Void by Emi Yagi – weird, creepy at times, both comforting and confusing, gave me the same kind of chills as Revenge by Yōko Ogawa

Convenience Store Woman by Sayaka Murata – an amazing short story about intolerance, surface level relationships and the incredible mechanism where men feel entitled to use women both when they conform to social expectations and when they decide to live against them

Doctor slump – heartwarming and emotional, I laughed, I cried, despite being a romance it had a great plot line about mental illnesses

Welcome to Samdal-ri – for everyone who feels overwhelmed by the world and needs a place to return to, very emotional, I cried like a baby more than once, would watch three more seasons of it

[dio-the-thot-exterminator]

Can I have a list of some of your favorite obscure horror movies so I can watch them at some point?

Of course! hehe not sure how obscure these films actually are, but I like them, and people don’t talk about them enough 😞

Housebound (2014) [so fun, so silly!]

Die Säge des Todes (1981)

Ticks (1993) [YEEEAH buggies]

Starry Eyes (2014) [god tier blood, grime, and UNEASE]

The Suckling (1990) [yummy creature design]

Broken (2006)

The Initiation of Sarah (1978)

The Beast Within (1982)

Terror Train (1980) [i like miss jamie <3]

The Premonition (1976)

The Unborn (1991)

Squirm (1976) [more bugs! cute lil worms]

Don't Go In The House (1979)

Satan’s Little Helper (2004)

Prophecy (1979)

We Are What We Are (2013)

Don’t Go Into The Woods (1981)

Graduation Day (1981)

The Incredible Melting Man (1977)

Jason X (2001) [This movie is solid! Everyone’s such a hater 😡]

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Oh! Then I have some films that are more popular.

The Brood (1979)

Tokyo Gore Police (2008) [mouth watering practical effects!!!]

A Reflection Of Fear (1973)

Trouble Every Day (2001) [This actress man, just WOW]

Repulsion (1965)

Pieces (1982)

Triangle (2009)

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Now I wouldn't call these obscure but i like them so much, and any chance I get, I will tell people to watch them 🥺🥺

Possession (1981) [One of my favourite movies of all time! The story, the acting, the effects UGH. Gagged me for sure.]

Dead Alive/Braindead (1992) [Honestly up there with Possession. So good but in a completely different way. It’s high camp, high gore, and it felt like i was high while watching it]

Lake Mungo (2008) [A movie that actually scared me while i was watching it, and stuck with me for a good week. Triggered my fight or flight like no other. rawr]

No One Lives (2012) [This would run all the time when I had cable. And I'd sit and watch it every time this came on. There are...certain scenes that are just burned into my mind]

The Cell (2000) [I don’t even know what to say. The visuals in this movie are just SO GOOD. I want to tongue kiss the entire art direction team. The costumes, the cinematography, it’s so creative and so lovely]

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I have to give a mini shout out to Lucio Fulci, he is my favourite director. Period. If you’re interested in his movies [some focus on zombie, slasher, Giallo] his Gates of Hell Trilogy is always a good start!

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Ah alright now onto production companies [yay? Woohoooo??]

Troma. Fucking Troma, a lot of the movies they make are gross, stupid and cheap. So if you want something that’s absurd but still strangely entertaining. I’d recommend looking through their catalog of movies, picking a random one and seeing what happens.

Full Moon Features <3 If you want some film series, I’d recommend Puppet Master and Subspecies! [I’ve seen every Subspecies]. Full Moon has a lot of killer doll and toy films. But they do branch out. Castle Freak kinda wild though.

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Ok i'm done now.

If you have any movie recs for me, send them my way :D

[zoguy1]

So, fun fact about me, I never actually watched Gravity Falls. I mean, I did. But I only watched it by proxy to my siblings, who were obsessed with it and watched it all the time. I'd also catch some reruns on TV from when the show was originally airing on Disney Channel or XD or something.

Anyway, now that the fandom is reignited with the release of the books, I've been seeing some things that dose kinda make me wanna rewatch the series. But I also kinda don't want to watch the whole series just for the few characters I'm interested in knowing more about. So instead I'm going to read fanfics of some of the ships that piqued my interest and *then* rewatch the show. Cuz I learned from doing the same thing with the Venom series was such a wild ride.

But first, I wanna document my memory of the show and what I've seen of fan content, cuz I kinda regret not doing that with the Venom movie before I watched it.

So, first starting with the main twins: Dipper and Maple. Two autistic siblings. Maple is all rainbows and sunshine and is so deep into escapism that she's drown in it while Dipper is a huge nerd. Maple has a few crushes here and there throughout the whole series, while Dipper has a crush on this high schooler. I thought they were in elementary when I first started watching the show and was surprised to find out they weren't and were starting their first year of high school by the end of the series. Idk if I remembered that correctly, though.

The next pair of twins is Stanley and Stanford. According to my friends, Ford is an absolute ass hat and Gruncle Stan is a single mom who works two jobs. Ford was the 'gifted child' autistic growing up and his special interest is the triangle man. Supposedly he had a bf, Fiddle, whom he accidentally traumatized and just left for Triangle Man. Meanwhile, Stan has an ex-wife, Edna the Owl Lady who misses him, but her aim is getting better. They are also soulmates who belong to each other and deserve each other. He's also dated Pickle Rick at some point. Possibly after Edna. But I refuse to believe that Stan and Rick were ever serious and that it was just a fling. Stan x Fiddle is also piquing my interest, I want to see Stan singing "You Only Want Me 'cause You Want My Sister" by Evelyn Evelyn.

Dipper and Maple's parents are never mentioned, despite the show being heavily family focused. So I imagine they had no fucking clue what the hell happened during their kid's summer trip to see their uncle and had one Hellova story when they came back.

Another notable characters is Wabbles the Pig, who's apparently better than Fat Nuggets. Guys, Wabbles, and Fat Nuggets came from the same litter. This show is all about not pitting siblings against each other, why are we putting Nuggest and Wabbles against each other? They're chill.

Zeus, who's just kinda there. He's the twins' autistic friend. Wendy, Dipper's crush and girl boss. Rodney, Wendy's emo bf. Maple's friends, and then that one bully character they tried to pair up with Dipper, but like, honestly no.

Oh yeah and Bill. Bill's whole ordeal is that he wants to take over the tri-state area, and absolutely fuck with everyone, including the audience, making them believe that there's old man Yaoi where there isn't. At least not in the way the fans think. Now I don't ship BillFord, but I am curious to know if there's any fanart of Ford and Bill's cannonical human design.

There's also the gay police that pulled a Bubbleen. Random ass Chomsky gnomes. Mermaids, vampires, and shenanigans. and the Mystery Shack, which kinda just exists.

I will now dive into fanfics and revisit this post to see how much my memory aligns with the fics.

[marthawrites]

It's a new month which means it's time to share my June reads! Thoughts below!

The Only Good Indians: Okay, wow. This book was INsane. It was horrific, sad, and beautiful all at once. All things that, imo, make a great horror story. At its heart this is a story about love, revenge, and vengeance, and it's wrapped up in a box of creepiness, chills down your spine, and brutality. The older I get the more I love a tale about a woman's revenge. Absolutely recommend this book to fellow horror fans! However, if you're squeamish about animal harm I would really look at other reviews first to see if it's something you'd enjoy

Six Scorched Roses: Yet another novella in the Crowns of Nyaxia universe! This story delves into Lilith and her tale, and how she and Vale crossed paths. I've praised the lore and world building for this series multiple times for good reason! I LOVE this world! Lilith's story is quite sad. I really enjoyed reading this!

Hunted: If you like thriller/horror movies with dumbass kids being the main characters (they're technically college age but to me that's still a kid LOL) then check this one out!! A young woman goes missing in a big ass old ass forest and her friends try to find her since the police aren't doing much. But there's something else in the woods messing with them while they search. This book is told from multiple perspectives - the kids and the detective - and it's really great. Personally I didn't see the big twist at the end coming! This was a fun, creepy, tense read!

The Manor House: Pretty sure I got whiplash reading this book! There were SO many twists and turns it was hard to keep up sometimes! If you like twisty thrillers, characters with little to no redeeming qualities, and a wild ride all around, this book is for sure for you!

Dragon Queens: My sapphic heart! Since it was pride month I couldn't NOT read something like this! Honestly I loved this one haha, it was like a tropey Shrek with lesbians and it was a lot of fun. VERY spicy, however! If you aren't a fan of smut then do not read this book - there's a lot of it! It was sweet, hot n' heavy, with a happy ending. A great palette cleanser book!

The Deep: Technically I have 1hr left of this book but I wanted to include it anyway! After reading The Troop earlier this year this book has been on my tbr. Nick Cutter is great at writing unsettling themes, horror, body horror, and diving into different types of character psyches. In this book there's an illness attacking and killing humans, and after a discovery they think the cure is at the bottom of the ocean. VERY creepy stuff in here. Deep dark water freaks me out any ways, and this is the epitome of deep and dark. Insanity comes easy and no one is immune to it. Once I finish this book for real I will report back! So far though, I'm really liking it!

Overall it was a great month of books and I recommend all of these!

[jumpinginmuddypuddles]

helloooo cant believe that actually summoned you wow

anyway, for the ask game:

☁️- what made you choose your username and why?

🎨 - link your favorite piece of fanart (i gotta know!)

🧃- share some personal lore (i love that phrasing)

on a similar note, i think your trademark to me is kinda cryptid-like, but in a wholesome way…

you don’t show up on my dash or in my mail/inbox very frequently, but when you do it makes me happy haha

i had a feeling the reblog was for me. unless i’m not your only fav fanfic author mutual👿

what made you choose your username and why?

honestly it spawned back in 2019 and i’m sentimental so i stuck around. i like the look of longer usernames and the aesthetic of mud is fun. like that one british baby on tiktok that likes diving head first into ponds

link your favourite piece of fanart?

THIS IS SO HARD HOW CAN I HAVE JUST ONE ?? uhh it would probably have to be a piece of steel ball run fanart because everything about that manga is unbelievably gorgeous. draw johnny joestar and my heart is yours fr fr - i can’t find the original post on twt (maybe deleted?) but here’s the pinterest link https://pin.it/1leBk35zk - if anyone can find the op i’ll love you forever

OR OR ACTUALLY that one super famous art of darrow from red rising https://x.com/TommyArnoldArt/status/1003697439524597760 by tommy arnold because it’s permanently stamped into my unconscious and i want it tattooed down my spine thx

please share some personal lore?

ah fuck i mean i’ve got some pretty fun stories. one of the best to tell was when my school underwent a school shooting drill, when i went to school in england. no one knew what the alarm meant because some idiot year11 was seen outside the site with the prop gun from the drama department. i was tryna do my maths club with my friends when our teachers start shoving us into classrooms and barricading the doors with tables and chairs. one of the teachers fully body slammed my friend out of the way.

i had a suspicion about what was going on but it wasn’t confirmed until our maths teacher told us to get away from the windows and that we couldn’t leave yet. eventually we were escorted out and there were special armed police. closest i’ve ever gotten to seeing a gun.

stuff like that never happens in england so it was so dystopian. we never even do gun drills so even the teachers didn’t know what to do. yeah but i think it was worse for the people using the sport facilities as they had to hide in the changing rooms. absolutely wild story, love to tell it over and over. safe to say i never went back to that maths aid.

hope that’s enough lore for you, thanks for your ask!!

[thechaseofspades]

My Spotify Discover Weekly as portrayed by DT17 screenshots

Like I've mentioned before, the quickest way to get me to like a song is to attach it to something I already like. Sometimes, I do that work all by myself. So at the risk of exposing my admittedly limited music palate, here's some of the highlights of the "omg it's them ✨️" saga in this week's Spotify Discover Weekly playlist.

Disclaimer: This is not an endorsement of any of these artists or song contents beyond what I picked up on in the first few listens. I don't know the skeletons in every band's closet, nor do I fully understand every nuance and meaning of these songs. It's just a fun list don't think too hard about it

"Shark Attack" by Grouplove

What were these jokers up to in their Woodstock vacation? Probably something cool like not getting erased from the space time continuum.

"Hey, Runner!" by The Arcadian Wild

Here we see our favorite Doctor Intern in his natural habitat, carrying out menial tasks in hopes that some day it'll all be worth it when he can finally land a full time paid job.

"Ghost Town" by Shiny Toy Gun

"Good-bye, Dorkburg! Hello... Uncle.. Donald.."

"I Was An Island" by John-Allison Weiss

New Weblena song just dropped. Well, probably not *just* dropped since Spotify insists on showing me almost exclusively songs from 2008-13. But still.

"Ghost Story" by Charming Disaster

I mean come on. Look at her. Look at how ghosty she is.

"Legends Don't Die" by Foxtrot & the Get Down

Honestly this could have gone to most of the characters in this show but I gave DW the edge as long as the Crash Happies get to do the sax parts.

So yeah that's that. Engage with this post if you feel like, or don't if you don't. Or do. I'm not the engagement police.

[hils79]

Hils Watches Cross Fire - Ep 36

In case it wasn't obvious I've got today off work so I've decided to push through and finish this. It's been a wild ride!

This is where you go to someone in charge and say 'excuse me the Japanese coach is wanted for murder in China'. Surely they'd halt the game for THAT!

Sure let's have a high speed car chase. Why not? It's going to be ironic if this ends with Xu Wei dying in a car crash after a car crash was his villain origin story.

Oh it's going to happen. Reaching for his phone is how he crashed last time. WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO ANSWER YOUR PHONE WHEN YOU'RE ON THE RUN FROM THE POLICE?

Oh the irony. He avoided the bike that he hit last time and then got hit by a truck instead. Honestly a more satisfying ending would have been him rotting in jail with all his success taken from him but this will do. No idea what the rest of the episode is going to be about given that Continue won their game and Xu Wei is (I assume) dead. There's still another 45 mins to go!

I refuse to be sad despite the sad music montage. In nearly all these scenes he'd already killed Lu Xiabei's brother.

Oh, yeah, I forgot they still have to play the final. Weirdly the stakes feel lower than the semifinal game did

I mean Xiao Feng had a fever and puked right before winning the final. Everyone in this is stupid.

I mean they should have done this in the last game but better late than never

Aww I really thought Cheng Hao was going to win it for them since he hasn't played in any of the other games

Okay, legit didn't see that coming.

I'm fine. Definitely not crying.

😭😭😭

Oh, there we go. They won it the following year. I was a bit surprised a cdrama had China losing an international competition.

Hee! That's 'the future' but it's now

I see Chu Ge also has to wear a crop top in game but at least she gets to wear trousers

I'm thinking how to rate this on MDL. I definitely enjoyed it. Literally none of it was what I expected, some of it was stupid in a fun way, some of it was stupid in a really annoying way. 8/10 maybe? It loses points for the infuriating 'girls are too delicate to play esports' storyline and the nonsense with officials not giving a shit about cheating going on right under their noses.

But overall I very much enjoyed it and thank you to everyone who recced it to me

[chocopinda]

10 films I love

tagged by sweet @zurdoabsurdo I'm so sorry for being so late :')

I gave it a lot of thought and in the end only the first few are big big favourites, the others are just films I've seen recently or remember enjoying otherwise I'll be thinking about this forever.

Parasite (2019). I only saw this somewhere last year but from that point on I've already had multiple friends watch it with me, it's so fun and every time I watch it I swear I notice new things. I love the plot and the way it balances it's more serious tones with the comedic ones. Big big big love for Parasite.

Snatch (2000). This and Parasite honestly share a number 1 spot together, this has been my favourite film since I was 15 or so I think. It's just so stupidly fun, there's not a single second I've been bored while watching it. It's my ultimate comfort film. Just as with Parasite, it manages to be funny but still has a few more serious moments. Soundtrack has Angel by Massive Attack so that's a good bonus too.

Hot Fuzz (2009). Another big comfort film! Though I pretty much enjoy anything that Simon Pegg, Nick Frost and/or Edgar Wright are involved in. I love the dumb humor and the town it takes place in reminds me of my own sometimes, which makes the experience so much better.

Shaun of the Dead (2004). The only reason this one is below Hot Fuzz is because of the latter's town residents. Also I just enjoy police/crime/cult stories more than apocalypse ones. World's end isn't on here because I still have not completed watching the Cornetto Trilogy.

Donnie Darko (2001). Love me a film where literally everyone (at least kind of) sucks. Gotta be one of my favourite genres. So many theories as to what the film's various scenes and ending mean and represent. Anyway, 28 days left!

Fargo (1996). Again, love me some crime in my entertainment. So strangely endearing at times for a film that's described as a thriller though, the police woman and her artist husband have completely stolen my heart when I watched it.

Midsommar (2019). Very very pretty and visually interesting film, I love all the art on the walls and the little runes embroidered in the dresses. I'm a person that's easily swayed by pretty visuals and even more so if that includes flowers/florals. So I really enjoy the costumes and aesthetic, go figure.

Call Me By Your Name (2017). Most interesting to me is the fact that it's about a temporary love, I don't feel I've seen that often without the film ending in the couple getting together at the end despite all odds or something. And to me the 'temporary' relationships/situationships/whatever you want to label or name it, are just as valuable and worth telling stories about. So I'm glad I could find that in this film, plus the pretty scenery that remind me of going on vacations as a kid.

Pulp Fiction (1994). Yeah yeah my taste is boring I know, I just like my crime drama's. Also, I want to kiss Mia Wallace.

Django Unchained (2012). Banger soundtrack with the exception of one song that felt very out of place. Again a serious film with a funny side. Western costumes drive me absolutely wild.

Anyway, tagging @nachitoesmuybonito , @jasonsnowwhitebrody , @kettleghost , @bluewaterlily , and I don't know anyone else right now that I haven't seen tagged already. Sorry in advance if it turns out you did already get tagged before :') As per usual, don't feel pressured to participate.

[blackbird-brewster]

30, 40, 41

Thanks for the ask :D

30. Have you ever written something that was out of your comfort zone? If so, what was it, and how did it affect your approach to writing fic thereafter?

Yes! I don't know what possessed me to start writing [i can't be wrong (to be craving you)] completely out of the blue, but that fic is largely free-form, stream of consciousness, which I hadn't really played with before. And I have to say, what I thought would be a six chapter fic turned into 100k words and it's one of my crowning achievements. I am infinitely proud of how it turned out. But I tapped into a lot of my own experiences to write a realistic look at Emily's PTSD and now....I can't even read the fic without having panic attacks. So that sucks, but hopefully one day I'll be able to enjoy it myself.

[Between You & Me] was quite fun to write because of the way I used flashbacks to move the narrative along and weave threads through the fic. In doing so, it made my timelines SO complicated. I have pages and pages of timeline drafts for that fic, each chapter was re-written multiple times. I would say this was my most frustrating fic to write in terms of chapter planning. But I adore the final product.

Final one I'll mention because it was such a weird little experimental fic, [False Flags and the Art of Misdirection] is SO underrated. It was basically like if Glass Onion was turned into a CM fanfic. Planning the twists and turns and misdirection was a BLAST. Then, I had to created the police 'transcripts' which were dialog from canon, but they wove the story together. It was such a fun fic to write and I'm so proud of it.

40. Do you tend to reread fics or are you a one-and-done kind of person?

Originally when I first started writing CM back in 2014, I would write thing sin one sitting, post them to AO3 and never look back. I wouldn't even do a proof-read (sorry old readers!). I'd say out of my 80-ish fics from back then, I'd only ever read about five. When I came back to writing last July, I went through my original fics and read each one for the first time. There were tons I had no recollection of writing! So it was a wild ride. Now, I re-read my fics constantly! I read fic to my partner at bedtime, it's our cute little routine. They've never watched CM, but they've fallen in love with JJ/Tara/Emily through reading my fic (and me reading them fic from friends). I read them every new chapter I write and it's so special to share that together. Besides reading aloud, I also re-visit tons of my smut for masturbatory purposes, because I know it's exactly what turns me on!

41. Link a fic that made you think, “Wow, I want to write like that.”

[Take My Hand and show Me the Way] was the fic that changed everything for me. MJDuncan is incredible and this really is the cornerstone Jemily fic. I read this and went 'Oh god, I want to write JJ/Emily now!' and so I did, and so I continue to do nearly a decade later.

[Dreams, Schemes, and In-Between] is one of the best rom-com Jemily fics to ever be written. I actually became friends with @otahkoapisiakii bc I went to yell at them how much I adored their writing. Turned out, they felt the same about me. We've been platonically married for going on nine years now.

And now I'm going to come at you directly, because [(I'll be) a place to rest your bones] is one of the most beautifully painful fics I've read and it really stuck with me. I wrote a review on a Friday Fic Recs list, but honestly, I think your writing really helped inspire me as I wrote 'i can't be wrong'

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