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I love all books but sometimes you read a book and you’re like so were all 21 thousand of you blindfolded and at gun point when you rated it 5 stars

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Slow Horses (2022-)

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The Lovely and the Lost by Jennifer Lynn Barnes

The Naturals by Jennifer Lynn Barnes

Slow Horses by Mick Herron

Hood by Stephen Lawhead

Robie and Reel series by David Baldacci

Stalking Jack the Ripper (Series) by Kerri Maniscalco)

Most of Dean Koontz's works, especially his earlier ones.

Hello, Ace! I was wondering if you had any non-fantasy book recs with some good whump? Preferably with male adult whumpee(s). I've been really in the mood for reading lately but I just can't find anything that suits my taste. Have a wonderful day! And happy Easter if you celebrate.

Happy Easter to you as well!

Non fantasy book recs. Yeah I can give a few recs. Is scifi okay? I love scifi and that's like all I'm reading right now. I've also added a few historical fictions cause I love historical fiction.

Both Project Hail Mary and The Martian by Andy Weir

The Murderbot Diaries series by Martha Wells

Reviver series by Seth Patrick

The Maximum Ride series by James Patterson

Any of the Hardy Boys books

The Stargate SG-1 tie in novels

The Reckoning by Sharon Kay Penman

A Distant Melody by Sarah Sundin.

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Literally just to be assholes. That was their reasoning. Supposedly, Peter didn't even want to leave the show.

And earlier in this season, Bobby is a consultant on a show based on 9-1-1 and the character actor playing the fire chief on the fake show has a crisis of faith and debates leaving because how realistic is it that they keep surviving, etc, and then the fans of the fake show protest because he's their "TV dad" and they loved him so the actor decides to stay - for the fans.

So the writers can burn in hell for that one.

Wait are you fucking serious right now?

Bobby is for real actually dead?!

Fuck that! Fuck that very much! I haven't watched the episode but I saw a gifset and I saw Peters goodbye letter and WHAT THE FUCK!? The show actually killed off Bobby Nash!?! NO! 911 needs Bobby!! The team needs Bobby. What kind of show can we possibly have without Bobby Nash?

Yeah I'm fucking done. I don't know if I can keep watching after this. As much as I love the other characters and I want to see more of BuckTommy this is horrible and I'm not staying for a show without Bobby. I love Bobby so fucking much and I can't see a decent show without him. Fuck this.

I'm hoping so hard that this turns into a buried alive plot or something please tell me he's not actually dead. But God that letter from Peter does not give me hope. I don't want to say goodbye to Bobby!!! I won't!!! It fucking sucks!!

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WIP Wednesday which is in fact Friday

tagged by @jamietarttsnorthernattitude on Thursday but you know what I have been a day off all week and time is a construct and anyway here is some random excerpt from a Slow Horses fic (if you followed me for anything else, I'm sorry, but the brain rot is terminal here)

At first, he’s not even sure River is alive. River’s face is a mask of barely dried blood, his forehead split jaggedly across, the laceration deep enough that Lamb is sure it’s to the bone, and he’s lying on his side on a faded and torn mattress that is possibly worse than lying on the floor.

There’s no movement beyond the barely visible rise and fall of his chest, the slight shudder that wracks his frame on every exhale. His hands are bound in front of him, duct taped together with so many layers it’s almost ridiculous, but Lamb is looking at his fingers to see if they’re still pink and warm from circulation, or turning blue. It’s hard to tell under the blood there, too, and Lamb remembers the car park and the broken glass.

There’s something wrong about the curve of River’s body - there’s a dip at his right shoulder where there shouldn’t be, and it takes him a second to realize it’s because his arm isn’t where it’s supposed to be. It’s bent inwards at the joint where his upper arm meets his clavicle - dislocated, not broken - but Lamb doesn’t know enough about anatomy to know if that’s better or worse. The bare part of River’s arms between his wrists and his elbow are shredded too, and Lamb’s brain unhelpfully supplies the fact that River was forcibly dragged across concrete at some point.

He’s not sure if River is unconscious, or just lying very, very still, and Lamb hopes it’s the former. He’s seen bad shit before. People decapitated via hanging from piano wire. Suicides up close. Cyanide poisoning. Forcing a gun into a man’s mouth and pulling the trigger. But this is River.

No pressure tags to be filled at a time and date of your choosing: @abubblingcandle @lord-owlsnake (it does not specify writing and I love your art so this is an unashamed plea for more) @fayedartmouth @dragonnan (also because it does not specify writing)

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Would really love some more aroace characters in media but really tired of the way fandoms constantly try to be like "oh but they can still date and have sex!!!" Because god forbid theyre deprived of shipping for five minutes

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Chapters: 3/12 Fandom: Slow Horses (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: River Cartwright & Jackson Lamb, River Cartwright & Louisa Guy, River Cartwright & Bertrand Harkness Characters: River Cartwright, Jackson Lamb (Slough House), Louisa Guy, Shirley Dander, Bertrand Harkness, David Cartwright, Emma Flyte, Yves Harkness | Robert Winters, Diana Taverner, Roddy Ho, Marcus Longridge Additional Tags: S4 AU, Insomnia, Paranoia, Stalking, Supportive Slow Horses, Hurt River Cartwright, Sleep Deprivation, Platonic Relationships, Les Arbres River, Harkness Brothers, River’s past explored by flashback, Underage Drinking, stun grenades, Interrogation, Canon Terrorist Attack, Canonical Character Death Series: Part 13 of Candle’s Whumptober 2024 Summary:

Everyone thinks that they know all there is to MI5’s biggest disappointment, River Cartwright. And that’s just how he wants it. But when River’s sanity starts to unspool and figures from his past randomly pop up in London, everything that he had painstakingly built begins to fall apart.

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I got too impatient waiting to post this! 

Whumptober Day 31 - Asking for Help

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I have decided that fate will determine what I work on next

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So turns out…..you guys are not gonna believe this…….but it turns out. Reading real books. Is good for you actually.

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i think a big part of expanding your intellectual curiosity and trying to learn new things about the world is to abandon the shame of not knowing things. don't blame "the US school system" (which US school system????), don't blame your teachers, don't blame society, but embrace the fact that you are going to be learning new things constantly, throughout your life. practice saying "i really need to read about that" or "does anyone know of any good sources to learn about xyz?" or "hold on i gotta go check wikipedia/a world map/the dictionary/the news." every single day, there will be something you don't know already. that something doesn't have to be embarrassing. instead it can be an opportunity to learn something new

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I cannot be trusted with "short" stories.

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shipping characters who are just friends in canon is more than okay but what’s annoying is when people take screenshots of them touching and say “friends don’t do that!”. i hate to break it to you but friends do hug and hold hands and cuddle. saying ‘friends don’t do that’ is reenforcing the idea that physical touch is reserved for lovers

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post s4.

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More Sentences Wednesday - tagged by @jamietarttsnorthernattitude who thought they could do a take back from their previous tag of me, but OH HO. NOT SO FAST (and to be fair to them they saw I'd been tagged already. ) I will take every opportunity to share fic bits.

This is from Alternate Season 4 where River is kidnapped by Frank and Patrice, and River and Patrice start to bond.

The fact stung more than River thought it would. He’d meant it when he said he didn’t regret his childhood, not being raised as a child soldier. But some small part of him, the boy whose mother didn’t even knock on the door of a stranger’s house when she dropped him off in the garden and was halfway down the road before someone found him, was wounded anew. It was a different kind of hurt from thinking his father had abandoned Isobel when she was pregnant, and died in a car accident. It was common enough to have classmates with only one parent, and by the time River was ten, he’d stopped telling people Isobel was alive, too. British literature was rife with tragic orphans raised by their grandparents in the English countryside, and River decided life would imitate art. It stopped questions before they could be asked. Tell someone your parents are dead, and there’s no follow up beyond the possible inquiry as to how and when, and River long decided he liked the dramatic irony of both parents dying in an accident, several years apart.

Hmmm. Who did I miss last time... @fayedartmouth @dragonnan and anyone else who wants to participate!

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Seven-ish Sentences on a WIP

tagged by @abubblingcandle, and I legitimately had to scroll back through like 3 weeks of Tumblr to figure out what I had to had not posted before and I think I found one.

This is from as-of-yet unpublished Young!River and Lamb, River is about 12 in this (or thereabouts)

River shrugged. “I have a pass.” He held up his red lanyard with a temporary ID on it, with clear black, blocked letters stating REQUIRES ESCORT across the top, the font even larger than his name. “…right.” Lamb glanced back down the corridor where the Dogs are continuing their sweep in the exact opposite direction of their quarry - because he has no doubts it’s Second Desk’s grandson they’re searching for, and he wonders which poor bastard drew the unlucky short stick for keeping an eye on the boy - before deciding he’s curious. “How long has this been going on?” River opened his mouth, no doubt with a perfectly crafted lie at the ready when Lamb cut him off. “You’re in luck. I’m feeling petty. Let’s see how long you can avoid Poole. For every…” Lamb glanced at his watch, which was scratched and barely legible and probably not at all accurate anymore, “fifteen minutes you evade capture, I’ll give you a quid.”

So the seven sentences is definitely on the ish side, but rules are meant to be broken.

Hmm. Tags. Probably should pick people who haven't been tagged yet...uhhhh. No pressure tags: @itsjustdg @vix-has-arrived @tenderhooked @louisaguy

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[M-A-M-A-B-O-Y, mama's boy, mama's boy.]

I'm ready to talk about it for hours. The way Catherine loves River with absolutely unconditional love. I'm in love with this contrast, when River's mother says "when you see River, remind him I exist", and then, throughout the entire season, we see how Catherine tries to help River without expecting anything in response. She gives him her phone. She gives him all her money. She takes care about David, exposing herself to danger, though she is not obliged to do anything of it. She just wants River to be okay. She loves him so much. And he loves her so much. They are family.