#hmmmm anyway. much to think about.
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I have the opportunity to spend a month in Michigan this autumn and that should be an easy decision (go! especially before I have more responsibilities) but it’s not
#I mean. the person I'm dating rn is from there and a big thing is us deciding that we want to try to make this work#and given that we're both very sad at the thought of things changing from how they are now we do want to try#but god Michigan is so far away#and in a car dependent country. and I can't drive. and do not want to be dependent on them or their family#but also this is quite the opportunity.. I'd get to see Detroit and Ann Arbor and Chicago and Toronto.. lakes...#it's a whole other continent that I've never been to like of course that would be exciting#but deciding to go feels so. definite. it's a real commitment to this relationship#a relationship which is making me happy but yeah. of course I still miss my ex we were together for more than half a decade#and I'm still just pained by him never working on himself because things could've been okay I think#hmmmm anyway. much to think about.
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uh hi. meet jas(mine)???
#HELP MEEE I AM SO EMBARRASSED TO POST THIS#literally have been letting this sit for days marinating#BUT HERE WE ARE#PEEPAW JAMIL#anyways i've been thinking about that one trope where something sends a fanchild back in time to nrc and shenanigans ensue#and for the record yuusha and jamil would not want children in the future#i think they'd be focused on travelling or something#but i thought about this and i was like HMMMM#“it could be cute i'll do a little sketch"#and then it kept. going ;;;#hhh family headcanons makes me feel so soft ;;;#so uh this child will just be from an alternate timeline#i imagine auntie najma being too much of an influence on her much to jamil's dismay#i might give her a tiger beastman friend based off rajah too#-✧ my art#twst art#twst#twisted wonderland#jamil viper#jamil x yuu#twst oc x canon#twst fanchild#twst fankid#twst oc#twst yuu#twst yuusona#(💜) yuusha#(💜) curry noodles#(🌺) jas#nextgen💜
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narvin helping romana write/speak in public/ organize tasks/etc when her brain fog is bad and fully covering for her when she's too depressed or fatigued to leave her quarters. making excuses for her ofc because the other time lords can't know she's unwell or they'd be on her like sharks. romana in turn helping cover for narvin when the pain from his old injuries flares up. he's usually fine at covering for himself and just refusing to show pain but romana's very good at distracting people on the rare occasion that he limps or drops something or hesitates to stand up
#romana only accepts this help from him after he frames it like They're gonna depose and kill you and it WON'T fix anything this time#she would never admit to relying on him but she does let him help#narvin i think doesn't even know that he's in pain physical or emotional#he very much thinks whatever's going on is kind of normal or at least not worth acknowledging and DEFINITELY something to be hidden#hmmmm anyway more disabled characters in gallifrey please#especially when they have to be time lords and cope with other time lords about it#p#gallifrey#romana#narvin
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OCs today because I really missed them. Since I wanted details still but with less effort (aka no shading) I opted for their DND AU versions.
Not pictured: Paul (a Pauladin if you will) messing up and probably nearly dying for the fifth time.
#my characters#oops i fell in love#silly lil plot tag for my silly lil traumatized people (minus Rick he's not traumatized)#right is the cleric here and he's the main character and is best friends with brent the black haired guy#brent has ABSOLUTELY no room to talk about weird best friends#right literally calls brent fuckwad (affectionate) and has him saved in his phone as that and brent thinks its endearing#you have NO ROOM to call karen weird because she craves eldritch blasting paul#rick is just a v nice and polite guy who matches with karen on dating apps all the time#they went on one date and then promptly ghosted each other and then matched again and were like hmmmm awkward#and eventually the two become friends and she hangs out with him and there is zero romance#right and brent do eventually do the talking and the communication and eventually date im proud#since rick doesnt actually really hang out with the whole group just karen im p sure she convinces chris the gm#to make her an npc to replace best friend status because killing paul is really tempting with no consequences#right however is v much NO WAIT THERE ARE MANY CONSEQUENCES EVEN IF HES USELESS#paul off to the side hey wait thats mean :c im trying#anyway sorry i love my ocs and talk about them a lot once i start bye
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okay so it wouldn't be like a DIRECT au of it, just like a heavily inspired by, but BUDDIE TWISTER/TWISTERS AU:
so. buck is a storm chaser. he's got his team, him and a few others, and then abby, his girlfriend. they're working on trying to find a way to tame a twister — to get it to stop before it can start enough to do it's damage. they think they've finally got it, only when they go to put it into test there is a horrible accident and buck loses the whole team, except abby. the two of them are the only survivors. and it is DEVASTATING, but buck is like at least abby and i can lean on each other in our grief, we can get through this together. only abby quits. she quits stormchasing then and there and she leaves, just disappears, leaving buck alone with his grief. (if we want to be Extra Angsty, perhaps she even leaves with some sort of comment that implies she blames him for what happened).
so buck quits too — only it's not a permanent quit, of course. his sisters boyfriend, chimney, is a stormchaser, and when bucks home visiting maddie one day, chimney is there and he's talking about his teams plan (maybe his team was also after the same sort of twister tamer thing — maybe even based off of bucks teams initial research) and he's asking buck about it and buck hasn't thought about this stuff in a while (lies; he's thought about that incident every day since it happened.) but like enough time has passed that talking about it with someone else who's enthusiastic about the research rather than just interested in the tragedy of it all, starts to excite him a little too. and chimney tells him he should come with, when he and his team head out in a week. and after some Thinking and some encouragement from maddie, buck agrees and goes with chimney.
and so buck joins the 118 — consisting of chimney and hen and bobby (and maybe ravi too bc i love ravi okay). and it's good. they're a great team, brilliant, and they're all about helping people too. like, yes, their research is important to them, and they're fighting tooth and nail to achieve their goal, but they're put that on pause if there's even a chance for them to go help people evacuate or find shelter or clean up in the aftermath — and that's something buck really loves about the team. bc that's all he wants to do, help people. so buck fits right in with them and it's. it's fun, again. he did miss this.
and, of course, the 118 has a riiiiiival team — another group of stormchasers who are ALSO trying to find a way to stop the twisters before they can do their damage. they're both close, so it's kind of like a competition between them, which team will capture success first? but this team (not really sure who it'll consist of yet) but im undecided on if eddie would be the leader of the group or if he's just a team member, but. eddie dia,z with his sweeeeet texan twang, and his big cowboy hat and his flashy belt buckles and his charm, he's there. and their team is popular in the stormchasing world, and everyone's eyes are on them too.
but like it's always those two — the 118 and eddies team — at the forefront of it all, they're always chasing the same storms.
and both teams are on the cusp of a big storm, but the 118 catch wind that there's a small town in the path of this one, and they decide instead of following the twisters they're going to head to the town to help the people there. and they end up veering off the path and eddie notices and then HE finds out about the town and he tells his team they need to go help too but his team is like dude NO we gotta get to the twister, the 118 are gone so this is our chance to be the ones to test our tornado tamer solution, WE could beat them. and like eddies team has clearly lost the whole point of all of this — to save people. but HE hasn't, so he goes rogue and he heads to the town instead, where he finds the 118 and they're a bit wary of him at first bc it feels out of character for someone from his team to be here doing this rather than chasing the storm, but at this point im thinking buck and eddie have already had some conversations (MAYBE eddie has actually saved buck once already too so like that trust between them is already built) and buck just immediately starts shouting instructions and eddie falls into line with them and the two of them work flawlessly together and the rest of the 118 is like yeah okay he's good people and they welcome him in too.
and maybe eddies team runs into trouble too and eddie catches wind of it (he's still connected to their radios maybe?) and he's like fuck we gotta help them too so he and buck break off to go help that team (bc even if they're the 118's rivals and even if they're on the verge of the breakthrough the 118 has been chasing too, that doesn't matter rn. what matters is saving as many lives as possible) so the two of them break off to go help and they DO but eddies teams solution DOESNT work, but they took the 118's truck that was loaded with THEIR solution so buck and eddie let that loose and THAT DOES end up working and so buck and eddie save eddies team AND the town AND each other.
and, OF COURSE, through all of that buck and eddie fall in love, and in the end eddie ends up joining buck's team, and they chase storms together, and when they have bad days, when they have close calls, they're there for each other and they're not going anywhere, and they ALWAYS have each other's backs <3
#911#buddie#OH AND ALSO#so like i am not sure if christopher is involved in this au or not yet — i LOVE him and id love for him to be but also#i dont think eddie would chase storms if christopher was in the picture? like. this is an entirely different flavor of danger#on a much larger more direct way so like i dont think hed willingly run into that if he knew he had chris to take care of.#S O one potential workaround for that is that this is Early Era Eddie and stormchasing is his version of enlisting.#hes terrified to have a child so he runs into this. (this however would imply he gives up stormchasing later on and buck would too which.#idk if i like that so. HMMMM. christophers presence in this au is still tbd)#AND ALSO#THIS IS DELICIOUS BC IT WOULD BE S O O EASY TO MIRROR SHOW MOMENTS#LIKE THE LADDER TRUCK LEG CRUSH — COULD EASILY HAPPEN UNDER AN OVERTURNED CAR OR SOME OTHER DEBRIS#AND THE LIGHTNING STRIKE COULD HAPPEN TOO (HELL ONE OF THE CHARACTERS IN TWISTERS DID HAVE A PREV OFFSCREEN LIGHTNING HIT!)#AND THE REBAR ALSO COULD HAPPEN — FLYING DEBRIS HELLO#IT WOULD BE SOOO EASY TO MIRROR STUFF FROM THE SHOW ITS SOOO GOOD#ANYWAYS I AM LIKE. SUPER OBSESSED W THIS RN#MY BRAIN IS GOING BRRRRR ABOUT IT#twisters au#evan buckley#eddie diaz#chimney han#bobby nash#henrietta wilson#maddie buckley
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Your moirail likes to touch you.
It's another symptom of his damage, really, all the pitiful, cracked bullshit about him wrapped up in the needy, hungry way he strokes your hair or your horns or takes daring, glancing reach-arounds to brush a hand over your back. Trolls are tough as chitin and claws, and you don't give a shit about your aberrant mutant blood, you're a troll through and through.
You shouldn't like to be touched. You don't.
But Gamzee does. And you, for some godforsaken reason, are infected with some kind of disease that makes you tolerate him.
It's cold tonight, and you can tell as soon as you wake up because Gamzee's curled around you like a grub, face buried in the back of your neck and hands rubbing absently up and down your belly. You have the slime set pretty warm, but not warm enough, apparently. When you move to get untangled, Gamzee grumbles and groans and reels you in even harder, nuzzling behind your ear.
You're a troll, you don't care about being touched. But you also can't get away. So you settle, and grumpily let him pet sleepily at your face, your chest, your neck. The slight, rough scrape of the pads on his palms and then the prickling, controlled threat of his claws.
You don't need to be touched. You don't need anybody for anything. A troll is an island. A troll doesn't give a shit. A troll doesn't get frustrated and irritable if they have to go a few weeks without their moirail touching them, so you don't. You don't.
You don't realize you're purring until he starts purring too. The tips of his claws trail across the curve of your thoracic cage, prickle and knead at you like you're some kind of wriggler comfort object, and you try to choke down the rusty rumble in your thorax and can't make it happen.
Gamzee mumbles, "Best friend, beats every miracle on the sand, sea and sky how sweet you turn for me touching you," and curls around you a little tighter, bites harmlessly at the side of your neck and the nape, where the hair trails off down your posture column. For a second all of his claws and his fangs press just hard enough to catch you still, breath hitching--then his palms smooth past the place his claws pricked at you, and he nuzzles his bare cheek against the mark of his teeth, and you're purring even louder, melting into warm, stupid shivers.
You understand what he actually said a second later, and are immediately, breathlessly indignant.
"I'm, you, fuck you," you retort, which is far from your best work, but in your defense your moirail is a soft embarrassment of a troll and he won't stop touching you, bundling you up into the curve of his freakishly long body, petting the line of one of your thighs, kneading a tense muscle there, going back to rubbing the place your purr hums at the base of your thoracic cage. "I'm humoring you, dipshit, because apparently you fucked up too many cartwheels when you were a wriggler and sloshed most of your panmatter out of your ears."
Gamzee gives a rattling, huffing chirr of amusement, melting into an actual laugh when you growl at him. "If you say so, brother," he says, soothed amiable, and nips at the back of your neck again, where he's definitely going to leave a really obvious mark for all of your chucklefuck hatefriends to hoot about.
"You're embarrassing both of us."
"Aww, motherfucker, that right?"
"You're-- It's not a-- What do you fucking think I am, some kind of--of touch-dependent mammal, huddling in its shitty brood-den with all its wriggling, hairless birth-pupas--"
Gamzee's snickering at you again. "I bet mammals don't purr so nice, best friend."
"Fuck you," you say again, with feeling, and twist half-heartedly at his grip again. He clicks his fangs, a disappointed little noise, and just holds you tighter, tight enough it aches just a little. Tight like it doesn't matter what you are or what you want, or what you don't want to want. He's not letting you go.
You don't like it. You don't, you don't, you don't. A good troll wouldn't. You don't.
He's mumbling some kind of highblood benediction into your hair, some nightmarish honking thing about being anointed in the wicked elixir and the stardust in your eyes. But his claws come to your face, a huge, cool frond wrapped all the way around to cup your cheek, and when his thumbclaw rests on your lip it's just heavy enough to shut you the fuck up, just light enough you know he's not going to hurt you. Just threatening enough to send a thrilling pale shiver through your palms and down your spine, and safe like you can only be like this.
"Little motherfucker gets so fucking hungry for it when he's lonely," Gamzee murmurs, and presses a little harder when you try to open your mouth to argue. "Nah-ah-ah, best friend, shoosh. Shhhh. You're so motherfucking warm, and look at you all soft all over, like clouds or some shit... Lemme all get my feel on. Get a good motherfucking grab-around at you going."
You bite his finger in revenge, a whole lot gentler than you could considering how tough highblood skin is. He laughs at you and then moves all in a rush, pins you into a tight little ball with your arms at your sides and your knees to your chest and dunks you in the sopor, bringing you up growling and squirming.
"What the fuck was that for?!"
"Shooshing," he says, and pats your face again with a stupid-sounding splap-splap noise. "Rowdy little motherfucker's gotta chill the fuck down. And hey, check it out."
His hands find both of your horns, and he combs the sopor through your hair with delicate clawtips and then rubs the sopor at the roots of your horns, right where thin skin gives way to the slight velvet at the bases.
The cool pressure feels completely different combined with the humming, numb-sensitive tingle of sopor, and you're immediately rendered hopelessly, humiliatingly compliant. You melt like a frozen beverage block at high noon in the desert. You make a noise you would murder any of your enemies or friends for hearing. You croon like a pupa who just discovered cotton candy. You'll fucking savage him if he stops.
"...'S real motherfucking sweet how you like it," he says again, peacefully, and this time you feel way too damn good to make yourself argue.
#gamkar#miracrails#Level II Pale Event#i am thinking about a society where it's almost impossible to trust another person to touch you#and the concept that you might actually need touch to be healthy is not just unheard of but actively against the societal norms#i am thinking about how much of a relief it would then be to find a quadrant who's allowed to touch you and you're allowed to enjoy it#hmmmm >8Ic i am thinking#anyway I'm going back to bed first day of vacation 22-hour sleep time let's goooo
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Denchuuuu denchu denchu. I think they're the cutest I wanna know more :] Sending you 1, 2, 8 and 21 for funsies from the pride prompts ^^
1. What's your oc's gender identity? What's their relationship to their gender?
Denchu is genderfluid and uses any pronouns (he/she/they/and more?).
2. What's your oc's orientation? (Romantic/sexual/platonic alterous ect) Do they have opinions about it?
I'm not sure if this has a label but Denchu is attracted to masc-presenting people. any gender
8. Have they had struggles with their identity, be it due to internal or external reasons?
I think he definitely tends to downplay how he feels about being genderfluid because he's used to presenting as Girl and it's "easier" to present as Girl. They probably experience the feeling of "I go by any pronouns" and proceeding to only be referred to be she/her and then get frustrated later. Maybe there was a period of time where she didn't want to use she/her at all and ultimately circled back into including it because she still liked being Girl
21. Free ramble card wee
I would not be surprised if Denchu started figuring their stuff out after Kanu confides to them about being a trans guy, inspiring them to figure out their own stuff (says this as if they're not my characters and they're out doing things of their own free will)
#asks#denchu#splatoon#splatoon ocs#my ocs#the logistics of 'is there gender expecations and such in splatoon' when I feel like the world of splatoon would be pretty forgiving#but then again. I have not given it much thought#and ultimately I'm not like. super interested in exploring 'is society transphobic and do they have hangups about it'#although the elite soldiers being mostly female is like. does octarian society give status to them due to that. hmmmm#at the end of the day I feel like splatoon doesnt really care. just fuck it we ball. maybe thats the easy way out#Idk maybe I should have expected this going into oc pride asks it would be boring to just say yeah. theyre this. no real reason#ANYWAYS enough complaining from me. thank you for asking about denchu :3#also realizing that these asks are more conductive if I take them as opportunities to develop the character rather than go#well ummm. I didnt think about it so I don't have an answer for you
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i wrote a really small thing related to this post! I've been getting back into OIs so i came up with this arranged marriage scenario in a Victorian setting for Asmo and MC and have been chewing on it for the past several days lol I think I'm gonna come up with more stuff for this later but I just wanted to post this for now φ(゜▽゜*)♪
The weather was nice out today so you decided to go for a walk around the estate garden and rest in a somewhat secluded spot. Unfortunately, someone had managed to find you. How did the two of you keep running into each other in place so vast?
"Sooo….." Asmodeus leans into your space to look at the pages of you book. "What are you reading?"
"…A book."
"…Well yea, but what is the book about?"
You hold back your sigh and answer instead. "It's just about something I took interest in recently…"
Asmo stares at you for a moment. "You know, I'm starting to realize something about you."
"You are?"
"Uh huh," he nods. "At first, I thought you were a cagey person, but you're just really socially awkward you know? You kind of remind me of one of my brothers."
You close your book without making note of the page you were on. "I'm going back inside. Goodbye."
"Wait, I didn't mean it in a bad way!"
You sigh. "Are you sure? Cause you've been pretty rude to me several times before. So I'm having a hard time believing that."
Asmodeus makes a face. "It was an observation?"
"Okay. Can you just…let me read please?" The request came out harsher than you intended but maybe you were feeling a little defensive.
So what if you were "awkward". You weren't expecting to talk to anyone when you came out here.
Asmodeus huffs and leans back on his hands. But he doesn't leave…. for some reason. Maybe he was bored?
You flip through your book trying to find what page you were on.
"Page seventy six."
You look over at Asmo who has already busied himself with inspecting his nails.
"Thanks."
#shout out to that one person who said they were interested#i was like...does anyone see my vision#does anyone care about this cause im daydreaming about this for the next couple days until i get bored lol#obey me asmodeus#obey me asmodeus x mc#obey me asmodeus x reader#obey me nightbringer#but yea super short#tried to not reread through it too much#idk why i love these types of manhwas so much#they just do it for me u know#the set up hits all the boxes for me when it comes to romance ig#if asmo had a last name what would it be#like him and his brothers need last names#for this#cause if im referring to their family i need to by last name#anyways...idk if its gonna get to that point#where im making last names for everyone lol#i do know that diavolo is emperor#easiest part about this au#and then of course the brothers are the next most powerful ppl (i think...) i dont really wanna make them kings tbh so...#maybe grand duke??#then i think mcs family is one step under or two steps??#hMMMM#whatever dont worry about this edhjiuwdj
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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.
i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.
[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!
also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]
#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch#on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or#old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing#and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me#even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me#housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong#(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display#outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in#some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt#my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's#only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then#disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -
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ending the year with haruto fanart, this art style was super fun to work with :]
#a3!#a3! act addict actors#a3 act addict actors#act addict actors#a3! fanart#a3! game#haruto asuka#god troupe#godza#god-za#cequi_art#i dont think ill post anything else before the new year but idk.. hmmmm...#anyways can u guys tell i got super inspired by a specifc a3 fanartist for this art style (i look up to them so much their art should be put#in a museum)#hope u guys like this😢😢😢#ALSO HARUTO IS SUCH A GOOD CHARACTER MY GOOOOOOD#The quote on the drawing changed my life i think about it every week
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thinking about modern au imogen with full sleeve tattoos of storm clouds with lightning that go all the way up to her chest
#critical role c3#critical role#imogen temult#i wish i knew literally anything about tattoos so i could google some cool styles that would fit that idea#so i could try and draw it#i also wish i knew how tf you design a tattoo#eh maybe someday#ANYWAY do you think the tattoo should go to her back over her scapula as well?#so it's symmetrical on her front and back?#hmmmm much to think about
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(yah know, i hear the “we dont need to suffer to create art”
and i raise you “well if thats true how come since the beginning of november ive been consistently inspired and creative and making art and writing again after a 2.5 year drought?”)
#could it be seasonal depression#could it be my worsening health?#could it be the world on fire#could it be because i am suffering????#hmmmm much to consider here#(anyway)#(i promise im okay i was just pondering this and thinking about my renewed joy for creation and)
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thinking about Kevin Day on this awful day
#specifically thinking about him having ocd#maybe not in canon but like just a thing to consider#idk something about jean saying all he's capable of is bottomless guilt made me go hmmmm interesting#also him having a borderline eating disorder and sticking religiously to his routines#maybe so he can feel any semblance of control in his life#him feeling simultaneously guilty for what happens to the foxes bc what if he did something wrong that day#what if he strayed from his routine a little too much and it caused all of this#but also him feeling panicked at the potentiality of not being able to play exy bc it's the only part of his life he *can* control fully#or he thinks he can anyways#idk if that's how ocd works tbh but I think it'd be interesting to write a kevin pov from that perspective#I'm kinda drawing from my experience having an ed and I used to get really angry and hostile when things got in the way of my routine#so kevin's bitchy behaviour makes sense in that context#other than being raised in a cult with a strict routine (and in part bc of it)#maybe he feels like if he doesn't stick to it then it will all go to shit#also do you think he blames himself for his broken hand......#this probably doesn't make sense#kevin day
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Ananza realizing that Deacon's mom was a devoted follower of hers THEREFORE that's her son now, too! And she will dote on him and love him and never pick on him like all the other deities tend to do. That's her precious little boy who lives in another city and rarely gets to see her!
#my characters#deacon gets mocked for being weird by every other deity but her and ymber (though he does think hes a TAD weird)#and ananza is like NOPE THATS MY LIL BOY !!! I LOVE HIM! and after deacon and ymber leave from their visit#she gets all huffy with fulj because YOU COMPLAINED ABOUT DEACON SO MUCH ??? my sweet lil angel?#and fulj just what - hey wait - did we meet the same person? sweet lil angel?#also for if you care cause i definitely do#ananza is like hmmmm since thats my son now i HAVE to give him something but .... ymber is so protective....#and then she is like OH YEAH ! ohime said deacon recognized my dance !#then she is like deacon please come dance with me i formally request a dance come here away from him please here hey#and since deacon is a nice guy hes like ok but i cant really dance well and shes just noooo worries!#and then as they dance she slowly gets him away from ymber and after they are at a decent distance she just#takes his hands in hers and then FWOOSH there's a bunch of wind and deacon is left speechless like ??? what was that?#and so then she is so proud to say that while ymber placed a very PASSIONATE blessing on him she did no such thing!#it is a simple blessing for him since hes like a son to her and hey it might not make you immune to stuff like drowning#but if you are ever in combat which i hope you arent then you will be super duper agile and quiet#and so hes like oh thats pretty cool actually! hey wait what did you mean by passionate hey what#but then the super light footsteps actually are not simply for combat and now hes just a very tall quiet guy#and since he cant remember faces if he sneaks up on someone and they say AGAIN? HOW ARE YOU SO QUIET? hes just#im sorry i didnt mean.... to.... do that.... again.............. (whomst is this and how many times did i spook them)#and ymber is just really happy that thank goodness his blessing and ward act as a GPS and so at least HE knows when deacon is nearby#and fulj is like i hate him even more now did you know he nearly gave me a heart attack like two hours ago ??? this is a crime against me#anyway ananza and deacon are just cute together and hes her precious lil son!
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sliding into asks cause i hit reblog last time like an idiot
what song do I have assigned ? :)
Oh i am. So so so insane great trees help me. (<- stupid mf who can't decide because "oh this is too romantic" "oh but this is too trauma to me" "oh but this is too sad what if they won't like it" SHUT UP. Your brain is stupid ffs.)
Fleür - Теплые коты(Warm cats)
"Come play, wool the owner’s sweater,
Tear the book to pieces, sharpen your claws on the chair.
Come to me from the world of strange winter dreams, spit on prejudices, wake up your cats!
We will pet everyone who purrs, warm, sleepy, real, running your hands into furry bellies.
All things are uncertain In the strange human world. Constant are soft purring cats!
Claws can dig into the leg, but the leg, believe me, is not a heart,
Cats don't hurt like people sometimes do.. A warm cat will comfort me, lie on a sore spot
And I will fall asleep hugging a warm cat."
#ISVHISICYSIVHSVHOSGOUIFYSVOHSOVJSOCHSCHOSOHCSCOHCOHSCOHS#HMMMM. THIS IS FUNNY YOU SEE. UM.#I COULD TELL YOU BUT ITS COMPLETELY UNRELATED SO NAH#anyway; kittah song!!!!!#i am still mentally ill about it after all these years#reclaiming it from a bad experience god bless💪💪🔥🔥🔥#you got another one and. it's so great too if you want i can also list it.#....it also by pure coincidence has lines about cats.#mutuals my beloved#MY MAN DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THIS SONG MEANS TO ME?#hhghghg.#also. don't think i didn't see your big wet brown eyes beetle. i was just struggling with formatting
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oh no i need to go bed but i just thought of brodsfabes soulmate counter……..
#first mark is early perhaps from a game or being in the same restaurant or whatever#……..hmmmm much to think about#sorry i love soulmate fics with my whole heart#just love the thought of once brock joins the team they’re both so distracted that they don’t notice the number going rapidly up#brock so heartbroken over losing with the u and then trying to focus on not having the same fate happen with these playoffs#and jonas trying so hard to win so maybe it’s not the last time he plays with matt but we know how that ends#and then summer comes and what the fuck?#anyway good night lmao
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