#man. ok well. gonna be sad abt this off on my own somewhere for the rest of the day lol

[lavellane]

can you fucking imagine if instead of the mourn watch or lords of fortune factions we'd instead had an inquisition and agents of fen'harel faction . personally i have not stopped thinking about it once since finishing veilguard but maybe thats just me

[hajimeow-archived]

Yo Hajime talk abt ur kin mems

since there were no specifications on which ones i am going to start from the beginning and go where my brain takes me from there. they're all gonna be for hajime bc i physically cannot think about my other memories anymore jsyk

also! this ended up being so long i had to put a cut. i will not be apologizing because i feel no remorse.

so first the basic stuff, i remember having a med skin tone and a FUCK ton of freckles like those motherfuckers were everywhere i had skin. also i was 5'7 i think?? or 5'6. i still can't remember exactly but it's something like that. i was also alloaro, some form of mlm, unfortunately cis, and autistic and probably had some other stuff like adhd or depression or whatever but i forgot. also i was kinda muscle-y but also chubby at the same time. and i had light green eyes. basically i was fanon hajime JSJSKDJDKS

and i was going over the wiki recently and my personality was EXACTLY how they described it like i'm genuinely surprised they got it so accurate

i don't remember much pre-game and post game, most of my memories are in game but i do remember pre game chiaki really well, honestly i rly miss her :( she would always reassure me that i didn't need a talent and i never even cared when she beat me in games cus just simply playing them with her was so fun .,.,,;:,,...,,!:&:&:jsjdjskskck</3

anyways. in game. ok. i'm gonna skip over memories where i just know feelings and not specific things like strong feelings or ppl saying stuff or else this would be so long. also obvious sdr2 spoilers

so i remember the party & blackout in the beginning of the game pretty clearly. i was mostly just standing alone in the corner and watching everyone have fun, but it was really freeing to see the others able to enjoy themselves in such pressing circumstances. then the blackout-- it was kinda like all that happiness going away and the dread and denial immediately setting in .

anyways i remember like panicking and wanting to cry when i lifted the table cloth cus i really liked twogami. i'm p sure i did end up crying cus i really liked them for their realism and leadership skills, and the realization that one of us killed them and that the killing game was actually real etc etc

anyway i don't remember much from the investigation or trial besides being really freaked out when nagito basically admitted to being the killer n stuff, and pretty much all the body discoveries after that (besides ch 5) we're just like "ah shit here we go again" but i do remember mikans trial really freaking me out when she just straight up shifted completely, and i also remember being really proud of fuyuhiko for putting his walls down a bit and deciding to help everyone out while the despair disease was going around

anyway enough of the boring stuff, i spent basically all my free time with komaeda, chiaki and mikan (in order of frequency) and with mikan i mostly listened to her talk about medical stuff and i comforted her when she needed to vent, but i didn't hang out with her much because the constant apologizing n stuff started to bother me since i really liked seeing her happy. chiaki i would mostly play games with and we wouldn't talk much, but she gave me a really strong sense of familiarity like when we played games together it gave me a shit ton of deja vu

AND i've already talked a lot about komaeda but idc i'm doing it again. so we started talking cus of him waking me up on the beach obvs and i was pretty attached right off the bat, but i stopped talking to him for awhile because the way he acted in the first trial REALLY scared me so i just got a pit in my stomach even being around him

but he was the one who started approaching me first, i'm guessing since he couldn't rly sense anything was wrong he just kinda picked things up where they left off and started talking w me at breakfast n stuff and it was pretty weird at first, but i wanted to give him a chance and didn't wanna be rude so i accepted offers to hang out in his cottage n stuff

i remember he has surgery scars tho and i'm rly mad ppl don't draw him with any!! i think he had about 5 and i don't remember all of them but i know one was a skin graft on his leg and the one on his side/stomach that i touched wassssss for appendix removal maybe???? mmmm i'm not too sure about that one tho

also !!!! his death. hoooooly shit. ok so yunno the despair that junko always talks about ?????? yeah <3!! i remember like once i saw his body and took the reality in i just. straight up could NOT stand i like fell to my knees and jsut . cried. like i had no thoughts my head was so full that it was empty i just kinda sat there and silent cried while chiaki stood next to me it was so awful dude

later while investigating n stuff i felt really bad ab how i treated him and thought about him, and i thought a lot about our last interaction. it was the first time i had ever approached him myself cus usually he'd come to me. i was gonna hang out with chiaki but i wanted to check up on him first, so i did and he told me to go hang out with the others and i just. knew something terrible was about to happen.

OH AND THE FUNHOUSE OMG ok i literally. i usually didn't mind being around komaeda like he was chill most of the time when he wasn't ranting about hope but when he was acting like such a bitch in the funhouse i wanted to punch his stupid twink ass so bad like...... what BUSINESS does this dude have being such an asshole. he doesn't even know what face wash is. what the fuck. which is another fun fact! komaeda did shower every so often which is why he didn't smell that bad but his skin was always so dry cus he didn't know how to actually wash right and do proper skincare so he just washed his face w soap and left it like that

also he didn't need to cut his nails cus they were so brittle they would just break off on their own <3 plus he had a nail biting habit so they just never grew ever

OH AND THIS IS THE SADDEST THING i remember feeling so bad for this man bc i would like put my hand on his shoulder and he would lean into it. i mean i'd tap his shoulder for a SECOND and girl when i let go hed be lowkey so sad i could just sense it like??????dude he needed a hug SSO BAD like when i hugged him in my cuddling memory he was like holding on for dear life but also was like "u dOnT hAvE tO tOuCh TrAsH LiKe mE hAjImE" like dude it was the saddest shit. i want to hug him forever. like what the fuck what the fuck!!!!!!!!!

also a thing hed do when he started ranting ab hope n shit like he would just go on and on and yunno that one sprite where he's hugging himself yeah he literally did that shit. also sometimes hed just stare dead at me and start backing me into a corner ((ish-- we were usually sitting somewhere but he mostly just got super close to me) and it was the scariest shit i. bro if i saw him like that on the streets i'd return him to the mental hospital like i can remember it somewhat vividly and that shit was TERRIFYING i mean obvs after i shoved him away and told him to cool it he'd apologize and go back to the way he was but jeez dude ....

also a little fun fact the only reason i really kept hanging out with him (i had a few ofc but this was the most prominent) is cus he was hot in my stupid monkey brain. yes that's it. like that's literally pretty much it. i hate admitting it but this post is SO fucking long i doubt anyone's gonna read it anyway so i'm admitting it now lol

anyway i hope u enjoyed :) i'm glad u asked btw! i'm sure you regret it though!

[ayellowcurtain]

Wondering if you could write something about maybe Jens following Robbe from the party on Saturday and finding him at the edge of the bridge and talking him down, taking him home to Milan and Robbe spills it all to the both of them. // Please fulfill my crackhead dreams and write a Jebbander fic pleease // can I pls have smth like; jens is secretly pining for robbe while robbe is still sad abt sander but jens is a good friend so he's just supportive and protective (even tho he's kinda hurting) // Robbe's suicide attempt? How would the flatshare reach or Jens?

He didn’t understand how bad things were for Robbe until a second ago. It never crossed Jens’ mind that Robbe would have the courage to do something like this. 

“What are you doing?” The way Robbe talks so calmly while standing on the edge of a bridge, way too close to falling into some freezing water scares Jens. Robbe is unreachable. Whatever he might try to say to change Robbe’s mind won’t help. Something really bad happened and Jens can’t let him do something stupid, so he climbs right next to Robbe, never looking down. It’s not too high, but it’s enough to scare him. Jens really doesn’t wanna fall, but he’s more concerned about taking Robbe safely out of there.

He tries to look around, acting like he doesn’t know what Robbe plan was. It starts pouring and Robbe looks up. Jens tries to look at him without being noticed and he’s sure Robbe is crying. He quietly steps closer, just in case Robbe slips, he can hold him. 

“Come on, Robbe. Let’s get out of here.” Jens quietly holds the back of Robbe’s jacket, trying to keep him as far away from the edge as it’s possible. “I’m not leaving if you don’t come with me.” 

Robbe is still lost inside his own head, but he’s not trying to get away from Jens’ grip either, so Jens lets him be for a little more, trying to look away, calm himself down. He tries to stop thinking about what could have happened if he didn’t follow Robbe here. 

The rain stops all of a sudden and Robbe finally looks at Jens, but just for a second, looking at the water beneath them. 

“I’m gay, Jens. All these bruises are because some guys saw me kissing a guy I’m in love with.” 

It’s his turn to be in shock, not knowing what to do or what to say. Robbe turns around way too quickly for Jens liking, jumping back into solid ground, waiting for him to do the same. 

Jens swallows hard, looking at the water for just a second, jumping off as well, looking at Robbe. He’s in love with a guy. 

“I’ll walk you home.” Robbe is so small and he looks even smaller now. He’s soaked, his face is still a little bruised and he has really dark circles around his eyes. Robbe starts walking in silence and Jens can’t pretend like he’s good at giving advice. What Robbe said is still ringing inside his ears. Jens has absolutely no idea who the other guy is. Robbe has been hiding a lot of things from him this past month and Jens freaked out, acted like a fucking asshole and probably threw Robbe right into someone else’s arms. 

They walk in silence for a very long time. Jens looks at Robbe and he’s shivering. His lips are purple and his face looks even worse than earlier. Jens holds his arm, making him stop, already taking his windbreaker off, putting it in between his legs, taking his hoodie off, instantly feeling the cold air almost freeze him, but his hoodie is still warm. 

“Here. Put this on.” Robbe’s brain must have frozen because he doesn’t really move. “Robbe, put my hoodie, you’re gonna fucking freeze, bro.” 

Robbe finally holds his hoodie and Jens can put his windbreaker back on, holding Robbe’s jacket while he takes his own hoodie off, putting Jens’, getting his jacket back, but only holding it now. 

Jens wants to ask a million questions, but maybe tonight is just not the time. Robbe is constantly saying “not now” so Jens guesses he can ask later when they’re somewhere warmer, able to properly think again. On their way to Robbe’s place, he just watches Robbe. He’s clearly not present, he’s probably thinking about the guy he’s in love with or about their fight. Robbe talked about bruises, which means there are more than whatever happened on his face. 

-

“Robbe! Just let me see it, man!” Jens tried to understand what happened, what bruises was Robbe talking about and he’s angry, not wanting to talk about it, but Jens won’t let go this time. 

Milan comes to see what’s going on, looking from Jens to Robbe. 

“What’s going on?” Jens and Robbe are still looking at each other, waiting for the other one to give up, but Robbe loses, closing his eyes and lifting his shirt and Jens’ hoodie all the way to his chest. Jens can’t look at it after a moment, walking away and he can hear the shock in Milan’s shaky breath. The image of Robbe’s skin with a huge bruise all over his ribs will never be forgotten. Jens had never seen anything like that before. He can’t even imagine how bad the fight was. 

Robbe finally started talking when they got inside the elevator, but he doesn’t remember all the details either. Jens wants to find whoever did this to Robbe and just kill them all. 

“We have to go to the police.” Milan says and Jens turns back to look at the other two. Robbe is finally putting his clothes back down, shaking his head. 

“No. I’m not going to the police. There’s no way. I’m feeling better already.” Now Jens wants to punch Robbe too. He looks at him and Robbe already starts explaining himself, looking at Jens. “I’m ok, Jens.” 

“Are you fucking kidding me? Did you look at yourself in the mirror? I’m not even sure you’re in one piece, Robbe!” Milan is a little lost, but Jens doesn’t care, Robbe can be so stubborn sometimes. He always acts like he’s fine like nothing happened until it’s too late. And it’s past “too late” already. 

“Who did this, Robbe?” Milan finally asks, trying to stop their fight, give some time for both of them to calm down. Robbe looks at Jens and he instantly knows that whatever Milan knows, whatever Robbe told him, it’s a big pile of lies. 

Jens wants to tell Milan everything, but it’s not his place. Milan is older than them, maybe he would be able to put some sense back into Robbe, but there’s nothing Jens can do right now. 

Robbe doesn’t answer and Jens can see Milan’s brain starting to understand that Robbe is lying to him. 

“Robbe! You can tell me...” He puts both hands on Robbe’s shoulder, trying to get his attention. 

“Sander and I...” Robbe already can’t really say it, Jens can see him swallowing hard and Milan is not surprised to hear Sander’s name, so he knows. Everyone knows about Robbe except for Jens. 

Sander. Britt’s new boyfriend. He’s the one Robbe is in love with. And he and Jens have nothing in common. Robbe is falling in love with someone who Jens can’t even compete with. 

Jens watches as Robbe stops talking and Milan instantly hugs him tightly and Robbe finally exhales, his hands are shaking when he hugs Milan back and Jens feels like the worst person ever. Robbe trusts Milan and not Jens. Somewhere Jens fucked up so badly that it pushed his best friend as far away from him as possible. 

Milan and Robbe are crying and Jens feels invisible or unwelcome, but this is not about him. 

“Have you gone to the police yet?” Milan asks and Jens is so, so incredibly thankful that he’s on the same page as Jens, but Robbe looks down and gives Milan the exact answer he gave Jens not too long ago. 

“No...” 

“Robbe...” Milan shakes Robbe a little, but Robbe is not changing his mind. Jens thinks about how deeply traumatized he must be to not want to go to the police or talk about what happened to anyone. 

“Robbe, you have to go to the police. They can’t just keep living their lives while you keep hiding, afraid that this might happen again.” Milan and Robbe finally seem to notice that Jens is still there and Milan nods his head, agreeing with Jens and waiting for Robbe’s answer. 

“I’ll think about it. Now I just wanna sleep for a little.” Robbe looks at Jens and he can’t help but just look at his best friend for a second, using Jens’ clothes that are a little too long for him. “You can sleep here if you want.” 

Jens wants to stay, to make sure that Robbe is ok and that he’s going to the police first thing in the morning, but he’s not sure if he can handle watching how devastated Robbe is for not being loved back by Sander. 

Sander! 

“If it’s okay with you...” Robbe smiles and Jens can’t believe how strong he is, trying to move on with his life even after everything that he just went through. They’ll probably never talk about it, but Jens might never be able to forget how he found Robbe nearly an hour ago. From now on, he’ll try to always be close to Robbe, reminding him why it’s so good to be alive. 

“I have an old mattress in my room, wait a second.” Milan goes to his bedroom to grab the mattress and Robbe goes to his room, waiting for Jens to follow him. 

There’s more than enough room for both of them to sleep on the bed, but Robbe doesn’t say anything and Jens can’t just invite himself to sleep right next to Robbe either so he just waits and helps Milan put the mattress inside Robbe’s bedroom. 

If it’s worth something, Robbe sleeps using Jens’ hoodie, hiding inside the hood, hugging his pillow like he’s a koala spooning someone that’s not Jens. Jens thinks they might start sharing that hoodie and maybe they’ll have something that is theirs and nobody else’s. 

[bnha-imagines-hcs]

Can I request the appearance and personality preferences with Aizawa and Hizashi?

| aizawa; headcanons.

appearance;

when it comes to appearance, he doesn’t really care - insofar as physical attraction isn’t necessary to him in a romantic relationship. there’s def stuff that gets him going, things he appreciates that can cause a stifled smoulder in his gut – but an s/o is there for love, in his book.

but, since we are here in the category ‘appearance’,..

it’s in details. the rounded curve of a shoulder as they twist to deal with an incoming punch; that split second when the little ‘v’ from shoulder to pectoral draws tight and ready, just before that sight is stolen as they move on – this readiness to deal with hardship. the solid shove of their back into rubble to keep it off a civilian; resolve and stubborn ability and compassion all in one.fingers carding through hair for it to be pulled out of their face, tied up or just flicked away. focus in the lines of an expression as they pick out what groceries that suit their dinner plans, or any plans at all. the way they make decisions and the way- oh, wait�� that’s personality.

looks like aizawa’s more focussed on personality than appearance anyway, if it’s supposed to be attractive.

objectively, he can appreciate a fine pair of calves (fine-tuned by lots of running), or the long sweep of someone’s hair (not very practical, but if they’re able to deal with it then it’ll do). but he doesn’t really prefer anything.

except cats. cats are always good and loved unconditionally. i mean, you have to be a seriously vicious cat for aizawa not to love you.

but humans? ehh. literally why? what’s… the point of preferences… u got a face it’s for emoting and sensing and eating, it works doesn’t it?? u got limbs and if ur missing one you’re probably compensating for it with others, (if the loss troubles you, he’s willing to step in and help u find joy again bc dadzawa does that, albeit discreetly if at all possible). ur digestive system works right?? ur skeleton doin ok??? so it’s fine. ur fine. what more do u fuckin’ need, let this old man rest.

man, woman, anything between or around those. literally doesn’t matter, he doesn’t give two shits. how is that relevant?? is only relevant to u??? the finer labels of ur being aren’t for him cuz he doesn’t care abt labels, nor could he ever be as deeply involved in the hows and whats of u as u can be, ur just u??? cool cool move on.

personality;

spine. oh my god, absolutely spine. 

u can be a coward or a brave man, but at least be that because you have your own, characteristic principles that have you stand by yourself as you are.

some kind of code, certainly, a line drawn in the sand. there have to be things you wouldn’t stand for and would take action to deal with – though for the love of his sanity, don’t be stupid about it. 

he’s… going to need them to be somewhere in the Good alignment. he just - does. not. has no… just, dude. you don’t hurt people just because you have beef with something. solve your goddamn problems without making someone else suffer your pointlessly destructive immaturity.

of course some people don’t know they have better options; fair enough. if you’re willing, he’ll try to help you see and make use of those better options. but he’ll never stand by someone who hurts others for no good reason. never.

proactiveness is greatly appreciated and enjoyed.

aizawa loves when people are socially and emotionally competent (because he’s not), because it makes things go more smoothly. look at him and go ‘you’re not an asshole, you just don’t like to talk and have Strong Opinions’ and let him sleep.that said he can definitely develop a strong attraction to someone as ‘no.’ as he is.

protectiveness and compassion. you don’t have to be a hero or go as far as he does, but he needs someone who understands his deep-seated need to nurture and protect. interesting convos can be had with ppl who feel differently, but he wants understanding in his rom relationships.

wants to just be able to sit and cuddle (cat is not optional cat is Needed), and just. stare out into the distance for a while without letting the world be as much of a bother. 

mutual comfort and compassion, support, respect, and a lot of room for all involved personalities.the mutual part is highkey, because as much as aizawa has like. the dregs of energy lmao – he is all about that nurturing life. he can’t be in a relationship with someone he’s not allowed to care about actively. if you don’t want a mutually supportive and strong bond that goes ‘yeah you’re at your worst now, that’s okay. i’m gonna be at my worst like next week’s wednesday prob lmao’, then aizawa doesn’t want you.

| hizashi; headcanons.

appearance;

he absolutely does love prettiness, but it doesn’t… draw him in. he thought for the longest time that his type was long legs, short skirts, sweet lips – then aizawa grew into his stubble and oh jesus fuck-

i’m not sure hizashi is into ladies at all on levels other than platonic and aesthetic, but he doesn’t consider it ever so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who needs labels anyway.

he likes ‘em edgy. good lord let’s be real - hizashi loves dat edge. scruffiness, angular, dark hair, dark clothes, the contrast between pale skin and dark hair, some kinda non-conformist hairdo ( which, for dudes, can be as simple as long ).executive goth? punkgoth? casual goth?

he doesn’t really enjoy make-up. just nah. he likes to know what he’s looking at, likes to know if he reached out there’d be naked skin under his fingertips…

it’s nice if they shorter than him - taller people are giants, have u seen hizashi himself - but the best is equal height cuz then you can just face boop.yes, face boop. just - put ur face straight up against theirs. boop~!

ehrem.

long hair, idle fingers, twirly fabric, a surplus of buttons - anything for him to fidget or stim with is a definite plus.

defined calves are…… attractive….. thicc thighs make him the good kind of concerned for his well-being. he likes the places where bone shows - knees, elbows, knuckles, the bump on your wrist. it’s just very pretty to him and he loves tracing these edges over and over ehrem stimming ehrem.

are u fat? chubby? skinny? somewhere in between? good shit.

personality;

huggy. it’s okay if you’re just the kind to let him hug u, but at least in private he needs dat good ol’fashioned physical affection. huggy. much an’ many huggies.

caring, loving, nurturing. he adores gestures of affection, the more unabashed the better. although that’s mostly bc people’s discomfort makes him unhappy.

domestic. please. he’s a domestic kinda guy lookin’ for a domestic kinda life -- hero work is hectic enough, thanks. the simple old fashioned pleasures of coming home to make yourself a hot drink and sink into that seat you’ve worn a dent into. ready, silent hugs. fingers through hair. the absent petting here and there while ur deep in a book or tv show or thesis.just warm, reliable love.

hizashi is the absolute last person to care for a fling or skinny love. he prefers to have sex with sex workers or friends and foregoes hook-ups with strangers. here too it’s cameraderie, friendship - warm, reliable love.

please love his friends. they’re all one big happy family and he’s dying to include you; it’s cool if you don’t get along!! ...sad, but chill. not everyone clicks.still, though. he does need someone who’d be willing to make an effort.

he... loves.. sexiness. basically this means you’re comfortable propositioning him - not that you’re not/never shy! - that you enjoy chatting about sex and just. have a good ol’ time with it. this again bc ppl’s discomfort = sad hizashi, but also bc he just fucking loves sex. it’s nice! it’s fun! it’s a cute topic and way to get to know each other.

[goldenscript]

childhood friend!seokmin

being forced to come to a family reunion isn’t the best

your aunts usually rag on you about getting a significant other, your uncles are always drunk,,, prolly telling you to invest whatever money you make at your job on them bc everyone is like 1000000000000000% sure that you’re gonna make it big,,, even your parents are a little lost in the madness

usually these sorts of shindigs are divided among factions i.e all the aunts together, the uncles together barbecuing or drinking, the new mothers are huddled with babies on their laps, and the kids are running around the backyard playing games

then there’s you,,, in that awkward in between of an adult age that’s too old to hang with the younger kids but still pretty young compared to the adults so you’re just ~there~

it’s not even like you don’t like spending time with your family or anything either - you just don’t know how to keep up with the drunk aunts and uncles or the little kids screaming their heads off

so you’ve resolved to just sitting on the couch in the garage where it’s relatively more chiller compared to the living room and the garage

the tv’s playing and you see a few of your cousins there with their friends but they’re in like middle school so you’re def’ not trying to “cramp their style” like you did at the christmas party lmao

and tbh it kinda sucks that you only have your phone to keep you company since you specifically remember how you used to have someone to play with when you were a kid

he wasn’t quite part of the family blood wise as he was as close as blood could probably get

he was like your dad’s brother’s friend’s son or something like that and you specifically remembered he loved going by dk

his parents reassured you that he wasn’t actually named donkey kong or anything but he did really love that videogame and he used to show you how to play after the family made him sing karaoke because the kid could s i n g

always the ballads and hits every single high note

Every

Single

One

none of the aunts or the uncles who think they can do it complain one bit either,,, like they’re literally cheering him on like he’s in some concert and always ask for encores

one time he even dragged you in on that mess and although you hated him for it, he made it really fun for you and,,, well,,, even ten year old you loved seeing his smile on him

so just remembering him makes you wonder what ever happened to him

like you’ve been to a huge majority of the parties,,, okay,, well, not all of them and you did stop recently because of school but coming out today makes you wonder if he’s coming

for a while that weighs on your mind, a part of you kind of anticipating him,,, even if you’re not that sure what he looks like anymore

perhaps luck is on your side because after a while you go inside (kinda forced by the grannies), congregating by the snacks table because food is important and you’re hoping this will stop your aunts from nagging you to eat (it doesn’t) and you hear some chatter off to the sides and even see a small crowd around the living room by the tv

somewhere in the mix is your aunt is trying to sing “my heart will go on” and it isn’t that terrible LOL she’s trying ok

there’s a head peeking from the top but you don’t think much of whoever it is as they make their way over,, one of the other aunts ushering him to go eat but you swear you see your dad’s brother’s friend

and seeing the boy coming towards you makes you think it’s who you’re hoping but,,, man, even if he isn’t,, he’s REALLY handsome

“oh seokmin! go eat ok? eat a lot!!! you must still be growing y’know” one of the lazier aunts beside you at the table is telling him

and you’re just like ‘holy shit that IS seokmin kjdsfhskhf’

he notices you as he’s grabbing some chicken wings and all that other good stuff and there’s this flash of recognition in his eye but he seems too shy to say anything and you’re certainly a lil’ put off because holy hell??? HE GOT SO HANDSOME KJSHSJKHFS

so that same aunt, not much older than either of you, is an evil lil’ shit because she just goes “so y/n, don’t you remember seokmin here???” she even turns to your other semi-drunk aunt like “wouldn’t they be cute together???”

and they’re just like agreeing and jabbering,,, about you two and everything else under the sun but you feel him nudge you and you look up to see him gesturing towards the kitchen

with their conversation straying away from you two you both escape into the kinda empty kitchen and you’re both kinda just awkwardly there because,,, did your aunt just do that?? is seokmin really here?? how did mother nature favor him so much???

to say the least, you feel pretty embarrassed especially when you’re looking at him and just really seeing how handsome he is as he leans against the kitchen counter with a plate of wings in hand

it’s funny to you just how much time has like changed you two because y’all used to be the same height and now here he is towering over you

though you do hope that his personality still remains as bright and sunny as usual and from the looks of it, he’s still that kinda shy boy who does nothing but eat and still not gain an ounce of fat like a secondhand talent

you can’t help but smile though since all you’ve ever felt is fondness toward him and you’re pretty resolved in keeping those memories close

and ok so he catches you smiling and he matches it with that full blown smile and goes “what??”

“sorry,,,” and when he gives you an inquisitive look because what are you sorry abt??? looking cute??? you say, “for my aunts,,, and i dunno having to hide out in here”

he just shakes his head and says, “nah, it’s fine. if they see me out there, they might make me sing again”

“do you still sing?”

“yeah, i still love it”

“that’s good” you feel like a warmth spread because,,, it just makes you happy that hasn’t changed - in a way, college has been a huge change for you and sometimes you feel like things are changing way too fast and even though you didn’t want to come to the party because of studying and all that, it makes you feel a little happy to be there and to see everyone and ask how they’ve been

at the least there hasn’t been much changes in your family gatherings besides the obvious physicals ones - they’re all still pretty nutty and talkative but all adorable and endearing in their own ways

as obnoxious as the drunken elders can get, you get so many laughs just watching them and hearing all their stories about their trips to like malaysia or hiking at yosemite,,, it’s all just really nice to hear about and so to see that seokmin is still that sunny boy makes you feel so,,, happy

even with this semi-awkward atmosphere settling in, you can’t help but feel at ease,,, just unsure of what to say

at least until one of the uncles saunters in and does this old joke with his teeth and the two of you react the same way as you both did as kids and jump and it causes the three of you to burst into this huge fit of laughter

this kind of paves the way for the two of you to talk and escape to the backyard where it’s a literal devoid of children (surprisingly) on the playground because they’ve all resolved on remaining in the garage where mario kart and wii games are all in session

at first it’s talking about childhood and change because you nervously bring up your aversion to it and he relates because the future is so scary and unpredictable but he also believes that keeping close to the comforts of nostalgia will do some good for the two of you - which is also why he came to the gathering !!! (that definitely makes you go !!!)

eventually you stray away from all the seriousness and even talk about all the memories you two shared and how happy those times were and it just feels so easy now to just update one another on what’s been going on like how he’s in the acapella group in school and he absolutely adores it and you tell him about how college is kinda killing you but you have a killer study abroad program coming up

though when that’s said he gets only a little sad and goes “you’re leaving me already? i just got you back” and he looks like such an adorable pup so you can’t help but pat his head and say “yeah but we’ll keep in touch this time right?”

he like lights up and gets a lil’ nervous because now that he doesn’t have the plate of chicken wings, having finished it before going to the playground, he holds his phone out to you a lil’ shakily and says “c-can i have your number?”

you’re a little awestruck even if you should’ve expected it but like i said seeing him as attractive and funny and sweet as he is, it feels like this could stir up trouble for you and your heart already

of course you give it to him and he gives you his and he looks so elated you can’t help but voice aloud, “god you’re so cute” and you go bright red because,,, Holy Shit,,,,, you really just said that but even more so, he goes super flushed in the cheeks and fumbles with a thank you

and after a moment of this stewing silence, he goes “you look really good too, y/n”

looking at him, you see how serious he is and how genuine he’s being,,, like it feels like there are stars in his eyes and makes your heart do a funny skip and your stomach does a flip

you’re about halfway with a thank you when your aunt comes in and becomes the two of you forth, mischief in her eyes because she totally just say you and seokmin having a moment and the two of you follow her and everyone is asking him to sing

and he’s like even more flushed because !!! they really love his voice and it really makes him happy and when he sees you he gets really happy - not only with nostalgia but with hope for a better relationship with you like he doesn’t know what’ll come with you two keeping in touch but he knows that he’s willing to take that change and go beyond just party buddies y’know?

so he does something daring because he remembers the look on your face back when you were kids when he did this and he looks at all the waiting faces and says “ok,,, i will But y/n has to sing with me”

your jaw drops and you’re ready to decline but everyone looks at you with these pleading, puppy like eyes and your aunt’s nudging you and sending a wink your way and when your gazes settles on seokmin,,, you really feel like you can’t say no

he has his hand out towards you and goes “c’mon, like old times?”

you don’t know what overcomes you but you also don’t mind the idea of stepping into this change because,,, well,,, it’s seokmin

he’s always made you feel at ease when you were younger and it really feels no different to now so you just,,, let loose

you take his hand, looking slightly begrudgingly but still smiling nonetheless, “thanks,,,dk”

he chooses what you think is some random ballad until you hear the first few notes and he just winks at you and says “seriously, anytime”

he lets out this really cute laugh and you feel the smile on your lips growing and he grins back at you because whatever else happens later can happen whenever, the only thing you two are focusing on rn are each other and that song (and your aunt totally whooping at you two LOL)

[theday]

tagged by @ikyh and @younghyuuns ill be doing both sets !! :D thank you both for tagging me!! this got long so yall dont hav 2 read <3

ru?? rushee’s set!! me: wow ru does not sound like rushee at all ? djsjdhhjd im dumb but i realize now

i. do u believe in astrology? whats ur sign and do u line up with the features usually attributed to it?

fucc... i guess i do ;-0...... and yeah i think?????? like they say capricorns are cold bitches and funny nd im like ya thats me... but they also say we’re hard workers and im like uh.. dont know abt that karen !

ii. what’s ur favorite pair of socks?

bbbbbbb..... socks huh...... i guess my ankle ones? there are also socks that have actual designs on them and those r usually thicker.. keep my feets safe! most of them have pkmn designs bc.. yeah... love the poke mans

iii. what’s a food that reminds you of a specific moment/memory?

i could think of anythiing and get reminded of one situation if that makes sense.. but i thought of pineapple..pizza... anyway the memory isnt anythngn special its just me staring at my delicious hawaiian pizza..... at my favourite pizza place.... love that shit

iv. what’s the longest you’ve gone without sleeping?

i dont have the actual hours but the latest ive stayed up.. like willingly would be until 2am

v. how has ur taste in music changed throughout ur life?

went from 1d to 5so/s + other bands to utaite.... they cover vocaloid songs ig i never kno how2 explain what utaites r then 2 kpop.. but i still listen 2 bands + kpop and utaites.... so nothing much has changed ive just gone broader.. wider... expanded my tastes... 

vi. who’s ur fashion icon?

oh definitely kim wonpil

vii. what’s the dumbest thing you’ve ever done without realizing?

i breathe dumbass particles.. i cant think of one bc my brain probably blocked off all access to my horrifying past but ive been thinking abt how i used 2 send the boy i used 2 like 1d songs....................... 12 y/o old me rly thought. he’d listen.... 12 y/o me thought spamming him was a good idea glad ive learnt from that! 

viii. what’s something you want to brag about?

my grades but it didnt get me into psychology so nvm ! its still good though i didnt expect to get an A1 (hghest grade) for combined humanities since ive had a B my whole life without it i wouldnt be able to move on education wise lmao so thank god for that thanks cambridge thanks bell curve sunbaenim 

ix. when you imagine urself being happy in the future, where exactly are you (like the location!)?

oh definitely an apartment somewhere where its always windy and the curtains are always Moving and the sun just Shines in the room but its not that hot either its just full of warmth and yeah thats the dream maybe also walks in the park without having 2 worry abt sweating my pits out u kno! tldr anywhere but here

x. what’s something you’ve always wanted to own?

let me Think.... i dont need a lot/?? but id love hm.............. i want stability but realistically i want all the hh pcs from the code albums. 

xi. how’ve you been lately?

good good! i finished my *** fic and its. im proud of it though i know its not that good nd i can do better but its done ! and hm i could be going to see mx but asking my mum is stressing me out speaking of her she wont stop Coughing and she refuses to see the doctor ;-/ love those sleepless nights ! other than that i just want 2 get out and feel the sun ???/ wanna get out of this house yea but i need to be.. shady with my money i cant get a job because school is starting in a month and im going overseas again sometime next month so ! no ones gonna hire someone who can only work for 2 weeks at most dhzjhhs shouldve worked when i had the time dumbasses only

ok now falen

1. what’s been on your mind??

hm redacted feeling towards my mum but i cant say them bc itd be insensitive 

2. what are you looking forward to? 

mx? possibly but also finishing my enrolment papers

3. story time!: how and when did you get into day6!!!!!

fuck...... listen up LADS. 

ive told the same story like 10 times but im never gonna get tired of saying this shit bc i love miss boxy so much nd she deserves the appreciation anywy she introduced me 2 day6 after i saw this one (1) picture of brian in minion glasses and instantly i knew in that Fucking moment thatd id die for him. so i asked for the name of my murderer and was introduced to day6 whom frankly id never heard of b4 bdjhjh she sent me all their mvs and i still remember the night . i remember walking out of this japanese restaurant, twitter open, chat wiht boxy there and i was like.. interesting ill go listen when im home so i Did! and my mind was blown away bitch? i honest 2 god expected them to be a boy group,,, dancing and shit yknow? i didnt know k bands existed ! so as a previous 5/sos stan i was like wow. this??? this shit is 10/10 a fucking BANGER thats what i felt listening 2 i smile and just going :O over the fucking instruments so idk if how can i say was the last or second song but Damn. .. it made me scream thanks mister j** he rly dragged me by the collar of my shirt and threw me face first into Heaven so i watched everything i asked my friend for video recommendations and after boxy sent me a page with their face and names i was like this jae kid is 182 cm? wow gotta stan now im stupid and stupid for glasses and tall people so ! it happened bithc,, ugh i lov eday6 so much i remember binge watchng all their vlives after the july after party live (that being the first vlive i watched Ever in my entire life and i laghed so hard despite not understanding a damn thing) please id giv my heart and soul2 day6 im so happy with the way ive progressed as a myday :^( 

bonus when i first started stanning it was 26th june and shortly after i made a stan acc teasers were being dropped but i didnt kno why ppl were freaking out i remmeber seeing jae’s teaser nd going ? ok? its just a pic damn ;-/ and then eveeryone was like: dowoon! choker! me: wdhs? what

4. ????do you have any allergies????

did u think of jae and no i used to be allergic 2 dairy products but thats disappeared

5. a fond memory???

bowling with friends and im just a disaster of a friend im always so loud with them and i thank god everyday that they handle my energy ? i would cheer for them even if they got a gutter or whatever and when they got a strike id go clap like crazy i love my friends i also went i have the power of god and anime on my side before flinging the ball and theyd laugh despite not knowing what vine that was from i love my friends... psg if ur out there yall are the best x i miss hanigng out with them as a trio.. three of us :( 

6. do you paint your nails?? if so, what are your fave colors to use?? if not, why??  

thats so.. tiresome.......... dont u have 2 wait for it 2 dry and shit ? my mums always worried abt ruining the colour or some sht nd im like !!! okY!!!!!!! tldr its a pain in the ass

7. what are your favorite colors?? what are your fave colors to wear??

i like hte colour of the sky... all the colours........ yeah love that bithc and lately ive been wearing a lot of black shirts finally went out of my embarrassing colourful phase ! 

8. what languages would you like to learn?? for what reason(s)??

japanese nd korean jp because i listen to a lot of things in japanese and korean for the same reason but my priority would be jp even tho id love to communicate with my faves i just... yeah although im not exactly making an effort 2 learn bc im lazy but if i Could.... itd be those two

9. when you get stickers, do you use them or do you keep them??

DHDGFHDHDGDSJHJSJAKSSJHFHS THIS FEELS LIKE A CALL OUT???? i keep them......... 

10. are there any groups that you might get into/want to get into?

hm... well theres knk ive learnt their names and im finally able to put name 2 face so thats nice svt too if htey didnt have such large numbers... thats all for now i think?? i love evry girl group though i love gIRLS... 

11. how are you???

idk im constantly just fine?? not the im sad but im fine kind of fine im literally just neutral half the time wjhddshs wild 

both of your questions were really unique and i loved answering them thank you so much for tagging me and if youve read until the end thank you i hope you have a good day!

[abcdosaka]

man jungkook is such a good singer. i don’t like it as much when he sings super high like in savage love but when he uses a really raspy and powerful voice >>>>>>> like in hold me tight and i need u. actually thats not true i like when he sings high in songs like house of cards for example. i guess it just depends on the song, i dont like the melody for savage love when its sung that much (the instrumental is good on its own)

and when he sings in the background during rap verses >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> he and hobi always do bg vocals but tbh id like to see everyone do it too. like (im listening to hold me tight rn which is why i keep bringing it up) but suga’s prechorus part in hold me tight is so good and his talking voice would make for really good bg vocals. also when tae does a raspy voice (eg dna intro) i loooveeeeeee it very satisfying to the ears. wait i wanna compliment everyone real quick cuz i wanna test how good my listening skills have been

i listened to the jin and jk version of so far away and jin actually sounds REALLY similar to suran, idk if it was just that song but he really fits that song. also i feel like he fits rock songs really really well. im glad he got epiphany cuz he makes that song sound soooooo good like its so bright

i really like jimins voice when he sings in a lower range/adds a growl when he sings. like in the idol jimmy fallon perf from this yr. tbh hes kinda like jk in that he can do anything.

i feel like i dont even have to say anything about tae. hes just my fav...like bme made me an official jhope stan and stigma made me a v stan as well. tbh i feel like theres quite a few songs that could use his voice better just bc his voice is really good for soul/r&b songs cuz its so rich and a lot of bts songs are pop but its not like his voice isn’t good for pop songs its just that i wanna see stigma 2.0, 3.0, all the way till infinity.0. wow infinity.0 would make a cool name for something lemme write that down somewhere

should i talk about everyone? im supposed to be doing notes rn....maybe ill write abt rapline....i just feel like nerding out abt bts rn

yoongi: another underrated voice. i also like his raspy voice (like his and hobis version of ttu in the karaoke from bts festa this yr). like ik they were just joking but i actually wanna hear a studio version of that i really liked it. his vocals in seesaw and people >>> also at first listen i didnt like the “everything in lust” part of strange bc it has a weird effect going on but wow that part and in general song has grown on me so much. i think its my most played song off spotify this year. it took me like 2 weeks of straight listening to only that to think i should listen to something different.

hobi: ok i looooooooveeee his singing voice. see spring day, like, just dance. altho songs like airplane, i like the verses but the chorus i dont like it as much bc he uses a really deep voice for it and it,,, idk makes it sound less serious? idk maybe it needs to grow on me like strange did but tbh i like his regular singing voice cuz i like his timbre so much. and omg when he uses a raspy voice its so good > (same from the ttu his and sugas version)

rm: i like his singing voice but i wish he would do it more often. like his singing in autumn leaves is so gooood. same with mono altho i’ve never heard him like singing really powerfully, i think whenever he sings he does it in a more lowkey way. like in always which is btw such a sad ass song lemme write another post about sad ass bts songs

tae’s voice is my fav but jk can sing in such a diverse amount of ways

anyways i did this instead of my fucked up and evil energy course ugh maybe i should stay up again i really want to finish these notes. im just gonna write about sad bts songs and then ill go back to notes