#he could have done so much worse
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A part of me keeps saying I should be grateful he never did any worse. I was such an easy target and he could've talked me into damn near anything. The lengths I would have gone to if he'd said the word eat away at me. Instead he always treated me like a friend, all the way to the end.
But goddamn it still hurts
#yes i suppose he was a little mean sometimes but that's just the way he is. it was never to hurt me#he could have done so much worse#he could have taken advantage in so many ways#but i almost wish he had because maybe then i could at least get angry. maybe then i could find a way to go on without him#pers tag
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Hi! I dont usually ever send asks but I saw your post about including more DC characters in your AU's and was wondering if you were ever planning on including Kate Kane and/or Renee Montoya as they are two of my favourite characters in all of DC and almost never appear in batfamily fics even though they both work with oracle, nightwing, huntress, and other members a surprising amount in the comics. I like the idea of Kate especially being reluctantly enamoured with Peter, and that she would remind him of Col. Rhodes as I feel they have similar no-nonsense attitudes, dogged determination, and militant mannerisms while being pretty gentle on the inside. You might have answered this before but are Peter and Col. Rhodes close? I would assume they at least know each other pretty well from his friendship with Tony. Also thank you so much for LOF and all your writing - it genuinely brings me so much joy. <3
i 100000% want to write Kate Kane in the future, though i still need to read up on her, Renee, and Helena to make sure i'm writing them correctly. i started LoF worried about juggling too many characters in the plot and also didn't actually know a lot about the batfam outside of what i'd already been reading, considering LoF was supposed to just be me and alighterwood messing around with a silly au, i didn't think to put more than the cast we have. other aus will definitely have them in the future because i feel bad i missed out on them. i briefly considered putting at least Kate in LoF, but i feel like she would have at least been MENTIONED before now, and it would feel like a cheap throw in. she deserves more attention in another au
and i hadn't thought about it, but Kate and Rhodey ARE pretty similar. Since Rhodey is Tony's best friend, he and Peter get along very well! i hadn't mentioned him too much in LoF itself because, well, LoF was supposed to be 15 chapters originally. it was supposed to be wrapped up a while ago but then i got a little too into writing it. and i made a mistake forgetting how present he'd have been in Peter's life. admittedly, this comes back to me having a hard time juggling so many characters. he'll be showing back up in a couple chapters (when we finally get our Avengers POV) and i hope to remedy that mistake
#i mean he's been mentioned a couple times in LoF? i think?#so i could have done worse and not mentioned him at all#so i'm giving myself a C+ for how he's been handled so far#because peter had been fairly focused on the situation involving his parental figures and his training more than anything#so if they weren't actively training with Peter or were not a parental figure they weren't mentioned as much#i had a rhodey counterpart mentioned in the chapter with happy's counterpart#but i think i scrapped it because it didn't feel like it fit his character#so yeah here's hoping i can give rhodey the attention he deserves later#as well as Kate and Renee and Helena in another au#erinwantstowrite#ao3#ao3 fanfic#leap of faith ao3#leap of faith catch me if you can#thank you for the ask!#peter parker in gotham#dc#marvel
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Me: I hate all superhero movies/shows that boil down to 'it's Superman but an Asshole' they al-
Megamind 2010: all?
Me: oh no not you, you're perfect.
#superman#clark kent#megamind#metroman#megamind 2010#comics#dc comics#`if i was superman id use my powers to enslave humanity' yeah but superman wouldn't YOU would because apparently you're a horrible person#metro man#roxanne ritchi#like metro man is superman if he was forced to be a hero from a young age and became dissolutioned with it#and megamind is Superman if he looked alien and didnt land in a nice place to grow up.#they both go through the motions of hero and villain because thats what's expected of them. in the end they realize thats not what they wan#metro man stepped down and megamind stepped into his shoes to defeat the villain (even if its of his own creation)#how did DreamWorks do this? eveyone does `Superman but.... wait for it! EVIL` but they did it so much better like neiter metroman or#megamind was really evil. megamind was a nusence at best. even durimg his dictator era the city was still ok. a fire truck in a wall and#spray paint. some thievery one guy got cubed. blew up the museum. etc but he could have done worse. he wasnt truly evil just mad scientist#the real evil was the 'nice guy' who got powers and automatically used them to to an actual dictator when the girl he liked rejected him
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Arthur Bennett was chemically made in a lab for me to go insane over I think. he’s got a guilt only an older sibling could have and a drive for vengeance that is half driven by his own self hatred. yet still he strives for peace. he’s desperate to cling to any humanity, any hope. he’s aware he’s fallible. it doesn’t save him
#he’s also a fuckin vampire sniper dude#tell me that’s not the hottest thing you’ve ever seen. I’ll wait#ok but fr#it’s that he’s so desperate and so angry and he wants so desperately to bring about peace but he just fails#he becomes so unrecognizable at the end and it’s so tragic bc you can see every moment he could have chosen different. but he doesn’t#he’s self aware of his failings and that’s part of his failings ironically enough#and that combo of older sibling guilt and survivor guilt and I’ve done terrible things guilt is fuckin unreal#he wants to be human and live in the sun and have this world of peace. but it’s a future he’d burn down for the twins without question#there’s no way he should have made it out of that arena. he’s always ready to sacrifice himself for the twins (for his younger siblings) bu#he just always survives. that seems to be his curse. so now he has to live with himself. now he has to face a future and try to get better#or fall further down. and I’m obsessed with him because as much as he could get better he really could just get so much worse#he knows he has the monster inside of him. he knows what to avoid. he knows what he could have become. and still he becomes it#if you saw this on twt hi lol#jrwi#jrwi the suckening#the suckening#the suckening spoilers#jrwi spoilers#arthur bennett#z speaks
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im so glad empanada, even after a tough day, got to have that talk and hug with richas and then bagi where em got some lovely advice about dealing with grief from richas & talked about what went wrong during the day
but i can't help but contrast this with sunny. sunny who empanada still hasn't seen. sunny whose been alone for days. sunny whose talked with almost no one. sunny who doesn't know bad is dead. sunny whose pretending tubbo isn't dead. sunny who got no goodbye. sunny who got no long talks about grief. sunny who got no explanations. sunny who no one visited today. sunny whose birthday is tomorrow. sunny who no one will wake up for first tomorrow
#qsmp#qsmp sunny#qsmp empanada#it's giving em and sunny being separated so long post em's first death#but also 50 times worse#they're sisters your honour they should be together#idk if sunny and leo will have talked off stream or not#but presumably she's done something with her mystery friend#we are for sure going to get angst from sunny tomorrow if only someone stays long enough to see it#also off topic but i think the em interaction with mike was fine#yes he clearly wasn't successful in cheering her up but she seemed to appreciate the attempt#even if it probably left her feeling a little like her feelings were her fault for not being able to cheer up#and he did apologize for barging into her room and left#i don't think he's in her bad books at all#she could definitely tell he cared and she was much more visibly frustrated with bagi#which they luckily had some resolution over#me once again writing one post in the text and another in the tags lmao
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it's so funny (read: sad) that if bigoted fuckheads didn't insist i was a woman simply by virtue of my body at birth, i'd probably be chill with she/her pronouns in addition to he/they. if my mom didn't insist i was her daughter, i'd probably let her call me that, and we could still have a relationship.
i'm nonbinary and 'gendered' words are hypothetically meaningless, but because there are so many people who are more interested in telling me who i am rather than lovingly and curiously letting me express my own sense of self, those words carry trauma.
there's no reason a nonbinary person like myself can't be a son and a child and a daughter. there's no reason a nonbinary person like me can't go by he, they, and she.
'she' is not a slur. 'daughter' is not derogatory. 'beautiful' 'pretty' 'gorgeous' 'feminine' are not insults.
to the contrary, they're parts of language that express certain facets of a multi-faceted human existence, like mine.
and i have this sad, mournful feeling that if it weren't for unloving, condescending people, i'd probably be down to be called any of those things alongside my usual masculine/neutral terminology.
but i'd rather die than let anyone tell me what i have to be called.
#i try to reclaim 'feminine' words for myself in private#calling myself 'babygirl' when i need to chill out. or saying i feel pretty. or going 'she needs help' when i'm struggling lmao.#but there's still so much fucking trauma in those words from the people who've forced them on me#who've snarled in my face that GOD made me ONE THING and ONE THING ONLY and that's a WOMAN (stepdad)#who've guilted me for taking their precious perfect daughter away as if i'm fucking dead (mother)#who've mocked me and everyone like me as if we're not the experts on our own sense of self (general transphobic public)#like. i'm not a fucking man. i'm not a fucking woman. i'm nonbinary. gender is absurdity as a concept. i'm done with it.#but being called a man or a son or a guy or 'he' or WHATEVER in that vein is fine and dandy because i've never had anyone say#'that is all you can EVER be'. or worse: 'that is what GOD made you to be and you have a ROLE to fill'#(christianity pls die approximately yesterday thanku 💖)#so yeah. idk. ranting yet again about Cis Audacity.#the complete lack of empathy. the lack of curiosity even.#the condescending bullshit. the 'i understand you better than you do'. the fucking AUDACITY.#i am the expert on myself. i am the ONLY expert on myself. period. no contest. not a debate.#i understand myself better than anyone else is CAPABLE of understanding me.#i could call myself 'she' and understand that i meant it in a nonbinary way.#in fact i could even see myself letting other trans people call me feminine terms at some point in the future. when i've healed more.#but cis people? probably not. they can call me 'he' or 'they' or they can fuck off & never get to know me because they don't wanna know ME#/end rant#any terfs/bigots that try to touch this post will be swiftly blocked and quite possibly cursed. have the day you deserve <3
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Okay I'll be honest. "Doomed by the narrative" is a nothing phrase to me. Meaningless. Which is to say I have no idea what y'all mean when you say it and how it is distinct from concepts like fate or tragic flaws in a sort of ancient greek play sense
#roxy writes#pretty sure aristotle talks about the thing that makes a tragedy a tragedy is a character flaw in an otherwise great person#but i could just be attributing unrelated things to Aristotle as many have done over the years#I do know he said a tragedy is basically about a person who is better than you failing#and a comedy is about a person worse than you succeeding#i disagree but the extent to which i disagree depends on a few definitions and also what thw original greek says#i probably have an old loeb of the poetics somewhere but i dont recall much greek so that would be a chore
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you think sam ever wonders if dean would have tricked him into saying yes to lucifer again if it meant saving his life.
#like. disclaimer: Dean would Not do that. not even if he was desperate#up to you if you think it’s because that’s where he draws the line about disrespecting Sam’s autonomy#or because he’s just so fucking furiously jealous that Lucifer has already gotten so much of Sam to himself that dean won’t give him more#either way he Wouldn’t. but. sam doesn’t know that does he.#the facts sam has are 1) dean okayed an angel entering his body and 2) dean lied to him about an angel being in his body#and 3) dean probably would have kept lying about it after ‘Ezekiel’ left. never told Sam what was in him.#so what’s the difference between one angel and another really? especially since Lucifer could have made that offer with much more experience#of course he can patch Sam up. he’s done it before. he’s torn him up and put him back together so many times. child’s play really.#I think the only comfort Sam would have about this is that Lucifer would not be able to help himself from giving away the game#he wants Sam’s attention sooo badly. he’d want Sam to know that he’s healing him from the inside#well then. what’s worse. his brother lying to his face about the devil possessing him. or Lucifer being the one to tell him everything.#can Sam kick Lucifer out? yes I think so. does Sam think so? very different question. after all. he couldn’t push Lucifer out last time#that he let him (hallucifer) in <3#spn#sam winchester#lucifer spn#Dean winchester
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ARCANE EPISODE 7!!!!
MY GOD I WASNT READY FOR ANY OF THIS!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!!
Also ekko wallpaper I got with my fries lmao
#OH MY GOOOD!!!!!! POWDER AND EKKO!!! AND BENZOOOOOO#ITS LITERALLY WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN OMGG!!!!! POWDER LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭 IM CRYING ALREADYYYY#VANDER WITH A BUN!! AND EVERYTHING IS SO FULL OF LIGHT!!! HER EYES!!! MYLO LOOKS SO RIDICULOUS AKDJSK THIS GIRLAAA#“where would you be without her” WELL BUDDY IF YOU KNEW HOW HE IS WITH HER!!! VI IS DEAD????? OR SHE WAS TAKEN FOR THE INCIDENT!!!#LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID JAYCE!!! MY GOD!!! THE GEMS KILLED VI SO THEY JUST COMPLETELY PROHIBITED THEM!!! JAYCE IS IN JAIL PROBABLY!!#the fact we are seeing exactly why jayce should be sorry about what he has done.... and we are seeing him suffer because of it... cinema 🚬#also mel fading into viktor.... also has he realised how she manipulated him in the beggining??? there is so much stuff...#jayce eating contaminated animals and his wound being infected with the arcane too..... is that what will push him....#omg.... ekko likes powder so much... he apologised by painting actual adult vi portraits where the fallen are in his universe 😭😭😭#“she looks so badass” if you knew... is he gonna ask her to help him make hextech.... that is so sick and twisted....#also jayce hurting his leg loke viktor and having to use a cane and brace.... damn and you know whats worse..... that ekko could be like#this with the jinx of his universe IF ISHA HADNT DIED!!! AND IT IS BEACUSE OF JAYCE!! AGAIN!!!!! THIS MAN!!!!!#the drawing with the anomaly and the two men and the inifite symbol... we get it... jayce and viktor forever intertwined by fate....#powder is sensing something is off.... omg time travel..... THE LIMIT IS FOUR SECONDS AFTER HEIMERDINGER EPXLODED ALDHAKSHSKSJSOJSOSLS#i dont want a time travel ending.... if its done for plot to an extent is okay but idk about solving it all.... it makes it feel worhtless#claggor looks so fine its not even funny..... i cant wait to see what everyone thinks. WHERE IS THE LITTLE LADY bc hes called little man 😭#and vander with arm tattoos.... why did they hipster fied him.... he looks younger somehow ajdhakj he went from taking care of 4 kids to 3!#SILCO!!!! AND HE DID TRY TO KILL HIM!! ALSJAKSKAK Ekko just laighing at it.... girl i would be pissed STROMAE??? OMG POWDER!!!!#I JUST REALIZED THE PINK IN HER HAIR IS FOR VI!! AND HER JACKET!! AND A DRESS LIKE HER MOTHER'S!! CRYING!!! FULL BODY CHILLS!!!#CAN WE JUST PRETEND LIKE ITS THE FIRST TIME!!! I GAVE UP ON YOU!!! WHAT HAPPENED BACK THEN I NEED TO KNOW!!! IM SOBBING!!! EKKO!!!!#NOOOOOOO THE ANOMALY NOOOOO!!!! HEIMERDINGER NOOOOO!!!! AND THATS JAYCE!!! IS THAT MAGE VIKTOR???? the monkeys......#the vi toy with the out love song machine.... my god i wasnt expecting any of this i need to breathe i am stil tearing up my god#what a fucking punch in the stomach christ i cant breathe right akdhsksso#the credits saying the deries has benefited from a spanish tax rebate in the canary islands??? you're welcome i guess lmao#animation production carried out there and has ben collaboration with the Spanish gov... alright another win for perro sanxe#talking tag#watching arcane#watching arcane season 2#watching this i dont think im ready for caitvi sex.... after reconciliation even like what will be of me.... now im scared#i am still scared bc idk what happened to jinx and vi and cait still... thats what worried me and boom!! ekko powder with the steel chair..
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Jimmy: I could make it all disappear. No one has to know the truth. A tragic accident with no survivors. I'll take care of it.
Curly:...
Jimmy: I'm going to crash the ship.
Curly:...
Jimmy: *walks to the cockpit at a casual pace*
Curly:...
Jimmy: *crashes the ship*
Curly: (゚o゚ ??????????????
#who could have forseen jimmy crashing the ship??? :0#mouthwashing#people cut him too much slack just because he's more outwordly nice than jimmy#like. genuinely on my second viewing my sympathy for curly just EVAPORATED#he's awful!#even when anya was scared for her life hiding the gun so jimmy couldn't hurt her bro didn't pick up that it was SA or worse didn't care#and did NOTHING to help keep her safe!#and when anya told jimmy she was pregnant without him? he berates her! but not jimmy! jim gets the 'we'll figure it out together babe💜'#and then! jimmy tells him he's gonna crash the ship and then walks to the cockpit and curly just LETS HIM DO IT#he could have done LITERALLY ANYTHING to keep anya and the crew safe! and he did nothing!#sure jimmy's responsible for his own terrible awful actions#but that doesn't mean curly didn't knowingly cosign every terrible awful thing jimmy did#very realistic character writing imo. this guy is everywhere irl#it's very karmically fitting to me that he's the only survivor too#the failure of a captain who didn't go down with his ship
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So I stumbled upon that Telemetry Comparison video you reblogged (which i am grateful for cuz im a visual learner), and it got me curious about the whole concept of late braking. The name itself seems self-explanatory, but I feel like there's more to it that I'm not quite grasping?? I read somewhere that 'a late breaker is someone who is constently able to brake later than the braking point to gain an advantage,' but when I rewatched the video, it looks like Daniel and Checo brake at the same point to me?? I've been tryna understand the whole technical side of f1 this whole szn as a new fan. And you seem to be the right person to ask about this 😭
I have to admit I’m not exactly well-versed in many of the technical aspects, so maybe someone else can jump in to provide a better explanation or correct me if I say anything wrong.
There are many videos out there explaining Daniel’s driving style and frankly, I don’t have the patience to sit through them especially when most feel like post mortems of his career. What I’ve read and understood is that Daniel uses his late braking style only when he is overtaking, but on a regular lap, he actually brakes earlier in such a way that he rolls the speed through the corner and he is able to go back on the throttle earlier at the exit. I believe he shares this particular trait with Max, which is why both of them have the same preference for cars with strong front-ends.
That being said, watching the Mexican gp qualifying lap, Daniel gains so much time on Perez through the corners by in fact braking late and carrying a lot of speed through the corners such that he’s on the throttle earlier and gains a better exit.
(The blue line is Daniel and you can see him brake later each time and essentially carrying better momentum through the exits)
#I hope this makes sense and I hope I’m not peddling fake information because as I’ve said I’m not that good at reading telemetry#but watching that quali lap comparison makes me so sick and insane#because to see him gain so much time over Sergio in the corners in the much much worse car ……#fuck what could he have done in that red bull????#anon ask
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*remembers Wesker didn't have his finger on the trigger*
#the amount of times he's aimed a gun at chris and could have ended it then and there but didn't#'because of plot' yes however he could have shot him in the shoulder or a bullet could have grazed him#he could have shot him and Chris could have easily survived/recovered from#wesker had a knife that he could have used but didn't#was there EVER a time Wesker actually did enough injury to make Chris bleed?#he probably would have done when smacking him around in CV but bc of the game's graphics we wouldn't see it#there's never been a time where he actually seriously wounds Chris#he just chokes/punches/kicks/throws him#the worst Chris would get from him is a few bruises and mocking comments and monologuing#he could have done so much worse with ease yet he didn't#considering he hates Chris he really doesn't try to hurt him that much#chrisker
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#ashamed and alarmed to discover that much like teachers#people who work closely with folks who spend a lot of time on the streets#and in shelters#or in buildings that offer services to the disadvantaged#will catch every fucking thing that goes around#just like their clients do#which sucks more for them#by like a whole fucking lot#but also sucks for my boyfriend who needs to do his job which is to help them and would rather not have to do that while sick#but we don't have a choice and they don't have a choice and this work MUST be done#so he has to try to do it anyway and hope he can hold up#desr god he is tough#for a soft guy#it also sucks for me because i catch almost all of it too#we have each been sick three times this year#and i know people do deal with and are dealing with way worse so i feel bad being mad about it#not mad at the people or my boyfriend but mad at the whole situation#this is infuriating and between us this year we could have fulfilled the snot needs of the entire nation if there were a shortage#i hope i don't catch whatever this is#and i hope our immune systems are not so ravaged by the covid we had a year ago that we cannot build a more robust immunity to rhinoviruses#ughhh stupid flesh hovels
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I have an unending hatred for those microwave dinners like why are the bbq ones the only ones that taste like anything
"spaghetti and meatballs" oh you mean starch noodles with tomato water and flavorless pieces of meat?
#AND THEN I END UP EATING MICROWAVE CHICKEN TENDERS FOR THE MILLIONS TIME IN A ROW#I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO COOK. WHY DID THE ENTIRE KITCHEN HAVE TO NEED AN EMERGENCY REMODEL. WHY ARE WE SO OVERBOOKED THAT ITS NOT DONE YET.#IVE HAD NO KITCHEN SINCE APRIL FOOLS DAY. THATS 6 MONTHS. HALF A YEAR WITH NO KITCHEN. HALF A YEAR WITH FLAVORLESS MICROWAVE FOOD#LIKE YEAH ID PROBABLY STILL END UP EATING A LOT OF MICROWAVED STUFF CAUSE OF LIKE. DEPRESSION AND ALL THAT BUT I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE CHOICE!#AND WHEN I USED TO HAVE A KITCHEN I COULD ALSO ASK OME OF MY SISTERS TO COOK FOR ME BC ONE OF THEM ACTUALLY ENJOYS DOING THAT FOR PEOPLE#AND THE OTHER ONE IS JUST NICE TO ME WHEN SHE KNOWS IM TIRED. GOD I LOVE MY SISTERS. GOD I HATE HAVING NO KITCHEN.#AND I KNOW ITS NOT GONNA BE FIXED WITHIN THIS YEAR. AS MUCH AD MY DAD SAYS HES GONNA TRY TO I KNOW WE'RE GONNA KEEP BEING OVERBOOKED#AND EVEN WORSE! THE KITCHEN ISN'T THE ONLY ROOM MISSING! HALF THE HOUSE IS STORAGE RN FOR ALL THE STUFF THAT WAS KEPT IN THE KITCHEN!#PLUS THE ELECTRICAL IS BEING REDONE SO THERES LIKE MAYBE 3 WORKING OUTLETS IN THE WHOLE DAMN HOUSE. NONE OF WHICH ARE IN MY ROOM#hhhhhh anyways yeah sorry for the random rant i should probably put my ooc tag#ohio breaks the 4th wall#but ohio would probably also not like microwave dinners#rant
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Barbara Wellesley deserves her own series I need to see into her messed-up mind as well
#cs forester could not deliver on her potential however he left us with so many tantalizing bits and i need someone to do something with them#he fumbled them so so so so bad. thinking about this every day at all hours all the time he could have made them so much worse#but nooo they just had to be the cool adventure hero and his beautiful and sophisticated society wife. okay sir#i'm obsessed with her ambition and her ruthlessness and her deep deep repression. hornblower has nothing on her tbh#if i do write hor(acle)nblower you can bet that they will be getting even weirder and worse in ways that cs forester could not imagine#i don't exactly ship them btw but they're both fun flavors of f'ed up and i like to mix them together like red bull and vodka or smth#make something worse as cs forester should have done#(it's like hovering in the background there but he's too much of a coward to ever make it a direct conflict)#perce rambles#hornblower#maybe i should write fic about vienna <- shouldn't do that. has way too many fics going on rn#percy yells at cecil scott
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remember when i said that prime wasn't in love with leo and was just obssessed??
yeeaaaahhhhhhh that part's changed now.....
(edit: cleaned up with better line work, a darker color palatte, and some lighting. i like it better like this too)
#i did the math chief. it makes everything SO much worse....#last week i was watching one of my mom's telenovelas with her and one of the bad guys said the line:#''everything i have done to you i did as an act of love'' (in spanish)#as a way to justify legit some horrible abuse he did to one of the female protagonists and all i could think was: ''jesus fucking christ''#and know - one week later - that scene can't leave my mind so you can thank my mom for this horrible and horrific change of development#thanks MOM#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#leo hamato#kraang prime#my art#sonny draws#prime leo au
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