#honestly idk what im doing anymore

[mx-mizaqx]

saw this on twitter and then I heard someone wanting cacao in this so I just drew it

And then I saw people on twitter and tiktok yapping about four armed cacao and drew these.

And then people started comparing him to lord garmadon 😭😭

Anyways I like the idea of it

inspo: https://x.com/riverart__/status/1805637966167003293?s=46

[orphanbychoice]

atp i genuinely doooon’t care if the old guard two is the worst thing put to film i just want to see the best character of all time (andromache the scythian) and her loser henchmen and everyone’s favorite girl nile freeman again

[lemongogo]

[grzybjek]

Stuff that I wont finish and doodles that arent worth posting on instagram. Enjoy these tumblr i love tumblr

[thebirdandhersong]

Lol

[otrtbs]

any chances ppl would be allowed to bind ahb for personal use ??

hiya!!

at the moment, and for the foreseeable future i am saying no. just because there are copies of ahb! circulating around SEVERAL websites and vendors being sold for oodles and oodles of dollars. despite my requests for the sellers to stop.

i have had people (etsy vendors) in the past lie to me and say they've made "too many personal handbound copies and are only selling those extra ones" which ,,, was obviously a lie. also they were getting the copies through lulu and selling them just btw.

i have also had people tell me that they are binding them and selling them to others for personal use but not making profit off of them even though they're selling art heist for over $100 a book. so. yeah. another lie

so, sorry! but yeah!! there's not much i can do about people actually listening to me and respecting my wishes etc etc and lord knows they don't, but i would super appreciate it if we kept ahb! an ao3 exclusive for now!

it just makes me feel slightly better to put more rules and boundaries in place! though it's never stopped people in this fandom from bulldozing right through those anyway :/

[nr1carambaceo]

HEYY, I MIGHT BE MORE ACTIVE AGAIN RAHHH🔥🔥💯💯💯

ANYWAYS HERE ARE SOME STUPID DOODLES AND SOME BONUS ONES THAT ARE NOT ZAK STORM RELATED (RARE FOOTAGE)

These 2 give so much siblings vibes

CARAMBA DOODLES BECAUSE I LOVE HIM AND ALSO HIM SKATEBOARDING ON SOME RANDOM ASS 3D SHAPE AND ALSO HIM SUMMONING 7 TRUCKS🔥🔥🔥

And Zak burning cereal :3

NOW THIS IS RARE FOOTAGE BUT I ALSO DREW SMALL DOODLES OF THE IRIS FROM GHE AND JUPITER AND SATURN FROM SOLARBALLS RAHHH (I don't fw with solarballs iris tbh😞)

AND ANOTHER BONUS WHICH IS ONE OF MY OCS, PERSEUS🔥🔥

With raimondi above and a random ass cat

ITS NOT MUCH BUT SINCE EXAM SEASON IS ALMOST OVER I WILL DRAW MORE (JUST GOTTA MAKE IT THROUGH THOSE 4-5 WEEKS🔥🔥🔥)

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!! XPP

[arundolyn]

ohhhh my fucking god nobody needs to like know any of this medical tmi but it is literally 11 pm and if im kept up one minute longer when i just laid down trying to go to sleep by my mother YELLING REPEATEDLY that she needs to pee. im going to actually go insane. she got a catheter in. Yesterday. it is working. she won't listen to anyone when they tell her that this is the case. help me jesus. im sure if a nurse comes to check on her tomorrow they'll probably get the same response. my brain will simply explode

[orcelito]

Actually, on the topic of the baby fever. God it's so frustrating. Bc when I was like 14 ish I was Adamant that I never ever wanted kids. And my dad said smth around the lines of "that'll likely change" (probably from his own experience with this) and I was like NO. it WONT.

And then eventually, age 21-22 ish, I admitted that Okay, I still don't want to have my own kids, but someday maybe I'll adopt...

And Now, 27 years old, I got the general baby fever on occasion. It Did fucking change. And I don't know if I actually WILL bother with having my own kid (I still don't want to go through the hassle and massive body changes). But god. I do see a fucking baby and feel that stab of longing. It's almost like my damned hormones betrayed me or smth. Maddening!

I shall simply write fanfic about it.

[lilowoof]

ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD

Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!

[camo1000le]

An unknown boy under the pseudonym "Sombra" appears at the docks, surprising everyone, reaching the finalists.

Will he destroy his opponent's winning streak, and at the same time his pride?

[sweetprfct]

me writing my Joe fic after being soooo tired from work:

[ayegomorrah]

It is important to keep in mind when talking about intra community trans issues that. There are 5 of us in total despite it not feeling like it because we find each other. And even if youre a trans ally, you probably do know more trans people than the average joe, for a reason.

We often dont have anyone other than other trans people so discussions on transmisogyny, for example, do become important even under really dire circumstances because not socially isolating people becomes more and more important the more trans rights are stripped away. Especially if youre a young transmasc it becomes pretty important to recognize how your transition is used against trans women, and how different transphobic narratives are used to reinforce each other to cause material harm in the world. Similarly now its pretty important to start learning about other kinds of oppression to know how to protect more vulnerable trans people.

That being said, every discussion on trans issues (from trans people) is bound to be kind of fucked because we are marginalized af and under active threat constantly (whatever it might be) so every trans person has mental health issues and trauma and just general minority stress. And those make people reactive? So i dont personally love every single thing some other trans person says but I also dont have the energy to give a shit about every opinion i think doesnt describe my personal reality. Trans women dont have to be experts in my personal history for me to try not to add insult to injury. Same with fandom stuff, in the middle of everything the small things reflect bigger things.

Internet makes this extra hard because how you navigate the world as a trans person is different depending on your gender but also transition status as well as locality and the medical and legal regime controlling your body. Also. Sometimes it's just luck (or larger trends in the world/society/locality/whateverrr) what your local island of a trans community is like. Just. Benefit of a doubt, please.

[voidimp]

i hate that the sims has stupid limited time in game events with exclusive reward items whyyyy cant i just play when i want. why cant you just release the items for free without having to meet certain requirements in the game!! or even as a pack to buy honestly!!! but this limited time shit fucking sucks!!!!!

[saltynsassy31]

I'm no professional and I don't want to claim anything, but I think that maybe, just maybe, perhaps even only hypothetically, I have a smidge of depression

Because tell me why nothing that used to bring me joy brings me joy anymore, and when before I was looking forward to my new future I see nothing; or rather, I still do have a future planned but it all just feels hopeless.

And why is it that despite so many health concerns popping up with too much frequency lately, and me getting somewhat concerned by it, a part of me rather do nothing and just let it simmer and get worse despite that being such a huge fear of mine (dying at home due to some random health concern I ignored).

And despitem my fear of death, the thoughts of self deletus keep popping up with much more frequency and no amounts of "but you have so many projects to do, so many things you still want to acomplish, so many people still relying on you and would be sad if you left" to myself is working anymore and that, frankly, is terrifying in itself. I jumped in so many projects so that I could have something to look forward to, to enjoy and have fun and idk make a future for myself, and yet I find myself unable to do any of them properly.

Or maybe I'm just tired, maybe it's just the heat making me sluggish and lazy and I have neglected my health so much it has made me weaker and thus making me just rot in my own home....

Or maybe I really just need professional help which isn't possible in the moment when my parents refuse to even go to the hospital when I'm in major pain anyway and, despite being an adult, I have no money for these kinds of things and I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO THIS IS TERRIFYING WHERE AND WHO DO I FUCKING TURN TO

My friends aren't therapists, this blog is too public to air out my traumas, even this is over sharing but no one sees my posts unless it's fandom related to fuck it.

Koko bot will only send me to professional help I can't reach at the moment.

I just

Feel lost????????

And I'm letting so many people down due to my unproductivity right now, this is so terrifying because I'm letting my health get worse on purpose I think and no amount of fear is making it stop.

I'm slowly killing myself and I hate it.

[kenmaiii]

oomf right honestly drawing faves and ocs like ponies is fun :3. pretty slay for a first attempt i think