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c1trvswurld · 10 days ago

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Wish I knew irl older transmasc bc im so nervous about medically transitioning. Bc yeah, on a technical level I *could* live like this for the rest of my life. Do I still fantasize and only imagine a future where I'm a man like 24/7 and I physically cannot imagine me as a woman? Yeah sure! But that doesn't mean I'm trans. And plus if I say fuck it and take hrt for too long it will have irreversible effects. So if I do turn out to be cis I might have very bad dysphoria from it.

But the very idea of being in a more masculine body is so comforting to me, to hear my voice drop, and to get hairier is such a fun idea.

But it also feels so bad/guilty when I like to wear bodycon dresses, and like my curvy figure, and like my tit's and sometimes like she/her used on me. So therefor I can't be trans right?

#egg cracking #ftm #transmasc #trans #ive always been sad that ive never had an obvious egg crack moment like other trans ppl #esp bc im nonbinary and bc of how my brain is wired my perception of gender is weird #like i keep seeing these joking forcemasc post just say “take T what will you lose”#but what if i lose a lot #scared ill do a major fuck up #and there's no one irl or even online who ubderstand the specifics of what im talking about #or i can relate to #feels lonely

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