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01.07.2023
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"Swift, swift, you dragons of the night, that dawning May bare the raven's eye! I lodge in fear. Though this a heavenly angel, hell is here."
William Shakespeare, Cymbeline
#William Shakespeare#Cymbeline#dragons#dawning#fear#hell is here#Shakespeare#Shakespeare quotes#British literature#English literature#drama#drama quotes#quotes#quotes blog#literary quotes#literature quotes#literature#book quotes
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The Undeniable Dystopia is Here.
Life is bad. Like shockingly, horrifyingly bad. Growing up really felt like living through a series of unfortunate events- I was certainly repeatedly traumatized. But I never had to fight for my life every single day. That's where we are right now, and yet 95% of people can't or won't acknowledge reality. Hell really is empty and all the devils are here.
We live in a cesspit of plague. That's the state of the entirity of the Western world. I didn't want it at the start because I knew I was more "vulnerable" to its effects. Now I'd avoid it with just as much effort even if I was the healthiest person on Earth. The vaccines didn't stop the death, they just made it slower so people wouldn't notice.
All around me the effects are obvious. Everyone is ill. "The worst colds ever" and "the first year they've ever had hayfever". Quality of life is plummeting. Life expectancy is plummeting. Workers shortages. The internet full of people begging society to change course but incapable of leaving their beds to plead in person. Babies born tiny and starved, the effects on their brains untold. Kids collecting autoimmune diseases like pokemon cards. More Strep. More RSV. Kid after kid with their limbs stripped to the bone to stop the bacteria killing the rest of them. Brain damage termed just "brain fog." Friends of friends dropping dead. Strokes galore.
But you only see it if you're willing to open your eyes.
I can't study safely. I can't sit my exams without risking another hit of the virus that has already left me more disabled. It's not safe to go to the shops. It's not safe to sit in my own garden without a mask. It's not safe to go to the hospital- I know for sure because that's where I caught it last time. Every possible step forward, every possible move, every single day, involves a level of risk I couldn't comprehend 4 years ago.
I don't have PTSD, because we are not 'post'. The trauma is still growing.
At uni, I sit there in full PPE. PPE I spent more money on than I can afford, as someone who lives on less than minimum wage. I look around the room for the seat with the best ventilation, the best chance of air flow. I'm not religious, but I pray. Because I cannot afford to become even more disabled and I cannot afford to disable the person I love most. And then in filter 200 people who no longer care who they hurt with what they spread. Most avoid me- an uncomfortable reminder of the ongoing horror. One decides to sit next to me, coughing, excitedly asking me if I will be joining them for post-exam drinks. Indoors. Unmasked. We live in parallel worlds and yet they cannot even acknowledge that much.
They jet off abroad. Go to clubs. Have a sniffle but visit gran anyway. I pay attention when watching shows set in other dystopias, taking note of how to clean and suture a wound at home if needed. We cannot risk the hospital. I grow vegetables as the online prices rise and we cannot risk a trip to the store. I'm reminding my family what's at stake and begging them to protect themselves because I can't lose anyone else. And I'm praying.
Once again, just like when I was a teen, I find my comfort in misunderstood monsters and outcasts. The lonely characters that the world hates, who break down in tears when shown an ounce of kindness. I get wrapped up in the fantasy of having a safe space where I can finally let my guard down just for a minute. Where I can finally feel seen and see a bearable future. And when I see their visible scars, I feel them too, and I struggle against the urge to make more of my own.
There's no one coming to help me though and no safety in sight. There is just endurance. Even what remains of the mental health service is useless- why would I explain my pain to someone likely happily spreading the very virus that has created this hell? And I can't ask for support from my uni- they've made their views clear that this is my "anxiety" and I'm merely "overly cautious".
But I caught it, so not cautious enough. And it damaged my already disabled body further, so not anxious enough.
The undeniable dystopia is here and there is no end in sight.
#pandemic#long covid#wear a mask#mask up#immunocompromised#covid#covid pandemic#covid-19#covid isnt over#dystopia#hell is here#dystopian#ptsd#trauma#depressed#depression#pain#defensive#mental health#agony#grief
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Don't worry,
This too shall suck.
#desi larki#exam season#pakistan#urdu aesthetic#just desi things#desi tumblr#desi academia#not aesthetic#hell is here
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THE CROWN-MYSTERION
#THE CROWN#melodic death#MELO-DEATH#MELODIC DEATH METAL#HEAVY METAL#METAL;#DEATH METAL#HELL IS HERE#1998 ALBUM
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Cryalot - Hell is Here
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it's one of those Mondays when you feel like a mosquito clapped to the death and held by the wings between the finger tips.
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"Imagine still posting fanart a whole year after the game came out" brother what are you talking about
#the fandoms seem ti be moving on so fast what is this#im staying here for a while but what the hell#fandom rant#bg3
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Found this really scary new horror game yall should check out. It's called indeed.com and it has a sequel called linkedin
#it is hell on earth out here#got like 6 different rejection emails today#so much fun /sarcasm#job hunting
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yep. its boring already. dont you agree?
St. Louis Post-Dispatch, Missouri, October 4, 1909
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"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw
#i originally posted this as just a 'hey remember how fuckin bad middle/highschool was? shit was wild' type post but now#there are a bunch of teens in the notes being like 'oh my god are you serious? it gets better? im not stuck in hell forever??'#and im reminded that the only people who told teenage ella 'it gets better' were speakers at mental health assemblies#aka the least relatable people alive who were seemingly born to lie to you#so. uh. yeah im a certified adult who isnt here to lie or sugarcoat the realities of being a teenager#the only thing more certain than the pain is the transcience
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Jason but he wears this helmet 😼
#jason todd#red hood#dc comics#batman#my art#digital art#just something really quick because I saw these helmets for the first time a few days ago and have been thinking about them ever since#won’t tag dick because he’s not even really here#also dick doesn’t know what he’s talking about cause those helmets are sick as hell#mister hypocrite DISCOWING grayson
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had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing
#normally I don't chronicle my dreams here but fucking hell that one was funny#I think this would genuinely make tumblr better tbh#@ staff do this cowards#spy has thoughts#my life is a sitcom and i am my own laugh track#functional website#spy's smash hits#Glock function#edit for everyone in the notes saying 'everyone clapped'#I know I can't prove to you that it happened for real you're just gonna have to trust me on this#but I swear on my goddamn life I'm not making this up#I make so many conscious puns that sometimes my subconscious cooks up a real good one
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remember, before you post, think SMART
Start discourse
Make up arguments
Ad hominem
Reading the post is for losers
Talk without thinking
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#&c.#chatter chatter#🦎🌿#aromantic#asexual#aroace#alterhuman#changed the content of the original post bc some of yall in the tags are clowns (this is an aro joke i made bc im sick of amatonormativity#and so many people in the tags completely missed the point and then reinforced that amatonormativity and im pissed about it)#this breached containment like hell. it got 15k notes. i hate it here. so i changed it#this wont stop people being annoying in the tags but it gives me some release
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