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more headcanons 🥰🥰 3/?
-because Theo’s a chimera, he heals slower but tans easier and Liam gets jealous (idk this makes sense in my head)
-because the hermit pack has no connection to Liam’s pack, I feel like that makes Theo take to them about Liam more easily
-they went to a photo booth and Theo folded it up so only his favorite square photo is showing and put it in his wallet that Liam got him for his birthday or Christmas or something (SCALLISON REFERENCE😫😫)
-Theo’s first week with Liam after the road trip is spent going shopping and furnishing his apartment. Liam gives him a spare mattress they have and they buy curtains and rugs and tables at like ikea or something
-Liam has strawberry sprinkle shampoo (saw this in a fic but I can’t remember!!! Credits to them)
-even though Theo doesn’t live in his truck anymore, he still keeps a pillow or two and a blanket for when him and Liam- A) go to idaho/on more roadtrips or B) if they just sit at the edge of the preserve in the bed of the truck
-Liam’s nightmares are about his dad and not being able to save the people he loves
-ok I don’t want this to be like that slideshow that people made fun of on TikTok about like zootopia headcsnons or something and the first slide was wholesome and the second slide was like “oh he wants to kill himself”, BUTTTT in my head Liam was abused BAD by his dad when he was younger (like 6-14… or is that not realistic IDKKK)
Which is one of the main reasons he is so ashamed of his IED because his dad had it and would yk like hurt him and Jenna
So if it’s ever brought up Liam will like act like it was nothing because idk in my head he’s such like a bubbly person who had something SO traumatic to him so I just think he wouldn’t switch to depressed so quickly, and instead try to keep up his everything’s fine image
Guys sorry that was sad
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Crazy things you'd like to see happen in season 8 or (if ABC is so kind enough to greenlight it) season 9.
I'll start:
1- Eddie stops being straight and the priest stops being celibate. Together.
2- Buck has to watch Eddie slowly venture out of the glass closet he's been in forever.
3- Buck spirals and bounces between whore and hermit.
4- Eddie spirals and gets stuck on whore for a while. A loooooong while. And he is a proficient, popular, busy one.
5- I want to see Eddie start number four with women, get a therapist who helps him dig through the beliefs vs truth and religious guilt, and he realizes he isn't as straight as he thinks.
6- I want Eddie to add men in after number five.
7- I love messy drama, so I want a Tommy return, but not for a second chance. I want Buck to feel like he has to cling to Tommy to have a chance at a partner, so he seeks him out for closure only for Tommy to ask if it is true Eddie is dating men now and then ask why Eddie didn't go for his wooing attempts.
8-I want a Buck breakdown. (I have times that I love whump.) Abby left. Ali left. Taylor couldn't be trusted. Tommy was with him only because Eddie didn't want him. Eddie is never around because he's putting in lots of hours making up for all those dry spells. Cue self-loathing, self-doubt, self-esteem issues, his abandonment issues eating him alive, and the guy having no clue he is jealous af. I want crying. Lots of crying.
9- I want Tommy to run into Eddie and hit on him. I want Tommy to tell Eddie he did everything to try to date him, but thought he was straight. I want it to end with a fight. (I told you, I like messy drama.)
10- I want Buck to come close to leaving because he feels he can't stay, but he doesn't know why. Every member of the 118 family should ask him why he thinks leaving is a good idea. He can't articulate anything other than he can't take it anymore, but can't tell anyone what "it" is. They should all remind him of what he has in LA and what he would be losing. Just before he goes too far to turn back, Eddie begs him not to go and Buck goes off, asking him why he cares, since he isn't even around anymore. Buck tells him to go find some rando for the night like he's been doing for months and get lost. I will give the writers cookies if Buck is shoving Eddie out of his door and yelling at him to just go.
Then, Eddie breaks because he sees boxes being packed, Buck's loft being emptied, and realizes Buck is slipping through his fingers. Buck stops because he realizes why he is losing it.
The have realizations at the same time.
Buddie canon begins.
Add your own headcanons or wishes in the replies.
As always, this may or may not become a fic. If anyone else wants to try it, remember to hit me up with the link to read your work!
#911 abc#911 on abc#9 1 1 buddie#911#911 show#buddie 911#eddie diaz#evan buckley#tommy kinard#eddie x buck#buck x eddie#eddie diaz x evan buckley#evan buckley x eddie diaz#hot boy winter eddie diaz#emotional wreck evan buckley#tommy kinard is an opportunist and we all know it#911 wishlist
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"I was bein' facetious. Thought it'd be the most polite thing to say." Hazel gently shrugged one shoulder. No use lying about those days anymore, after all. Not with him, anyway.
Even as he said that so casually, Hazel kept his gaze elsewhere. His hands were joined together on his lap, one embracing the other, with a thumb stroking soothingly over its twin. Back and forth, back and forth...
"Shall we say you've got a point to it..." He finally speaks again, rising his eyes on Hakkai again. "How does one go about procurin' something like that? Can't say I've ever noticed any sort of... Youkai Fashion Stores, or anythin' of the sort."
He really wondered now. Already his mind was running miles away, picturing something incredibly exotic and folkloresque, like a lonesome goldsmith living as a hermit at the end of some mystic far-away place hidden in the mists. Was this going to become a quest in its own right? As if they didn't have enough on their plate as is!
Hakkai nodded, trusting that he need not explain what they were. Even though they hadn't brought it up directly in conversation since they first met, Hazel wasn't that ignorant.
"Oh? I could've sworn you once mentioned how stylish they are." Not unlike the haughty foreign exchange student in typical high school light novels and their backhanded compliments. "Then again, I suppose it would be rather awkward for the both of us to sport similar accessories."
Jokes and sarcasm aside... He noted the shift in expression on the other's face, his own gaze turning pensive.
"I wouldn't say that exactly." Technically the one who'd go mad wouldn't be Hazel who, as far as he knew, was still human. Varahal had climbed his way to the surface and taken the driver's wheel on multiple occasions now. And as Sanzo had warned him, one can never return as they were before the moment they fully succumb to the Minus Wave's effects.
Should that happen to Varahal, would Hazel Grouse basically cease to exist beyond the physical sense? Or would they become one and the same?
"What I'm saying is that I think it wouldn't hurt to consider it as a little preventive measure, even if one must dock a few fashionable points, considering the alternative..." Particularly when said alternative makes their 'foreign exchange student' far more uncouth.
#v04 || saiyuki#s03 || let me answer to your prayers. [ic: hazel grouse]#[& hakkai]#shouga nai#shouganai
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hey guysss how mad would you be if i completely changed my brand. and online persona. and online name. and my whole blog look and feel..
how. how mad?
#don't worry im still sfw tickle community just way different feel on here#this is less a question and more a warning#hermit is likely not going to be hermit anymore#just fyi#sfw tickling community#sfw tickling#tword community#sfw tickle community#sfw twords#tickle thoughts#tickle scenarios#god someone euthanize hermit
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Howdy. Odd question, but do you have any advice for new peeps joining the fandom?
i don't know that it's a super odd question, but, i also don't know that i'm the best person to ask, having been in the fandom so long XD
But, I guess I'll give it a shot...?
Watch/play the source material! Undertale wouldn't have such an extensive fandom if the game itself wasn't incredible. If you can't play games or it's too expensive for you right now, there are plenty of great playthroughs on youtube--I like MarcoMeatball's and Symbalily's neutral/pacifist runs. If you really want to explore everthing, Hawlo's no-commentary playthrough is extremely thorough and good for getting immersed.
Watch the 5th anniversary concert! It seems a fair few people have missed it over the years, but it's a beautiful rendition of nearly all of the game's soundtrack by a full orchestra. Their dedication and skill is truly impressive, and the instrumentation is excellent. It's best experienced with some good headphones :>
on a similar note (heheh), the Undertale covers by RichaadEB and Amie waters are great too, and there's plenty of other excellent covers out there. Definitely take some time to seek the work other fans have shared--there are some really talented people out there ^^
when it comes to finding fic or fanart however, i'm not sure how easy it is to search for; the tags on tumblr are notoriously unreliable, both because the search function is not great, but not everyone uses tags. But, if you can find a few blogs who post things you like, check out who they reblog from too--you might be able to find more that way. Don't be afraid to go back into a blog's archives too--there could be buried treasure in there :>
That's all i can think of for now, but I'm sure my followers could think of things to add, so check the comments/reblogs once this post has had some time to simmer ^^
#undertalethingem chats#i'm a fandom hermit and don't really go into the tags anymore#so idk what it's like out there XD
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just got a dm abt one of my posts and y'all please don't try and show the hermits (or any minecraft youtuber or content creator for that matter) my posts, i'm uncomfortable with it and don't want any of my posts shown to a cc. if they stumble upon it naturally that's unfortunate but i can live with it since i do maintag a lot (something i REALLY need to stop doing tbh i already know i need to make a tagging system just for my blog that wont clog results) but going out of ur way to show a cc is entirely different and something i am not comfortable with.
no hate to the person at all but even if i wasn't a little silly and weird with it sometimes i wouldn't be comfortable with it, i want my blog to be a purely fandom only space with none of the creators involved <3 please respect this
#which is imo how a fandom space should be#i'm old fashioned and it breaks the fandom etiquette rules i stand by#i ship and stuff and absolutely NO cc needs to be subjected to that please and thank you even if it's a non-ship post#not saying hermits and others cant hang out and interact if they wish hell no but like....#if you as any person with a following willingly go into a fandom space you have to expect to see some things you find weird#doesn't even necessarily mean ship just stuff the cc finds weird :v idk im not phrasing this right but like#the rule with shipping around any sort of media has been to keep it away and not show the creators anything !!! and thats fallen out#of practice the past few years with ppl getting more and more comfortable demanding boundaries and personal info from creators#which isn't right imo bc its like you're trying to see how much you can get away with. u want a guide on how to interact and social skills#which is... huh??? just be polite and keep anything weird away from them like what we were doing#some folks nowadays need “permission” to ship stuff even from SHOWS and shit with no real people and its like wow... huh....#u need it to be canon?? u need everything told to u by the show?? wheres the imagination. the spirit.#the making of everything so far removed from what it once was#like that guy that played nick from heartstopper that had to be outed to play a gay guy. like#idk im so sick of the boundary fandom ppl in mcyt 'what if they saw and made it uncomfortable!! im going to show them!!!!'#you are making them MUCH more uncomfortable than i am by GOING INTO THEIR FACE AND DEMANDING THEY LOOK AT IT!!#AND DEMANDING BOUNDARIES N SHIT... CRAZY.... idk the hermits especially its weird to me bc clearly they understand fandom etiquette#and the dynamic im talking about. most of them understand that by going into fandom spaces they will see things they dont like#which is why a lot of them only like fanart and answer questions asked by fans. even on tumblr !!! where the weird ppl are!!!#they also all seem to understand they are playing characters (citing joel cleo and grian as examples) for their audiences#which is. smth the audience itself doesnt understand most of the time anymore. oh my god they all died in real life in hermitcraft season 8#idk hermitblr used to be a lot more okay with hermitshipping n then a bunch of ppl from other fandoms moved in and its all more negative#and makes me sad. idk...#i never meant for this blog to gain almost 500 followers i just wanted to make silly little ship posts and now im scared to#bc ive gotten hate and its.... bwugh.... tempted to remake blogs and make one thats very clearly just for me and a few weirdos#whatever i went off on a tangent in the tags as usual just pls dont show creators my posts even non-ship ones for this reason#jamies bad posts#talking in tags#serious posts#<- ig??? idk
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maybe, idk
also look at this ]-]C wayne; >[}oж somsnosa; 3(-( dedusmuln and >-[£ pongorma! I'm very smart as you can see, yes (。_°)
#ive been thinking about how to show the bizarre anatomy head shape of those two above for a long time now#i feel like the bizarre goes in a spectrum from dedus to wayne to somsnosa who is closer to humanoid and then theres enigma pongo#is pongo like a hermit crab taking the nicest most comfy helmet there is to find on a ground or something maybe xD ?#and then theres a line of knights of yiithorn who want to take pongo's shed helmet and they go from big to small like actual hermit crabs?#and soms is like i want to have a helmet too and hand makes it from skull and bones#also yes thats a question mark cap dont ask questions like that anymore thats not very mark of you- what am i talking about#anyways cool great 👍🏼 i shall go to sleep now have a good night everyone! o7#hylics#wayne hylics#dedusmuln#somsnosa#pongorma#artstump
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Episode 7 is coming out this Friday (early access) but I think this time I'll wait before playing it, especially since I haven't even made my usual review for ep6 and I don't feel ready to play the next episode,,
Too many things are happening to me all at once and I'm feeling very overwhelmed, I haven't been on Tumblr much these past couple of weeks and I've barely participated in the style contests as well,,
One thing I did start tho was my full replay of MCL HSL on Lysander's route! I'm currently on episode 9, while my Eldarya replay di Ezarel is still waiting on episode 10 (I haven't got the time,,)
Thought I'd share these things in case anyone was wondering (doubt it but oh well), and because I honestly like the little community here and I've only had pleasant interaction unlike on previous servers (I might elaborate on this one day)
I'm not sure how active I'll be in the following days since, again, I'm very overwhelmed and if things don't stop happening to me I don't know what I'll do lol (nothing too bad, hopefully nothing too auto destructive either, I hope I can get out of this feeling of constant discomfort soon because I'm feeling my mental health declining and I hate that, I feel all over the place)
#no particular tags#if you see this you're super cool#don't worry about me too much I've had to handle way worse and thankfully I'm not having *those* kind of thoughts anymore#I just need to keep going and being patient#but my patience is starting to run thin#I hate the adult life and society why can't I just live like a hermit omg
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Alright, I've been meaning to do this for a long time, but I'm finally starting a patreon.
I've spent the last ten years doing shitty retail and food service jobs and honestly it got pretty bad for me for a few years, and it was hard to do anything besides work and eat and sleep.
But I've been doing better this year! And I want to make things. My own things. I'm feeling inspired and like I actually love drawing for the first time in a long time. And I want to hold onto that and keep going. I want to do things I actually care about and believe in and even if this doesn't fully replace having a job I can spend more time doing art and less time making coffee for strangers.
There's not going to be a bunch of big fancy tiers to the patreon just yet. I mostly plan on using it for posing design and concept work for projects I want to work on. If that's something that sounds interesting to you, or if you've ever appreciated the various gay horses and lesbian animals I've drawn over the years, please consider throwing a few bucks a month my way.
Thanks for everything!
#I've also been trying to be less of a fucking hermit all the time#maybe say things and talk to people every now and then#cause it's something I really miss#I used to share my thoughts about media all the time and I almost never do anymore#which is wild cause thinking about media is one of the main things I do#anyway thanks to games like slarpg and roadwarden for making me go 'oh right I wanted to do this too'#and giving me the energy and inspiration to start un-depressing myself#I want to stop being scared of not finishing things and just start them#thank you to everyone who has ever shared and commented on my stuff in the past you have no idea how much it keeps me going#I read every single tag on everything
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More misc. daily life pictures and such
#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that --#1 & 2 - Very bright pretty looking sky !#2. HUGE icicle that looked like you could kill someone with it or something.. Pulled from near a gutter on the side of a building#3. & 4 & 5 - various images from a silly party I had where I pretended to be some elf king turning like 204 years old lol (also not like#a REAL party. Only my roommates were there really and we're all in the same household bubble.#just to clarify. I would never dare have a large party anyway given#my hermitous nature but on top of that.. didn't want there to be some implication that I'm having a Party while covid is still ongoing lol.#NEVER.. But I do love dressing up as some fantasy character so much.. The only thing that could ever bring a true hermit wizard#to engage with others socially is the prospect of connecting it somehow to fantasy worlds and costumes lol. One must simply dress up#as a silly 200 year old man from time to time and pretend you've never seen a balloon before in your life. etc.#6. bapy boye... feets#7. The main food that I made for the elderly elf man 'party'. which was a Deconstructed Beef Wellington (kind of as ajoke since I watch s#o many silly cooking competition shows and they always make stuff 'deconstructed' at the last minute when under time limits or whatever.)#I've wanted to make beef wellington a few times but Ithink to do it well I'd need like..an actual kitchen and a lot of time and#an oven that fully works to bake things and etc. etc. So I thought this would be an easier method. A thick steak cut round to kind of mimi#c the round tenderloin or whatever it is in a wellington. instead of the puff pastry being wrapped around - I just did star shaped cut outs#of pastry and baked them and put them on top (to go with the star theme). instead of mushroom duxelles being wrapped around in pastry#its in a little circle under the steak. and instead of mustard being brushed onto the meat I made a mustard gravy sauce type of thing#Then of course asparagus on the side.. my favorite... Though I know some wellington#also has a layer of prosciutto I think. or I saw one person use crepes. I didn't feel it was necessary to incorporate that too lol#8. bapy son helping me do a giant puzzle that took me hours and I had no idea it was actually that large of a puzzle#until I started putting it together and for some reason it made me stressed by the end instead of relaxed lol.. puzzle fatigue#photo diary
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hello... (and bye ig 👋)
#👋😭 hi...#i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone#i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭#i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh...#uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂#i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but#i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause#i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say...#i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu#it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media /#without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao#i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy#pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on#i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a#depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think#i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just#sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ????#i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become#even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it#i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it#like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi#i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda#makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd#not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what#they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling#anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀#i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say#this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel#like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭#who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡
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#I hate who I am when I start missing human contact and feeling lonely#I start missing someone who was awful to me simply because they were reliable in talking to me every day and at least sort of my friend#I start craving the connections that you see in media even though I know those types aren’t real#it seems like everyone else has more people and better people and closer people in their lives than me#it seems like everyone has best friends and partners that are closer to them and better for them#and idk it just feels like things are missing from my life#I have a partner but I can’t always talk to them when I need to because they can’t always handle a conversation#I have a best friend but he barely ever answers my calls and things feel distant between us lately#I have other friends but they’re not the kinds that I feel I could turn to for help when I’m lonely like this#I have my parents but neither of them are very good at comfort in these situations#and I just want to cry because I feel so completely by myself and I don’t know what to do anymore#I just want someone to talk to and who will listen to me when I need help and advice and be there for me#I’m starting to really miss the wrong people again even though I know I’m better without them in my life#but at least I could send them anything and get a response fairly soon when I needed to#at least for a while they were very close to me and i think that’s what I really miss most of all#just the closeness of another person since I don’t always feel that with other relationships these days#it’s times like these I wish I’d just killed myself at 16 so I wouldn’t have to keep dealing with this over and over forever#it’s times like these I wanna fade away#if I’m going to be alone anyway then why bother keeping others around at all? why not just break off and go be a hermit somewhere else?#but I can’t do that because I have too many responsibilities that I need to take care of#idk maybe I should just kill myself and get it over with#pretty sure I wasn’t supposed to make it this long in the first place#I mean I’m being facetious cause I’m not overly suicidal and I’m not actually going to do anything#just kinda wish I could in a weird sort of way#like missing the feeling of a blade slicing my skin since I stopped cutting a long time ago#just want more out of my relationships and from myself and from my life and idk how to get any of that#personal
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So me and my friend played Sky again because of your au, and I can’t stop laughing because at some point my friend told me to follow them and I accidentally forgot to jump and then I watched as they proceeded to fly into every wall possible and then get stuck out of bounds.
And ever since then I can’t stop thinking about how it fits Ace and Luffy in your sky au
Real that’s so real
And then he gets stuck in the floor
#YOU PLAYED SKY AGAIN BECAUSE OF ME???? I DON’T EVEN PLAY SKY MUCH ANYMORE I GOT BURNT OUT#YOU MEAN TO TELL ME THAT MORE THAN TWO PEOPLE LIKE MY AU????????#sky au#art#one piece#sky: cotl#monkey d luffy#sky: children of the light#sky is so buggy getting stuck out of bounds is just a part of the expereince#idk if anyone remembers because they fixed it ages back but remember when the sanctuary islands just had gaping holes in them#and you could just walk through it#and going up from the village of dreams to the hermit thingy place you’d suddenly teleport above the clouds#or end up randomly sent to a different floaty boat thingy#first time i saw aurora’s concert i got stuck in the floor deadass#during the end of the seed#i was just watching everything from below#i’ve decided that noclipping is possible in my au /j
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I want to kill whomever it was that came up with the “bright” idea of making physics a fucking mandatory class. do not take this as an actionable threat
#iso.txt#bro i could have a near perfect average otherwise#i failed this class i will never be perfect again#and i have more required physics classes so thats just awesome!#by failed i mean Really badly#like worse than you can imagine#idk if i can even get into grad school now 😐🔫#having an identity crisis bc who am i anymore if i am a failure#time to go with plan B drop out and become a hermit !!#why can’t i study math and get a degree without all this bullshit
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I've been so weird about friendships for the past year-ish waaagghh
#overly paranoid would be the word and like. no object permanence. but in a worse way than before#Im kinda like 'I havent talked to this person in....2 months. therefore they probably dont want to talk to me anymore?????#and then we hang out and its fun and they do stuff that clearly proves they like having me around and I get reassured#and then 2 months later im like 'HMMM but NOW theyre definitely tired of me'#ITS SO DUMB#AND I KNOW ITS DUMB#and its made it super hard for me to initiate convos with people I havent talked to in a while. worsening it.#and I dont think I used to have that problem#id go hermit mode for 6 months. come back. friends would be cool with it (as far as i could tell) and just go from there#jen rambles#more like jen whines#its like ive become overly aware of how people treat me/ could potentially treat me if I 'fuck up' hrmm
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Oh. My birthday is in less than 2 months.
#this is the first year I'm fucking dreading it#like legitimately i just wanna sleep until like#fckn December#idk#maybe till January too so i don't have to do new year's#every holiday and special date and memory and picture are fucking marred by some kinda horrible feeling#i want to escape so badly i wanna move away i wanna go into the mountains i wanna become a hermit#i don't want to exist in my life anymore#i hate it i legitimately dislike my life rn and there's nothing i can do about it just... fucking cry and dread#cry and dread#rinse and repeat#vent
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