#honestly if this breaks me its gonna be mentally but if i break i'll have a strong disability case although it would take a couple months

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

"Do you not realize it? Do you... truly not see what this means?"

The next Destiny Bond update is in progress! ❄️✨ –> Check out the latest part here 🔷 –> New to the series? Follow from the start! 💜

[raksh-writes]

Twf your body forces you to take a break by making you feel sick and giving you migraine symptoms, like-- thanks, I get it, but could you lay off on the stress if Im to have any Actual rest? Please and thank you :')

[defrogatory]

im gonna have to work 12 fucking hours tomorrow .... wtf have i gotten myself into w/ this second job

[aihoshiino]

chapter 165 thoughts

Aqua Hoshigan Status: It's Officially Hoshinover

Chapters Until The Story Ends Without The 143 Kiss Being Addressed Or Acknowledged: 1

damn i guess they really did just kill his ass

I'm gonna be so real with you gamers, I kind of don't have a lot to say about this one either lol. Which I acknowledge sounds completely wild given the Everything that happens in it, but most of my meat and potatoes analysis in these reviews comes from breaking down characterization and we're flying through everything at such breakneck pace that we're barely getting any characterization.

It continues to drive me bugfuck insane that Ai is completely absent from this finale despite the importance of 15 Year Lie. Its imagery is plastered all over but whenever we return to it, we just see Aqua. Not only that, but Gotanda is the one who insists on pushing the movie through for Aqua. 15YL as a story about Ai's true self and her tragedy is now officially taking a backseat to being about Aqua's tragic death and legacy. It was already bad enough that we spent so much time in the Movie Arc not actually focusing on Ai to the extent that, as everyone pointed out, based on what we saw on-page it was basically a Sad Kamiki Movie, but this really is just pissing right in the wound at this point lmao.

The funeral scene also serves as the final nail in the coffin for any Secretly Alive Aqua copes, which is kind of a relief. I still don't like how Aqua's death played out, but I think dragging it out for four chapters then going "sorry you thought i was /srs when i was just /jk" would have been infinitely more insulting. I don't like this ending, but I can respect that Akasaka seems to be sticking to his guns on it, even if we still do have like a whole chapter left for him to whip around and go "I WAS /JK ALL ALONG!!!!" but I don't see it happening.

Anyway, yeah! The funeral! Uh. Is it gonna sound weird if I say I felt kind of like… grossed out reading this the first time? Like, I really don't know how else to explain the visceral "why the fuck is the author making me read this" reaction I had to it. I think it's just because Kana is so fucking distraught here and the drama is just so hammy and so over the top that it feels kind of… ech. I dunno. I just really didn't vibe.

It doesn't help that this is part of a much broader pattern in the back half of OnK of Aka getting us right up close into the gory details of a character's complete mental breakdown and suffering and then spend zero time or focus on their recovery. This happened with Ruby all over the Movie Arc and this many times and with this little runway to the end of the series, it just starts to feel exploitative, like a way to cheaply pull at our heartstrings without doing the work to build everyone back up after tearing them down.

also pre-emptively dreading all the fuel this is going to add to the fires of People Who Are Weird And Misogynistic About Kana but she could die saving innocent children from a burning building and people would find reasons to be shitty about her lmao

we really are not seeing ruby's reaction to finding out her brother was dead huh lol

I will say the one thing I didn't Actively Dislike about this chapter was Ruby, though. I was honestly starting to get pretty skeeved out with how many people were gleefully predicting or actively wishing for her immediate suicide purely for ship motivated reasons and I was also worrying that the story was going to pretend that Ruby doesn't like. Have a life and support system outside of Aqua. Yes, she should absolutely be affected by his death but this period of her shutting down only to drag herself back onto her feet that we seem to be getting feels way more in line with pre-Movie Arc flanderization Ruby and I'll take that W where I can get it.

god. I haven't even talked about Kamiki's supposed serial killer cult. I just don't have the strength. Like… that's self-evidently stupid, right? I don't need to explain to you why that's ridiculous and unbelievable? You don't need me to tell you why it's fucking crazy that we're getting this information about the alleged overarching antagonist of the series not only in the second-to-last chapter of the entire series but after he was already dead, right? We can just move on? Ok good. jesus christ.

FINAL CHAPTER NEXT WEEK…

[kimetsu-no-yaiba-writings]

Lol headcanons for Douma and Akaza pregnant demon wives being besties? Like Akaza hated Douma but the wives are like best friends and often go get tea? Like headcanons

The idea of Akaza sat (absolutely fuming) watching his wife having fun with Doma's - both of you laughing and drinking tea like no ones business - all the while, Doma's sat next to him yapping away, genuinely makes me giggle.

Akaza sat there with a face of thunder while Doma's all smiles (≧▽≦) and the wives sat enjoying themselves

Also for those who haven't read the headcanons about the pregnant S/O's both can be found on my masterlist but for ease I've linked them HERE (akaza) and HERE (doma) and while you don't have to technically read them to read this set of headcanons, please give them a read if you want!

I'll be starting with Akaza's reaction first and end on Doma's (^ω^.)

P.S I will be adding more stuff to this later but where i am is currently going through a heat wave and its causing me to melt (T^T) so i'm not running at full capacity

Doma and Akaza's pregnant S/O's being friends - Headcanons:

While Akaza's happy for you (his wife) to have a friend - especially someone who understands on a physical and mental level what its' like being pregnant and is going through the same experiences you are (even if they do differ slightly) - he's just not happy that it's doma he has to hang around with on occasion...

Now, Doma's wife is lovely so Akaza has no problem with her - always respectable towards her (as usually) and she's always a delight to talk too

Plus she's your best friend so it's safe to say that Akaza's always welcoming with her

It's just Doma he has a problem with....

More so than usual..

Always having to tag along when his wife comes over for one of your daily catch-ups especially the further along the both of you are with the pregnancy...

And while akaza understands the need and want to be near his spouse, it had to be fucking doma that was your friends spouse

Your best friend (absolutely lovely) and Doma (her husband) is a combo he hates

Genuinely when its one of your tea "party" meet-ups, Akaza wants to pull his hair out and break Doma's face because he just doesn't shut up - like, at all - once he starts talking

You'd have thought he'd have built up a tolerance for Doma earlier - especially with upper moon meetings and all - but surprisingly he hadn't until now

75/100 Akaza's in protective husband mode

Greatly amused and very happy!

Happy that you - his pregnant wife - have a friend who's going through the same labor of growing a life form inside of you AND it being Akaza's kind wife

Honestly Doma didn't really care who your friends (and their spouses) were until hearing its your bestie and her husband Akaza

The it became a whole other ball game

A game which he absolutely makes the most out of it

Did try to butter-up your bestie to get info on Akaza (for blackmail) but all that happened was they became friends too - Now those two are the one's with all the gossip.... A scarily large amount of gossip...

You see his eyes light up with glee whenever a friend date's been organised cause he knows that Akaza's gonna be there with your friend - at least he's out of your hair for an hour or two even if poor Akaza's the one he's now annoying

God forbid you start making plans in front of him with your bestie

Much like an excited puppy he sits there patiently, listening, waiting for the time to strike to slip in a simple, "Oh why don't you just stay for dinner? Possibly even the night?" - you'd be surprised how many times he's suggested this

There's a 50/50 that he goes off to bother Akaza, ends up in a fight and gets being brought home by your bestie (and akaza) just because you haven't seen her in awhile (and he wanted to bother akaza..)

[chipthekeeper]

Andor S1 Rewatch Commentary - Episode 3

end of arc 1. next week i get way more annoying

Okay, episode 3. Hopefully the sound of the dishwasher will not affect this recording too much. But it's long past time that I do my dishes

I'm cold as fuck. I'm also very sleepy, so hopefully—I just yawned my face off—hopefully I'll actually have something to say during this

Next week we get to start with stuff that I really really like. I'm going to be very annoying for that. Maybe by next week we'll have a trailer *laughs for a full minute* oh I crack myself up

This opening shot is just slightly not level and that kind of hurts my brain. But it's fine

Kassa’s little boots, they’re so cute. But that can't be comfortable. His hair, though, that's kind of how I feel these days when I work out

I’ve been so mentally locked in on the Aldhani arc today, I feel like I don’t remember where I left off with this rewatch

They're all so yellow. Oh Kassa, I wouldn't keep poking them. Nothing good happened to the last girl that did that

I'd be pressing ALL the buttons

Makes you wonder what the level of technology was on this planet before whatever disaster happened

All the Ferrix shit is so dope. AT Hauler! No, that's not what that is, I'm kidding. Ha ha….But that's such a...god it's so cool how big this all is. The fucking scale! Also the scale of Brasso

Cassian, you should probably put on a helmet. Everyone else is wearing a helmet

Chicken walker in the background? That's a good feature

Bus. STAIRS DROID!!!!!!!! What a star!! "Mind your wallet!"

LUDWIG HOPPER!! Man we got two of my favorite weirdos back to back

They only use three of the…five? tac pods. Excuse me, the paddy wagons. Hehe it's like a fun ride…..Tight though, you really gotta enjoy your time with the boys

Look at shiny old Beeeeee, look at him! He's so cute!

Clem, the only guy with half a brain cell around here

I do love Cassian just being fundamentally someone who likes to break shit

I feel like West Team is missing one of its guys? I don't see that one pasty dude. Oh I'm just kidding, there he is

Why did you just park right in the middle of the fucking scrap yard? That's pretty stupid. It's just so Brasso could see them, I know, but that's a weird spot to put them

*gasps* Nine minutes? We timed it? I'm not reading into that, but it's interesting

"It'll be open season here," even though it was a bunch of children who killed this Republic officer? It's all just very convenient, I don’t know

Yeah Syril, you ought to be ashamed of yourself. Don't mess with Bee, don't!!!! *perfect Bee voice* "Nooo"……Alright tough guy, look at you bullying droids and old women

Maarva wash your windows, good god

“Andor?” that's how I’ll open up all the doors from now on, peeking in, asking for Andor

Never noticed how weird Luthen's coat is

"What in the name of Chobb has he done this time?"....Timm you fucking rat. Oh god I love Bix’s murder eyes. Kill him!!! Timm. Everyone hates you

Luthen’s always counting choices…..

"Rings in the ear, doesn't it?"..."They’ll think about us soon enough" and he knows that his Aldhani operation is popping off in a couple days. Well….I guess he was gonna fucking…call it off…..luckily he met this dude

"Don't you wanna fight these bastards for real?" Gives me chills every time

Time to bang!! Done workin’ for the day, time to bang. "Bluff ‘n bluster"

“Give it to me now. Give it!!” me demanding the trailer

*audible keysmash* That guy very meekly tapping hahahaha

He didn't brace himself…..This whole falling heavy objects thing was so scary the first time. Still makes me nervous honestly

Just….some wonderful screaming. Ohh! and the crunch *empathetic groaning*

You broke your thing

I caught a kitten. Hi boy. You sit, be good please—aaannnd he’s gone

Oh Bix. I love you but that was never going to work

Hi Timm….Bye Timm. Oh nooooo the Leopards Eating Faces partyyyy, they ate my faaaaace…

Oh North-3 you stupid pathetic idiot

Hey don't shoot those little chicken nuggets in tracksuits!!!

Brasso you fucking badass. God! That's what—okay I can't believe I was saying that shit earlier and I completely forgot that them parking there give him the…yeah

Seriously Maarva you've got to turn your heat on

Oh Syril you got the yips…..oh no…..unfortunately he and Vel...really do have too many parallels

*cassian cocks his gun at syril’s head* Gotcha bitch

*North-3 voice* yay time for my great heroic flight, oh…oh no, oh no, just put her down, just put her down North-3—oh dear. Oh dear

“Shit” aaand thank you Linus Mosk for your contribution to Star Wars Cursing Canon

Just two dumb idiots looking so happy, bye

They're not…they're not going to come in Linus. They're dead, they got toasted. Ha, he's calling for bacta

Syril saying that Luthen's coat was gray-green later on…total shit, that thing is so yellow. Yellow-green, it's ugly

This fucking song, man

I remember this shot of Brasso hit so hard the first time, I was thinking about it for days

So can anyone just whistle and open up the ship? I guess so. I guess that's how Cassian got on it. But that's a spoiler for later……Egg slicer lights

Maarva, put the sun visor down this is ridiculous

And this was the first time I got to go “what the fuck do you mean I have to wait another week to see more of this?”

I don't think I have anything to say about the rest of the credits. But next week we're going to have so much fun

Yooooo! Snow day tomorrow. What up? Ok, signing off

[not-goldy]

Letter lyrics hitting me hard in the face right now & make even more sense now. "Don't worry, just stay by my side. We don’t know what the future holds. And that’s scary and makes us afraid, But don’t forget that we’re always together." Jikook have probably had this enlistment together thought out for a long time. They're scared, but they know they have each other, even in their darkest days. My blood pressure cannot handle this.

Jikook would rather serve together, endure all the challenges & all the risks, then to be without EO. I don't have words, honestly. The first few weeks of training are the hardest. The training & adjustment to military life/schedule. It takes a toll on you mentally & Jikook chose EO to go through it with. They had options to do alone or even do with Tae, both of them did, but they chose EO. They did it to rely on EO for comfort And shippers who are mad, wanna downplay their decision & make excuses cause its not your ship that you were begging to enlist together. Sorry You can't. No excuses this time. If this is true & it really does happen I think a lot of people will slowly open their eyes to Jikook. This isn't something small, its a big life decision they made together, to be together, to serve together, even if its only for the first few weeks in the beginning (which are the hardest). They wanna get through the hard time together. Its either gonna break them having to watch each other go through all that horrendous stuff both mentally and physically or its gonna make them stronger or both. Jk's biggest challenge will be trying to not intervene. We see how Jk flinches if JM jumps up and sometimes jumps up with him on instinct. Resisting the urge to take over for JM if something is too hard, something Jk has done for years, but they'll get through it. They're professionals & knows the other can handle themselves.

Also, saying Jkk are making this out to be a honeymoon. FUCK YOU. This is what y'all were doing for months about your own ship and wanting them to enlist. Vmin shippers, minimoni shippers, Tkk & YM shippers. Wanna see the receipts, cause I got them. Actually, we crying, throwing up and fucking terrified for Jikook, even if they do go together. Unlike you all, we support two queer men who are going into an extremely homophobic environment with an already target on their back. Shame on you for not even mustering up enough love in your heart to support them the way deserve. You will be the ones to burn and rot and hell, not us. Your souls will never see heaven. I promise you. Just know Jikook's love, whatever type of love it is, outweighs your hate and there is nothing you can do about it.

Listen.... you are talking bout Jimin's lyrics.

This is Jungkook:

we'll survive the test of time

They can't deny our love

They can't divide us, we'll survive the test of time

I promise I'll be right here

Standing next to you

Standing in the fire next to you, oh

You know it's deeper than the rain

It's deeper than the pain

When it's deep like DNA

Something they can't take away, ayy

Take-take-take-take-take-take off

golden like the sun and the moon (you already know)

YES JUNGKOOK WE KNOW KILL US WITH THE SHIP STREET PARLANCE 💜 FINISH US MORTAL KOMBAT STYLE

HOLD MY WIG ANON

You don started something

Now I gotta cook. Hold on

[poohsources]

HELLO EVERYONE! as the year is slowly but surely coming to its end, and i'm now home for the holidays, i thought it was finally time to make another one of these. partially to give a little update on what's been going on in my life and partially as some sort of retrospect for this past year and a look into my plans for next year.

looking back, it's been quite an eventful year — especially when compared to the weird covid years we had to deal with previously. the biggest change was probably my dropping out of college to start a dual studies program in law. i did like my college program just fine ( until i didn't anymore ) but i really feel like law is my thing. and apparently everyone else in my circle of family and friends thinks so as well because i seem a hell of a lot happier than i did before. kinda unfortunate it took me seven years since quitting high school to figure that bit out, but hey, at least i got there in the end. it's been quite time-consuming, and i feel like in those past five months, i've already learned more than i did in all my years of college, but it's fun. i also finally got some new friends my age again. it's also strange to think back that just one year ago i was still struggling financially and just generally dealing with some bad mental health stuff.

i'm actually happy now.

in terms of tumblr and roleplaying, i gotta be honest that i have been sidelining it a lot over the last months. sure, i'm still around but it's not my primary focus, and i'm learning that it's okay not to be online all the time. it's okay to take breaks and focus on other things because as much as i love this blog, the community and tumblr, there are some more important things now. still, i am and always will be eternally grateful to every single person who supports me - whether it is by liking or reblogging posts, sending asks or messages, following me or using any of my stuff. it means so freaking much to me, and i always feel so proud whenever i randomly see my own stuff pop up on my dash because mutuals use it. thank you all so very much! in a similar vein, i honestly still cannot fathom that i almost managed to double the follower count this past year. i'm probably not gonna reach the goal i've kinda been looking at until the end of the year but that's okay. i am so incredibly grateful for everyone here anyway. no matter what.

as for next year - i'm not too sure what i'm gonna do. of course. i'm gonna keep posting memes, and templates and whatever other stuff i feel like doing, but i think my activity is gonna keep on being spotty. i'm also still tempted to do commissions one day ( and we're totally gonna ignore that i've been saying this for over a year now, okay? ) but with the amount of time i don't have, i'm not sure i'm gonna be able to deliver on that. if i do finally build the courage and self-esteem to do that, it will be like an occasional thing that might take some time. however, one thing i do wanna do more of is gifs. i'm not sure what kind of gifs, but i enjoy making them and it's been way too long since i did them so i'm gonna see how i'm gonna incorporate that. or if anyone has any specific gifs they want, always feel free to shoot me an ask or a message. maybe also some aesthetic-y stuff? after all do love making pinterest boards for characters.

maybe i'll also do a blog reveal once i finally set up my multi that i've been planning to work on for months now. since i'm gonna scrap my current main blog ( which i haven't really been active on in a while now anyway ) i'm kinda thinking of coming back to writing and who knows, maybe i'm gonna reveal it here in case anyone would like to write with me.

anyway, this was a lot of rambling, and if you've made it this far, i once again wanna thank you. i know i do this a lot but i really do appreciate you all being here so much, and even after two years of having this silly little blog, it still feels unreal to me that so many people here enjoy what i do.

much love and happy holidays, pooh 🧡

[usaigi]

Oh oh so you’re gonna have the Dimileth fic kinda go like Meghan and Henry with the media and tabloids being obnoxiously racist? I’d love to see that!

I don't want to give to many spoilers but so I'll just say kindaaaa.

This story was inspired a bit by Crazy Rich Asian, a bit by Spencer, a bit by Red White and Royal Blue, a bit by the Crown, a bit by my love of gossip and video essay on youtube.

Specially with Red White & Royal Blue, this video I watched joked about how the book felt like it's from the Obama/Hamilton™ era as it is clearly optimistic about government (and by extension, the British monarchy.) We had a black president, gay marriage was legal, Thomas Jefferson had a miku binder, racism was literally over.

I did not want to do that. I know why RW&RB did what it did, queer & poc people deserve our cheesy fictional romcom where we can overlook the horrors of the monarchy/government for the sake of wish fulfillment. If the Straights can have a million hallmark prince charming movies, we should too. But, what I thought was odd was that RWRB did mention how horrible, outdated, and oppressive the monarchy is, and yet Prince Henry still stays in the family? The monarchy just becomes progressive overnight? Storytelling wise, I thought that was an odd choice. Why even mention the horrors™ if you're not going to address them critically? I honestly think that why Yuri on Ice did it better. By just having an alternate world where homophobia(and racism) doesn't exist, you can just have your cute queer/poc romcom.

I have been (trying) to set up that the monarchy is bad, both to its members and because of its ties to British colonialism. Like I strongly believe that you can't just slap a rainbow flag on the monarchy and call it a day. Dimitri's mom was pushed to an extreme and was not given any of the mental health support she needed. Rodrigue tried to comfort Felix by saying that at least Glenn died in service of the Crown (while they were literally doing colonizer things in the Middle East). Rhea's mom was a random civilian killed by loyalists (*cough cough colonizers*) Sitri was forced to go to a residential school to be Christianized and stripped of her culture. Both events are rooted in British colonialism and by extension, the monarchy and its legacy.

I just think it would be irresponsible of me to have Byleth, a half-indigenous half-Irish girl, and not address it. Like irl the tabloids and the monarchy couldn't be normal about Meghan Markle, what would they say about our favorite working class autistic brown rural girl?

Anyway, it will come up soon! (Next chapter will conclude Rhea's story, then some hospital stuff, and then Rufus is introduced? So next three chapters? I don't know how the chapters will break but it's coming)

Thank you for the ask and interest in the story, I love talking about it! :D

[frost-eyed-autumn]

Mun Communication Preferences based meme: 🗺️, 🪀, 💌, 💋, 🩵, 👾, ✨,🟢, 🔦

Mun Communication Preferences based meme

🪀 How do OOC posts make you feel? Do they affect your IC writing or flow, to know other muns better?

{--I wouldn't say they heavily affect much. I'm pretty solid about keeping mun and muse as separate entities (unless someone shows pretty indisputable evidence of self-inserting), so one seldom affects the other, especially if its just peoples' OOC ramblings on the dashboard.

One-to-one conversations and relationships that are more in-depth can definitely affect my writing though, I've found. Usually in positive ways, since most of my relationships with other muns I'd consider to be positive.--}

💌 Have you ever hit it off with a mun right away? What were they like? How fast do you think it takes to warm up to new people?

{--Many times! Quite a few of my favorite RP partners and friends were people I easily hit things off with. @stormslullaby and @memoryextrction for instance are pretty big ones that I easily hit things off with and have had just overall great experiences with! There are other people too but I don't want to start tagging all of them dslafj;sd

There's also quite a few people where I've really hit things off with IC as well in some capacity! Some of which I barely talk to OOC, but their muses and the threads we have are *chefs kiss*.--}

💋 Are you silly ooc? Casual? Chatty? Do you prefer or enjoy things like small talk, when not rping?

{--Gonna be honest, chat. I ain't the most social person out there. I'm pretty quiet, stick to myself, and my energy for OOC conversations is pretty spotty. Doesn't mean I don't enjoy company or conversation though! But I regularly drift in and out of social things when I've hit my limit on enjoying the activity and come back later after I've recharged.--}

🩵 Do you have any apparent flaws when it comes to RPing/interacting? Be gentle with yourself!

{--I don't know that its a flaw per se so much as a preference, but I do like to take RP with some level of seriousness. Obviously not like life or death stuff, but I can be a bit particular with how things are portrayed and played out.

Unless of course the explicit goal is to be canon-divergent, I generally like things to be canon-compliant (within realistic bounds of course. No one can be 100% accurate except the original creator of a series!)

Even then, I have a hard time with canon-divergence if it breaks suspension of disbelief too heavily. You ever watch a movie or a show and go "yeah right, THAT would never in a million years happen" and it just ruins all enjoyment for you for the rest of the show? For me its kind of like that in roleplay.

Of course there's plenty of people who would get on me "It's just roleplay, its not that big of a deal", but I just don't enjoy RP that takes so many "creative liberties" that whatever you were roleplaying turns into something else entirely. To each their own but I like a more solid, comprehensive structure to things, otherwise it just throws me off my game.--}

👾 Is knowing a fandom more comfortable when RPing, or do you prefer knowing muns? (Overall.) Do you try new things, or get into new fandoms?

{--Definitely so! Its in my rules that I'll only engage with fandoms that I know enough about to be confident in them, their characters, and their lore. If I don't know anything at all about that particular fandom, I won't touch it. Even if I know a fandom, often I prefer to have a structured verse to fit into that world before actively engaging with it. I think that makes things easier for everyone, but it definitely makes things easier for me.--}

✨ Are you easily intimidated by muns or muses that you admire?

{--I can't really say that I ever feel intimidated by other people. Honestly I think the mentality that other writers are intimidating is pretty unhealthy. At it's most extreme, it can be downright toxic.

Intimidation is just something that gets in the way of people forming relationships with their fellow writers and treating other people as... well, people! Most of them aren't scary at all, they're just some dude/dudette here to write and chill.--}

🟢 Do You like to tell people when you're online? Why or Why not?

{--Nope! I don't. I like to be free to come, go, participate, or observe at my pace and nobody else's, and my moods, energy, and things I'm dealing with are pretty fluid.

I don't want to tell people I'm online and then I have my energy crash out and get nothing done when I thought I was going to be productive.

Likewise, I don't want people to see I'm "online" and harass me or expect that just because I'm around means I'm available, or that if I'm "online" and not spending that time explicitly with them that it's because there's some sort of problem or hatred towards them. I've had that happen before multiple times where possessive people acted like I was obligated to give them my time just because my computer was on and punished me through shitty behaviors of theirs as a result, so I keep my status pretty close to the chest and on a need-to-know basis.--}

[tismcosmology]

Thurs Jan 9, 2025

We're so back !!!! Winter break was long and cold and filled with many christmas dinners but i have survived to return for the second term.

Im gonna be real I have no clue how Im going to organize my to-do lists now because my workload is entirely different. I'll do a breakdown of my courses below, but i really only have weekly problem sets and quizzes and everything is due sunday/monday. So theres not much to keep track of on a week to week basis. I might pivot to keeping track of accomplishments instead but we'll see how it goes

This Terms Courses:

Math - Calculus 2

My prof for this class is. interesting. but im willing to give him a shot because im not switching into an earlier class time. Nervous considering calc 1 was my lowest grade last term but feeling much better about calc 2 overall, now that i feel on equal footing w the rest of my class

Physics - EM and Waves

Also nervous, not sure how its gonna go. My background knowledge on electromagnetism isnt half bad but its still a subject I dont have much confidence in rn

Physics - Modern Phys

Ive heard nothing but bad things about this class but honestly? Kinda hyped. Yeah the weekly and biweekly problem sets are probably going to make me tear out my hair and roll on the ground sobbing, but its cool so ill accept it

Physics - Intro Astronomy

Absolutly the class Im the most excited for. Not only do we spend the first 1-2 weeks talking about the ancient greeks and history of astronomy, we finally get into the stuff i took this program for. Not sure how in depth we're going, so i might know a lot of this courses info already, but I could never turn down listening to my prof rant about whatever the fuck he wants for 3 hours a week

Bio - Genetics

I might be dropping this one. Just based on courseload, my own physical and mental health, and time constraints. Its a required course for my biophys minor, but with the amount of work Im gonna have to put into physics and my disabilities i dont think im going to have the time or energy to follow this course through. (its also +4 hrs of class a week which brings me to a total of 22 hrs. not a fan). good course so far and ill need to take it eventually but probably not rn

I have 2 labs as well that I cant speak to because they dont start until weeks 2/3, but fingers crossed I get good groupmates

[theodoraflowerday]

heartstopper s3e4 live episode reaction 😭

fine. time to watch what's widely considered the best heartstopper episode so far

know I will probably not be rewatching this because I'm already at a level of sobbing that might wake up my mom

nellie makes me so happy

not tara being the one telling nick to start journaling

oh my god it's gonna be literally all of journey. like the diary entries and all. oh my god I see it. oh my god that's gonna WRECK ME

NOT ALL THREE OF THEM SITTING ON THE COUCH TOGETHER BABIES

god

literally none of this is okay I feel like I'm a faucet that's open all the way I can barely see the screen

not him and nellie

bro I could really use a sarah hug right about now

THE RUGBY LADS NOOOOOO

IMOGEN KEEPS SENDING ME COUPLES COSTUME IDEAS AKDJSKFJSKFIDLFIF bro immy's so cute I wanna keep her in my pocket forever

tara is an angel

NOT BARBIE AND KEN AKDJDKFJDOF IMOGEN I LOVE YOU

not the creepy moos skfusofjslfjdkfj

okay that was....... way too sad

YOU HEARD IT HERE FIRST FOLKS. NICK NELSON LOVES CHARLIE SPRING.

nick's drinking??? oh honey no

OH MY FUCKING GO D

OH Y GOD

OGMYNFLFKDLFKD THEYRE DKIISIMG

IMOGENSAHAR TEAAAAAMMMMMM

what's their name? I'm going with zaheaney

OH NO SHES THROWING UP AND TALKING ABOUT EXPERIMENTATION NOOOOOOOO

oh god that is horrifying

this is giving me so much anxiety

(tarcy as Shrek and Fiona are goals tho)

oh nO

DONT FUCKING

I'LL KILL MYSELF

NICK BABY NOOOOOOOOO

god

yeah this isn't good

"your marvel agenda is never gonna work on me" it still might, let me introduce y'all to billy kaplan and teddy altman

NOT THE KPSIDD DOWN KISS please can we have nick as MJ

"aw, can't I play the mental illness card?" "nope, the s-word rules still apply to the mentally ill" bro i wish I had nick and charlie when i was younger

im never gonna stop crying am i

no I'm never gonna stop crying

god

this isn't good i might genuinely dehydrate

not the backwards bit

oh god

yeah it does feel a bit like you're fractured doesn't it

tori helping to decorate charlie's room :(

god

GEOFF HI

I keep having to pause. like little sobbing breaks. why is this hitting me so hard.

"he's my favorite. your friends are annoying but I like him" nicktori :(

susan is so awesome

"you were having your summer of love, it's not a crime" "well, i love You too" :( charlie and tao :(

"but I missed it" god I keep going into sobbing spirals bro

"can you explain to me what happened with imogen and sahar? because nick was being way too empathetic about it and I actually don't really know what happened" LMFAODKDLDKSLFJSLFJSLFJSLFJ

to be fair to nick he had to hold immy's hair up while she threw up and cried about it so he prob doesn't have the most objective perspective

A WHOLE BOTTLE OF TEQUILA oh my god I was drinking a Lot at 16 and that's still way beyond anything that should be happening at that age

NOT TAOS FILM I'M GONNA DIE

BODNFLSKF NO

"but i wasn't prepared and I cried for about four hours" isaac describing me watching this episode

BARBIE AND DRACULA SEEN MAKING OUT AT A HOUSE PARTY

CUT THE CAMERA ITS BREAKING MY DOCUMENTARY CODE OF ETHICS

IS THAT HOW DARCY TOLD THE GROUP THAT THEYRE USING THEY/THEM PRONOUNS? YOU CANT BE FR

DARCY OLSSON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IN THE MOST NONBINARY WAY POSSIBLE

oh my god tao's gonna become a trash reality producer when he's older, he's got eye for The Drama™

NOT NATHAN AND YOUSSEF LEAVE THEM ALONE WEIRDOS SKFIDUGIDUGODJGDLGJDLGK

"we have a lot planned" "we do? oh god" lmao I love them

that little hug I love nick and charlie so much :(

SUSAN I LOVE YOU

oh my god tori holding out her hand

SPRING SIBS SUPREMACY

WHERE'S THE "haha, since when is anything I do straight?" LINE ALICE HOW DARE YOU TAKE THIS AWAY FROM MEEEEEEEEEE

(it'd also be missing michael and olly so. yk. yeah nvm let's keep it)

oh wow that was a long ass hug

well

I haven't cried this hard with an episode of television since............ I don't know since when lmao

honestly genuinely this might be the hardest cry I've done all year so thanks for that

[vacantgodling]

🍲 emoji for OC knowledge

honestly ramen or anything similar sounds good rn its cold and rainy where i am :sob emoji:

i'm gonna release my baby pix from the vault. he's definitely... EVOLVED as time as gone on.

he was originally supposed to be a self insert character to go alongside pitt from the kid icarus games (i never played them but pitt is my favorite character to play in smash and the idea for pix came around this similar time frame. i was like 12-13 at the time probably). back in the day pix was a gyal bc i thought i was, but whaddya know, just like chidori (who was originally a self insert for kid me) he ended up turning transmasc LMAO.

i actually decided to revamp pix's backstory thing recently... as in last year? so i'll kinda post that long ass blurb:

grew up in a church and decided they were to become a cleric. trained and put everything they had towards it and were sent on a quest along with some idk others for some divine purpose? but they experienced hardships and their gods will became harder and harder to discern. they saw horrors and could do nothing for the way of their god forbade them from intervening. finally pix saw the destruction of a village and their companions perished all to get an old sacred artifact of their god. that was what the quest was about. the god had used pix as a conduit for their wishes and revealed themselves to be a spurned god and pix just idk released them from their prison ? and pix kind of has a mental break and the god basically leaves them for dead etc etc. but pix’s desire for revenge is heard by their dead/dying companions and they vow if they will give them the strength they will hunt down that god and kill them. pix awakens in a hospital or with a healer or something whatever. they were the lone survivor of the attack but no one knows their hand in helping it happen. the light is gone from their eyes but they realize this is their chance they’ve been granted to make amends. so they switch from a cleric to a paladin -> their holy oath binding them to those of the dead city and their old companions. they start to train, become colder, get older, the only thing they think about is to kill that god tm. they cut down any clerics or worshippers of that god they find… their mental state gets worse and worse and all they can think of is vengeance. etc etc. annnnnnnd idk 🤔 eventually i'm assuming that they'll discover gender somewhere along the way and also get revenge on that god probably but idk he also deserves love and to fucking Sleep.

anyway pix transitioning from she > they > trans masc rage is actually important to me. bc i am full of rage.

also also, i need to make it less. dnd. y. cuz i like dnd as a whole and concept but i only make dnd adjacent things out of jealousy for people who can actually have campaigns and friends to do them with (ik i'm not cut out for it but that doesn't stop me from feeling left out anyway) so dnd is a good jumping off point, but i'd like to imbue more of my own worldbuilding and ideals into it.

but yeah that's pix he's doing his best probably. naive -> trauma -> antihero -> borderline villain route is basically the vibe

send me an emoji for a random barely used oc ramble

[sugar-omi]

honestly all that was sooo what i needed to hear rn bc a girls been STRESSED so thank you <3 😭

i'm gonna major in biotechnology! i went to a votech and that was my trade there and i loved it so i wanna continue studying it. not totally sure what job i want yet so i don't know how much schooling i'll do but yeah! :D

BIOTECH??? THAT SOUNDS SO COOL N SO COMPLICATED please i literally had to google that shit bc idk what it entails but this is some big brain shit, n all i gotta say is good luck n i am cheering you ON!!🎉🫶🫶

although i think you got this in the bag already. anyone with the balls to do something so advanced. is a very smart n strong person. from what im reading on google this is some really cool shit, no matter what direction you go with it. n you have your work cut out for you, but i know you got this!!

so don't doubt yourself!! you got this!!! your brain is huge n you are powerful!!!!

n of course!!! i figured saying something like that would help with anyones anxiety, because really, its the pressure (even if they're not actually pressuring you) and the overwhelm of questions and expectations that make the future so stressfullll

*ramble utc because i... cannot help yapping i guess LOL and while i'd usually be embarrassed and delete my ramble n word vomit, but i figure someone else readding this may appreciate the relatability of what i have to say about my fams reaction to my plan after hs, and find some comfort in my word, if thats not to presumptuous

because i decided to take a gap year (it's been a year since i graduated, for reference), and everyone freaked out. my mom n uncles first reaction was "yeah well, you won't go if you do..." before they came around n agreed with my reasoning. and my dad was all "if i had it my way, you'd go full time--" (mind u, he likes to brag that he worked n went to school full time AND partied.... he did not finish college LMAO) and when i graduated, said to me a MONTH. AFTER MY GRADUATION. "if you're not going to college any time soon, go into the air force."

and when my extended family would ask my plans, and i only had a short "i'm just gonna take a break right now, figure some things out, work... and by then i'll have come to a decision." because i was tossing around the thought of art school, and then i thought abt getting an english degree to be either a teacher or go into writing/editing, journaling or whatever... but was also tossing around the thought of psychology and even real estate. my ideas for my future were absolutely jumbled, and i was torn between what would make money, what i loved, and what i was interested in that i thought could be a career.

it's tough. especially depending on your financial situation yknow, so your thought process always leads towards something profitable but also wanting to do something you enjoy, maybe even love, but not wanting to burn out and tarnish your beloved hobby/hobbies.

like while i did have people who supported me upfront, and never doubted my plan, it's the small things too yknow. because for months my dad's words haunted me, i felt like i wasn't doing enough. or when i met family, and they asked how it was going, or what i was doing now, i felt disappointed that my answer was always "i haven't been doing anything. just been sleeping, drawing, writing..." or eventually that and "practiced driving.. n that's about it."

or when i'd talk to close family members, and i admitted i was going through a hard time, my mental state finally falling on me now that i didn't have to be strong n power through school. i even got sick a couple times, because my body was finally feeling the stress. even now, i feel a mental lag, a fog. but i feel clearer, a bit.

but yknow, the looks and the "you said that last time" or "i think you're lying" is tough.

but at the end of the day, if not working for the summer, or not going to college for a semester, or 2, or 3, or a whole year. or if going part time, or whatever you're doing... and it benefits you, and it benefits your mental health. then do it, don't listen too much, don't feel too guilty.

because if you need it, just like i needed the time to rejuvenate, then don't listen to anyone else. don't force yourself to do anything. because if you have the ability to take a break now, do it. you're not doing this because you're lazy, or selfish, or unambitious. or anything like that. you're taking that break, you're taking this break right now, for future you.

because if you don't take it now, when will you take it? and when you do take a break... will it be at the cost of your health? will it be at the cost of something greater? when the break comes, will it come when you're being handed the gold medal you've been fighting for.. and then it slips out of your hand just like that.

anyway.. do whats best for you. what you need. don't worry about figuring things out too fast either, because in fact, i've been plotting this moment of my life for about 10 years, genuinely, and i still had to revise it. still had to come to a conclusion because even with all that plotting, it doesn't plan for the hard times. or the 'you' you are right now. you will be someone else next week. and you will be someone entirely different 2 months from now.

take your time. because if you jump into something, and are unsatisfied, or "waste" time doing something other than what you "should be doing", the time still passes.

if you "waste time" anyway, waste it on yourself. not others expectations. or wishes. or their dreams.

and once enough time passes as well, no matter what you do by then. the questions do stop coming. the weight of the future, once you get there, is suddenly not so... big. intimidating.

you do not need a grandiose plan. if you are content with the future in your mind, that is enough. because at the end of your life, who will sit in that chair and ponder the life you lived, and weight it's satisfaction, if not you?

[tenebriism]

okay but takumi and zag tho for that shipping meme

Send Me a Ship and I'll Tell You . . . [ ACCEPTING ] ;;

TAKUMI X ZAGREUS :

Who is more likely to hurt the other?

Not intentionally, by any means, but I could see Zagreus hurting Takumi on several occasions, just because of his situation alone.

Who is emotionally stronger?

For this one, I'm not sure. Takumi doesn't seem the type to let things get to him, but then, Zagreus is still up and kicking after being kicked down by his father and many others for so many centuries. I'll say they're equal on this.

Who is physically stronger?

Zagreus. Being part god has its advantages, ya know?

Who is more likely to break a bone? 

Zagreus. His father makes it absolute HELL ( lol, get it? ) to escape his domain, so Zagreus comes back with all sorts of scrapes and bruises and cuts more often than he'd like.

Who knows best what to say to upset the other? 

I don't think he'd ever do it on purpose, but probably Zagreus?

Who is most likely to apologize first after an argument? 

Probably Takumi. I don't think it's that Zagreus wouldn't WANT to, but he'd definitely stew for a bit before owning up to what he's done. He's a tad on the immature side.

Who treats whose wounds more often? 

Given Zagreus' recklessness, Takumi definitely has to patch him up more. Thankfully, Zagreus' body heals extremely quickly, so Takumi doesn't have to do much to get him right as rain again.

Who is in constant need of comfort? 

Again, Zagreus. Dude has a LOT of personal battles, physical and mental. He's, uh... gonna need a LOT of comfort.

Who gets more jealous? 

Zag. I mean, LOOK at Takumi... mans is beautiful. >:o Zag doesn't necessarily show it that much, but in the moments Takumi gets attention ( and he will -- again, he's gorgeous, and those in hell still have eyes and common sense ), there will be s i g n s.

Who’s most likely to walk out on the other? 

Sadly, Zagreus. I could see him getting to a point where he honestly, truly, wholeheartedly believes that Takumi is better off ( and, more importantly, SAFER ) without him, and he just straight up LEAVES.

Who will propose? 

:) I think Zagreus will propose to Takumi. That pure, beautiful man stuck by Zagreus, and even endangered HIMSELF to escape. Zagreus ain't lettin' that go.

Who has the most difficult parents?

Lawd, Zagreus, Zagreus, Zagreus, lmao.

Who initiates hand-holding when they’re out in public? 

I think they both do in equal amounts! Takumi is naturally affectionate, but then, so is Zag. It's a gesture of love, but also, of wanting to keep Takumi close so he can keep him safe.

Who hogs the blankets? 

Probably Zagreus. He just LOOKS like he sleeps erratically and pulls the covers off of poor Takumi at night. XD

Who gets more sad? 

Mm, Zag. Daddy Issues'll do that to ya.

Who is better at cheering the other up? 

Takumi is definitely better at cheering Zag up. I think Takumi would be good at cheering ANYONE up, really, but especially his partner.

Who’s the one that playfully slaps the other all the time after they make silly jokes?

I could see Zag doing this to Takumi? They're both extremely energetic, but Zagreus seems like the type to be a bit more... say, aggressive with it?

Who is more streetwise?

Probably Takumi, since he's had far more exposure to the mortal world than Zagreus. Now, if we're talkin' HELL streetwise, then Zagreus, obviously.

Who is more wise?

I'd say Takumi! Zagreus is still maturing, to some extent, and still extremely reckless. I think he could learn a lot from Takumi, in all honesty.

Who’s the shyest? 

Deeeeeefinitely Takumi, haha, and Zagreus thinks it's so cute.

Who boasts about the other more? 

Zagreus doesn't shut up about Takumi, and I do mean that literally. The moment they make things official, anybody that Zagreus trusts knows about Takumi, and how happy Takumi makes him, and how BEAUTIFUL Takumi is, and how lovely he smells, and---

Who sits on whose lap? 

I'd saaaay... Takumi is the lap sitter. :) And Zagreus welcomes him every single time without reservation.

@box-of-characters ;;

[cupcraft]

I know the topic is 5-6 days old now (I just only just now saw the posts on it as I don't really use social media right now)... but thank you for actually talking about how little some sections of the MCYT community care about respecting CC boundaries. Like seriously, I've had to unfollow multiple blogs over the past few months because they've turned around and gone "it's okay to ignore CC boundaries honestly, if they don't want to see it then they shouldn't interact with our community!" Don't know how to word this nicely, but those are real people behind that stream or video. Real people who are allowed to set boundaries, and are allowed to look themselves up and interact with a community they're basically the centre of without immediate seeing people blatantly break those boundaries

It's especially upsetting for me, as someone who's a (very small) YouTuber who also struggles with delusions and related mental health issues. I know if I get more known, I'll have to request that people do not ship me or my "character" for my own sake (my mental health ain't gonna like it, I can already tell), and I'm aware that they'll always unfortunately be people who don't give a fuck... but it feels like people REALLY don't give a fuck right now. And this weird ass treatment of CC boundaries is making me scared to continue making videos, despite me loving it, because I don't think I could handle this level of boundary breaking happening to me

Sorry, this is a long ask, especially on a topic that's old at this point. I'm just glad someone else feels similarly about this mess, and wanted to share how I feel I guess lol (#autismmoment)

Hey anony hope its ok to reply to this. I'm glad I'm not alone in my thoughts as of late and I can't imagine worrying about it as a youtuber yourself. Take care of yourself <3