#her journal

[a-1mond]

journal entry 1: starting to implement healthy habits in the morning

this morning was a morning for the books! super proud of myself for starting to implement healthy habits to start my day and honestly, i have noticed such a huge improvement in how positive i feel. positive thinking and feeling have been very hard for me to do recently but since starting this blog and following women who are working on themselves too, it has given me a sense of community and purpose.

how my mornings typically go...

wake up without an alarm clock

scroll on my phone for a couple of hours while still being in bed

do my skincare routine maybe 1-2x a week

do my oral hygiene routine later on in the day

get fast food for breakfast

come home

scroll on internet longer looking at motivational things and adding to my pinterest boards

nap

repeat

this morning on the other hand...

immediately woke up from the sound of my alarm and didn't try to go back to sleep

checked my phone but only for a few minutes

did my skincare routine

did my oral hygiene routine

drank a glass of water BEFORE coffee

put less creamer and sugar in my coffee (and it still tasted great!)

read a self-development book for about 45 minutes

did a 10 minute strength workout (10 minutes is better than nothing at all)

now i'm writing this entry

after this, i plan on taking a shower and straightening my hair but i don't feel like putting on makeup-- partially because i have to work tonight and i'm not going anywhere until then. in the future, i would like to work on this.

how i'm feeling because of these small changes:

i feel like i have a sense of purpose. to some of you, my morning routine might just be a standard practice, but i am so proud of myself for how this morning went because i feel amazing, i feel productive, and i feel like i'm starting to feel like a human being instead of a robot. yes these changes are small, but they are changes in the right direction and i am proud of myself for it.

morning routine goals for the future:

complete a longer workout

spend time in faith (quiet time with Jesus)

putting on makeup and getting dressed, even if i'm not going anywhere

[littledemonlorne]

Inktober Day Seventeen: Journal

[insearchformysoul]

No Title

So I made someone mad by calling a person of a lower status. But then the same person has no standards whatsoever. The person does bring me down to a lower status. I used to lead a better quality of life before. It also hurts me to see the person angry because of me. But what about my own feelings? I pour everything that I have and still I'm at a loss. How is that fair? Life sucks, don't like hurting people but I'm also constantly being hurt by one person or another.

[doctorsiren]

The books reveal that Ford is actually a secret partier

(Available as a print on my Etsy Shop)

(wips under cut)

[ysaona]

They were crazy for this.

[jinaxxo]

my dear arthur...

[cycloneslash]

Living in Paradise 🌼

I love them sm ;;

[skyrigel]

Simon had him and you all convinced that it was just sex and nothing more.

“No attachment.” He always said, everytime — sometimes so hurried and forgotten that it's just mumbled against your mouth before he's shoving his tongue down your throat.

Sometimes with so much urgency that it's lost between your moans, no attachment, babe, no attachment. And you believed him because it was really just sex, wasn't it ? There were no pretty dates and no fancy dinner at ritz, maybe those poorly wrapped ones he pretended he had not ordered and takeouts he brought along...but oh please, no attachments!

But maybe sometimes about those walks in the city where he would not so subtly grasp your hand, and you would catch him stealing glances at you while a teenager fiddled with his guitar, rhyming she came, my world lit with narcotic, I am addict.

No attachment but Simon's standing outside your workspace when it's raining —“I thought you might need it.” holding up the umbrella but those two words were there again when you were knee deep in the passanger seat and he was eating you out... because it was casual, right ? No attachment.

And it really didn't burn and ached until you got sick, real sick — puking your guts out and coughing until your ribs gave up, surely he wasn't the best role model of no attachment when he was panting to death as he picked your unconscious frame from the floor, you still remember the faint whisper of his ‘please don't leave me, please, please don't —’ over and over.

And if he wanted for no attachment then he should be gone. Gone and not come back because it was just sex...

Simon shouldn't be mopping the floor, and stirring your soup and touching your forehead every five minutes.

No attachment then why he's loading your grocery and taking out trash and doing your laundry, why he's wiping your tears and telling you it's going to be alright.

Why he's not leaving like he always did because there were no attachment right, but he's right here, tucking you in bed and washing your hair and reading you book.

“Is it some eccentric joke ? Why this Zaid is always growling ?—also when you get alright... we're gonna try it out, lovie.”

You blushed, but it wasn't just what he was suggesting but that word, it felt good.

“S-say it again.” You whispered, shifting your head in pillow. Simon turned back a page he was reading from, your scrunchie on his wrist.

“Zaid growled—” You screwed your face,“—oh, we'll try it—”

“last word. Your last word.”

“Oh.” He said, “Lovie...you don't like it ?”

You shaked your head, sniffing very unsexy-ly

“Call me that...I love it.” Simon pushed up the book up his face, his neck was pulsing with his many veins and you knew the blush that would be blooming on his hard face. Cute.

“Again.” You tilted your head, to get a look at his flushed out face.

“Okay Lovie...sleep now.” He grumbled, flicking your bedside lamp off and bookmarking the book with one of your scrunchie he removed from his wrist.

“Huh...Good night baby.” You said, waiting to be corrected, waiting for those two words to come and upside down it all.

But they never came, like they never even existed, never had a meaning to them at all.

No attachment, lost forever in darkness.

“G'night lovie.” He said so sweetly, and when you closed your eyes this time, you only saw daylight.

Grim Reaper! Simon

Masterlist

[mamawasatesttube]

"tim is just like bruce" "tim is a mini batman" listen to me. fuck that. tim literally says he is not like batman and he does not want to be like batman. multiple times! throw that shit right out. do you wanna know who tim is a mini-me of?

listen to me. grips you by the shoulders. listen.

tim could be the second coming of lois lane.

they both have this incredibly nosy streak and an inability to stay out of situations if they think they can improve them. they are both fuelled by the need to do what is right and if no one else is gonna do it then by god they will.

"i care so much that i have to do something about it" is a fundamental tim and lois trait. "a locked door just means you have something to hide and i will find it" is also a fundamental tim and lois trait.

they are so similar. i NEED lois to get her hands on tim. i need them to get into hijinks and shenanigans together and i need clark and kon to look at each other and go "jesus christ there's TWO of them now?" as they hurry to go put out a fire. i need lois to hone and refine tim's hubristic streak and i need tim to enable her nosy snooping tendencies. tim & lois could be something beautiful. does anyone hear me. hi for the love of god hello is anyone listening

[doctor-disc0]

My favorite part of Morrowind is that the Nerevarine not only keeps a very detailed journal, but they also use their journal to judge literally everyone in Vvardenfell

[drbtinglecannon]

In Knives Out Blanc wanted to do the murder mystery investigation with Marta so bad, but she was certain she was guilty so she spent a good amount of the movie avoiding/hiding stuff from him

Meanwhile in Glass Onion Helen was fucking carrying the investigation, even while accidentally getting drunk, and even went to investigation lengths Blanc was hesitant to do

[pygmypouter]

This place is a message... and part of a system of messages... pay attention to it!

[insearchformysoul]

Money Bait

So they think they can hurt me collectively for decades. Then they think that they can buy me with money. They think all the emotional and mental pain, my social isolation, slowly dying inside everyday, daily chronic anxiety,... will all be undone with money? Nah.

[doctorsiren]

since you did Stan and Hermes, why not Ford and Athena?

Perhaps he wrote about this in Journal 1 😁

[ysaona]

#NEEDDATTTTT!

[momijigari]

Millicent