#high school on amazon prime

[knickynoo]

Michael J. Fox as J. J. Manners in High School U.S.A. (1983)

[hannah727]

Okay, I just started watching High School on prime video/freevee and I already know it is such an underrated show!! So good already and I can’t wait to watch it all

[donamarocas]

This series is my new obsession, I simply loved it

MIXTE (2021– )

[otakunoculture]

The Final Word on Rise of the Pink Ladies is that the Story Can't End on that Cliffhanger!

@edohotep is a fan of the #musical Grease, and he says the #homevideo release of Rise of the Pink Ladies offers a better experience because of the behind the scenes featurettes offered! Full review at:

Available to stream or purchase on home video (Amazon link) Spoiler Alert There are many reasons I believe Rise of the Pink Ladies (RotPL) works as a prequel to the world known as Grease. Although the time takes place about two years before the cinematic musical, it’s easy to see how it ties all together. The two tweens who eventually become the supporting leads in the story that shaped the IP…

[uselessheretic]

a formal plea for everybody to watch deadloch

deadloch is an australian black-comedy/murder mystery with a majority lesbian cast. it's a feminist subversion of the detective crime fiction genre, and is funny, well-written, and character-driven by complex interesting women. it's a feminist subversion on the crime genre without feeling preachy and touches on topics of decolonization with its aboriginal characters throughout the show.

if you're someone who is often asking for media centered on wlw characters that aren't in high school, have a plot not focused on their sexuality or coming out, and allow their characters to be flawed girlfails then deadloch is a really good show to pick up!

most of the show is focused on the main characters, dulcie and eddie, who are strangers unwillingly forced to work together to find a murderer. they're a classic buddy cop duo with clashing personalities and a full head height difference who evolve throughout the show to form a genuine work partnership.

it's really good and it's only 8 episodes long and on amazon prime! even without the humor it still makes a really solid murder mystery, and as a show it's very pretty and has a great soundtrack and is also literally lesbian broadchurch and a pinnacle example of girl yaoi. also if you're into ofmd madeleine sami, who's gonna be in s2 of ofmd, is one of the protagonists!

[castielsprostate]

episode 20, season 16 of the hit amazon prime show supernatural where dean and sam and eileen are hunting a demon disturbing a scout cookie event (due to woke not girl scouts anymore ofc) at the fan fiction high school. jack buys tonnes and tonnes of cookies. like. unregulated amounts of cookies. he singlehandedly makes the fanfiction-high scouts win by a few hundred thousand. eileen gets mistaken for a scout leader, she is now a scout leader. sam tragically dies by death by leafblower (sucked) and dean accidentally falls into the empty and finds castiel in a sea of black and silence. dean pulls him out, barely, and they hug, so tightly, so so so tightly, back aching tightly. and dean doesn't let go and they press their foreheads together and castiel says dean and dean says i know. and the screen goes black and dean says me too

[needforspeed161]

Im an Angel

OKAY SOOOO, in an interview that Glen Powell did a while back he talked about having a Blue Angels poster in his room as a kid, and all throughout high school! (He also directed and produced the Blue Angels documentary on Amazon Prime PLEASE GO WATCH IT ITS SO GOOD! But anyways I digress lmao)

SO I HAD THIS HEADCANON THAT THATS WHY JAKE WANTED TO JOIN THE NAVY! His parents took him to an airshow when he was a kid and he was HOOKED! Anyways I wrote a little something for it! So enjoy! Lemme know whatcha think!

The upside and downsides of living near a Naval air base in southern Texas was the noise

It drove the Seresin’s up a wall at times. But to a young wide eyed 9 year old Jake it was a dream come true. Rather than going outside to be rough and tumble with the neighbor kids, he simply lay sprawled out in the summer sun on the hot vinyl of his trampoline. Watching the tiny black dots fly over his house again and again every year.

Soon his parents caught onto the boys attention span for the fighters, and decided to take him to an airshow in Corpus Christi, about a 20 minute drive from their house, the exact place these fast dots that were still rather loud came from every year.

Jake tugged on his mom’s hand, eager to get up close and personal with these loud flying machines.

“Jake honey slow down” she chuckled, as she pulled him in, long sun dress flowing gently in the Texas breeze. “Here, they’re pretty loud sugar, don’t wanna hurt your ears” she placed the soft ear muffs over his head. His entire world went silent.

There was an old F-14 on display right as they passed through the gate. The canopy open and two seats empty just begging him to jump in for a ride. A man standing next to the aircraft smiled down at him. “Wanna sit in the cockpit?”

Jake burst out into the biggest smile of his life as the man helped him up the step ladder, placing him in the, much too large for him, seat right in the front of the plane. His hands pulled on the throttle and the stick, but it was to no avail. Since this was a display plane it was all locked, a retired aircraft from the 80’s.

After a few minutes of fun and his mom snapping a few picture’s he was lifted out to make room for the next kid in line. Huffing to himself but distracted by a large cargo plane that was opened and able to be walked through.

They spent the afternoon walking around on the hot pavement. Before an announcement he wasn’t necessarily paying attention to rang over the loud speaker.

“Jake darlin’! Let’s get you a lemonade and have a seat in the shade over here! The Blue Angels are about to fly!”

He cocked an eyebrow, lowering his ear muffs as he looked to his mom. “The Blue Angels?”

“Yeah kiddo, those are the guys you’ve been watching from the back yard the last week, they came here to practice”

He jumped and giggled with excitement. “So I can see them up close!”

“Yes sweetie, you can, now let’s get you in the shade! You’re burning up already” his mother laughed, grabbing his hand and leading him off.

They found a comfortable spot under a fan in a shaded tent. Jake not realizing how hot he really was until he got a break from the heat.

He sipped happily on his lemonade when a man wearing a bright blue suit with yellow stripes walked back and forth along the fence line just in front of them.

“Ladies and Gentlemen! It is my honor to present to you, your United States Navy BLUE ANGELS!”

Just then Jake watched as four jets took off from the runway, lifting high into the sky before two more joined them from the opposite end of the runway.

He felt his dad’s hands coming to grab him, lifting him up and over to sit on top of his shoulders, high enough to be able to see more of them as they flew. The same man in the blue announcing things every so often but he wasn’t paying attention. His eyes never left the sky.

He felt the rumble in his chest leap into his throat as one of the solo jets flew by. Rattling the ground in its wake. Powerfully parting the skies to make room for itself. It belonged there.

Jake was too distracted to notice his ear protection was slipping off at the angle his head was tilted. Before they came crashing down to the ground just as the other Solo jet came ripping by. But this time upside down!

While the crowd flinched and reached to cover their ears. The supersonic Machine simply made Jake smile wider, unfazed in the least bit as he giggled. Kicking his feet out and almost kicking his dad.

After they landed, the jets were parked directly in front of them. The pilots going through an almost ceremonial departure from their aircraft and heading straight towards them.

Crowds flocked to the fence as all of the pilots started signing autographs. His parents walked him up to the gate. As he met a dark haired man’s eyes.

“Hey there sport! Enjoy the show?”

“Yeah!” Jake almost screamed in the poor man’s face. “You guys were so awesome! Is it fun going that fast?”

The man almost looked lost in thought for a moment before bending down to meet Jakes wide and curious eyes with his own at the boys level.

“Kid, it’s the most free feeling in the world”

Bradley jumped happily for a moment, giggling to himself uncontrollably. He was filled with so much excitement.

“Say….wanna come see the jets up close?”

Jake gasped “CAN I??”

“Sure thing, if it’s okay with your folks of course”’

He turned to his parents. “Mama Papa can I PLEASEEEEE!!”

They both chuckled, “of course kiddo!”

After the crowds had all left. Satisfied with their autographs, a group of men standing in the same exact blue suits as the announcer and the one who had talked to him earlier waited by a gate.

They led the family to the line of jets. Making a b-line for the one with a giant number “1” painted on the side.

“This is my jet, the number one, it’s what we call a super hornet, or an f-18, it’s the same kind of jet that our fellow Naval Aviators fly in every day.” The man explained.

Bradley stood in awe of just how big the plane was, he felt so small compared to its wide wings and beautiful blue prowess. No wonder this thing commanded the skies like it did!

“Cmere kiddo!” The man motioned with his hand, before Jake was being hoisted up onto the man’s hip and plopped down right in the pilots seat. Similar to the F-14 he sat in earlier but newer and shiner.

“See those?” The man pointed down. Jakes eyes followed. “Those are the rudder pedals, that’s how we steer the plane on the ground and in the air. They help us turn, and that to your right is the throttle. It’s basically our gas pedal like in a car but right up here so we can use our hands to make the plane go faster or slower”

“It’s all backwards” Jake giggled, reaching down with his feet to barely make contact with the pedals. His tiny legs not long enough.

“It kind of is isn’t it?” The pilot laughed. “And that there is the stick, it’s how we roll and steer the plane in the air too.”

“Woah” Jake smiled. “So this is how you do all of those cool tricks?”

The man nodded. “Exactly! Give it a go! And look over your shoulder”

Jake grabbed the yoke with both hands and pulled back, looking over his left shoulder to see the ailerons of the plane moving as he moved it.

After a good 10 minutes of asking a million questions and pushing every button humanly possible in the multi billion dollar plane he had the honor of sitting in. He was lifted back out. Standing on the wing for a moment as the pilot fiddled with something inbetween the seat and the floor.

“Honey look over here for us!” His mother yelled, it startled the boy for a second, he was too lost in thought to remember his parents were 10 feet away from him.

The pilot took a seat beside him on the wing, before plopping something over his head.

It was his helmet.

“Smile at your momma! Give her a Blue Angels salute!”

They both saluted the camera as Jake had the biggest grin of his life on his face. All teeth and pure joy. Hearing the click of the camera before he was lifted back up and placed back on solid ground.

“Let’s get one with all of you! Cmon scooch in!”

Only his momma could tell the Blue Angels what to do.

They all smiled for the picture and as Jake handed the helmet back to the man he spoke loud and proud, no words could be missed.

“I wanna be a Blue Angel someday! Just like you!”

The man chuckled. Kneeling back down for a moment. “Kid you can do anything you set your mind and heart to. But just remember, it takes hard work, you’ve gotta dig deep and find out what you’re really made of. Don’t give up no matter what anyone tells you. If you’ve got it, nothing can stop you.”

Jake imbedded those words to memory. Whether he was 9, 19, or 89. He would always remember them.

“See you in the skies someday kiddo.” The man saluted him. Jake stood straight and saluted back. Before waving them off and joining his parents. Walking back towards the parking lot.

“I can’t wait to be big and strong someday! I’m gonna be the best pilot there ever was in the Navy!”

His parents smiled back at him from the front seat. Smiling amongst eachother before continuing the drive back home.

20 years later he would go on to become one of the best Naval Aviators the military had ever seen. Finding his second family and saving the world many times over.

And one day, many years in the future as he decorated his newly purchased house with his, too tall and handsome for his own good, husband. A framed picture of a goofy kid with a far too big helmet thrown onto his head, standing on the wing of a blue F-18 in the Texas heat was hung proudly in their hallway.

(Bonus points for Bradley definitely making them recreate that picture with his own F-18 the second he seen it for the first time. That’s also hanging in their house)

[thatbuddie]

what are ur top ten best excuses to move in - @team-118

omg wow ok here we go

top 10 excuses buck and eddie would use to move in with each other

(from most reasonable to most ridiculous)

the cost of living is getting too high, it's just better to share the rent and gas and grocery expenses

it's easier to manage all of the day-to-day responsibilities between two people, especially with chris having a million after-school activities now

it's better for buck's dog (as per this post)

buck and eddie share an amazon prime account and buck's packages keep being delivered to the diaz house so it's just easier if he's always there

the "vibes" at buck's loft are "off"

buck keeps losing the keys to his loft but he never loses the keys to the diaz house

buck and eddie have gotten really into puzzles but they're not really great at them so it takes them a long time to complete them. it just makes sense if buck moves in so they can have more time to do them

buck makes better coffee and eddie is cranky without his morning cup so they are doing the citizens of LA a favor

eddie bought 16 bottles of body wash because it was on sale at costco and if buck moves in they can go through it faster

last time buck was at his apartment he saw a big centipede when he woke up at night to get a glass of water. it was really big, ok? so he drove to eddie's house and slept on the couch. he doesn't know if the centipede is still there so it's better if he just doesn't go back.

[chaifootsteps]

You know... Thank You and Goodnight really forced me to realize that the Hazbin I fell in love with and was so excited for died when the pilot cast we're dropped. They cared so much about the characters and the show, and they gave it life, only to be dumped without a second glance as soon as Viv could afford her popular Broadway cast.

The show we got isn't Hazbin.

It's not show that I rewatched the pilot for over and over till I could quote every Angel Dust line. It's not the show that had me singing Inside of Every Demon is a Rainbow to the best of my abilities while I went on a walk. Its not the show that made me stay up late watching Hunicast, just to hear the characters I adored say funny things and talk about the show and the story. All it is, is the show that made me realize the person I looked up to throughout middle school and high school is an aweful person who doesn't give a shit about anyone but herself and her reputation.

The show we loved is dead. And it's never coming back.

I know exactly how you feel. That show's gone, gone so that Vivzie could have her rich girl Broadway cast, and because she didn't like Ashley. That's why we're not watching them on Amazon Prime right now, cheering them on for how far they made it.

Because Viv did this to them.

The cost of experiencing something as special as the Hazbin pilot, of loving it, is having to live with what happened to it.

[darklinaforever]

House of the Dragon clearly doesn't come close to The Borgias (I'm talking about the Showtime version here) the iconic Rome (and I will forever thank my old high school freshman history teacher for teaching me discover this nugget) or even The Tudor.

I want to say, it doesn't even come close to My Lady Jane on Amazon Prime, a reimagined version of the story with a dose of fantasy and comedy.

Frankly, objectively, HOTD is pitiful.

Even REIGN, is better that this shit show !

The fact that so many people put it on a pedestal will always baffle me, including comparing it to The Ring of Power, when in fact both shows have the same flaws. It's just that at least on TROP's side the screenwriters own up to their bullshit without taking themselves for writing gods...

[sillygirlsmindpalace]

a little rant

it's almost mid-november. the weather in my city is getting colder. it's very reminiscent of the time when i discovered sherlock and benedict cumberbatch in high school through my friend.

i yapped about the show and discussed theories sitting next to her during our boring geography lessons.

we used to giggle when we spotted sherlock references in random situations.

no matter how much academic stress i had to deal with, i looked forward to going home and texting her after watching an episode. she'd reply within seconds and we'd talk for hours.

this was one of the moments i remember being my happiest self.

all of this was eight years ago.

now i've come back to this universe again-thanks to that yt channel and amazon prime. i'm watching the show with greater insight and having so much fun with all the memes, fanfics and theories that i had no knowledge of before.

my dear friend is mutuals with me on instagram but we barely talk. we've gone our own different ways.

re-watching this show makes me miss her so much.

i want to reach out to her but don't know if we'll click together like the good old times.

atleast i get to keep all the good memories.

[batmannotes]

The Epic Saga Concludes with Part Three of the Highly Anticipated Trilogy!

Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Three   

Based on DC’s iconic comic book limited series ‘Crisis on Infinite Earths’ by Marv Wolfman and George Pérez, join DC Super Heroes from across the multiverse in the action-packed conclusion of the three-part DC animated film Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Three. The eagerly awaited film brings to a close the thrilling trilogy that marks the end to the Tomorrowverse story arc.

Produced by Warner Bros. Animation, DC and Warner Bros. Home Entertainment, the all-new, action-packed DC animated film features some of DC’s most famous Super Heroes from multiple universes including Batman, Superman and Wonder Woman, who come together to stop an impending threat of doom and destruction. Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Three will be available to purchase exclusively on digital on July 16 and on 4K UHD in limited edition steelbook packaging and Blu-ray on July 23.

Fans of this superhero adventure will also be able to indulge in a range of bonus features including interviews with the filmmakers on how they created a comprehensive universe across seven films.

Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part One and Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Two are currently available on Digital, 4K UHD and Blu-ray.

Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Three features returning popular voice cast members: Jensen Ackles (Supernatural, The Boys, The Winchesters) as Batman/Bruce Wayne, Emmy winner Darren Criss (The Assassination of Gianni Versace: American Crime Story, Glee) as Superman & Earth-2 Superman, Aldis Hodge (Straight Outta Compton, Black Adam) as Green Lantern/John Stewart, Meg Donnelly (Legion of Super-Heroes, High School Musical: The Musical: The Series,) as Supergirl & Harbinger, and Stana Katic (Castle, Absentia) as Wonder Woman & Superwoman, along with Corey Stoll (Ant-Man, Black Mass) as Lex Luthor.

The star-studded ensemble voice cast also includes Gideon Adlon as Batgirl, Ike Amadi as Martian Manhunter/J’Onn J’Onzz, Geoffrey Arend as Psycho Pirate/Charles Halstead, Troy Baker as The Joker & Spider Guild Lantern, Brian Bloom as Adam Strange & Sidewinder, Matt Bomer as The Flash, Ashly Burch as Nightshade & Queen Mera, Zach Callison as Earth-2 Robin & Robin/Damian Wayne, Kevin Conroy as Earth-12 Batman, Alexandra Daddario as Lois Lane, Brett Dalton as Bat Lash & Captain Atom, John Dimaggio as Lobo, Ato Essandoh as Mr. Terrific, Keith Ferguson as Doctor Fate & Two-Face, Will Friedle as Batman Beyond & Kamandi, Jennifer Hale as Hippolyta & Green Lantern Aya, Mark Hamill as Earth-12 The Joker, Jamie Gray Hyder as Hawkgirl & Young Diana, Erika Ishii as Doctor Light/Dr. Hoshi & Huntress, David Kaye as The Question & Cardonian Lantern, Matt Lanter as Blue Beetle, Liam McIntryre as Aquaman, Cynthia Kaye McWilliams as Dr. Beth Chapel & The Cheetah, Lou Diamond Phillips as The Spectre, Elysia Rotaru as Black Canary & Black Canary II, Matt Ryan as Constantine, Katee Sackhoff as Poison Ivy, Keesha Sharp as Vixen, Jimmi Simpson as Green Arrow, Jason Spisak as Blue Lantern Razer & Hayseed, Armen Taylor as The Flash/Jay Garrick, Gas Soldier & Executioner, and Dean Winters as Captain Storm.

Justice League Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Three is produced by Jim Krieg and Kimberly S. Moreau and executive produced by Butch Lukic, Sam Register, and Michael Uslan. The film is directed by Jeff Wamester from a script by Jim Krieg. Casting and voice direction is by Wes Gleason. The film is based on characters from DC and the graphic novel “Crisis on Infinite Earths” by Marv Wolfman and George Pérez

Justice League Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Three will be available on July 16 to purchase digitally from Amazon Prime Video, AppleTV, Google Play, Vudu and more. On July 23 the film will be available to purchase on 4K Ultra HD in limited edition steelbook packaging and Blu-ray Discs online and in-store at major retailers. Pre-order your copy now.

Additionally, the Justice League Crisis on Infinite Earths Trilogy will be available on July 16 to purchase digitally from Amazon Prime Video, AppleTV, Google Play, Vudu and more, and features an exclusive special feature - An Epic Challenge: Crisis in Comics and Animation.

SYNOPSIS:

Now fully revealed as the ultimate threat to existence, the ANTI-MONITOR wages an unrelenting attack on the surviving Earths that struggle for survival in a pocket universe. One-by-one, these worlds and all their inhabitants are vaporized! On the planets that remain, even time itself is shattered and heroes from the past join the Justice League and their rag-tag allies against the epitome of evil. But as they make their last stand, will the sacrifice of the superheroes be enough to save us all?​

SPECIAL FEATURES INCLUDE:

Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Three - Physical and Digital

A Multiverse of Inspiration

Jon and John: Stewart and Constantine

Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths Trilogy (Digital only)

An Epic Challenge: Crisis in Comics and Animation

Running Time: 98:06

Rated PG-13 for some violence and language.

*Digital version not available in Canada

Available exclusively on Digital on July 16

4K UHD in limited edition steelbook packaging and Blu-ray arriving on July 23

Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths Trilogy Also      

Available exclusively on Digital on July 16

Preorder at Amazon.

[that1emowitch]

I NEED IDEAS FOR A JUSTICE LEAGUE HIGH SCHOOL AU!!!

Okay just imagine Bruce, Clark, Diana, Ollie, Hal, Barry, Dinah, Shiera, Carter, the Johns, Ray, Kyle, Guy—ALL OF THEM in the same high school, each of them just starting off as a hero. Except. The others don't know.

I'd imagine Bruce as the one guy everyone thinks is an emo kid (in canon he only became *Brucie* after coming back from Batman training). He doesn't talk to anyone except for these two smart kids Harvey Dent and Harleen Qunizel. But this one popular cheerleader (who's secretly a kleptomaniac), Selina, keeps trying to ask him out. Bruce, on the other hand? He's obsessed with becoming Batman, spends his time trying to find the location of LoA so he can convince them to train him.

Clark. Beloved boy, plays basketball, lacrosse, soccer, football, is on the student committee, helps out his Ma and Pa. And in his free time, he stares at Bruce Wayne. His best friend, Diana, calls him out on it many times, a teasing smile on her face. And Clark absolutely *hates* that bald rich boy who acts like he's better than everyone—Lex.

Diana, she's recently been sent to Man's World to learn their traditions, expand her horizons and shit. Kinda like Diana from dc super hero girls. She plays all the sports Clark does, the main reason they ended up as friends. There's this one popular girl—Selina's friend—who ticks her off, for some reason she can't figure out. Barbara Minerva. But Diana's friends, Shiera and Dinah, stop her from acting on it. The three have confided in each other—they know Diana is an Amazon, know Shiera and Carter are Hawkman—but Dinah doesn't know she has powers, yet. She only knows that powers run in her family.

Dinah, meanwhile, is on-and-off dating the playboy rich kid, Oliver fucking Queen. He's... stereotypical, at times. He buys her roses and shows up to every one of her choir concerts, buys her Starbucks every morning... then on weekends, he brings her to his private shooting range, shows her his "mad archery skills". At this point, Ollie is debating whether or not to become Green Arrow. Dinah, she's currently a singer. She's in the choir, she's going to do a solo at her school's talent show. Little do they know, *that's* when her powers will show up. While she's screaming into a fucking mic.

Barry Allen. Has a crush on this girl, Iris. Like, he's down BAD. Iris and her friend Lois Lane, they both run the school paper, so Barry decides to do something they'll want to cover. He starts working on something he hopes will get their attention, but it blows up, Barry is hospitalized... and wakes up with powers.

John Stewart and Guy Gardener are upperclassmen, both seniors, so close to graduating when they find out a freshman (Kyle) and sophomore (Hal) have been given the rings. Of course, they don't have a choice but to mentor them, and, yk, make sure they don't die. John tries his best to be a good mentor, pointing out mistakes and making time for Hal and Kyle, while Guy is a little shit as always. Oh yeah, Guy and John r both also studying for their SATs while being green lanterns.

Carter and Shiera? Power couple. Been together since freshman year, will always *be* together. Plus, being Hawkman and Hawkgirl is prime bonding time. They're literally destined to always be together.

John Jones. Everyone always thinks there's something... *different* about him. When John notices that *Clark* isn't like these humans either, he approaches him, helps him realize he's Kryptonian. The two randomly becoming friends makes Bruce suspicious... and that's how Batman figures out that they're not humans. (Side note, when Bruce starts asking Clark tons of questions out of no where, instead of being suspicious, he reads it as a love language)

(...is it too obvious that I'm a SuperBat shipper)

ANYWAY yeah that's all I have for now. Just vague ideas of dynamics and stuff, with no actual storyline... but if you guys have any more ideas or things you'd like to see, PLEASE let me know! I rlly rlly rlly wanna read this and write this fic but I don't know what to writeee 😭

[megabuild]

so i was googling yhs for something and i found out theres a (separate unrelated) minecraft series called yandere high school but its on amazon prime and the dude behind it just has. a lot on his profile

[random-imagines-blog]

Ambulances {Robert Downey Jr x Teen!Reader Oneshot} 

Requested by: Anonymous Wordcount: 3483 Summary: Being the youngest actor on the MCU is a dream come true - but why doesn't you feel as good as you should? Notes: Talks about depression.

This was meant to be everything that you ever wanted. The chance to work on one of the biggest franchises the world had ever seen. Appearing in a huge movie, and then getting the chance to star in a television show afterwards, all about your character. Possibly more movie appearances. Getting paid so handsomely that if you were careful, you wouldn’t ever go into debt. Rubbing elbows with some of the biggest and brightest stars in the world. Chris Evans, Robert Downey Jr, Scarlett Johansson, Benedict Cumberbatch. And you weren’t even out of high school yet. You were supposed to be living the dream.  

Then why did it feel like it was spiraling down into one of those nights where you don’t remember your dreams? It wasn’t a nightmare. There were negatives but nothing that you didn’t expect going into the acting profession. You didn’t hate your job. You didn’t hate your character. You just - started to feel nonchalant about the whole thing. Nothing at all. It started off with not feeling as excited as you used to when you woke up in your trailer to go to set. You were tired and had to drag yourself out of bed to go to hair and make-up.  

Robert was getting his done, his iconic Tony Stark facial hair being trimmed and shaved perfectly. You muttered a good morning before taking your seat, and one of the makeup artists came to work on you. 

“Rough night, kid?” Robert asked, raising an eyebrow at you.  

“I don’t think I slept that well,” you said. “Just - couldn’t get out of bed today.” 

“That’s called being a teenager,” He chuckled.  

“Yeah, probably,” you said, forcing out a chuckle back. You would just chalk this one up to a bad day. Everyone had those. You were able to pep yourself up for your scenes, and work through them without any issues. It was good to focus on something other than yourself for once. Get into the character. Become someone else for a little while. Someone who was mighty, and strong, who got out of bed each morning without trouble - unless they were beat up, which because this was a superhero movie, happened quite often. But you declined going out for dinner with everyone else, just saying that you were tired and headed back to your trailer while they went out to enjoy themselves.  

You looked around your trailer once you were inside. It was quiet in there, save for the very faint buzzing of electricity that was powering the lights. You collapsed down on the small couch where you usually went over your lines but - you couldn’t think of what to do. You didn’t feel like doing ... anything. There was your gaming console set up by the tv, a stack of games - but you didn’t feel like playing them. There was Netflix and Amazon Prime and Disney Plus and Hulu - but you didn’t feel like watching anything. There was your laptop, but you didn’t feel like website surfing. So, you just - sat there. Doing nothing. Feeling nothing.  

Your phone went off. You could see the name on top. One of your best friends from back home. Someone that you usually loved to talk to. But you just ... didn’t feel much like talking to them. A stab of guilt made its home in your stomach once the screen went dark again, knowing that you should have answered it. There was no reason to ignore them. But you still didn’t move. Just letting this feeling of ‘you should you should you should’ take you over.  

-- 

You didn’t even remember falling asleep - and you couldn’t remember if you dreamt or not. One minute, you were sitting on your couch, staring blankly ahead of you, not even thinking of anything, and the next, you were still sitting there but there was light coming in through the curtains and your alarm was going off on your cellphone.  

You were astounded at yourself. You’d never done this before, never felt this way before. You forced yourself up and into the shower but there too, you didn’t feel like doing much of anything. It all felt so ... tedious and worthless. How many times in your life were you going to waste time, standing here in the shower, washing your hair? How many times were you going to cover your loofa in bodywash and lather yourself up? Doing it all today just to do it again tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day. It felt so dull. 

And when you got out, all squeaky clean and put on a random hoodie and jeans to head out to hair and makeup, yet again, you didn’t feel as good as you usually did. Usually, a shower was just the thing that helped you start the day. You felt good when you were clean. “God, what’s wrong with me?” You muttered to yourself as you went into trailer and took your seat. 

This time it was Chris Evans that got there the same time you did, sitting in the opposite chair. “You missed a fun night,” he said, grinning at his phone. 

“Oh,” you said, looking straight ahead of you into the mirror. You forced out a laugh that didn’t feel real. “Next time, next time.” 

“I’ll hold you to it. They had some of the best tacos that I’ve ever had-” Chris said, turning into an excited puppy as he often did when he found something that he liked. Usually, it was enough to make you cheerful. But you just tuned him out, not having the attention span for this conversation. Or maybe it just wasn’t the energy. 

The makeup artists started on you, having to use a bit more concealer than they usually did. “Make sure you get all eight hours,” The artist reminded you.  

“Yeah, sorry about that,” You forced a chuckle. She covered your dark circles expertly, patting on powder to try to make it look more natural, and then you were out there to get ready for the shot of the day. You had a bit of time until you actually had to be on the set, since you were just coming in at the end of the scene, so you sat down and just ... watched. You didn’t really say anything to anyone. You weren’t in the most sociable mood. You let your mind wander, your body being present, but your mind was far away.  

“Hey kid,” A voice snapped you out of it. You blinked a couple of times and looked to see that Robert was sitting right next to you. You hadn’t noticed because you had been so busy thinking about ... you couldn’t even remember. That was more startling than Robert’s voice coming out of nowhere. You had no idea what you had been thinking about.  

“Hey,” You nodded, and then looked back out to the set, watching Chris Evans and Scarlett working together on a scene. “I didn’t know you were supposed to be on set today.” 

“‘m not, but I got bored so though I’d check it out,” he said, crossing his arms in front of him. Robert Downey Jr was intimidating, not because he was tough or scary, but because of his long career, and how he managed to recover from some pretty drastic dips. “You seem a little glum, chum.” 

“No, I’m just ... tired,” you said. It felt like a flimsy excuse, but you didn’t have one that felt better. It must have sounded weak as well, because Robert took off his sunglasses in a very Tony fashion and slipped them into his front pocket.  

“Just tired?” He asked. “You coming down with the flu or something?” 

“That could be it,” You nodded, clutching onto that idea. Maybe you had just gotten sick. Maybe there was a bug going around. There was always some kind of bug going around. It would explain your increase in listless behavior. You weren’t always the most active person, but you had been able to keep up with Marvel’s standards for their actors, but now that you were finding it harder, the flu made perfect sense. “Yeah, I think it’s just the flu. Better not get too close, huh?” 

“I’m not worried, I get my shot every year,” Robert said, casually. “You know - you could come to one of us if something is wrong, right?” 

It almost felt like an accusation of sorts. Like he could see right through you. See something that you were having trouble seeing in yourself.  

“Yeah, of course, you’re like - the best mentor ever,” You nodded, forcing on another smile. Just the flu, nothing was seriously wrong, it’s not like you could be ... depressed or anything. You didn’t have time to be depressed. You weren’t in the right business to be depressed.  

Your name was being called by the director, so you stood up quickly. “Gotta go. Good talk.” 

“Yeah, good talk,” Robert said, watching your back as you walked away. He saw something in you that he saw in himself, saw the beginning of something that he had struggled through for a lot of his adult life. And he didn’t want to see you struggle through it, at least not alone. He was going to be keeping an eye on you - two if he could spare them. 

-- 

It felt like the longest month of your life. It just dragged on, and on. There were at least four times that you had almost quit the movie. Where you brought up your manager’s number on your phone and almost pressed dial because you wanted out of your contract. It didn’t matter how much money you would owe the studio, or that you would be blackballed in Hollywood. Nothing felt like it mattered anymore. Your gaming system and laptop were collecting dust, literally, you had drawn a sad face on the system in the dust. You didn’t go out with the rest of the cast anymore, claiming other plans or that you weren’t feeling well, and spent the time in your trailer alone, with the lights off. Not because you were hiding but because you didn’t care to turn them on. You’d just be turning them off when you went to sleep so what was the point? You woke up, you dragged yourself out of bed, you went to set, and then you went back to your trailer and back into bed. You’d doom scroll through social media but not interact with anything.  

You went through the horrors of the world like you were trying to prove something. Or use it as a reason to be the way that you were being. The world was a crazy, unhappy place, so of course you were unhappy. Of course, you were falling into a depression - which was something that you could no longer deny. This wasn’t a few bad days, or the flu, or just feeling uneasy. This was full on, falling through the cracks, feeling worthless, depression.  

You didn’t deserve to be here. You weren’t putting in the work that you should be, which made you anxious about your performance, which made you feel even worse. You felt like you were just an imposter among all of these stars, you didn’t earn your place among them. It should be someone else here. A star like - Jenna Ortega, or Noah Schnapp, would fit in here better than you could. You were messing up your lines, having to have someone feed them to you through a small earpiece that couldn’t be seen on camera. You were given warnings by the director to shape up. You didn’t even cry when you were given that criticism. You didn’t get mad, you didn’t feel proud that he cared enough about you to want you to do better, you just felt numb to it, and returned to your bed like you did time and time again.  

It was after you spent an entire weekend in your bed, not showering, only eating what you could grab quickly and bring back to the bed, which was all the unhealthy stuff, not even changing your pajamas once, that you admitted that you had a problem. That you were forced to deal with the cold reality that - you weren’t coming down with the flu, but that this could seriously be depression. You couldn’t live in the denial of it anymore. 

You knew you should call your parents. Maybe your manager. Maybe even your family doctor to get a referral to a therapist or something along those lines. But there was only one person that you could think of talking to. 

You forced yourself into a shower, found some clothes that smelled relatively clean and didn’t have any stains on them, and put your shoes on for the first time in days. The sun was shining, and you had to admit that it felt kind of nice on your skin after so long. The crew were running around, getting things prepared for today’s shoot, which you didn’t have any part of. A free day, at least for now.  

You walked past a couple of the trailers, looking for the right one. A sign in the door had his name in big block letters, and you saw that he had drawn a little Iron Man underneath it. It wasn’t very well done but it was recognizable. You knocked on the door and then put your hands in your pockets, looking around to see if anyone was noticing you lingering outside. 

The door opened and Robert poked his head out. His cool expression warmed up when he saw you standing there. “What’s up kid?” 

You looked at him and you tried to think of exactly how you were going to say this. He already knew the meaning behind you coming to his door. But - he was still going to make you say it. You just had to say it. 

“I think - I have a problem, Robert,” You admitted. It was the first time that you said it out loud. Your first outside admission that something was wrong. You were putting it out into the universe because that’s the only way that you could get any sort of help.  

“I thought so,” Robert said, stepping out of his trailer. “Come with me.” 

-- 

He didn’t take you straight to a therapist or to the hospital or anything else that you had fared he was going to do. Instead, he took you to a small ice cream parlor near the studio. He bought you a sundae, loaded with all of your favorite toppings, even if you didn’t necessarily feel like eating something sweet right now. You didn’t feel like you deserved the treat. 

“Go on,” Robert urged, digging into his own with a plastic spoon. “You admitted you have a problem. That’s step number one, you deserve it.” 

It was like he could read your mind. He knew exactly what you were thinking and why you weren’t eating. So, you picked up the spoon and you dug it into the mess of ice cream and toppings and sauces and took out a large scoop and put it into your mouth. The sweetness ... actually tasted sweet. It didn’t taste like ashes on your tongue like a lot of food does these days. Eagerly, you went for a second scoop, and Robert was looking at you like you were a child of his that he was proud of.  

“I - I don’t know if it’s depression exactly. I’ve never really been depressed before,” You admitted, stirring your ice cream to make it a little softer, a little easier to eat. “As far as I know, it doesn’t run in my family. And ... it’s not like ... I feel sad or anything. I don’t cry...” 

“Depression isn’t just about feeling sad. Everyone feels sad,” Robert said, taking a bite of his own. “It sucks the life right out of you. It makes you lose your spark. Your passion. Any pleasure that you have in life, it just ... takes it away.” 

“That ... is how I’ve been feeling,” you said with a small nod. “I know it’s ridiculous, like, I’ve got my dream role and -” 

“It doesn't matter, kid,” Robert said, kindly. “You could be the happiest, richest person on the planet, and you can still get depressed. It’s not about deserving it. It’s just something that unfortunately happens.” 

You kept stirring your ice cream rather than eating it, watching the toppings drown under the melting cream. It was hard to take in that this was something that was actually happening to you. It was like a car crash in a way. It happened to other people. It was never supposed to happen to you. 

“So, what do I do?” You asked, slumping back. “Because I can’t ... I can’t be this way. It’s exhausting. I’m forgetting my lines, I can’t concentrate, I keep fucking up scenes and I feel like everyone is mad at me -” 

“No one is mad at you,” Robert said, pointing his spoon in your direction. “Everyone is worried about you. I think we all had it figured out before you did. Did you know that Evans has social anxiety? He works on it every day. He’d be another good person to talk to about all of this stuff. It’s different from depression but ... it has some of the same struggles.” 

“I’ll try to remember that” You mumbled. “So really, what do I do? How can I... get over this?” You plead. You put all of your trust in Robert here. He’d become a leading figure in your life since you joined the MCU.  

“It’s a disease,” Robert said, sadly. “It’s not something where you just take two pills and you’re done. There are medications that’ll help you out, but they take a little while work, and sometimes, you have to go through a couple of different ones to find out what works for you. Though what I’d recommend is therapy.” 

“Therapy?” You ask, eyebrows furrowed together. “I don’t even know what I’d say. I don’t have some ... deep childhood trauma that I can just point my fingers to. I don’t even ... know how to explain how I feel.” 

“You did a good enough job with me,” Robert pointed out.  

“That’s because I know you. I’m comfortable with you. And you knew what it was before I did...” 

“Why don’t I give you the name and number of the therapist I’ve been seeing for years. They’re really good,” Robert said, taking off his sunglasses and making straight up eye contact with you. “Or - they can help you find someone who fits you best. That’s important. You have to feel comfortable talking to them. There’s no shame in trying to find the one for you.” 

You groaned and put your head down on the table, the metal feeling cold against your forehead. You were hoping it was going to be easier than that. That it could just be like antibiotics, take two a day and scare the depression away. But of course, nothing was ever going to come that easy in this life. You were going to have to work for it. Just like how you worked hard for everything else that you achieved.  

“It’s going to be a trek,” Robert said, clicking his tongue, spooning up more of his ice cream. “But I think you can handle it. You took that first step, now you just have to make a phone call.” 

He took a card out of his wallet, and he slid it across the table to you. A professional business card, the name and number of a therapist. You just looked at it from your position on the table, your head turned onto its side now. “Do I have to do it right now?”  

“You don’t have to do anything,” Robert shrugged. “It’s up to you when you’re ready.” 

You sighed again. You missed the days when your parents used to make the phone calls. Used to schedule your appointments for you. Made sure that you got there on time. That was one of the annoying parts of being an adult. You had to do it yourself now. 

You raised your head and read the card again. The name of the doctor in a neat, no-nonsense font. You took another spoonful of your ice cream, took your phone out of your pocket, and started to dial the number, looking at Robert the whole time who gave you a thumbs up. It was going to be a rough road but - at least you could honestly say that you were not alone. That helped more than anyone could ever understand. 

[francesderwent]

my brain is fried i'm so overtired I've cried spontaneously at least once a day for the past three days will you please help a girl out with a soft cozy wholesome movie recc please and thank you

I’m so sorry my dear!! I dug to the depths of a bunch of old tag games and my film tag and this is what I came up with!

when I’m strung out I tend to gravitate to movies that will make me happy-cry so this list will at moments tend in that direction. I tried to sort by what was available to stream now, and the sub-lists are in no particular order

if you have amazon prime (the basic package):

Penelope (2006). highly recommend, a funny little modern fairy tale about a lonely young girl searching for a way to break her curse. this one heals something in my heart

Stardust. also highly recommend! a chaotic fairy tale about true love and what a person would do for it.

Street Gang. the Sesame Street documentary. sometimes people are good and they’re trying to make the world a better place and they’re doing it with their friends.

How To Train Your Dragon. it’s a perfectly executed film and the score and animation is gorgeous. (also available on netflix)

if you have netflix:

Feel the Beat. a dance flick about a seemingly cold-hearted ambitious young woman becoming a dance teacher in her hometown

To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before. so so so rewatchable.

She’s the Man. the funniest movie on this list and possibly of all time. I have never shown this movie to a person who didn’t end up loving it. it’s Shakespeare’s Twelfth Night at boarding school as a soccer movie

if you have tubi?? you might not need a membership I don’t know how tubi works??

The Music Man. some of the best costumes and choreography my favorite age of movie musicals had to offer. a con man comes to a small Iowa town and starts to want to believe in the beautiful lie he’s selling.

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. this movie was written by Roald Dahl and it is buck wild. widowed inventor and his two children buy a broken down racing car and?? hijinks and musical numbers ensue

if you have disney plus:

Princess Diaries (1&2). we know them, we love them.

Sky High. if you haven’t seen this, I highly recommend it because it is silly fun but it understands the genre it’s playing with.

Newsies (1992). scrappy newsboys form a union, sing songs, punch each other, ???, profit

Holes. the single best adapted book to film ever? the cast commentary is also hilarious

Rodgers and Hammerstein Cinderella (1997). absolutely delightful. Whitney Houston as the godmother! Jason Alexander as the butler! Brandy as Cinderella! Bernadette Peters as the stepmother!

if you feel up for a trip to the library, things to look for:

The Hundred Foot Journey. I only saw this one once but it’s about a family who opens up an Indian restaurant across from a Michelin-starred French restaurant and it’s gorgeous

A League of Their Own (1992). sisters! best friends! married women and their disreputable drunk coach friends!

The Secret Garden (1993). highly recommend! this one fixes me down to my bones.

This Beautiful Fantastic. also highly recommend! a woman who’s afraid of the world falls in love with it.

Secondhand Lions. also highly recommend!! a boy gets dropped off with his great-uncles for the summer, hears possibly made-up stories of their wild and adventurous youth

August Rush. a young musical prodigy searches for his parents.

Sense and Sensibility (1995). if you need Austen energy, this is the one.

Cinderella (2015). this movie is so gentle and so lovely.

Little Women (1994). life is gonna be hard and sad but it’s gonna be beautiful and the love will endure!!!

I hope this helps and I hope you feel better! ❤️❤️