#here's to a roof over my head

[lesbiangummybearmafia]

[angelpuns]

Just another day wishing I didn't live with my parents but having to because I can barely take care of myself

[disappearinginq]

I really wish I could be convinced that more people would be interested in non-ship stuff for fandoms I'm in.

Look, we all know we write for ourselves. I get it. I do. But my desire (ability) to finish things is hinged on feedback. My two longest fics that I wrote the fastest were because of audience engagement. And because I knew I had people I respected and liked reading, and I wanted them to enjoy the read, I wrote better.

Now I feel like I'm just stuck in No Man's Land of fandom, and while I have like a dozen things half finished, they never seem to actually BE finished because if the audience is me, then I know how it ends. There's not much point writing it down.

So this is basically my To Do List.

The Rookie - I just don't care about what 90% of the fandom cares about

1. Series of one shots that establish Angela and Tim's BFF status that may or may not lean Tim aspec because I'm me.

2. Pre series flashbacks to Tim in his time in service when he survives an airstrike that kills two of his friends and almost kills him.

3. Trauma Tim post season 6, because in rapid succession, he loses his job on metro, he witnesses his old team die in a way eerily similar to the way he was almost killed in the airstrike, had a friend commit suicide in front of him after confessing to being dirty, gets accused of being dirty himself, and is again almost killed in close quarter combat (among other things that will remain unmentioned here)

Slow Horses

1. Do not ask me why but I love the idea that Lamb potentially met River was he was a kid because he had to work closely with David Cartwright and River is always where he's not supposed to be

2. River goes missing, and for once, not his fault. Lamb has to come to terms that just because he pretends not to care, doesn't mean anyone buys it

3. Post season 4, somebody finds out that River is the last remaining son of Frank's assassin cult, and it goes about as well as can be expected. I fully intend to have Lamb use this line: "trying to detain you is like trying to nail jello to a tree".

Magnum PI (yes, I still work on these)

1. Finish Wrong Side. I actually have like another 10-15k words on it, but it's not in order or complete scenes, but it does include Thomas’s recovery and discovery that Hannah is the one who sold them out

2. I have like 6 other chapters to Bad Things Happen that I half wrote but then retired the card

3. Crossover with MacGyver because I thought Mac could use some down time in Hawaii after season 4 and the last half of season 3

Tracker 1. Colter goes missing during one of his cases, and I borrow heavily from an episode of Lethal Weapon wherein Colter will be held hostage in an illegal drug trial that he stumbled into and now finds himself an unwilling participant, and I drag Russell into it because that is how big brothers work

Hudson & Rex - honestly, I have the most written for this fandom, even though the fandom itself is pretty quiet, but it's most of a bingo card 1. Finish Oh The Weather Outside is Frightful because damn son it's been years

2. In no particular order, I have Bad Things Happen Bingo It's Not My Blood, Stitches, Caught in a Snare, Falls Through the Ice and three others that fit other prompts - a boating accident, Charlie finally finds himself at the bottom of a well (sort of) and completes his "Timmy and Lassie Scenario" bingo card, and where Charlie realizes he's developed claustrophobia after having a mine collapse on him, being locked in a freezer storage, almost crushed by a shipping container, buried alive, etc and gets stuck in an elevator with Jesse

[thornswoggled]

we have got to give chise more credit for effortlessly adapting to her entire life genre-shifting in one day. she went from being a one-off character in a junji ito story to being a ghibli protagonist and she deserves a pat on the back for not losing her entire mind about it

[iniziare]

do you write?

Mel semi-dared me to type: “No, leave me alone.” So I have to include it. But in all seriousness, I'll respond this once, because it does allow me to update people a little bit. Though please know that your notification did have me pause mid-writing. Now, I want to politely, and respectfully direct you to my description on both dash-only and on my blog's theme, I also want to point your attention to my pinned post, and I believe that it's even in my rules, but I could be wrong. Though let me repeat it here:

The depictions you'll find here are canon-strict, and so you can expect many analyses of all kinds here, as dissecting the characters that I write is what I'm passionate about, and what I'm here for (and to write, of course!)

I admit, usually I aim to write more threads/asks consistently even if I'm excessively slow, and though I haven't updated the dash about my circumstances for a while (as I'm decently private about my life), know that writing meta has simply come a lot easier lately when time has permitted me to be on Tumblr. Now, that doesn't mean I don't value people's interest in writing with me, and I will live up to the promises that I've made that I will get to that (as I have occasionally done lately, and was in process of doing again)— but when meta comes easier to me, then I prioritize that as of late, simply because stress' best counter is the distraction that comes the easiest. Now this isn't by any means a waste of time, as it plays into what I quoted above. Because ultimately, here's my thing: I make it exceptionally clear everywhere on my blog that I am canon-strict (or as Tumblr, sadly, disrespectfully seems to call it nowadays: a 'lore purist'), and that this leads me to write a lot of analyses left and right on the characters that I write, but these are fundamental to understanding my portrayals of them. If that isn't your cup of tea, sir, or ma'am, then maybe this isn't the blog for you, and I don't mean that with malice, or in disrespect, but simply as a simple rebuke. In that, I greatly appreciate you checking in on behalf of my writing partners, but I'm also quite certain that they have the capacity to approach me themselves if they have any concerns. Have a nice day or night, wherever you are!

[moopbox]

do u ever feel alive but not...

like ur body is alright n stuff but ur mind...isn't... I don't FEEL alive... its like I'm distant from me... I'm not here... I can feel my limbs I can feel the blood going through me I can feel everything that I've ever hurt.. I can breathe...I can see.. i can write these words down....but I'm just not. just not here my head is fuzzy,parts of me hurt..idk..

more in tags...

[fortheturnstiles]

kinda feels like the world is ending and ive never been this tired in my life before but being On Edge for four days straight while the place i grew up and currently live in is burning everywhere around me will make a person exhausted. at least i cleaned and organized my room Serious style and did laundry and am currently in the process of washing my sheets. listened to beach boys endless summer + lemon twigs last album + SM face the truth + two liz phair albums. here 👇🏻 currently. There are fruits to eat yet, Life to live ! monkey image .jpeg

[averlym]

" just...come here. just sit here with me" (...that one scene from princess momonoke, click for better resolution)

[didntyoubelieveinme]

i posted this yesterday but it flopped so i’m posting it again!!! 🤭🤭

In velvet goldmine, we see 2HB being used (technically??) in three different scenes. The first time is when we see brian preform (chronologically), second was in the bar restaurant thingy curt and arthur were in, and the third time was at the end of the movie when jack fairy preforms

The first time this song plays, it sets up the major use of it further in the movie. We see it when brian is very new to making music and performing, this idea of the early days. Before he was taken over and changed by playing as maxwell demon. This was before maxwell demon was even a thought. He was just brian.

A big point made in this movie is the change between decades. The 80s is depicted as this grayer and duller era while the 70s an era of expression and creativity. At the end of brian’s interview, mandy says, “for the first time in brian’s life, he was simply telling it like it was. did he realize what he’d actually done? how could he have? i mean today, there’d be fighting in the streets. but in 1972… it was more like dancing.” 2HB is used as this small bit of the past, of what was before.

The second time we hear the song was with arthur and curt. The entire scene plays as this sense of regret and what went wrong. They then have their whole conversation, and we have the very iconic quote, “we set out to change the world, ended up just changing ourselves… what’s wrong with that?… nothing, if you don’t look at the world.” We then get a longshot of all the other tables and people. With the grays and the dull colors you get more imagery of just how much is different. In the end the world did change, just never how they expected it to. Curt mourns the past while brian appeals to the present, ever craving for fame.

As curt gives arthur the pin from brian, someone plays 2HB on the jukebox and, after this entire conversation about how things have changed, its almost this blast from the past—how things started out, how they used to be beautiful.

The last time we hear this song is in the ending sequence of this movie. We see jack fairy singing it and as we do, there is this backdrop that projects the faces of the big glam rock stars in this time period. The scene then fades into the same sequence we saw from the beginning of the movie, and as the shot pans into a radio that no one is taking the time to pay attention to, we see just how much things are different. It will never be like it one was, but we’ll have this one thing. Their music will forever be an echo of the past, no matter how much the world changes they will have always happened.

[rockium-z]

ghost thoughts

i am. eepy ahahaha, but happy 8th 7th comic anniversary to @entityneo!! sometimes (many times.) i think about this fancomic and go a little insane

less sleep-deprived edit: i cannot count. nice

[werebutch]

My dad won’t leave me the hell alone . I know that he’s prone to paranoid delusions but it was a lot easier to deal with when it was something like being convinced he’s a demon sent from hell. How am I supposed to convince a man his bitch ex wife and his bitch daughters aren’t plotting to ‘split his family up’ as he puts it. He is so convinced there’s no arguing. And if I refuse to argue he will yell more and tell me how I have no argument because I know he’s right. I know I shouldn’t react to that but it makes my blood boil 😐

[roachemoji]

3 quilts 1 weight blanked 25mg of quetiapine the heat turned off window cracked open 2 pillows fluffed my favorite stuffed animals and my cat tucked in next to me. maybe things are alright

[skunkes]

made the mistake of looking up apartments + rent costs in texas again

[jellypawss]

back on my diet because I’m not paying rent anymore and can afford healthy food (fuck america btw)

Secondly! I started eating overnight oats, what are y’all’s favorite things to add to oats!

[rosicheeks]

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[cinnasaur]

losing my mind a little cuz there are mice in here my landlord doesn't deal with properly so i purchased traps myself and they are not getting trapped and i asked for advice on reddit and only got linked to a post that just suggests everything i already tried and im having some kind of allergic reaction to just being in my room and i truly need to get out of here