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âiâm the image on the right in both cases
#hated life before college#hate life during college#will hate life after college in a few weeks#maybe then especially since i will no longer have anything to work toward#academically speaking#although i would like to get another certificate or degree later on
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doodles and some lore. I'm tired.
#Jay does this thing on second dates where he tests the other person#he wants to make sure they'd like all of him. every part of him that may throw others off or realize he's insane#Matt and Jay were friends during high school. dated in college and broke up just before finding out Jay was pregnant#they decided to co-parent Mona and just view one another as friends#Mona really likes Don and Tk. loves Peter. though dislikes Lucy quite a bit because of how much she hears Jay complain about her with Matt#Mona is very close with Jay despite living with Matt and only coming over to Jay during the holidays/some weekends#Jay moved into the complex about a year prior to meeting Peter. he's had 5 roommates since moving in#Lucy has been the worst compared to the rest but is the only one Jay tolerates (since she's young and reminds him of himself. pretransition#Jay and Don hated each other in the beginning. only really bonded over talking shit about a neighbor#and Jay saying âanyway I gotta finish watching the game.â Don saying how he wanted to too but his tv is fucked so they watch together#Tk does have feelings for Jay but Jay just can't take the hint. he simply just thinks he's making jokes and is very kind#Jay really cares about Lucy. he often checks up on her when she's out and buys her dinner if he didn't make anything for them#and she ofc tries to make his life easier by cleaning the apartment making him coffee in the mornings etc etc#also Jay and Don sometimes just talk about marriage. how both of theirs didn't work out (I headcanon that for Don)#how it'd go - Don: I just wish I showed her how much I cared... Jay: I chased mine down with a knife. didn't kill her though. I promise.#Jay also calls Don's kid (the cop) Don Jr. he doesn't mind it that much. it's mainly cause Jay never remembers his name#my art#yb peter#Yb don#Void#Jay#Yb tk#Yb lucy#none of them die btw. Peter kills some guy who treated Jay poorly#the entirety of Jay and Peter's relationship before the abduction takes place over June#I say so cause it was a bit alarming to Tk. Don and Matt how fast Jay was rushing into the relationship and such#anyway uhh idk what else to say
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touch-starved bernard dowd is sooo canon to me
#hs!bear who had a reputation for sleeping around not bc he particularly enjoyed sex#but bc at least during sex sm1 would touch him#and he'd give anything to be touched like someone wanted him and not bc they were obligated to#college!bear who was initially interested in the pain cult at first but became hooked after they patched him up gently#hs!bear who would drape himself all over his friends and hope this time they wouldn't push him off#bernard dowd who goes his whole life being told by his family that he's too touchy and it makes people uncomfortable#bernard dowd at a young age creating rules for himself after being told time and time again that he makes people uncomfortable#and being unable to follow them bc he loves these people and he knows no other way to show it#bear watching his family shy away bc they don't enjoy and he knows that but why does it feel like they just don't want his touch?#bear breaking all of his rules and hating himself for it. loathing himself bc don't you see bear? you're too needy too touchy. you make#people uncomfortable. and the thing about children who grow up loathing themselves is that they rationalize any affection they recieve#someone from his family hugs him and he thinks to himself: they're only touching me bc they have to. they're uncomfortable doing this.#they're only doing this bc everyone knows how much you like hugs. look dowd you've made someone uncomfortable again.#so he categorizes every touch as Fake or Real but bc he grew up like this every touch is Fake. bc no one really wants to touch him. they're#only doing it bc they have to. bc they're obligated to.#bear who walks around feeling like a stranger in his own skin bc no one will touch him and if they do touch him he can't recognize weather#it's Real or Fake and so the cycle continues.#bernard dowd#dc
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i need new friends đđŒ
#istg#my friend group legit broke because of the drama that happened#and i cant rant about it to anyone#i feel like i have lost all of my friends anyway#i hate it sm#everyone in college has some sort of plans with their friends and iâm sulking alone in my fucking room#life was better during september- november of 2023
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Medea: *kills her brother, betrays her father, and leaves her homeland for him*
Jason: actuallyâŠthis isnât gonna work :)
Medea: come again?
#my post#euripides medea#I read Medea during my 1st year of college and it changed my life#MedeaâŠthey could never make me hate you#i constantly fight the urge to go back to school and get a classics degree but I think my brain is completely over school at this point
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/ vent
#man I hate being the expendable one#always the âodd one outâ#the group I usually hang out and do class group projects with is conformed of 4 people not counting myself#and the teachers always want to make groups of four people#so of course I'm the one who gets put to the side#and has no choice but to make the projects and assignments with the rest of the people who don't have a group#who are usually fucking useless and I end up doing most of the work myself!#it happened to me in six grade#I had a problem with my middle school group and the teacher let me do all of the assignments alone for the remaining time#which was alright w me because there was no drama and just old reliable me to work with#then I did assignments with this other girl as a pair and it was nice actually#and then we got to the last year of high school and I was part of a larger group again and it was great!#the first time I didn't feel expendable in a group since- idk fourth grade?#but it was the last year of high school ofc so I graduated that and now I'm in college with the same old problem#and y'know it's not that I don't get it#I'm not their friend. I just hang out with them during college hours#and I don't want to be their friend either. I don't feel comfortable being that close with them#I don't consider anyone a friend for that reason. If I don't feel like I can open up to you then you are not my friend#so I get it it's fair I GET IT#I miss our first year at college. we were all the same amount of âcloseâ to each other and there weren't any strong preferences yet#we were âus fiveâ instead of âthem fourâ#and it's frustrating because again. I don't want to be their friend#I just don't want to feel alone#or excluded...#and it's not like I can get in with other group because those are also already conformed as well!#*sighs*#I hate my stupid baka life#ray talks about.đ«#vent#personal stuff
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i'm so beautiful and interesting
#and i ate so much rice bowl. it was so nice#girlfriend shopped AND helped cook due to extreme kindness#it's good to eat tofu and mushroom and bok choy and fried egg :) and many#box opener#sorry that i have very high self-esteem again. like when i was 16 and also briefly in college#many people hate me during these periods of my life but i have decided that it may not be correct for me to address this in the obvious way#instead i will just try to keep my good opinion of myself limited to tumblr#because if i get extremely bullied here. i can just go somewhere else
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Every day I tell myself "all I have to do is make it through today" and I'm realizing that I don't know how I feel about the fact that I feel like I have to tell myself that every single day.
#a lot of times it's because I hate my job and I'm miserable#I literally cried in the car on the way home today because I got so stressed during my shift#never work at a movie theater kids it's awful#I wish I didn't#I wish I could have a real job because I fucking went to college I got my fucking dgree#and yet this was the best I could do because I've never had a job in my life so no one would give me the time of day#I feel humiliated every single day I walk into the building#I feel like such a failure and an embarrassment#and that's not to say everyone who works at the theatre ahould feel that way that's now what I'm saying#but that's how I personally feel about myself and the situation that I am in#and we're entering the busiest week of the year so it sucks even more than usual#but also I'm just so tired from this year it's been a really bad one for me and my family#just abysmal in every way#so I have to remind myself I have to make it through the day every day right now#but you know what it's fine I have a chapter done and ready to go on Christmas and it's been almlst 4 years in the making#so in that case I have a present for some of you and I'm really excited about it#it's gonna be a sad Christmas for us because everyone in my family is broke but I hope you guys all have a better holiday than I will#and as someone who adores Christmas like it's my favorite day of the year type adore I'm just really down in the dumps right now#just feeling very sad#but anyway sorry rant over I have to go to bed#I don't get saturday's off and those are my lingest shifts so đ#I get christmas eve and christmas ofd tough đ#but not the day after đ#anyway bedtime for me sorry to rant guys#abby's self deprecation hour#abby after dark
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that moment when: everyone's lives are restricted and constricted and these imposed consequences are attributed to anyone's continual individual failures to seek, find, and follow the Correct Path through Life, and so everyone is left on their own to only be seeking & finding these failures as well as the only answer to how their lives can be better....versus Not seeing the world as the free marketplace meritocracy of everyone's personal failures/successes, nor everything in your own life, and thus not forever having to scrutinize Where You Must Be Bringing It Upon Yourself by fucking up or at least failing to do the correct thing, and exist only in perpetual punishment for your ongoing failure and occasional temporary reprieves from it. recognizing everything that wasn't & isn't & wouldn't be [this is because you're bringing it upon yourself] and thus having more capacity & capability to look at the realm of your personal individual self, reality, experiences, life through the perpetual instances of seeking, finding, and following your own needs/wants through one's inherent personhood and exercises of autonomy and recognition of where & when & how one recognizes moments of their existing freely & in more resonant genuine alignment with themself, you know? endless examples to be found in endless fractals of [where & how are people's lives made smaller]. and that of course this doesn't preclude the ability/option at any time to question one's choices, since you'll be able to find more Actual choices available to you (and, also crucially, find more actual choices made by others that are in the pursuit of limiting Yours) to look at, and people getting to exercise their autonomy isn't the same as "everyone doing anything they want regardless of how it affects others" since that [how does it affect others?] element instead being Regarded would be able to lead to recognizing that, in fact, an effect might be the infringement on others' autonomy, hence: There's A Problem....like the ability to just go ham with [questioning???] anything in existence, certainly including oneself, b/c the "norm" is such that rather you're only supposed to be able to question yourself for your failings (or those positioned as less than, thus, beneath you) and not even have the language to express a questioning of aspects of life beyond that b/c stop calling anyone "cis" they're just Normal, Just Be Normal and it would all be fine
#brought to you by: i think one of my feelings lately of A Shift is in my less than ever running this like continuous background function of#looking for Thee Answer (just like the black suits) in any & everything that could serve as the Key to like. whatever could fit into place#to like set things on a [hell yeah. life? better] path. juxtaposing this recent sense of things with the [lol. in retrospect i Do see a new#context wherein i can Recognize smthing abt myself] past going on of like. granpa greentext story be me be fifteen i'm in college b/c i hat#school i also mostly assumed i'd probably fail out freshman yr but didn't. i've never known what i'd wanna major in & as a sophomore i'm de#supposed to figure it out in time for scheduling my jr yr classes (though Ideally have known from the start / been scheduling thusly) & so#many evenings during dinner i'm furiously perusing the daily print news as i've been doing for some yrs to Keep Up W/Current Events but now#also consciously like ''boy i hope in the course of doing this i stumble across some info that sparks some eureka moment of Getting what my#major should Obviously be so i can understand the rest of my life around [do job] b/c i sure as hell don't understand it around [be married#much less [be parent] so one option remains obvi'' whereas now i realize like lol you Were figuring out a guiding light in doing so & that#perspective being honed was one of Having A Political Analysis times....which also provides another Example of [only being able to interpre#what makes your life & your world the way it is: via Your Personal Failures to have already Had Better] in that just like i often forget i#misguidedly (but also reasonably; clearly also using & seeking that autonomy & freedom) tried to have a better existence within the#situation i was in by Coming Out As Trans to parents via an email that was then not directly discussed ever; b/c any legitimate discussion#was not permissible like how so many matters of [supposed correct existence] are Unspeakable so as to be Unquestionable#languaging that succeeds & sustains itself having to be expansive / flexible / creative / evolving too. Making Up Words hell yes#anyways so i also forget i Did try to propose majoring in things that Did more approach what i was suspecting were things i'd wanna do#but even the first like expression of anything on the periphery of that was met with ''no you'd hate it b/c you'd have to deal w/Stupid Ppl#every day'' (by which was meant; with believed inherent synonymity: poor people) & then i also will oft forget i pushed for it any further#which i Know i did b/c of it next being met with angry & aggressive ''i've never heard you talk abt that interest before So''#(wonder why? withholding info to protect yourself=finding room in one's life for existing more freely; exercising the autonomy to Do That)#but it's easy to forget b/c The All Encompassing Perspective was rather [i'm sure Failing to just Know my major for the sole possibility fo#defining one's entire life: The Correct Dream Job] & then Failing to push it or just express it & be understood ''correctly'' even if i Did#have any ideas in that realm. vs seeing how i Was succeeding & was recognizing shit & pursuing it & looking out for myself & etccc#it's undeniable lol like the framing even that Blaming Oneself is an autonomy seeking response. b/c your autonomous power in your own life#sure Would be more immediate if Everything Really Was Your Fault (when ofc really this is abt obscuring & denying the responsibility of ppl#who have the power over others' lives & then have to act like this is all the fault of the Others; they themselves have never Truly Chosen)#no victim blaming no condemnation of anyone's ''passivity'' here babey#re: the undeniability it's how like. maybe you've only Just realized you're not cis but in doing so it's like ''oh That's what i already#recognizing in various ways throughout my whole life'' it's all always Been there/going on & perspex shifts + new lenses can reveal them
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> get invited to do this day of science thing
> have a lot of fun
> you get to apply to a summer research lab thatâs an actual science lab
> somewhat confident youâll get in because you know most of the people just want to do it for the money
> application takes forever to open
> takes like 3 weeks for them to tell you if you got it
> you didnât get in
> itâs already fuckin april and most other internships applications have closed
> your backup plan changed the rules so youâre now to young to apply for that
> wtf
> what a waste of time
#literally so dumb because most science internships are like medical or computers#which i hate#i just want to do something like general biology or geology#but there are like. barely any for high schoolers#so iâll probably just end up getting a normal job#cause like iâd really like to make some money#but also i want more experience before college#and thereâs like the smallest window to do that#literally during the busiest year of your early life#bleghhh
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I! Fucking! Hate! Uni!
#weâre a week in and Iâm already done. Iâm so tired#thank god Iâm taking next semester off. Work sucks too but at least it doesnât have homework#I really gotta look into getting a therapist again. maybe to work on getting whatever the fucking is going on with me diagnosed#but also just so I can at least try to work on the sort of. all consuming hopelessness that comes with being a college student#it just sucks. Like I didnât feel great during the summer either but at least I had my best friend and the sun and some free time#now itâs. fuck all. all day every day is school#my room is a mess. I donât have the time or energy to clean it#im lonely bc im always lonely#legit the only thing getting me through rn is my gf hyperfixation and thatâs not gonna last forever#thinking about ford 24/7 can only be effective for so long before the bad thoughts start creeping back in#it just sucks. I hate being depressed. I hate that I canât tell if itâs all schoolâs fault either. Am I just gonna be like this forever?#fuck this stupid baka life or whatever
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Miss maâam, hi hello how are you?
I am presenting myself here, very very humbly to ask if we could please get another part of your Nerd Nanami fic?đ„čđ„č please please puhleaseeeeeeeee
That was an actual masterpiece, I had to read it very slowly and savour it, making sure to process every single sentence of that fic. Youâre so talented it makes me cry
Please offer us more Nanami, pleaseeeeeee
Giving the nerd a chance⊠part two
Tags: nerd!Nanami x fem!Reader, college au, smut with plot, nsfw, cunnilingus, unprotected sex, size kink, breeding kink, dom!nanami, sub!reader, marathon sex, exhibitionism if you squint real hard, mdni
Synopsis: Your nerdy boyfriend is so prim and proper in real life, but he has big dick energy over text.
An: 4K Follower Special! I got over 20 requests for a part two of this fic. At this time, it is my best performing fic on tumblr, and I fear⊠I may have peaked with it. I never EVER intended on writing a second part because I was sure that I couldnât ever follow that fic up with something as good, but this sweet anon request warmed my heart so much that I decided to give the people what theyâre asking for. This oneâs going to be a long one⊠pace yourself because there will NOT be a third part⊠right?
Nanamiâs a stoic lover. He doesnât keep you hidden, but he doesnât outwardly drag attention towards your relationship. Too much attention meant drama, and Nanami hates drama.
Nanami asked you to be his girlfriend a few weeks after the first time you two slept together. Of course, everyone in his friend group saw it coming long before you two had even hooked up.
They saw the longing gazes between you two when you pined for each other. They saw the cheeky glances once you two finally started texting. They noticed how their dear friend smiled more â was more laid back and relaxed.
Everyone welcomed you into their small found family with open arms. They simply couldnât have picked anyone better to balance out Nanamiâs far too strict nature.
Things with Nanami were absolutely a dream. You two had great chemistry emotionally and physically. Of course, he just made things so easy for you.
While he is a stoic lover, you never ever feel unloved by him. Heâs always there to reassure you with words of affirmation or small touches that just remind you that heâs there.
Like when you two are at one of Satoruâs âexclusiveâ gatherings, if youâre not in Nanamiâs lap, then heâs got his hand on you somewhere. Sometimes he gets so bored during those little get togethers that he spends his time leisurely pressing kisses into your cheek and neck. He never quite understood Satoruâs and Suguruâs affinity with public displays of affection until he met you.
Or there's those times when you need a little extra help with your studies. Kento is right behind you, with you on his lap, his cock is snuggly being squeezed by your warm leaking cunt. He presses small chaste kisses against your temple and ear while you try your hardest to focus on the homework.
"Do you remember this one, sweetheart? We went over it in class yesterday... Aw, don't go all stupid on me now."
When you get an answer right, he'll reward you with small, shallow thrusts, but you have to finish the whole assignment to get him to really fuck you.
Or if you two are walking together in the halls, Nanami holds his arm out for you, letting you latch onto him so he can guide you two through the crowd of people. He knows how you are in crowded areas, so he's keen on not letting anyone get too close to you.
Nanamiâs a true gentleman too. His parents made sure they raised nothing less than a perfect man. Youâve never had to touch a door handle, any of your own money, or bags when you two go shopping. Nanami handles all of that for you. He doesnât let you walk on the outside when you two are on the sidewalk. Heâs respectful of you and your time, and he always listens to everything you have to say with his full attention because you deserve nothing less.
Nanamiâs parents truly did their best work with him, and speaking of his parents, Nanamiâs the type that wants to take you back home to meet them.
It was nearly fall break as you were sitting in your experimental research class â your final class before youâre free from the hell hole of academics for a full week.
You glance down at your phone as it buzzes in your lap. You and Nanami had been planning a trip out to his familyâs home in Hakone for a little bit now, and the closer that time gets to you two leaving, the more stressed out Nanami feels.
Nanami: Weâll probably leave out early tomorrow morning and catch the first train. Will you be okay with that?
Yn: Mhm. That sounds fine, Ken.
Nanami: After class, I need to inform you a little bit more about my parents⊠I just donât want you to feel shocked or surprised when you meet them.
Yn: Iâm not sure why Iâd be shocked or surprised, but Iâm excited to hear more.
Nanami: Donât get too excited.
You stare at his message for a bit, pondering what he couldâve meant by that. He hadnât ever spoke poorly of his parents, but he didnât necessarily praise them either. Actually⊠he never spoke of them.
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For the rest of the class, you wondered just what you were getting yourself into by going and meeting them. Maybe you two were moving too fast or..
âSweetheart.â His steady voice broke your trance. Heâs crouched down next to your desk to be eye-level with you, and the palms of his hand is gently caressing your cheek. âThere you are. Spaced out on me.â
The entire classroom is empty. Class mustâve ended a minute ago because not even the professor is in the room now. You mustâve been deep in your own head.
You let force out an awkward laugh before nuzzling your cheek further into his palm, seeking out his affections as comfort from the insecure thoughts that somehow always manage to find a way in.
âI was just.. thinkinâ about your parents is all..â You finally give him some sort of explanation, and Nanami softens a bit.
âItâs just a weekend, my love. Then, Iâll make it up to you.â His words are a promise. You know for a fact Nanami doesnât say things that he doesnât mean.
âI think that was the part where you were supposed to reassure me that theyâll like me-â
Nanami pulls you forward and presses a soft kiss to your forehead. âIt doesnât matter. Iâll still love you regardless.â
Gods, his words are so sweet, but they cut deep like daggers.
âTheyâre⊠not going to like me..?â You mumble in a tone that makes Nanamiâs heart sink. He takes your hands into his as he gets on his knee to better talk to you while youâre seated.
âMy parents are⊠very traditional.â He carefully explains, and his hazel eyes search yours for a reaction before he reluctantly continues. âThey want me to marry a girl from a specific family-â
âAn arranged marriage!?â You blurt out â unable to control your emotions as it feels like your heart is trying to force its way up your throat.
âSomething like that - but not exactly. Itâs not arranged, but itâs definitely heavily pushed.â He tries to keep his tone steady, but seeing you so upset like this has him feeling raw with emotion as well.
âSo, no, they will not be happy to know that Iâm going against their wishes, but theyâll come around eventually.â His eyes focus on yours, and he gently tucks a strand of hair behind your ear.
â⊠and if they donât?â A small sniffle escapes you before you can stop it. The thought of Nanami being with anyone else has your head spinning. Thereâs another girl out there who might be expecting for him to take her hand in marriage.
âHey... look at me.â He coaxes softly as his hand guides your face to look him in the eyes. âI couldnât give less of a fuck. Iâm doing this as a courtesy for them â not because I need their approval.â
Chills shoot up your spine from his words. Nanami rarely cusses, but when he does, itâs enough to even make Satoru blush when he hears it.
Your worry instantly flees your body when Nanamiâs lips press against yours to seal the deal. This was just a visit to his parents. Nothing more. Nothing less.
âIâm still gonna love youâŠâ He mumbles his words against your lips before seeking out more of your honeyed kisses. ââŠstill gonna marry you one dayâŠâ His deep voice groans a little as he gently suckles on your bottom lip. ââŠstill gonna fuck you senseless every night.â
âKen..â A breathy whine; a whimper; a plea.
âBecause you need it every night, donât you?â His lips are still chasing yours with an insatiable hunger. It just wasnât enough. If the next class wasnât coming in the next 10 minutes, heâd take you right here on your desk, but he doesnât fancy the idea of anyone elseâs eyes accidentally falling upon your ethereal body.
âMhm⊠need it.â You murmur against his lips quietly in agreement.
Nanami suddenly pulls away, and he reaches out, wrapping his hand around your wrist. âCome on before I fuck you right here.â He threatens and picks your bag up off the floor for you.
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A gasp flees you as Nanami pushes your back against his bed. His lips are immediately assaulting your neck: suckling soft red marks into your skin and nipping at you gently.
He loves to see the aftermath of his love on you, but he has to be careful this time. Canât have you going to meet his parents with hickeys all over your neck, can you?
âMmm~ What about Haibara?â You ask now before you find yourself too hypnotized by his affections.
âHe has a class right now.â Nanami answers before his hand trails up your thighs towards your already damp panties. He has had this on his mind all day since he saw you in that cute little skirt youâre wearing.
âAlready so wet.â He groans into your neck before biting at your shoulder. The pads of his fingers tease your sensitive clit through the cloth of your cotton panties. âFuck. Youâre so good to me.â
Nanami drops to his knees on the edge of the bed, and his strong arms pull you by your legs to where youâre situated at the edge for him to eat you out to his heartâs desire.
He doesnât even remove your panties before he leans in and presses a sloppy kiss to your cunt. He can already taste you through the fabric, and he needs more.
His fingers hook in the waistband of your panties, and he tugs them down your legs, carefully placing them on his bedside table. If he can swing it, heâll definitely hide them from you and claim that you lose them â just so he can keep them for when youâre not around.
Heâs not a pervert!! Well⊠he loves jerking off into his girlfriendâs panties when heâs too needy at night⊠Feeling the wet fabric that was pressed so unceremoniously against your heavenly cunt is more than enough to get him off quickly. It would be ungentlemanly to wake you up at your dorm for such a scandalous adventure. At least he washes and returns them to you promptly after using them a couple of times.
As soon as your panties are safely discarded, Nanami has his face right back between your legs. He uses his hands to prop your legs up on his shoulder, and he just.. absolutely begins to devour you.
âNgh.. oh fuckâ wait Ken.. I wan..â You can barely get your words out right while his tongue is lapping at your slippery folds.
âDidnât anyone ever teach you not to interrupt someone during a meal?â His hazel eyes look up at you with such a serious look â you feel like youâre being scolded.
Your face flushes a bright red before you relax back into his bed â accepting your fate. Kento smiles to himself, knowing that it doesnât take much to pacify you. Youâre too much of a good girl for him.
âMmm~ thatâs right. Just lay back and take what I give you, pretty girl.â He hums in satisfaction as his tongue connects with your cunt once more.
He licks up all the sticky wetness that you so graciously leak for him. Heâs so messy with it, practically french kissing with your cunt. Your juices are smeared across his chin from him hopelessly lapping at you. His tongue writes love letters to you against your clit, making your body shiver with pleasure and excitement.
One of your hands is clasping at the sheets, and the other hand is entangled in Kentoâs blonde hair, giving him small tugs as he gives you the best head of your life.
Your thighs unconsciously press together, trying to run from the weird sensations that his mouth gives to you. Your boyfriend grunts in dissatisfaction â not enjoying the sudden disobedience from you.
His hand press against each of your knees, and he forces your legs back open â spreading you wiiiide open for him.
âYou want me to fuck you, donât you?â He asks while looking up at you through his lashes.
âPlease â please~â You whine. Your hips involuntarily buck up, trying to get any sort of friction.
âThen be good, and sit still.â Nanami orders, and his hand ever so carefully swats at your sensitive cunt â sending shockwaves of electrifying pleasure through your nerve endings.
ââm sorry.. âm sorry.. please.â Youâre so whiny and desperate to be stretching by him. Itâs honestly so pathetic that he pities you.
âMy poor sweet girl.â He chuckles lowly before pressing a more gentle kiss against your clit. His tongue carefully dips into your wet heat. âTastes too sweet for your own good. How am I supposed to stop enjoying you, huh?â
A glob of spit rolls down your cunt from Nanamiâs mouth, and he uses his own two fingers to spread it around, softly toying with your glistening pussy. A smirk curls on his lips as he watches the way your entrance flutters â so enticed by the potential of being filled by him.
You quietly stifle a squeal as he stuffs you with two of his thick fingers. âSo reactive, baby.â He murmurs as his tongue darts back out to gently lap and flick at your clit.
âKen.. fuck, fuck-! Mmmph..â Your hips start to roll against his fingers, trying to force them inside you. Your boyfriend obliges your silent request, and he pushes his fingers in deeper, curling upwards to that spot he knows will make you cry out his nameâŠ
âNanami-!â There it is. His fingers begin to roughly pump in and out, abusing your sensitive g-spot over and over again.
âBetter be a good girl and tell me you love me.â He mutters lowly into your cunt. He knows he doesnât have to tell you anymore â youâre already conditioned to tell him you love him when you cum. Even if heâs not the one making you finish, youâll text him a quick âI love youâ as you clench around your own fingers to the thought of him.
Your hips roll harder, and your moans are way more throaty â interrupted by small gasps for air. He can tell that youâre getting close. His mouth gently begins to suckle on the small bundle of nerves, and he focuses his tongue on swirling circles around your clit.
Itâs all so much. It feels like Nanami is literally playing you like an instrument. He knows exactly what to do to make you a whiny trembling mess.
His fat fingers are pummeling into you, slamming into your sweet spot â making overstimulated tears well up in your eyes. âSh-shit.. gonna cum.. Nanami⊠ah~ more..â Youâre babbling utter nonsense while trying to find your orgasm.
Your stomach starts to clench, and it almost feels uncomfortable. Your breath stutters as Nanami murmurs into your pussy. âLet go for me, darling. Let it alllll out.â He encourages you as if his fingers and tongue arenât absolutely tag teaming you.
âAh~ Mmph⊠I.. fuck- I love you-!â You moan as you finally feel your orgasm suddenly break. Your tight walls clench around Nanamiâs fingers, and fluids from your arousal gush out, making a big mess on his face and clothes.
Nanami quietly chuckles as he comes to realization that you just squirted on him. âOh? Thatâs how you feel, huh?â He mocks playfully before pressing one last french kiss against your cunt. âI love you more darling.â
For a moment, you donât know if itâs more directed towards you or your pussy.
*** *** ***
The early morning train ride was spent with your head cozied into Nanamiâs shoulder as he had a protective arm around you. The scenery outside was beautiful. Hakone is known for their breathtaking sights of Mount Fiji. Too bad your eyelids were so heavy from getting up so early.
Nanami takes the silence as a time to reflect. He truly canât remember a time when he was nervous like this. It was as if that emotion left him when he was a teenage boy. His familyâs harsh regime for raising him left no room for shy or nervous behavior. Men were strong, confident, sophisticated. They exuded chivalry in everything they do.
Honestly, heâs glad that he was raised the way he was. Every time he bears witness to Gojoâs crude behavior, he can only think of how happy he is to have had a strict childhood.
But right now, he wishes he wasnât so nervous. His heart is pounding in his chest, and heâs silently praying that you canât hear it. Even though he didnât care what his parents thought of you, he didnât fancy the idea of seeing you torn down by his parents. Hopefully, theyâll have enough class to take up the issues with him â not you.
*** *** ***
Nanamiâs parentâs house had a very traditional vibe to it, and it was easily twice as big as the house you grew up in. It was beautifully decorated, and the lawn was obviously meticulously cared for. It makes sense that Nanami grew up here.
âJust one weekend. Then, weâll be back to normal.â Nanami murmurs softly into your ear. Though, he doesnât know if heâs reassuring you or himself at this point. He takes a deep breath before knocking on the door with a heavy fist.
âOh, Kennn.â His mother immediately ran up to Nanami and gave him a big hug after answering the door, which he returned back to her.
âItâs good to see you, mom.â He responds heartily before he holds out his hand to his dad.
âLook at you. Our son has grown up on us.â His dad gives a sweet smile while gently nudging his mom with his elbow.
âDonât remind me!â His mom practically wails with her arms still wrapped around Nanami, and youâre awkwardly on standby.
Nanami finally puts his hands on his momâs shoulders, and he forces her to take a step back. âIt hasnât even been that long since you two saw me, and besides, I brought someone for you two to meet.â
His arm carefully wraps back around your waist, and he looks at his parents before collecting himself briefly. âThis is my girlfriend, Yn. Yn, these are my parents.â
His momâs smile falters almost unnoticeably, but you immediately pick up on her dissatisfaction. His dad seems to just he surprised.
âAh, yes, welcome to our home, yn.â His dad finally says with an earnest smile, and he subtly nudges his wife. Itâs definitely a silent reminder for her to stop looking at you like youâre an intruder.
âYour home is lovely, Mr. and Mrs. Nanami. Itâs nice to meet you two.â You try your best to not sound nervous at all, but his momâs face just makes your stomach turn.
His parents guide you through their home, but they mostly focus their attention on Nanami: asking him about his studies, asking how Gojoâs doing, and asking if heâs contacted some girl named⊠Allegra. You couldnât help but wonder if that was the girl who they wanted him to marry instead.
They didnât ask you very many questions. His dad was friendly, but it seemed like he was tip toeing around all the awkward tension. His mom was just flat out ignoring your presence â clearly in denial about her son having a girlfriend who wasnât this mysterious Allegra girl.
When it came time for dinner, his dad finally broke the awkward tension and asked about you.
âSo yn, you go to the same college as Kento?â His dad seems to be genuinely sweet â just more on the passive shy side.
âYeah, Ken and I actually share quite a few classes together.â You smile as your utensil grazes along the food they prepared. It smells delicious, but your nerves will barely allow you to nibble on it.
âWhat are you studying?â
âOh, Iâm in general studies for now. Iâm still deciding on what to major in.â You reply as you finally feel yourself beginning to relax in your chair.
âDid you tell your friend that Allegra is studying to become a doctor? Wouldnât that be nice to have in the family?â His mom finally speaks up, only addressing Nanami and not you.
Your stomach sinks as you realize why Nanami was so apologetic and reassuring this entire time. He knew his mom was just going to take subtle digs at you the entire time.
âOne, sheâs my girlfriend â not friend. Two, no, I have no reason to speak about Allegra with my girlfriend.â Nanami responds, and he gives his mom a subtle look. It appears they have a brief challenging moment before his mom looks away and relents.
Nanamiâs foot gently nudges yours underneath the table, and you try to give him a small smile in response. Itâs just hard when clearly youâre not wanted in this household.
The dinner goes silent for a moment, and the dining area fills with the sounds of chopsticks gently touching against plates. You subtly check your phone for an escape.
Nanami: Donât pay her any mind, okay?
Nanami: I promise Iâll make up for this tonight. Iâll kiss you for every rude thing she says.
Yn: and for every time she says Allegra?
Nanami: Iâll fuck you until you canât remember her name⊠make you so dumb until you can only remember my name. Thatâs all you need to know anyways.
Yeah, thatâll do it. The negative emotions are gone â replaced by a feral need for his cock. You take a subtle breath before putting your phone away, not wanting anyone to accidentally see him dirty talking you right in front of his parents.
âAh, do you think you can help me out with the car tomorrow, Kento? Your old man is getting too old and worn out to crawl underneath there.â His dad finally breaks the silence once more.
âOf course, dad. What are you needing done on it? Iâll probably wake up early and get it done before day breaks.â Your boyfriend is such a good son. Itâs no wonder that his mom is stupid protective over him.
âI just need to breaks changed on it. Itâs probably due for an oil change too.â His dad explains, and Nanami assures him that heâll get it done.
âI didnât know you knew much about cars.â You take the chance of speaking up, and Nanamiâs hazel eyes meet yours. His face instantly softens, and his mouth opens to speak. Too bad his mom beats him too it.
âOf course, he does. He needs to know all sorts of things like that in case his future wife needs her car repaired.â His mom says with a hint of hostility in her tone. âSpeaking of which, Allegra just bought a new car a few months ago.â
You sit in silence for a moment, and you feel your stomach twisting in discomfort. You donât know why you care so much for this womanâs opinion of you. Nanami already warned you that they likely wouldnât approve of you, but you didnât know you signed up to practically be bullied all weekend.
âI know a few basic things about cars. Nothing major.â Nanami responds to you â ignoring his motherâs comments. âI can show you too if youâre interested.â
A small smile curls on your lips, and you swallow back your emotionsâ trying to stay strong for him. âThatâd be nice.â
âYou definitely have aâŠ.â
âMom.â Nanami immediately warns, staring down his mother before she can even finish her sentence.
âWhat? I wasnât going to say anything mean.â Sheâs immediately on the defensive, casually laughing as if sheâs been nothing but friendly this entire time. âI was just going to say that your friend certainly has a bold personality⊠wearing red to meet someoneâs parents is definitely⊠a choice.â
Your eyes look down at the nice blouse youâre wearing, and you swallow harshly. Nanami was actually the one to pick it out for you. He reassured you this morning that you looked gorgeous â unknowingly signing you up to be bullied.
Your face is burning hot with embarrassment, and you wish you could just fold in on yourself and die right on the spot.
âDonât talk about my girlfriend like that.â Nanami frowns, and he puts his chopsticks down on his plate. âIâm serious. Being a bully at your age is unbecoming to you as a mother.â
âKento.â His dad warns, but Nanami doesnât relent for a second.
âNo. Iâm not going to sit here and allow her to continue disrespecting my girlfriend like that.â Your boyfriend retorts, and he switches back to glaring at his mother. âIâm not dating Allegra â nor do I want to. Iâm doing you a favor by introducing you to yn. I figured youâd like to know your future daughter in law.â He gestures to you,
The color leaves his momâs face as she stares back at her son â as if him implying that he is going to marry you is the worst news sheâs ever heard. Her eyes cut over towards you in a vicious glare. âHow long have you even known my son?â
Your heart is beating straight through your chest. Confrontation isnât your strong suit, and to be honest, his mother was terrifying even though sheâs literally shorter than you are.
âW-well, we met in college soâŠâ You inwardly curse for stumbling over your words, and Nanami frowns as he looks at you. He hates that his parents are making you so unsure of yourself and your role in his life. He wants to take all your insecurities away and make you forget this ever even happened.
âItâs not even been that long! You donât even have history with this girl. Allegra was your first kiss.. your first everything!â His mother raises her voice at Nanami, making exasperating hand motions.
His first everything? He told you that you were his first.
Tears prick into your eyes before you can even think to stop him. Overwhelmed by shame and just utter defeat, you donât even know what to do other than to hide and cry.
Nanamiâs eyes widen as he sees you clearly trying to cover up the tears streaming down your cheeks. His jaw tightens as he returns his gaze to his mother.
âThatâs funny. I donât recall you ever being present for any of those things.â His mom starts to speak up, but he is quick to shut her back down. âI kissed Allegra because you were breathing down my neck to. I was barely 15 at that time, and it happened once. That was the first and only time I ever even touched her.â
His mom starts to try to speak up again to probably bring up some other point about why he should be with Allegra. Nanami interrupts her again.
âAllegra and I do not like each other. We hardly tolerated each other for yours and her parentsâ sake. You have to get over it. Iâm with yn, and Iâm happy â happier than Iâve ever been. She was my first everything. My first real kiss, my first girlfriend, and since you seem to want to stick your nose so far in my business, she was my first in bed too.â
âKento, youâre being incredibly disrespectful.â Her voice is much more strict now as she scolds her grown son.
âI wonder where I get it from. It seems as though we both have a propensity for being rude.â He retorts, and while heâs arguing, his hand slides over to your inner thigh under the table, and he gropes it harshly.
Heâs so pissed. He doesnât even know how to get rid of this anger. His hand squeezes your thigh tightly, making your face go bright red as you look away from everyone.
âIâm not accepting her into this family. You can forget that. Sheâs changed you.â His motherâs words are growing harsher, and his dad is trying to quietly calm her. She doesnât pay him any mind though.
âFine. Weâll just go make our own family.â Nanami scoots his chair back, and he stands up. His hand roughly pulls you up as well â not giving you a chance to even think about what he just said. He bends down and effortlessly throw you over his shoulder, making you gape in surprise. His arm securing you by wrapping around the back of your thighs. âAnd by the way, I chose the red blouse. It matches the cute bra sheâs wearing that I also chose for her.â
His parents stare at him â both completely dumbfounded by what just happened. They didnât raise him to be like that, but what were they going to do?? Stop him? Thatâs a laughable thought. Youâre not even sure God himself could pull Ken off of you when heâs feral like this.
His footsteps are heavy as he stomps up the stairs towards his teenage bedroom. Nothing has changed since he was last in here. Itâs still completely sterile from how he was made to clean it each day. The walls are littered with posters of various science related things, and he has some posters of older video games he use to enjoy.
Your body is practically flung onto the bed, and Nanami doesnât waste a single second. His heart is pounding in his chest. His mind is fogged with pure anger. He hasnât felt like this in so long. It reminds him of why he took up going to the gym.
With no punching bag in sight, youâre his only outlet.
His body is unwavering on top of yours â a force to be reckoned with, and his mouth immediately connects with yours in a suffocating kiss. Quiet hums and moans fill the air between you two, and he quite literally steals the breath from your lungs. His fingers wrap around your wrists easily, pinning them above your head on the bed.
No longer satiated from robbing you of your breath, Nanami trails his kisses down to your neck. To hell with not marking you â he needs to see his brand on your neck. Youâre his, arenât you? Who cares if his parents see?
âAh~â You let out a breathy whimper as he angrily sucks and bites on your neck. Your skin is sensitive - already turning bright shades of blue and purple from his mouth. His dental imprint litters your neck and shoulders.
âK-Ken.. what about..?â You start to ask about his parents. Theyâre going to hear you two. Wouldnât that just make things worse?
âDonât care.â He responds so brashly. If he thinks about his parentâs behavior any longer, heâs going to need to fuck you into next week to get all his anger out.
Riiiip!
Your eyes widen as you look up at your boyfriendâs hulking figure. The blouse that you were just criticized for was now more like a coat, split down the middle, revealing your perfect breasts, so prettily on display in your red lacy bra.
His mouth waters as he looks you up and down. You have almost this panicked look in your eye, provoked by his unpredictability, and for whatever reason, itâs driving him insane.
His mouth is back on you like it never left: kissing and biting on your mounds, painting them so beautifully with his mark. âYouâre mine.â He grunts lowly. His jealousy almost makes it sound like his parents were insinuating that you should marry someone else.
âSay it.â He demands before his teeth graze over your collarbone. His warm breath fans over your skin, making you shiver.
âYours.â You comply with such a small whimper, and your body jolts when you feel his raging bulge rub against you.
âSee what you do to me?â He rumbles lowly as he looks down to where heâs now shamelessly dry humping you through clothes like heâs a horny teenager.
âFuck⊠Ken..â You whisper as youâre also mesmerized by the sight. His slacks are completely taught, outlining the shape of his cock so well. You can almost see the veins that protrude on him.
His hips rolls slowly against yours, savoring the way the fabric rubs against him and you. His dick is painfully throbbing â begging for the reprieve of being squeezed by your gummy walls.
âAre you as much of a mess as I am, baby?â He asks as his hand dips into your pants. His eyebrows furrow, and he lets out a low groan as his fingers are instantly coated in your slick. He slips his hand back out of your pants just to slide his fingers into his mouth. He holds eye contact with you as he hums in satisfaction. He'll never get enough of your taste.
âYou want this, donât you? Want me to fuck you where my parents can hear you?â He slides his hand back down into your pants, and his fingers rub tight, firm circles against your clit, making your body squirm from pleasure.
âNngh~ ah!â Youâre already so noisy, and he hasnât even began fucking you yet.
âGive âem a show, baby. Let them hear how good I make you feel.â
âMmm~ KenâŠâ You moan as your back arches up off the bed. His fingers press down harder on your swollen clit.
âYou can do better than that, darling.â He can be so condescending in bed, using that insatiable need for praise against you.
âKen!â You shout, all logical thought has abandoned you. He tells you to do better? You do better.
âGood girl.â He purrs before sliding his hand out of your pants. He canât get your clothes off of you quick enough. His cock is beckoning for attention, still neglected from yesterday of just eating you out.
Your hands shakily try to unbutton his shirt, and he chuckles lowly at your pitiful efforts. âAw, my poor girl. Already so shaken up. Go on. You can do it.â
You huff at his taunting. Usually, heâd just see you struggling and take off his clothes for you, but today he was thriving off watching you so desperately trying to get his clothes off him.
It takes you a minute to get his clothes off him, and you donât even properly take off his pants. You merely shoved them down along with his boxers just low enough for his monstrous cock to spring out. Nanami merely watches you with a cocky smirk.
âYeah? This is what you wanted?â He purrs lowly, and he carefully drags his tip up and down your core, smearing his precum along your lips as if his tip was giving you a sloppy kiss.
âGonna take all of it, arenât you?â His other hand releases your wrists, and he lovingly cups your cheek. His hand is so big compared to your face. He loves watching you nuzzle up into his palm.
You nod your head quickly in response, lifting your hips up to meet his with each slow movement. Wet slippery noises from your cunt weeping for him fill the room.
âUse your words.â He demands before he speaks up louder â just to spite his parents who are right below you two. âI said. Youâre going to take this dick like a good girl, arenât you?â
âYes!â You whine before your body is completely shell shocked from a quick slap to your cunt. His cock is so heavy â you can feel the weight of it as his rudely smacks it against you again.
âLouder.â
âYes sir-!â You immediately oblige, following his commands without a second thought in your brain.
His lips curl into a lopsided grin, and he carefully guides his sweltering tip towards your entrance, plugging your hole with just his head.
âKeep being a good girl like that, and I might have to give you baby. Do you want that?â He asks while carefully stretching you by fucking his tip in and out of your tight hole. âYou wanna have my baby, donât you?â
âFfffuck- Ken! T-too much..â You squirm your body against his bedsheets, and he chuckles at your poor attempt at getting away.
âYou clearly want this, so why are you running?â He hands latch onto your thighs, and he pulls you back down towards him, inadvertently impaling you even further on his cock.
A smug chuckles bubbles up in his throat as he sees how much of a mindless mess you are. He loves how he can make you all dumb so quickly with his dick. It brings him great joy to know that you trust him and can just let go, letting the more primal urges take over.
âMmm~ so tight and wet for me, arenât you darling? Need to just let Ken take care of you, yeah?â His voice is like velvet as he slowly thrusts himself in and out, sinking deeper into you with each movement, splitting you wide open.
âAh~! nnnnn⊠so good.â You manage to whine out.
âWhat a crybaby. I know you can take me better than that, darling.â Nanami gives you a soft kiss on the forehead before his large hand wraps around your neck, applying pressure in just the right spots to make you all lightheaded.
"Come on. Show me how good you can take it~" His hips snap forward suddenly, sinking his full length deep inside you. Your eyes roll back into your head as he takes full control over you.
His hips are pounding forward, bumping his tip right against your cervix with every mean thrust. His balls are heavy and slapping against the flesh of your ass â a reminder for how pent up he's been recently.
Maybe it's the lack of an orgasm for the last couple of days or maybe it's his parents being utter assholes to you, but Kento finds himself feeling frustrated all over again. Low grunts and growls escape him, and he uses his grip on your neck to push himself in even further -- harder.
The sound of skin clapping against skin fills the room, and his childhood beds starts to squeak out with each forceful blow. He knows for a fact that his parents can hear every single noise. The thin walls of this house absolutely hide nothing. He may as well have fucked you right there against the kitchen table to really prove a point.
"Fuck-! Kenkenkenken! Ah~" You can't even form sentences much less words other than his name. Before you can even warn him, your walls begin to pulse around him - practically milking him while your orgasm takes you over. "Nnngh~ I-I love you.."
"Mmnn~ I didn't tell you that you could do that, sweetheart." He hazel eyes bore into your very soul as his grin shifts to a more wild one. His hips move with even more vigor as if he's trying to push himself straight into your womb,
His hand lets go of your throat, finally allowing you to get a deep breath of air while trying to cope with his massive size pumping in and out of you as if you're nothing but a senseless fuck toy, but you clearly fucking love it. You're practically dripping all over him, soaking his bedsheets in your arousal.
At this point, his parents aren't sure if he's killing you or fucking you. Either way, they're too afraid to intervene. They didn't raise a gentleman at all. They raised a monster.
"Mmph... Need to give you a baby. Can I? You'd make such a pretty mama. School be damned. I need you." Normally, Nanami is pretty controlled over his pillow talk. He's really good at it, but right now, he's completely lost in you -- just babbling promises of giving you a baby and marrying you.
"Y-yes, Ken! Fuck... give me a baby, please." Your legs are trembling around his waist, and your fingernails are giving him such pretty decorations along his back. Small trophies for fucking you just right.
"Fuuuck- Take it. T... take it all..." His voice is a gravely groan as his cock twitches inside you, spilling all of his seed directly into your tummy. It's so fucking much from holding back for a couple of days - completely filling you up. "I love you so much. Gonna marry you one day."
The house is eerily silent for a moment as both you and Nanami catch your breaths. He stays planted on top of you, keeping your legs hooked around his waist. Small creaks of footsteps against a floorboard fill the air, and you tense up, thinking his parents were going to come in there and raise all sorts of problems.
Nanami gently strokes your face with the back of his hand. "Shhh, they're not coming in here. Promise." He whispers lowly, pressing a loving kiss to your forehead. You slowly relax in his arms, trusting his words that his parents weren't going to come in there.
You can hear a door open and shut, and it sounds like bickering back and forth between his parents.
"See? They're just going to bed." He presses another reassuring kiss to your cheek.
His hips continue to lazily pump in and out of you, basically fucking his cum back into you as it seeps out. His cock is hyper sensitive, but he can't get enough. You're completely drenched for him. You deserve more of his loving.
"Keennn~" You whine quietly, shifting in the bed slightly as your legs are all achy and sore from him taking out all of his anger on you.
"What is it, baby?" He asks in a hushed whisper against your ear. His breath tickles your skin, making you slightly squirm in response. "I'm just making sure it takes, yeah?" His cock sinks further into you, already growing hard all over again even though he just finished.
"Mmmph~" You hum as your eyes slipped closed. Nanami smiles and presses a kiss to your forehead, knowing that you're already needy all over again for him.
"Answer me, darling. Want me to stop?" He asks while peppering kisses all over your face. If the last round was about degradation and taking his anger out, then this one was about how much he loves you and can't get enough of you.
"Nonono... don't stop, please." You murmur out quickly, looking up at him with big, pleading eyes.
"That's my good girl... Always needin' more, aren't you?" He hums lowly, and his cock pumps in and out so slowly, delicately smushing against your cervix with each loving thrust.
"Mmn.. I love you." You slur out, completely cock drunk at this point. Kento just smiles and continues to dote on your with messy kisses against your cheeks and neck. His hand is gently massaging your breast, just barely teasing your nipple while he makes love to you.
"And I love you, darling." He responds before he feels you squeezing around him already. "Oh pretty, again?" He asks as his eyes look down to your fluids gushing around his length. "Such a mess. How are we meant to sleep on these sheets now?"
"'m sorry... I c-couldn't help it. 'm so sorry." You whimper as your face dips into his shoulder, hiding you obvious embarrassment.
Kento's arms wrap around your waist, and he uses his hold on you to drag you up and down along his length â still moving at such a torturously slow pace, making you feel every inch as it enters you.
"Aw, that's alright, darling. I'll clean us up. Just take a little bit more for me, yeah?" He whispers into your ear while your pelvis is slotting against his. He's damn near holding you up into his arms. Lucky you for having such a strong boyfriend.
His lips find yours for a messy kiss. His tongue slips past your lips, claiming your mouth as his completely. A few seconds later, his cock is pumping you full again with his cum â still so much on the second round.
Without even missing a beat, Nanami's mumbling breathily in your ear. "Mmm, I know I said I'd clean us up, but you wouldn't hate a third round, would you?"
*** *** ***
Nanami didn't wake you up the next morning to watch him work on the car. He knew your poor little body was put through the ringer yesterday, so he gave you a tender kiss on the temple before making his way into the garage in just his sleeping pants and socks.
His father's car was already propped up on the jack, and his father groaned as he leaned up off the ground. "Well good morning." He says in a knowing tone.
"Good morning. Why are you down there? I told you I'd fix it today." Nanami asks as he shoos his dad out of his way, and he slides himself underneath the car.
"Well, I didn't know if you'd be up for it after your fun ventures last night." His dad hands Nanami a tool to help get the brake pads off the car.
Nanami stays silent. In his new found clarity, he does know that fucking you so loudly to where his parents can hear was a weird retaliation method, but he doesn't regret doing it.
"Your mother cried all night last night."
"Maybe she needs a reality check if she's that damn upset about who I choose to romantically involve myself with." Nanami rolls his eyes, and he grunts as he forces the brake pad away from the car.
"I don't think she was crying because of that. I think she realizes just how far she drove you away from her with her constant pressure over your love life." His dad explains, and he hands Nanami the new brake pad to replace on the car. "I'm not saying you or yn have to forgive her for how she acted today, but I am asking that you try to give her another chance today. I think she understands now."
Nanami takes a deep breath, but he nods quietly. "She's got one more time to say anything rude to my girlfriend, and we're taking the first train back to the university."
*** *** ***
Your eyes darted over to Nanami's nervously when his mother asked you to have a girl's day with her, but your boyfriend gently rubbed your back, silently assuring you that it'd be okay. At least, he hoped it'd be okay.
Nanami: Text me if she says anything rude. I'll pack our stuff up and we'll leave, okay?
Luckily, you didn't have to text him at all that day. His mom took you sight seeing around the town, out to eat at one of Hakone's favorite restaurants, and you two got your nails done.
"You know, I was being a bad person yesterday." She starts off as you two are sat next to each other. Her feet are being massaged by one of the workers, and you're getting your toes painted. "I guess I just had this idea of how I wanted Kento's life to go, and when things started not going to plan, I started trying to grasp onto anything that'd give me control."
You glance over at his mother, and she has a small nostalgic smile upon her face. "I can't believe I allowed myself to act that way towards you... especially after my parents did the same thing to Kento's dad."
"Your parents didn't accept Kento either?" You curiously ask, wondering how similar your stories were.
"No, but they didn't try to arrange me into a marriage either. They just didn't think Kento's dad was manly enough for me. They didn't like seeing me wear the pants in the relationship, but that's just what works for us... I use to beg for them to just let us be happy, but they never stopped criticizing him. I finally just.. stopping talking to them when I fell pregnant with Kento." She explains in a voice raw with emotion. You can clearly see how this still impacts her to this day.
"I don't want Ken to do the same to me... I want to be in his and your life and my future grandchild's life if that's what you two choose to do. I raised him well, and I know he has a good judgement of character. So, I know you must be a good person. If he's happy, then that's all that matters to me." She goes on, giving you a small apologetic smile. "I'm really sorry for how I acted towards you last night. It will never happen again."
*** *** ***
Nanami had spent the whole day checking his phone religiously while his dad kept him employed with random home renovation tasks. He was waiting for the moment to start packing up your stuff and telling his mom that he wasn't going to speak to them again.
When he heard sounds of wailing coming from the front door, he immediately hopped off the ladder that his dad was holding for him.
"Kento-!" His dad shouts as he wobbles around, but Nanami was already speed walking towards the front door to see what was happening.
To his surprise, there was no wailing. It was only hysterical laughter coming from you and his mom. He stood in the door way with a confused look on his face as he observed you two.
"Yes, he was such a cutie pie.." His mom laughs as she shows you another picture of Kento in high school.
"Aww, Ken... you didn't tell me you were emo." You greeted your boyfriend with a fit of giggles from seeing his high school photos. His fringe proudly in view.
Nanami rakes his hands through his shorter hair now, and he lets out a relieved laugh. Seeing you interact so happily with his mom was enough to make him feel full with love. His heart feels at ease now... until he remembers that he has to meet your parents at some point.
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đą Duvet Days and Vanilla Ice Cream đą
đąThe five times Satoru tried to confess his feelings, and the one that workedđą
đąPairings: Satoru Gojo x fem!reader
đąSummary: Satoru Gojo was your best friend in the world, you'd long since had it bad for him, over the many years, but of course he's so popular and handsome, star basketball player, you think you have no chance. Satoru however, has tried five different times over the many years to tell you he loves you, but the words just never came out right, and you would never believe it to be possible. So, you both grow distant, as life takes over, until in your last year of college you end up at a Christmas party with him, where both of you are dealing with fresh breakups, and Suguru Geto is hanging mistletoe over your heads. Drinks pour, and so do Satoru's feelings he's kept inside. Have you both been in love with each other this whole time!?
đąCW: MDNI- Will be showing elementary, middle, high school and college missed confessions with Satoru and you! Lots of fluff ! Smut in current time (hints of it in early college) Friends/idiots to lovers, Toru is an idiot as a teenager lol, and they're bad at feelings, Christmas themed, emotional- light angst to fluffy smut. Explicit sexual content, fingering, cunnilingus. blow jobs, sexual tension, rough sex etc. đą Word Count- 15k words (holy fk lol)
đąComments/reblogs appreciated if you enjoy this one!!đą
Christmas Eve, Last year of College
There is Christmas music playing as you enter the party, thrumming softly as you smile at so many of your friends, many you have barely seen in months. With being in the last year of college, many of you all had separate classes in separate buildings, and getting together was rarer and rarer. They wave at you while you take off your heavy winter coat.
It was freezing outside, and there was a faint dusting of snow, perfect for a Christmas Eve you muse. Little droplets melt on your hair as you shake your head to get them off, the warmth of the party and the sea of bodies enwrapping you. You see him then, right next to all of your friends, the man that never seems to leave your mind, Satoru Gojo.
God youâve been friends forever, literally since you were ten years old, and running around in a playground at elementary school during recess, about Christmas time youâd met him in school and youâll never forget him throwing snowballs so damn mean at you. Youâd cried that day and somehow that had been the catalyst for your friendship.
But also your feelings.
You feel his blue eyes on you, eyes that you never got used to even after knowing him like the back of your hand, bright and piercing across the room, framed by a fringe of snow white lashes. Heâs got a soft smile playing on his lips, waving a long arm at you, shouting your name. You hate that after all these years he still has such a damn effect, butterflies that never really left.
Youâve always tried to keep them pushed down, not get your hopes up ever, the few times you thought maybe Satoru could be available, had ended with him getting some new girlfriend. You had jokingly called them his flavors of the month, this monthâs youâd called her an advent calendar jokingly over text, texting is mostly how you all talk now.
Satoruâs a star college basketball player and youâve chosen to start a writing major, heâd be practicing basketball and youâd watch him in between typing up stories. Heâd wave and smile at you as you sat on the bleachers to support him, though of course that was some time ago, when you both got significant others the friendship had gotten more distant.
Youâd gotten broken up with literally last night, you were sure that your friends wondered why you were alone, but when you walk up to them, they just greet you. Suguru Geto, Satoruâs best friend and one of your good friends, hugs you first, in a warm embrace with his strong arms. You hug him back and smile up at him.
âThank you so much for inviting me, Suguru!â
âOf course, love, we miss you. We all miss each other.â
âMe too! Hey Shoko!â Shoko hugs you now too, pulling back to look at your pretty dark red dress.
âYou look so hot!â
âAw, thank you, you do!â You now look at Nanami, whoâs all decked out in a full three piece suit, you remember his emo days and it always surprises you how much heâs grown up. âNanami!â
âHello, darling.â He hugs you now as well, leaving you face to face with Satoru, who stands now, towering over damn near everyone, even taller than Nanami. Suguru is the only one in the room as tall as he is.
You crank your neck back to look up at him as he gently places his hands on your face, kissing your forehead sweetly. You grip his wrists gently and melt at the gesture, itâs a gesture of friendship deep and important. Itâs one you havenât felt in such a long time, you get so emotional from it you gulp, swallowing. You realize youâll probably never really get over him.
But heâs just your friend.
A friend that looks sexy as fuck-
Stop that!
âI missed you, sweets. Mwah!â You giggle now as he smacks another kiss on your head and pulls you against his strong chest.
âUgh, I miss you! But⊠maybe not so friendly, your-â
âIâm a free man so I can hug my friend again.â He teases, then pulls back and winks at the three of your other friends. âAll my friends.â
âDonât hug me, disgusting.â Nanami says with a shiver, earning Satoruâs huge, wolfy grin, big bright white teeth shining and reflecting the twinkling lights hanging on the ceiling above you.
âWell, that makes two of us.â You say softly, and Satoruâs eyes lock on you then, blue storms unreadable, a little lock of his soft white hair falling over a brow. Your eyes lower, taking in the white dress shirt and dress pants heâs wearing, worth more than you make in months easily. God he looks good.
Donât think that way, itâll always fuck you up.
âWhat happened?â Suguru asks softly, and you sigh, looking up at the dark haired man and smiling a bit.
âHe wanted to go separate ways, Iâm in college and heâs not anymore, I guess he felt we were too distant and separated because of it.â
âHe didnât wanna buy you a Christmas gift, cheap ass.â Satoru says with a huff, and you all laugh then.
âSo weâre broken hearted for Christmas hmm?â You tease him now, taking his hand and squeezing gently, he pauses then, usually humorous face so serious, it makes you falter a bit, you ease your hand off, just when Suguru clears his throat.
âAhem. Well then.â He holds up a thing of fake mistletoe now, right above Satoruâs white head and you, and you giggle a bit, but something in Satoruâs face shifts, his pretty pink lips part just a bit, eyes getting lidded.
âWell, thereâs mistletoe, itâs a tradition.â He says, voice a little husky, you try to laugh it off, but quiet when he leans down a bit, hands in his pockets.
âOh stop being silly you all.â You say, tempted by those glossy lips, but you donât trust yourself not to lose it if you cross that line. Vivid images of straddling this man fill your mind just thinking of kissing him, you canât go that far.
âItâs just a kiss, silly. Câmon, smooch me.â He puckers his lips all silly, Nanami and Suguru snort in laughter, and Shoko rolls her eyes. You sigh then, remembering, itâs just silly Satoru, your best friend. No big deal for him to have a kiss, especially as you both had shared a few kisses, one in middle, one in high school⊠and one drunken college encounter.
You may or may not have them written in a diary somewhere.
There may BE a Gojo diary.
âOkay, fine, tradition is tradition.â You say, he smirks now, hands out of his pockets to rest gently on your shoulders, so big he overtakes them. You exhale and your eyes flutter shut, as Satoru Gojoâs lips descend.
Fuck it feels so good to kiss him, itâs like you become boneless in his goddamn hold, itâs not just the pressure of some plush lips, itâs so much more, you are sure he probably doesnât feel this, but you canât help but lean up on your tip toes, even in your high heels, hands trailing up that stark shirt. He exhales and deepens the kiss, hands pulling you even closer.
Youâve never felt anything as sweet as his lips.
Satoru has never felt anything as sweet as your lips.
Fuck he knew it would feel this way, but it takes everything in him not to drag you upstairs and kiss every inch of your body. And fuck your body looks so good in that tiny little formfitting red dress, like a present just for him to unwrap. Satoru feels your skin heat up as he presses his lips on yours once more, in sweet little pecks, drinking in your breathless sounds.
He looks down at you, your eyes have dilated so much theyâre almost black, just a ring of your pretty eye color left. Your lips are just slightly reddened from his kisses, parted just so, looking dazed. If you look like this from a kiss, he has to wonder how you look when heâd kiss you everywhere, every inch of your smooth skin, so bare in that dress heâs mad anyone even gets to see you.
You flush now, and he sees it, sees how flustered you get, biting your lower lip, lashes trembling just so over your eyes. Your hands are clutching his chest, his heart races under your palm, he wonders⊠Do you feel it? Do you feel even a bit of what heâs felt so long for you?
He longs to kiss you again, as his friends and yours all laugh softly, making little âoooohâ noises, which you giggle at, but you donât step back or step away, no you stay there, in front of him. He can feel your body heat, entrancing him, when you finally ease away youâre smiling so cute and shy at him, tearing his heart apart.
Satoru has to remember youâre just a friend, but itâs awfully difficult right now, especially since he knows youâre single. He knew the guy wasnât good enough for you, but as your best friend he tried to be respectful, but heâd just tasted your sweet lips, like cherries, and now heâs imagining tasting your other lips. Heâs a horrible friend, isnât he, butâŠ
Satoruâs been in love since he met you.
He knows you have no clue of it, the few times heâs tried heâs covered it up completely, much to your never ending confusion. Suguru, Nanami and Shoko all knew how bad he had it, even now, girls were placeholders, things to try to cope with the fact that he was too scared to share his feelings. He was nervous, Satoru Gojo, the man that could score under any pressure.
He scores in games, in life, with women. You were his weakness, breaking through this barrier he had, some invisible barrier that just a touch from you could destroy, a happy little smile on your perfect lips. Lips that are quirked up, you run your hand through your silky hair, hair he wonders what it would feel like in his fingers, pulling it as heâŠ
Shit.
âShould we catch up a bit?â You ask softly.
âMiss me sweets?â He teases, and you roll your eyes, laughing.
âA bit.â
Fuck his heart stops. âLet me get you a drink?â
You nod and smile at his friends, who give him a sly little nod. They have made tonight their mission to try to get Satoru to express his feelings, finally and once and for all, before he went to play professionally, and before he maybe didnât get a chance. Heâd tried before, but something always holds him back, some fear of rejection, your rejection that sinks into him.
âI missed you, Toru.â You say softly, and the nickname hits him in the gut, the nickname you have called him for so long. He grabs a vodka bottle and smiles over at you, mixing you the drink he knows you love so much.
âOf course you missed me.â You laugh softly, Satoru always makes jokes, because heâs so scared to truly be vulnerable. You shove at him a little playfully, tiny little hand on one of his shoulders.
âYou didnât miss me, hotshot?â You tease.
âMiss you every day.â He says softly. You pause now, hands over his as he hands you the little cup, feeling yours get sweaty, as you tremble just a bit.
Are you as affected as him?
You can barely focus when Satoruâs long fingers brush against yours, you clear your throat and smile tremulously, taking the drink and sipping. âI wish we had more time to⊠hang out.â You say, cursing yourself internally.
âHang out hmm?â He leans back on the counter, as the partygoers walk in and out of the kitchen.
âYes, hang out. We used to all the time. I guess life happened?â
âJealous boyfriend, jealous girlfriend happened.â He sips his drink, a little droplet falls, urging you to wipe it with your thumb, he catches your wrist in his big grip, tense, you both stare at each other quietly.
âSorry.â
âDonât apologize.â He lets your hand down gently.
âSatoru I⊠do you think⊠youâd everâŠâ
âEver what, sweets?â
âEverâŠâ Youâre a blushing mess now, wondering at yourself, but itâs been forever, your boyfriend and you had not slept together, and before that itâs been almost a year since you last slept with someone. And fuck Satoru looks so good your mouth is just watering.
âYou can ask me anything.â He says, so soft, and you take a breath.
âHave you ever thought of um⊠hooking up?â You whisper the words, earning his huge eyes getting even bigger, mouth wide with shock. âOh god of course you havenât! I just thought since we⊠almost back in the day? Also, itâs been a while and I trust you, and⊠oh god forget it so embarrassing!â You slam your hands on your face now, feeling your ears even overheating.
âWh-what!?â He demands, leaning down and taking your hands off, you canât even meet his eyes.
âIâm so sorry that was so off base. Youâre probably hurt! Iâm a little hurt too. I just⊠fuck I need to go.â
âWhat!? No no no.â Satoru stops you now, exhaling as he studies you carefully. âLike just a hookup? You donât think itâll ruinâŠâ
âIt wouldnât ruin anything for me. Iâve always⊠Iâve always wanted to.â You admit, earning more of a blatant look of shock. âI know I was a little too⊠I donât know, romantic back when we were younger? But I thought of it.â
âYeah? Shit⊠Yeah?â You giggle now, nervously.
âYeah Iâve always thought about it. I know⊠but do you think of me that way? If not itâs fine, no pressure really.â
He scoffs now, shaking his head. âNever thought of you that way?â
âWell youâve been picking on me since you were ten, throwing snowballs at me, little shit.â You poke his chest, ignoring the hammering of your heart, and Satoru takes you by your arm, long fingers wrapping it entirely.
âChristmas Story time young lady.â You giggle and let him lead you out of the lively party, out to some of the quieter rooms, and he snatches you in one quickly, locking the door behind you both. He sits down in a huge leather seat in the quiet room, tapping one of his long thighs.
You suddenly get even more shy, and he notices, leaning forward. âI am not very experienced at being casual, Toru, give me a minute.â
âWeâre not doing anything yet anyway, sit on Santaâs lap.â You snort, shaking your head, and he narrows those blue eyes, before leaning over and snatching up a santa hat and grinning. âNow, come here, be a good girl.â
âGood girl!?â Youâre wet, great. You nervously shuffle to his thigh now, sitting and hoping he canât feel your heat.
âYouâre all talk hmm?â You sigh.
âI canât believe I said all of that, Iâm so sorry. Iâve always⊠Well, Iâve always had a crush on you. It sounds silly.â You look away, only for Satoru to cup your face, turning you to him carefully, your breath catches when you see how serious his pretty face is under that silly hat.
âAre you ready for story time?â He asks softly. You nod then, leaning closer in his lap, wrapping an arm around his neck, the other hand resting on his hard chest.
âIâm ready, Santa Toru.â He smiles just a bit, then he remembers.
*****
The First time Satoru tried to tell you his feelings
Fifth Grade- Age 10
âOh my gosh! Ugh!â Youâre shivering now, Satoru has thrown two giant snowballs at the prettiest girl heâd seen, wearing a wicked grin as they both hit your sweater, soaking wet with them now.
You turn and glare at him, and gosh, Satoru really thinks youâre cute, your face is all scrunched up in a glare, a face he frequently stared at in class. You were so, so pretty, and you always had your head in a book, where most classmates fawned over Satoru, laughed at his jokes, you justâŠ
Were you.
Satoru wanted some attention, so this seemed like a great way to try, until he walks over and sees your face, tears in your eyes, your lips trembling. He pauses then, blinking his snowy lashes, worrying now, as heâs not ever seen you upset, and now he feels it like a hit on his chest.
âYouâre crying?â He asks, and then remembers people around you are watching, and he doesnât want to seem too soft. âWhy are you crying? Just snowballs.â
âIâm soaking wet and cold now, Gojo!â You stomp a foot, shivering, Satoru suddenly feels awful.
âI⊠oh⊠umâŠâ He takes off his jacket then, shivering just a bit in the chilled air, so cold he could see puffs of your breath as you sigh.
âNo, no youâll be cold. Iâll be fine. Iâve just had⊠um a bad day.â You whisper, looking down and hugging yourself.
Itâs then, Satoru realizesâŠ
He thinks he likes youâŠ
A lot.
He eases off your soppy sweater, throwing his jacket over your shoulders, and you look up at him and keep crying. âIâm sorry, okay!?â
âN-no. Youâre just sweet, Gojo. Thank you.â You swipe at your eyes with your gloved hands as he clutches your sweater, he brings it to his nose for a moment, inhaling you. âAre you⊠smelling it? Do I smell bad!?â
âNo, no! You smell sweet.â You raise your brows, color on your cheeks, on your cold little nose. âI mean⊠you⊠IâŠâ
âThank-â
âI mean whatever. Bring that back tomorrow.â You blink in surprise as he shoves your sweater in your hands, and he doesnât like how excited he is when your fingers brush against his, he doesnât like how your face in tears made him feel.
He was the head of the Gojo clan, he had to be strong, not a mess for some sad little girl in his class. He turns away and you call out his name softly. He tilts his head, blue eyes glinting at you. âThank you!â
âYeah.â He throws a peace sign at you, and Suguru runs up to him now.
âYou like her!â
âDo not.â
He did not like you, noâŠÂ
Ten year old Satoru was surely falling in love already.
*****
Present Day
âYou liked me then!?â You ask incredulously, remembering the look on his big blue eyes as heâd left you with his coat. âI thought you were picking on me?â
âI was⊠but I wanted your attention.â You exhale now, brushing his hair back gently, his eyes flutter shut. âI still want your attention. I just donât throw snowballs at you anymore.â
âI mean, it kind of worked?â He laughs now, hot breath against your cheek as you pull back just a bit, cupping his face carefully. âYou donât need to throw snowballs anymore, I threw myself at you just now.â
âNah, you didnât. You just brought up something Iâve been dying to do, but too fucking afraid.â
âAfraid of me, youâre Satoru Gojo.â His hand feels so good up and down your back you damn near purr like a cat. âPopular, gorgeous, a sports star.â
âWell I donât feel like any of that around you. I get⊠stupid and tongue tied. And say all the wrong shit.â You tilt your head, feeling the energy shift.
âYou really liked me, Satoru?â
He sighs, thumb brushing across your lower lip, sending shivers of pleasure from just that down your spine. âLike⊠Thatâs not really the word.â
âNo?â You whisper.
âNoâŠâ Satoruâs lips press against yours once more, and you let out a soft cry from the back of your throat, your hands entangling in his hair, body arching just so, earning his soft moan as he pulls back, your noses touching. âI didnât just sleep with you before, back at the beginning of college, remember?â
âOh I remember⊠somehow, despite the beer.â
âI didnât because⊠it would be more.â
You shift just a bit, earning his breath catching, feeling the pressure between your thighs. âIs this too much?â
âNo, no. Not enough.â You moan now, as his tongue slips past your lips, swiping in and swirling with yours, you drink up his every breath, as he sips up your cries. âFuck, feel how hot you are.â
âItâs embarrassing.â
âNo, itâs sexy. Youâre sexy.â Satoru eases back now, a pink blush on his high cheekbones. âStory time, ready for more? If you listen good, Santa will take good care of you.â He teases, brushing thumbs over your nipples.
âOf course, Santa Toru. Carry on.â
Satoru smirks, looking so charming, you feel your blood rushing through your veins, struggling to calm as he speaks. âRemember eighth grade well?â
âOf course, you were already a little wise guy.â You earn his serious look, and he is shaking his head. And then it hits, that memory, of your first kiss ever with anyone, with Satoru Gojo. âYou mean our kiss?â
âYeah, our kiss.â
*****
The Second time Satoru tried to tell you his feelings
Eighth Grade- Age 14
Satoru was extremely popular, especially with the girls in school, he had several of them all over him even though he came on a date with one of your pretty classmates. You at this point have the biggest crush on him, though you certainly wouldnât tell him, and he wouldnât look at you that way, surely. Youâre sipping on punch as you sit on one of the bleachers, watching everyone dance.
Little do you know, Satoru is watching you, his blue eyes keep peering your way over and over, looking at how cute you are in this pink, floofy little dress, one he didnât expect to see you in. Youâre nervously fidgeting with your little red solo plastic cup, smiling and waving a bit at him, as girls keep asking him questions, and one is dragging him out to the dance floor.
You watch Satoru with his hands on her waist, the thoughts of that alone make you feel sick for some reason, youâre not sure why. Suguru Geto comes up to you now with a smile, long hair pulled half up off his head, holding a hand out, you look around. âYou sure? Me?â
âYes you silly, you look pretty tonight.â You canât stop the shy smile on your face as he stands you up, taking you to the floor for your first dance with someone.
âThanks Suguru.â You say, he puts his hands on your waist as you both sway side to side, and you feel Satoruâs eyes burning holes as you both do, as he spins around the dance floor.
âDo you like him?â
âLike who?â
âSatoru.â Suguru tilts his head, and you want to sink into the floor, exhaling and shaking your head. Suguru smiles. âNot at all?â
âAs a friend um⊠even if so, heâs too busy with his fan club.â Suguru chuckles at that, spinning you now.
âYou think he doesnât like you?â
âNo way he does.â Suddenly Satoruâs standing between you both, arms crossed, his face just gets prettier every year, itâs really not fair you think.
âMy turn.â He says, and Suguru gives a little mock bow, winking at you and dancing with another girl, Satoruâs hands tremble when they hit your waist, fingertips brushing over the mesh of your skirt. Something about the contact makes you gasp, your eyes flying to him when your hands rest on his shoulders, feeling how broad theyâve gotten.
âYou donât have to dance with me, Satoru. Suguru was already being nice.â You look down nervously, afraid to misstep, to accidentally stomp on his foot.
âWhy do you think I donât want to?â
âYou have so many pretty girls, but you are a sweet friend. Thank you.â He pauses now, and you pause with him, his blue eyes glinting as there are lights flashing all around you all, in the middle of the dance floor. âWhatâs wrong, Satoru?â
Whatâs wrong is how he wants to kiss you, to kiss his best friend, he wonders if your lip gloss tastes yummy, and he shouldnât wonder. Heâs kissed girls, but he has never wanted to kiss anyone like he does you, youâre looking up at him curiously, his hand on the small of your back now. Youâre always so shy and insecure, and Satoru doesnât know why.
Youâre so beautiful.
He should tell you.
Instead however, he opens his mouth, then closes it, to open it again, finally he just leaves you. Youâre trembling in embarrassment, scowling now and following him out of the throngs of people as people are watching and whispering. You stomp out into the hallway, he even walks right out of the double doors. You follow him and are shouting his name.
âYouâre so rude sometimes! You shouldnât have asked me if you didnât want to!â You shout, feeling tears pricking your eyes, and Satoru turns around then, tears glistening in his own eyes, making you pause.
âWhy canât you understand?â He asks, cupping your face with a cool hand, and it feels far too good on your overheated cheeks.
âUnderstand what, that my best friend is being mean?â
âIâm not being mean. I canât⊠I canâtâŠâ He exhales now, hormonal brain whirling, why canât he think of anything good to say!? Why canât he tell you heâs got it so bad for you, that youâre all he thinks of sometimes? But heâs so scared because youâre so close to him, such a good friend. What if you donât feel the same?
âYou can tell me anything. Always.â You cup his hand on your cheek, he feels how warm it is under his touch, leaning down now, your eyes dart to his lips, lashes casting shadows on your cheeks. âWhat are youâŠâ
Satoru presses his lips against yours, your first kiss ever, you pause as your heart is pounding in your chest, unsure of what to do. Where do you put your hands!? Where do you⊠stand? You step back and look at him with shock, heâs so serious which is nothing like the Satoru you know, a goofy silly boy whoâs always bright and smiling.
âYou just kissed me.â You whisper, unable to say what you want to, that you have never felt your heart beat so fast, that you have never imagined a kiss from the boy you have it so bad for. That youâre so happy you could spin.
âI did.â Is all he manages, it sounds choked out, as he leans close again, the wind fluttering leaves around your feet, in uncomfortable platform heels youâve stolen from your motherâs closet.
âBut donât you have a date tonight?â You touch your lips, still tingling with him, and Satoru gulps now, visible, leaning in close again. âDonât confuse me, please, you would never be interested in me.â
âWhy do you think that way? Why canât you see that I-â
âSatoru!â Satoruâs date comes out now, and you feel terrible, you feel so embarrassed, especially when he shoots her a smile, and then a sullen look at you as she grabs his arm. âOh itâs Satoruâs little friend. Youâre like a little sister, right?â
You glare hurt eyes at Satoru now, and he feels himself closing right back up, knowing how bad those words hurt you, how confused you must be. âA little sister? Is that what you call me?â You ask, quietly, hiding your every feeling.
âI said we were really close like family, yes, butâŠâ You laugh just a bit, blinking back tears, looking at his date now.
âHeâs definitely just like family. Have fun you two.â You stomp off then, and Satoru wants to stop you, wants to say something, but he thinks heâll just make it worse. You left right after, he didnât see you the rest of the dance, and the next week at school you were back to normal, his sweet friend, you both didnât bring it up, what happened.
Satoru knew he hurt your feelings, and he didnât know how to apologize, or how to tell you how much the kiss meant, and how badly during every school project, every study session, that he wanted to do it again. So instead, he just stays your friend, wondering if you forgot it all.
*****
Present Day
You feel pesky tears prick the back of your eyes, sighing shakily now as Satoruâs lips pout just a bit, his brows drawn together. âYou felt something for me? Then?â
âYes, I wanted to tell you, but I fucked it all up.â You remember how hurt you were, to be called that, after your first kiss, remember rushing home and crying in your bed all night.
âI thought it was some dare or something.â You admit, and he leans forward, shaking his head, pulling you more firmly against his hard body, a body youâve dreamt of being pressed against this way more than once.
âNo, not at all. You looked pretty in that dress, I remember it like it was yesterday, exactly what you wore.â Satoruâs voice gets husky as his gaze lowers, to your breasts that are showcased in black and red lace over your dress, you feel it like a caress, filling you with longing.
âYou were my first kiss.â You say now, his eyes widen in surprise.
âI didnât know that.â
âYou never asked. You never brought it up again.â You swipe at an errant tear as Satoru cups your face gently.
âI was a shithead.â You giggle now, nodding. âYouâre not supposed to agree!â
âWell you were. Whyâd you kiss me, Satoru?â You lean in close, lips just a breath from him now, tasting his sweetness on his lips, tantalizing you.
âI thought it would be my epic moment. You rushed after me, thought Iâd tell you how I feel, finally. But thenâŠâ
âHow did you feel?â He sighs now, kissing your lips once more.
âYou listened to story number two, I said Iâd treat you for being so good. On the nice list, hmm?â You giggle again, as he kisses down your chest.
âYouâre avoiding the question⊠mmm⊠not complaining.â You gasp when he reveals one of the peaks of your breasts now, he lets out a soft moan.
âYouâre so pretty.â His lips are descending on it, latching on a nipple and sucking. You enwrap your hands in his hair, pulling it while he sucks on it with his hot mouth.
Desire shoots down your body, making you tremble, Satoruâs hand presses against your tummy, fingers slipping against the soft velvet of your dress, your eyes roll back at how good it feels when his teeth nip at the peak. He pulls back, strings of saliva dripping from his lips, then heâs pulling your other one out, shifting you to straddle his lap, and you feel him.
Fuck he feels so good against you, when you sink down on his lap, and heâs got another peak in his mouth, his hand squishing the other, lips trailing back up, looking at you under those snowy lashes. Youâre trembling now, thighs tense as you feel his length under those slacks, pressing against soaked panties. His head falls back as he sinks your hips lower.
âOh my god.â He murmurs. âYouâre so wet from just that? Youâre so desperate for me, hmm?â
âOh fuck you.â You glare, he laughs softly as you try to back up, yanking you back down.
âI like you so needy. Itâs cute.â Your eyes are just narrowed now, and you slide your hips down his length, earning him tensing, sucking in a breath.
âYouâre needy. Itâs so cute.â
âBrat.â He brings your lips back down to his, and relishes in the feel of you, the taste of you. God heâs wanted this for so long, but he has to tell you, he has to tell you whatâs in his heart, even if he is currently thinking of sinking into the heat thatâs grinding on his cock. He pulls away, physically painful, looking into your dazed eyes.
âMore stories!? Weâre gonna need a break, I wonât be able to focus.â Your hair is falling softly against his chest as you roll your hips again, and he presses up, feeling the slick heat even through the barriers.
âFor every story you listen to, Iâll make you cum.â He watches the mess that makes you with a satisfied grin.
âBut Iâve already listened to two!â
âThere are three more.â
âYou canât cum five times in oneâŠâ
âYouâre doubting me, hmm?â Your lips press his again, and he hoists you up, holding you effortlessly in strong arms, pressing you against the wall now, the coolness on your back doing nothing to cool down your body.
âMaybe youâre all talk, all star.â He snorts now, easing you down, pressing his arms on either side of you.
âThen a little demonstration, before the next story.â His hand slips up your dress by the hem, baring your thighs, you tremble as your eyes lock, and he finds you over your panties, dripping and sticky. âFuck, these are ruined.â
âShut up, Satoru.â You whine out as he presses against your clothed clit, moaning as he does, pressing his finger up higher, youâre whimpering, slick coating his fingers. âPleaseâŠâ
âPlease what, sweet girl?â Satoru murmurs softly, and youâre trembling, hand gripping his wrist, feeling the strong muscles on his arm.
âTouch me.â He slips his fingertips under your panties now, finding your aching clit and rubbing in circles, making you throb around nothing, head slamming back into the wall as his lips capture yours again. He moves in tantalizing circles, quicker and quicker, working you up, making you want more and more. âNgh!â
âThose sounds you make, fuck.â He huffs, pressing his finger up more, blue eyes flicking over your face, free hand cupping your chin. âLet go, Iâve got you.â
He starts pressing up more, your cunt soaking his fingers as he works your clit so good, youâre gasping when it hits you, the orgasm from Satoruâs long fingers that keep slipping to tease your entrance. Youâre dying for more, but he pulls his finger away, your hands are clinging to his shirt, crumpling the fancy fabric, Satoru slips his finger to his lips now, moaning.
âYouâre so sweet tasting. Mmm.â He kisses you again, coating your lips with your own slick, youâre grinding up against his thigh thatâs now slotted between yours. âCanât wait to drink you up.â
âDrink me, I⊠Toru, the things youâre sayingâŠâ Heâs kissing down your cheek, down your neck, before he pulls back with a smile. âLet meâŠâ
Your hand slips down his abdomen, feeling the muscles tense under your touches. âNot yet, horny little nerd.â
âOh whatever!â You shove at him now, as he doesnât allow you to touch his cock whatsoever yet, gripping your wrist above your head.
âThatâs one, Iâll give you four more, but I need you to listen.â
âOr what, Iâm on the naughty list?â You tease, tugging on his hat, he fixes it back on his head with a smirk. âWho knew you even remembered little things like that about me.â
âLittle things? That kiss wasnât a little thing.â You melt at his words.
Words Satoru has longed to tell you.
âWhy didnât you let me know?â
âI tried. A couple more times. Now⊠Come on, weâll make an appearance, and continue this soon. Donât you pout, canât just use me for my body.â
âOh god.â You breathlessly giggle as you all get back to the party, and Satoruâs snatching you up in his arms for a dance, you feel your friends gazing upon you both, sharing knowing looks. âYou sure can dance, Satoru.â
âOf course I can.â He spins you now, bringing your back against him, you feel his strong chest on your back, your ass pressed against his hard thighs. His hands guide your hips as the music plays, soft and sweet like his caresses.
âSo whatâs next, Santa Toru? On the cringy memory train of me.â
âCringy of you? Nah. Well, the next trip of Christmas past would be⊠Sophomore year of high school. Remember that bowling night?â
âBowling night, which one?â Youâre turning your head to look up at him, his santa hat is falling just so, as you sway with him, and remember.
*****
The Third Time Satoru tried to tell you his feelings
Sophomore Year of High School- age 16
Satoru and you had fallen back into an easy friendship, you all were going bowling, Suguru, Shoko, Nanami, you and Satoru. You all were always together, along with a couple other close friends, and Satoruâs new girlfriend, she was very pretty and very clingy, all over him to the point Suguru was laughing at it. Satoru could barely get a moment to breathe.
Nanami is showing you how to bowl, and something in Satoru tenses, as youâre giggling up at him and grinning, and he sees Nanami is blushing. Heâs mentioned a few times he thinks youâre sweet and pretty, and Satoru supposes no one else he knows would be good enough for you, aside from his friends. But it hurts, to see his hand on your shoulders, on your back.
Satoruâs girlfriend is kissing all on his neck, irritatingly, sheâs gorgeous and a star cheerleader, who should be with the star player, right? Satoru supposes thatâs what is done, and he loves making out with her and more⊠but⊠something about you is addling his psyche, constantly. Every time you laugh itâs like his heart tightens, every brush of your skin against his makes him weak.
Even hugging you was hard now, so heâd backed off a bit, youâre too pretty, you smell too good, you look so pretty in those little school uniforms. He canât even stand to see you in those skirts. Thankfully youâre just wearing blue jeans, so that he didnât have to stress even more about you and Nanami.
Why canât he just tell you!?
He gets so tongue tied around you, Satoru Gojo, the boy who canât ever shut up, but with you he stutters, he stammers, he blushes. And ever clueless, you have no idea what your effects are on him, on anyone. Still so insecure, but Satoru really does not know why or how, canât you tell that you alone make him go crazy? That all these girls are just not you.
You smile at him now, a little sad he notices, waving, and only serving to make his girlfriend clingier. You walk up now, looking at him for a moment, before looking at the group. âDoes anyone want pizza? Iâm so hungry, Iâll buy.â
âIâll come with you.â Satoru stands now, his girlfriend huffs.
âDonât leave me, Gojo.â
âJust gonna get food, you want something baby?â Baby, the little term crushes your damn teenage heart, as Satoru pecks a kiss on his girlfriendâs lips, and you canât get over Satoru enough to even have a dating life. You compare any man to him, to this ever taller, lanky best friend of yours.
Satoruâs gotten six feet tall now, towering over everyone, and the basketball has only served to enhance every muscle. Just being at his game yesterday, seeing his muscles in his jersey had been too much to handle, youâd had to jot it all down in your diary, fast becoming a Satoru Gojo diary. Not that you could say anything, heâs always got a girl on his arm.
You remember that kiss so well, what had he been thinking? Sometimes you worry it was some dare, some joke or something. Itâs the only kiss youâve had still, though you think if you had another you could maybe start pushing that back, maybe realize it wasnât so amazing, right?
Satoru comes with you now, walking beside you, hands in the pockets of his jeans, you all are walking toward the food court. âMissed ya short stuff.â
âMissed you, tall ass.â You giggle now as he grins down at you, nudging you. âEveryoneâs short compared to you. What are you even eating!?â
âLots of candy and cookies.â
âAh, thatâs the secret. Iâll grab you something sweet.â You order pizza for everyone, then you order churros, one of Satoruâs favorites. He moans when he sees it, hugging and picking you up, you try to ignore how the casual touch gets you.
âThank you, sweets.â He smacks a kiss on your cheek, you cup your face carefully, looking down at your tennis shoes.
âNo biggie. Gotta feed you, growing boy and all.â He starts nibbling as you all wait for the pizza to finish, sitting at a little booth now, his thighs are spread and theyâre so long theyâre pressing against your thighs, making you so flustered, but youâre sure he doesnât notice.
He does notice though, he notices everything about you, he wants to tell you then, to stop this facade of friendship. But heâs on a date, and youâre both with friends in a crowded bowling alley. It doesnât seem the right moment, but heâs carefully watching you while you are taking a little sip of your drink.
âHave a bite.â He says, and you freeze.
An indirect kiss!?
You are thinking too much!
You lean forward and take a nibble, he watches as you do, little crystals of sugar on your lips. âYummy.â
An indirect kiss!
Satoru thinks with a smile, wiping the little bit of sugar dust off you, and then freezing. You both freeze, your eyes locked on each other, Satoruâs thumb lingers on your lower lip, eyes lowering to stare at it, your chest rises and falls with your breaths, his attention now on your collarbone, where you still wear that necklace he got you forever ago.
A friendship necklace.
âYou still wear that, huh?â He asks quietly now, you touch it as is a habit, itâs a long faded half of a yin yang.
âOf course I do. Do you have yours?â
âI still have it.â You smile, brightening his heart then, and he opens his mouth, he has to just say it, to say he has that necklace dangling off a picture frame, and the picture is of you and him. A polaroid you all took together on a field trip, that he looks at it every night.
âThat makes me unreasonably happy. I was sure you tossed it.â
Satoru blinks. âTossed it?â
âWell yeah, weâre older now, and I know Suguru is your real best friend. Iâm like secondary, honorary.â You playfully mess up his perfect silky locks, but he doesnât laugh, no heâs serious again, as serious as that eighth grade dance.
âDo you like Nanami?â He asks suddenly, surprising you.
âHe is sweet and so handsome, yeah. I do like emo boys a bit. Why?â You ask curiously, pretending to like Nanami, would it make it less painfully obvious that youâre in love with Satoru?
He frowns now. âI didnât like seeing you two-â
âPizzaâs up.â Satoru uses the moment, hopping up, leaving you confused, but he doesnât even acknowledge any of it, just grabbing the pizza boxes and smiling down at you casually.
âSatoru, what did you mean? Do you think I wouldnât be good for Nanami?â You ask, insecurities wracking you. He shakes his head as you both head toward your friends again, through the busy room.
âNo, I didnât say that, not at all.â
âSo what do you mean?â He opens his mouth again, just as his girlfriend bounces up and smiles at him, and you realize how foolish you are to think he meant that.
You all go back to being more separated, Nanami has gotten you a slice of pizza and youâre both sitting together and smiling, but your eyes keep going to Satoru, hurt in them when his clingy ass girlfriend practically drapes herself on him. Satoru needs to let these feelings go, heâs doing nothing but hurting and confusing you. So he decides the best thing to do?
A little bit of distance.
*****
Present Day
âIs that why you basically ignored me for like months?â You ask curiously, Satoru spins and dips you, bending you back over his arm in a move that would make anyone swoon, and of course you do, his lips hovering over yours.
He brings you back up, making you dizzy and breathless. âI thought I was hurting you, confusing you.â
âYou definitely were confusing. But I missed you when you didnât spend any time with me at all. That hurt.â He nods just a bit, the song is ending, and youâre still pressed so close against him.
âI wanted to say that I didnât like Nanami with you, because I wanted to be with you. But how could I say that?â
âI donât know⊠you could have tried to?â
âStop being all logical.â You snort now. âAnother orgasm on the list.â He whispers against your ear, you tremble now.
âAre you all finally going to get this tension taken care of?â Shoko asks, and you gasp, realizing theyâre all watching you two.
âTension?â
âSince high school.â Shoko says.
âNah, Middle School.â Nanami counters.
âEven younger.â Suguru chimes in, and you watch Gojoâs cute little blush overtake his perfect pale skin.
âSeems like you all planned this.â You admonish, and they whistle, looking every which way, but Satoru looks right at you still.
âThink youâre invited to the afterparty, my place?â He says softly, unlike most of the people in dorms or frat houses, Satoru has his own place, beautiful too. You look at your friends now.
âAre they invited?â
âNah, exclusive.â
âOh just go, dear god. Iâm so tired of the pining.â Shoko says, shoving at Satoru and handing you your coat.
âYou kicking us out!?â You demand playfully, only being shooed right out, into the cold snowy night with Satoru. His hands come to warm your cheeks, as you stare at him with glittery eyes, eyes that make his heart falter every time. âSatoru I really⊠Iâve been⊠for so longâŠâ
âAh-ah. You have two more Christmas stories. Câmon, Iâll tell you one on the way.â You follow him breathlessly to his fancy black sports car, he turns on the heat after he starts the car, a hand pressing on your thigh. You lean close to his side, cuddling against him for warmth like a cat. âRemind me to get you cold more often.â
âI hate the cold, ugh. Youâre warm though.â You snuggle closer, shutting your eyes and inhaling the scent of his cologne. âFeels so natural.â
âI know, it always scared me.â
âDid it? Wait, are we transitioning to another teen Gojo tale!?â
He chuckles now, one hand brushing against your thigh, youâre wrapped around his arm, his other hand guiding the steering wheel, the lights scattering across the dark night, reflecting his perfect profile. You feel the heat building and building, even worse by the orgasm heâd brought you, planting a little kiss on his neck.
Your lips on his neck drive him so crazy, as does your sweet little body against him, he inhales that scent heâs always loved, this vanilla cupcake scent that makes his mouth water. How do you still smell just like that? How do your lips still taste so sweet, burned in memories.
âI really should tell you how I feel too.â You say softly, and his heart pounds in his ears as he tries to focus on the road. âAfter your two last stories, Santa.â
âAh, yes. Be good and listen.â His hand now wraps your waist, making your thoughts anything but nice, but you nod against his neck, holding him close. âWeâre up to Senior year, are you ready for the trip?â
âReady. What part of Senior year, spirit guide?â
âThat closet.â His voice gets husky.
âOh⊠oh shit.â
*****
The fourth time Satoru tried to tell you his feelings
Senior Year of High School- age 18
âI canât believe they put us in here.â You whisper, trapped in the closet with Satoru Gojo, just last week he was proclaimed prom King, and heâs as popular as ever, somehow taller too.
Satoruâs mind is foggy as he stands in the little closet with you, heâs so close he can inhale that scent, he can feel you against him. He feels his body react, god if he just brushes against you it does. And youâre both just not as close as you once were, since the awkwardness of watching you with Nanami, who you even dated for a few months, much to his displeasure to see.
Youâre both single now, something that hasnât happened in some time, it seems Satoru always has arm candy, and you always were left to wonder if heâd ever notice you. Even in a closet, you imagine his mind is far away, perhaps on his ex-girlfriend, the prom queen and cheer captain. You couldnât even do a somersault without getting injured, a clumsy mess.
You hate comparing yourself, but you canât help it with Satoru, youâve had boyfriends now, youâve had kisses. A little more experience. But something keeps drawing you back to all the what ifs, of how someone can be so close to you, yet so distant, just out of reach, as if you couldnât touch him like you wanted⊠some barrier he has.
âTheyâre just always thinking you have a crush on me.â Satoru says teasingly, cocky as hell. You snort, rolling your eyes.
âUh huh. Well I donât.â
âI donât either.â
For some reason his words hurt you, and deeply.
Just like your errant words hurt him.
Both of you lying, both of you hurting, and for what? Well, because you still canât picture a world where Satoru likes you, and he canât manage to open up, to be honest with you. Heâs right behind your back, you feel his breaths against your neck, blowing and tickling your hair now, making you tremble.
âGood, wouldnât wanna break your nerdy heart.â He whispers, hands on your waist, taking it over, long fingers sinking into the jut of your hips. Your breath comes even quicker in the dark, quiet room now.
âYouâre mean lately, your headâs so big I donât know how it fits through doors.â Satoru laughs, meanly, pressing harder against you.
âNot the only thing thatâs big.â He whispers, you tremble now, looking back nervously, eyes adjusting in the dark.
âW-well I wonât find out. Not your type.â
âSays who?â
âSays your very long list of girls. And thatâs cool, but donât confuse me.â You turn to him now, pressed against him intimately in the closet, and suddenly everything stops, the world stops, as he holds you in his arms. As he feels your bare skin from your crop top, so sexy he wishes no one else could see you. âSatoruâŠâ
âYouâre beautiful.â Your breath stops in your lungs, when he leans in so close, god itâs been four years since middle school, but you can still feel it lingering, that kiss all those years ago. His words muddle your mind.
âWhat?â
âBeautiful. You always have been, okay? Stop thinking that youâre not.â Your tears hit your eyes, while you tremble in his strong hold, fire coursing through your veins, mind whirling.
âOh, thank you Satoru. Thatâs sweet.â
âSweet? Nah.â
âIt is. Thank you.â You lean up now, kissing his cheek, he shuts his eyes at how good you feel, your every curve pressed against him, his hands slipping down your hips now, you gasp, a little breathy, sexy sound. He turns his head now, lips brushing yours for just a moment.
Just a moment and then heâs devouring your mouth, tongue slipping in, taking over everything you are, and you melt with him, tongue meeting his stroke for stroke, as he presses you further against him. His hand pulls at your hair, making pain hit your scalp, but it feels so good. You moan, a sound youâve not made with a guy, and he practically growls now.
Satoru presses you against the wall, the clothes on either side of you separating, dresses on either side of your skin when he lifts you, and your legs wrap around his hips. You pull back to suck in a breath, looking at Satoru with wide eyes, and he glints even in the dark, his lips glossy, heâs breathing as heavy as you. His strong hands grip your thighs, you feel how excited you are then.
âSatoru, what are we doing?â You ask carefully, and he wants to finally say it, in this closet, at some dumb party. He wants to say it, that heâs in love, that kissing you is better than anything he could imagine.
The door knocks now. âSeven minutes over!â You both separate quickly, you adjust your skirt, embarrassed at how you reacted, your nipples tight against your top, clearly visible, judging by his bright blue eyes that are glaring at them.
âWhat was that!?â You demand in a hushed whisper, and he opens his mouth, as the door keeps knocking. He glares now, opening it, and seeing itâs his ex, prom queen herself, she looks at you both and laughs now.
âWell that was probably a boring seven minutes.â You feel the words crush you, making you feel sick, you can feel youâre literally on fire from him. What is this, is this just what he does!?
Satoru sees you rushing away, and he follows you, ignoring his ex, trailing you and shouting your name. It was your turn to run from him, he supposes, usually itâs him running. He finally catches you, youâre shivering as the chill of autumn is hitting, and youâre barely wearing anything.
âYouâre gonna get sick in that, wearing nothing!â
âYouâre not my big brother. Certainly not right now after⊠what even was that!?â You demand, turning to him, eyes glistening with tears.
He feels it like a punch to the gut.
âYou canât just kiss me when youâre bored and date everyone else, everyone in your league.â Tears are falling, youâre shivering, Satoru gulps, shaking his head now.
âNo, itâs not that. Youâre in anyoneâs league, fuck youâre out of anyoneâs. I didnât kiss you because of that.â
âThen why? Donât you know, it means a lot to me?â
âIâŠâ
âIâm not like you, I don't just sleep around.â
Satoru glares now. âAnd who says I do?â
âThe entire school! And I donât care as a friend, but I do care if you think Iâm available like that.â
âYou think I want to fuck you?â He asks, raising a brow, and your heart sinks in your stomach. âI didnât try to fuck you, did I?â
âThen whatâŠâ
âKissing, in a closet. You think that means sex? Youâre cute, little virgin.â He pats your head and you smack at his hand, glaring, hurt written all over your face. Satoru hates himself so much, but he canât say it, especially now. How can he even begin to tell you the truth!?
âI know what sex is.â Satoru glares. âIâm not an amusement, Iâm your friend, you canât act like that.â
âFine then I wonât kiss you again, ya happy?â
âNo!â
âNo?â You shake your head, stomping away now, he grabs your wrist, making you glare at it. âPlease, Iâm sorry. I justâŠâ
âJust what!?â Your face is covered with tears. âJust go get your prom queen, and leave me alone.â
âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry I⊠I shouldnât haveâŠâ
âShouldnât have kissed me?â You whisper, he just gulps, aching to tell you how badly he wants you, to tell you he is in love with you. But he just stands there, like a damn idiot, as you continue to cry, yanking your hand away. âDonât worry, weâll just forget it.â
âWhat!? I didnât-â
âGood bye.â
*****
Present Day
âDamn this place is beautiful, Satoru.â You murmur as you walk in after riding the elevator up, lingering memories of high school still in the air, creating tension.
His loft is sleek and gorgeous, an expansive open space with high ceilings, windows that overlook the night, you exhale at the view. Itâs illuminating the modern room softly, a mix of lights in the buildings and moonlight seeping in. Sleek paintings of all kinds decorate his walls, itâs cozy and inviting, youâve been here before, but something is different.
Everything is different.
âYou want a drink, Sweets?â He murmurs softly, his hands slipping up and down your back, creating a network of goosebumps everywhere he touches.
âAm I staying the night Toru?â You tease. He smiles so big now, illuminating the room.
âOf course you are. You wonât be able to walk when Iâm done with you.â Your breath catches at his tone, he casually smirks and saunters off to his kitchen, leaving you pulsing, as if your pussy has a goddamn heartbeat. âAw, shy now?â
âN-no. Iâll take one.â You follow him into the pretty, sleek kitchen, Satoru has cookies heâs made earlier sitting on the stove, he pulls out bottles from his bar, mixing you up a drink, you take it and eye the cookies. âAre you baking for Santa?â
âIâm interested in your cookie.â
âOh stop!â You snort in laughter, he does too, finally taking the santa hat off, popping it right on your head carefully. You lean up, slicking back his hair into place, feeling it like silk under your touch.
âYouâre getting minimum four orgasms tonight. But Iâll give you a fifth if you can guess the next time I fucked up.â
âGuess? Shit⊠I think it was the night we both fucked up.â
âDing-ding-ding.â He taps your nose, you smile at it, then he sips his drink as you do, now leaning back against the counter, looking up at him. âYouâve been so good though, I think Iâll give you another right now.â
âOh yeah? Iâm on the nice list?â You gasp when heâs bending low, sinking two fingers under your panties and inside your eager cunt, he moans out loud with you when you cling to him. âOh f-fuckâŠâ
âSâtight, sâwetâŠâ Heâs pressing that spongy spot in your gummy little walls now, your head falls back, leg wrapped on his, heâs kissing down your neck as he presses over and over, making you see stars. âThereâs that spot. Good girl.â
âToru!â You cry out as he fingers you with his stupidly long fingers, longer than the one guy youâve been with, longer than his entire cock. Youâre sure he didnât hit as deep as Satoruâs fingers, and he surely didnât finger you like that. Youâre overtaken, cunt dripping down his hand, down to his silver rolex and dress sleeves.
âHear yourself, huh sweetheart? How fuckin wet you are.â His low tone just edges you further, now heâs pulling back to look at you, and youâre closer and closer.
âFuck me, please.â You beg, he moans, shaking his head.
âNot yet.â
âOh fuck your santa stories, and fuck me-â He slams his lips on yours, pumping his fingers in and out of your soppy little cunt now, and you hear it squishing lewdly in the quiet loft, he presses other fingers against your breast, squishing as he pumps them, until you fall over the edge now, cumming so hard you canât see.
âThere it is, youâre taking them so good.â He cooes those words, youâre already fucked out and you havenât even been fucked by him yet. You blink and struggle to make him come into focus, gasping for stuttering breaths.
âOh my⊠oh my⊠IâŠâ The room is spinning, he takes his fingers, dripping wet with your arousal, shoving them into your mouth now.
âTaste how sweet you are.â He orders, and you do just that, sucking on his fingers, tongue swirling around them, your pussy is pulsing more and more wetness out, as you crave more of him. âGod youâre sexy.â
âPleaseâŠâ You pull him down by his collar, kissing him, swapping the taste of you, only making Satoru harder. He canât wait to bury his face in your plump little cunt, god itâs all he can think of.
âPatience. You came twice already, look at me.â You grab him then, and he about dies, nearly cumming from your touch, gasping.
âLet me take care of you.â
âFuck youâre a little horny brat. You have one more story.â You sigh then, head falling back, for more of Satoruâs kisses and bites, he wants to fuck you senseless, but he also wants to savor this, to make this perfect for you.
âOh fine but Iâm aching.â
Well so is he, precum making a wet spot in his boxers, straining against the fabric of his jeans, just from the smallest little touch. Youâre so wet and hot there, so greedily your cunt sucked up his fingers, he can only hope he can last, if you touch him at all it will probably end him. Heâs been waiting for this moment for so long.
âOne more story, can you last?â He challenges. You giggle then, nodding.
âI can make it.â He studies you, bright eyed in that damn santa hat, imagining how beautiful your body must look while he gently strokes your shoulders, you bite your lip, eyes lidded with desire.
He hopes he can make it too.
*****
The Fifth time Satoru tried to tell you his feelings
College- Sophomore year- age 20
Everyone was celebrating the ball game, they had won nationals, and everyone was praising the all stars, Suguru and Satoru. They also were top of the fraternity, none of this was really your style, you were focused a little more on academics, though you helped Satoru study a ton to keep his high GPA, he was as smart as could be and still could accomplish so much.
You had been so proud of him, cheering him on from the stands eagerly. You all had taken some time to make up after that high school party, but truly you couldnât be mad at him for long. You equated it to some strong spiked punch and being shoved in a closet together, close proximity. It certainly couldnât be anything else.
Satoru comes up to you now with a big wide grin on his face, picking you up and spinning you, donned only in a Toga, showing far too much of his chiseled body. âMissed you short stuff!â
âMissed you too, Toru.â He hugs you so tight you hear your damn ribs creak, before he finally sets you down.
âYou at a Frat Party!?â
âYes, I had to celebrate the victory with you. So I make an appearance.â
âElusive.â Suguru comes up and says, you hug him tightly.
âI miss you too!â
âYou should hang out more.â He looks at Satoru. âWay more, shouldnât she?â
âUm what? Sure.â He shrugs, looking away, as his friend calls him the fuck out, but luckily youâre oblivious, still a little shy, insecure thing.
If you were his youâd never feel that way.
But could you ever be? Or was Satoru stuck in this friend zone with you, until you move on, get married, have kids⊠go be a writer, heâs sure youâll be famous, youâre so talented. And heâll marry who heâs supposed to, who his parents pressure him to, and have a career with basketball, soon what would you all be, memories of each other?
But then why do you still wear it?
Itâs a charm on your bracelet now, he imagines the little rope it was on broke long ago with all the wear it got, but you have his little yin charm right there, along with more charms youâve added over the years. His gaze darts up your body, youâre wearing a sexy little grecian gown to go with the theme, with a golden crown in your hair of fake leaves.
Youâve even got glitter all over your skin, youâre so damn beautiful, like an actual goddess. So effortlessly pretty you take his breath away, he feels the effects of studying your curves right on his cock, he shifts then, hoping you canât see it. But your eyes remain on his, as Suguru hands you a beer.
âThanks Suguru. You all know I donât drink these though.â
âOh donât be a baby, do it.â Satoru teases, you snort, and Satoruâs watching hungrily as you sip it. âWhat a baby sip.â
âIâm not chugging it!â
âWell Iâm doing a keg stand.â Suguru gives you a little peck on the cheek, smirking as he earns Satoruâs ire. He knows more than anyone how long Satoru has been pathetic for you.
How do you not know?
âGo have fun, crazy.â You step a little closer to Satoru now, looking at the loud game of beer pong.
âWanna play?â
âOh god no, Iâll suck so bad.â
âNah, câmon.â Satoru drags you over by your hand, wondering if tonight could be the night. Heâs coming off this high of winning that championship, youâre standing here looking like Venus herself, surely he can do it.
Why is he so afraid to tell you?
Soon you all are competitive, but heâs winning, annihilating you honestly, smacking every bounce you attempt, throwing and sinking endless pong balls into those solo cups. You pout now, earning his laughter as you keep sipping on your beer, until you end up with another. You finally sink one and bounce up and down, arms in the air, so fucking cute.
âHaha- take that, Toru!â You place your hands on your hips, sticking your tongue out, heâs reminded of the day he met you, the day he thought you were so cute he needed to yank your pigtails, and youâd stuck out a tongue.
âOne hit and youâre claiming victory? What are you, the goddess of war?â
âGoddess of nothing, silly. Youâre the one looking like a god.â You flush so damn cute now, looking down shyly at your words.
âA god hmm? Fits me.â
âOh youâre so conceited.â You roll your eyes at him, but he does look like one, his strong, long, chiseled frame. Heâs so gorgeous it makes you ache, he always has been, but itâs like every time you see him itâs worse, this need, this desire.
To be with him in so many ways.
Ways you havenât yet, ways you shouldnât want him.
âFinish the game, brat.â He tosses a ball your way, you laugh now, sinking another one and cheering, and soon youâre both a little tipsy, and playing together against Shoko and Suguru.
You both kick their asses, much to their dismay, Shoko opts for vodka shots like a classy bitch, Suguru is on another keg stand, and you and Satoru are giggling and dancing around to the music. Itâs so loud you feel it thrumming through your entire body, Satoruâs so easy to fall into, you keep trying to hold back, but how can you? When heâs everything youâve ever wanted.
And how can Satoru ever hold back with you? Heâs tried, four different times, to tell you how much he loves you, yet⊠How can he? As heâs grabbing your hip, pulling you against him, your head falling on his chest, as youâre grinning so big, he just⊠has to say it.
He has to.
âI need to say somethingâŠâ He murmurs then, you can barely hear him, leaning up closer.
âHmm? What Toru?â
Someone bumps into you then, knocking you against Gojo, and he glares now, shoving at the drunk frat brother. You wave your arms to stop him. âWhat the fuck man, watch it.â
âShit, my bad Gojo, chill.â He then grins all big as he looks at you, where your toga is now falling, revealing far too much of your breast. You squeak, quickly trying to pin it up, and now Gojoâs torn between wanting to see you, and anger at this asshole. Gojo shoves him into a wall then.
âDonât fuckinâ look at her.â He says through his teeth, surprising you then.
âWhat, she's your girl? Werenât you just banging a girl out last night?â He says with a laugh, and Satoru pauses, but you hear it.
You feel sick then, stepping back, how can you be so dumb, to think Satoru would want you, or choose you!? Heâs never going to be interested, the only times heâs kissed you he was⊠why had he kissed you!? What was this friendship? Was it a friendship at all or you holding on to the idea of hope with him.
Youâre blinking back stupid tears as you run off to a room, sobbing as you struggle to fix your toga, only for Satoru to walk in. You glare now.
âGo!â
âWeâre not together, why are you mad if I fuck someone?â He demands, and you sputter, shaking your head, tears hot and sticky as they fall.
âI shouldnât be upset.â
âThen why?â Heâs right against you, big hands on your shoulders, you look up at him now, mascara streaking down your cheeks, his stomach drops at it.
âBecause Iâll never be⊠Iâll never beâŠâ
âBe what?â
âYours.â
âWh-what!?â You shake your head now, running out of the room, Satoruâs chasing you, reminiscent of two years ago, fuck itâs always a chase, a push and pull. âCome here! Stop it!â
âNo, Iâm done with this, with you giving me bits of affection, only to ruin them.â You shove at him now, heâs grabbing you, pulling you against him. âDonât you kiss me, donât you dare tease me.â
âI donât kiss you to tease you, I kiss you-â
âFor a game!â
âShut your mouth.â
You scowl. âYou shut your mouth.â Satoru shuts both your mouths, as youâre outside the insane frat house, pressing you against the brick wall of the dormitory, smothering your lips with his. You bite his lower lip, glaring as he pulls back.
âStop running from me, stop hiding.â He begs, and you sigh.
âWhy should I? I wonât be a notch on your bedpost.â
âYou think-â Several people start filing out now, and Satoruâs got you pressed right on that wall, his chest heaving as he hovers, as the chaos ensues all around you both. âYou think youâre that to me?â
âI donât know what I am to you. A friend you kiss every two fucking years or so?â You say with an angry glare, and he cups your waist, burning your bare skin with his touch, shooting desire straight through you.
âYouâre so much more than that. If youâd just let me show you.â He whispers, but youâre so scared then, of letting go, your breathing gets erratic, as you feel his thigh pressing between yours, moving on it, earning his soft moan, vibrating his chest as your hands slip up it. âI have to tell you something, please.â
âIâm listening, mmm.â You arch again, craving him so badly, nothing like youâve felt with anyone, itâs so maddening.
âI really⊠I reallyâŠâ Satoruâs pausing now, stuttering, you make him a mess, heâs resting his head on yours, feeling your heat, thinking of sinking into it. Sure he had girls, only because he couldnât have you. You were his all consuming thoughts, but how does he put it to words?
âReallyâŠâ You urge him on, and he gulps then, panicking. What if you donât feel the same!? What if he ruins thisâŠ
âI really⊠youâre reallyâŠâ
âSatoru! Satoru!â They all start cheering then, a whole group of his frat brothers, fists pumping in the air, and he lets you go, leaving you aching with need, he looks at you so longingly, youâre dying to know just what he wanted to say, but he smiles then, kissing your cheek, shaking his head.
âCome on.â He yanks you with him, as everyone starts chanting for Satoru, and you try to pretend you are okay, as Satoru hides his feelings yet again, and as you think maybe you should give up on it happening.
Youâre in love with him, and it hurts.
How can you let him go finally?
*****
Present Day
âYou were trying to tell me something. Important.â You say softly now, in Satoruâs cozy kitchen, and he nods then, gulping, Adamâs apple bobbing.
âI was. I was trying to confess⊠that I love you.â You blink once, twice, three times. Surely youâre dreaming. Surely he canâtâŠ
âYou love me?â You whisper back, and he nods, so beautiful as he cups your face in his big hands.
âSo you see, baby⊠I canât just hook up.â Satoruâs words bring you to the present, his eyes are glossy, mirroring the deep emotions you both feel, your breaths come faster, as he lifts you up, placing you on his counter.
âAll this time⊠you felt the same?â You whisper, he swipes at your tears now, smiling.
âYou crying?â He asks, and you just nod, remembering that day. âIâve loved you since I threw those snowballs at you. So, so long ago, I knew it, that I was in love with this pretty, sweet girl.â
âSatoruâŠâ You snatch him to you, kissing him through your falling tears, salty against your sweet lips. Satoruâs heart feels so achingly full, his hands shake as he slips them up your thighs, heâs never been nervous until now. Never felt anything like this, like your thighs around his narrow hips, pressing his fingers into the plush of them.
âThere can be no hook up, pretty. I need you to be mine if you want this, I need you to be only mine.â Satoru says softly, possessive now, you feel yourself melting more and more, feel the insane need build inside of you.
âSatoru, Iâm in love with you too. I have been, since you gave me your jacket after plowing me with giant snowballs, you mean little shit.â He laughs now, through his own tears, that you swipe with trembling fingers, exhaling. âOh Satoru, Iâve always been yours.â
He slams his lips on you now, picking you up in his arms, you cling to him as he clumsily navigates you to his room, your tongues not stopping, teeth clicking together with the force of your kisses. Youâre drinking every bit of him in, as heâs drinking you in, barely coming up for air, in gasps. Your kisses get hungrier, messier, sloppier than anything youâve ever known.
Satoruâs hands are all over you as he lays you down on his bed, pressing you into his soft, plush mattress, leaning up to study you, carefully, brushing his fingers across your cheeks, wiping the last of your tears. âAll mine?â
âAll yours.â He moans again, kissing you deeply, hands slipping up your dress, youâre arching up for more of his touch, his kisses, hands hastily unbuttoning his dress shirt, kissing each piece of revealed skin.
âBaby⊠I need to see you. Now. Please.â He says softly, giving you puppy dog eyes, you nod, so nervous, when he pulls back, pulling you to sit, and slipping your dress up over your head, the santa hat falling with it. When youâre bare to him aside from your damn panties and lacy little bra, he groans. âOh my god.â
You are so beautiful his heart pounds in his chest, Satoru drinks you in, your every perfect curve and line, every inch of your silky smooth skin on display. He unlatches your bra with a quick flick, revealing those perfect tits heâd sucked on earlier, god you make his mouth salivate. Heâs literally drooling when he gets to your panties now, a soaking mess.
âYou got so wet.â He cooes, enjoying your reaction, your hips shifting, thighs pressing together, as he eases them off you, finally seeing your pussy for the first time. âFuck itâs perfect.â
âTh-thank you⊠Toru!â Heâs lost it now, hungrily staring at your bare cunt, glistening with your arousal, lips all puffy from his edging. He exhales, just his breath making you shiver, crying out.
âSo easy, hmm?â
âOh you⊠ah!â Satoru breathes against you again, grinning as you jerk, as much as he wants to make love love to you, god he also wants to fuck you senseless.
âImma ruin you for anyone.â His insane words versus the sweetness wreck you already, youâre screaming out when he flicks his tongue up your slit, looking down into his bright blue eyes, seeing the shift. Satoru is going feral as he inhales you, pressing his face against you, nose bumping your engorged clit, kissing at your entrance.
âToru!â Your hands are gripping his hair so tightly youâre pulling it, as you feel him against you, as he tastes you there. Then heâs devouring your pussy, spreading the lips wide, tongue sliding into your velvety walls, fucking you with it, making you start to gush all over his pretty face, moaning as your back arches.
Satoruâs lapping up all your honeyed arousal, as you start dripping everywhere, and your walls are fluttering around that wet muscle. âF-fuck, taste sâgood⊠god could do this forever.â
âNgh!â Is all you manage, incoherent at the pleasure his mouth is giving you, feeling your peak coming as he slips two fingers back in you, pulling back and looking up at you, face glittering in your slick. The sight of it edges you on, as he finally licks your clitoris, just one flick and you shatter.
âThatâs it, good girl⊠sâgood fâme.â He whispers, as youâre pulsing around his thick fingers, and he laps up more of your cum. âYouâre so messy.â
âM-messyâŠâ You canât function, youâre trembling with aftershocks, he grins at you, an insane feral fucking grin, his silky white locks falling just so. âPlease, lemme see you.â You manage, and he gulps now, blushing pink, shocking you since heâd just been so cocky. âSatoru, lemme touch you.â
âNot too much, I wonât last.â He admits, and leans back off the bed standing, you watch him, raising up on your elbows, hair falling down behind you softly like a curtain. He starts to get undressed, and you drink every inch he bares in slowly, his hard, chiseled body, all the lean muscles, abs cut within an inch of your life. Your eyes go lower now as he unbuckles his belt.
You bite your lip, cunt still aching from his play, from the pleasure he has brought you, but when he gets to his boxers, and your eyes trail down the white hair below his belly button you gasp. His cock slaps that belly button when he takes off his boxers, and Satoru Gojo is huge, thick, long with a curved pink tip, beading with pearly white precum already.
âOh my god⊠youâre so beautiful, Satoru.â You say softly, coming to your knees on the bed, he exhales nervously, he has always known he looks good, but hearing you say it meant everything. Seeing the desire makes your eyes dilate and glitter, as your eyes worship him.
âYouâre beautiful, especially on your knees.â You kiss down his abdomen, then you kill him, when you grip his cock with your tiny little hand, that friendship charm still dangling from your wrist, and God Satoru cannot wait to buy you real jewelry, a ring to glitter as you stroke him.
His hands enwrap in your hair, pulling it into a ponytail as you lap at his tip with a kitten flick, making his eyes roll back, he can tell youâre maybe not experienced as you try to suck, making out with his tip, but he loves it, he loves you. Anything youâre doing to him, your soft strokes and you sucking more and more, until youâre drooling all over his cock.
âI need to be inside you, now baby. Sorry, I can't take this.â He has you back on your back so quick you barely blink, and then you feel him, stroking his thick tip on your slick cunt, youâre shaking, arching up, so ready.
âWill it fit though?â You ask, and he chuckles, blushing more now.
âAs wet as this pussy is? Fuck yeah it will.â You whimper as heâs kissing you, pushing your legs apart with his knee, and aligning his cock with your soaking entrance. âYou ready?â
You nod, breath shaky, and Satoru pushes in, so slowly, letting you feel every inch of his thickness filling you up, stretching you. You feel so full, so complete with him inside you, he gasps as he sinks deeper, stretching and burning your skin, but you crave it, you want more, more, more.
He grips your hands, entwining them above your head, so intimate and beautiful you want to cry. âGod, baby, youâre so tight. So wet. Fuck⊠look at you.â He sinks in deeper, lifting a thigh now, releasing a hand, eyes studying every bit of your face as you take more of him. âSo pretty.â
âSatoru!â Youâre whining out, your nails digging into his back as his cock sliding deeper, deeper still, so many inches you canât comprehend, until heâs shoved so deep you feel him against your cervix. âOh my godâŠâ
âOh my godâŠâ He moans right with you, your pussy clenching him so tight, he can feel your walls gripping him like a vise, but you take him, fuck you take him, so greedy your slick little cunt, pushing him over the edge. âFuck.. thatâs it⊠slutty little cunt loves it, hmm?â
âSlutty, I- you- ah! There, there!â You scream out when he hits that spot with his tip, dragging on it inside your walls, and youâre pouring so much wetness you can hear it, as the gentle slap slap slap of his pelvis on your ass hits, as his balls are smacking your little ass hole, and his white hair is grinding on your clit when he bottoms out, youâre soaking his veiny length, dripping onto his fancy covers.
âThatâs it, baby, sâgood. Taking this dick like itâs made for you.â He huffs, fucking you harder now, faster, making you shudder as he slips his hand between you both, pressing a thumb against your clit, making you cum so hard all you see is stars, glittery fucking darkness.
Is this what youâve been missing!?
âL-love youâŠ. L-love - ah!â Youâre brokenly confessing as he lifts a thigh, pressing it high, yanking your hips down more on his length, fucking you harder and harder with every thrust.
âYouâre m-mine now, baby. All - f-fuck- mine, to fuck whenever I want, however I want. Got me baby?â He whispers, losing it over you, youâre so perfect, so wet, so pretty under him, heâs imagining every position he wants you in, every place he wants to fuck you in, how he wants to cum in your perfect little cunt, fill you. âAnswer me baby, answer me.â
His voice is whiny, pleading, youâre barely able to take a breath or function, damn near falling off the earth, clinging to his perfect skin for any stability, as he starts to pound mercilessly into your pussy. Sweat drips down his nose onto one of your breasts, which he squishes with his hand, pinching your nipple and twisting as he fucks so hard it hurts.
âToo much, too much.â You manage, and he smiles now, that cocky Satoru youâve known your whole life, leaning down and rolling his hips just so, grinding that leaky tip against your cervix, pushing you to cum again, this time youâre drooling, mouth wide open.
âAw youâre sâcute like this⊠look at you. Drooling. Dumb fucked out look.â You canât even be mad, you want him to keep going, so you whine, nodding just a bit, earning his grin. âAnd you like it, being so slutty just for me. Only me.â
âY-you.â Is all you manage, but itâs enough to send him over the fucking edge, pressing your thighs up high, smushing your breasts, now heâs so deep you feel him everywhere, your stomach, your entire body, heâs moaning as he watches your tummy bulge between your thighs.
âFeel me, everywhere, fucking up your guts⊠huh?â You just weakly nod, whining as youâre so embarrassingly wet, you hear every slutty sound of his cock wrecking you. âMade fâme, s-say it again.â
âMade for ah- y-you! Satoru!â Heâs groaning, leaning his heavy weight on you, pelvis smacking hard as he stuffs you so full, too fucking full, and now heâs cupping your face, insane swirling blue eyes drinking you in.
âAnyone fill you yet, baby?â You shake your head, and he grins even more psychotically. âGood, Imma fill you up, gonna be d-dripping me for days.â
âC-cum in me, cum in me. D-do it, please.â You beg, you donât fucking care, you want it, you need it. His hips stutter, mouth dropped open as his cock thrusts harder and harder in your now sloppy pussy, so wet and needy sheâs sucking him up.
âCum in you? F-fill you baby?â Heâs so sweet now, a psychotic contradiction that you donât think youâll ever get enough of. âPut a baby in you?â
âBaby!? I⊠fuck it⊠yes! Put one in me, please.â Youâre pathetic for him, and he relishes in it, starting to thicken, as your cunt milks him.
âGonna breed you, f-fuck you feel so- ah - gonna breed your pussy, every fucking day, got me? Say yes baby.â
âY-yes, pleaseâŠâ He whimpers then, Satoru Gojo, all star, prom king, the strongest man you know, whimpers as he begins to cum inside you so deep, coating your walls with his hot white ropes. You cum just from that, clinging to him, he slams his lips on yours over and over in messy kisses.
âNever felt this, oh my god⊠your pussy what the⊠yes baby take it all⊠f-fuck pleaseâŠâ Heâs whining as he pushes his cum deeper inside you, stuffing you so full, still pressing you up, folding you. Youâre sobbing now, overwhelmed, pussy so sore but sheâs milking him more, even as heâs dripping down his cock and your ass, mixed with your glistening cum.
Heâs exhaling now, easing your thighs down, kissing you deeply, over and over, youâre clinging to him, trembling legs so sore, still full of him. He leans up and takes a deep breath, looking at you with those endless blue eyes, eyes that you adore, that face you adore. You get choked up now, tears falling, tears that he gently wipes, like he wasnât just pounding your cunt.
Heâs looking at how beautiful you are under him, the girl heâs loved for as long as heâs even known, tears glittering pretty on your cheeks. âYouâre pretty crying, yâknow that?â
âSadistic ass. Thatâs why you threw the snowballs.â He smiles down at you, so handsome your heart aches.
âYouâre mine now. Mine forever.â His words should be crazy, but as you look at the little charm glittering in the night, cupping his face, his words arenât crazy at all.
âI want to be yours forever. Satoru, I have for so long. Iâve been so scared when you leaveâŠâ
âYouâre coming with me. Yeah? Basketball wife?â He says with a grin, and you nod then, through your tears, through your smile, a myriad of emotions.
When heâs cleaned you up, and itâs slowly falling snow outside, Satoru has you in his lap once more, his Santa hat on, as you sip cocoa. âAre there more stories I need to know about, Santa Toru?â You ask teasingly, lapping a little whipped cream from your steaming hot mug.
âThere is the time I saw you in the girls locker room.â
You glare. âWhat now!?â
âOn accident!â
âOh this better be good.â You snatch his cocoa up with a scowl.
âDonât take my cocoa baby, youâll get on the naughty list.â He says with a glare, and youâre glaring right back.
âOh, Iâm so scared Santa!â He bends you over the chair now, slipping his hand up under the dress shirt of his youâre wearing, with nothing else. You gasp when his hand smacks your ass cheek, making you jolt, desire pooling in your tummy all over again, when he leans forward over you.
âMerry Christmas. Itâs midnight.â He says, you peek at that watch, as he smacks your other ass cheek, and youâre moaning, head falling back. âLooks like youâre not gonna be able to sit for Christmas dinner.â
And that was the final time Satoru tried to tell you his feelings, and this time it worked, and you felt the same the entire time <3
I hope you all enjoyed the cuteness and idiots in love, it was a request for a 5+1 that FLEW off the handle. Ty for readingggg
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More poly!141 please and thank you my dear đ„°đ€
Anon is banished to the timeout corner to ponder on their grievances
That trope of roommates reader x poly 141âŠ
Imagine you are Desperate with a capital D. Things arenât lookinh bright for you, broke and stressed college student, right now in general, you need a new place quickly, and as it happens, you see an all-too-good offer while apartment searching on Craigslist. Rent is within your budget and god, the place looks really good, butâŠ
Youâll have to share with four men. Four polyamorous men apparently, but still- men. More than one. That alone shouldâve made you give up on it, not even think about considering it. Itâs dangerous, incredibly so. No one within their right mind would agree to it, especially when you read that they are asking for someone who is willing to take up a good bulk of taking care of the place while they travel.
Itâs clearly a scam. A front to a dangerous group.
But the apartment is even better when you actually, stupidly, agree to it. The (military, you learn soon enough) men so very handsome, helping you move in your stuff- the way Price commanded them actually made your knees tremble just a little, but you are not about to get between anyoneâs relationship(s).
Moreover; you really like them. Soap is funny but heâs also the one who tries to stay up with you during your late exam studies. Keyword tries because he falls asleep anyways, head lolling on your shoulder only to end up getting carried by Ghost later.
Gaz is also funny, and he often forces you to go out when you hole up yourself for long lengths of time, get some fresh air on a walk that almost always leads to him treating you to coffee and sandwiches in the little corner bakery. Also the only one to share your love for horror movies so heâs your designated partner for whenever you wanna go to the cinemas.
Ghost and Price are your unofficial guard dogs. Grocery shopping? One or both of them tags along, carrying everything without letting you touch a single thing-
âWhat kind of man would let a lady carry groceries? Iâm not weak, sweetheart. Let go of that bag, just see what else weâll need.â
Ghost just stares straight down at you; no balaclava, but a black surgical mask and his hood drawn up. âDonât even think about it.â
-and they are both bulky. They donât even have to try to appear intimidating, everyone almost subconsciously makes way for them. Never in your entire life have you had easier shopping trips. And youâve lost count of the amount of times youâve stirred awake to find yourself carried to your bed after accidentally falling asleep on the couch.
They were not lying about the lengths of time they are gone, and you understand why they had put in that ad that landed you here in the first place. Once, they were away for months, and they have no contact with you. You always worry for them, regularly checking for any possible texts and sending them updates even when no reply comes.
(You have no ideaaa they have you saved as âlil missusâ, âwifeyâ, âthe madameâ, âdarlinâ in their phones. Or how much they cling to your texts even when they canât reply yet. You donât suspect shit, but the longer the mission drags on, the more resolved they are to just come home to you as soon as possible.
The second John checks his phone and sees your text about getting stood up on a date, his jaw clenches so tightly that Soap glances over, immediately concerned. The others quickly catch on, a tension settling over the group as he reads the message aloud.
Got stood up on that date lol
Guess its just me nd a frozen pizza tonight đ€·ââïž yes ik u hate frozen foods but ur not here sooo
If he wasnât so incredibly angered by the thought of you going on a date that is not with them, getting stood up, he would have focused on your little disobedience. Would have thought of making you repeat why he hates having them in the flat while you sniffle and whine, the result of him taking his palm to your ass a few dozen times for doing this behind his back, but he canât focus on that now.
âLetâs finish this and get home,â He hisses out at last, pocketing his phone. âMissus needs a reminder who she belongs to.â
All he gets, unsurprisingly, is approving nods.)
Back in the flat, you sneeze. How strange; you had just recently finished dusting, and everything should be clean.
Itâs probably nothing.
a bit more
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jungkook fic recs! đ part 3
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starry night (m) | jjk - @kithtaehyung (all you wanted to do was take your boyfriend on a super late date.)
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Millisecond - @kookiepleasee (Jungkook just canât get enough of you, but is too afraid to make a move, so he just admires you from afar, every day.)
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Home: risky birthday đ - @bonny-kookoo (In which you really don't know how he talked you into this.)
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just a little... | jjk drabble - @soft4gguk
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"big tiddie anime bitches" | jjk - @h0neypjm (Jungkook, bless his heart, has an obsession. An obsession with big titty anime girls and the idea of you dressed as them. His birthday is coming up, what better time to fulfil his weeb fantasies than on Jungkook's special day.)
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WARM NIGHTS & CLEAR LINES â JJK (m.) - @awrkive (there haven't been a lot of people who have come into your life that became important to you â and you didnât expect jeon jungkook to be one if it â not at all. but what started as a casual relationship turned into more than that, and now you find yourself deeply in love with him â and happily so. or; your first "i love you" comes out completely wrong.)
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( ì ì ê” ) . . . BURNING HOUR jeon jungkook - @jungqkook (thereâs nothing better than spending an entire day at your boyfriendâs yatch, tanning and waiting for the sunset with a drink in your hand⊠too bad your boyfriend had other plans for you.)
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fill with fire, exhale desire, m | jjk - @whatifyoulivelikethat (He smokes cigarettes. You hate it. You always have a lighter in your pocket. He is pissed off because it isn't for him, you say. So much is said, but the truth is in the silence.)
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RAINY DAYS | JEON JUNGKOOK - PART ONE - @rklve (your life choices left not only yours, but jungkook's heart broken in peaces. now you're back in town, and just like pluto, even if it's cold and dark, he tends to orbit around his sun forever.)
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Devoted to Trouble - @jeonsweetpea (In which the whole world finds out Jungkook is Spider-Man, but he doesnât care about anything but you. OR Can you survive seven days of Jungkook pining over you while his identity is exposed to the world?)
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whipped - JJK - @aquagustd (another day, another trend that youâre forced to participate in with your boyfriend. It was his idea but he somehow gets sidetracked, with his head between your thighs.)
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campus affairs | jeon jungkook - @kooktrash (you transferred to a new college during second semester and you didnât expect much excitement out for. thatâs until jungkook came along and what had struggled to be a friendship was becoming so much more.)
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[10:29pm] | jeon jungkook - @kookssin (established!relationship, smut, mirror sex)
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Fall Back in Love | jjk - @bukguhope (jungkook somehow grew a reputation of sleeping around on campus, leaving him lonely and inexperienced with relationships. so when you, his old childhood best friend moves onto campus, he discovers what a relationship can feel like as he finds himself falling in love with you)
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đđĄđ«đąđŹđđŠđđŹ đ€đąđŹđŹđđŹ: - @euphoricfilter (itâs not often your boyfriend calls you with a cryptic message to come over; especially when heâs meant to be at his parentsâ place for the holidays.)
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fast forward - JJK - @aquagustd (If every single person you knew was against you, it wouldnât matter, doesnât matter because Jungkook would be there for you. Thatâs why you donât question his words when he repeats âIâll be backâ one disconcerting morning, and you respond with âI know. I trust you.â Heâll make you eat your words.)
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paired & puppy-eyed | jjk - @yoon-kooks (When Jeon Jungkook agrees to be your partner for a class project, he doesnât realize what that might escalate to until you show up at his door in a teeny-tiny crop top and cling to his tattooed arm like his naughty little kitten.)
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risqué ; timestamp #15 - @mercurygguk
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LOVE ME | JJK - @wnderkoo (I guess I'm just a sucker for love.)
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CRIMINAL ! ... halloween special - @voyter (your boyfriend ends up loving your costume idea for the two of you more than he initially lets on.)
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đđĄđđŠđ©đđ đ§đ đđšđ§đđđđđą - @pennyellee (You, a determined fashion designer, find yourself entangled in a collaboration with the irresistibly charming and egotistic heartthrob, Jeon Jungkook. Will this partnership remain strictly professional, or will he make the lines blur?)
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grumpy!jk - @awrkive (jungkook is usually a nice guy from the way he interacts with other people â but the only exception comes to you. and you can't figure out why.)
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MOTHERFUCKINâ TRAIN WRECK! â ì ê” - @lovieku (when renowned fuckboy jeon jeongguk catches feelings, he loses his mind. only when it comes to you, though.)
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CRAZY | JJK (Part 1) - @girlygguk (you know it sounds twisted. that most people would see hyungwon as the perfect boyfriend. healthy, balanced, all the things that relationships should be. thatâs when you realized... you weren't like most people. but that's okay. because neither is jungkook.)
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metro inhabitant!Jungkook x survivor!female reader - @runariya
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Closer To You - JJK (18+) - @back2bluesidex (You know that you and Jeongguk are completely different individuals from every possible aspect, and there is no future of this relationship but you canât push him away, not when he only wants to come closer to you.)
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next door - jjk - @sugaimhome (Jungkook is obsessed with you. All because of some badly designed architecture and house planning, heâd do anything for you, and when he sees you struggling to orgasm, he takes matters into his own hands... or camera.)
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PRESSED IN THE STEAM - @97kuu (There is only so much he can handle visually of your wet, hot and exposed body in an a private onsen before his member starts craving more than simple touches and thrusts between your thighs.)
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I still have a lot to look into on this but I heard that some universities have been or are planning to ban âstudy drugsâ and Iâm so pissed. Sure, Iâm not sure if Iâll ever really get the chance to go to one, but even if I donât, thatâs still basically just banning a majority of medicated people with adhd, and possibly other issues. That is medical discrimination and Iâm so pissed about it. This is what happens when the medications that many of us need to be functional are stigmatized and âabusedâ I have trouble remembering to do my own dishes without meds, and they expect people like me to go through college like that? Or, more likely in my opinion, do they just not want those âdisabled drug addictsâ in their fancy schools?
#emma posts#just a short rant to get this out of my system#if the university Iâve been wanting to one day attend does this Iâll be even more mad#at the moment though Iâm not really in a position to do college#and I hate it so much#because I really did love learning during the semester I tried#but my health deteriorated and Iâm now in a place financially and location wise where Iâm not sure I could attend without completely#uprooting my life. and getting here was hard enough!#i miss it though. learning from professors and physically attending lectures#I feel like without my degree and with my health getting worse that#I fell behind my peers#and now Iâm 26 and my art hasnât advanced as much as Iâd hoped it would#and my friends are getting jobs and having kids and i only moved into an apartment last year
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