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Something, something, ninpo is unlocked from connection to family
something something, it’s based in love and trust
something something, it’s very telling that Leo struggled with his mystic the longest
(many unhappy returns he was able to use his portals out of protectiveness and trust that his family was handling their parts, but outside of those sorts of moments he fought against himself IMMENSELY. Also Donnie figured his out almost as soon as he allowed himself to use mystic (+ April helped him get his shit together before that))
#read that one fic where Leo and Donnie body swap and Donnie finds out Leo’s powers hurt him#I’m definitely reading far into this#but oooooo it’s so good#I love hurting characters#and there is so much potential packed away in this funky little homosexual#mask of my own face by lemon demon plays in the distance#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#out there from hunchback of notre dame kind of suits how I think of his character#he looks at his real self and HATES him#you are deformed and you are ugly#he spits it at himself#goddammit as soon as I’m not drowning in finals I’m writing a fic
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There's speculation that Floatshimmer's kits are Graysky's, since one of the kits are silver like him, you know, the dude that was made a warrior when she was a kit.
To be fair, Graysky is ridiculously young as well. He might have been described as being ready to be a warrior at the start of ASC, but he was born in Lost Stars and is only a little over a year old at the end of the last arc.
EVERYONE got hit with the Time Travel Beam... in fact. Funfact: RiverClan actually has always had a weird issue with their allegiance cats aging really fast.
Anyway, digressing. If it does pan out to have Graysky as the father...
Eventually I like the idea of Floatshimmer and Graysky being a couple (their names make me think of bright sunshine on a cloudy day, making the waves of the lake twinkle with light), but absolutely not while they're so young. Both of them need at least another year or so.
(At the earliest, have their kits mid-arc, ideally later.)
That said, I'm still willing to shuffle them both a bit to be closer in age. I'm growing interested in the idea that they're like, the cat equivalent of 18 and 19-ish. Young, dumb, impulsive, ended up with kittens looong before they were ready and it's impacting their relationship negatively.
Still deciding, though.
#better bones au#Family tree changes#Graysky#Floatshimmer#Graysky would be more of the problem though#I have an increasingly clear idea in my head that he is really immature and hates being told no#So if you're like ''graysie. Are you Sure that this is a good idea''#He's like ''ofc it is. I thought of it and all of my ideas are great.''#If Curl saw him now she'd feel bitter and frustrated that he's lost his discipline#And he doesn't like thinking about that.#Kind of guy whose ego is massive and he's full of himself. But no real self confidence. Crumbles like a cookie if offended#Guy would be a terrible dad LMAO#Baby: 'I HATE YOU'#Gray: *heart breaks like that one indian drama character introduction* ''who taught you that word. Was it your mother''#BB!Night looking at this suddenly reminded of how cringe she used to be lmao. Like ''omfg this man is the bad timeline version of me''
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personally i cannot wait to introduce yue qingyuan in my disciple sqq fic for the sole purpose of "shen qingqiu is gonna lose his MIND" because its a "shen yuan is shen jiu" fic and i gave shen yuan his own yue qi.
he's going to see yue qingyuan and be immediately hit with the uncanny similarities he shares with his best friend from his past life. you know, that same best friend he's never going to see again because he's dead. and shen qingqiu is going to qi deviate on the spot.
nobody knows HOW but the tension between cang qiong's messiest situationship just got 10x worse, they didn't even know that was possible.
its twice the yearning for the price of one!
#svsss#mxtx svsss#scum villain self saving system#disciple shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#yue qingyuan#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#sqq can't even look at yqy because it makes his heart hurt to see his face. he's so different and he's so similar and he despises that awfu#smile he wears because its not real and he knows it. he knows what a real smile on his yue an (and yue qi) looks like and its not. THAT.#dont look at him with those eyes. not with that face. please#pretending to hate yue qingyuan has never been easier! try it with these simple steps!#shen yuan's past life: completely barren | me: its free real estate. give that man a childhood best friend#its about the requited yearning for someone that you think is gone but isn't actually#SQQ invents five new curse words and a hundred different ways to use them the day he meets YQY face-to-face. all used on the system#and somehow this ship is still no.1 on the scoreboard for this fics ship subtext list.
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Simping for this guy again [bangs my fist against the desk and starts sobbing uncontrollably]
The second image is a reference to this iconic image, I’m sure people have already drawn this with him and better but yk
#your boyfriend game#your boyfriend peter#your boyfriend fanart#cw blood#cw knife#I can’t be simping for him again he looks like if a stick figure asked his fairy godmother to turn him into a real boy#but DAMMIT there’s just SOMETHING about him#I hate this guy I wish he would explode#for desperate saps with low self esteem like me he’s got some sort of unhinged diabolical allure to him#also I’m tryna be more experimental with drawing hands and pushing for more exaggerated facial expressions#and this stupid cue ball is the perfect target#my art
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" I'm a Psycho, loving it~ "
#[album]#ask to tag#cw#Music Shot#S-2#also i just wanna mess with its expressions and poses cuz it's fun#he can turn the black face into a screenface. changing any shapes and expressions as it pleases#horror. realistic eyes. tv static. etc but he prefers the original triangle smiles more#also i'm planning to redesign S-2 right now#S-2 focuses only on killing / violence to gain LV and he's stuck that way and called it a purpose to wipe out population#He got so focus on gaining LV because it made him feel so powerful and wanted more feeling like it's the only thing that made him feel aliv#i'm okay to spoil his story and all. He's made out of human determination in Mark's body and became a split personality to him#that's why S-2 and Mark are both corrupted because they're still not compatible to each other in one body#instead of being unstable in physical form. his mind is. because Gaster used a different formula but failed again#Gaster was trying to cure Mark because he was really ill and about to die#I only took the references/theories from the original undertale amalgamation obviously#S-2 was formed from Mark's own negative emotions and personalities then it became its own character#which causes the two (or Mark or S-2 themselves) to self-loathe with each other#it's literally like looking in a window as a mirror talking shit to each other#The real good Mark in this au is Mark himself. he just needs to be set free from this misery (and need to get rid of S-2 if possible)#that's why in my old Mark death posts. S-2 was gone from self-forgiveness meaning Mark forgives himself and deserves to be happy#(because everyone don't deserve to hate themselves)#i'm gonna keep the left eye joke not being available when doing the horror screenface cuz still wanna make it a Mark thing to him#cw horror#cw eye contact
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season 5 of supernatural makes me so fucking upset and crazy and i think thats why i have never rewatched it until now. i am so fucking crazy and also upset. i cant do this
#cas isnt even THAT self laothing yet#i cant look at himm#i can tlook at him all i can think is ohhh my god he doesnt even hate himself so muhc yet#oh godddddd#oh my godddd#like he is still gay but without so much self loathing#I CANT DO IT#it makes me so upset#imnormal#itsnt normal#DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON DEAN.#how defeated and hopeless he gets like yessss pathetic but also in a way that i cant woobify too much becuase its all too real#just apathy and hopelessness#like when dean is grieving and hopeless im like HAHA YES#bc i have never experienced loss like that (s1 dean moment)#but in s5 he isnt grieving so much as just giving up and hopelesss#even at the end of the season when he doesnt say yes to michael its like#he is so sad#WAH#and like i said before not even the sexy sad of losing his wife or anthing#he just has to let his little brother sacrifice himself into torture hell forever and#he raised him and that was his little brother#he had to take care of and protect and watch him grow up#and so he watches his little brother throw himself into hell cage with lucifer the devil#and then goes to be heterosexual in the suburbs as it was said little brother's DYING WISH#dean always craved the normalcy of a nuclear family and having a home#but now its tainted by his ilttle brother's death and sacrifice and how he is in hell cage with lucifer#ACTUALLY HURTS MY STOMACH#ok so you know how i said dont get me started on dean#i got started on dean.
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why doesn't talon like looking young?
dis was gonna be in the little lore write up but i still have to iron out many details surrounding it ➡️ connecting to my general vampire lore....anyway the answer is abuse at the hands of higher rank vampires and mortal men who sought out young "boys" just like him + also he already hated that he would never get to age bc people would treat him weird even before all that (as in, they'd just treat him like he was stupid because he looks so young)
#closest to the real thing without illusions. wont age or break (assumedly)#anonymous#skunk mail#(this is also where we find out talon Does break and his vampire Defect isn't just slow regeneration but also#Just Sometimes Not Healing At All)#and these ppl having that info was not the greatest outcome#he was fine with it at first before it started affecting his self image and before the physical injuries#now he has an eating disorder and hates his body and struggles with hygiene so that nobody will want him#thereee is something abt like idk i feel he maybe flip flops between liking his very aged appearance and hating it#bc on one hand its not the other body that was an Object its a new different lived in body with wrinkles and folds#but on the other hand it is an Extreme and also like‚ you know‚ the way trauma Ages you...#i cld see him still being frustrated bc this isn't just An Old Man‚ it's an old man from the result of a lot of turmoil#bc idk that talon wld actually look the way he does if he got to naturally age ykwim#bc it is the result of purposeful harming of health...if dis makes sense#like its still not enough he still didnt get to age normally it was traumatic aging‚ bc it's unhealthy for his vampire body and also bc of#the literal trauma
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did anyone think about kid keith td🙂 do u want to🙂
#SOMEONE PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY FOR REAL🤣🤣🤣🙏 NEED TO STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM PLEASE‼️#I might make this piece an actual Thing btw. consider this the early draft ver tht i just needed to post to torture ppl with#see how happy he was!! see his smile!!! u will never see that version of him again that keith no longer exists anymore!! hes gone!!!#HE WAS SO INNOCENT HE COULDVE BEEN HAPPYYYYYY HE COULDVE HAD A GOOD LIFE WITH HIS SIBLINGS HE COULDVE-#anyways. fun note! older keith canonically hates looking in mirrors n @ his reflection in general hence why his eyes arent looking forward#unlike kid keith. who was always so self assured. who was always brash n never wouldve looked away from his own reflection. haha#killing myself!#keith yarrow#oc tag#my art
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Sometimes I just look at Isabeau and just know that if isat came out and I got into it when I was like 16 he would be my favorite character and I would've gone absolutely buck wild over this man and feel like he was laser targeting me. But alas Odile has a grip of steel on me rn due to her virtue of being a middle aged woman
#rat rambles#stars posting#I feel like the biggest change in my taste in characters as the years have gone by is Im now far more biased towards old ppl lol#although tbf I was also the one person in 2016 who actually liked asgore so maybe Ive always liked parhetic old ppl#but yeah the reason isa is past me bait is because hes an exploration and subversion of the sort of tropes I Hated as a kid#and I still dont like them so isa still appeals to me its just not as much as he would have to a younger me#I do genuinely love all the party very dearly tho theyre all soooo good#I think my favorite part of isabeau is how like. of everyone we get to see the least facets of him but like in a very good way#this is a man who hides and bottles shit hes so fun to rotate#his self image is so carefully controlled compared to everyone else which makes him an incredibly interesting character to analyze#and I love that despite him seeming like the most emotionally stable person here on the surface he still clearly has like. hashtag issues.#like he's in that beautiful zone where its so so fun imagining what it would look like to truly break him#<- normal things that normal ppl say. like me.#I may have my very light beef with alt looping aus as a concept but hes probably the most interesting alternate looper to me#also my light beef exclusively relates to king quest stuff which is why Im a big fan of duo looper aus with sif#but honestly. isa might be the only one that I genuinely think works better as a solo looper even with taking king quest into account#although bonnie comes close. I <3 looper bonnie I <3 seeing fictional children go through the horrors#I think theres a lot of fun to be had with any alt looper au tho I just am a huge king quest fan so I like it when my favorite elements of#it dont have to be handwaved#but yeah the real question is how would younger me feel about mirabelle#because on the one hand: acearo character#but on the other hand: I have always been a little hater abt romance so idk if younger me would rly be able to follow her character well#I wasnt exactly good at character analysis back then lol#except for the instances in which I was but I dont have that sort of faith in my younger self#yknow Im thinking abt my history of favorite characters now and I think me being one of few 2016 alphys enjoyers might have been a prophecy#she was my quote unquote third favorite but in reality she was second#I think she chara and peridot su teamed up to define my taste in fictional characters for the next several years#and somehow that lead to olivia becoming one of my favorite fictional characters of all time#I say somehow as if that isnt a very natural conclusion
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Every now and then I see Hot Takes about Megatron's ending in IDW1 that drive me nuts like dlskfdjlskf some people really get caught up so much in JRO's sad old man Megatron that they deadass think that Megatron getting sent off to trial to face either execution or lifelong imprisonment wasn't just a bad ending, but was specifically some sort of "fuck you" or punishment to say that villains aren't allowed to have nice things or whatever. Girl do you know what the fucking genre/tone is of the comic you just read? IDW1 is a heavily political, morally gray universe leaning heavily towards realism in terms of its handling of plot themes and you're seriously out there saying that Megatron, a war criminal with crimes/deaths stretching to the billions, is being unfairly punished by the writers by getting sent off to trial? You know, like what makes sense for the realistic kind of universe IDW1 is?
I mean fuck man JRO literally plotholed/handwaved major lore about the Matrix and Cybertronian-organic relations with that "oh lots of religious organics recognize the sacredness of the Matrix" and completely undercut the emotional weight of Megatron's (and everyone else's) ending by having his quantum copy get to fly off and have adventures in the universe forever and ever.
What in the FUCK else do you want from an author (JRO) who's already a flaming Megatron apologist that whitewashed Megatron's personality, gave him so many sympathetic backstory points, and then invented an entire alternate universe as an excuse to have Megatron save billions of lives to contrast with the ones he killed. Like god I love Megatron too but some of you ppl are fucking blind
#squiggposting#negativity#megatron stans will look at canonical megatron apologism for 50+ issues straight and go#'this war criminal got sent off to trial as an appropriate response for the crimes he committed. this means the writers/IDW/hasbro hate him#'and also they hate morally gray villains and villain redemption and revolutionaries and oppressed people and minorities and--'#can you stfu like for real#also the whole 'megatron was a revolutionary against oppression so killing him has bad implications' line is so fucking funny to me#bc megatron also oppressed and killed the fuck out of multiple alien civilizations and did colonialism too yknow?#and the decepticons being anti organic imperialists who want to colonize organics for their own ends has been here LITERALLY SINCE G1#they didn't make that shit up just to slander idw megatron specifically lksdfjalksdlkf#all these stans wanna be political so bad and fail to realize their logic of 'you depicted this therefore you endorse it'#could easily be reversed for people to go 'well megatron colonized ppl so if they redeem him it means theyre excusing his crimes'#oh but megatron stans HAAAAATE IT when that logic gets applied to them. they bitch so much about it#the lack of self awareness really is astounding and i cant believe ppl are like this 6+ years after idw1 ended
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just finished s2 of kaiji and it was good i really liked it but i hope i never see that fuckass pachinko machine again!!!
#i started ep 15 assuming hey the climactic battle against the swamp of despair is probably gonna be like 6 episodes max right#bc the op has hyoudou and roulette so there's a third game on the way#and from about the fourth episode on i kept going man it's gotta end next episode right they can't have That much more they can do with it#TWELVE EPISODES OF ONE GAME OF PACHINKO. YOU'RE JOKING#and watching it animated is one thing but im surprised fans of the manga didnt string him up in the street for this#im not joking i sunk cost fallacied my way through the entire thing in one sitting it was so much fucking pachinko#and spoilers spoilers spoilers but the BUILDING??? the BUILDING. jumping the shark a Little there to be so fr with you all#head in my hands kaiji i love you your life is ridiculous. the last episode having him blow his meager winnings on pachinko like the day#after was insane to me HAVENT YOU HAD ENOUGH???? I CERTAINLY HAVE#augh and like. guhh hes so nice hes such a nice protagonist im. in love with him a little bit#i do wish he was a Little more tempted by the money bc i liked that component earlier on#ah actually i think the main object of the fights becoming Figuring Out How To Out-Cheat The Enemy was less cool#don't get me wrong it was fun but i Really liked the more raw nobody knows whats going on vibes of the first two#and the group dynamics of rrps and the human derby were so delicious to me. also i wish s2 had more torture implements#the cheating thing makes sense progression-wise it's just a preference thing. the human derby hit me insanely hard#so it's kind of hard for anything to compete after that y'know?#actually very happy kaiji is still addicted to gambling at the end. like it's a happy ending bc he's debt free but like. he's not gonna#stay that way. and maybe thats a weird thing to be happy about but i think it's a choice that makes sense#he's got no reason to give it up and has become emotionally dependent on it. the series' concern w gambling as inherently self-destructive#and its sympathy towards ppl who see it as their last hope is like. really cool and idk i think it keeps kaiji real to never let that go#ok i just looked it up and the manga does continue. my ass will be reading it for sure#so idk how faithful the anime ending is but yeah. anyway i really really liked it this was good for me like emotionally#fkmt#ive heard the next arc is mahjong which is sick bc i like 80% know how mahjong works from yakuza#maybe this will help me grasp the final 20% (<- should just look up the rules or something)#what else. right i think it's funny that there's like 2 women total. The most allergic to women series ive ever seen and thats Impressive#the 2nd op is comedically cheeks like just Bad. very fun recognizing the band from the shitass 1st h.xh ed#im like 95% sure hidenari ugaki plays a side character in an episode but it's not listed on his behind the VAs so. alas.#2nd ed is fun bc while i Hate the trope it's doing i love seeing kaiji being put in Situations (clearly)#anyway. it's really good you guys should watch kaiji
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I am having thoughts about Xavier wtf?
#i will real immortal X-Men xavier issue again#later#i love xaiver as a self hating mutant who cares more about looks than actions etc. etc. like#he likes being messiah being a figure good figure a hero#and he loves also mutants too he is not evil not intentionally but it always comes second or third#first is looks how humans sees them how public sees him#he want to still be respected and accepted he didn't even say puplic he is a mutant for years#he is egoist also i think#like he love having powers and good things being mutant brings and rehects hates avoids bad things it brings#mind reading is cool but he still need to be respected professor attending conferences getting applause#shit man#this is why i am not a cherik girlie#magneto is also flawed like i ilove uwufing him but he is deep complex etc. but his relationship and brotherly or loverly love for Xavier#just sad#this is why i love he is rejected him#i am really interested now in xaviers fall and i want him to be pathetic about him#xavier needed to be betrayer not moira tbh i want him to sell mutant kind for saving his looks#and by selling not being cartonishly villain but also wgile keeping his looks good for mutants that he cares too#kinda like leaving morlocks because he need acceptable mutants for his X-Men but also sending his acceptable child soldiers to save them#i am missing points probably definitely i am not good at getting things but i like thinking#and i like this version#long long tags
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ive spent like 20 minutes trying to world this eloquently but i give up; im a big fan of linebeck just. not being capable of watching over kids not the person to be the guardian of a group of young people he struggles to take care of himself at times and has so much shit going on that it takes about one conversation with oshus for the old man to realize that this guy is. not doing great
#this was gonna be like. a jokey post at first juxtaposing oshus’ expectations vs reality with linebeck but im too emotionally drained#so real linebeck talk in the tags bc idk if ive actually talked much abt like. the specific as on why. iwrite and see him the way i do#likr. off the bat i put him at like 19 in ph and im too fucking tired and just. done rn to justify that like whatever kill me if you wish.#like. hes. been throught a lit hes been abused neglected used ignored hurt ridiculed violated deceived hes so fucking tired#hes worn down over the course of ph it causes him to finally like. express his anguish over what hes been theough its cathartic#hes getting pushed but talking to oshus and being around link loosens him up and he fucking. cries properly yknow#he cries about everything and the last bit of ph hes kind of an emotional wreck but hes finally letting himself feel all that shit#he cries he struggles to articulate himself he has a violent public meltdown as he becomes fed up with his reputation#and it all culminates in bellumbeck just. being a really raw examination of what hes been through and how he feels and what to do now#he hates people he has people he wants to kill people he wanted to kill but after bellumbeck its just. hes tired. hes processed everythjng#and then he needs the post ph crew and everyone they meet along the way to just. be a fucking support system for the first time ever#like post ph hes rhe captain he runs the ship he keeps everyone in line he can do that. but hes softer more vulnerable more self doubting#hes kinder and more hesitant but trying new things and being more openly passionate abt his interests#and he keeps working through his trauma he finds out what else it causes problems for and everyone. supports him#hes not capable of like. being any kind of parental figure to link in ph his perspective on like. how to handle kids is fucked#because his perspective on what a normal childhood should look like is kind of a mess#his perspective on relationships is murky on love on adventure on self expression but post ph hes just. free. tired but free#he manages to take naps the group helps him eat properly he learns his physical boundaries and actually does what he loves#idk. im just. man idk. its still measy but like. my version of linebeck is. i really hate the idea that its so out of character its not him#like. idfk what to even say abt that. idfk what ‘in character’ looks like when you hc a character to be masking in canon#when you hc them to be lying and covering things up and just. subdued bc theyre working on stuff#that they lie and exaggerate their own traits on purpose but let the truth through some cracks like what rhe fuck then#i hate it bc i dont see anyone else think of linebeck anything like this so im scared im fucking wrong somehow#im tired. i recently learned that one of my cats has been burrowing under and chilling under a blanket we cover a couch with#its very cute
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was watching tiktok and a video had the song michael in the bathroom playing and I was vicerally reminded of being in middle and high school and mom always mentioning how much I looked like my dad (his name is michael) and how I slowly was able to start noticing it too and whenever I sang the song it reminded me of him and I felt like we were overlapping too often felt like id never be anyone but a shadow or his mirror and then i began learning i was trans and now the song makes me think of him even more (he’s not a bad dad he tells me he’s proud of me and stuff there’s just two really big moments he unknowingly failed and one long continuous one but he loves me and he’s proud and he supports me and he didn’t mean it and ive learned to make that enough) and the weird flashback I got when I heard that song and overlapping with his face and how if I transitioned I almost fear I’d be his clone and yeah Anywyas banger song
#the moments were that time he told me how he used to want something to be wrong with him and he’d cut himself to try and prove something was#and he showed me his incredibly faint scars and this was after I told them I was depressed and his solution was to tell me he faked it????#and didn’t even see anything wrong or worrying that he’d cut himself or was self destructive or wished something was wrong so he’d have#something to blame for being the way he was and like DAD THATS DEPRESSION but I was too numb and shocked and felt so so so betrayed becuase#it felt mocking at the time like his way of comforting me. his child. was to fucking show me his scars and be like I faked it so I know#it’s real and sorry I don’t understand WTF DAD#Other time was when he gave me his phone to play Pokémon go and I betrayed his trust (he didn’t like anyone going through his phone) and#went looking through and found Grindr and saw some shirtless photos and people messaging before I left#dad had a shirtlesss photo on there. and I had to pretend everything was fine and erase the evidence and give the phone back and help look#for furniture for our new house and never tell mom cause she’s been through so much already (I really shouldn’t have known I wasn’t her#therapist but this is about daddy issues right now not the mommy ones) so anyways I never told him and years later he told me his friends#signed him up for Grindr as a prank and to make friends and that’s why he thinks someone from his work I pranking him by signing him up#for a gay furry dating site and yet I saw him on his bed sometimes messaging people and yeah#oh and the long continous one was not divorcing mom and defending her saying she loves us when she rejected me and my sister for being trans#and being gone for most of my childhood working and never understanding the fucked up dynamic of home that took place and resenting him for#ruining the perfect routine (sharp words scary feelings always wanting to cry)#anyways michael in the bathroom always gives me weird feelings#cause I hate and love my dad and I looked up to him so much and loooking like him would’ve been a dream but sometiems the wrongs he did#come back haunt my thoughts and I want to scratch and tear apart every feature that makes me look like him. I look nothing like my mom so#there’s nothing physical to tear apart (I just act like her sometimes and have to force myself not the throw up and attack myself from the#disgust)
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got two factives back to back recently. and just the wild range between the two of them with "ohhhhh my source would hate me why do i exist i am being drowned in self hatred" to just "i dont give a fuck what my source thinks. he has no power over me" is wild
#thankfully the one with self worth issues is getting much better today#we were able to convince him to talk to a lot of other people in the system to see who could help#and eventually it was taryn and jude that really got through to him#(the other new factive came from the same friend group as him but for some reason we couldn't find him for a week??)#(he just spawned back in like ten minutes ago dude where did you Go)#and he's feeling a lot better#he's remembered that his source would probably like. not actually Hate someone for existing. at worst be mildly uncomfortable#and he kinda seems too nice to ever want to purposefully hurt someone at all and he would try to be like. polite if awkward#so he doesn't feel as much like having that source is such a horrible thing#we think his spiral was partially caused bc in one of his source's videos he mentioned not being comfortable with rpf#and. as a madd-based system. where pretty much Everybody (who wants to. which is most people tbh) wants to participate in paracosm#he felt like he was doing something wrong and horrible for. wanting to join in as well because it looks really fun#i mean there's dragons and cool magic and shit and also i could become a fox for reals i mean what who said that
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Jason, being a semi-canonic common hallucination in the family after his death, could lead to the stupidest AU ever.
Imagine everyone seeing him — Bruce, half of the time, Dick non-stop, Tim more often than not, and eventually even Alfred starts seeing little boy's silhouette in the corner of his eye, but he never admits it, because someone needs to stay sane in this family.
It is a lot like real-life cases when cult families start to see collective hallucination, and it somehow syncronises in their minds, so they hear and see the same things, you know?
So, yeah, everyone sees Jaybin around.
Everyone but Damian. Damian is a normal one. He also knows his Akhi is alive and well, so whatever. And it takes him some time to figure out that his family is bat-shit insane, but when he does, he decides to use it on his advantage.
Damian, calling Jason: Akhi, you should visit me. It is getting awfully boring here.
Jason, frowning: You know I can't. They think I am dead, and I can't risk my plan, especially now, when Red Hood is gaining-
Damian: We will pretend you are a hallucination.
Jason: ...What?
Damian: So, there is a plan...
So, a few days after this call, Jason arrives at the Wayne Manor. He still thinks his brother's plan sucks, but gaslighting is one of his many talents, so surely, they will figure something out. He can lie his way through this meeting.
Expect, he doesn't even need to lie. His family is actually insane.
Bruce, bumping in Jason:
Jason, staring back: Uh-
Bruce: Wow. You look so grown-up. And we look so alike. Nice one, brain.
Jason: ?..
Tim, leaving his room: Hi, B, hi- Oh, damn. Hi, Jaybin. Nice leather jacket.
Bruce: Right? I guess his ghost just grows up with us now.
Jason: ????
Alfred, nodding along, out of nowhere: Master Dick will hate it. He looks taller now.
All of them: (peacefully leave the room)
Jason: What. The. Fuck.
Jason waits for the moment of clarity to happen as he chats with Damian in the kitchen, but... nothing changes. They really, really think he is a hallucination. So... he starts hanging out around more. Both because Damian is getting angsty, and because it is kinda... amusing.
Tim, stuck on the same case for a few nights, non-stop: Oh, it is really just me and you in this, Jason.
Jason, playing Mario Cart on the table by his side: Maybe take a nap, dude.
Tim: No, I need to figure out this case with-
Jason, rolling his eyes: Red Hood had already dealt with it. Go to sleep.
Tim: ...You are such a good self-care kind of hallucination.
Jason: ...
Damian: Your bets, when will they realise that you are a real person?
Jason: At this point, I am not sure that they will, even if I start screaming that I am real.
Damian: Fair. I bet a year would do.
Jason: ...A year and a half.
Dick visits the Manor. He cooes at Jason, muttering something about "of course, he would have grown up in a punk," and Jason almost breaks his role to hit him on the head.
Jason, arms folded on his chest: You know, you need serious help, dad.
Bruce, blinking at him slowly: Probably. You know what else I need?
Jason: Sleep? Retirement? To stop adopting strays? The list is endless, man.
Bruce: ...Coffee. I need more coffee.
Jason, groaning: What the fuck!!!
Alfred figures out that Jason is real, eventually. Solely because he catches him sneaking a few extra cookies, and hallucinations are not supposed to eat. He plays along with him and Damian until the very end, anyway.
(Damian ends up winning the bet because Jason loses it once and pushes Bruce down the stairs, when he starts reciting some precautionary tale about him. Everyone is flabbergasted.)
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