#homo control freak

[paulic]

Never forget when Howard Stern said to Paul that his sexuality was so powerful over John that Paul “could have his way with him” and Paul just looked at his finger nails and said “well…💅” or “wooow 💅” and after Stern went on, Paul said “well you know I mean, I like that theory”

[fanficsbysteve]

Authors Note: So that "Make Me Write" inspired me so I finished this story after I got home from work last night. I stayed up later than I wanted to so I waited until this morning to post. I've tagged the people below as they were the ones who got me to get this finished. Hopefully you enjoy the full story: @reads8hoursperday @weewookinard I should really make a Tag List for anyone who wants to be tagged when I post anything on here. I put a "Keep Reading" where I stopped with my Make Me Write so you can see all the good stuff that came to my brain afterwards under that cut.

Rating: G

W/C: 2735

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Tommy sat at the bar, slowly sipping on the drink in front of him. Two fingers of scotch on the rocks. His drink of choice for the night at least. He hated what he had done to Evan. But it had to be done. Tommy was just a phase with Evan. He didn’t see any of the trauma, the scars that Tommy had carefully concealed from the world. A mask he kept up to avoid the pain. A mask that was slowly slipping off.

Sal Deluca walked up and sat on the stool next to him, “What’s up, homo?”

“You do realize that if I were anyone else,” Tommy looked up from his drink to Sal, “That would probably get you punched.”

“Yeah, well I’m me and you are you,” Sal said, “So what’s up? What has you sitting here drinking,” Sal sniffed the drink, “Some very top shelf scotch,” Sal motioned for the same from the bartender.

Tommy felt tears welling up in his eyes. He sniffed a couple times before he stopped the tears from falling. His voice was quiet, “I ended things with Evan.”

Sal took his drink, “Damn,” he took a sip, “You really were into Baby Buckley. What happened?”

                Tommy finished off his drink, “It just all went wrong,” Tommy felt the tears welling up again, “It just went so wrong. He went on this long talk about admiring me. He talked about how brave I was. It was overwhelming. He didn’t see me.”

                “And you just ended it?” Sal looked over at Tommy, “Pretty stupid of you,” Sal laughed a bit. Tommy looked up at Sal while he motioned for another drink. Sal continued, “Did you at least try to understand where he was coming from?”

                “He said all this stuff, then asked me to move in with him,” Tommy said, “He’s new to all this. To being a member of the LGBT community. I’m just the shiny new thing for him. Like everything shiny and new, you eventually get bored of it and find something else that’s shiny and new. I couldn’t handle being tossed away by someone I love,” Tommy didn’t catch his words quickly enough.

                “Someone you love, eh?” Sal raised an eyebrow. Tommy mentally cursed himself to letting that slip. He had been so good at keeping control. But Evan. Evan made him lose control, “And in all your talks about admiration, did you actually tell him that?”

                Tommy shook his head, “I didn’t want to push him away,” Tommy explained, “I didn’t want to be too forward and to be too needy. I was scared if I told him that he would freak out and things would end.”

                “Well things did end but not because he freaked out, I guess,” Sal mentioned, “What I’m getting here, and I could be very wrong because I don’t really get how gay minds work, is that Buckley decided to jump ahead a few steps.”

                “Jump ahead?” Tommy was confused, “What does that even mean?”

                “Well neither one of you mentioned the dreaded L word,” Sal continued, “But Buckley decided that he wanted you to move in. Now I know in my love life, the entire moving in part doesn’t happen until after you have had a lengthy discussion about feelings, mutuality of them, and discuss moving things to another level.”

                Tommy just stared at Sal. Oddly enough what he was saying was making sense. But Tommy couldn’t just fix things after he went nuclear on his relationship with Evan. A sense of realization started to come across Tommy’s face.

                “So, what happened is Buckley moved ahead to the move in with him phase of things, which is a couple steps ahead of where you should have been,” Sal didn’t notice any change in Tommy’s look, “What that should have clued you into is that this boy has feelings for you in return. Feelings he doesn’t fully understand even though if rumours are true, he should know what Love feels like as he’s broken more than a few women’s hearts over the years.”

                “I have to go,” Tommy put some money down on the bar, “Thank you Sal,” Tommy pulled Sal into a hug, “I know this isn’t your forte but thank you for letting me talk and telling me how stupid I am.”

                Tommy got up to leave, “I would like to point out,” Sal replied, “That I did not actually call you stupid. Just pointed out that Buckley jumped the gun a little.”

                Tommy wasn’t paying attention at that point. He was heading out the door as fast as he could get out. He hailed a cab after he got out. He wasn’t stupid enough to drive after he had been drinking. He was a first responder. He had seen what drunk driving can do.

                The cab pulled out and Tommy gave him the address to Evan’s loft. Got he hoped he was still home. He checked his phone to see what time it was and saw a few messages from Eddie. He unlocked his phone and went to the message app.

                ED: What kind of dumbass are you?

                ED: I have a very drunk Buck on my couch.

                ED: I think he’s passed out and I think he’s crying in his sleep.

                ED: I seriously want to know. What kind of dumbass are you?

                Tommy asked the driver to change where they were heading and gave him Eddie’s address instead. While they were driving, he frantically started to message Eddie.

                TK: I’m the worst kind of dumbass.

                TK: I just freaked out. He started talking about admiring me, and how I was transformative for him. And then he asked me to move in and it was all too much and brought back some trauma that happened years ago.

                TK: I’m just a dumbass, ok. I’m on my way to your place right now. Don’t let Evan leave.

                ED: Considering how drunk he is I hadn’t planned on it.

                ED: So, he asked you to move in and it freaked you out?

                TK: You have no idea the things I’ve been suppressing throughout the years. I’ve crafted a very intricate mask that I don’t let down. Nobody has seen the real Tommy in years because I hide him so well.

                ED: Jesus dude. And you couldn’t just talk to Buck about all this? You had to rip his heart out and stomp on it?

                TK: I wasn’t thinking ok. I was stupid and in love and I didn’t want to get hurt when he inevitably found someone new.

                ED: This idiot is in love with you, you idiot. You were practically made for each other.

                Tommy was shocked at that last message. I mean Sal had clued him into that with his “Baby Buckley jumped a few steps” speech but this was just more confirmation of that.

                TK: He never told me that.

                ED: Well, you did break up with him. I’m quite sure he meant to say that but you sorta left.

                TK: I get that I was in the straight world for less than a blip so I’m not 100% certain how you would do it, but I’m pretty sure that a person should say ‘I love you’ before they ask you to move from your house with a backyard and a garage and a car lift into their tiny loft.

                ED: We all know Buck is an idiot. You are the one who decided to date him and give him a second chance after all that Ally talk. You should have just assumed he was being an idiot again and just went with it. I highly doubt he would have expected you to move into his Loft.

                TK: I’m almost at your place. I’ll discuss the intricacies of the gay world with you one day. Today however is not that day.

                Tommy’s cab pulled up in front of Eddie’s house. Tommy paid the driver, thanked him, and got out, almost running towards the door. Eddie was already waiting at the door for Tommy as he came barreling through, “He’s in the living room,” Eddie called as he ran past.

                Tommy got to the living room and there was Evan curled up on the couch. He looked so small and fragile. Tommy could hear some sniffling coming from the couch. He felt his heart ripping apart again. He gently walked toward the end where Evan’s head was laying. Gently lifting up Evan’s head and slipping onto the couch, Tommy put his head onto his lap, gently stroking his hair. Evan sniffled and curled up deeper into Tommy’s lap, “Tommy,” he said quietly.

                “I’m here,” Tommy replied, “I’m not going anywhere.”

                Evan sighed, and then jolted up, “TOMMY!” he yelled almost falling off the couch.

                Tommy was jolted as well. Evan sat up right and stared at Tommy, “Hey,” Tommy said.

                Evan looked at Tommy, eyes puffy from the tears that Tommy caused, “What are you doing here?” Evan asked, his voice hoarse, he was very drunk. The beer bottles littering the table didn’t shake that assumption. Eddie was standing in the entrance to the living area. He was staying away from all of this. Tommy couldn’t blame him.

                “Well after what happened between us,” Tommy went on, “I went to a bar and had a couple drinks. I called Sal cause I needed to talk,” Tommy noticed the slight confusion on Evan’s face, “Sal and I used to be in the 118. He got transferred to the 122 by Bobby years ago. Anyways, I sat and talked with Sal, and he gave me a moment of clarity. Eddie helped it along. And I realized that I was stupid.”

                “You won’t hear me argue,” Evan said.

                “Evan,” Tommy choked, his own tears starting to slide down his face, “You are the missing part of my soul. I didn’t realize it fully until I had lost you. I felt complete, and then when I left earlier, I felt a part of me stay with you. And I know you don’t want to hear this from me after what I said to you,” Tommy took a breath, “And I don’t blame you if you don’t forgive me. But I love you more than life itself,” Tommy exhaled a deep breath that he felt he had been holding all evening, “I didn’t think I could love again after all that had happened to me in the past, and I didn’t want to. But it found me and it scared me.”

                Evan was abashed with what he was being told but he kept quiet and let Tommy continue, “That day when you were hosting your funeral for Billy Boils, that was the day I knew,” Tommy felt tears welling up in his eyes, “I knew that you were the one. The one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. And I started to realize that I was I love with you,” Tommy’s tears started to fall again, “Something about earlier. You just unexpectedly started talking about admiring me, and how I was transformative like your relationship with Abby, and don’t get me wrong, Abby is a wonderful woman who I hurt, but she was also transformative for me as well, just in a different way. And then you asked me to move in. And something just snapped in my brain. Something just screamed ‘This can’t last, you’ve been the first for someone, but you are never the last.’ And I let those fears control my actions.”

                “I want you to be my last,” Evan finally got words out, “Just because I’m new to this whole being attracted to men thing doesn’t mean I’m new to the world. I know what love feels like. I know what I want and what I want is you.”

                “I know that now,” Tommy replied. He reached out and stroked Evan’s cheek, trying to wipe away the tears that he caused himself, “I know I don’t deserve it, and I have so much that I need to work through before I’m the man you deserve, but would you give me a second chance this time?”

                Evan sat still for a minute, “You did hurt me. And it will take some time to earn my trust back,” Tommy sighed as if he knew this would happen. This always happened. He let his hand drop, “But we need to talk more. And I would like to get to know who you really are. Scars and all,” Evan grabbed Tommy’s hand from where it fell and brought it up to his face, caressing it gently against his cheek, “I love you as well you idiot.”

                Tommy reached over to Evan and grabbed him. He pulled him in close. A simple hug right now, “I love you so much. I don’t want to lose you.”

                “You won’t,” Evan replied. Evan curled up into Tommy’s arms.

                “Um,” Eddie said, “Did you two need a moment? Should I set up a guest room for you?”

                “Oh right,” Evan said, “I don’t think either of us is safe to drive anywhere,” He looked up at Tommy, “Stay with me tonight?”

                “Always,” Tommy said.

                Eddie sighed, “Give me a minute to get some stuff for a bed,” He walked out of the room. “And don’t you two even think about having sex on that couch or you will both live to regret it,” He called back in after.

                Tommy held Evan close to his chest, not letting him go. Evan could hear his heart racing right now. They kept silent, just laying there on the couch. This was a perfect moment. Tommy signed and felt complete again, “I’m going to have to try and convince you to move into my house though,” Tommy added, “I’m sorry but your place is just small,” He smiled.

                Evan smiled back, “I don’t think I thought my wording through,” he explained, “And I didn’t think you would actually want to move into my loft. It was more the ‘Let’s move in together’ part that I was trying to convey.”

                “We will need to work on communication,” Tommy held Evan close, “Each day I want to learn one new fact about you that I don’t know. And in return I’ll let you know a fact about me that you don’t know.”

                “You think I’ll be able to stop at just one fact?” Evan sounded incredulous, “Have you not been around me for the past six months?”

                “I don’t want to overwhelm either of us so lets just stick to one for now,” Tommy said.

                “I make no promises,” Evan replied, his voice haughty. Eddie chose that time to come in to let them know that the guest room was ready. He also asked them to please not have sex in his house tonight.

                “At least wait until you are at one of your places,” Eddie begged, “I don’t need to hear that.”

                “I make no promises,” Evan replied as he shakily got up, “Though I may be too drunk to do anything anyways.”

                “I’ll make sure that he behaves,” Tommy added. His head had cleared up a little more than Evan’s. Adrenaline must have burned off the alcohol in his system or something like that, “Just lead us to where we need to go.”

                Eddie leads the two men to a room with a bed. It was fairly sparse. But it was a bed. Evan went to the bed and faceplanted onto the pillows and immediately fell asleep. Tommy crawled in, wrapped his arms around Evan, who immediately curled up and sank into Tommy’s embrace. Eddie smiled, “I’m sure you remember where the bathroom is. Please don’t puke anywhere,” Eddie had a thought and left before returning with a small garbage can, “If you think Buck might get drunk sick, please aim him towards this.”

                “I’ll do my best,” Tommy said, “Good night, and thank you for taking care of him until I got here.”

                “He’s my best friend,” Eddie replied, “What else was I supposed to do?”

                Eddie smiled at Tommy and Evan laying in the bed. Evan had started to snore softly. Tommy just held him close and wouldn’t let go. He had to protect what they had now. Protect it at all costs. Slowly Tommy drifted off to sleep, the gentle snoring of Evan lulling him into a sense of peace.

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Author's Note: And thus ended another of my story ideas that just pops into my head. Let me know what you all think of this and I'll see you all next time I do a Make Me Write or get one of my stories complete.

Love, Steve

[bardicious]

Okay, there's actually quite a lot I love about Apocalypse, I rescind my anger on Mystique cause while I find her frustrating, and the under utilization of her power in general this movie, her character progress makes sense. Things I wish the movie did:

Acknowledge Mystique specifically went out looking for her SON, and brought him to Charles knowing he'd be safe there.

Didn't give Erik a wife and child, he really has enough misery in his life, like damn, poor guy. Maybe just show him just starting to accept humanity.

Killing Alex SUCKED. UNNECESSARY.

Letting Peter tell Erik he's his son.

Like I stated in my last post (I know I keep making lists lmaoo), get rid of Moira, she was quite literally there to "no homo" all the intimate events between Erik and Charles. Like, Erik literally turns his back on Apocalypse because of his love for Charles.

Less earthly destruction. This whole "bigger is better" trend in movies is what fucking ruins them. I wish it was more down to earth like the rest of their movies.

Making it obvious that all Apocalypse's henchmen were being strongly influenced by him. To the point I'd say those specific crimes were definitely not their fault. This is the reason he grabs Charles too, complete control over his henchmen, rather than catching them when their emotions are heavily clouding their judgement.

Other than that, chef's fucking kiss, the way Apocalypse looked through Erik's mind, SAW Charles, and called him "the answer". 10/10 CREEP! LOVE IT. Shaw did the fuckin SAME. Love that. God I wish Erik was there to see Charles stop breathing, and PANIC, NOT FREAKING MOIRA. UGHHH.

[stardustpinkart]

So, someone tried to assasinate Trump.

Pity they missed.

I KNOW its wicked to wish people harm but... Some people I dont think you would be sad to see drop dead. Trump, Putin, people who hurt young woman and children. The isarealis! The ones murdering, slaughtering children, bombing homes, raping prisoners, all while LAUGHING and smiling about like its a big game.

At the very least strip them of power so they cant hurt anyone anmore, which I though they were doing, his name dirt, losing money, being cut of tv appearences, losing buisiness... AND yet they allowed him to seriously try for a second candecy?

Im only sorry for the victims who were in the area. Supporters of him or not. I wish they hadent got killed.

Some of the plans Trump has for America include:

Ending gay marriage.

Ban-remove trans troops from the military.

Ban trans healthcare for kids

Outlaw Pornography

Imprison people who create pornogaphy(DEMONIZING sex workers)

Oh and btw the asshole and his platfrom "project 2025" defines transgender ideology as porno, so, YEAH, gunning to get any "dirty trannies" into prioson

National abortion ban

Abortion medication ban, restrict ivf acess, limit acess to conctraception in an effort to end recreational sex( SO your sex life is now the govs buisiness, and if you dont want a baby, there taking away you right to engage in safe sex)

End no fault divorce

Public health clinics must EMPHASISE the important of STRAIGHT marriage

Repeal any programs that support single mothers or LBGT parents

As per the bible the only legally recognized families are those of a husbad wife and BIOLIGICAL children(so I guess adopted dont count)

Limit social media interaction for children via parental and govermental controlls. They claim its cuz its for there own good, but its so they can controll what they see. They dont want confused kids looking up infromation about feeling trans, maybe gay, non binary, whatever, or even Gaza and progessive issues via the net. ITS CENSORSHIP and there thinking "Our kids wont be dirty lil homos and freaks if they cant SEE these sites"

End free school lunches

Infuse public education with christanity

Band education on race gender and slavery

AND thats just some of it.

....TRUMP is a bigoted, STUPID, racist, intolerant, SACK of shit. Hes like one of those old time polictions in the old days where segagration still existed and a woman was still property of her husband. And seems to want America just to be that way again. HOW much misery did he cause the last time he was president?

I dont care who defends him, he is a terrible human being with terrible, EVIL policies. And I wont be convinced otherwise, EVER.

There are some people SO awful, the world truly doesent need them

Voters, please, do your best! I live in England, but I would, I would WEEP, if these policies came into effect in the USA. I thought MOST of the world would.

[rab1darachn1d]

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[cantsayidont]

January 1996. Before it became a Harley Quinn thing, BIRDS OF PREY was Barbara Gordon's (barely) crypto-lesbian crimefighting polycule. After Babs was shot by the Joker and summarily discarded by the Bat-books, John Ostrander and Kim Yale reinvented the former Batgirl as Oracle, a computer hacker and information broker who for a while was Amanda Waller's second-in-command of the Suicide Squad. In 1995, Oracle became the costar of the leading homoerotic team-up franchise of the '90s, recruiting Black Canary and later various other superheroines for what was nominally a CHARLIE'S ANGELS type adventure series with Oracle as Charlie.

What's memorable about this initial special, aside from its horny Gary Frank art, is that Black Canary doesn't know who Oracle is except by reputation and as an electronically altered voice on the telephone. However, Dinah is going through a rough patch, so when she comes home to find an answering machine message from Oracle saying she has a dangerous job for her and has already bought her a first-class ticket to Gotham, Dinah decides she has nothing better to do but play out the string. Oracle has gotten her a fancy rental car and a swanky hotel suite, in which there's a throat mic and tiny transceiver that will let Oracle communicate with her (and surveil her, although Oracle already knows everything about her, from her recent breakup with Oliver Queen to her poor credit rating) 24/7:

So, Babs not only wants Dinah to do some legwork for her, but also dresses her up like a doll, watches her every move, and is a voice in her ear basically at all times. (The early BIRDS OF PREY stories often have scenes of Babs talking to Dinah from the bath or the hot tub, because that's the kind of series this is.) Rather than being creeped out by this weird stalker/control-freak behavior from an anonymous woman, Dinah says, "Sure, why not?" and decides to just go with it, even after Oracle starts bringing other women into the mix. (It seems pretty clear that when Dinah asks, "Are these your personal taste?" she's asking whether they're what Oracle wants to see Dinah in — which Dinah evidently doesn't have a problem with — rather than whether they're something Oracle herself would wear.)

This being a '90s comic book by right-wing homophobe Chuck Dixon, there are of course various no-homo evasions throughout, but I'm not sure how one is supposed to not read this as kind of gay. The second BIRDS OF PREY story, which teams Black Canary and Lois Lane (and is written not by Dixon, but by Jordan B. Gorfinkel, the editor of the initial special), has this little aside:

There's no way anyone writing something like this in 1995–96 wouldn't know how people were likely to read this. (Dinah does know that Oracle is a woman even in their first adventure, and while Babs typically distorts her voice when communicating with people as Oracle, it doesn't appear that she does that with Dinah.)

After a while, Dinah does become curious to know more about Oracle, but Babs refuses to let Dinah actually see her. Eventually, though, circumstances force the issue in BIRDS OF PREY #21:

Dixon's script for this issue contained the following note for artist Butch Guice:

The more drama you can squeeze from this the better. We’re going for The Pieta as opposed to anything that HINTS of the sexual. This scene is apparently RIPE for misinterpretation (or OVERinterpretation.) by some of our readers.

Mission accomplished — no lesbian implications here, boss!

So, as you can see, they have the "be gay" part down pretty well, and you may also be assured that Babs spends this series doing crimes. As a hacker, she of course commits computer fraud on the regular, breaking into restricted and classified systems (she's hacked the military GPS constellation so she can track Dinah, for instance), but she also routinely steals as much money as she needs to finance whatever equipment she needs and keep her girlfriend partner and their ever-growing list of attractive female cohorts in hot cars and fancy underwear. Vigilante superheroes generally take a pretty selective attitude about the law, but the number of felonies this once rather prim policeman's daughter and one-time congresswoman perpetrates honestly puts Catwoman to shame. The stories are frustratingly stupid and the art only gets hornier as it goes on, but what a good series this could have been if it were actually good.

[mialuna32]

I missed you, I promise - Sebastian Sallow

Word Count - 2505 words

Themes - Angst and fluff with a happy ending.

@froggoslegs

"Hi! How about post-game for Sebastian? Like, how mc accepted all that happens? :) Sweet sweet hurt comfort with a lot of hurt and dash of fluffy comfort at the end? 🙈"

Warnings - Cursing, homophobic slur, (only once though) talk of dark magic, mention of death, grieving of loved one, soft Sebastian :)

Summary - It is the beginning of another year at Hogwarts and Y/n is hoping to avoid Sebastian at all costs, as he continues grieving the loss of Professor Fig, but it seems that Sebastian Sallow has other plans.

Sebastian Sallow x Male Hufflepuff reader.

Professor Fig was a mentor.

Professor Fig was a friend.

Professor Fig was the father you never had.

But that didn't matter anymore.

He was gone.

He was gone and now you had no one.

Professor Fig probably would have assured you and say something along the lines of.

"You cannot blame yourself son. It will do you no good, things will get better, I promise."

But it didn't matter what Professor Fig would say

He was gone.

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You do not have a lot of memories of either of your parents but from what you know, both of your parents were muggles not having any knowledge of the wizarding world, or the fact that their son would become a powerful wizard.

Your father passed away from an unknown sickness before you were born and your mother died when you were 5 years old after from some sort of heart disease.

After your mothers death you were taken to live at a children's home, you spent 10 years alone in the orphanage unaware of the magic that you would soon possess.

The year of your 15th birthday, peculiar things started happening, books would begin floating, candles would suddenly light themselves and toys would move on their own. You ignored all of these occurrences in fear of being accused of witchcraft.

But one day after you had finished your schooling, you began to walk back to the children's home when suddenly someone had grabbed you from behind and pushed you into an abandoned alleyway.

When you got a good look at your attacker you noticed that there were three boys who also lived in the same children's home.

They were probably not even a year older than you.

But they were bigger.

They were stronger.

It was three against one.

You had no chance.

They started pushing you around, taunting you, saying how you're going to be burned at the stake.

They pushed you to the ground holding you down making you scream and cry.

You do not think you'll ever get their horrible words out of your mind.

Freak.

Coward.

Stupid.

Ugly.

Crybaby.

Homo.

Then all of sudden something inside you snapped and you let out a blood curdling scream that caused a powerful force to throw all three boys into the wall down to the ground.

They didn't gain any fatal injuries.

A few cuts and bruises at the most.

Fortunately for you though Professor Fig had been passing by.

He had witnessed the whole thing.

Professor Fig oblivated the boys and took you in.

Professor Fig was a remarkable human being.

He was kind.

He was loving.

He was understanding.

He was patient.

He gave you food, water, shelter and care.

He taught you everything you needed to know about magic.

He made you feel like a carefree child again.

He made you happier than you had in long time.

He was everything you ever imagined for a father.

He was everything you needed for a father.

But now he was gone.

..............................................................................................................................

Losing Professor Fig had been the biggest loss of you're life.

Add on the pressure of controlling ancient magic, Rookwood and Rankrok, Lodgok's death, Anne's curse and losing two of your closest friends.

Losing him...

It was a lot to handle and sometimes you feel more alone than you did in the muggle world.

Luckily your fellow Hufflepuff and closest friend, Poppy Sweeting was not the kind of girl that would leave her friends vulnerable and alone.

Poppy owled her grandmother, Clementine Sweeting explaining to her of your situation and she immediately requested that you stay at their home.

So for the entire summer you lived with Poppy and her grandmother, you were even given your own bedroom, 3 meals a day and you and Poppy got to care for magical creatures, going on late night adventures in the forest beside Poppy's home, sleepovers in each other bedrooms.

It was the most fun you've had since you lost Professor Fig and realising that, you think that you really will be ok.

You may have had lost a father.

But you gained a sister.

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As you walk down the halls of Hogwarts, you feel yourself almost excited to finally be back, you may have lost a lot in the last year, but you have gained a family with the Sweetings, found love caring for magical creatures and finally learning how to control your ancient magic.

As long as you can avoid a certain Slytherin boy everything will be perfect.

You are so lost in your thoughts that you don't see the body coming towards you.

You bump into someone, causing you to stumble back slightly in surprise, you let out a breath of relief as you brush down your hair which you have recently begun styling with the help and advice from Clementine Sweeting.

You begin to apologise to the person that you had accidentally bumped into, when you look up and notice the dark brown eyes looking into yours.

His hand is inches from yours, as he continues to stare at you.

You bite your lip, not knowing what the other boy is going to do.

Until you feel a hand brush against yours.

And a piece of parchment is slipped into your hand.

He closes his hand around yours, tightening your grip on the piece of parchment.

He then walks off leaving you flustered and red in the face.

You then look down at the parchment that he had handed you before unrolling it and reading the messy scrawl.

Dear y/n

Please meet me in the undercroft after dinner. I wish to speak with you. I haven't been able to stop thinking about you. Forever yours You're favourite Slytherin.

You cough trying to regain you're composure as you attempt to fix your hair once more and straighten out your uniform, before slipping the letter into you're robe pocket and continuing you're walk to the great hall.

Stupid Slytherins.

..............................................................................................................................

You enter the great hall for the start of term feast, donning the vibrant black and yellow Hufflepuff robes once more.

You can't help but feel the dark gaze of a certain Slytherin following your every move.

You ignore the stare that you feel burning through you and continue walking towards the Hufflepuff table.

You sit down at the Hufflepuff table smiling kindly at Poppy and the other Hufflepuffs that you are familiar with from last year.

You talk with Poppy and discuss how you are both excited for classes to start, you are both especially looking forward to this years care of magical creatures classes.

Poppy gives you a knowing look whilst you are the middle of eating dinner. You raise your eyebrows at her in question before she giggles, leans towards you and whispers in your ear.

"A certain Slytherin boy is watching you"

You roll your eyes in exasperation before swatting her lightly on the arm.

She giggles even more and you can't help but let out a small laugh before you both go back to your dinner.

But you can still feel his stare as you continue to eat

And the letter he had slipped you before dinner, burns a hole in your pocket.

When the feast is over and everyone is dismissed to their dormitories. You tell Poppy how you need to discuss an important matter with Professor Weasley before classes begin tomorrow.

Poppy clearly knows you're lying but lets you go without complaint knowing who you're going to see.

..............................................................................................................................

As you step into the undercroft you notice that nothing has changed since the last time you visited.

You smile at the multiple scorch marks on all of the walls.

You smile once again at the memory of him teaching you Confringo.

You can still smell the smoke from his robes when you were practicing the spell.

You also remember how this was one of the last happy and innocent memories that you shared together before everything that had happened.

You then notice the brunette boy with dark eyes boring into your soul, he is leaning against the stone wall in a dark corner of the undercroft with his arms crossed over his broad chest.

His Slytherin robes have been abandoned off to the side, now only wearing his school uniforms three piece suit and it somehow makes him look even more attractive than normal.

He looks you up and down, but stays silent.

You scoff to yourself before you turn on your heel and attempt to leave the undercroft before a hand wraps around your wrist and spins you forward to face him.

You let out a soft squeak.

Your face turns scarlet.

You bite your lip.

And drop your head down to stare at the ground.

He lets out a chuckle and it makes your face flush in embarrassment even more.

You suddenly feel a hand softly touch you're face as he tilts your head up towards him.

And for the first time in what seems like forever, you get a good look at him.

He has clearly gained a lot more muscle over the summer, his muscles showing through his vest top and shirt.

He has also grown over nearly a foot and half tall, and his shoulders and chest have become much broader so now his frame is towering over yours that it makes you weak in the knees.

But then you remember.

You remember the pain.

You remember how he didn't even hesitate to cast the spell.

You remember the manipulation.

You remember the hurtful words he had said to you.

You remember the evil that you saw in the eyes that used to be so comforting.

You remember the words he had shouted as he cast the spell.

You remember a body hitting the floor.

And suddenly all you want to do is scream and cry.

You have seen so much for someone so young.

You tear yourself away from him, tears building up in your eyes like they had done so that night.

He looks at you in concern but remains silent, which makes you're blood boil with anger.

"Well you wanted to talk, so talk!! I'm not stopping you.'

You hate that the first words you say to him in over a year are in anger but you suddenly can't help yourself.

The anger inside you begins taking over.

"God I really must be an idiot if I fell for another one of your tricks"

His mouth opens as if he is about to speak but closes his mouth once again, seemingly stunned by your forwardness.

You let out a pained chuckle at his reaction before you cross your arms over your chest.

"Oh wow!! it seems that I of all people have left the great and marvellous Sebastian Sallow in shock!! I'm honoured!!"

You have begun raising you're voice in anger but your facial expression does not match your words or tone as Sebastian can see the tears rolling down your face.

He lifts his hand towards your cheek to wipe away the tears, but you flinch away from him as you look at the boy in front of you.

"I-I understand that you were looking for a cure to help Anne, I really do Sebastian, but you have to understand that you went to far!!"

You expect him to stay silent as he had been the entire night or to disagree with you just like he had been the year before but as he looked into your eyes all he said was.

"I know"

You look at him in surprise and tears still streaming down you're face.

He looks at you in anguish as he stares at your red puffy eyes, the tear tracks on your cheeks and how your whole body is trembling in anger and sadness.

All he wants to do is wrap you up in his arms and never let go, but Sebastian knows before he can do that, he needs to fully explain himself first.

"I know that what I did that night was wrong, I was just so consumed with grief, anger and desperation to save Anne that I never considered your feelings or Ominis'. I know that I hurt the both of you. I promised Ominis that I would never use Dark magic again and I broke that promise and I said some truly hurtful things to you which were not true at all... I was just so focused on saving Anne It seemed that I forgot about everyone else important to me as well and I apologise for that y/n, you are one of the most important people in my life and I took you for granted"

He takes a cautious step forward towards you, giving you the time to step away if you want to.

But you don't.

You stay rooted in the same spot as he lays a hand on your cheek and you can't help but lean into the touch.

He rests his forehead against yours and caresses your face with his hand.

The only sound that can be heard in the undercroft is your whimpers as you're crying begins to die down and Sebastians heavy breathing.

Sebastian lifts his head up to look at you as his eyes scans over your appearance.

He then lets out a small smile before running his hands through your hair.

"Your hair looks different"

You bite you're lip to hide the smile blossoming onto your face and nod your head.

"Y-Yeah I uh started styling it... does It look ok??"

Sudden insecurity starts to fill your head with self doubting thoughts.

Sebastian shakes his head with a smile and leans in closer to you

"No No it looks amazing... your amazing..."

And all of a sudden Sebastian's lips are on yours.

You smile in to the kiss as you wound your arms around his neck and bring yourself up onto the tips of your toes to reach his height.

He wraps his hands around your waist and pulls you in closer, deepening the kiss.

When you separate from the kiss you both smile at each other before he whispers to you

"Can I tell you a secret??"

You laugh before nodding your head as you look up at him into his dark brown eyes.

"I missed you... in the months that we have not spoken it has been utter hell and I do not intend to go through it again, so I swear never to do what I done to you before ever again, no more lying, no more hurtful words, no more pain and sorrow. Because as long as I'm here I will make sure nothing and no one is ever going to hurt you again, even if it is me"

Another tear rolls rolls down your cheek at his words and you can't help but whisper

"Do you Promise??"

Sebastian nods his head with a meaningful look adorning his face before he wipes away the tear on your cheek and whispers back.

"I promise"

This was my first ever fan-fiction so I hoped you enjoy!!

Especially @froggoslegs who was so kind as to request this story and help me gain a bit of inspiration. I hope I get many more request because this was a lot of fun to write!! I will write anything for Sebastian Sallow and Ominis Gaunt. I'm not the best at writing smut but I don't mind giving it a go!! I'll write whatever you request so don't be afraid to ask!! :)

[halt-kun]

My Hero Academia Chapter 418 - A small heart

We're in the deepest trauma of Shigaraki, will we manage to heal his psyche ?

Let's find out

oh no, the hate is there

doggo is dead (poor dog)

Deku is frozen in place which is understandable

can you help this kid ? how ?

I'm crying again

Deku is horrified which is understandable

will he cry ? not sure

Holding yourself together through pure mental strength

that's sick bro

are you Undyne ?

*battle against a true hero starts playing*

Aww baby, no that wasn't a choice

you didn't know

you didn't know

you didn't know

sorrow and perplexity ?

will it reverse his whole psyche or just give him a new perspective on his life ?

He'll still need to see a good psychiatrist after that right ?

That's Iida's hand holding Deku after the vigilante arc right ?

RIGHT ?

THANK GOD IIDA TENYA EXISTS

And Kirishima for Bakugo

NO HOMO

OH NO BABY

hug him now Deku

I mean Touya is the only one that is irredeemable here, the guy chose to be a problem up till the end

mainly because his character was balanced by Shouto so Horikoshi could also go all in on the guy who didn't want to be saved

His framework changed, he wants to help, to be a hero, destruction has meaning now but you still need a few steps my dude

Oh no are those memories from before, did he get a quirk transplant from the fucked up doctor

is he quirkless ?????

I'm going to cry again, AFO really wanted to soil Shimura's descendance didn't he ?

Next, Deku and Shigaraki vs AFO

end him again, perfect victory

well poor baby Shigaraki

manipulated by lord empty narcissist here present

I mean there is always the problem of free choice and what makes you accountable but AFO can be such a freak when it comes to controlling every minutes and thoughts of people to fit what he expects of them that I don't think Shigaraki could have avoided this fate

yet he chose to be a hero and help those rejected, that's how he sees it, this change of heart is all his

Touya on the other hand, really gave up and just wanted to see his abusor suffer no matter the cost. The point wasn't retribution anymore or justice but pain pain pain and meeting his end

Well this is going to be interesting too !

[obedienttransgirl]

Hello everyone. My name is Amber. I am a 31 year old closeted trans girl. Due to circumstances within my life, I am sadly not in a place where I can be able to transition and live as my true gender. I suffer with depression that I have been living with ever since I was a kid due to being born in the wrong body, OCD, and some trauma from my childhood. I wanted to create this blog so it can be a place where I am able to be myself and not have to pretend to be a man, as well as a way to escape from crushing reality of my life. This blog will contain a mixture of my interests and hobbies, expression of my femininity, and to engage with my kinks.

Before I created this pinned post I used to engage with some kinks that….. well I’m not really proud of. They felt really good and aroused me, and I don’t think I’ll ever get rid myself of desire to engage with, the fact is they made me feel worthless and made me even more depressed. I think I was using them as a form of self destruction because I don’t really like myself that much but no matter how much they turn me on it only made me feel worse about myself. So I went through my blog to delete posts I made or reblogged and unfollowed tags and other people who engaged in those kinks as well. In a way I’m hoping to make a fresh start to my account. If there happened to be people who followed me explicitly for those types of posts I am truly sorry but I no longer wish to take part in those kinks. I think that’s most of what I wanted to say so I’ll finish this post off with a little info about me.

Interests: Video Games, Anime, Metal Music, Alt and goth aesthetic, and cute kitties and cats

Sexuality: I’m bisexual and 100 percent a submissive bottom

Kinks: Gentledom, feminization, mind control/hypnosis, Bimbofication/dumbing down, having someone take control of my life, tell me what to do and to make all decisions for me because they know what’s best for their good girl better than I do. Basically I want to be someone’s obedient good girl pet. And also I love degradation(within reason) and I have a misogyny and patriarchy kink

Hard Limits: Pain play, hardcore degradation ( I like degradation to a degree, like telling me I’m a dumb slut that needs to submit to a man is fine for example, but I don’t like being told that I’m worthless, or disgusting or being told no one will like a freak like me or similar extreme degradation) ,homo and transphobia, pedos, misgendering, and no matter what, never ask me where I live. Other than what country I live in I will never disclose my location. Anyone violates my hard limits and I will immediately block you. Edit: I am personally ok with the term sissy. Most trans women are not and for good reason but I am ok with it but with limits. I am not a sissy fa**ot. I am not a sissy boy or boi or whatever. I am a woman, and if you want to call me a sissy girl that’s fine. But I am not a gay boy, femboy or whatever kind of other boy you can think of. I am a trans woman that happens to be ok with the term sissy. Please respect that.

One last thing, I would love to roleplay as a pet but I will never meet anyone in person nor will I talk via voice chat or show pictures of myself. I am not ready for that and I just can’t do it. I have severe social anxiety due to childhood trauma and I can’t go any further than text chat. I will also never do tributes. If you are under 18 years old, LEAVE THIS BLOG IMMEDIATELY!

I am not looking for masters or mistresses. I’m a closeted trans woman and for now I need it to stay that way.

[javaghoul]

can i request touka with prompts 12 and 14 for the tokyo ghoul january prompts? 🥺👉👈 also i'm excited to see what your thoughts about homo for these prompts too!! (i typed yomo not homo but im keeping it bc it's funny) i hope you have a good night! :D

i originally read this message, got to "homo", re-read it again and was like 🤭hehe typo🤭

TOUKA & 12: What she does to relax

Touka finds it difficult to relax; if she isn't worrying about her own problems, someone else's will be on her mind

Definitely googles "Relaxing activities" and watches a couple of short YouTube lifestyle videos (realises she can't stand the plastic "relaxing evening routine" videos)

She'll try out what other people do, like taking a long bath, doing a face and hair mask... She briefly considers picking up a book 😱

Whilst the above works to a degree, her biggest problem is she flits from one thing to another. She'll just get settled in the bathtub, then think about the laundry that needs doing. Or she'll finish applying her face mask, then start cleaning the kitchen. Like seriously Touka can you just switch off for one minute please??

Anyway, you know what does force her to relax? GAMING. She'll be playing a shitty fremium game on her phone, and then have the lightbulb moment where she's like ???I have no face tension???what was I worrying about again???

Saves up and gets herself a console of some kind. I think she'd love the cosy games like Animal Crossing. It's harmless, colourful, cute animal fun. For her it's a form of mindfulness

She stays away from shoot em ups and most RPGs. She's way too competitive for that

So yeah, to answer the prompt: she struggles to relax because she can't switch off, but anything that requires full concentration -like video games- works 👌

14: things they find attractive in a s/o

Someone who is more laid back than her, but not to the point where they're a pushover. It's a plus if they can look after themselves

Touka is attracted to (and needs) someone who gives her security. They say what they mean, their actions match their words, they're not flighty in any way... Reliable basically lol

A person with a good moral compass, but not to the point where they're a goody-two-shoes if that makes sense? Like, they'll fight against people being shit, but they're no saint either

Stability - if Touka considers dating someone, she has a long-term relationship in mind. I don't think she'd be into a casual set-up. So she'd like a partner that's on the same page there

Somebody fun! The girl is a bit of a control freak, she loves finding things to be stressy about, so a partner that FORCES her into spontaneous outings or other low-key activities would not only be attractive to her, but necessary for her. She may be a bit grumbly at first, but it's all an act

On a superficial level, I think she'd appreciate good hygiene lol. Maybe not Tsukiyama level grooming, but someone who looks -and smells- clean.

A partner who is taller than her would be nice. I think she'd like the size difference, like they could protect her (since she's the one who usually comes to the rescue of others). It'd be a welcome change.

I also think she'd appreciate someone who takes care of themselves. Not a super health-freak, but someone that values their health.

I hope these are ok - I enjoy writing Touka stuff. I don't think she gets enough appreciation

[techmomma]

yeah i’m into milfs and dilfs and gilfs because I’m a freak but ALSO because regular people, no matter how attractive or not, get older. nobody stays young forever, and I don’t stop loving people just because they get older and their bodies change for reasons they can’t control, the same thing that’s been happening to people since before homo erectus stood on two feet.

basically when people say “ew, why?” my response is “because that’s gonna be me and you one day.” :/

[alexandraisyes]

give me the details of why blood can be such an issue for your "Highly unconventional" fanfic Sun, because at some point it doesnt seem to be an issue (or at least isnt at the forethought) and other times its like the absolute worse thing, even when not related to something tradgic (R.I.P. the cats. in the name of angst, theyre an easy target)

Sun has Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD) which is a cluster C disorder characterized primarily by a need for cleanliness, organization, control, and perfectionism. (It's what gave OCD the rep for being the "cleaning disorder" even though OCPD and OCD are two completely different disorders.) On top of this, he has Fazbear cleaning protocols as the daycare attendant (the two are very much related in his case).

The thought of germs, or anything inherently unhygienic, can send him down a really bad obsessive spiral that would involve scouring whatever was deemed as "contaminated" and making it right again. It also causes him a massive headache because his head is going off with notifications about the mess. As long as there's something else that's more important or distracting he's okay, and it's not going to bug him since he's doing something else and doesn't really have the attention span to notice it. But as soon as he's left with his thoughts it's on the forefront of his attention as a massive, glaring problem.

He's learned how to (mostly) manage it, keeping a tidy and clean environment, etc etc. Catching messes before they can get to a point where it's triggering. Cleaning up spills as they happen.

Also, he just fucking hates blood. It's supposed to stay in the body, not out of it. He's slightly hemophobic (Hemo, not homo), and is just really fucking squicked out by the idea of something bleeding. That's not normal, that's not right (you gotta remember his base programming is a theatre attendant with daycare protocols slapped over it). He doesn't have the proper training to deal with medical emergencies, and that also freaks him out.

Also yes, R.I.P. the cats (into pieces this is my last free fork)

[murfeelee]

IWTV 2022 INSP - EP5: A Vile Hunger for Your Hammering Heart Pt2 

Claudia: “Daddy Lou...” Louis: *hugs* “Thank you.” *cries* Lestat: “The prodigal daughter.... Quick stop home to do laundry before you f**k off for good.” Claudia: “A quick stop to pick up Louis.” Louis: .... Lestat: ??? Lou. Claudia (mentally): [[Come with me, Louis!]] Louis: .... Lestat: “Louis?” Claudia (mentally): [[His love is a small box he keeps you in. Don't stay in it!]] Lestat: “LOUIS! A thousand nights of sulking, and at the first sight of her, you are just gonna up and leave me?!“ Claudia: “Please, come with me! Let's meet vampires WORTHY of your love!” Lestat: “AAH!” *attacks Claudia* Louis: “Get the f**k off her!” *attacks Lestat*

-- Interview with the Vampire (AMC 2022, S01E05)

MY THOUGHTS & CC CREDITS

MY THOUGHTS RANT ALERT (rabid AF & VERY lengthy venting about Lestat’s trash decision skills, and Loustat’s toxic sludge of a relationship jfc)

This episode, man.

If you know the IWTV book and the movie, you already know Lestat & Claudia end up literally at each other’s throats, and cross the point of no return as mortal enemies, basically.

But the film’s all wrapped up in Lestat being a sadistic cavalier sarcastic little pissant; and Claudia being a ruthless 10-year old immortal killing machine; and Louis being a masochistic indecisive shell stuck with Lestat through circumstance (not love, no homo!), and Claudia through responsibility (and pedophilic???? love).

The magic of the AMC version is that they’re working in 2022, not the 70s (book) or 90s (film), so they have the luxury to explore what it'd be like for an Alternate Universe Louis and Lestat to really BE together, and raise Claudia

--and how everything inevitably went dead wrong:

Lestat making Claudia was never the mistake. Lestat making LOUIS was.

Seeing the way AMC did everything was so dang good/awful. With Louis & Lestat, theirs was a too-brief whirlwind romance between monsters; a married couple blindly raising a kid together in the midst of carnage and trauma--because they’re vampires, sucking the life out of everyone and everything around them.

They won’t communicate, can’t relate to each other, and don’t really even know each other. Despite Lestat’s false 1st impression of Louis strutting around like a tough guy with that cane-sword, Louis was not a violent man, and Louis HATED being a vampire. That made being with a bloodthirsty hedonist like Lestat next to impossible, no matter how much they loved each other. Especially once Louis started eating animals instead of people, and his diet disgusted Lestat, just as Lestat’s diet disgusted Louis.

Unlike Louis, Claudia took to killing like a bat straight outta Hell (and nearly got them all busted by the COPS because of it). But Lestat & Claudia couldn’t STAND one another by the end. They really were father and daughter in all the worst ways possible.

Violent manipulative control freaks, they both loved Louis deeply, and both wanted him to choose one of them over the other, while doing everything they could to make sure that they couldn’t coexist peacefully in the same space.

IMO, this show’s all about Maker/Fledgling and parent/child bonds. Lestat & Louis love each other romantically, and Louis & Claudia love each other in the familial way. So there are deep emotional bonds. But Lestat made Louis & Claudia vampires, so even though they have a permanent magical bond as Maker and Fledgling, Lestat can't read their minds. But as “sibling” vampires, Claudia and her Daddy Lou CAN speak mentally to each other. So they can understand & know & relate to each other better and on a way deeper level than Lestat ever could with either one of them, even though he made them. 

And I agree with the fandom that yeah, Louis 100% liked it that way. When people have kids to “save” the marriage, the baby is a band-aid as much as it is a comfort object, a new emotional bond between parent and child to give them the love they felt they were missing from their spouse. In EP4 Louis told Lestat “’Happy?’ We were never happy!“ He was going to LEAVE Lestat in EP3, before stumbling across Claudia and going back to him. Louis just wanted someone he could TALK to--a new Paul, a new Miss Lily, a new Grace. (Ultimately: DANIEL MALLOY interviewing him--Louis needs SO MUCH therapy jfc.) Lestat made Louis selfishly, for himself (and did a pisspoor job learning about Louis beforehand or educating him in vampirism). And Louis selfishly wanted someone for himself, too--particularly once Lestat made it clear he wasn’t gonna be monogamous & started cheating. Claudia wasn’t made out of love, she was made out of selfishness, spite & panic.

All this made the AWFUL communication between Lestat, Louis & Claudia  doomed from the start, as Lestat was immediately left out of his own family--again (his worst nightmare)--all while not realizing/accepting that Louis & Claudia’s father/daughter bond wasn't a threat to the romantic bond he had with Louis.

All of Lestat’s efforts to get closer to Louis (than Claudia) became WAY too heavy-handed--as if stalking & terrorizing Louis in EP1 into being with him wasn’t bad enough. >_> And that’s on top of Lestat’s self-destructive contradictory behavior constantly cheating on Louis to try and rile his jealousy. Which was FUTILE, since all Lestat’s cheating did was push Louis deeper into depression and further away from him--straight to Claudia; the one bond Louis felt he had left!

And then Episode 5 happened, and Lestat REALLY effed up.

Like, we know Lestat’s whipped, Louis’ IT for him, but obviously there was a part of him that really did hate Louis--enough for him to beat him like that. But if it was that bad, why not just LEAVE???? Lestat had all the power & resources--let Claudia & Louis go, and find yourself someone you’re more compatible with, ffs! The swamp/dump is calling, sir! 🤡 

But because Loustat are endgame in the books, I cannot WAIT to see how AMC handles Lestat’s redemption arc, both as the (anti-)hero of the Vampire Chronicles, and how both Lestat AND Louis figure out how to grow the eff up and MATURE enough to be worthy of EACH OTHER by the end of the story.

IMO, Loustat are soulmates who met at the wrong time. Not exactly star-crossed lovers, but they definitely went in too deep way too soon. In the books, Lestat hadn’t gone through his growing pains when he met Louis--he’d only been a vampire for like a decade, and careened from one tragedy to the next, not knowing ANYTHING about vampirism to help teach Louis or Claudia anything either. While here on the show, it’s Louis who suffers loss after loss after loss, and is given ZERO time or opportunity to process any of his trauma before he’s made a vampire, married, and a parent in quick succession. (And the books go even further, with everything that happens to him in Merrick and the Prince Lestat trilogy.)

And here, Lestat’s a ~200 year old EXPERT in vampirism, who is DELIBERATELY withholding information and keeping secrets from them, because AMC’s Lestat ALREADY KNOWS about Armand and AKASHA and Marius, but like a MORON he doesn’t TALK TO LOUIS about it (because Marius told Lestat NOT to). So they (especially Claudia) KNOW Lestat’s LYING, and think he’s keeping them with him seemingly as their hateful & controlling JAILER/SLAVE MASTER, rather than their loving & paranoid protector. CLOWN BEHAVIOR, Lestat! 🤡

And that’s not even saying anything yet about the LOADED significance of Loustat’s interracial homosexual relationship, with Lestat’s “non-discriminating” pansexualism and stubborn “color-blindness” and racism doesn’t exist in Europe attitude like WTF DRUGS ARE YOU EVEN ON SIR as if the FRENCH didn’t colonize the West Indies and Africa and NEW ORLEANS as some of THE most racist Europeans ever GTFOH. And Louis’ Catholic Guilt and internalized-homophobia and struggles being black during Jim Crow and whatever Frenchophile-blinders he had on to excuse Lestat as a “safe” white man he could be with, when the man’s a whole vampire LITERALLY hunting you, good GOD have mercy on this baby lamb against the WOLF KILLER Lestat. And Claudia calling Lestat on his crap EVERY TIME, knowing he was keeping secrets and constantly interrogating him, following him and spying on him as he cheated on Louis, calling him “Massa,” I CANNOT. 👑

I love this show, AMC’s a genius. This one episode encapsulates SO many different issues and aspects of these characters, it’s wild. IMO, some of the fandom needs to calm down about EP5 and Lestat’s “character assassination.” YES, Lestat’s the villain on the show. He’s the villain in the movie, too, lest we forget! That's why Lestat spends the next like DOZEN books in the Vampire Chronicles trying to clear his name, getting the reader to see things from HIS perspective, after Louis ROASTED him for filth and made Lestat look so dang bad in THE interview that started it all.

I love bashing on Lestat, because that’s the whole POINT of IWTV--it’s Louis still mad as all hell at his ex 100 years later, venting to Daniel about his TRAUMA and hurt. You’re SUPPOSED to be mad at Lestat, and be on Louis’ side as he goes off on him in the interview, feeling just as hurt and betrayed as he did, because you too LIKE--love--Lestat, and were just as seduced and blindsided as Louis was.

Other than IWTV and Merrick, the Vampire Chronicles are NOT Louis’ story, they’re Lestat’s, a narcissistic egomaniacal lovable a-hole, and the books do the heavy lifting of letting you slowly get to know him, as he admits to his flaws and mistakes and finally REDEEMS himself--in both the reader’s eyes--AND LOUIS’.

IMO, AMC is really hammering it home how THE BOOKS are Lestat’s long AF apology letter to Louis, for letting him down.

Chile, lemme calm myself down and get back to playing the Sims.

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CC CREDITS (WIPs)

- Louis sweater by EA

- Claudia overalls by Momo, jacket ACC by M1ssduo, shirt by EA

- Lestat shirt & pants in gamma by me (they’re all kinds of effed up, trust me)

- Poses X X (there were an effton more; I IDER some of them, sorry)

- A bunch of poses by @danjaley​ as usual LOL X X X

- Vampire attack poses by Sea (Direct DL)

- One falling pose was definitely by ahiruchanet, but I can’t find a post or link yet

[chrispychanniem]

BL Title: Fahlanruk

My Honest Opinion :

Okay, I finally finished watching this series and I must admit, this series is something. Of course, the storyline is quite unexpected. Yes unexpected and not unique. There are many series based on the "friends with benefits" concept in the West, both homo and hetero. But this is my first time watching an Asian series talk about this topic. Also, I just love that this series has tried it's best to show the complicated emotions which we go through. My only complaints are that the story of the love triangle between Charles, Tar and Pink was rather poorly written. It had a lot of potential to be a rather funny story where a Fujoshi has no idea of two guys fighting over her. Also, they could have given us more comic relief. Talking about rather serious stuff for about 40 minutes with barely 5-7 minutes of comic relief was a little overwhelming for me.

Let's talk about the couples now. The Fahlan and Sherbet pairing was really well done and actors portrayed their roles to absolute perfection. Also, their journey from sex to love making was really beautiful. In the beginning, they were fucking like nasty rabbits but as the episodes went on, it was clear that both Fahlan and Sherbet didn't give a shit about the "friends with benefits" tag and Sherbet especially, only used the tag as a sheild to chase Fahlan away. Fahlan's character is my personal favourite. I just love how he is respectful yet savage. He didn't cuss anyone yet managed to tell them off, making it clear that he wanted nothing to do with them. As for Sherbet, he is a typical artist, drunk and talented. And like any other artist, he feels many emotions, all at once. Also, having to deal with the separation of his parents at an young age and always longing for love and affection, made him yearn for love yet skeptical of it at the same time.

Now, let's talk about Prince and Gear. This is the only chill couple in the entire series. Gear was jealous of the closeness of friendship between Sherbet and Prince, yet he never gave up on Prince. And that's a green flag right there. He trusted his boyfriend entirely. As for Prince, he is my second favourite character after Fahlan. My boy stood his ground throughout the series and not for once did he let anybody take him for granted or talk shit about him.

Now, this is where I have some serious problems with the writers. The build-up that this pair got was really amazing, and I was really looking forward to see their dating era. At least, I wanted Ping to have a few heartfelt dialogues where he finally confesses to Tap. Alas! That didn't happen. I honestly felt like their ending was rather rushed. Nevertheless, we got a happy ending.

Now, before I forget, Sher's twin,Tam, is hella fine and him in a bar, dressed in a white shirt and gray trousers, and drinking, is what I live for. I mean, that was freaking hot. Also, his calm and controlled character was hot as hell. Ahem, we must stay focused brothers. In conclusion, it's a pretty good series and is definitely worth watching.

[flick-of-the-wrist]

I was reading an early Stephen King story about male record execs (and their male conquests) and I thought to myself: surely Freddie Mercury had a toss about in the proverbial hay with John Reid.

In other words, might they have fucked?

I don't say this to imply that every time two gay men entered the same room, they automatically jumped into bed together. That's not only outlandish, but it's more than a tad homophobic. After all, no matter how few eligible gay bachelors were willing receivers (or givers for that matter) in the 1970s, horniness simply cannot make a swan out of an ugly duckling.

However, I digress.

The world as we know it today was not the world in the 1970s. We think of our world as much more politically correct than any person who lived through the 1970s thought of their world, let me just tell you. It would shock the hell out of people to know what kinds of things were said and done in the 70s.

And not all of them were bad.

In fact, what's bad about two adult gay men having sex? Maybe there's the moral dilemma of a record exec (John Reid) boinking his newly signed, very green, but obviously queer talent (Freddie--I mean, Queen, of course). But that's also what makes it so god damn appealing. I mean, John Reid was obviously gay. Freddie was obviously (or at least obviously to anyone who cared to look) gayer than a daffodil, darling. And not only was he homo as fuck, he was also always aching for connection.

That, in itself, doesn't mean they'd just immediately hop into bed. For example, I do not think that Freddie and Kenny Everett ever fucked, even though they had chemistry out the wazoo. Nor do I think that he and Elton John ever fucked (they were simply BFFS, 4ever and always). I don't think he and David Wigg ever fucked, either, despite the incessant flirting (the bigger the better---in EVERYTHING). The list goes on.

I do have trouble saying with absolute certainty that Freddie Mercury didn't witness, aid, or abet in one of John Reid's orgasms, though. There's something about them that just speaks to a fucking relationship. Maybe it's the closeness.

But, but, but, you might say: Freddie was close with a lot of people. He actively rested his cute little head on Roger Taylor's shoulders. And, though I'm a huge fan of Froger fics, I don't think (nay, I absolutely know) they ever did the nasty. He practically HUMPED our boy Brian May onstage, and yet never did their penises meet (besides tentatively, like stalwart neighbors, across the room in the early days before each band member had his own dressing room).

Freddie was an incorrigible flirt, and a horny git who might have humped a table leg if he thought it would please the audience, but the man was also a sensitive and deeply emotional human being who knew when to keep his freak on a leash and when to let it burst out of its cage. Where business was concerned, I think he kept his penis as a Victorian couple might have kept a very willful child: seen and not heard.

Still, still, there is something cheeky in the way Freddie and John looked at each other. I think they fucked. At least once. It wasn't intentional, or planned. What good sex ever is? And, despite Freddie's misgivings about mixing business and pleasure, I think he was just young enough that he blurred the lines. He let John seduce him (really, we all know it was Freddie who was the seductress). Then, he put his finger on John's lips and told him it could never happen again. Now that John had a taste of that immaculate bussy, he was to be in Freddie's control forevermore.

Now, before you go on a rampage and declare me mentally unfit to blog, just know that I have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about. Just like you, dear reader, I did not know Freddie Mercury, so I have no earthly idea whom he did or did not fuck.

I only have my imagination. And this lovely fic, which has- admittedly- twisted my arm.

[genderjester]

I do love embracing and reclaiming being"weird" or a "freak" as a queer person however i do also think itd be very funny to turn it around on homo-/transphobes like who gave them the authority on whats "normal" anyways? Like u are the ones color coding infants and demanding control over someone else's bodily autonomy. Im not giving u the comfort of playing the freak for u. Look in the mirror bitch