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not to rant and vent and generally be annoying on main but to have it confirmed that my father wanted to take one cat whilst my mother took the other in the divorce ... reeling tbh
#we have two cats. he loves one to bits and doesn't care about the other#if he had his way we wouldn't have the second cat#my mum adores both#but the first one was in place of a child ... that she didn't want to have with my father.#he's very special to us all#we've had him 16 years#and i suspected my dad would try to pull the 'well you're taking one cat so i'll take the other'#but turns out he said it to her#in an email .......#they live in the same house.#but that's how they have to communicate now#anyway. mum obviously said No#but he's left her on email-read#idk what we'll do but she's not leaving the cat she's loved for 16 years#with someone who also does love him but likely won't bother to let her see him#god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck#he's so old as well#and father has never been on the ball with vet stuff#it's never been his job#he doesn't know we've been trying hard to look after the cat's kidneys#and he won't listen to my mum about it since he won't talk to her#kjhsgdfctgyui;okakwlemjnsvgdcfhtyulios;akd.lcjmbhnvghsagdjy#rant over i hope#i cant leave it all like this. but i have to for my own sanity and also third year of uni#helppppppppppppp#i want to spend my whole life chatting to my mum in the kitchen#if i could do that for eternity i'd be happy#but i have to leave and she's leaving too#and i'll now spend half my parent-visiting time#trying to pretend they both mean the same to me
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HOT, SINGLE, UNSTUDIED SPONGES. 3000 NAUTICAL MILES AWAY. Come sail the distance and read Tiger Tiger!
#tiger tiger#ludovica bonnaire#remy bonnaire#jamis arlesi#This comic has been on my radar for *years* and I only recently - finally - sat down to read it. And by god is it amazing.#I don't want to spoil anything! But if you like amazing art and character writing *and* high seas adventure? READ TIGER TIGER.#If you asked my who my favourite character is I could not tell you. I truly like them all!!!#I even like the sleezeball who has less charm than a dead rat. He's *my* darling little rat man. With every disease.#A special shout out to my lad (he is the lad of all time) Jamis Arlesi.#Who - upon walking into frame makes me go 'Sir! Is your bosom too heavy? Do you need a new bra? My hands are free on Thursdays!'#And Ludo! My lass! I love her dearly! Every page made me more fond of her.#Book smart and uses it in very good ways! Naive enough to think it is all she needs! Learns a lot and stays kind through the horrors!#I could go on and on but...you...the person reading this...you *are* going to read it - aren't you?#So I'd hate to spoil you any more! Go read Tiger Tiger! Do it! For the sea sponges!#Rumour has it they are also freshly divorced. It was messy. Sea sponge needs a distraction. That could be you. Distracting that sponge.#You wont know until you click that link and start reading!
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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.
Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?
Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.
The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.
Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.
It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.
I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.
He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.
#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#STANLEYYYYYY#STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants#Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with#the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten#The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you#that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help#If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once#Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON#I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming#But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything#Like he really mattered so little to the people around him#and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too#I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him#The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things#And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year#Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people#the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better#its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand
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@goodlucktai mentioned awhile ago about Gio, even as the oldest, becomes the shortest of the turtles even as the boys grow older, but his little brothers will still crouch down to meet him at eye level anyway, because they still respect him and look up to him!!! He's still their big brother!!!
#my art#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt gio#the archer au#hamato gio#gio hamato#the sons of all time#the way this did numbers in tbe group chat#because today is apparently gio art day! i thought id share this one!#gigi is a very special nickname for gio that only leo uses#and leo nomatter HOW BIG he gets#will always be gios special little guy of all time#thats his FIRST LITTLE BROTHER YALL#i dont know how to explain it youre just gonna have to wait till part 3
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I DONT FOLLOW THIS FANDON WJAY HAPPENED
our butler(/guide to being an agent/best friend who bakes us special cookies and helps us run our cafe and encourages us no matter what because he loves our dad us) got sucked into a DREAMWORLD and had his spirits CRUSHED and he turned into a CRYSTALLY CHAMELEON MONSTER and we had to go through a spiritual journey and talk to the spirit of our DAD so we could POWER OF FRIENDSHIP him back!!!! (and some other stuff happened but what matters is that LEON WAS OKAY)
now he has a different-colored eye and a gentlemanly little face tattoo and...maybe other secrets that we'll find out later?!
#art#ride kamens#ride kamens spoilers#ride kamens episode 14 spoilers#tongue#sorry i gotta get all this out before twst eats my brain again tomorrow#look i like the other characters a lot but leon is our special little guy#he acts all cheerful and silly and he does funny little voices and takes care of us and wants us to grow into our role#but secretly he also has a big guilty complex because he feels like he should have been able to save our dad and oh no wait#OH NO I HAVE A VERY SPECIFIC CHARACTER TYPE#oh my god i bet lilia also ate a rock once
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#my baby my love my everything i hope u have a day as wonderful and sweet and lovely as u are#stray kids#bang chan#bang chan gifs#stray kids gifs#skz#skz gifs#my gifs#cbbc2023#ah. not to get sappy in the tags since im already using all my characters to get sappy in his bubble but. hm. he's very very very important#to me. kind of like. extremely special.#just. im so bad with words but idk if id be here without him and if i was id be deeply deeply unhappy? so im always gonna be grateful to hi#and his music and his company and his care#he's just so kind and sweet and deeply deeply caring and i know birthdays aren't special to him but i hope he gets to eat good food today#and spend time with people he loves & who love him in return and just has heaps of fun. today and every day i just hope he's happy#if he's half as happy as he makes me on the daily then i never have to wish for anything else#um. anw. silly little post for his day that did not warrant all that gut spilling. happy birthday my guy of all time. i love you
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The Batfam ranked by how good they are with kids (ages 3-12):
Jason: the best with kids, and also the most low-key about it. the kind of adult that kids like because he talks to them like adults and doesn’t treat them lesser because they’re younger. If you dropped him in a room full of kids he’d be perfectly fine and able to handle anything that happened.
Duke: enjoys hanging out with kids but WILL panic if the kid starts panicking. If you dropped him in a room full of kids he could keep them entertained with his powers and stories and he’d have a good time unless someone starts crying, at which point it’s t-minus two minutes for Duke to find an adultier adult until he also starts crying from stress
Dick: theoretically good with kids but it’s all an act. Kids LOVE him so people assume he is also the best with kids of the batfam but he’s really just putting on a front. Drop him in a room full of kids and he’s kinda uncomfortable with how they’re all over him and love him so much but you wouldn’t be able to tell because he’s great at keeping them entertained
Cass: Ambivalent about kids. Can sometimes freak them out if she’s in one of her scarier uniforms but she can always calm them down. Very intense about children’s safety conceptually but in practice not great at interacting with them in-person. Drop her in a room full of kids and she can keep things from going insane but would rather not be in this situation without backup.
Steph: wants to be good with kids but simply does not have that intrinsic talent. Something just doesn’t click with trying to interact with them. Drop her in a room full of kids and she’ll do her best and feel really bad when the kids just aren’t vibing with her. Tries to not take it to heart but reminds herself that at least she’s not as bad as Tim.
Damian: kids really like him because he’s One Of Them but he doesn’t really like kids. In part because he straight up does not have the life experience to relate to kids around his age or comfort kids younger than him. Will go through the motions of his training and rattle off scripts and stuff but really would rather not interact. Drop him in a room full of kids and he is the center of attention and everyone is fascinated by him but he just Really Wants Out
Tim: so insanely bad with kids. he’s learned the psychology and done the training and memorized the scrips and stuff but he is simply bad at all of it. Kids sense his negative aura and flee in the other direction. Drop him in a room full of kids and everybody including him will be screaming within five minutes.
Bonus:
Bruce: absolutely loves kids and kids are quietly fascinated by him. On par with Jason in terms of “good with kids”. Not an entertainer like Duke or Dick but really good at empathizing with kids, especially if they’re going through a hard time. Drop him in a room full of kids and within thirty minutes he’s separately told all of them his secret identity and sworn them to secrecy with a wink.
#mads posts#batfam#Batman#dcu#Jason Todd#duke Thomas#dick Grayson#stephanie brown#Damian Wayne#Tim drake#Bruce Wayne#DEEP BREATH#red hood#signal#nightwing#spoiler#batgirl#Cassandra Cain#orphan#black bat#robin#red robin#OKAY DONE#during christmases my grandpa would always pull all the grandkids aside separately#and tell us we were his favorite grandkid#I feel like that’s something Bruce would do#but with his identity#in a room full of kids and he’s very solemnly taking off his cowl and telling this five year old that he’s Bruce Wayne and nobody can no#and when the kid is collapsing in laughter because everyone can see them and he’s already done this four times before Bruce is like whaaat??#nooo you’re special only you can know my secret identity don’t tell anyone
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It's technically not valentines yet but like, here have a valentines gift <3
#art#digital art#fanart#sketch#manga style#timberkon#timkon#timber#timbern#konbern#I love to give bern the floppiest white boy blonde hair u ever saw#let me draw him like 4 more times and turn him vis-kei#anyway they're all boyfriends and their dynamic is Three Chads#aka the super special image at the top#valentines#tim drake#tim drake wayne#conner kent#kon el#bernard dowd#you know what. For a gift have a bern headcanon that always makes me laugh#every day I think about the T for Troy (B for Bern) necklace and about how teen bernard was obsessed with the cliques#so I like to think he picks up all his moves from movies he watches (and he thinks he's slick about it)#and Tim and Kon see him use new moves sometimes and they play a little game to remember which movie it comes from#he calls tim spidermonkey (twilight) one time and tim starts laughing so hard he ends up on the floor#also he does not only watch romance movies for this; he'll be watching something that just has a romance subplot#and sometimes doesn't even have romance - just has a good icebreaker or smth#and he'll go 'oh I should use that next time that's cute'#anyway the other two love it#they think it's very cute
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A bunch of doodles inspired by @wickjump saying Cross has an eternal kicked puppy look (and steadily devolving into dadmare because y'know. My Brand)
#UTDR#UTMV#My Art#Dadmare#Cross Sans#Nightmare Sans#Another post being released from the graveyard that is my drafts lol#Wick is right Cross has the biggest wettest eyes this man was a puppy in a pound in a previous life#And I think it's a little bit funny that in the way I imagine dadmare he was the only one that was like. ''adopted''#The rest were all brought in under the guise of work - fighting Dream and all that#But they already outnumbered the stars when he took Cross in there was no fighting-based reason to add him to the team#Nightmare just was getting very soft and he couldn't leave this guy all sad and alone lol#(And I like to think the MTT kind of suspect that was the reason. they don't say anything but they have all silently taken note)#And I think he could be good for Cross in the way of a caring parental figure#If he had time to do some research into it and maybe a couple of practice tries#Also something about Nightmare who used to read to Dream when they were kids so it's like his main response to help calm people down#And also it just helps him relax to do it#And Cross who has pleasant memories of xToriel reading him stories as a kid and does kind of feel better hearing someone read#Anyway it's like 1:30am and I've written 1 million tags lol#Wick if you're reading this thank you for talking dadmare to me it makes me insane (positive) <3#And also for making Cross such a special little guy to me
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villain au redesigns!!
so far in my efforts to revamp this, they’ve gotten worse! these two need to be separated!
#basically sonic goes from being used as a living battery by eggman to being used as a living weapon by this 8 yr old#someone help him#unfortunately sonic 100% thinks he’s free just because eggman isn’t the one manipulating him anymore#tails can do no wrong in his eyes#on the other hand: very messed up little guy#sonic’s speed was taken from him when he got partically roboticized by eggman and relies on a special kind of energy be able to run fast#tails knows how to make it so he doesn’t need to recharge anymore and he’d just have his speed all the time#except he hasn’t told sonic and he never will#i’ll go more in depth with both of them in a different post#it’s 1 am and i’m eepy#sonic the hedgehog#miles tails prower#unbreakable bond#the brothers ever#art#villain au
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[ID: Black and white comic of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. Vash overhears a conversation from a nearby table at the restaurant they're seated at, the unnamed character saying, "Honey, can you pass me that?" Their partner says, "Sure thing, angel." The unnamed character begins again, "Say, did you hear the news from earlier?" In response, "Haven't got the chance. Tell me about it?" Vash smiles fondly, listening in as the conversation continues, "You'd never guess, babe! The runner--" Abruptly, the conversation is cut in by a "Needle nogging", Vash's expression changing instantly and no longer smiling. The panel cuts to Wolfwood who smiles lop-sidedly, pointing at Vash's plate and says, "If you're not going to eat that. I'll take it." Vash grabs the plate and holds it away and says, "Mine" while Wolfwood clicks his tongue. He pauses for a moment before asking slowly, "Hey, is there any reason you don't use cute names with me?" Wolfwood lifts a cup of water up to his lips, looking confused. He says, "I do though." Vash cuts in, "Spikey and needle nogging aren't cute!"
Vash continues with a shy expression, "Since we're together now..." he trails off and Wolfwood picks up, taking a sip of water as he says thoughtfully, "Together, huh..." Vash pauses in his sentence with a look of confusion before reaffirming, "We are together, right?" Wolfwood nods, "Right." Vash says, "Right", before continuing, his shy expression returning, "Then you can use stuff like... honey or-" Wolfwood cuts in this time and says casually, "You're not a honey though." A panel cuts of Vash's expression changing again, shocked. He asks, "Huh? Then who is?" Wolfwood says immediately, "Milly." Vash exclaims, "Milly?!" Wolfwood continues, "She's sweet, just like honey." A bubble pops up of Milly smiling as Wolfwood speaks. Vash continues, "Okay, true... What about sweetpea?" Wolfwood responds, "Kids. Kids are sweetpea. And pumpkin too." Vash continues, "Okay... What about baby?" Wolfwood says without hesitation, "Meryl." Vash exclaims again, "Meryl?!" Wolfwood explains," Noisy, like a baby." Vash mutters, "Hey, that's a bit mean..."
Vash continues persistently, "Then what about babe?" Wolfwood shrugs with a grin, "You are not a babe." Vash looks at him, slightly frustrated before exclaiming with flushed cheeks, "Then what am I?!" Wolfwood points at his hair and smiles softly, "I told you. You're the one and only needle nogging." A panel closes in on Vash's widen eyes, cheeks still red, pausing before he ultimately resigns, planting his face into the palms of his hands and muttering, "I give up..." At the same time, Wolfwood sneaks and grabs the plate of food that Vash left unattended, saying in response, "You get up cuaght up about the dumbest things, y'know that?"
The comic then picks up again to a jump in time, after they've left the restaurant. Wolfwood muses to Vash, "You said all that about the names earlier, but I don't hear ya using them for me." Vash looks to him excitably and asks, "Did you want me to?" Wolfwood looks at him with an uncertain expression, "Not really, but I guess I am curious..." Vash beams, "Then let's try some, okay... dear?" He fingerguns Wolfwood with a grin, little hearts surrounding him. Wolfwood just looks at him neutrally and says, "Okay," while thinking to himself, "Cute..." Vash exclaims, "So unenthusiastic!"
The next comic picks up at a different time, but on the same theme of pet names. Vash hugs Wolfwood and says to him, "Thank you, my love." A panel close up of Vash steadily opening his eyes before he sees Wolfwood's reaction up close, his eyes glancing away, cheeks flushed, and the smoke out of his cig forming soft hearts as he mutters, "Sure..." In a smaller, cartoonish style, Vash has a comedically exaggerated expression of shock and widened eyes as he grips Wolfwood by the shoulders while Wolfwood still wears a shy expression. He then nudges his head to the side of Wolfwood's with a close eyed happy smile, hugging him close and says, "So, there WAS one you liked!" Wolfwood, still looking away, but now with an irritated and embarrassed expression, grumbles, "Shut up..."
The final image is a short sequence. Wolfwood is working on something, spacing out as he does, while Vash from off screen calls for him, starting with "Babeeee? Babe? Beautiful? Honey? My love?" All of which gets no reaction from Wolfwood. Vash pauses for a moment before piping up again, "wolfwood?" Wolfwood turns around, finally noticing that Vash was calling for him and asks, "What?" A box at the bottom of the page says, "Unresponsive to anything other than his names." END ID]
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#ULTIMATELY the most convenient is to stick to needle noggin and wolfwood because it just makes the most sense to them. i also think the way#they refer to each other is such a like.. distancing manner at first.#because i think wolfwood DID call vash by his name at first right?? i mean it was spiraling from vash the stampede to vash and then to#spikey in that one town near the beginning of maximum#i dont know how to word it but the fact they call each other these particular monikers that dont get regularly echoed by others#IN PARTICULARLY needle noggin being SO specific to vash from wolfwood really pushes in the special place wolfwood has in vash's life.#wolfwood doesnt get the name wolfwood used for him often too. hes been called priest chapel nicholas nico....#but vash uses wolfwood out of all of them. kills me every time#its just like the safest name for him. the thing about wolfwood is that it still is universally used for him too. he introduces himself as#nicholas d wolfwood to others as seen from when he first met vash.... regular citizens or kids mightv called him mr wolfwood and stuff...#so it kind of settles itself as a name for the mundane for safety for comfort.#but then they call each other by their first names in vol 10 and i . shatter sfx. needle noggin and wolfwood are so Precious to them for#each other but they're capable of using each other's first names too in such a gentle manner. i mean when vash used nicholas#it was in comforting gesture too. nicholas is who melanie and the kids know and that nicholas is still very much there even pass#the bloodshed. and when ww uses vash so his family knows of vash and his identity and the safety the name vash reflects...
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just got home from seeing miles and oh my GODDDDD. so much to unpack. SO MUCH. i’ll do a proper post tomorrow when my brain is remotely coherent again, but for now the headlines: he is (as always) absolutely fucking incredible live; i had not one but TWO super awkward run ins with him before the gig even started; i will never recover from hearing shavambacu; there was a VERY interesting moment when he was introducing “see ya when i see ya”; and, in the least creepy way possible, i may or may not now know what it’s like to be spat on by miles kane mid performance 🫠

#such a wonderful musician and an absolute GEM of a human being 💖#thanking all the deities for letting my health be good enough for me to go tonight 🙏🙏🙏#it was so ridiculously good#he really is so special live ✨#though i got sad vibes from him tonight too 🥺#i hope he’s okay#he was wonderful and talented and engaging but idk. it was just an impression i got#he definitely comes across as someone who feels things very deeply#like that was very much something i got the impression of last time#and he just seemed#idk#like maybe he could have used a hug from someone who knows him really well 🥺#but anyway#enough rambling from me#it’s so late and i am almost certainly making no sense at all at this point because honestly#who would be in my position??? 😭#miles kane#lulu posts
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FIIIINALLY almost nailed my designs for lizzie and caspian can i get a HEEEELLL YEAAH???? i think these two make a vvery cute duo and i cannt wait to see them again. i also hope they both get hurt reaaaallly really badly. togeter
#OOOHH OH OOOHH IVE BBBEEEN REWATCHING THINGSSS ive been rewatching riptide weeee im never leaving here weeeee!!!#caspian and lizzie are SUUUUCH A CUTE COUPLE CAN I BE HONNESTT but in a princess and knight way. do you hear me.#caspian is such a 'lights her cigarette' kinda guy. hes such a dude that has made a vow to a very very special lady#he would float half of a boat w nothing but his water powers for eight days and he would do it all for her.I LOVE THEMM#IM SO HAPPY ABT LIZZIES REDESIGN BTW IM MAKIN A WHOLE DOODLY PAGE FOR HER N IM HAVING FUNNN YEAAAHHH#CASPIAN HAS ALSO BEN ENTIRELY RECYCLED IN MY MINDS EYE. they describe him as Wet sooo much. so i drew that and im happy abt it#caspian is sooo handsom in my brain thats why i draw him so rarely bc drawing pretty boys is HARD. but i DID IT.#when he first appeared i thought he was a triton too bc i didn talk to the fandom n i knew nothing abt dnd. so learning otherwise was funny#a residual effect o that mixup is me giving him ears thatre like the fins of a flying fish. he seems to light and carefree.#the lighter fins o a flying fish just fit so perfectly. also his white hair fades into mist in my mind#NOW FOR LIZZIE ART NOTES.A BLACK ROSE.sometimes a red rose.shes so roses to me!!gorgeous but coated in thorns. i wanted her hair to-#-resemble roses or smth like that. square swirls are also soo her. reevaluating her ref sheet was also fun bc WOW the triangles and birds#SO FUN!! shes so spikyy..her and caspian are such a good dynamic in everyway#personality wise and appearance wise and i wanted to capture that sortaaaa. in vibes. yknow.im veryhappy w getting their designs sorted out#ALSO I GAVE LIZZie tha jhonny da homicidal manac boots. bc i love that comic and i will never stop giving characters da boots.#also in other news ddoes anyone else still wonder abt destinys blade and how it used to be a golden lotus sword but then it also used to#be a person and caspian just had that sword for however da fuck long and then so willingly gave it to gillion after he lost his sword#llike did he know. did he know. also do you think caspian and lizzie have explored ea
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Do you ever think about how one of the most emphasized elements of Zexion's character is that he does NOT like doing things himself? Multiple journal entries and multiple moments in Chain of Memories to let us know that he can and will make someone else do things he doesn't want to deal with. And then he goes to try to take out Riku by himself.
It could have been pride, and I bet a little of it was that. Zexion is displayed with a lot of it- Riku not dying when Zexion expected sent him into an entire breakdown. He might have thought there was no way he could have failed.
But Zexion also shows that he knows when to retreat and, crucially, here's where the first point comes in- he does not like proving himself. That's Vexen (and Zexion knows it and manipulates it to get Vexen to do certain things for him).
The Chain of Memories journal entry says Zexion was forced into action thanks to the demise of Vexen and Lexaeus, but... no he wasn't. Riku didn't know he existed and everyone else was off the radar, he wasn't in active danger. It would have been so easy and the smart decision to retreat and regroup, and I think Zexion has a certain balance of obedience and self-assuredness that would have allowed him to go back to the Castle expecting Xemnas to understand why he retreated. The operation is in shambles. It's only Zexion and Axel left, Sora's disappeared, Naminé's run off, and Riku and Repliku are still fucking around upstairs. He could try to salvage what he could and take out Riku, or he could leave Oblivion in tatters like Axel was clearly going to and make someone else deal with it (tbh because of how things played out I actually think Riku would have been worse off without Zexion doing what he did. that dire moment is when Riku had his breakthrough moment). I think the latter option would have been more in character-
IF NOT FOR THE FACT THAT AS FAR AS ZEXION WAS AWARE, RIKU WAS THE ONE WHO KILLED LEXAEUS
We don't even know how Zexion "felt" about Lexaeus's death since Axel came in like immediately and Zexion refuses to let his peers know he has facial expressions and honestly an analysis of Zexion and Lexaeus's relationship would be too long but Lexaeus cares about him and in some strange way, Zexion cares back. And Lexaeus lost. And Riku was the one who did it. And... was the level of psychological torment Zexion put Riku through really necessary for killing him?
The most fucked up thing about this interpretation is that it means Zexion's final decisions were guided not just by emotion, but by emotion felt for someone else. and it killed him
#don't I even warrant a hello Lexaeus?#the organization used to be the rope that bound us together.......#zexion talks of the bond we share as an organization but how can such a thing exist?#still he remains the only one I can trust#kingdom hearts#chain of memories#zexion#lexaeus#me post#I am thinking about them very frequently#please refer to my pinned post also#yes yes I know it's all actually because he's a villain who needs to be an obstacle and then taken out within the game#and he wasn't picked for most special boy like axel was#but it's unfathomably boring to talk about organization members that way
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i've been very productive
may delete this later idk
#one piece#zoro#nami#vivi#fanart#sketch#myart#idk tbh#he lookes so stupid in the 1st drawing xd#this moment of zoro has a very special place in my heart#2024 here so um i was trying to castoonish(? my art style but this looks horrible wth#also i wanted to use blue as my main color but before this i always used warm-greyish pallete colors I DONT LIKE THE COLORS I USED AT ALL
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Teenage me used to write exclusively in my email (unhinged behavior tbh) because it had a good search system and also because I was sending my writing to friends.
Anyways, I’ve been trying to archive these hundreds of emails into a Scrivener file because I don’t trust my email at all. It’s been slow going because I keep getting distracted by reading them. And rereading these has been a TRIP.
Please have these doodles of how I imagined my two main ocs in the year 2014 (they had a lot of iterations between 2009 and 2017).


#simultaneously embarrassing and charming to me. they had all the authentic earnestness that only teenage me could’ve imbued them w#He could turn into a tiger and was an unbearable person in 2012-13 specifically but was a sweetie the rest of the time#She had no powers but was taken on a time travel trip to save him and was always looking at clocks and biting her lip#they evolved so far that they eventually became new characters altogether#so they don’t exist anymore#but they mark a very special time period of my creativity#my ocs#looking back at my grown age of 28 now I’m like ‘my god what’s happening in there’ as I point to my old emails#tell me why I used ellipses so much in 2011#al chatters#digital sketch#old ocs#nostalgia#my art#doodles
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