#oc: matthas

[lavellane]

can you fucking imagine if instead of the mourn watch or lords of fortune factions we'd instead had an inquisition and agents of fen'harel faction . personally i have not stopped thinking about it once since finishing veilguard but maybe thats just me

[octoariadneeeeexoxo]

They said..

"Oh my god! You look just like Shanila!"

"No no, your Monï Mattha!"

"Actually, my name is Roxie.."

(Dw Guys this has nothing to do with my irl life, its my main ocs backstory!!)

[lavellane]

me and maia tethrras hunched over our screens typing out the most poignant oc x oc au pairing backstories youve ever heard bc we would rather do anything that have to engage critically with the Actual plot or canon companions of veilguard :/

[lavellane]

this game is literally SO much fun when you're actively hallucinating like 73% of it

[lavellane]

i was so set on replaying veilguard for the davrinmance but oh my god im SO attached to my agent-of-fenharel hardingmancer rn i actually think the choice is out of my hands lol

[lavellane]

expanding on this and recapping some oc lore now i have the full context of the game. so ive mentioned in a prev post that deia and her two older brothers were saved from venatori by the inquisition when she was a kid (she was 19 at this point, 28/29 in game by datv) and travelled with them for a few days on their way back to skyhold. when i say the inquisition i literally mean ashara, solas, and cole and varric. some INTEGRAL points here

her oldest brother, the playful/irresponsible/freedom loving evander, spent most of that trip with solas

matthas, the second son, self-serious, stubborn and noble, clung to ashara and quickly became enamored with her and the promise of her inquisition.

deiadre, who had been the most injured in the attack, didnt spend (much) time with ashara or solas and only really remembers them through the biased recounts of her brothers. instead, she was kept company by varric.

cole was there the whole time but the mercars did not see or at least remember him, but he was the one who made the trip so happy and meaningful and perhaps why it affected so much in the grand scheme of things. fun fact they were probably on their way back from coles spirit/human quest!

anyway re: the varricmance - she instantly developed a crush lol. it didnt go anywhere bc varric obviously would give the time of day to a literal 19yo but she returned to tevinter with a signed copy of his book and wanted to be just like him and also be WITH him lol bc she had a teenagers infatuation. over the years of working in the inquisition with her brothers, she kept in contact with him, helping with the odd job here and there. 6 years later, after evander was discovered as an agent of fen'harel and ashara stripped the mercar family of their agent ranks, varric was the one who talked ashara down from a manhunt to find and capture evander. he also reached out to deia and he really was the only fucking person she had left ("me? i always wind up babysitting my informants and worrying about their families" lol). having been abandoned by the inquisition, burned by fen'harel, and alienated from her broken family, varric became her family. and from that point she stopped having a crush on him and instead fell in love with him.

a few more things bc i truly am seeing the light of the varricmance over here lol:

brotherly baggage

theyre both the younger sibling now unwittingly the head of their respective households. both forced into positions of leadership they do not want

both tied to the inquisition and solas and arguably worse off for being involved with both of them

both easygoing, funny and big believers in optimism and having a normal one

theyre both motivated by Getting It Right. varric wants to fix the relationship between himself and solas. deia wants to fix the relationship between herself and her brothers

hawke —> rook :) bird motif :) and deia loves birds!!!!!!! she gets her nickname from her mother, who refers to their family as the rookery, but then it was varric who suggested she use that as her alias while assuming work with the shadow dragons.

in addition, varric was unrequitedly in love with cillian hawke before hawke died. now deia is unrequitedly (???) in love with varric

so bearing all that in mind, when varric asked her to come help him help solas, she went gladly. not just because she associates saving solas from himself with saving her brothers from themselves, but also (and mostly) because she would follow varric anywhere.

and then he died. lol. did she know that ? not for several months ! lol ! and do i imagine she finally confessed to dead!varric during these months believing he was alive, only for her to realize that she had been too late and never got the chance to tell him how she felt or what he thought of it :) yeah girl. and i think theres a real shift in that moment where she is no longer Team Redeem when it comes to solas. she wants that twink obliterated. and she know longer sees her kind, complicated brothers in him, she sees the fucking Dread Wolf. but ultimately she does redeem him because of one point in particular: varric.

varric died trying to save solas from himself. he believed – up until the exact moment of his death — that solas could be better. and deia HAS to believe that varric was right. and she HAS to finish what varric started. so she gives solas the forgiveness and atonement that varric wanted, thereby making sure varric didnt die in vain, and that varric ultimately achieved what he had set out to do. because in the end she redeemed solas in varric's name, not for his benefit, or ashara's or evanders or matthas' or even for her own. but for varric

by the way deia is a varricmancer now :)