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cockwarming iwaizumi on a business call,,, yea.
he’d be so annoying about it, too. yes, it was your idea, but you didn’t expect for him to treat you like you weren’t important :((
and you want to get pounded, absolutely ruined, but the only thing he was giving you were occasional taps to your clit paired with his slight movement inside you every once in a while.
most annoying man ever btw. it didn’t help that he kept muting the phone to reprimand you either.
“stay still. you wanted this, baby. now take it.”
mean ass.
“‘zumi… don’t be so mean t’me.”
iwa wanted nothing more than to fuck you deep, but he had business to finish first. ‘cause he’s always tryna be a working member of society n shit
eventually you just got impatient and rose up on his cock just to slam back down. he barely covered his guttural whine before the man on the other end noticed.
iwaizumi ended up gripping your waist tightly with one of his sizeable hands to keep you in place, while continuing to writing notes with the other.
he smirked into the crook of your neck, cause now you really had no where to move.
iwa just likes to be a lil sadist from time 2 time.
oh, and as soon as he gets off that phone?? he still doesn’t let you move, much to your dismay.
but now he’s free to degrade you and tell you how bad you were :((
“thought you were g’nna be a good girl f’me. you’re making me sad..”
in the end, iwa lets you cum, yea. but not on his dick. he adds some quick strokes to your clit, but only to shut you up.
after all, he still had business to finish.
he knows exactly how unsatisfying it is, but he thinks you deserve it. all you had to do was sit still >:(
#iwaizumi drabble#haikyuu#iwaizumi fanfic#iwaizumi x reader#iwaizumi x you#Iwaizumi x black!reader#haikyuu smut#iwaizumi scenarios#iwazumi x reader#iwazumi smut#iwazumi hajime#haikyuu x y/n#iwaizumi hajime (27) athletic trainer#he’s always on my mind actually#my mf man.#i miss him :(#he’s rlly mean here but i love him
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I know sukuna is often praised for his beliefs and the wisdom he "bestows" on others and as much as I love the guy and all the impactful dialogues he had with characters like jogo or yuuji, I also think he’s got to be the one of the most childish characters with mindset a of a 13 year old.
#“I can do whatever tf I want because no one can stop me”#“also love is worthless” honestly this sort of attitude just sounds rlly childish to me#also sukuna is known for loving games like that time he said “no one is allowed to move till I say so if you break that rule Ill kill you”#or “let's have a fire power battle” or “wanna race brat?”#dude you're the biggest brat here#but don't get me wrong just because he has a childish mindset doesn't mean#that his beliefs and the wisdom he possessed have suddenly no value or have nothing to teach us#Id even argue that his confidence egoism and self centred attitude go hand in hand with his child like mentality#that's what helped him remain at the top#ryomen sukuna#I FOUND THIS IN MY DRAFT#I might delete this later idk yet
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r u the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u buy whatever little thing u want as an adult and struggle with saving for the big mandatory thing,
or the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u just never buy anything small bcs u had to learn to live without it and constantly try to save for the next big thing in 500 yrs
#everyones been asking what i wanted for my bday and i always say nothing#like i hate the feeling of getting somebody smthing just to get them smthing like personally#it needs to come from the heart for me. if it's for smthing big like a bday#now like getting someone a coffee judt to get them one on a random day is dif bcs it's just smthin random on a random day i can understand#but idk like as a kid into adulthood the only bday my relatives / guardians have ever celebrated was my adopted brother's n my dad's#the dad bcs hes a hyperconservative dictator lol n the older adopted bro is cus hes got higher needs#so everybody gets more money taking care of him n stuff so u gotta act like u care abt him according to the guardians#but like i never even knew bdays were that big to people. like i mean i know OTHER PEOPLES bdays are big to them#i find ppl who rlly love their bdays to be rlly cute. like i dont think theyre selfish or make fun of em cus theyre judt having fun#n like u only get one x yr bday so have fun with it!!#but for ME? my bday was never anything special n i dont think it is now#everybody feels bad or smthing for me or for not getting me nothing today but it's like?? this is the norm??? im cool with it#ive been thinking abt other stuff like i just dont have time to think abt the pleasures rn. i have to double on the pain or smthing#like my friends always laugh abt how i dont drink coffee/tea or alcohol bcs u cant be in the medical field without a lil smn smn#& it's like idk ! i like ppl that do do that kinda stuff but like! i never grew up with that & it just feels odd to do it now kinda thing#idk im very cheap but also i will use the fact that im cheap on the small stuff to justify wanting to make a big purchase#i have a weird relationship with buying things for myself vs for others like 4 others i will buy watever u want bro#sugar papi ted#hey heres this idk insert raccoon bracelet bcs u like raccoons n love wearing bracelets so i thot of u n bought it#but if i buy smthing for me it has to have a dual purpose or smthing#i got to have a free dessert today n chose the churros over the tres leches cake slicr cus u can judt make the cake#but i dont own a deep fryer so i cant make churros n storebought churros just arent the same#like im just always idk comparing or needing to know the use of things yanno#if i do smthing. i have to see it thru. & it has to have multi purpose#i mean just look at my username jrue ships or jrue's hips like#im unwell when it comes to that#idk is anyone else like this#anyways yea this whole new thing of getting stuff on one day is hard for me like it just never matches up with my time#of course ill see stuff id like to have but like. ill just make myself forget it n by the time stuff like this rolls up it's like idk#i COULD get a new laptop but i got one that works just fine. i got an ipad on its last legs but can i still turn it on? alright
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"i hated owen for all/most of s1 i only started liking him in s2" weak. i liked owen since he got choked against a wall by an angry woman and then told her he wanted to shag her immediately afterwards. and then even more when he spent ep3 trying to intimidate and murder a rapist
#txt#torchwood posting#owen in the pilot? trash. but i tend to think ep3 was his comeuppance#anyway i was biased goin into tw but nonetheless. i loved him near immediately#i was like oh hermann from pr but hes a mean shitty little twink ohh???#oh hes fucked up! oh he has murder in his eyes and hes crying! oh im obsessed! and it spiraled from there#which is usually how it goes#sigh#but yeah ep3 was when i rllyyyy started to love owen#the obsession. the vigilantism. going against jack's orders.#that one shot where gwen looks at him and he looks dangerous#i think what got me was in ep1 we see torchwood broke suzie and pushed her to kill#so seeing that a second torchwood member was also at that point only two eps later#it was like ohhhhh. ohhh thats whats going on here#and then it's amplified like the end of s1 is just owen spiraling so hard he almost destroys the world. and it was fucking fantastic#even if the cgi was bad lmfao#s1s character arcs all have to do with exploring how that life breaks people. esp ppl who were already broken. as we find out in s2e12#& owen's the best example he's sooo fucking mentally ill and self destructive and toxic and miserable and he means the fucking world to me#and then they threw it all away in s2 to make him palatable 😒#but thats a me problem. i do luv s2 owen just in a diff way#and im v fond of the undead arc#but s1 owen just hits diff for me. burn played him as a scared little boy and it rlly rlly shows#sss
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hello jess beloved..... made a little thing for phantom pain bc i saw this pose reference and immediately i think of jiejie and dain hehe
jiejie's pov? ;D
.............rin?? (。_°)☆
KSNE39E3VKVNVKNVRIK RIN WHAT THE FCK I THOUGHT THIS WAS GOING TO BE ONE OF OUR USUAL INTERACTIONS HOLD UP WHY IS THERE AN IMAGE OH SHIT IT'S FAN ART RIN WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?? I LOVE IT SO MUCH BUT RIN?? RIN??!!
*clears throat* Thank you so much for your fan art of Phantom Pain!! I rlly appreciate it, and my comments are in the tags <3
#RIN GET OVER HERE BEFORE I LOVINGLY TACKLE YOU#you were right about the pose fitting dainsleif and lucille (my name for demon! reader). i love that it fits dain as a broken darling <3#his smile. his lil blush. his downward gaze. the way he fully leans into lucille's touch. the feathers all around him!!#i like the red tint you used for the feathers. details. and background gradient. smth smth color symbolism and yandere vibes <3#fun fact for those reading the tags:: rin told me the flowers are roses and cherry blossoms with a red/blue tint#god i just love how you colored it!! you did such a good job at balancing the reds + blues and now i'm curious if you associated red with#lucille?? bc if you did. it would add another layer to the fact that this fan art is mostly red :0#moving on. i adore the accessories for lucille!! i love details like that and i think it rlly adds to your interpretation of her character#in my imagination she always wears jewelry so i was nodding at the 'bracelets' on both wrists AND IS THAT A RING ON HER RIGHT HAND?? <3#i love the snake 'bracelet' mixed with the flowers. religious imagery lesgo!! oh no dain is falling for lucille's temptation--#but it's fine right?? i mean look at dainsleif now he's happy happy!! the same hands that brutally kill angels/sinners hold his#face with so much warmth and gentleness. so is it a sin for him to believe in his tragic fate??#fnfkfnkfrfnkfrnk once again thank you so much. this rlly made my night :'3#asks#feedback#fan art#meimeimeirin
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❤️Fiend-ship❤️
Evil Dedede be like "I have no kids!" PFFFTTTTTTTT
#King dedede#kirby bandana dee#kirby#metaknight#Pretty old Dedede design#This could possibilly take place when they all dont rlly know eachother that well#its all just kinda like#eh ill deal with you you deal with me#Of course Dedede is gonna go barrage in there and demand they give him his “NOT SON” bacc ofc#They call Metaknight and hes all like “You had one fuggin job”#They all end up hanging out afterwards tho#kirby over here reforming “criminals” lmaooo#I mean these so called criminals are probs some from outside popstar and just thought dedede has money#BRO HE HAS $1.20 to his name#They're found family gibs me life#I love the idea of Dedede growing softer and softer with kids overtime just due to all the shit he realizes they go through on a yearly-#basis tbh#They all shaped each other for the better in the end and I love that for them ❤️❤️❤️
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this is basically my kyle playlist
california girls is rlly carrying the angst so sad((she eants me(2 b loved) is not the sadest song ots just the 1st))
#most if the songs r about alex ngl i love her sm#goodmirbing!! my headaches gone yiipppee!!!!#tgus doodles from yesterday tho lol#i was gonna post it on my kyle doodle acc but like?? not anymore#i drew him kinda leaky srry man#actually no not srry CRY MORE#this guy needs therapy idc what u say#i mean most of them do byt like i will ralk about his silly lil issues hes got sm of those#i feel so bad 4 the ppl i talk 2 omfg#i just talk talk talk & never shut up & THEY DONT TELL ME 2 SHUT UP?? makes me frel bad like oh shit i just yapped @ u im so srry#not even talking about dc all the time#its worse when its dc omg#‘no i like hearing u talk’ like uhm DO U? i can make u regreat that here let me talk about kyle rayner#all the ppl irl having 2 deal w/me shuffling trough comics & me making them see smth on my phone 4 context#i swear i dont talk over ppl ot @ least i rlly try not 2#srry im like sleepy @ am remembering going over 2 1 of my parents friends house &i just talked talked talked#i was ddoung basically a horrible stand up routine#skjfkfkvkkgg#anyaysd kyleee omgg kyle raynerr??!!!#im so srry kyle nation#my kyle tag lmao#kyle rayner#<- is scared#2 put that#dc#puppee art#i think instead of talk talk talk i should say ramble ramble ramble
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perfectly average glass of water
#ok look this is stupid but i rlly do love the idea of lupin's cartooniness showing in the weirdest ways. like. lupin can fit so many things#in his jacket pockets right? and he has them specially tailored so it would make sense if he had modifications for extra pockets and whatnot#BUT sometimes there are things he could have on him that are just ridiculous. like sure you could have him take out a large hammer or#whatever. but could you imagine like. meeting some guy who seems a little off but you ignore it and then suddenly hes holding a perfectly#average glass of water? no lid anywhere. the water is chilled. theres an ice cube in it. but theres also no condensation on the glass.#it's like it was just poured but you didn't see or hear it being prepared. it's just. here. and the weird guy doesnt comment on it at all.#it would be genuinely bizzare. anyway. i thought that would be funny lol didnt mean to drag it along in the tags#my art#doodle#digital art#lupin iii#lupin the third#ms paint
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Damn. I suck at color theory 🤩
Anyway here's Alice's Jojo stand his name is Carousel and he's just a little silly fox (he won't hesitate to take all your sanity away and destroy it if Alice is mad 🫶)
I prefer the traditional version honestly it's better without the colors 💀
Rant about Carousel in the tags sorry not sorry
#okay so. his design is inspired by a mix of alice's fox plush and the rabbit from alice in wonderland#he's wrapped in rubans bc i feel like alice is kind of like a gift to todd#but not in the good way. in the “she's an inanimate object” way#if that makes sense#so basically carousel has a conscious of his own and even if alice tells him to do smth he can choose to do it or not#but usually he obeys bc he loves his little alice#so since alice's kinda empty in dbh i decided to take inspiration from alice in wonderland for his ability#basically he hunts you down in your own mind- meaning that if alice's mad he will destroy your entire memory (but it's very rare)#his name comes from one of the music in kara's soundtrack- it's the music we hear when alice is on the merry-go-round (i think 💀)#but carousel is a real sweetheart tbh and alice and him have regular tea times where alice drops all the tea she made up with her imaginary#friends (she's lonely okay 👹)#about the drawing i rlly fucked up the colors 😭 oh well i'm too lazy to fix it so here you go#dbh#detroit become human#dbh fanart#alice detroit become human#dbh alice#alice dbh#alice yk500#luv her sm 🫶🫶#jjba au
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OKAY FINE MAYBE I DID HAVE MORE MOTIVATION IN ME. maybe ive been brainrotting over pafl for like the entirety of this month. anyway i like convergence a lot and i think this shots pretty good. might make a version with the lyrics on it if i can find a good font
#💌 at the manga cafe#pafl yura#parties are for losers#mspaint#fanart#im not dying immediately after this time so yay!#im rlly happy w/ the shading here i took. some jumps with it#and i think it looks great#i tried making him spooky#as he clearly deserves#i might do more eventually but they'll prolly stay as mostly yura#sorry hes my favourite i didnt mean it#theres also some temnova and dima ones i wanna do#bcs i love comfort zone a lot
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ok u know what maybe if the world isn't ready for sunrazer post that means that the world IS ready for Amoveous siblings post. This is Milo and Enho and theyre my DARLINGS and i love them SO MUCH. i have. SOOOOOOOO many thoughts abt them but after the previous post massacre i do not really feel like typing all of that xoxo love <3
#THESE DRAWINGS HAVE BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS FOR MONTHS LOL#meart#original character#robot oc#ily enho ily milo my darlings my angels my loves my funny robot guys.#ive posted abt Andromeda on here b4 if u remember her Enho is her best friend !!!!!#Enhos a battle robot who doesnt want 2 fight people..#hes the oldest sibling and theres a lot resting on their shoulders!#shes supposed to be this big metal protector but U.U she just wants to hide in his room.. and make music for the internet..#him and andy have this whole arc abt like. autonomy and identity and junk#being as andy is a government experiment who was raised to be a superhero who. has not yet realized that she HATES being a superhero lol#Enho inspires her!#milo um. does his own thing. he was the second amoveous bot and he is lucky to have been built without the responsibility of a battle bot#which means hes a LOT weaker. doesnt have a million weapons and lasers and such like enho does. no one expects much of him. he HATES IT!!!!#he wants to be POWERFUL! he wants to HURT PEOPLE!! he wants to be USEFUL!!! hes ANGRY ALL THE TIME#its EXSAUSTING.#yk that tinkerbell thing thats like. cuz shes so small she can only feel one emotion at once. and its so big it consumes her entirely?#hes that. he lives entirely in extremes. everything is 100% for him#he jumps to conclusions so quick and so violently.. hes incredibly impulsive and it gets him into a lot of trouble.#hes also a total NERD!!! GOOB!!! says mlady unironically. likes bad computer games. wears a stupid tie everyday. cartoonishly schemes 24/7#enho for the record is also a pretty angry person. they just dont rlly express it. they dont express much of anything lol.#shes semiverbal on a talkative day. he can be REALLY REALLY PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE THO. THAT MF CAN BE SO PETTY. GOOFY ASS#but shes TERRIFIED she'll lose control of her emotions and her body and that shell hurt someone someday. absolutely terrified.#enho is as afraid of his strength as milo is of his weakness. theyre both two ends of the same extremes in a lot of ways.#polar opposites and yet exactly the same. they resent each other a lot. they need to learn to meet each other in the middle.#anyway ''i dont feel like typing all that'' and then i ramble in the tags for ten million years lol ToT I LOVE THESE GUYS#theyre my oldest ocs in this universe and i have so many thoughts if you have any questions feel free to ask me lol
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yall thought yall were safe from my 1998 temptations movie posting, but, rest unassured, you are not . melvin is old man running toward you with his chronic rheumatoid arthritis at excruciatingly slow speeds as we speak .
he's so :3
#THE EEPIEST!!!#pauls awkward ass finger guns after eddie's rude ass joke 😭#just trying to smooth things over#just a charming prince and his mean ass passenger princess#theyre all so desperate for a group like yall rlly had nothing better to do back then??#melvin mr libra blue twirling himself into a mess with his for the better good little lies#everybody mad af and hes just :3#'the gangs all here 😸 !!!!' meanwhile the gang is playing hunger games the rated r version#al confused and irritated but still giving blue a high five 😭#otis's anger at guys like al quitting bcs theres no money when they show him living in a giant ass house is insane#like al is driving a milk truck#blue constantly shooting nervous little looks at otis to make sure hes doing ok while still keeping a big goofy smile for the others#i love melvin hes like if a little alien wanted to sing r&b#'these cats called me up.. BEGGIN to join OUR group 😎 .'#' yea 😸 ! ...well... - practically 😅😊'#'i thought you said they wanted to join OUR group 😡..'#melvin: ..😦😯😧 !#*cutely changes the subject*#him snapping from giggly to defensive with the '..well ONCE upon a time 😾!!😿'#paul and eddie running away together using eddie's stolen tax break money from his brother so they can terrorize fellow singers#i love love 🩵#pls watch the temptations 1998 pls bro pls it“#s the only right way to celebrate pride
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didnt even touch on the sandra lynn stuff int he tags of the last post bcos if i talk about her im liable to explode. get behind me, middle-aged divorced woman proficient in archery
#wasnt around for sy as it aired but ive seen the remnants of the liveblogging and its so foul#the genuine misogyny....#saw someone claim gilear was a better parent than her and i had to turn off my computer#i know we all love gilear and hes been tbh redeemed by comedy where sandra lynn doesnt get that#but like. be serious.#that tonal shift in difference of how gilear and sandra lynn are received is wicked interesting to me#and like pre-emptive disclaimer this isnt Gilear Problematic I Want Discourse. im just thinkin thoughts here#the way fy episode 1 gilear actively left his wife n daughter and calls her a demon even if he doesnt mean it that way#but then fig/emily takes an interest in him and from there hes a radically different character whos just kind of. pathetic.#im hesitant to call it flanderization because initial gilear only got like 10 minutes of screentime before wet cat gilear took the stage#but like. in ep1 both faeth parents are shown as equally flawed and on an even narrative playing field#which is then upset as fig latches onto gilear as a comedic force and hes not as much 'dad with tense relationship to daughter he disowned'#as 'guy the pcs do bits with'. esp in fy he doesnt do much but let fig live in his apartment sometimes#(and if u rlly wanna analyse u could say something abt her basically taking care of him instead of the other way around)#this then rlly impacts sandra lynn! bcos now fig has One tense parental relationship to rest all her angst on#and where gilear gets bits. sandra lynn really doesnt get much spotlight until the prison sequence#and the lack of focus on sandra lynn Is lampshaded in-universe and i like the resolution#and then u get to sy where sandra lynn gets as much spotlight as gilear but she doesnt have his comedic shield#so instead she has the dramatic spotlight and both the story and the characters are weirdly obsessed w her sex life#and yeah i know im an aro autist maybe i take cheating a bit lightly. but its in the same category as the 'zelda is mad at gorgug' shit#shes made a spectacle but because shes not gilear and society has notions about sex she gets judged for it#like something abt gilear disowning fig getting dropped while sandra lynn is scrutinised so much rlly rubs me the wrong way#she is FLAWED that is what THE JAIL EP WAS ABOUT!!!#she is TRYING arguably more than GILEAR but she doesnt have the absolution of rule of funny to fall back on#i go insane. i go insane#post not mentioning jy bcos i havent seen it. once again middle-aged divorced women proficient in archery get behind me ill protect u
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Kaeya most definitely will shy away from gentle affection during sex or just gentle sex period, and deliberately try and goad the other into something rougher because he absolutely CANNOT handle such a thing without falling apart in the process. Unless the other person is someone he really trusts, he will outwardly show frustration or even get angered enough to stop if it's continued as such.
#//Basically said smth similar before; but expanding on another side to it here#hc; kaeya#//This's specifically towards himself; with others he'll be more than gentle & kind to THEM. But directed towards himself? He can't stand i#//Absolutely HATES being treated gently/nicely by ppl who aren't a s/o; it's far too intimate/vulnerable; so he'll do anything to change it#//Even if it means pissing them off one way or another for results; even if he rlly winds up hurt in the process. He'd actually prefer that#//It happens regardless of if the person hooking up with him is just a contact of his or even a friend#//That level of vulnerability he'd feel that comes with gentler sex is NOT something he wants to show to anyone; EVER#//Actual partners do stand a chance at gently talking him into relaxing and accepting it#//Reassuring him they won't hurt him nor lord the vulnerability over him#//That he DESERVES soft things; this tender affection and intimacy; they LOVE him; no matter what; no matter how he thinks otherwise#//He will actually cry; might need to pause for a bit during to get his composure back; but he'll be good to go#//Just needs to be held for a moment to ground himself#//Body worship in particular during these times would make him MELT. Squirm & writhe in anxiety; but he'll be fine if they talk him#through it off; in between kisses and touches. Their voice definitely helps him keep a handle on himself in such cases#//It's a process; but after the first couple times; he'll be more accustomed to it#//Now that he knows with certainty he'll be safe with them during
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"How has Layton not snapped from all the trauma" because his story is that of grief and acceptance. He's known pain and has suffered from it but after many years he learned to move on because life will continue whether he wants it to or not so he may as well make the most of it. He carries the painful memories with him but is also capable of seeing the beauty in life. He cries for his loved ones who have died but appreciates the people he has in his life now. Layton is an amazing character BECAUSE he hasn't snapped.
#OH AND THIS DOESN'T MEAN HE DOESN'T MOURN BTW LOOK AT HIS FACE TALKING ABOUT RANDALL IN MM LOOK AT LITERALLY ALL OF UNWOUND FUTURE#he feels his feelings i love him#speaking of UF I think that game rlly drives home the point I'm trying to make here#he's a good parallel to Clive who spent 10 fucking years making an expensive revenge plan#and Dimitri who worked tirelessly to keep Claire in the present despite her telling him like#'bitch if you try this again you're gonna kill even more people let it go'#you can argue Dimitri's case and say all he wanted was to save her life which is fair#but ultimately it's presented as him being unable to move on#and I think if it had been Layton he would have also tried to save her at first but would have listened to Claire when she told him to stop#professor layton#hershel layton#professor layton and the unwound future#professor layton and the lost future#professor layton and the miracle mask#professor layton and the azran legacy#i haven't even touched Azran Legacy btw i'm going off UF and MM
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i feel kinda crazy bc whenever i was a teenager i created this sorta imaginary older big sister who had moved out of the house so in my head i could live w her whenever i wanted bc she had survived it all and was independent and she would also just comfort me in a big sisterly way whenever something bad or upsetting happened and recently ive been going back to that at my big age 😭 and its kinda sad and also just wish fulfillment and also kinda scary bc i really used to think that by my age i'd have everything sorted but i really don't and i know that's normal and nobodies twenties are perfect but some people also have good relationships w their fathers which is crazy just to think about sooo
#is this readable? i hope not ❤️#i typed up some of my feelings about this in a word doc and just realised like damn i basically have an imaginary friend as an adult#i really am crazy lol#i just feel lonely within my family atm. bc my brother is younger than me so he could never really do anything to help#and i feel like i cant really trust my mam the same anymore..even tho i still love her a lot#and i'm trying to improve my relationship w my dad bc im realising what a hard life he had and that he's not like an irredeemable Bad Perso#and sometimes he'll look at me a certain way or apologise for something small that he would never have apologised for a couple of years ago#and i feel like im going crazy like is he becoming a better person or..? and i feel bad bc im not really doing the same#or maybe i am. sometimes i think im unfair to him considering how he is now but i also cant really reconcile what he is now w/ how he#was then. and then he'll suddenly say something to me in a certain tone of voice or with a certain sharpness and i'll go back to how a felt#as a teenager :/ i rlly dont know what to do about it but i think its because i dont really have anyone to talk to about it#i mean i sort of do. but i also dont actually know how much of it actually happened and how much of it i just made up#but having worked w teenagers yeah they can be little shits but i also cant imagine treating any of them the way my dad treated me#just bc theyre annoying or have an attitude or are a little mean or whatever#like theres actually a lot of ppl i could talk to but also how do you even bring something like this up#how do i say 'oh and i invented an older sister as a coping mechanism and sometimes i still talk to her in my head' without sounding crazy#its 2am here i need to go to bed i have work in the morning 😭 day and night and next day ruined bc my dad spoke to me slightly funny
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