#heal. if not actually get their happy ending…

[mochiwonz]

― THANK YOU STRANGER s.jaeyun

PAIRING. fem!reader x nonidol bf!jake(sim jaeyun) CONTENT. angst with happy ending , post-breakup , reader is in her self love + healing era WORD COUNT. 1,063 NOTE. this is part 2 of you're just a stranger :3 pls remember that this is all just fiction !! i hope you enjoy ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ )

Of course. Of course you missed him, Jake. You didn't want to admit it, but you missed him presence. You missed the man who you once loved with all of your heart and soul. The day after he left you in shambles, you just didn't know what to do with yourself.

You still felt completely numb.

It had been 5 days since your guy's breakup, and anyone could tell that you were a fucking mess. You hadn't showered or even gotten out of your room for the past 5 days. Your close friend, sunoo, was the person checking up on you and bringing you food to eat.

And to put it simply, you felt and probably looked like dog shit.

Jake, he was the first guy you ever had any feelings for- of course the breakup affected you. But you were very sure that it wasn't affecting him!

Your brain was about to put more useless thoughts of Jake in your head, but you didn't let it.

Truly, you wanted absolutely nothing to do with him anymore.

The y/n 5 days ago would've texted and asked him "oh how are you?" or "i miss you" but the y/n right now has his number blocked. Growth is real, people.

At first, you felt like it was kind-of your fault. Maybe if you cared less he would've still loved you. Maybe if you didn't make him dinner every night and "treat him like a baby" he would still be your boyfriend. But wait-

It wasn't your fault.

It wasn't your fault that your efforts weren't acknowledged. It wasn't your fault that he suddenly stopped loving you. It wasn't your fault that he wasn't communicating his true feelings and thoughts to you.

Fuck, you had to stop this cycle.

Slowly, you sit up from your comfortable laying position and place your feet on the ground. You shiver at the cold feeling of the wooden floor. You feel a little more awake now.

After getting up, you make your way to the bathroom and holy shit, you look like you just got beat up. Well, technically, Jake just beat the shit out of your emotions so...

You brush your teeth and hop in the shower, making sure the water is warm. You wanted to feel warmth, some sort of comfort. You hadn't felt any sort of warmth or comfort in five whole days.

As soon as you feel the first drop of warm water on your skin, your whole body relaxes. Wow, thank god for showers. Like, actually. After 5 minutes of just standing and drowning yourself in the warm water, you freshen up and get out.

You already feel so much better. I mean, you just washed off all the icky germs, right?

You quickly dry your hair and do your skincare and then head to your closet to pick out an outfit. While in the shower, you decided that you wanted to go to the local cafe to get a drink and of course, some fresh air.

After what felt like almost an hour of searching for the best outfit, you ended up choosing a pair of flared jeans, a brown leather jacket, and an off-white cropped top. To accessorize, you put on some chunky earrings and a few rings.

You can't help but smile, you feel so much more alive. Maybe you really didn't need Jake in your life anymore.

Quickly, you grab your purse and keys and walk out of your apartment.

Once you stepped outside, you immediately felt the warm sunlight on your skin. The sun wasn't too bright, and the weather was cool with a slight breeze. You forgot how much you loved being outside, especially during autumn.

While on the way to the cafe, you spot two birds on a traffic light. Past y/n would've definitely went back home and sobbed for two hours straight. But for some reason, you didn't feel like crying. You didn't feel sad. You found the birds cute and just moved on.

After a 15 minute walk to the cafe, you order your vanilla latte and quickly find a seat. You can't lie, that walk was kind-of tiring.

While waiting for your order number to be called, you pull out your phone and headphones that you brought with you in your purse. You unlock your phone and immediately go to spotify and connect your headphones. You quickly put your headphones on and click "play" on your favorite playlist.

Music. Music was so healing for you. Music always made you feel better. Music was the bestfriend you never had.

"Order for number 88!" the worker exclaims.

You get up from your seat and walk over to the counter to get your latte. You turn to head back to your seat and oh.

Jake's here...?

You noticed he dyed his hair back to a dark brown, a color you used to love on him. But, you didn't feel any love for him anymore. All of that love was slowly becoming self love, and you really didn't mind.

Unfortunately, you lock eyes with him for a split second. And he looks...sad? You're confused, but you shrug it off. You just hope he feels better.

You walk to your seat and stay at the cafe for about 10 minutes before heading back home. It felt good to treat yourself. Actually no, not just good- it felt great.

You deserved to show yourself love. What you didn't deserve was being a complete mess over a guy treating you like shit.

*ping!*

Huh?

You quickly grab your phone from your jacket pocket and unlock it.

Wait, what?

Unknown : y/n i'm sorry. please unblock me. i'm sorry y/n please.

Oh, it's Jake.

You don't know what to do, but you end up responding.

not gonna unblock u jake

You smile at your response. You didn't feel the need for Jake in your life anymore. It's like a breath of fresh air.

You turn off your phone and shove it back into your pocket. Instead of thinking more about Jake, you think about what you want to do when you get back to your apartment. Maybe online shop and do a self-care night, or invite your friend sunoo over for a sleepover. It had been forever since your last sleepover with sunoo!

Honestly, you're thankful.

Thankful to Jake for showing you that you didn't need him in your life. Thankful to Jake for showing you that you needed to be showing yourself some more love.

You take out your phone and text him for the very last time.

thank you stranger :)

i hope you enjoyed this pt 2 !! pls reblog if u did :D

[aihoshiino]

Imagine if things never went wrong between Ai and Hikaru, and they ended up getting married and raising Taiki together alongside Aqua and Ruby?

i feel so sorry for all the anons who send me cute prompts and then get responses like this lol

SO!!! To be very clear anon, this is not me being Mad At You and while I do 100% sound heated and mad in this response this is because this is something I feel pretty strongly about but haven't really had an outlet to explain lol. But I actually personally really hate the trend in fandom of portraying Taiki as being raised by Ai and Hikaru in hypothetical happy end AUs and I don't think people are REALLY actually thinking about what they're presenting here.

Like... Hikaru is a rape victim! Taiki is a child produced by Hikaru being raped, as a child himself no less! He did not consent to that pregnancy! Hikaru is not Taiki's father in any sense but the purely biological and he clearly does not have any positive or fatherly feelings for him - his absolute meltdown at Airi and Uehara's funeral is implicitly triggered by the sight of Taiki and his continued existence being a symbol of Airi's violation of him. And if 15 Year Lie is anything to go by, we have every reason to believe that Airi was not above weaponising the fact of her pregnancy to make Hikaru feel complicit in and eternally soiled by what had happened to him.

I hate resorting to this kind of rhetoric but imagine for a second that we were talking about a female character here - you immediately, instinctively recognise how utterly insane it would be to present "raising the baby she was forced to conceive with her rapist at age 11" as a happy end for her so why is Hikaru not given this same grace? What happened to Hikaru is not any less traumatic or less of a violation just because his rapist was the one who got pregnant.

To be clear, it's not like I don't understand where this comes from - this setup tends to exist in scenarios where the characters are uncomplicatedly healed and happy and this also applies to Taiki. His life is so goddamn miserable that I understand the instinct to want to put him in what we know is a happy family and to imagine him, too, as happy and loved there.

But what happened to Hikaru and how Taiki was conceived are topics that cannot and should not be made uncomplicated. I can understand a discomfort or reluctance to engage with the topic of CSA even in a purely canon typical context but the solution to that is not to just handwave it away and refuse to think about its implications when directly engaging with the character who is a CSA victim. I think it's shockingly irresponsible even in just a fandom context to portray "raising his rape baby" as a happy end for Hikaru or to present even implicitly the idea that he has some kind of obligation or fatherly duty to Taiki, a child who was conceived without his consent.

[ideas-4-stories]

Cross Guild Romance prompt: Luffy and the Strawhats are sailing when this sudden and severe storm catches them. In the chaos Chopper goes flying overboard with some debris before anyone can grab him. Luffy and the crew get blown the other way and can only despair and hang on. Come morning Chopper wakes up not in the middle of the ocean but in Cross Guild’s hospital tent with Buggy, Mihawk, and Crocodile looming over him. Chopper thinks he’s gonna be tossed in the dungeons. Instead Mihawk basically takes full charge of him, taking care of him and knowing how beloved the little reindeer is from Zoro’s stories. Buggy and Crocodile are actually nice to Chopper too and spend time with him while they actually try to contact the Thousand Sunny with no luck thanks to signal interfere with the den dens. Mihawk is strict but not unkind, teaching Chopper about herbs and gardening and even some sword play. Buggy includes Chopper in the circus acts since he dances so well, and even Crocodile shows him the baby fruitwanis. Chopper is much liked in Cross Guild and he actually plays unintentional matchmaker for Buggy, Mihawk, and Crocodile. When they manage to finally contact Luffy and inform the Strawhats that they have their beloved doctor safe and sound, they all plan an epic reunion for Chopper, culminating in Luffy and the crew showing up when Chopper is performing on stage with Buggy. It’s an epic reunion of hugs, tears, relief and a bit of reconciliation for Buggy and Crocodile with the straw hats while Mihawk and Zoro get to reunite too. Everyone loves Chopper!

Oh, The Gods Above And Beyond, CHOPPER!!! Poor dude, who knows how long it took him to wash up on the shores of Karai Bari and he did it unconsciously as well clutching onto something that's very buoyancy in the water… You know I'm gonna go with the idea that Chopper was fiahed out of the sea from a Buggy Pirates boat, whether they meant to fish him out or it was a surprise. They rushed to their great glorious chairman as he would know what to do with the reindeer.

I would say it would make more sense if Chopper was asleep for a couple days so the boat can get back to land and let the Cross Guild leaders wonder what they’re gonna do with the reindeer.

Again poor Chopper, waking up in enemy territory is not a great thing to wake up too. Only to be shocked when Mihawk starts to feed him and reassures him that they will make sure Chopper gets back to his crew because when the little reindeer doctor was still sleeping, the trio made the decision it would be a good thing to stay on Luffy’s good side.

Love that Mihawk is doing most of the caring for Chopper, while Crocodile and Buggy would be giving Chopper sweets without knowing that each other are doing it as well. Chopper will be getting double cotton candy and he won’t say anything because Mihawk would definitely stop that (it’s up to you if Mihawk learns about the double dose of candy or not)

Mihawk teaching him about herbs and gardening is so cute! I’m thinking that sometimes Chopper will list off how these herbs could be used to heal and Mihawk is nodded, saying that interesting and jotting it down in a notebook. I can see Chopper holding a very small wooden sword that Buggy got his woodcarvers to make for the little doctor! Chopper is a number one hit just like their chairman to Buggy’s followers. They are definitely cheering him on and cooing when Chopper swears at them. Crocodile taking Chopper with him when he comes to check on his fruitwanis. Chopper is telling him how they are feeling and the big man is happy that his fruitwanis are happy! (Also love that Chopper is playing matchmaker, love that for him!)

I love the ending, truly goanna be a flashy great reunion party!

[mythmerth]

fluff vs feel good merlin fics…?

It has come to my attention from my last post with the ask about a long fluffy merlin fic that I, perhaps, do not know how to separate the definition of fluff from my own definition of feel good fics. When I think of fluff I tend to think of lovey dovey feel good hehe type of fics. HOWEVER, my definition of feel good may be different than other people and thus may not actually BE fluff…. oops!

In order to make up for this I’m gonna list off more merlin fics that I consider to be on a “fluff — feel good” scale, but first I’ll give my own interpretation of “fluff” and “feel good” so you know what to expect!

— When I think of the definition of fluff, I think of things very lighthearted, low stakes, very lovey, being emotionally and PG physically intimate (soft), playful in a sweet way, and generally just not really having the highs and lows of angsty fics.

— When I categorize something as feel good it tends to be not very stressful, minimal angst, quickly resolved/humorous relationship issues, powerful characters, has a hopeful tone/no doubts about a happy ending, makes me laugh multiple times, and high in emotional and physical intimacy (and yes I am a Smut Enthusiast). Some feel goods have more or less of these than others for me but that’s what the scale in my head is weighing them on.

that being said, to the best of my ability here is the list ranked from fluff to feel good merlin fics! fluff fics are often a lot shorter than the plotty ones (but I tried to throw some longer ones in as well that I’d consider to have a good amount of fluff BUT these also tend to have more angst so you’ve been warned)

fluff

Twitch Your Whiskers and Pull My Tail by BlueSimplicity. Soft, sweet bonding, a bit silly

The Great Merlin Bake-off by Elizabeth. Long, low stakes, silly, so many pastries

Merlin Myrddin the Muralist by deanpendragon. So touching, very soft, strong and healing bonds

Nobody Expected Uther to Approve So Damn Hard by Nakyrah. Silly, soft, quick developing relationship

Tales of Magic by amithia. Soft, developing relationships, gentle magic/love

I know why the birds sing your name by ironfamjam. Long, hopeful, developing characters with gentle moments/love, some angst

We Can Always Run by kairennart and queerofthedagger. Long, some angst, strong bonds and soft moments, adventureful

Ironing Out the Kinks by Lex18. Long, so smutty, like 90% smut but also soft, quickly resolved issues

All Things Loved and Lovesick by horsecrazy. So funny, strong bonds, humorous miscommunication

We Are All Diamonds by Footloose. Long, strong bonds/love, soft moments, power duo, quickly resolved issues

The fools will still be fools by horsecrazy. So silly, smutty, low stakes

Evil Overlord Inc by Footloose. Long, very silly, power duo, high stakes but also not worried about it

feel good

I feel like with BBC Merlin fics it’s hard to find low stakes/no angst fics! maybe it’s just my lists, and also that I was trying to avoid making this all lower word count fics (there’s definitely some 40k’s I left out if anyone’s interested), but once the word count rises it’s tough to find. hopefully this agrees well enough, I scoured the fluff tag I swear but the angst sneaks up in there too

I also have noticed that I might not actually read a whole lot of pure fluff? I very specifically seek out mature and explicit merlin fics, which I think is partially the cause of that. Also merthur and fluff are hard earned; the rivals/strangers/enemies to lovers goes STRONG and so rarely do we get to fluff very quickly. There’s always some stressful situations these two are in I swear to god. also please note that I have read SO goddamn many fics that any rank inaccuracies are likely also due to my memory blurring on fic specifics,,, my apologies for this! so take the specific ranks with a grain of salt- I don’t remember the exact details of all of these, more so the impact they left on me as a whole!

anyways, I hope this is accurate enough and that you can find some fics here that are what you’re looking for <3

~ feel free to send asks if you’re looking for specific recs, I’ll do my best to find some that fit the bill :]

[kwamiwayzz]

Do you have any jeckole Headcanons?

Or:

Jecka Headcanons/Nicole Headcanons (seperatly)

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Brain rot coming in. I also want to mention that a majority of these headcanons are rooted in my “Jeckole moving away after graduation and eventually healing years later despite still being a bit fucked up” headcanon. Some headcanons are also inspired by the ones from people who were once super active in the fandom months ago.

Jecka ends up getting accepted to a university in California which leads to her ticket out of her shitty town (she starts with Undecided for some time but ends up choosing pre-med to eventually become a doctor).

Nicole ends up tagging along with her out of convenience at first (she was a bit hesitant at first because she knows she’ll probably bring Jecka down whatever bullshit she gets herself into, but it beats being alone). She also ends up moving out with Jecka because LA is where she’s wanted to go for some time. Also, her mom was actually planning on kicking her out for good (even though her loser brother still gets to freeload).

I personally see Nicole as someone who suffers from extreme depression and self-worth issues due to her upbringing and is more on the cusp of having ASPD (but also, I’m still learning about ASPD, so correct me if it doesn’t work that way).

Jecka has the capability of becoming as fucked up and abusive as her dad. I mostly say this from the scene in Flip Side where she yells at Crispin telling him to off himself, unprovoked.

I also see Jecka as a potential alcoholic with anger issues (if she stayed with her dad any further).

Nicole has a form of cPTSD from her unstable environment and the implication that one of her stepfathers abused her. Even if she were to be placed in a stable environment after high school, the damage has already been done, and she’d still find ways to fuck it up because she every time she felt genuinely a little happy/satisfied with her living situation, it would disappear in puff of smoke.

Nicole ends up on meds and therapy years after moving out of Virginia, but it’s off-and-on.

Jecka also goes on meds and therapy after having a mental breakdown in med school and also after shoving Nicole against a book case during one of their arguments (she’s more consistent with it than Nicole).

During their time living in LA together, Nicole goes homeless three separate times, with one of them being her getting kicked out after Jecka finally had enough of her shit. The last time Nicole goes homeless, it’s after having an extremely difficult time adjusting to the meds and therapy and her cPTSD makes her want to leave because actual stability was getting too real for her.

Despite kicking her out for her bullshit, Jecka still lets Nicole live with her because she’s still codependent on her. Nicole is one of the few people she can be her fucked up self around, and also asked her to come to LA because she didn’t want to be alone either.

Nicole is 1/4 Asian on her dad’s side.

Following Progman’s fic, Jecka sees herself as Nicole’s savior but not entirely in an “I can fix her” type of way.

The only people from high school they still keep in touch with is Emily, with Kelly and Ari added after meeting again at a bar a decade later.

Even though Jecka’s doctor money keeps them both afloat, Nicole ends up working at a bar as a consistent job just to keep herself busy.

The only person from Jecka’s family that she keeps in touch with is her mom. She stays in contact with her dad for financial reasons, but cuts him off after she doesn’t need him anymore.

Nicole cuts off everyone from her family.

Nicole ends up getting sleeve tattoos after being sober from cutting for a significant period of time (I don’t know what the designs would be though).

aurawra21 also mentioned this, but Nicole would probably lean more towards a masc/butch look years after high school. This would include chopping her hair to shoulder length.

I also agree with the general headcanon that Jecka would have abs and have a more toned body compared to Nicole’s stick noodle-like figure.

Nicole would be the type to throw Jecka’s textbook out the window to force her to take a break while studying for med school.

Nicole is a secret nerd/geek (knowing that manga should be read from right to left, liking Mythbusters, used to play video games with her brother—all mentioned somewhere in the original game and Re-Up).

If she cared about school more, Nicole’s favorite subject would probably be chemistry.

Jecka sometimes gets very overprotective over Nicole especially after 1) getting shot by the crazy cop (Re-Up), 2) having nightmares of running to Nicole too late during the People Pleaser Route (Class of ‘09 Suicide Ending), 3) finding out Nicole overdosed/got poisoned by opioids during the very last time she went homeless (Future Timeline headcanon).

I sometimes see Jecka as a pretty neurotic person, who tries and fails to hide it.

When really affectionate, Jecka really loves to kiss Nicole’s neck (angsty reasons in one of my original posts lol).

The two simultaneously make each other better and worse.

They enter an off-and-on situationship for a number of years until they decide to get court married for the benefits.

They wear fake marriage rings when out in public in an effort to try and ward off desperate men. It doesn’t always work, but they’ll never admit to each other that they actually do like wearing them.

Aaaannnddd these are the most that I’ve remembered at the top of my head. I might add more as time goes on, but I love the idea of them reaching adulthood and becoming somewhat more well-adjusted over time.

[ilikethecolorredsstuff]

ARCANE Rant

Arcane s2 ending is underwhelming because the show was slowly building up to it (the biggest disappointment of the century)

U can feel it slowly letting go of the class issues that s1 was based on ( arguably the reason why the show was appealing to begin with) foe what seems to be no reason. Cause it seemed that they could've done better with presenting the themes that were already there in the subtext of it all or atleast it was that way for s1 and the first act(s?)

By the 3rd act, it's like they make it a point to stray away from what the show is supposed to be about and maybe that's why there's a lot of distraction going on (*caughs * fan service). In the last act there's just so many loose endings and key points are missing, ones that are usually provided to the whatcher bethey offer needed insight like how jayce decided to touch the arcane or what happened with ekko and jinx when he stopped her. This is a pattern that also shows in s1 and the other acts but the avoidance of clearing things up or providing insight on character's behaviors in this case isn't to get us to think about it and interpret it on our own instead it leaves a feelibg of just accept it for now that's how thongs came to be, and it doesn't even explain it later(would've beena great move tbh).

This lack of insight makes it easier to just accept other shifts that don't actually make sense like the main shift of victor's character when he gave up on doing good for the ppl the moment jayce attacked him and honestly not only did jayce have no business doing that, victor also had no reason to change his ideology for only that. The attack harmed not only him but also the ones connected to him so it does make sense that instead of healing he decided to eliminate all danger but even then it wouldn't make sense for him to agree to forge an army and pick sides for a political war something he aims to demolish.

And then it's not even about his conquest anymore and we get a fairly easy and rushed destruction of the black flower and then back to Victor.... Victor changes his ways and they disappear leaving everyone behind to what? Move on? As if the story is about how humans weren't ready for a progress that fast andbnow they can learn from their mistakes and take their time, as if that insane leap of advancement both biological and technical isn't just a by product of an environment manufactured by classism that pressured and cornered ppl into this extreme reality.

At the end, nothing has changed from the beginning of s1, the counsel just added a physical chair for the undercity instead of the invisible one that silco did hold at some point.

The truth is zaun isn't even a separate nation anymore it's still the undercity who now has a representative in the counsel.

War didn't even unite the ppl in fear and grief because except for the enforcers the fighters were mostly from zaun, this is dangerous because it paints a picture where the unpriveleged lot are fighting someone else's battles while the priveleged (root cause if said battle) get to flee and only comeback when everything is settled to look all bigoted and give side eyes to the representative of the unpriveleged (im looking at u short grandma).

My point is what is the show trying to say by ignoring the core issue, leaving us in the dark abt a character's motivations, and jumping to war with spiritual robots meanwhile the counsel is full of classist cowards leading a nation they fled when shit got bloody and letting the war criminal from the uptown have a happy ever after, her crimes don't even get mentioned while jinx is told that no amount lf help she offers can undo the harm she caused. It's all intentional, the show even ends with a hidden message that heimdinger was correct from thr beginning for restricting research or at least it felt that way.

[gelatomesomeironqrow]

Show of hands who else is pissed that the creator is trying to push the narrative of Viktor is Asexual after we didn't fall for the brotherly angle they tried to push on us?

Like we can ship them however we want, we already said they transcend above platonic and romantic soul mates.

Also, creator who clearly doesn't know a thing about asexuality. YOU CAN STILL BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE. Like come on. Asexuality is a spectrum, it's not a death sentence that means asexuals can't be in loving and happy relationships. It also means that there are parts of the spectrum that can/will/still want sex.

Stop trying to explain away JayVik. They can be in a relationship and not have sex. That is fine. They can be in a relationship and have sex. That is also fine.

What is not fine, is trying to invalidate Viktor as a person, his disability doesn't define him and doesn't mean he isn't capable of feeling attraction or love (which also comes in many different ways). It also doesn't mean that people aren't capable of finding him attractive or from them wanting him. Why was it fine to show Sky having feelings for Viktor? Because she was a woman?

I get it was a flex and their way to show that Viktor wasn't interested in her back, but he cared enough about her that the Arcane used her image and voice to "guide/control" him in season 2.

It didn't really work to show his Asexuality. Oh, he wasn't interested in one person out of a million. He must be asexual. Um. No. Notice how he never shied away from Jayce. It may not have been romantic in season 1, but you cannot have Viktor say "it was affection that held us together." And say the man is Asexual.

He is a scientist who spent most of his life creating and trying to find ways to better the lives of Zaunites. He was merely not interested in pursuing any form of relationship. It does not automatically make him Asexual.

I'm also not saying that he isn't Asexual. He can be Demi, he can be Aro, he can be any form of the Ace spectrum. Heck, if you want to believe that JayVik are "brothers". Than go for it. I'm not stopping anyone from shipping any characters however they like. I'm just saying that the creator is so against two men possibly being in a happy(?) relationship, that they are trying any other angle they can find without actually putting in any effort to research that angle.

The brotherly angle, at least to me, didn't work past season 1, because of how Jayce reacted to Viktor, dying, to how he reacted to Viktor living. The freaking ending of season 2.

The asexual angle, doesn't sit right for me, because the creator is just calling him Asexual. What kind of asexual? Demi? They tried to show the viewers Sky's interest and Viktor's lack of as a way to prove his Asexuality. When he wasn't interested in her because he was busy with his research and low key the Arcane influencing him. His entire arc in season 2 being "I now possess the ability to heal people and connect with them", to his reaction to Jayce killing him, to spending his final form turning everyone into hivemind robots, EXCEPT for Jayce mind you, Viktor was going to leave him down in the HexCore. He personally brought Jayce into the fold himself and even then, Jayce still had autonomy. He was capable of looking around and speaking to Viktor.

Viktor cared more for Jayce than anyone else in his life. Sure, he could be asexual. But providing thought and research into the subject matter would have been nice. Because Jayce was/is interested in Viktor and vice versa. "I just want my partner back". Not brother. Not friend. Partner.

In every sense of the word. They are partners, which goes above brothers, above Viktor's supposed Asexuality.

Also, it does not prove Jayce's sexuality for him having sexual relations with Mel. You can be bisexual and be with a woman. The guy was only ever shown in two relationships. The more physical one being with Mel. But that doesn't negate how much he cared for and spent most of his time with Viktor.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk. Sorry if this didn't make any sense. I'm rambling at almost 4 in the morning over this.

[mothgirl-number-4]

[You're leading Beau through the House. He's been… Nice. Asked the questions you knew the answers to, at least.] [He asked you where you were from.] [You told him you forgot.] [You're in the House's garden now. He's been looking at all the various flowers, plaques with descriptions grabbing at his attention like a moth to a lamp. You sit on a bench, close enough to hear him rattling off the facts he's reading from the signs.] [He says he thinks signs are really important, but he doesn't know why. You talk to him about it, and he mentions the stars before freezing mid-speech.] [He starts rambling everything he can remember about stars, and you try to make sure he doesn't push himself too much. It's not enough, as he coughs up a speck of blood, but you use some healing craft (it hurts, but you don't care) and sit there with him.] [You tell him everything you can remember that he didn't already tell you, this time actually making sure nobody gets hurt.] [He asks about one of the stars names, Regulus.] [You can't tell him much, but he decides then and there that, as a symbol of being part of Vaugardian culture, he'll Change his name to Regulus.] [He says it feels right. You reply it feels nice to say.] [It's half-true. It's easier, at least.] [You spend the rest of the time trying to come up with better nicknames than Reg, which is harder than it really seems.] [You end up calling him Sunshine. It's only slightly ironic.] [You end up agreeing it'd be for the best if you stick together for the time.] [You feel a pit in your stomach as you acquire the Memory of Sunshine. You don't tell him about it.] [He picks one of the flowers, asking of course, and you choose one as well.] [He picks a willow, you pick a zinnia.]

[This is your last day.] [You'd berate whoever forgot to remind you, but you aren't going to make another clone of your past self over something so petty.] [You can't sleep.] [You stare up at the ceiling for the sixth time this week. It's starting to feel like the clocktower. You need to get out of here.] [You get up, passing Sunshine as you sneak through the halls.] [None of the Housemaidens are awake, but it's mostly habit at this point.] [You're in the garden again.] [You walk over to a comfortable-looking patch of grass, and lie down.] [You look up at the stars, alone.] [It's familiar, but different. Different is good.] [Your Sunshine told you that the open roof design was made so that the plants could get enough sunlight to grow, but that they put a tarp over it in winter so that snow won't get all over everything.] [The perfect amount of care so that you won't wither, and that you will grow.] [What a wonderful idea.] [You turn on cue to someone who isn't there. You say all the right things without anyone to hear them.] [It's not even your script and yet you still memorized every word.] [This isn't getting you anywhere.] [You move to a stump in the center of the garden. One of the Housemaidens told you it was enhanced by craft to grow and decay at higher speed than usual, a symbol of Change.] [It's not fast enough to bother you, at least.] [There's a neighboring stump, one crafted out of stone, made to never Change. A duality in eternal life and eternal death.] [You don't know whose bright idea it was to make the stone stump, considering it seems very contrary to Change, but you can appreciate the gall.] [Regulus walks in. He says he didn't know you were here.] [He wears his only other outfit, armor of darkless with lightless stars speckling here and there.] [Sitting on the parallel stump, he gazes up at the stars. You can see tears fall from his eyes.] [He is happy, and you're unsatisfied] [You're... Unsatisfied?]

"Which one is your favorite?" <"I don't have one, yet."> "I thought you might like the one you named yourself after." <"Not everything's in a name, guiding light."> "Is that your new nickname for me? How cute." <"I thought hard about it. Something to fit your one for me. ...Do you like it?"> "...Yeah. You're good at nicknames." <They look up to the stars alongside you. They seem deep in thought.> "I thought you were asleep." <"I was, I think. I thought the same of you."> "I take pride in my acting skills." <You do often catch them wearing a smile that doesn't belong on their face.> <"You are very good. I always preferred songwriting."> "Oh?" <"The rhythm that goes with the tune, the meter and rhyme, it's just enchanted me, I feel."> <"...I don't know how long this has been the case, but I know it to be true."> <They look jealous. They clearly haven't realized it, since the false smile hasn't taken its place, yet.> <They begin to hum a tune. It sounds like a comfortable place, a time of love. It sounds like children playing and birds singing. Then, they stop.> <You, in turn, hum your own tune. A Change hymn of ticking gears and twisting architecture. Of the nature of life and how it goes around and around. Then, you can't remember any more.> <You don't know how you feel about Change, but you are ever so grateful for its followers. You cannot deny it that these Houses are marvels of craft. You smile.> "I'm heading back to bed. You?" <"Yes, I feel I should as well. May I accompany you?"> <They give a bewildered look. Maybe they don't- > "But we'd be heading the same way anyway?" <Oh.> <"There are many paths to the same destination."> <After a moment's pause, they sigh and let you come along with them.> <You dream of weeping willows that cry and a great shadow overtaking your own. You will not remember these when you wake.>

[Your time is done. You're satisfied.]

[You couldn't take your role back, but that's his fault for leaving you alone. You're satisfied.]

[You're satisfied. You fade at last.]

...

[You feel a thread pulled to its limits. A fire burning hot hot hot and something breaking, failing, rotting. You gag on nothing as starlight beams out of your eyes and mouth.]

[The string pulls, choking you as you attempt to scream, but you have no mouth. You attempt to cry, but you have no eyes.]

[The thread snaps.]

[You feel a pulling in your head.]

[And you feel your heart..

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[You wake up in a room. The first thing you take in is UNIMAGINABLE PAIN. You scream and scream and scream- there are footsteps. You hear the familiar sound of healing craft as the pain subsides the slightest bit. Not enough to be anywhere near comfortable, but you aren't screaming anymore.]

[You sit up, hands grasping at what you realize far too late are bedsheets. They rip in your hands, piercing craft chugging through your fingertips like the drip drip drip of blood.]

[You're already babbling apologies when]-

"Oh thank goodness you're awake, bright stranger."

[That voice. Not from the healer you don't recognize them but you turn to the neighboring bed- you're in an infirmary? -and see another stranger.]

[You recognize that accent but you don't recognize... Him?]

"[Who-]"

[You cough on your words- Vaugardian, Loop! Try again~]

[The familiar stranger looks at you with wonder.]

"Say- say that again, will you?"

"[What, 'who?']"

"No- what was that language?"

[You don't know.]

"[I don't know. Where am I?]"

[The familiar stranger- you're just going to call him the King, it's too similar to be a coincidence. You've never been lucky enough to even consider otherwise. -looks disappointed before lighting up again. His Vaugardian is rough, but understandable.]

"Ah! You're in the Bambouche house of change! Or uhm... The one closest to Bambouche I think... I couldn't really understand them the best."

[The King looks awkward. How could this pathetic whelp end up as the intimidating monster that killed- Blinding- He's speaking]

"They call me castaway, but I prefer Beau, he and him, please. What about you?"

[Oh this is hilarious. The Change god thinks its so blinding funny doesn't it. You're laughing. You're cackling and guffawing and]-

"[Siffrin, they/them, nice to meet you!]"

"Oh, like the savior?"

[What.]

[decidueyedreamerdetails]

🖊️ Twill! I'm very curious about them now :o

Okay, so starting from the very beginning - Twill is from my Gods and Servants AU! As the name suggests, this is an AU where the legendary and mythical Pokémon that would be considered ‘gods’ have the ability to bless a Pokémon to be their ‘servant’ - there are two types of servant, a singular head servant, and other minor servants. The only difference is the head servant gets immortality (specifically of the unaging variety, they can still be killed), and additional powers, in addition to the minor servants’ generic blessing. What these blessings are fully depends on the god they came from!

A side effect of this system is the gods have become very callous to mortal life, and in turn the mortals have become more uncaring towards each other - I’ve described this AU as ‘Pokémon Underfell’ before, and that description still feels accurate to the tone of this AU.

Now, Twill is the head servant of Azelf, and GaS Azelf is. Less than kind. Most of their ‘servants’ have had Azelf’s willpower superimposed on them, and Twill is no exception. Their autonomy ranges from ‘being fully in control of themself, but always acting with Azelf’s desires in mind’ to ‘directly possessed by Azelf’ - their eye colour actually changes to yellow during this possession!

Twill themself, during their time when they were actively serving Azelf, did not seem to mind this horrific treatment. Instead, they sought to be closer to Azelf, and modified their body to look more similar to their god. Furthermore, they were quite callous, and would often ignore the distress and pain of others if it meant their god would get what they wanted.

Some old art of Twill! Note, when I say old, I mean the art itself: this design is actually still accurate!

[skipblebee]

Svsss is so cool I wish novels were real

[nathaniacolver]

lolllllll so ackshually i need everyone who is NOT an oldest child to keep their mouths shut regarding any criticisms of vi's character in s2. she's my oldest sister realistic representation, my queen, my character who never made a wrong choice in her life actually. STOP EXPECTING MORE OUT OF HER (like vander did) SHE'S LITERALLY DOING HER BESTTTTTT

"but she became a cop -" do you remember what the force's goals were? 1) dismantle shimmer. the stuff that made her dad into a drugged-up monster after he died the first time, remember? the stuff that put silco, her #1 opp, at the top of zaun. 2) locate jinx. of course vi wanted to be present for the possible death of her sister wkfjekf i thought y'all said she needed closure? 3) neutralize all agents loyal to silco. YEAH. bing. done. that's her baby sister's abuser & manipulator. THEY WEREN'T JUST BEATING RANDOS UP OMLLLLL THEY WERE TARGETING THE CARTEL. HELLO. THE ZAUNITES WHO PROFIT OFF OF OTHER ZAUNITES' MISFORTUNE. DOES ANYONE WANT TO MESS WITH SILCO'S LEFTOVERS MORE THAN VI? HM I THINK NOT.

and besides - isn't it all good that she was using piltover resources to destroy the internal evils of zaun. shimmer and silco's leftovers were going to have to be destroyed if zaun was to be helped at all, also, there is absolutely no problem that vi was there with jinx, ESPECIALLY considering that ended up saving her life. DUH.

she's literally following the lead of the only good cop she's ever known, and if there is going to be any policing force, she probably heavily encourages that it's led by this girl that, so far, has been the epitome of true justice and mercy.

that being said, she was also present to help semi-mitigate caitlyn's descent into rage. i think vi's presence directly saved heenot's life. they NEEDED a zaunite on the force so caitlyn could have some chance at still humanizing them, especially at the peak of her rage and anger. caitlyn was grieving, and vi's just trying to help her new gf deal with everything, INCLUDING stepping in when she thinks cait's being unreasonable. vi's intuition literally prevented MADDIE from being in jinx's presence, which also probably saved her sister's life. and of course, vi saved isha's life because she was there.

crash out phase was justified and if anyone says otherwise, i'm sorry that you've never unhealthily dealt with loss or grief or hopelessness before. have some empathy, jeez

all of act ii is vi just cautiously, carefully trying to build her family back together, INCLUDING trusting jinx enough to not fight warwick in the tunnels and to hear her opinion out and value her input, INCLUDING trusting viktor to be able to save their dad (which, healing is the only power viktor's shown so far), INCLUDING giving up cait permanently if they stay in the commune, INCLUDING trusting her previously-heart-of-gold ex gf to adhere to the plan that puts her directly in sights of her sister, trusting that vander will be more important to both of them in that moment. and then tragedy happens that's not her fault.

(REMEMBER - ULTIMATELY, THE FAULT IS ALWAYS SINGED'S. AMBESSA IS VILLAIN #1 BUT HE IS CLEARLYYYY SELFISH VILLAIN #2)

and then act iii - she directly confronts caitlyn for all her idiotic decisions and mistakes. she doesn't let all that get brushed under the rug, despite cait saving their asses in the commune. she goes to free her sister, again showing jinx that she trusts her, REGARDLESS of the decision she makes. sure, she's mad and torn up that jinx is likely going to kill herself, but she has to trust her sister enough to make the same decision that she has made herself countless times - to sacrifice herself for her sister's happiness. (she's letting her YOUNGER SISTER be her EQUAL, in terms of how their relationship should go?? and y'all are mad???) she truly lets jinx have her own agency here, and is working to accept that, so when caitlyn shows up and agrees that she trusts jinx enough to make choices for her own life, she revels in the fact that someone else gets it. that people should just leave jinx alone and stop trying to control her. bro. all of you just shut up man. if anyone cares about jinx's autonomy and agency, it is VI.

the reason jinx connected so clearly with isha is because vi literally taught her how to be a good older sister??? jinx is not pulling all of that love and care just out of her ass, okay. she knows what to do because vi did the same to her, all the time. (she definitely did NOT emulate silco when she was with isha.) WHY DO YOU THINK SHE WANTS VI TO BE HAPPY WITH CAITLYN? BC SHE FINALLY UNDERSTANDS THE PRESSURES SHE'S BEEN PUT UNDER AND THE TRAGEDY SHE HAS FACED WKDJEKFJELREKRNE LET JINX BE THE BIGGER PERSON FOR ONCE.

jinx literally sacrifices herself at the end because she learned that kind of behavior from vi, and she wants the chance that vi can have a happy life. and vi is literally pissed at her for it, because VI should've been the one to sacrifice herself, as usual. jinx makes herself vi's equal. like, what more do you want.

i think you guys don't realize that she's always trying to make the right decisions, and when her previously "right" decisions have ended in tragedy, she tries to tweak her current/future decisions so that her family doesn't keep getting killed. sorry that the writers inflict doom and despair on everyone!! vi has literally made one (1) truly stupid, bad decision in her whole life (punching little powder), and she was l i t e r a l l y going to apologize for it like 60 seconds after it happened.

I'M SORRY THAT VI CAN'T PROTECT YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTER IF THEY WON'T LET HER. SORRY THAT SHE RESPECTS BOUNDARIES SO GOOD. I'M SORRY SHE STOPPED WRONGLY BLAMING HERSELF FOR SHIT THAT WASN'T HER FAULT. I'M SORRY THAT THE ONLY MISTAKE SHE EVER MADE WAS WHEN SHE WAS A CHILD WITH ADULT RESPONSIBILITIES AND PRESSURES. I'M SORRY A 15 YEAR OLD CHILD SUCCUMBED TO ANGER ONE TIME. I'M SORRY SHE'S HELD TO A STANDARD OF PERFECTION THAT NO ONE ELSE IN THE SHOW IS. I'M SORRY THAT SHE'S NEVER EXCUSED FOR HER MISTAKES BECAUSE OF TRAUMA.

(bro, it's like the oldest sibling as a collective have to have 200% empathy for the younger siblings, and they literally return us like 10% of the same. (as a hyper generalization,) we will forever have had more responsibilities and pressure than you, and will have the same for the rest of our lives. we are ALWAYS trying to see things from your point of view. we just ask that you do the same for us.)

arcane writers, thank you for writing the most realistic caring oldest sister ever. i owe you my life bc this kind of representation is not found anywhere else.

vi's character

i love watching long, intense video essays or reading through thorough breakdowns of vi's character bc like. it's actually really, really simple.

she's an oldest sister.

that's it.

like everyone has so much to say (or speculate) about her psyche or her trauma or her motivations and it's like. ??????? she's literally just trying to be a good oldest sister, like, the entire time. like. have none of you ever met an oldest sister of 4+ siblings before? we're all the exact same.

trauma: carrying the responsibilities of an adult, specifically a parent (protector, provider, nurturer, authority figure, discipliner sometimes) since she's like, 10. HAS to be a good example, or risk endangering others by them following in her footsteps.

motivations: um protect and care for the people she loves? literally make sure people don't step out of line so they don't get themselves killed.

i get why people don't see it. it really is just a "if you know, you know" situation. but like. there's entire threads on twitter (that have now vanished???? screw you m*sk) that confirm that all present, responsible oldest sisters have some sort of shared experience.

some people like to villainize or blame vander for putting so much pressure on her but like. you guys don't understand. it's just part of the job! the reason why oldest sisters are typically so good with responsibility is because we get it, we understand the urgency or emergency of each situation and know that there has to be some sort of leader. there HAS to be a mature member of the team, otherwise stuff goes MAJORLY wrong. and when everyone else is literally less biologically capable of being mature, welp. guess who has to grow up fast.

you show just a smidgen of maturity at a young age and then you're conditioned (by society) to keep practicing that maturity because whenever there's a mature person helping out, guess what. things get done. people are safe. people are cared for and happy. someone's looking out for everyone else. it's not really something to be avoided. it really is just how life is. you learn to trade your emotional maturity for others' happiness, and you live in that role for the rest of your life.

[intotheelliwoods]

I present to you a little timeline :)

I have been having dreams about this story since way early march and im so happy I finally have the guts to go through with it all lmaooo no matter how wild it is

"hey ell what happened to this being a hurt/comfort comic" can you pretty please trust me when I say that everything comes full circle, the hurt comfort comics will return! I just want to have some fun first!

Anyways uhh expect a time skip next update!

[lavellane]

ive made my feelings on veilguard clear atp but i WILL say as a tragedy enjoyer act 3 really redeems sooooo much of it for me. esp having my rook-and-siblings worldstate bc let me tell u 3 rooks = 3 separate tragedies is DOING it for me rn. a bellaramancer a hardingmancer and a varricmancer walk into a bar. they all walk out single 😍

[hopeinthebox]

tagged by my beloved no.1 chappell roan stan @cordiallyfuturedwight thanks my darling <33 i can only apologise for the lack of ms roan here... i swear good luck babe has been on repeat i don't know what happened

tagging the usual suspects, apologies if i've already missed yours: @aprylynn @jiminsproof @thvinyl @cosmicdreamgrl @visionsofgideontheninth @hoseeok @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @monismochi <333 and you dear reader

oh and see here for more of my self-proclaimed songs of the summer if you're interested in that kind of thing

[hjemne]

Babygirl I have 38 thousand words of incomplete trigun fic spread across 8 wips and have no idea how to even start dealing with it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the thing they don't warn you about freshly pierced ears is the Sleep Anxiety