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I! Fucking! Hate! Uni!
#we’re a week in and I’m already done. I’m so tired#thank god I’m taking next semester off. Work sucks too but at least it doesn’t have homework#I really gotta look into getting a therapist again. maybe to work on getting whatever the fucking is going on with me diagnosed#but also just so I can at least try to work on the sort of. all consuming hopelessness that comes with being a college student#it just sucks. Like I didn’t feel great during the summer either but at least I had my best friend and the sun and some free time#now it’s. fuck all. all day every day is school#my room is a mess. I don’t have the time or energy to clean it#im lonely bc im always lonely#legit the only thing getting me through rn is my gf hyperfixation and that’s not gonna last forever#thinking about ford 24/7 can only be effective for so long before the bad thoughts start creeping back in#it just sucks. I hate being depressed. I hate that I can’t tell if it’s all school’s fault either. Am I just gonna be like this forever?#fuck this stupid baka life or whatever
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one of the things that's the most fucking frustrating for me about arguing with climate change deniers is the sheer fucking scope of how much it matters. sweating in my father's car, thinking about how it's the "hottest summer so far," every summer. and there's this deep, roiling rage that comes over me, every time.
the stakes are wrong, is the thing. that's part of what makes it not an actual debate: the other side isn't coming to the table with anything to fucking lose.
like okay. i am obviously pro gun control. but there is a basic human part of me that can understand and empathize with someone who says, "i'm worried that would lead to the law-abiding citizens being punished while criminals now essentially have a superpower." i don't agree, but i can tell the stakes for them are also very high.
but let's say the science is wrong and i'm wrong and the visible reality is wrong and every climate disaster refugee is wrong. let's say you're right, humans aren't causing it or it's not happening or whatever else. let's just say that, for fun.
so we spend hundreds of millions of dollars making the earth cleaner, and then it turns out we didn't need to do that. oops! we cleaned the earth. our children grow up with skies full of more butterflies and bees. lawns are taken over with rich local biodiversity. we don't cry over our electric bills anymore. and, if you're staunchly capitalist and i need to speak ROI with you - we've created so many jobs in developing sectors and we have exciting new investment opportunities.
i am reminded of kodak, and how they did not make "the switch" to digital photography; how within 20 years kodak was no longer a household brand. do we, as a nation, feel comfortable watching as the world makes "the switch" while we ride the laurels of oil? this boggles me. i have heard so much propaganda about how america cannot "fall behind" other countries, but in this crucial sector - the one that could actually influence our own monopolies - suddenly we turn the other cheek. but maybe you're right! maybe it will collapse like just another silicone valley dream. but isn't that the crux of capitalism? that some economies will peter out eventually?
but let's say you're right, and i'm wrong, and we stopped fracking for no good reason. that they re-seed quarries. that we tear down unused corporate-owned buildings or at least repurpose them for communities. that we make an effort, and that effort doesn't really help. what happens then? what are the stakes. what have we lost, and what have we gained?
sometimes we take our cars through a car wash and then later, it rains. "oh," we laugh to ourselves. we gripe about it over coffee with our coworkers. what a shame! but we are also aware: the car is cleaner. is that what you are worried about? that you'll make the effort but things will resolve naturally? that it will just be "a waste"?
and what i'm right. what if we're already seeing people lose their houses and their lives. what if it is happening everywhere, not just in coastal towns or equatorial countries you don't care about. what if i'm right and you're wrong but you're yelling and rich and powerful. so we ignore all of the bellwethers and all of the indicators and all of the sirens. what if we say - well, if it happens, it's fate.
nevermind. you wouldn't even wear a mask, anyway. i know what happens when you see disaster. you think the disaster will flinch if you just shout louder. that you can toss enough lives into the storm for the storm to recognize your sacrifice and balk. you argue because it feels good to stand up against "the liberals" even when the situation should not be political. you are busy crying for jesus with a bullhorn while i am trying to usher people into a shelter. you've already locked the doors, even on the church.
the stakes are skewed. you think this is some intellectual "debate" to win, some funny banter. you fuel up your huge unmuddied truck and say suck it to every citizen of that shitbird state california. serves them right for voting blue!
and the rest of us are terrified of the entire fucking environment collapsing.
#spilled ink#writeblr#i hope it is clear here that i actually very much care about equatorial countries#and that's part of what makes me so angry bc im like. climate refugees exist.#they've existed for a while!!!#and the reply is almost always ''should have thought about that before living on an island"#like fuck dude. do you need to like how people vote before ur like#your entire house shouldn't burn down each summer????#so many of these people make it their life to mock california that they think it's FUNNY#and im like. girl you should be fucking trembling. TEXAS??? ARE YOU LISTENING??#this is one of those times that like. i need to stress how fucking stupid it would be#to let trump win. bc he could have “reached across the aisle.” covid could have been#a MASSIVE commercial success. he has such a huge and bigoted and brainwashed following.#literally just a PR campaign called COWBOY UP and it's pictures of cowboys in bandanas#trump reinvisioned as the lone ranger fighting for the american people against covid. EASY SELL#and instead. companies bought him. it became political. it was not ''oh shit this is 1 enemy let's all be human''#it was ''you deserve to die.''#climate change should be GLOBAL. it should be like ''yeah i hate u but. we do all live here''#i don't have to LIKE my group members to do well on a team project bc we are ALL getting graded.#is that simple enough of an under-explaination lol
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sometimes i wish i was one of those artist that make people go "this is a PAINTING???" or "with WHAT programm/medium???" but its just not what i can do or find fun :/
#ganondoodles talks#personal#not really for the attention thing but more for .. work being recognized?#im not sure#to feel more like people actually stop and look at sth instead of skipping over it?#maybe its jsut an internet phenomena(?)#like the way everything is just consumed within seconds and never lasts long and if you miss the trend you are irrelevant#the sort of weird pressure to have to subvert expectations or be exceptionally exceptional just to be recognized ?#(which i know isnt always a good thing lol)#also this isnt a complaint per se more like a thought#like i sometimes wish i was into the popular characters instead of the niche ones etc#that kind of thing#also like i wish i could make art that really speaks to people .. like those that are just so .. interesting and strange and poetic#bc (while i know fanart and silly oc projects arent worhtless) those feel more worthwhile? more worth really being called art?#for soemthing to be truly art it should be either exceptionally skilled or profound like the greatest poets?#im just doing whatever my brain allows me to do- which i know is fine#but i also dont think its inherently wrong to wish for being more than that sometimes#(... maybe its mostly just loneliness without knowing how to find friends)#(especially where i am and especially as i just want a friend to live with - not a partner... i dont want to be this alone forever ...)#(actually ....... what if all my art self consciousness comes from wanting to feel less lonely .. oh dear- no time to unpack that omg)
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thinking about Bodkin again bc I mean,,, ALL THE SYMBOLISM OHHHHHGH. i NEED some tumblr film analysis hobbyists to watch this show and tell me all the themes n such
#yes I’m making all these posts in a row#it’s bc I’m obsessed atm#mypost#Bodkin#bodkin netflix#PLEASSEEEEE#WHY DID THE PAPER MACHE HEAD LOOK LIKE GILBERT#CAN WE HAVE AN IN-DEPTH CONVERSATION ABOUT EVERYTHING ABOUT GILBERT BEING FORCED TO SWALLOW/CHOKE ON HIS WORDS (recorder) BUT THAT SOUND—HIS#STORY (HIS pov. however ‘abstract’ and detatched from consequence it may have been) BEING WHAT CATCHES EMMY AND DOVEs ATTENTION TO SAVE HIM#. LIKE#OUGHHHHHWJEHQIHSJSBWJXNAJSNNQJZNWHXJWHXJEBXNDUSBJS#AND THE WOLF IMAGERY PLS SOMEONE TELL ME ABOUT THAT#IS THERE MORE THAN THE SURFACE? what do I not understand? as im writing this out am thinking: ok its cause dove is a lone wolf#WAITTTT WAIT OMFG AND when she remembers that her mom told her to howl when she was lost… bc wolves actually have family and I’m p sure the#lone wolf thing is a myth… after she realizes that she’s not alone and she can choose to interact#GOD GRAHHHHH IM GOING CRAZY OVER THIS SHOW#other things I’m thinking abt (will maybe make a post abt?)#OUGH YEAH OK dove symbolism: wolf/lone wolf. sunglasses/shielding herself (OUGH AND SHE PICKS UP THAT XTRA LAYER OF DEFENCE WHEN SHE COMES#BACK TO HOMELAND/familiar space… bc she’s vulnerable to her past here…. hrahhh#. also LMFAO when she calls the sheriff a piggy#hrmmmmm aughhh I want to dissect Gilbert and Seamus’s friendship oughhh#ok wait even more on Dove: I want to dig into when she calls Emmy Emmy vs Sizargd (will have to look up the spelling whoops) —was it always#blatant manipulation? how much of it is a reflection of what she is? hrmmmm there’s so much there I think#another Q: why did Emmy call the tech guy Shitpants again at the end? ik there were the stakes I just wanna dig into her character more. why#would she say the shitpants thing instead of manipulating him in other ways? (not saying her was was unreasonable at all lol-j wanna dig#into her character.#OH prob something abt the whole ‘her needing to release her anger’ thing? idk ahh I want to analyze her more
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Okay but fr Lonely Is The Muse is one of her best songs, at least lyrically. There's so much meaning and IT'S JUST SO FUCKIN GOOD AAAAHHHHH
#halsey#h5#lonely is the muse#i can always reassemble to fit perfectly for you#when you're done you can discard me just like the others do#where do i go in the process when im just an apparatus#i gotta make a post just for the lyrics bc DAMN GIRL#but also her vocals are fuckin gorgeous as usual#they fuckin killed it
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also slowly turning around in my brain how rose said she was going to stay with the doctor forever, and then later donna says the same thing (to martha!! the doctor doesnt even hear or know!!! it would make him so happy but hurt him so much if he did!!!!!!), and then when she tells the doctor shes going home in sontaran stratagem he immediately assumes it means shes leaving him for good and accepts it but also launches into all the things he still wanted to show her.
and i know its played for a joke like haha silly martian thats not what i meant! but this is the same man who, when he needed to turn human, loved someone SO DEEP AND HARD that he didnt think he'd ever fall in love again. ever. even with his memory erased. so when you take that moment of "oh you're just popping home for a visit" and like ACTUALLY look at it you're like. this man gets so so so attached to people, and is so incredibly scarred by losing these people he loves that he has no choice but to let them go when they want to leave on good terms, because he knows how bad it could get for them if they stay, no matter how much he wants them to stay.
anyway donna's forever and rose's forever are just different flavors of the same "i need you as much as you need me, so im in it for the long haul, bad stuff included" and its chefs kiss
#doctor who#dw#nuwho#donna noble#rose tyler#tenth doctor#by me#dont skip nine#i just. i have so many thoughts about donna i cant even get them all down#ill probably need another post about this#but i just LOVE how much she takes those classic Rose Things and turns them on their heads#donna travels with the doctor bc she has nothing else just like rose did#but while rose traveled so he wouldnt be lonely and through that company he learned to be humane#donna travels with him to keep him humane and through that company he starts to heal from his grief of being lonely#if that makes sense#when rose was there he always did things for HER and it was so dangerous for both of them and scarred them more than it could have#and now with donna its like nah man do it for THEM. you cant live for your companions. you gotta live for you and the people you save#ok i think im done now
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YAY thanks for voting everyone!! purple was the top guess, followed by red!! im glad my voli/echem/empathy/shivers reputation precedes me!! (/genuine) :D <33
to the one person who voted orange, CONGRATS YOU DID IT HDKJG!! (truthfully, my blog, aesthetics and sona are all purple because i based this account off of volition :] i've grown to love purple (and red!) a lot by association, but my absolute favorite has always been orange :3!! <33)
#there was genuinely no way for anyone to know this so don't worry hkjgkj i keep a lot of my life under wraps bc i love being an enigma hgkjg#personally i think the results are 1) really funny 2) very endearing <333 im glad im purple coded to everyone!! <333#i like all the colors otherwise!! its just orange is my favorite <33 i love its vibrant warmth. the joy of yellow and love of red!!#a bit of a lonely color. not often a popular choice <33 its the color of the words ''beloved'' and ''darling'' to me :3#always love me some warm colors <33 but ive grown very fond of lavender from volition+empathy association hkjgf <33#and if im associated with purple/lavender/lilac because of it i am UTTERLY DELIGHTED FOR IT <3333!!!#voliart#anyhow goodnight all!! i love you!!!
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きみとそらをとぶ / feat. 初音ミク & 巡音ルカ
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Y'all... why does this give me intense nostalgia for a time I know I can never get back to?
Like... That's THE Pokémon song! The one you hear at the end of your journey. The one that makes you wanna go back to your mom and show her your Pokémon badges.
I really do love Pokémon lol. I love the games even though I hate battling. I'm actually in the process of trying to complete my Pokedex in Let's Go! Eevee, before I build my dream team for the Elite Four. I love my Eevee, I named her after my cat (as you do).
Idk... I'm tired, and in pain, and in my feelings about this song.
#Vocaloid has been with me forever#idk#i think im just having a depressive episode#i remember the Kagamine vs Hatsune fan war! it was pretty friendly iirc#i remember when there was only the 6 main vocaloid and how exciting it was to get MORE!!!#amd the fanloids! Yowana Haku and Akita Neru who were originally just Wrong Miku!#playing Pokemon Diamond for the first time#and then Platinum and then Black!#and playing Pokemon Stadium with my cousin and making 100 stupid Miis juat because we could#playing Yu-Gi-Oh Duelist of the Roses and having to hide from Seto Kaiba bc he was obsessed with me (wtf? 🤣)#the knowledge that life is fleeting and everything we love having to grow old#and the loss of those we thought we'd have forever bc we're kids and we just didn't know#and how when you're older and lonely... all you have are memories to keep you warm#and your beloved cat lol#ya wanna hear something funny?#i was praying for more hours and now that i got em. i dont want em! wtf!?!#to be fair though#I'll get $420 for one week so I guess it ain't too bad#im always afraid#im afraid that everyone hates me and just puts up with me bc they cant fire me for no reason#and im afraid to ask my professor for a reference bc im afraid he hates me#vocaloid#hatsune miku#pokemon#project voltage#miku#Youtube
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everyday i wake up and i think about carlos reyes anc his relationship with his sexuality and his parents. what do you mean he came out to them when he was 17 and he's still waiting for them to say something? what do you mean he's still waiting?? what do you mean his father didn't want him to be a cop because he thought carlos was too soft? what do you mean he came out at 17, scared and nervous, and they smiled and told him it was okay only to turn around and spend the next, what, decade?, never talking about it?????
#it like kills me actually#and i see that a lot of people tag fics about carlos and his parents as 'unreliable narrator bc carlos believes things about his parents#that arent necessarily true' and like yeah they might not be true objectively but they were true for carlos for most of his adult life#like yeah his parents were always okay with him being gay but he didn't know that#it didn't feel that way to him. that wasn't his lived experience!!!!#if my dad came to me tmrw and told me that he does love me and he is proud of me and he does like me and that the past 14 years were#just thoughts i made up in my head or whatever#does that make my lived experience of never being enough for my father not real? does that make the hurt i felt any less real?#does me being wrong about how my father feels stop the last decade and a half from aching less?#sorry that got personal real quick#um anyway#im only on season 3 and if they talk it out please let me know!!!!#carlos reyes#911 lone star
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i cant fully control my emotions during a breakdown and then i come out of it and im like oh fuck........ ._.
#bpd#like i dont mean to hurt anyone else with having my breakdown on my vent blog on tumblr...#like the stuff i say isnt aimed at anyone in particular#and it's abt MY feelings which are so confusing i get a headache#my thoughts is my enemy and im such a broken and confused little girl inside fr T-T#but like yeah im sorry for upsetting ppl???#but really i feel so suffocated bc im constantly terrified of saying smth that will upset this or that person#or reblogging the wrong thing and making someone im attached to hate me#like idk.... genuinely my blog is supposed to be a vessel? a tool? smth for me to be able to put my emotions and thoughts down#and try to make sense of them. even when i cant. it really only concerns me. i dont mean to attack or hurt anyone else :/#but i mean i really shouldnt and i shouldve learned this lesson so long ago....#being confused and broken and mentally ill and not knowing or understanding things and being messy and#saying the wrong things or phrasing it incorrectly or anything like that#or like sometimes i have one thought tied to a certain emotion but it's only there in that moment#like when i feel so lonely i could die.. yes i do have kidnapping fantasies. bc i dont.: whatever i dont owe anyone a psychoanalys of mysel#but that doesnt mean i want want to be kidnapped by a stranger who doesnt care abt me... i know that would be awful and traumatizing and no#what i *want*. bc what i desire is love#but like i feel so much pain and just venting abt it or reblogging a post helps me solidify my overwhelming emotions#idk what to say like..... ☹️☹️☹️☹️#i cant even fucking blog or do tumblr right im worthless. and yeah i know i have a victim complex.. sorry 🥲#hmmm. yeah idk what to say like when i have breakdowns i have to get myself thru them without any support#and i dont mean that to attack anyone else.: we're all alone i know.#but idk how to deal w it so i just type it out. its not to attack anyone else its to try to make sense of my emptions i dont understand ☹️#anyway.. maybe i should just accept that im too fucked up and too contradictory for anyone to actually like me#there will always be smth that will make everyone not like me anymore. thats that.#thank u for the time u do give me tho i always appreciate thay#and im sorry i really truly dont want to hurt anyone else#i just dont have .. idk it doesnt matter im sorry for what its worth and if anyone even reads this#i hope not bc i dont want anyone to perceive me and stuff like i dont wanna exist to anyone#and im not on tumblr or post stuff for attention. im just in pain and have nowehrre to put it. im sorry if im lashinf out and hurting other
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pls i need to provide updates
#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year#and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire#and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f#friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl#acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what#are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and#friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after#everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to#invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me#i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother#and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids#so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo#any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd#and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk#THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date#w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a#few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay#scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK#like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl#like is that even doable#but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much#.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us#god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x#but it would be soooo funny#I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed#popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x#i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like#its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe
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Berry stop posting during school challenge
Martin Blackwood I love you. Decided to draw my design for him post-lonely because it makes me insane. Basically season 5 design. I’m very happy with it I love making characters look cool and unique. Mans has been through it the least I can do is make him look more swag.
#martin tma#tma#the magnus archives#the magnus archives fanart#minor tma spoilers#lonely martin#hes so me fr#honestly the only reason he has a sick blue eye is bc im indecisive#woe heterochromia be upon ye#i like to think he always has a bit of fog around but it grows when he’s especially lonely#digital art#art#fanart
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Not to be emo but do you ever think that no one will ever truly understand you the way that you understand yourself despite being open and honest like getting close to people just feels pointless bc they'll never get you esjejfjdkskekgjfjdidjgjfjejdjgfj
#im just sad bc i feel like im constantly disappointing people irl#and there's always this disconnect from people no matter how close i get to someone#and its so frustrating and lonely sometimes
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#seriously the like. not having money and not having a therapist and not having a job and feeling terrible unpredictably#and not having friends or family here and not having any reason to leave the house. and being so reliant on weed to function bc it's#the only medication i have access to for my pain and depression/anxiety that works#has made my tolerance SO high (i had 300mg earlier and it's barely anything. i'm still in bed in pain)#is getting so so so expensive. it makes me so scared. when i go without it it's essentially the same as being unmedicated#i wish health care moved any bit faster. and i wish i had a psychiatrist bc my pcp doesn't wanna prescribe more than zoloft#and it's helpful at keeping me from crying all the time but it doesn't give me any other benefit really so i just feel :x always#i feel like time is pressing down on me like a bug being stepped on and i don't have anywhere to run#and i feel frustrated because im being held in place by pain/illness/fatigue/etc that i'm struggling so hard to get help for#but no one can see any of the things that are holding me here. so they get mad at me and frustrated that i'm struggling so much#idk what to do. i feel like i'm going to alienate everyone i depend on because i can't contribute and can't get answers for them#ahhhhh i wish i had chronically ill friends lol i'm just so lonely all the time i feel less than human TBH
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At least the moon will keep him company in the dead of night
#micas art#twst#twisted wonderland#malleus draconia#a little bit of context for this:#this is based on my headcanon that malleus suffers from insomnia#there is something weirdly isolating and lonely about the night#when the world gets quiet and cold and dark and you feel like the only moving breathing thing in it#what could he do but wait for it to pass on his own?#its no ones burden to bear but his own and hes not some child who needs to be coddled to sleep#(but maybe. just maybe on the nights where it gets particularly bad he might crave a soft hand to gently comb through his hair)#(hes seem lilia do it countless times for silver when he was little. the memory always makes his bed feel a little bit colder)#also for anyone curious (and bc im unsure i drew it very well) the flower is a white chrysanthemum!#i definitely need to practice flowers more#but uwauuuuughkg this piece was so draining to work on. it gave me so much trouble and im still not completely sold on it#still hope it will resonate with people and that you can all enjoy it!!
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what kind of emotion(s) do u guys write from
#*・゚⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT.#i think abt tht post tht says siken writes w panic and mary oliver writes w hope n i was thinking abt#hiwatari's 'if a shadow is behind a circle then it's a sphere and if a shadow is in front of a circle then it becomes a hole'#obviously that can apply to dark + dai vs krad + sato as part of their dichotomy but its also applicable to both of them as individuals#if u include the manga bc of the way daisuke/dark's heart is. solemn and grandiose but vacant with nothing to satisfy anyone in it#everything they do or say comes from tht empty cathedral. a graveyard. the noble but desolate dust-filled underground of an opera house#i'm writing abt summer and winter but most importantly im writing abt love and light's echoes in a jet black space#i'm saying the reason dark and daisuke are always so grateful for others is because they're always so lonely#and emotionally if not socially malformed and outcast in their own ways#writing daisuke is anxiety and deep guilt on the surface with an undercurrent of pride and arrogance#writing dark is pride and arrogance on the surface with an undercurrent of anxiety and deep guilt#but anything and everything is sourced from that hollow and empty well. that 'nothing' that is a phantom thief's#restless and covetous heart#even within canon the things dark and daisuke both REALLY want- they lie to themselves lie to the audience about until they finally#either obtain or surmount it#well. anyways. sorry for tag essay#i had a lot of feelings and no place to put them 💀
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